"Vachss, Andrew - Blue Belle" - читать интересную книгу автора (Vachss Andrew) BLUE BELLE Andrew Vachss FOR
ABE, WHO I NEVER MET BUT
HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN. AND
FOR NATHAN, WHO I KNEW. TWO
PIECES OF THE ROOT. WATCHING
ME FROM SOMEPLACE ABOVE
THE JUNKYARD.
Spring comes hard
down here. The switchman was in
the lotus position - serenely posed on an army blanket he had neatly folded
into quarters before he assembled his tools and took up his post for the day. A
black man with glowing bronze skin, hair falling straight and glossy down
either side of his head like a helmet, framing a face that was mostly skull. He held a thick pad
of graph paper open on his lap, carefully filling a page with finely shaded
symbols - a covert calligraphy all his own. He didn't bother to hide his work
from passing citizens. His half-smile said it all - the simple slugs thought
him insane; they could never understand the difference between the messenger
and the message. A pale-blue quilt
covered his shoulders. He placed three identical blue china bowls on the
blanket around him. To his right, the bowl sported a generous supply of
fine-point felt-tip pens in different colors. The bowl on his left held a heavy
Zippo cigarette lighter and some loose cigarettes - various brands. Directly in
front was a bowl with some coins, encouraging the passing citizens to make a
contribution to his mystical cause. He had long tapering
fingers, clean and smooth, the nails manicured and covered with clear polish. I
got a good look at his hands yesterday when I stopped to look over his shoulder
and watch him work. He filled a quarter of the page with symbols, never using
the same one twice, working in five separate colors, not acknowledging my
presence. I helped myself to one of his cigarettes, lit it with his lighter. He
never moved. I tossed some coins into his china bowl and moved on, smoking his
cigarette. It tasted like it was about my age. I didn't need the
polished nails to tell me he was the switchman. The neighborhood is full of
halfway houses for discharged mental patient - they disgorge their cargo into
the streets each morning, but this guy wasn't part of that herd. He wasn't
talking to himself and he hadn't tried to tell me his story. And he didn't look
afraid. The little piece of
winter chill still hanging around in April didn't seem to bother him. He worked
the same post every day - starting around eleven in the morning and staying on
the job until about three. The switchman had a choice spot, always setting up
his shop at the edge of a tiny triangle of dirt on West Broadway, between Reade
and Chambers. The slab of dirt had a couple of broken backless benches and a
runty tree that had been bonsai’ed by years of attention from pigeons, dogs,
squirrels and winos. An alley without walls. Down in this part of the city,
they call it a park. At eleven, he would
still be in shadow, but the sun would make its move from the East River over to
the Hudson past noon, and things would warm up. The switch-man never took the
quilt from his shoulders. His patch of dirt was
a border town: Wall Street was expanding its way up from the tip of Manhattan,
on a collision course with the loft-dwelling yuppies from SoHo. Every square
inch of space was worth something to somebody - and more to somebody else a few
months later. The small factories were all being converted into coops. Even the
river was disappearing as land-greed took builders farther and farther
offshore; Battery Park City was spreading its branches into the void left when
they tore down the overpass for the West Side Highway. Riverfront joints
surrendered to nouvelle-cuisine bistros. The electronics stores that would sell
you what you needed to build your own ham radio or tap your neighbor's phone
gave way to sushi bars. Antique shops and storefront-sized art galleries shouldered
in next to places that would sell you some vitamins or rent you a videotape. People have always
lived down here. The neighborhood used to be a goddamned art colony – it
produced more pottery than the whole Navajo nation. The hippies and the artists
thought the winos added just the right touch of realism to their lives. But the
new occupants are the kind who get preorgasmic when you whisper
"investment banking," and they didn't much care for local color.
Locksmiths were riding the crest of a growth industry. The Superior Hotel
entrance was around the corner on Chambers Street, with rooms extending all
along West Broadway. Mine was on the top floor, facing out over the park.
Seventy-five bucks a week bought me a swaybacked single bed on an iron frame, a
ratty old easy chair worn down to the cotton padding on the arms, and a metal
closet standing against the wall. The room was painted in some neutral-colored
stuff that was about half disinfectant. A heavy length of vinyl-wrapped chain
stood against the wall, anchored at one end to U-bolts driven into the floor.
The other end stood open, padlocked to nothing, waiting patiently. I hadn't
gone for the optional TV at only two bucks a day. Someone who had never
lived in one might say the room looked like a prison cell. It didn't come
close. Almost one in the
afternoon. Into my third hour of watching, I shifted position in the chair,
scanning the street with the wide-angle binoculars, watching the human traffic
flow around the switchman. A young woman strolled by with her boyfriend. Her
hair was dyed four different colors, standing up in stiff spikes, stabbing the
air every time she moved her head. Her hand was in the back pocket of her
boyfriend's jeans. He looked straight ahead, not saying a word. A biker rolled
up to a tobacco-colored Mercedes parked at the corner. The car's window slid
down and the biker put his head and hands inside. He wasn't there long. The
Mercedes and the biker went their separate ways. A young woman about the same
age as the one with the spiked hair tapped her business-length heel impatiently
on the curb, holding a leather briefcase that doubled as a purse, wearing a
pinstriped skirt and jacket over a white blouse with a dark-red bow for a tie.
Winos stretched out in the sun, sprawled across the benches - passengers on a
cruise ship in permanent drydock. A diesel dyke cruised into view, her arm
braced around the neck of a slender, longhaired girl, her bicep flexed to
display a bold tattoo. I was too far away to read it, but I knew what it said:
hard to the core. Still no sign of the
target. I had followed him for three weeks straight, charting every step of his
lunchtime route. The calligrapher on the blanket had to be the switchman - it
was the only stop the target always made. I rotated my head gently on the
column of my neck, working out the stiffness, keeping my eyes on the street.
Invisible inside the shadows of my room, I lit another cigarette, cupping the
wooden match to hide the flare, and went back to waiting. It's what I do best. 2 I was working in a
dead-end hotel, but I'd gotten the job in the back seat of a limousine. The customer
was a Wall Street lawyer. He dressed the part to perfection, but he didn't have
enough mileage on his clock to make it seem like sitting in a
hundred-thousand-dollar taxi was an everyday thing for him. "It took quite a
while for you to get back to me, Mr. Burke," he said, trying for a tone
that would tell me he wasn't a man used to waiting for what he wanted. "I
reached out for you yesterday morning." I didn't say
anything. I'm not in the phone book. You have to have a phone of your own to
qualify for that. The lawyer had called one of the pay phones in the back of
Mama Wong's restaurant. Mama always answers the same way: "Mr. Burke not
here, okay? You leave message, okay?" If the caller says anything else,
asks more question - whatever - Mama just runs through the same cycle. She says
it enough times, the caller gets the message: If it's not okay with you,
it's too fucking bad. The lawyer tried
another ice-breaker. "My firm has a problem, Mr. Burke, and I was told you
might be the ideal individual to assist us." I shrugged my
shoulders slightly, telling him to get on with it. He wasn't in a hurry -that's
the problem with paying guys by the hour. "Is there any
particular reason why we had to meet out here?" he wanted to know,
gesturing toward the Hudson River with an impatient sweep of his hand. He had a
nice watch. Pretty cuff links. "Who gave you my
number?" I asked, stepping on his question. The lawyer swallowed
his annoyance, reminding himself he wasn't speaking with an equal. Time to put
me in my place. "Do I have to say anything more than 'Mr. C.'?" he
asked, smiling. "Yes," I
said. He looked honestly
puzzled. Since he was a lawyer, only part of that could be accurate. "I
thought that would be enough. I was given to understand that a recommendation
from Mr. C. would be all that you would require." "Give the
understanding back, pal. And tell me who gave you my number." "I told
you." "You saying Mr.
C. spoke to you?" I asked him, watching his face. "The number came
from him," he said, answering questions the way a lawyer does. "Have a nice
day," I said, reaching behind me for the door handle. "Wait a
minute!" he snapped, putting his hand on my sleeve. "You don't want
to do that," I told him. He jerked his hand
away, sliding into his speech. "I can explain whatever is necessary, Mr.
Burke. Please don't be impatient." He shifted position on the soft gray
leather seat, pushed a button, and watched proudly as the padded wall between
us and the driver opened to reveal a well-stocked bar. "Can I get you a drinj?" "No," I
told him, taking a single cigarette from my jacket. I put it in my mouth,
reached the same hand back inside for a match. I kept the other hand in my
pocket, where it had been since I climbed in the limo. The gesture was wasted
on him. "Would you mind
opening the window if you're going to smoke? . . . I’m allergic." I pushed the switch
and the window whispered down, letting in the traffic noise from the West Side
Highway. We were parked in the pocket between Vestry Street and where the highway
forks near 14th. Cars went by, but not people. The limo had picked me up on
Wall Street; I told the lawyer where I wanted to go, and he told the driver. I lit the cigarette,
inhaled deeply, watching the lawyer. "Those things
will kill you," he said. A concerned citizen. "No, they
won't," I promised. He shrugged, using
the gesture to say that some people are beyond educating. He was right, but not
about me. He tried one more time. "Mr. C. is a client of our firm. In the
course of discussing . . . uh . . . other matters, he indicated that you might
be better suited to our immediate purposes than a more . . . traditional
private investigator." He glanced at my face, waiting for a reaction. When
he realized he'd have a long time to wait, he shifted gears and rolled ahead.
"Mr. C. gave us certain . . . uh . . . assurances concerning your
sense of discretion, Mr. Burke." His tone of voice made it into a
question. I drew on my
cigarette. The breeze from the open window at my back pushed the smoke toward
his allergic face. The lawyer slid a
leather portfolio onto his lap, deftly opened it into a mini-desk, tapped a
yellow legal pad with the tip of a gold ballpoint to get my attention.
"Why don't I write a figure down, Mr. Burke. You take a quick look, tell
me if you're interested." Without waiting for an answer, he slowly wrote
"10,000" in large numbers. Reverently, like he was engraving a stone
tablet. He raised his eyebrows in another question. "For what?"
I asked him. "Our firm has a
. . . uh . . . confidentiality problem, Mr. Burke. We occupy a rather
unique position, interfacing, as we say, between the business, financial, and
legal arenas. Necessarily, information crosses our desk, so to speak.
Information that has a short but exceedingly valuable life. Are you following
me?" I nodded, but the
lawyer wasn't going to take my word for it. "You're certain?" "Yeah," I
replied, bored with this. Yuppies didn't invent insider trading - information
is always worth something to somebody. I was scamming along the tightrope
between prison and the emergency ward while this guy was still kissing ass to
get into law school. The lawyer stroked
his chin. Another gesture. Telling me he was making a decision. The decision
never had been his to make, and we both knew it. "Somebody in our
firm has been . . . profiting from information. Information that has come to us
in our fiduciary capacity. Are you following me?" I just nodded,
waiting. "We know who
this person is. And we've retained the very best professionals to look into the
matter for us. Specialists in industrial espionage. People who are capable of
checking things we wouldn't want to use a subpoena for. Still with me?" "Sure." "We know who it
is, like I said. But we have been unable to establish a case against him. We don't
know how he moves the information. And we don't know to whom he passes
it." "You checked his
bank accounts, opened his mail, tapped his phones . . . all that, right?" Now it was the
lawyer's turn to nod, moving his head a reluctant two inches. "Telegrams,
visitors to the office, carrier pigeons . . . ?" He nodded again,
unsmiling. "How much time
would he have between getting the information and making use of it?" "Ah, you do
understand, Mr. Burke. That's exactly the problem. We deal with extremely sensitive
issues. Nothing on paper. In a normal insider-trading situation, a profiteer
would have a minimum of several days to make his move. But in our situation, he
would have to act within a few hours - no longer than close of business on the
same day the information comes in." "And you've had
him under surveillance every day for a while?" He nodded. "Drawing a
blank?" He nodded again. "You call in the
federales?" "That wouldn't
be our chosen scenario for this situation. The firm itself has its own interests,
as well as the obligation to protect our clients. Perhaps you don't understand
some of the complexities of our profession. . ." I gave him the
closest thing to a smile I ever give citizens. I'd never heard the laundry
business called a profession before. "Why doh't you
just fire him?" "We can't do
that. He's a very well connected young man. Besides, our clients will demand
some actual proof of his guilt before taking any action. They were very
insistent on that, for some reason." Sure. The "clients"
wanted to make damn sure the problem was going to get solved for good. The only
time humans like that are interested in the truth is when a mistake will cost
them money. "What do you
want from me?" "We want you to
find out how this individual gets the information out. And we want proof.
Something we can show our clients." "And the only
time he could possibly pass this along is during business hours?" "Yes. Without
question. After that . . . it wouldn't be of value to him or anyone else." I lit another cigarette,
thinking it through. It sounded like they had the wrong guy. Maybe the
"clients" were setting them up. Maybe this lawyer was the one doing
the stealing. It wasn't my problem. Money was. Always is. "The only time I
could watch him would be when he leaves the building, right?" "Yes. Inside the
building, he's completely covered." "A grand a day.
Until I find out how he does it or you call me off. Another ten if I get the
proof for you." "Mr. Burke, with
all due respect, that's triple the rate charged by the finest security firms.
And you'll only be working a couple of hours each day." "In cash. In
front. Nothing bigger than fifties. No consecutive serial numbers. No new
bills," I told him. "You know how it's done." The lawyer looked at
me, watching my face for the first time since I'd climbed into the limo.
"What makes you worth so much?" "Ask Mr.
C.," I suggested. He dropped his eyes.
"We won't need you every day. Just those days when something comes in.
We'll call as soon as . . ." "No." "I don't understand." "I need to work
this guy every day, okay? I need to
know him. I need to know when he's changed his pattern. You don't need
to call me when the information comes in. I watch this guy long enough, I'll
know." "That could take
weeks . . ." I nodded agreement.
"Maybe longer. Who knows? I probably won't get him the first time he moves
anyway. Depends on when you get something for him to trade." "And you may not
get him at all?" "And I may not
get him at all." The lawyer pretended
to think it over. Maybe he was better at pretending to be honest. "We need
to get started on this. This is Friday; could you be on the job Monday?" "Sure." "All right, Mr.
Burke. I am prepared to pay you one thousand dollars in cash right now. For
Monday's work. In advance, as you requested. We will meet each evening - you'll
give me your report and we will decide if you are to continue." I just shook my head.
Why they sent this fool to do business with me was a mystery: he was a pin-striped
shark, but he couldn't bite people who never went near the water. "You have
another suggestion?" "Yeah, pal.
Here's my suggestion. You hand me twenty thousand dollars, like we agreed.
Okay? That buys you twenty days, unless I pull it off quicker. I pull it off before
ten days, you get a refund. Nothing jumps off in twenty days, we meet and see
what you want to do. Got it?" "That's
outrageous," the lawyer said, his face a halfstep out of sync with his
words. "You expect me to just . . ." "I'm tired of
this. I'm tired of you. If Mr. C. really sent you out here to do business,
you've got at least twenty large in that pretty briefcase of yours. And if
you're a fucking little errand boy, go back and tell your boss that he sent the
wrong messenger." He sat there,
staring. I lit another cigarette. "When this smoke is finished, so am
I," I told him, waiting. The lawyer tried to
smile. "I'm no errand boy," he said, holding his head stiff. He
opened another compartment in the briefcase. The money was neatly stacked, a
paper baid around the fifty-dollar bills. He counted off twenty little 'tacks,
tossing them contemptuously on the broad seat between us, making sure I could
see there was plenty left in the briefcase. Telling me they would
have paid more. That he had the last laugh. "Can I drop you
someplace?" he smirked. I threw an empty pack
of cigarettes back over my shoulder, out the window. "Thanks anyway,"
I told the lawyer, shoving the cash into different pockets of my coat,
"I'll call a cab." A battered gypsy cab
rolled up next to the limo. The rusty old hulk was so filthy you couldn't even
see through the windows. The lawyer's mouth dropped open. I nodded to him,
backed out of the limo and into the gypsy. The driver dropped the hammer, and
we moved out in a cloud of black smoke. I spotted the insider
when he was still a half-block away. Watching him for days
tuned me in - l could pick him up in a crowd just by the way he moved. Heading
for the switchman, like always. I zoomed the binoculars in on the switchman's
hands. He was still working on his charts, face bent over in concentration.
When the insider got close, I focused in on the three bowls, flicking past the
one that held the pens to the second one - the one with the cigarettes. I
locked into the last bowl in the triangle - the one with the coins. There was
nothing else in my vision. I breathed gently through my nose, my elbows pressed
into my chest. Silver dropped into
the switchman's bowl. Some coins. And a flat-folded piece of aluminum foil. I
reached one hand up to the window shade and pulled it straight down. I dropped
to the floor and raised the shade an inch at the bottom, so I could peek out
without the binoculars. A kid in a striped
T-shirt shot around the corner on a skateboard. He lost control and spun out;
the skateboard took off by itself and crashed into a parked car. The kid was
ready for the crash: gloves on his hands, thick pads covering his elbows and
knees. His head was hidden under a white plastic mask - the kind hockey goalies
wear. He shook himself off, dazed. Then he charged right
at the switchman, snatched the coin bowl in both hands, and flew up the block,
the bowl tight against his chest. The switchman started to come off his blanket
when one of the winos stumbled into him from behind. The wino's long floppy
raincoat blocked most of my view, but I could see the switchman whip an elbow
into his chest, knocking him backward. The wino grabbed at the switchman to
break his fall; they fell to the ground together. The switchman wrenched
himself loose, stopping for a second to kick the helpless wino in the chest. When he turned
around, the kid was gone. I saw the gypsy cab pull away, heading for the river. The switchman did a
full circle, knowing he was too late. The wino crawled away, his hands wrapped
around his ribs. The switchman pulled the corners of his blanket together, held
it in two hands, and spun it around a couple of times to form a sack. Re threw
the sack over his shoulder and ducked into the subway. It took me less than
a minute to throw everything I had with me into the battered suitcase and head
out the door. I went out the side
door on Chambers, and walked back through the park. The street was the way it
was before the crash. Even the kid's skateboard was gone. My Plymouth was
parked on West Street, near one of the construction sites. The guy who built it
years ago was trying to create the ultimate New York taxicab, but he died before
he got it done. I threw my suitcase in the trunk and started the engine. The
two-and-a-half-ton dull gray machine started right up, the way it always does.
I hit the switch and my window slid down. Lit a cigarette and pulled away,
heading for the pier. I was there tirst. I
backed in until the bumper tapped the base of the pier, shoved a Judy Henske
tape into the slot, listened to "If That Isn't Love" for the
thousandth time. Waiting again. If Linda Ronstadt is a torch singer, Henske's a
flame thrower. A couple of guys
walked by, hand in hand, talking just to each other. An overmuscled beach boy
posed against a burned-out abandoned car. A black man was adding a few touches
to an oil painting of the riverfront. A man with a teenager's body cruised the
scene on roller skates, wearing mirror sunglasses to hide the truth. The whores
don't work this pier. Some zoning regulation the City Council would never
understand reserved it for gays. Nobody came near the
Plymouth. I was into my third smoke, and Henske was breaking chops with both
hands on "Good Old Wagon" by the time the gypsy cab pulled in at an
angle next to me, its nose aimed at the Plymouth's trunk. The kid jumped out
first, the goalie's mask gone, his baby face glowing with pride. "Hey,
Burke!" "Keep it
down," I told him, climbing out of the car. "Did you see it?
It went perfect!" He was bouncing up and down like he just hit a home run
in Little League. Snatching money off the street was as close as Terry would
ever get. The Mole slowly
emerged from the darkness of the gypsy cab. He was wearing a greasy pair of
coveralls, a heavy tool belt around his waist, with another strap running over
his shoulder. Something glinted off his Coke-bottle lenses - I couldn't tell if
it was the sun. He walked into the shadow where our two cars touched and
squatted on the ground, fumbling in his leather satchel. Terry hunkered down
beside him, his hand on the Mole's shoulder, trying to peer inside the satchel.
The Mole's pasty-white hands with their stubby fingers looked too awkward to
open the clasp, but he had a touch like a brain surgeon. He pulled out the foil
disk and dropped it in my palm, looking up at me with a question. "Let's
see," I told him, unwrapping it carefully. In a neat, almost
prim hanchriting were the words "Maltrom, Ltd." Nothing else. I
didn't need anything else. "Nice work,
Mole," I told him. The Mole grunted. "You drop Max
off?" He grunted again. Max
the Silent didn't get his name because he moved so quietly. A Mongolian
free-lance warrior who never spoke, Max made his living as a courier, moving
things around the city for a price. His collateral was his life. He was as
reliable as cancer, and not nearly as safe to play with. The wino who stumbled
into the switchman had been Max. He'd taken the kicks to the ribs, even though
he could have snapped the switchman like a matchstick. A professional. The Mole was still
hunkered down in the shadows. The kid was next to him. Waiting quietly now,
like he'd been taught. "I got about an
hour," I told the Mole. His face moved - the
Mole's idea of a smile. "You don't want to call your broker first?" I don't have a
broker. I don't get mail and I don't have a phone. Maybe it's true that you
can't beat them - you don't have to join them either. "I have to see
Michelle," the kid piped up. I caught the Mole's
eye, nodded okay. "Give her my
share," he said. I wheeled the
Plymouth across the highway and started to work my way through the back streets
of SoHo. Carefully, like I do everything. Lily runs a special
joint that works with abused kids. They do individual and group therapy, and
they teach self-defense. Maybe it's all the same thing. Max's woman works there.
Immaculata. It wasn't so long ago that she tried to stop three punks from
attacking what she thought was an old man on the subway. The old man was Max.
He went through the punks like a chain saw through Kleenex, left them broken
and bleeding on the subway floor, and held out his hand to the woman who stood
up for him. Their baby was born a few months ago - two warriors' blood in her
veins. Terry watched me
without turning his head, working on what we'd been teaching him. But he was
doing it for practice - he wasn't scared anymore. The first time I took him
away in a car, he was a rental from a pimp. We were working a deep con, looking
for a picture of another kid. We picked up Michelle on the street so she could
watch Terry while we got ready to deal with his pimp. I lit a cigarette,
thinking back to that night. "Want one?" I asked him. "Michelle
doesn't want me to smoke." "I won't tell
her." The kid knew better
than to use the dashboard lighter in the Plymouth. I snapped a wooden match
into life, held it across to him. He took a deep drag. We had a deal. I watched him scan
the passing streets with his eyes, not moving his head. I was in Biafra
during the war. It got bad near the end. Staying alive was all there was. No
food, landlocked, soldiers pinching all four corners, planes spitting death -
low enough in the sky to hit with a rifle. If you had a rifle. Too many ways to
die. Some screamed, some ran. Nohody won. I saw kids lying like litter all
through the jungle, their faces already dead, waiting. I had a 9mm pistol with
three bullets left in the clip, half a pack of cigarettes, a pocketful of
diamonds, and almost a hundred grand in Swiss francs. I left a sack of Biafran
pounds back in the jungle. About a million face value, if Biafra won the war. It
wasn't going to; and carrying a sack of money from a defeated country while
you're running for your life is what they mean by "dead weight." I
didn't even bury it - I wasn't coming back. Another big score gone to dirt. The
gunfire stopped, and the jungle got dead quiet. Waiting. A young woman ran past
me on my right, wearing only a pair of tattered men's shorts way too big for
her, every breath a moan. I heard a grunting sound and hit the ground, the
pistol up in front of me. A wounded soldier? If he had a rifle, maybe I could
trade up. It was a little boy, about three years old, a tiny head on a stick
body, his belly swollen, naked. Alone. Past being scared. The woman never broke
stride; she scooped the baby up on the run, shoving him up toward her slender
neck, holding him with one hand. If she made it, the baby would have a new
mother. That's what Michelle
did with Terry. I parked a couple of blocks
away. Terry and I walked over to Lily's, not talking. The black guy at the
front desk was reading a thick book through horn-rimmed glasses. "Hey,
Terry!" "Hey.
Sidney!" the kid greeted him. "Sidney's going to law school," he
told me. Somehow I didn't
think Sidney would end up making deals with guys like me in the back of limos.
"Is this your father?" he asked Terry. "The one who teaches you
all that electronic stuff?" That cracked the kid
up. "Burke?" It was the Mole's thought, but the laugh was Michelle's.
It's not just chromosomes that make blood. Sidney waved us past.
We walked down a long corridor to the back offices. The right-hand wall was all
glass. On the other side, groups of kids were running, jumping, screaming their
lungs out. Everything from disciplined martial-arts classes in one corner to
some crazy game with kids taking turns trying to dive over a mound of pillows.
Business as usual. Immaculata burst out
of one of the back offices, her long glossy hair flying behind her, a clipboard
in one hand. "Lily!" she
yelled out. "We're all back
here," echoed a voice. Immaculata saw us and
spun in a graceful arc, her long nails flowing together as she pyramided her
hands at the waist. She bowed gently to us. "Burke.
Terry." "Mac." I
bowed back. Terry tried to bow
too, but he was too excited to get it right. "Is Max here?" "Max is working,
honey." "But is he
coming? Maybe later?" Immaculata's smile
ignited the highlights in her eyes. "Who knows?" "Max is the
strongest man in the world!" the kid said, not inviting a dispute. Immaculata bowed
again. "Is strength so important? Do you remember what you have been
taught?" "Yes. Strength
of character. Strength of spirit." "Very
good," the beautiful woman proclaimed, bending at the waist to give Terry
a kiss. "And so . . . is Michelle strong?" "She's so
brave." "And the
Mole?" "Michelle says
he's the smartest man on the earth. That's what she says." "And
Burke?" The kid looked
doubtful, waiting. "Burke is not strong like Max?" The kid shook his
head. "Or brave like
Michelle? Smart like the Mole?" "No . . ."
Terry said, reaching for it. "So how does he
survive?" The kid knew all
about survival. "He has strength too, right?" "Right!"
said Immaculata, giving him another kiss. The kid was in
heaven. Maybe he'd never see the inside of a prep school unless he went along
on a burglary, but how many kids get to work a major-league scam, hang out with
a lunatic, and get kissed by a lovely lady all on the same day? "Come on,"
said Immaculata, reaching out her hand. I followed them down the hall to Lily's
office. Lily was seated at
the screen of her so-called computer, playing some electronic game with the
keyboard, a baby on her lap, balanced between her elbows. She was wearmg a
painter's smock over pink jeans; her hair was tied back. Her scrubbed face
looked like a teenager's, animated with attention as she bounced the baby on
her lap in time with a man running through a maze on the screen Michelle sat on
the desk, her flashy legs crossed, smoking a cigarette in a red lacquer holder.
Her outfit was all black-and-white triangles. Even her nail polish was black.
On a straight lady, it would have looked Whorish. On Michelle, it was fashion. "Mom!"
Terry yelled, charging over to her. "Michelle pulled
him close, hugging him, looking over his shoulder. "You spend a few
minutes with Burke and you leave your manners in the street?" Terry gave her a
kiss, smiling, knowing she wasn't mad at him. "I greeted Immaculata,"
he said. ''And . . ." The kid turned to
Lily. "Hello, Lily." "Hi,
Terry!" "Hello,
baby," he said to the infant on her lap. "Baby has a name,"
Immaculata reminded him gently. "Hello, Flower," the kid said, taking
her tiny hand and kissing it. Immaculata clapped.
"See! He learns his good manners from Burke." Michelle laughed.
"He'd be the first." "Can I hold
Flower?" Terry asked Mac. "As I showed
you," she warned him. Every female eye in the room was riveted on the kid,
but he tucked the baby into the crook of his arm, sat down next to Michelle,
and started cooing to Flower like he'd been doing it all his life. Like nobody
ever did to him. I gave Miclielle the
high sign. She tousled Terry's hair and slid off the desk. We left them in the
office and walked down the hall, looking for an empty room. We ducked into a
cubicle a few doors down. I didn't have much time. The Mole and I just
did some work. He said for you to hold his share." I handed her the
cash. She snapped open her purse, divided the money into two piles, stowed it
away. "A little closer
to Denmark, baby - to the real me," she said, blowing a soft kiss at the
cash. Michelle had been talking about the operation ever since I'd known her.
She'd been through the full-body electrolysis, the hormone injections, even the
silicone implants in her breasts. But she had balked at the psychological
counseling American hospitals required before they'd do a full sex-change
operation. 'You'll take Terry
back to the Mole?" I nodded, checking my
watch. "You go get him," I told her. I dialed a number
while I was waiting for her. The lawyer with the limo answered on the first
ring. 'It's done," I
told him. He started to babble. I cut him off. "You know Vesey Street,
where it runs past the World Trade Center? Take it all the way west, right to
the river. I'll meet you there in forty-five minutes." I hung up on him. Michelle came down
the hall, holding Terry's hand, calling goodbye to Lily and Immaculata over her
shoulder. Terry sat between us
on the front seat. I lit a cigarette. "Want one?" I asked him. "Michelle
doesn't want me to smoke," the kid said, his angelic face giving nothing away.
Michelle gave him a kiss. The Mole was teaching him science; I was teaching him
art. "I got to meet a
guy, Terry," I told him. "You'll have to ride the trunk, okay?" "Sure!" "And when I'm
finished, I'll take you back to the Mole." "I can't go
right back," he said. I looked over at
Michelle. "Why not?" I asked him, watching her eyes. "Mole says he
has work to do. Someplace else. He says for you not to bring me back until
after six." "How about if I
bring you back to Lily's? I'll roll by in a few hours." "Why can't I
hang out with you?" Michelle patted him.
"Burke has work to do, baby." The kid was hurt. "I do work too.
I help Mole. Lots of times." "I know you do,
baby," she said. I shot the kid a warning glance. If Michelle wanted to
think the kid helped out by holding the Mole's soldering iron, that was fine
with me. We rolled into the
Wall Street canyon, following Michelle's directions. She had customers down
there too. I pulled over to the curb. She gave Terry
another kiss and flowed from the car. We watched her make her way into the
building. Watched men turn to look at her, thinking they had never seen a woman
with so much stile. I used to wonder what men would think if they knew the
truth, but I don’t anymore. The man waiting for her knew the truth. I wheeled the
Plymouth around the corner and slid along until I found an empty spot, just
past the little park where they assemble crowds who want to visit the Statue of
Liberty. A lot of people bring their cars down to the river to work on them.
Guys were changing the oil, draining radiators, doing tune-ups. I pulled over
and popped the trunk. The inside was lined with the padding that furniture
movers use. A steel box in one corner covered the battery; a fifty-gallon fuel
cell took about half the storage space, but there was plenty of room for a man
to wait comfortably. A neat row of quarter-inch holes was punched through the
tip of the trunk. I pulled the piece of duct tape away so air would circulate. "You
know where everything is?" I asked the kid. He looked at me the
way the Mole does sometimes, his eyes shifting to the cable that would open the
trunk from the inside and let him out. He knew he could also get out through
the back seat if he had to. Two plastic quart bottles were bolted to the side
of the trunk, one full of a water-and-glucose solution, the other empty. A man
could stay there for a couple of days if he had to. I pulled a thick roll
of neon-red tape from the trunk, peeled off a precut piece, and handed the end
to Terry. He pulled it taut, and we walked it over to the hood. It fit
perfectly. Another piece went over the roof. One more for the trunk, and we had
a distinctive racing stripe from front to back. Terry took the rubber block I
handed him and smoothed out the little bubbles under the tape while I attached
a foxtail to the antenna and snapped some blue plastic covers over the parking
lights in the grille. I pulled another set of license plates out of the trunk
and screwed them on over the ones I'd been using. In ten minutes we had a
different car. With untraceable plates. Terry patted himself
down, making sure he had his butane cigarette lighter. Michelle didn't mind him
carrying the lighter. It was a gift from the Mole. Loaded with napalm. The tiny
Jewish star the kid wore on a chain around his neck gleamed dull against his
pale skin. It was made of steel. "They took gold from our people's mouths
to make their evil ornaments," the Mole once said, explaining it to me. The kid made himself
comfortable. I closed the lid and climbed back inside. On schedule. The limo was already
there when I pulled up. I left the Plymouth a half-block away and walked toward
the blacked-out passenger windows, hands in my pockets. He must have been
watching my approach. The door swung open. I handed him the
foil-wrapped disk. Watched as he carefully opened it, smearing any fingerprints
that would have been on it if I had left any. He held the paper away from me so
I wouldn't get a look at the magic name. His hands shook. His tongue ran around
his lips. He was looking at his ticket up the ladder. "This is
it," he said. Reverent. "Good. Give me
the money." "Sure. Sure . .
." he said, almost absently, reaching in his briefcase, counting it out,
not making a ceremony of it this time. Handing it over to me, not even watching
as I buried it in my coat pocket. I reached for the
door handle. "Wait a minute," he said. I waited, my hand wrapped
around a roll of quarters in my pocket, measuring the distance to the spot just
below his sternum, breathing through my nose, calm. "How did you get
this?" "That wasn't our
deal." "I'm just
curious." I looked at his face
until his eyes came up to mine. "Ask Mr.
C.," I advised him. The limo was pulling
away before I took three steps back to the Plymouth. I didn't know if the
lawyer had other eyes around, so I drove away slow, sliding through the maze of
streets parallel to the river until we got back to the open piers a few blocks
uptown. I stripped the tape off the car, pulled the foxtail, and popped off the
parking-light covers. I tossed everything inside the trunk, reaching inside to
get a screwdriver for the plates. Terry never moved, lost inside the darkness.
"Want to get something to eat at Mama's?" I asked softly. His little
fist tapped against the fuel cell once. Yes. The Plymouth pushed
its anonymous nose past the entrance to Mama's restaurant, giving me a chance
to read the messages. Mama used three identical dragon tapestries for a window
display: one red, one white, one blue. Tourists thought it was patriotic. Only
the white dragon stood in the window. No cops inside - no other trouble either. I pulled around to
the alley in the back. The alley walls were whitewashed, garbage cans neatly
stacked, tightly capped. A calico cat the size of a beagle sat on top of one of
the cans, marking his territory. A short set of Chinese characters in foot-high
black letters stood stark against the white wall. Max's message to anyone who
might have stupid ideas about asking Mama for a contribution to their favorite
charity. I popped the trunk
and Terry climbed out, shaking himself like a dog coming out of water. The back
door was steel, painted the same color as the building. You had to look close
to see it. There was no doorknob. I pushed against it, and Terry followed me
inside. We were in the kitchen. Half a dozen young Oriental men were scattered
around. Two of them were tossing handfuls of meat and vegetables into a set of
giant woks while a third man stirred, a flat wooden tool in each hand. He
rapped sharply on the rim of one of the woks. Another man came forward, his
hands wrapped in rags. He grabbed the wok by the rim, dumped the contents into
a metal pot, and dropped the wok onto another burner. He tossed in a glassful
of water, swirled it around, dumped out the water, and put the clean wok back
in front of the cook. Handfuls of pea pods, water chestnuts, and some red stuff
I didn't recognize flew into the empty wok. A vat of rice steamed against one
wall. None of the workers gave us a glance. A fat man sat at the door
connecting the kitchen to the restaurant, a tapestry the size of a table-cloth
covering his lap. The tapestry rested on a wood frame, like a small table, the
cloth reaching almost to the floor. The fat man's eyes were lost in folds of
flesh, no more visible than his hands. I stopped in front of him, one hand on
Terry's shoulder to show he was with me. The fat man's head held solid, drawing
a bead. I didn't rush him. I knew what he was holding under the tapestry frame.
Finally, he tilted his head a fraction of an inch. Okay. We went into the
restaurant. Terry and I took my
table at the back. The place was empty except for a young woman and her date.
She was wearing tinted aviator glasses, a string of pearls over a black silk
T-shirt. A skinny, mean-faced woman with capped teeth. Her date had a neat, short
haircut. The kind of tan you can buy without getting near the beach. He looked
like a sheep that worked out a lot - taut lines, stupid eyes. She was asking
the waiter a series of intricate questions about how the food was prepared. He
answered every question with the same Cantonese phrase, reading her like a menu
with only one dish on it. This went on for a couple of minutes, until Mama
climbed off her stool by the cash register at the front and came over to them.
She wore a bottle-green silk dress cut tight all the way up to the high
mandarin collar and flowing loose from the waist down. Her hair was pulled back
in a glossy bun, her broad face unlined. Only a fool would try to guess her
age; only a fool with a death wish would ask her. The waiter stood aside
as she approached. She bowed gently to the woman and her companion. "You have
questions?" "I certainly do.
I have been asking this gentleman if you use MSG in the preparation of
your food. Our diet doesn't permit . . ." Mama stepped on the rest
of the sentence. "Oh, yes. Plenty MSG. No problem." "You don't
understand. We don't want any flavor enhancers in our food. MSG causes .
. ." "MSG in
everything here. Soup, vegetables, meat. Special stuff. Plenty MSG." The woman gave an
exasperated sigh. "Don't you have provision for preparing meals without
MSG?" "Why you want
that? MSG in everything. Good for you. Make blood nice and thin." The woman looked over
at her date, a pained expression on her pinched face. I lit a cigarette,
blowing the smoke in her direction. "You have a No
Smoking section, I presume?" "You want
cigarettes?" Mama asked, innocently. "No. We don't
want cigarettes. And we don't want MSO. Is that so hard to understand?" Her date looked
uncomfortable, but he kept quiet. "Everybody smoke
here. Even cooks smoke, okay? Plenty MSG. No American Express." Mama
looked at her, smiling. "Not for you, right?" "It certainly is
not," said the woman, pushing her chair back. "Come on, Robbie,"
she said to the sheep. "Have a nice
day," Mama told her. She watched the woman and the sheep walk out the
front door, giving their table a quick wipe. She looked around her empty
restaurant and smiled. Business was good. I slid out of the
booth, bowed to Mama as she approached. Terry bounded over to her, his arms
open. Mama clasped her hands at her waist, bowed to the kid. It stopped him
like he ran into a wall, confusion overflowing his face. "Easy. Move
slow, okay?" She smiled down at him. "I was just
going to . . ." "You going to
kiss Mama?" "Sure!" "You see Burke
kiss Mama?" ''No . . ." Mama's face was calm.
Set. "Mama kiss babies, Okay? Not kiss man." Terry stared at her
face, figuring it out. Knowing by her tone not to be afraid. "I'm not a
man," he said. "What,
then?" He looked at me for
help. I blew smoke out my nose. I didn't know the answer. He took a shot on his
own. "A kid?" "Only two
pieces," Mama said. "Baby or man. No more baby, time to be a
man." "I won't be a
man until I'm thirteen." "Who says
this?" "Mole." Mama glanced over at
me. "Bar Mitzvah," I told her. "Jewish ceremony." "Good. Not official
man until thirteen, right?" "Right,"
Terry told her. "Start
now," Mama said, bowing to him again. Case closed. Terry bowed. Mama sat down across
from me. Terry waited, saw there wasn't going to be any more instruction, sat
down too. Mama said something to the waiter. He disappeared. "Soup first,
okay?" "Can I have
fried rice?" the kid wanted to know. "Soup
first," Mama said. The waiter brought a
steaming tureen of Mama's hot-and-sour soup. Three small porcelain bowls. Mama
served Terry first, then me. Then herself. I pressed my spoon against the
vegetables floating in the dark broth, taking the liquid in first, holding it
above the bowl, letting it cool. I took a sip. "Perfect," I said. It
was the minimal acceptable response. Terry pushed his
spoon in too deeply, covering it with vegetables. He carefully turned the spoon
over, emptying it back into the bowl. Tried it again. Got it right. He
swallowed the spoonful, tears shooting into his eyes. His little face turned a
bright red. "It's good," he said, his voice a squeak. Mama smiled.
"Special soup. Not for babies." I took another
spoonful, swallowed it slowly. Let it slide down, breathing through my nose.
Terry watched me. Tried it again. Smaller sips this time. I threw a handful of
hard noodles into my bowl. Terry did the same. He watched as I spooned off the
top layer of liquid, mixing the last spoonfuls with the vegetables, not chewing
any of it, gently breathing through my nose. The kid went right along. When my bowl was
empty, Mama spooned it full again. Terry was right behind me. Mama called for
the waiter. He took the tureen away. Came back with a heaping plate of fried
rice for Terry. The plate was beautiful - big chunks of roast pork, egg yolk,
scallions - each grain of rice floating on top of another into a perfect
pyramid. The kid's eyes lit up. He dug in without another word. I helped myself
to a few forkfuls, bowing my acknowledgment of perfection to Mama. Terry was halfway
through the giant mountain when he looked up at Mama. "What's
MSG?" he wanted to know. "Bad stuff.
Special salt. Make weak food taste strong, okay? Chemical. Fake. No good for
you." Terry smiled at her,
putting it together. "No MSG here, right?" Mama smiled back at
him. "Right." I lit another
cigarette. "How's business?" I asked her. "Always
same." I put the money from
the lawyer on the table. Split it into two piles. "For Max," I told
Mama, touching one pile. "For the bank," I said, touching the other.
Mama would hold the money for me. Her bank didn't pay interest. In fact, she
took a piece for a storage fee. But her bank was open twenty-four hours a day
and it didn't file federal paper every time you made a deposit. Mama's long fingers
flashed over the money, faster than a blackjack dealer's. The two piles became
four. She pointed at each in turn. "For Max. For the bank. For Mama. For
baby." I nodded agreement. I
knew the pile marked for Flower had some of my money and some of Mama's. Max
knew nothing about it - it wasn't his business. Whenever Mama saw Immaculata,
she would have a pink silk purse in her hand. "For baby," is all she
ever said. Down where we live,
every day is a rainy day. We were in the back room,
the one between the restaurant and the kitchen, waiting for the cook to finish
chopping up a pile of thick marrow bones, putting together a food package for
me. Terry was in the kitchen, watching everything. Staying out of the way. Three pay phones stood
in a bank against the wall. The one at the end rang. Mama looked at me. I
nodded. She picked up the receiver. "Mr. Burke not
here. You leave message, okay?" I couldn't hear the
other end of the conversation. It didn't matter what they said - Mama never
went past the script. "Not here, okay?
Don't know. Maybe today. Maybe next week. You leave message?" Mama listened. Wrote
something on a scrap of paper. Hung up. She handed me the
paper. A phone number I didn't recognize. "Woman. Young
woman. Say you call this number before nine tonight." "She say what
she wanted?" "A job for
you." "Anybody we
know?" "I never hear
the voice before. Woman say her name is Belle." "I don't know
her." Mama shrugged. Bowed
goodbye to me and Terry. The steel door closed behind us. I turned the Plymouth
north to the Bronx. Terry was quiet on
the ride back. I let him have his silence - it's something a man has to learn.
As he got older, I'd teach him not to give things away with his face. I didn't fill the
silence with the radio or my tapes. The radio works, but the faceplate is
really just to disguise the police-band scanner built into the dash. And all my tapes are
the blues. Kids can't sing the
blues; when they try, it sounds wrong. They have the pain, but not the range. We rolled over the
Triboro to the Bronx. The kid watched as I tossed a token into the basket in
the Exact Change lane. Learning. Don't call attention to yourself. When we
pulled up to the junkyard, Terry made a circle with his finger. Go around to
the back. The back fence was
heavy-gauge cyclone mesh, with three twisted bands of razor wire running across
the top. Everything was two-tone: pollution-gray and rust. A big dog the same color
as the fence was basking in a patch of late-afternoon sunlight. His lupine face
was impassive as we approached, but his ears stood straight up. Yellow eyes
tracked the car, locking onto the target like a heat-seeking missile. An
American Junkyard Dog. Best of a breed the American Kennel Club never imagined.
City wolf. I pulled the car
parallel to the fence, Terry's door closest to the dog. The beast growled deep
in his chest. Dark shapes moved behind the fence. Dots of light and flashes of
white. Eyes and teeth, both ready. "Tell the Mole
Michelle has his money." "Okay,
Burke." Terry climbed out of
the Plymouth, flipped the door closed behind him. Walked over to the dog,
talking in a low voice. The beast walked over to meet him. Terry scratched the
dog behind his ear, standing next to him. I knew the dog wouldn't move until I
did, so I wheeled the car in a tight circle, heading back the way I came. When
I looked back, Terry was down on all fours, following the dog through a cutout
section of the fence. He had to twist sideways to get in. It was dark by the
time I turned into the narrow street behind the old paper-tube factory where I
have my office. The garage is set into the building just past the sidewalk. When
the landlord converted the joint into living lofts, he bricked up the old
loading bay, where the trucks used to pull in, to make room for storefronts.
The garage only has room for one car, right at the end of a row of little
shops. I pulled in, hit the switch; the door rattled down, leaving me in
darkness. I locked the car, took the steel steps up four flights, walking
quietly past the entrance to each hallway. The doors lock from the outside and
I keep them that way. There's another flight of stairs at the far end of each
floor. If there's a fire, the tenants know which way to go. When I got to the top
floor, I let myself into the hall. I closed the door behind me. It looked like
a blank wall. There's no sign on my
door. My name's not on the directory downstairs. As far as the tenants know,
the fifth floor is sealed off. Most of it is. I don't have a lease.
I don't pay rent. The landlord's son did something very stupid a few years ago.
The landlord is a rich man, and he spent the right money in the right places.
The kid has a new name, a new face, and a new life. Home free. Until I found
him. I wasn't looking for the little weasel, but I knew who was. They still
are. It's not a home, it's
where I live for now. When the time comes I have to leave, I won't look back.
I'll take everything I need with me. And when I walk away,
there won't even be a fingerprint left for them to play with. I turned the key,
listening to the bolts snap back. Three dead bolts: one into the steel frame on
the side, another at the top, the final one directly into the floor. The hall's
too narrow for a battering ram. By the time anyone broke in, I'd have long
enough to do anything I needed to do. Another key for the
doorknob. I turned it twice to the right and once to the left, and stepped
inside. "It's me,
Pansy," I said to the monster sitting in the middle of the dark room. The monster made a
noise somewhere between a snarl and a growl. A Neapolitan mastiff, maybe 140
pounds of muscle and bone, topped with a head the size of a cannonball and just
about as thick. So dark she was almost black, Pansy blended into the room like
a malevolent shadow, teeth shielded, cold-water eyes unflickering. Pansy can't
handle complex thoughts. She wasn't sure if she was glad to see me or sorry she
wasn't going to get to tear some flesh. Then she smelled the Chinese food and
the issue was settled. The snarl changed to a whine, and slobber poured from
her jaws. I threw her the hand signal for "Stay!" and hit the light
switch. The office is one
small room. Desk facing the door, one chair behind, one in front. No windows.
Couch against one wall. To the left, there's another door, leading to the
office where my secretary works. The door's a fake. So's the secretary. The
other wall is covered with a Persian rug that never got closer to Iran than
14th Street. The floor is covered with Astroturf. I told my decorator I wanted
low-maintenance modern. I pulled the rug
aside and stepped into another room, even smaller than the office. Tiny
stand-up shower I installed myself, sink and toilet in one corner. Hot plate
and refrigerator in another. A cot between them. The back door opens out to a
landing. The fire escape rusted off years ago. I opened the back
door, calling for Pansy, and stepped out to the landing. Watched the Hudson
River slime-flow to the west, patting my dog's head as she stood next to me.
Three rooms, with view. Pansy ambled past me,
taking the stairs to the roof. She's been dumping her loads up there for years.
There's stuff growing on the roof I don't even want to think about. Pansy came back
downstairs as I was putting away the food Mama packed for me. I pulled a big
slab of roast pork from a container, held it in front of her. Every fiber of
her dim brain focused on that pork. An icicle of drool formed in one corner of
her gaping mouth, but she didn't move. She wouldn't take the food until she
heard the magic word. It's called poison-proofing. "Speak!" I
yelled at her, tossing the slab of pork in a gentle arc toward her face. It
didn't last as long as a politician's promise. I tried a big fat egg roll. One
chomp, and Pansy was swallowing in ecstasy, pieces of egg roll all over the floor.
"You're a slob," I told her. She nodded happily. Pansy's food-supply
system is against the wall. A pair of hollowed-out cement cinder blocks with a
forty-pound sack of dry dog food suspended above one and a tube connected to
the sink above the other. When either bowl is empty, she pushes against the
tube with her snout and it fills again. I filled a big
ceramic bowl with three quarts of Mama's cooking and told her to make a pig of
herself. She buried her face up to the eyes in the steaming mess making noises
Stephen King never dreamed of. I threw some of the marrow bones into a pot and
put them on the hot plate to boil. I went inside to my
desk. It was almost seven-thirty, and the woman Mama had spoken to said to call
before nine. There was a phone on my desk. It never rang, and I never got a
bill from Ma Bell - the Mole had it connected to the trust-fund hippies who
lived downstairs. I could use it early in the morning, when the sensitive
artists were still recovering from trying to find the light at the end of the
marijuana tunnel they'd explored the night before, but not otherwise. I'd had the phone for
years. No problems. I never used it for long-distance calls. That's why God
made other people's credit cards. The office looked the
same way it always does. I don't get clients coming here much. The last one was
Flood. The day I let her in, she came in too deep. I lit a cigarette, not
wanting to think about the chubby little blonde head-hunter. She came into my
life, got what she came for, and left me empty. I didn't want to
think about Flood. She came too often in my sleep. "I'm for you,
Burke," I can still hear her saying. The way only a woman can say. And
only say it once, if it's the truth. It was. Part of the full
bloom I was still waiting for. I went out to make my
phone call. Almost eight by the
time I found the pay phone I wanted. Near the river, just a couple of blocks
from the Yuppietown the developers had built by reclaiming a piece of the
Hudson. Within eyeshot of the bullshit "security lights" flanking the
high-rise but safe in a pool of darkness. Like I was. I don't like cold
calls. My phone number's circulated all over this city. The phone's listed to
Juan Rodriguez, and the address is the back end of a junkyard I own. The old
man who runs it draws me a paycheck every two weeks. I cash it and give him
back the money. It makes me a citizen - I pay my taxes, build up my Social
Security, all that. Having a citizen's name is important. The name opens the
door to all the goodies: legit address, driver's license, Social Security card.
I don't lose any sleep worrying about the FBI, but the IRS is another game. I
have a birth certificate too. It's so phony it even has a father's name on it. My credit with Ma
Bell is excellent. Never miss a payment. Never make any toll calls. I never
make any calls at all. Anyone who calls the junkyard number activates the call
diverter I have set up. The signal bounces over to one of the phones at Mama's. I unscrewed the mouthpiece
of the pay phone and slipped in the flat disk the Mole gave me. It changes my
voice just enough to throw off the machines, in case anyone's listening. I
pulled the tiny tape recorder from my coat and hit the switch; the booth was
flooded with the background noise from a bowling alley. The number had a 718
area code. Brooklyn or Queens. I dropped a quarter and dialed the number. She answered on the
third ring. A young girl's voice, with the hard twang that sounds Southern
unless you've spent some time in Detroit. "Hello?" "Belle?" "Who's
this?" "Burke.
Returning your call." "Oh. I didn't
think it would be so fast. I'm doing a favor for someone. Someone who wants to
talk to you." "Who?" "I'd rather tell
you in person." "I'd rather you tell
me over the phone." "I can't do
that. I promised." "What's in it
for me?" "Money." "How much
money?" "That depends.
You'd have to work it out with him. I just said I'd talk to you. Tell you about
it. See if you're interested in getting together." "You get paid
win or lose?" "Yes." "Tell him I said
no, and collect your money." "You have to
hear me out. Tell me to my face. That's the deal." "That's not my
deal." Her voice shifted,
dropped a note. "What is your deal?" "Time is money.
My time is your money, okay?" "How much
money?" "How much
time?" "Fifteen
minutes." "Five
yards." "That's a lot of
money." I didn't say
anything, listening to the silence at her end, the sound of pins falling at
mine. "Can you meet
me? Tonight?" "Is he there
with you?" "No." "How do you know
he'll go for the cash?" "I don't. I have
to make some calls. I work at . . ." "I don't care
where you work," I said, cutting her off. "Do what you have to do.
Speak to the man. I'll call you tomorrow morning." "Not before
eleven, okay? I get in late." "You have a
car?" "Yes." "I'll call you
tomorrow. Tell you where to come and meet me. You bring the money -we'll
talk." "Thank
you," the young girl's voice said, and she broke the connection. When I called her the
next morning, her voice sounded the same. Not breathy, or trying to be sexy.
Short-winded. "I got the
go-ahead." "And the
money?" "Yes." "What kind of
car do you drive?" "A Camaro. A red
one. With a T-top." "You know
Metropolitan Avenue?" "In Queens? By
the cemeteries?" "Yeah. Take it
west. Like you're going to the city, okay? Just keep going until it crosses
over into Brooklyn. You'll come to a little drawbridge. Go over the bridge and
look for a gas station on your right. Just pull up to the pums - I'll meet you
there." "What
time?" "Three." "How will I know
you?" "I'll be the man
asking for the money." I took the Delancey
Street Bridge out of Manhattan, hooked back around to Metropolitan Avenue. I
cruised past the gas station. At two in the afternoon, it looked the way it
always does - a wino asleep in the sun, a dead bottle of T-bird half out of a
paper bag next to him. A pair of red-brown dogs that had never been pets swept
the empty concrete, all legs and ribs, looking for food. A black guy wearing a
winter coat, tattered cowboy hat on his head, pushing a supermarket basket full
of cans and bottles, checking the alleys for more nuggets. Grayish dust from
the concrete plant on the other side of the drawbridge settled over everything.
The sun hit hard. The wino was half in shadow - he'd been sleeping a long time. I parked the Plymouth
a few blocks away, backed in against the metallic strip of water that carried
the ore barges under the drawbridge. It took me less than five minutes to get
back to the gas station. I found myself a comfortable spot against the wall and
sat down to wait. The skinny dogs
circled, watchful. I reached into the paper bag next to me and took out a piece
of cheese. I unwrapped it slowly, watching them from beneath the brim of my
battered felt hat. I tossed the cheese in their direction, arcing it gently so
they'd know it was no threat. The bigger dog moved in, sniffed it quickly, and
took it into his mouth. He moved away, chewing slowly. I unwrapped another
piece, tossed it the same way. The big dog's partner dashed in, snatched it,
and moved back to where the other one was standing. I lit a cigarette,
watching the dogs sniff the air, trying to do the same. From where I sat, there
was no way to approach the gas station without me seeing it. I wasn't worried
about customers - the only gas in the place was in the plastic bottle in my
paper bag. Almost an hour
passed. I'd gone through several smokes, and the dogs had exhausted my supply
of cheese. They wouldn't come close enough for me to touch, but the big guy sat
about ten feet away, watching me; his partner stretched out next to him. I was completely in
shadow when the red Camaro pulled up to the pumps. The windows were down. A
woman in the front seat. She turned off the engine. The dogs left me, ambling
over to the car. Trucks rumbled by on Metropolitan. She got out of the
car. A big woman. Honey-taffy hair, hacked off near her shoulders, bangs
covering her forehead almost to her eyes. She was wearing a peach-colored
sweatshirt over a pair of loose white pants. Hands on hips she turned one
complete circle, sweeping the area. I came to my feet
quietly, moved to her. She saw me coming, a wino with a paper bag in one hand.
She stood her ground. "Hello,
Belle," I said. "You're
Burke?" I nodded, watching
her eyes to see if she was expecting company of her own. Her eyes were small,
dark, set close together. Her face was round, smooth - unformed except for a
tiny pointed chin. She was as tall as I was, wider through the shoulders and
hips. I glanced at her feet. White running shoes, small, like her hands. No
watch. No rings. The back seat of the
Camaro was empty. "Would you open the trunk?" I asked her. "Why?" "I want to see
if you've got a spare." She bobbed her head
like she understood. Bent inside the car to pull the keys from the ignition.
Her hips flexed under the loose white pants. She handed me the keys. The trunk
held only a blue overnight case. I motioned her to get
in the car, climbed behind the wheel, and started it up. She walked around the
front of the car, opened the passenger door, turned her back to me, swung her
butt inside, and dropped it into the seat. Pulled her legs in and closed the
door. She filled the seat. Sat there, tiny hands in her lap. Waiting. I drove aimlessly
around the area for a few minutes. Nothing out of place. The second time I
passed the spot where I'd parked the Plymouth, I pulled in next to it, nose
toward the water. I got out, walked around to the back of the car, leaned
against the trunk. Belle followed me. Stood next to me. Put her hands behind
her, palms against the trunk. Hoisted herself up. The trunk bounced a few times
with her weight. If the hot metal was burning into her backside, she didn't
show it. "The man who
wants to meet you . . ." I held up my hand
like a traffic cop. "We had a deal." She pulled up her sweatshirt. A
bunch of bills was folded into the waistband of her pants. Green on milk. She
pulled the sheaf of bills out, handed it to me. All fifties. Ten of them. Used.
I slipped them into my shirt pocket. "Fifteen
minutes," I told her. "There's a man
who wants to meet with you. He doesn't want you to get the wrong idea." "This man have a
name?" I watched her face in
profile. Her nose was barely a bump - lost on her broad, round face. A bead of
clear sweat ran down one cheek. "Marques Dupree," she said. I took a drag on my
cigarette. "I already have the wrong idea," I told her. "You said you'd
hear me out." I took another drag. "He has a
problem. A big problem. He said you're the man to help him - you'd know what to
do." "I know what to
do. Why should I do it?" "He said this is
something you'd want to do." "You know what
it is?" "No." "So what's there
to talk about?" "Marques wants
to meet with you. He said you wouldn't come if he called." "He's
right." "He sent me to
show you he's on the square. It's a job, okay? That's all." "I don't work
for Marques." "He said you'd
say that too. All he wants is for you to meet with him." I bit into the
cigarette, thinking. Marques was doing this the right way. He wouldn't be
stupid enough to just roll up on me - he didn't have the weight for that. If
Marques Dupree was coming to me, he had to have real troubles. "You one of his
ladies?" I asked her. Her tiny chin came
up. She turned full-face to me. Her close-set eyes were almost black; I
couldn't see the pupils. "I'm not a whore." She wasn't mad - just
setting it straight. "So why you
doing this?" She reached out a
tiny hand, patted my shirt pocket. Where the money was. "I'll think
about it, okay? Where can I find you?" "Me?" "Yeah. You. I know
how to find Marques." "I work at The
Satellite Dish. Out by JFK." "That's a strip
joint," I said. Something must have
shown in my face. Her tiny rose-bud mouth made a quick kissing motion.
"You think I'm over qualified?" I shrugged. "I work every
night except Tuesday." I put my hand on her
wrist. Gently, holding her attention. "Tell Marques
not to call me. If I want to meet him I'll come and tell you first." "What if you
don't want to see him?" "Then I
won't," I told her, guiding her back into the driver's seat, motioning for
her to take off. I started walking in
the opposite direction. The Camaro drove off. I watched over my shoulder as she
turned the corner; then I went back to the Plymouth. The warehouse off
Division Street in Chinatown looked like it always does. Empty. Deserted. I pulled
in, turned off the engine. Waited. When I heard the door close behind me, I
knew Max was home. The warehouse was
furnished with dim shadows. I followed Max up the back stairs to the second
floor. He usually went to the back room, where we'd work on our life-sentence
gin game. Something different tooay. Max stopped on the landing. His temple was
upstairs. The dojo where he practiced, the teak floor marked with a white-pine
border. The sacred ground where Flood met a freak who called himself the Cobra.
The killing floor. Immaculata was
sitting in a low chair in a corner of the white room. A black lacquer table
covered with hooks and papers at her elbow. The baby sat across from her,
wearing only a diaper, her little face grave as she watched her mother work. A
butcher-block table ran the length of one wall, with hardwood straight-back
chairs at each end. Max gestured to one of the chairs. I sat down as Immaculata
put her notes aside and rose to her feet. "Hello,
Burke." "Hi, Mac. How's
Flower?" "She is a
perfect child," Mac said, as though she'd carefully considered all the
other possibilities. "Some tea?" "Thank
you," I said, knowing what she meant. Mac started to walk
into the next room. The baby made a sound, less than a cry, maybe a question.
Mac knelt next to her child, speaking quietly, her voice steel-cored.
"Mother will come back, baby. Always come back, yes? Never leave
you." She kissed the infant gravely on the forehead. Waved a goodbye
gesture to the child. Again and again, patiently, until the child moved her
hand too. "Smart baby!" Immaculata clapped. I took out a
cigarette, held it up for Max to see, asking if it was okay to smoke near the
child. Max pointed to an
ashtray the size of a dinner plate, aluminum on the outside, glazed red ceramic
on the inside. He lit a cigarette of his own, blowing the smoke toward the
ceiling. Spreading his arms to say the whole world smoked and the baby wasn't
going to spend the rest of her life in the house. Immaculata came back
inside. She had a pot of tea with two cups, a glass of iced ginger ale for me.
"I have your mail," she said, handing me a stack of letters. I use a
P.O. box over in Jersey. One of Mama's drivers empties it for me about every
two weeks, leaves the letters in Mama's basement. Max picks them up when he has
the chance and holds them for me. I shuffled through them. Nothing from Japan.
Nothing from Flood. I put them in my coat. Immaculata pulled up
a chair, joined us, one eye on her baby. Flower was gurgling happily to
herself. It sounded like singing. Max held up one
finger, catching my eye. Pay attention. He moved off his chair without a sound,
crouched behind the baby. Suddenly he slapped his hands together. It sounded
like a gunshot. The baby jumped, trying to turn her head in the direction of
the sound. Max scooped her up and held her against his chest, nuzzling her, his
horn-callused hands now soft as a cloud. The baby's tiny hands searched - found
one of his fingers, grabbed, and held. Max carried the baby
back to his chair, held her on his lap. Smiling. Immaculata stood
watching him, hands on hips. "Max!" she snapped, stamping her foot.
He ignored her, watching me. Immaculata sighed.
"When I was pregnant, he'd do that all the time. He said the baby could
hear him. When she came out of my body, he made everyone be quiet. He waited
until she was nursing . . . Then he clapped his hands like that. When she moved
- when she heard him - I thought he was going to burst, he was so happy." "She recognized
his voice," I said. "Sure. That's
what he said." "What else could
it be?" "I think" -
she looked at her husband - "I think he was afraid our baby would be born
deaf." "Was Max born
deaf?" "I never asked
him," she said, a slight warning tone in her voice. He was my brother. I
had earned the right to know. Earned it in a prison cell. I pointed at Max.
Made a gesture as if I was rocking a baby. Pointed at him again. At my ear. His face went hard,
eyes slitted, mouth a straight line. He shook his head. No. I opened my hands.
"How?" Max gently picked up his
baby, carried her back over to the floor, put her down. Kissed her. He stood
between Immaculata and me. Pointed to himself again. A fist flashed into his
palm so quickly I only saw the vapor trail. A sharp crack. He pointed to his
ear. Held his palm thigh-high. A little child. His hand became a claw, snatched
something, lifted it off the ground. Threw it against the wall. Walked away.
Pointed to himself again. He wasn't born deaf. I tapped my heart
twice, bowed my head. My eyes felt funny. Max pointed at
Flower, playing by herself on the floor. Reached his hand across the table.
Immaculata put her hand in his. He circled his thumb and forefinger. Okay.
Okay, now. Yeah. He was ahead of
the game. I took a sip of the
ginger ale. Lit another smoke. I held my palms close together, not touching. A
meeting. Max did the same. The
palms became fists. I shrugged. Maybe.
Who knows? I pointed at him. At
myself. Waved a pointing finger. A meeting outside. In the street. He looked a question. I rubbed my first two
fingers and thumb together. Money. Maybe a job. Max hissed an inhale
through his nose. I shook my head. Not
cocaine. I made the sign of injecting something into my arm. Shook my head
again. Not heroin. Held an imaginary joint in my mouth, triple-inhaled fast. Shook
my head again. Not marijuana. Max took a dollar
from his pocket. Held up three fingers. I shook my head
again. Not funny-money. Immaculata watched
us, like a spectator at a tennis match. Waiting for the punch line. Max pointed a finger,
cocked his thumb. I told him no again. Not guns. I weaved my fingers in the
air, making an hourglass. Women. His face went hard
again as he held his hand chest-high, asking. I put my palm to my
forehead, like a salute, measuring for him. Not kids. I made a gesture like I
was talking to someone, negotiating. Showed money changing hands. I took some
cash from my pocket, put it on the table. Made one big pile with a single bill
off to the side. Pocketed the pile. Pushed the remaining bill across the table
to my left. Made the hourglass sign again. Her share. Max circled his hands
around his head, tilted a hat brim forward. I nodded. A pimp. Max smiled. He made a
gesture like he was pulling a wristwatch off. Pulled rings off fingers. Reached
inside his shirt for a wallet. I shook my head. Not
a shakedown. Not a rough-off. I held my palms together again, not touching.
Just a meeting. Okay? He nodded. I pointed at my
watch. Made an "I don't know" gesture. I'd let him know when it was
going down. The baby cried.
Immaculata went over to her, picked her up, and sat her down on her lap to
nurse. I bowed to Max, to Immaculata, to my brother's baby. I went down the
stairs to my car, thinking of Flood. Back to being alone. I went through the
mail back in the office. The usual stuff. Congenital defectives replying to my
ad promising "south of the border" opportunities for "qualified
adventurers." Most of the mercenary action is in Central America now; the
Cubans have made it real clear that Africa isn't the promised land. The good
scams concentrate on "training exercises." There's decent money in
stinging maladroits who want to dress up in camouflage gear and run around the
New Jersey swamps learning how to "survive." I don't run one of the
camps - I don't want to meet any of my customers face to face. But, for a
reasonable fee, I'm always happy to process their applications. The pedophile letters
always have P.O. boxes of their own for return addresses. One was neatly typed
on creamy bond paper, the monogram
"CX" engraved in one corner. "l'm always interested in
the real thing. Especially discipline, golden showers, and snuff. I hope we can
be friends." I put the letter aside. If it wasn't from a Postal Inspector,
I had a genuine freak - the kind who expected to pay for his fun. Scumbags.
They always manage to get what they pay for. Sometimes I get lucky; then they
pay for what they get. The rest of the mail
was replies to our new series of personal ads. We run them everyplace - from
literary journals to hard-core slime-sheets. Variations on the same theme:
young girl, serving a prison sentence, getting out soon. Lonely, broke, needs a
friend. Honey Blaine is the
sweet young girl's name. If any of the suckers bothered to write directly,
they'd find an "H. Blame, #86-B-9757," doing time at Bedford Hills.
Just the way it said in the ad. Honey would set them straight right away. She'd
explain that she couldn't write the kind of letter she'd really like to: the
prison censors wouIdn't permit it. Honey had a secret P.O. box, though, and if
a sincere man was willing to be a little patient, well . . . I screened the
letters. Michelle answered them. We had a few dozen different photos we used.
All Polaroids ("That's the only kind they let us take here, darling").
Whatever the suckers wanted, that's what they got. Honey could be a
nineteen-year-old victimized by a cruel pimp. A lesbian whose lover informed on
her in a drug deal. A car thief. Anything but a scam artist. She could be the
answer to an old man's prayer or the bottom of a minister's ugly fantasy. A
very flexible girl, this Honey. All it took was Michelle's never-miss instincts
and some creative writing. Honey would play the sucker, work the hook in deep,
turning up the heat to full boil. Then the poor girl would start to have
problems: a bull dyke hitting on her, demanding her body or her life; a
threatened transfer to another section of the prison, where she wouldn't be
able to correspond. Overdue rent on the P.O. box. A nice piece of cash needed to
bribe the Parole Board. Gate money. And the money orders would start to come
in. After a while, the
sucker would get his last letter returned. Unopened. An official prison stamp
on the outside. Black-bordered. "Return to sender. Inmate deceased."
The suckers always bought it - if it was a scam, why wouldn't sweet Honey have
cashed the last money order? H. Blaine,
#86-B-9757, wasn't allowed visitors. Good thing. The name and the number were
legit, but Hortense Blaine is a fifty-five-year-old, three-hundred-pound black
woman. She raised three generations of foster kids. From babies dropped down
incinerators who didn't die, to kiddie prostitutes who never lived. She never
had a kid of her own, but she was mother to dozens. Her boyfriend raped one of
the kids. A twelve-year-old girl named Princess. I have a copy of the
trial transcript. I got it from the lawyer who's working on the appeal. A
hard-blues lyric they'll never put to music. DIRECT EXAMINATION BY MR. DAVIDSON: Q: What, if anything, did
you do after Princess told you about the rape? A: I
told the child he was never going to hurt her again. I carried her into my
room. Put her in my hed. Q: The same bed you shared
with Mr. Jackson? A: He wasn't going to be
using it no more. Q: And then? A: I
waited for Jackson to come home. He was out gambling someplace. He comes in the
door, sits at the kitchen table. Tells me to get him a beer. Q: Did you get him a beer? A: Yeah. Q: Tell the jury what
happened next. A: I asked him why he did
this. I said . . . Q: Excuse
me for interrupting you, Mrs. Blaine. You asked him why he raped the
child? Not if he did it? A: There was blood in the
child's bed. Q: I see. Please continue. A: I
asked him why he did what he did. He tells me Princess going to be a woman
soon. Won't hurt her none. Get her ready for what life's all about, he said. He
said she was walking around in her nightgown when I was out working. Said she
asked for it. Q: Did you see the
expression on his face when he said this? MR. HAYNES: Objection. Calls for a
conclusion of the witness. MR. DAVIDSON: An observation of
demeanor is not a conclusion, Judge. MR. HAYNES: Your Honor, counsel for the defense is trying to
introduce blatant hearsay. This is an attempt to impugn the character of a dead
man. MR. DAVIDSON: This Court has already heard the testimony of the
child Princess. The character of this rapist is already in evidence. MR. HAYNES: Objection! Mr. Jackson
is not on trial. MR. DAVIDSON: That's right. He's
already been tried. THE COURT: Gentlemen, that will be
quite enough. The objection is overruled. Q: I
ask you again, Mrs. Blame. Did you see the expression on his face when he
admitted to you that he raped Princess? A: Yeah. He was smiling.
Like it was nothing. MR. HAYNES: Objection. THE COURT: Overruled. Q: Did he say anything
else? A: He said the little bitch
got what she deserved. Q: What happened then? A: I picked up the kitchen
knife and I stabbed him in his heart. Q: Did you mean to kill
him? A: Yes. Q: Why? A: So he'd never hurt my baby
no more. MR. DAVIDSON: Your witness. Defending a murder
charge wasn't a job for a courthouse gonif. Too many of our people had spent
time with Hortense when we were coming up. Like the Prof. Short for
"Professor." Or "Prophet." A tiny black omen-master who'd
been on the hustle since before I was born, he talked rhyme and he walked
crime. The Prof only stood as high as my chest, but he always stood up. "Cutting up
slime ain't no crime," was all he said, dealing himself in on whatever we
had to do to raise the cash. Davidson was the man
for the job. A husky guy with a full beard, he plays the game hard. I first
heard about him when he defended one of the UGL gunmen years ago. Davidson told
us the only way to roll on this one was to do what he called a "psychiatric
autopsy" on the dead man. And he pulled it off.
When he was finished, the jury knew Jackson had been a piece of living scum
before he died. They came back with a verdict of Manslaughter, Second Degree.
You could feel the weight lift - murder carries a twenty-five-to-life top in
this state. But Davidson slammed his fist down on the defense table hard enough
to break it. He never raised his eyes. One of the jurors
walked over to him. A fat guy in a brown suit. Said Davidson did a great job,
asked him for his card. Davidson raised his face to look at the juror. His eyes
were wet. "I'm particular about who I defend," he said, turning his
back on the juror's outstretched hand. The judge hit
Hortense with two-to-six upstate. Only child molesters get probation in New
York. One of her foster sons stood next to her when she got the sentence. All
grown up now, he works in a bank, lives in the suburbs. When he heard she was
going down, he started to cry. Hortense put a big hand on his shoulder. She had
to reach up to do it. "Be a man,"
she told him. Not giving an inch. She gave Davidson a
kiss on the cheek and held out her hands for the cuffs. Davidson's working on
the appeal. Working hard, the way he always does. While he's working on the
appeal, we're working on putting together some cash for when Hortense walks
out. Once a month, the Prof visits her at the prison, bringing a batch of money
orders for her to sign. There's a check-cashing joint in the Bronx that doesn't
ask a lot of questions. Hortense gets half the money; Michelle and I split the
rest. It was supposed to be a four-way split, but the Prof gives his piece to
Hortense. "Not all payback's a bitch," he said when we asked him. Michelle doesn't work
the streets anymore. I thought it was AIDS, but she said she couldn't risk a
bust now. Now that she's a mother. So she does phone
jobs, suckers letting their credit cards run wild while she talks them over the
top. Or she visits her clients indoors. It was only right
that she and Hortense would work a sting together. Walking different sides of
the same oneway street. I felt bad, and I
didn't know why. I was some cash ahead, for a change. The last job went down
like sweet syrup, and maybe there would be some more of that kind of work down
the road. Nobody was looking for me. I didn't spend time
thinking about it. I used to do that. I used to do time. A couple of bad
habits. Pansy ambled over to
where I was sitting, put her huge head on my lap. She made a noise that sounded
like a growl, but I knew what she wanted. "Not today,
girl," I told her, scratching her head between her eyes. Max and I were
training her to stay low when she hit. Most dogs leave their feet when they attack,
some deep instinct forcing them to go for the throat. That doesn't work on
people: human throats are too far off the ground. We take Pansy over to this
vacant lot in Brooklyn. Pay some kid ten bucks and talk him into putting on the
agitator's suit -leather covered with
padded canvas. I hold Pansy on a snap leash, facing the agitator. Max stands to
the side with a long bamboo pole. When I send Pansy, Max brings the pole down.
Hard. If she stays low, about groin-height, she can nail the kid wearing the
suit. If she leaves her feet, Max cracks her in the head. Lately she's been
getting through most of the time. I call her off as soon as she gets a good
bite. I have to get a
different kid each time. The suit feels like it's armor-plated, but Pansy can turn
a leg into liquid right through it. I flipped the
channels on the TV until I found a pro wrestling match. Pansy's favorite. I
gave her one of the marrow bones and stretched out on the couch, opening the
racing sheet. Maybe I'd find a horse I liked. Make my own kind of investment. The last thing I
remember before I fell asleep was Pansy grinding the marrow bone into powder. It was past ten when
I woke up. On the TV, a private detective was getting hit over the head with a
tire iron. I lit a smoke. Opened the back door for Pansy. When I walked back
inside, the private eye was wide awake and looking for clues. I took a shower.
Looked at my face in the mirror. Deep, past the image. Looked into myself,
breathing through my nose, expanding my stomach, exhaling as my chest went out. When I came out of
it, I felt clear. Centered. Ready to go to work. I shaved carefully.
Combed my hair. I put on a pair of dark-gray slacks and a white silk shirt.
Alligator boots. Custom-made, but they were a pretty good fit on me anyway. I
moved aside some shirts in the bottom drawer of my dresser. Looked at a whole
pile of rings, watches, bracelets, gold chains. The spoils of war. I held a smuggler's
necklace in my hand. Each link is a one-ounce gold ingot; it comes apart one
piece at a time. Too classy for this job. I pawed through the stuff until I
found the right combination: a thick gold neck chain, a gold bracelet, and a
gold ring set with a blue star sapphire. Checked myself in the
full-length mirror on the door of the closet. Something missing. I found some
gel in the bathroom. Ran it through my hair until it looked thicker and a bit
greasy. White hair shot through the black just past my temples. It didn't
bother me - the only thing I ever posed for was mug shots. I slopped some
cologne all over my face and neck. To throw the dogs off the scent. A few hundred bucks
in my pocket, one of the Mole's butane lighters, a wallet I stripped of bogus
credit cards, and I was ready to visit a strip joint. JFK Airport sits at
the end Queens, near the Long Island border, sticking out into the bay. The
surrounding swampland is slashed with two-lane side roads running off the
expressway. Warehouses, light industry, short-stay motels. The Highway
Department keeps the roads in good shape, but they don't waste any money on
streetlights. A bandit's paradise. I found The Satellite
Dish easily enough. A one-story blue stucco building, standing alone on a slab
of blacktop. Two long, narrow windows framing a set of double doors, the dark
glass covered with fluorescent promises: Go-Go Girls. Topless. Bottomless.
Exotic Dancers. I nosed the Plymouth
through the parking lot. General Motors must have held a white-on-white sale:
Eldorados, Buick Regals, Oldsmobiles. Vinyl tops, tinted glass, hand-painted
monograms on the doors. I left the Plymouth at the edge of the blacktop, dull
paint fading into the shadows. It looked abandoned. I stepped through the
double doors into a square foyer. White walls, red carpet. Hawk-faced guy in a
powder-blue double-knit suit sitting at a little table to one side. The joint
wasn't classy enough to have a hat-check girl - and not hard-core enough to
shake you down for weapons. "Ten bucks cover,
pal. And worth every penny," the hawk-faced guy said. His heart wasn't in
it. I paid, went through
the next set of doors. The place was bigger than it looked from the outside, so
dark I couldn't see the walls. A T-shaped bar ran the entire width of the room,
with a long perpendicular runway almost to the door. Small round tables were
spread all over the room. Two giant screens, like the ones they use for
projection TV, stood in the corners at each end of the long bar. The screens
were blank. The tables were
empty. Every man in the place was seated at the bar, most of them along the
runway. Hard-rock music circled from hidden speakers. Three girls were on top
of the bar. Two blondes and a redhead. All wearing bikini bottoms, high heels,
and sparkle dust. Each girl worked her own piece of the bar, bouncing around,
talking to the customers. The redhead went to her knees in front of a guido
with a high-rise haircut and diamonds on his fingers. She spun on the bar,
dropped her shoulders. The guido pulled down her panties, stuffed some bills
between her thighs, patted her butt. She gave him a trembly wiggle, reached
back and pulled up the panties, spun around again, ran her tongue over her
lips. Danced away. It was somewhere
between the South Bronx shacks where the girls would blow you in the back
booths and the steak-and-silicone joints in midtown where they called you
"sir" but wouldn't screw you out of anything more than your money. I found an empty
stool near the left side of the T. A brunette wearing a red push-up bra under a
transparent white blouse leaned over the bar toward me. She raised her
eyebrows, smiling the smile they all use. "Gin-and-tonic,"
I told her, putting a fifty on the bar. "Plenty of ice. Don't mix
them." She winked. I was
obviously a with-it guy. No watered drinks for this stud. She brought me a tall
glass of tonic, jigger of gin on the side. Put four ten-dollar bills back in
front of me. Class costs. "My name is
Laura," she cooed. "I go on after the last set. You going to be here?" I nodded. She took
one of the ten-spots off the bar, looked a question at me. I nodded. She
stuffed it between her breasts, winked at me, and went back to work. I left the
money on the bar. I sipped my tonic,
waiting. The music stopped. A
short, stocky guy in a pink sport coat over a billowy pair of white slacks
stepped to the intersection of the T. The lights went down. The house man hit
the stocky guy with a baby spot. He had a wireless microphone in one hand. "Here's what
you've heen waiting for . . . the fabulous . . . Debbie, and the Dance of
Domination!" The bar went dark
again. Most of the men moved to the back tables. A door at the right of the T
opened, and two dim shapes walked to the intersection. The music started. No
words, heavy bass-lines and drums. One of the shapes went off the stage. A hard white spot
burned the center of the T, making it into an isolated island. A black
straight-back chair stood by itself, thick high posts on each side. The giant
TV screens flickered into life. The camera zoomed in on the chair, filling the
picture. A blonde in a black
sheath came into the light. Black spikes on her feet, black gloves up to her
elbows. A black pillbox hat on her head, a black veil covering her face. She
sat down on the chair, crossed her legs. She tilted her chin up, waiting. I could hear the
humans breathing under the music, but there was no conversation. Topless
waitresses were working the darkness, stopping at the little tables, taking
orders for drinks. Business was booming. It was like no strip
act I'd ever seen. No playing to the audience - they were all watching through
a window. Quiet. Lost and alone in their ugliness. The stage went dark.
The music stopped. Herd sounds from the crowd. Nobody moved. When the spot came on
again, the blonde was on her knees, facing the crowd. She ran her hand across
her thighs, into her crotch, as the music built. Then she lifted the veil
slowly. The pillbox hat came off. The camera came in on her face. She licked
her lips, her eyes wide. As she opened her mouth, the stage went dark again. It stayed dark for a
couple of minutes. Cigarette lighters snapped in the crowd. Tiny red flares. Flood came into my
mind. I saw her struggling to work skin-tight pants over her hips, shifting
from toe to toe, flexing her legs. Bending over another chair, in another
place, the fire-scar on her rump dark against the white skin. I put the image
down - those bodies were buried. The lights came up
again, blaring rock music came back through the speakers, the TV screens went
dark. Three different girls were working the top of the bar, gesturing for the
men to come away from the little tables and get closer. I poured the gin into
the empty tonic glass, mixing it with the ice. The bargirl came back to where I
was sitting, bringing me another set; she put my empty glasses on a little
tray. "You like that
stuff?" "Not my
taste," I said. "Maybe later
you'll tell me what you like," she whispered, sweeping the rest of my
money off the bar, doubling her tip. I reached in my
pocket for another fifty. Waiting for Belle wasn't a cheap job. I figured Belle must
work as one of the back-table waitresses, but I didn't want to ask for her by name.
The tables stayed empty while the girls worked the top of the bar, so I'd have
to wait for the next number, move into the darkness by myself, look around. I
sipped my tonic, lit another smoke. I watched the girls
spread themselves on the long bar, as turned-on as a gynecologist. It was a good twenty
minutes and another half-century note before the guy in the pink jacket took
center stage again. "Cassandra," was all he said. The stage went dark
again. I could see shapes moving around, setting things up. This time I went
back to a table near the back wall. I took the tonic, left the gin. When the spot hit the
stage, a girl was seated on a padded chair, looking into a mirror. The camera
came in on her face. Belle. A mask of makeup making the soft lines hard, a
white bathrobe around her shoulders, a white ribbon around her hair. The speakers fired
into life. Nasty music, zombie-swamp blues, voodoo drums. Belle was taking off
the makeup, patting her face with cream. She shrugged her shoulders and the
robe dropped to her waist. Her breasts were enormous, standing out straight,
defying gravity in a white D-cup bra. The camera watched them in the mirror. She rose to her feet,
holding the robe in one hand at her waist like a skirt. The spotlight widened:
she was in a bedroom, white ruffled bedspread, white shag rug on the floor.
Belle stalked the white room, a young girl getting ready for bed. Running a
brush through her thick hair, maybe humming to herself. She opened her hand and
the robe dropped to the floor. Belle hooked it with one foot, delicately tossed
it onto the bed. With the robe off, it
was a different Belle on the screen. She faced the crowd in the white bra and
plain matching panties, bending slightly forward, as if she was looking out
into the night. The big woman wasn't fat; she was wasp-waisted. When she turned
sideways, the stinger was a beauty, standing out by itself, straining against
the fabric. The music came
harder. Her hips wiggled, like they had a mind of their own. She paced the
room, stretching the way a cat does, bending to touch her toes, working off the
restlessness, too wired to sleep. The speakers spit out
the music, sliding from the voodoo drums into words. Words I'd never heard
before. A man's voice, gospel-tinted blues now. Warning. Blood moon rising.
Slide guitar climbing on top of the drums, picking high notes, bending them
against the black fabric of the bass. The words came through at the bottom of
my brain; my eyes were locked on Belle. The swamp gets mean at night. Bloody shadows eat the light, Things that snarl, Things that bite, Things no man can fight. The music stayed
dense, but the tempo picked up. Belle cocked her head, listening. She unsnapped
the bra, carefully hung it on the bedpost. Her huge breasts didn't sag an inch.
She raised her hands high above her head, touching them together, standing on
her toes. She made a complete turn that way, a tiny smile on her face. Not a
muscle twitched in the smooth skin. Her body was as seamless as an air-brushed
photograph. Her shoes were gone. She stalked the little room again, listening
to the throbbing music, rolling her head on the column of her neck, working out
the kinks. A nurse, tired from a hard day's work? A waitress, finished with her
shift? The camera ran the
length of her body. Only the white panties on her hips, a thin gold chain
around her neck, a gold cross resting between her breasts. Some kind of blue
mark on the front of one thigh. Even with the camera zooming in, I couldn't
make it out. She rolled the
panties over her hips, down past her butt. It took a long time, but not because
she was teasing the audience - the panties had a long way to travel. Belle
picked them off the floor, fluffed them out, went over to the bed, and hung
them on the bedpost. On top of the white bra. The music drove
harder. Belle dropped to her
knees in front of the low bed. She clasped her hands. A little girl praying.
The camera moved from her broad shoulders, past her tiny waist, down to the
giant globes of her butt. The seamless skin was sweaty in the burning
spotlight. The words pushed back
the music. Yes, boy, you better beware, You better walk with care. You can carry a cross, You can carry a gun, But when you hear the call, you better run. There's worse things than gators out there. Worse things than gators out there. Belle's whole body
was shaking now. Trembling as the spotlight blended from white to blood-red and
back to white. She got to her feet and turned to face the crowd. She pulled
back the covers, slid into the bed. She fluffed the pillow, pulled the covers
to her shoulders, lying on her side. The mound of her hip was as high as her
shoulders. The music faded down. The lights dimmed. The music wouldn't
let her sleep. Her body thrashed under the covers. Drums working her hips,
guitar plucking her soft breasts. A blue spot burned down on her face buried in
the pillow, turning her taffy-honey hair a ghostly white. The spot turned a
softer blue, widening to cover the whole bed. The warning voice came back,
soft, demanding. Telling the truth, the way the blues always does. There's worse things than gators out there, boy. Much worse things than gators out there. Belle threw back the
covers, the music pulling her from the bed. She looked out into the night,
shook herself. She reached for her robe, put one arm into a sleeve. Then she
dropped the robe to the floor. The blue spot played
over her body as she walked into the darkness. When the lights came up,
I saw I had two more drinks in front of me. I hadn't touched them. The pile of
tenspots in front of me was lighter. I went back to my
spot at the end of the bar, no closer to talking with Belle than I'd been.
Laura came over to me, her little tray loaded with another gin-and-tonic in
separate glasses. She leaned over the bar. "You like that
act better?" I felt a hand on my
shoulder. "He sure does," said a little girl's voice. I didn't turn around.
I knew who it was. "Is this
yours?" Laura asked Belle. "All mine,"
Belle said. "I thought you
didn't like men," Laura said, a nasty little smile on her face. "I don't like
boys." Laura looked past me.
She reached her hand over to my pile of tens. Took one. Stuffed it in her
cleavage, looking over my shoulder. "Take two,"
Belle told her, razor tips on her breathy voice. Laura shrugged,
pretending she was thinking about it. She pulled another bill off the bar and
walked away. I felt Belle's face
close to mine in the darkness. Smelled her little-girl sweat. "Where's your
car?" she whispered in my ear. I told her. "Finish your
tonic. I'll meet you outside in ten minutes." I felt her move away. I was still on my
first smoke when I saw the floating white shape moving through the parking lot
toward the car. Belle. In a white shift a little smaller than a pup tent. She opened the door
and slid into the front seat. "Got a cigarette, big boy?" she asked,
her voice a parody. I gave her one.
Snapped off a wooden match, watching her face in the glare. It was scrubbed
clean again. She inhaled the way you take a hit off an oxygen tank. Her breasts
moved under the shift. Her thighs gleamed in the night. The blue mark was a
tattoo. A tiny snake, coiled in an S shape. She saw me looking. "You
like my legs?" "They look like,
if you squeezed them, you'd get juice." "Want to
try?" I put my hand on her
thigh, fitting the snake tattoo in the web between my thumb and finger. "Not that
one," she said. I moved my hand.
Squeezed. Felt the baby skin on top, the long, hard muscles beneath. I watched
her face. "No juice." "Not
there," she said, shifting her hips on the car seat. I took my hand away.
Lit another smoke. "How long were you watching?" I asked her. "How'd you
know?" "You knew where to
find me in the dark." "Maybe I worked
my way through the joint." "You knew I
wasn't drinking the gin." Belle took another
deep drag. "Maybe you are a detective," she said, a little smile
playing around her lips. "There's a strip of one-way glass that runs all
around the place. So we can see who comes in." I didn't say
anything, watching the snake tattoo. "You know why it's set up like
that?" "That joint can't be making money. The strip acts cost a lot
to package. The projection TV, the music system, all that. You're running a low
cover charge. You don't sell sex. Even with the guidos paying grope-money and
the watered drinks, the boss couldn't break even." "And . . ." "And the
building's a hell of a lot bigger than the bar." Belle took a last drag.
Threw her cigarette out the open window. "What's that tell you?" "Who knows? You
got space enough back there for trucks to pull in?" "Sure." "The airport's
real close . . ." My pack of smokes was
sitting on top of the dashboard. Belle helped herself to one. I lit it for her. "Marques said
you were a hijacker." "Marques is a
pimp." "I know. Not my
pimp. I work for me. That's why that bitch made that crack about me not liking
men. I don't sell sex." "If you did,
you'd be rich." That bought me
another smile. Then, "You came out here to tell me you're going to meet
with him?" "Tuesday
night." "Why
Tuesday?" "That's your
night off; right?" "So?" "So you're
coming along." "Says who?" "That's the
deal, Belle. Tuesday night. Pier 47. Marques knows where it is. Eleven o'clock.
Tell him to bring two grand. Tell him that's mine. For the talk." "That's a lot of
money for talk." "You get paid
for your work - I get paid for mine." Belle took another
drag. "What time will you pick me up?" "I won't. Tell
Marques it's gunfighters' rules - we each bring one person with us. He gets to
bring you." "I don't use
guns." "Neither does
the guy I'm bringing with me. Tell Marques what I said. He'll get it." "I don't want
Marques knowing where I live." "Tell him to
meet you someplace." "And after . .
." "I'll take you
home," I told her. "Should I call
you and tell you if he . . . ?" "Don't call me.
I'll be at the pier. Just tell him if he doesn't show not to call me
again." "You take me
home anyway." "Yes." Belle leaned against
me. A big, sweet-smelling girl with a snake tattoo on her thigh. She pushed her
hand against my chest, holding me against the seat. Kissed me hard on the
mouth, saying, "See you Tuesday," at the same time. I watched the white
shift dance in the dark parking lot until it disappeared behind the blue
building. Max was already dealt
in on the meeting with Marques. I could get a message to the Mole easy enough,
even if he didn't answer his phone. That still left me a few days to find the
Prof. It might take that
long. The little man could be sleeping in doorways or prowling hotel corridors.
He could be working the subway tunnels or the after-hours joints. He never had
an address, but you couldn't call him "homeless." I asked him once
why he didn't find himself a crib somewhere - why he lived in the street.
"I got the balls, and I don't like walls," he told me. He didn't have
to explain any more than that - we'd met in prison. I think "Prof'
was once short for "Professor," because he always seemed so much
older and smarter than the rest of us. But somewhere along the line, he started
telling the kind of truth they never write down in books, and now it stands for
"Prophet." A citizen couldn't
find the Prof, but I knew where he picked up his paycheck. A few years ago, I'd
fixed him up with SSI. Psychiatric disability. His official diagnosis was
"Schizophrenia. Chronic, undifferentiated." The resident at Bellevue
noted the Prof's grossly disorganized thought pattern, his grandiose pronouncements,
his delusion that he was getting his marching orders from the dead spirit of
Marcus Garvey. A typical microwave case. They tried medication and it did what
it usually does - the Prof got sleepy. It was worth the thirty-day investment.
When they discharged the Prof, they gave him a one-week supply of medication, a
standing appointment at the clinic, and what the little man called his
"crazy papers." Once a year, the federales
would send a letter to the Prof demanding a "face to face." He had to
make a personal appearance at the clinic. Not to prove that he was still crazy,
just that he was still alive. Uncle Sam likes to keep a close watch on his
money. It was a two-sided
scam. Not only did the Prof get a disability check every month, but the diagnosis
was a Get Out of Jail Free card in case he ever went down for something major.
Nothing like putting an insanity defense together before you commit the crime.
The government mails him the check to General Delivery, at the giant post
office on Eighth Avenue, right across from Madison Square Garden. There are so
many homeless people in New York that the General Delivery window does more
business than most small towns. I addressed a
postcard to the Prof. Wrote "Call home" on the back, and dropped it
in the box. By late Tuesday
evening, I had everything in place. I ate dinner at Mama's, working over my
copy of Harness Lines, looking for a horse that would make me rich. Max came in,
carrying his baby, Immaculata at his side. Mama snatched the baby from Max and
pushed him toward my booth. She took Immaculata into a corner of her own. I saw
a flash of pink as the purse changed hands. I explained to Max
that there'd be five hundred apiece for us no matter what Marques wanted. We
weren't going to rough off any extras unless the pimp got stupid. He pointed at
the racing sheet I had spread out in front of me, looked a question. I shook my
head - there was nothing worth an investment. Max held up five
fingers, looked a question. He knew Marques was paying four times that - where
was the rest of the money going? It wasn't like Max to ask. Maybe a baby
changes everything. I held one hand chest-high, waving the other in sweeping
gestures. The Prof. Then I made goggles of my hands, held them over my eyes.
Max looked a question. I made the sign of pushing a plunger with both hands,
setting off an explosion. The Mole. He looked another question - why all these
people for a meeting? I spilled salt on the table, drew a circle. I put two
coins inside the circle. Marques plus one coin. He was bringing somebody with
him. I put down two more. Me and Max. Then I added the Prof, tapping the side
of my head. I didn't know what Marques wanted and I might have to give him an
answer right there. The Prof knew the hustling scene - he'd be more on top of
Marques than I would. I picked up one more
coin, gesturing that it was the Mole. Put it on the table, deliberately outside
the circle. Patted my back. Insurance policy. Max nodded. Immaculata came over
to the table, put her hand on Max's shoulder. "Burke, is this
dangerous?" "Not a chance,
Mac," I said, making the sign of steering a car. "You think I'm going
to let Max drive?" She laughed. Max
looked burned. He thought he could drive the same way he walked: with people
stepping aside when they saw him coming. But weasels who wouldn't meet his eyes
on the street get big balls when they're behind the wheel. Driving a car, he
was a rhino on angel dust. Max kissed Flower
goodbye. Mac held the baby's little hand at the wrist, helping her wave goodbye
to her father. We found the Prof
where he said he'd be, standing by a bench at the east end of the park in Union
Square. When he saw the Plymouth pull up, he hoisted a canvas sack over one
shoulder and walked to us. The Prof was wearing a formal black tuxedo, complete
with a white carnation in the lapel. The shiny coat reached almost to his feet,
like a cattleman's duster. Some chump was going to be poorly dressed for his
senior prom. "Yo, bro', what
you know?" he greeted us, climbing in the back of the Plymouth like it was
the limo he'd been waiting for. I turned west on 14th, heading for the river. The Prof poked his head
between me and Max, linking our shoulders with his hands. "What's down,
Burke?" "Like I told
you, Prof. Marques Dupree wants a meet. He went to a lot of trouble to get to
me - walking around the edges. He's supposed to bring two G's with him.
Four-way split. All we have to do is listen to his pitch." "Who's the
fourth?" "The Mole will
be there. Off to the side." "You want me to
ride the trunk?" "No, we go in
square. I don't know what he wants, okay? I may need a translator," "The street is
my beat," said the Prof. Max looked straight
ahead. We got to the pier
around ten-thirty. I pulled the Plymouth against the railing, parked it
parallel. The pier was deserted except for a dark, boxy sedan parked about a
hundred feet behind us. We all got out. Max
was dressed in flowing black parachute pants and a black sweatshirt. Thin-soled
black leather shoes on his feet. He disappeared into the shadows. The Prof
stood next to him. I leaned against the railing a few feet away. We waited. Max
and the Prof took turns smoking, Max bending forward every time he took a drag
when it was his turn. A watcher would see the little red dots, murky shapes.
Two people. Headlights hit the
pier. A big old Rolls-Royce, plum-colored, with black fenders. I could see two
heads behind the windshield. The Rolls parked at right angles to the Plymouth.
Two doors opened. The Prof and I stepped into the outer fringe of the
headlights, letting whoever was in the car see us. Two people came
toward us. Belle was a shapeless hulk in a gray sweatsuit. Even with sneakers
on her feet, she was as tall as the man next to her. Marques Dupree. A
chesty mahogany man with a smooth, round face. He was wearing a dove-gray silk
suit with a metallic pinstripe. Deep-slashed lapels over a peach-colored shirt.
Sprayed in diamonds. He and Belle stopped in front of me. "You're
Burke?" "Yeah." "Who's
this?" Indicating the Prof. "My
brother." "You don't look
like brothers." "We had the same
father." Marques smiled. I
caught the flash of a diamond in his mouth. "I never did time,
myself." I didn't want to swap
life stories. "You want to do business?" I asked him. Marques put his hand
in his pocket, pulled out a roll of bills. A car door slammed. He didn't turn
around. "What's that?" "Just checking
your car. Making sure you didn't bring friends." "You said one
friend apiece." "You said you
never did time." Another door slammed.
I lit a cigarette. Two more slamming doors. A bright burning dot of light fired
where the dark sedan was parked. Okay. "Your trunk is
locked," I said. "I don't need to open it. Let's walk over this
way." I moved to my left,
farther away from the parked cars. Marques kept his cash in his fist. "Here it
is," I said. "If anyone opens your trunk, there's a big bang. Okay?
Everything goes right here tonight, goes like it's supposed to, my friend takes
the package off your trunk. Understand?" "No problem. You
said two large?" I nodded. Marques peeled
hundreds off his roll, letting me see the two thousand was nothing. I pocketed
the cash. Marques turned to
Belle. "Go sit in the car." She turned to go,
nothing on her face. "Stay where you are," I said. Marques shrugged, his
face showing nothing. I knew what was in his mind - if Belle was a hostage, she
was a worthless one. I lit a cigarette.
Max materialized out of the night. Marques jumped, his hands flying to his
face. Max reached out one hand, picked up the Prof by the back of his jacket,
and hoisted him to the railing. Marques slowly
dropped his hands. "You got a lot of friends, huh?" "A lot of
friends," I assured him. He adjusted his
cuffs, letting me see the diamond watch, getting his rap down smooth before he
laid it out. Pimps don't like talking on their feet. "I paid for some
time." "Here it
is." Marques took a breath
through his nose. It sounded hollow. Cocaine does that. His voice had that
hard-sweet pimp sound, promise and threat twisting together like snakes in a
basket. "We never met, but we know each other. I know what you do - you
know what I do. I have a problem. A business problem." I watched his face.
His eyes were narrow slits in folds of hard flesh. I backed up so the Prof
could put his hand on my shoulder. "I'm
listening." "I am a player.
A major player. I got a stable of racehorses, you follow me? All my girls are
stars. All white, and all right." The Prof laughed.
"You got nothing but tire-biters and streetscarfers, my man. One of your
beasts sees the front seat of a car, she thinks it's the Hilton." Marques looked at me.
"Who's this, man? Your designated hitter?" "No, pal. He's a
polygraph machine." "You know my
action or not?" I felt the Prof's
hand on my shoulder. A quick squeeze. "Yes," I
said. "Then you know I
don't run no jail bait, right? No kiddie pross in my string?" Another squeeze from
the Prof. I nodded agreement. "I am an
elevated player, you understand? That ride cost me over a hundred grand, and I
got a better one back at my crib. I wear the best, I eat the best, and I live
the best. I don't associate with these half-ass simps who think they can run on
the fast track. I don't hang around the Port Authority snatching runaways. I
don't wear no leopardskin hats, I don't flash no zircons, and that ain't no
Kansas City bankroll in my pocket. My ladies are clean machines, and they're
all of righteous age. I got lawyers, I got a bondsman, and I got my act
together, all right? I don't make trouble, and I don't take trouble." The Prof spoke up,
his voice a near-perfect imitation of the pimp's. "Okay, Jim, you ain't
Iceberg Slim. We got the beat, get to the meat." Marques smiled.
"You got some rhythm, man. The little nigger does the rapping, you just
stand there." "I talk the
talk, Burke walks the walk," the Prof told him. Marques wasn't a good
listener. "What's the chink do, man? You going to send out for Chinese
food?" The Profs voice went
soft. "This is Max the Silent, pimp. You hear the name, you should know
the game." Recognition flashed
in the pimp's eyes. "He's the one . . ." "That's right,
fool," said the Prof, cutting him off. "Max ain't
Chinese, but he sure as hell does take-out work." "You done with
the dozens?" I asked. "Yeah, man,
let's drop the games. I know you're a hijacker, I know you run guns, I know you
do work on people. I need some work done." "I don't work
for pimps." "I know that,
man. You think everybody on the street don't know who shot Merlin?" "I don't know
any Merlin." "Yeah, right.
'Course you don't. But I know Merlin was no player, man. He was a stone rapist
- that's what he was. Jumping on those little girls like an animal. Whoever
shot him did all the real players a favor." "So?" "So you got no
beef with me, man. I know you used to rough off trollers in Times Square - take
them down right in the bus station. I know you chase runaways. See what I'm saying?
I know you. That's why I didn't call myself. Didn't want you to get the wrong
idea." He waved his hand at Belle. "I paid this bitch real money just
to put you and me together." "That lady don't
look like no bitch to me," the Prof said. "Don't look like one of
yours either." Belle stepped
slightly to the side, flashing a tiny smile at the Prof. "She don't need
to be mine to be a bitch, man. They all sell their time." "I didn't know
you were a philosopher, Marques," I told him. "And I don't give a fuck.
The only time you bought here is mine. And you've about used it up." Marques locked eyes
with me. "You know the Ghost Van?" he asked. The Prof's hand bit
into my shoulder. I nodded. The pimp went on as
though I'd said no. "Big smoke-colored van. No windows. A few weeks ago,
it comes off the river on Twenty-ninth. I got ladies working that block. Van
pulls past the pack. Stops. One of the baby girls, not mine, she trots over.
The doors swing open and she drops in the street. Nobody heard a shot. The other
girls get in the wind. Papers say the little girl was fourteen. Shot in the
chest. Dead." I lit another smoke.
Beads of sweat on the pimp's smooth face, his hands working like he didn't know
where to put them. "The next week,
two more shootings. Two dead girls. One fifteen, one nineteen. I move my girls
over to the East Side, but the pickings too slim there. This van must come off
the river. The girls say it's like a ghost. One minute everything's cool; the
next this gray thing is on the street. Taking life. "Last week, one
of the little girls gets in a blue Caddy. The Caddy goes up the street. One of
my ladies gets curious; she pokes her head around the corner. Two guys get out
of the Caddy, holding the girl. She's kicking and screaming. They throw her into
the Ghost Van. The Caddy drives off and the van just fucking disappears. "My ladies don't
want to work. The street's like a church social, man. I move the girls again.
Way downtown. Brooklyn. The Bronx. Everyplace, man. Three more girls been shot,
one more snatched. All near the river. But even out of the city, working girls
be saying they seen the van. Like a hawk coming down. The girls see the shadow,
they run." "What do you
want from me?" "Cops is all
over the street. My ladies got to work someplace. If they can't work near the
river, I got a serious deficit, you follow me? Between the Man and the van, I'm
up against it. Until they take that van off, my girls are running scared,
jumping at shadows. That hurts me, man." "In the
pocket." "Yeah, okay,
Burke. You a good citizen, right? You look down on me - that's your business.
But this is your business too, the way I hear it." "How's
that?" "The van is full
of shooters and snatchers, man. And babies is what they hit. Right up your
alley, right?" "Wrong." "Look, man,
let's all be telling the truth here. The word's been out a long time - you got
a kiddie problem, you call Burke. I know you ain't no social worker. You an
outlaw, like me. You just work a different side of the street." "I work for
money." "You think I'm
here for myself? The players got together. This is bad for everyone, not just
Marques Dupree. We put up a kitty." "Pussy put up
the kitty," said the Prof. "Call it like
you see it, it make you feel better. I call it what it is." I waited. "A bounty. Fifty
thousand bucks. Dead or alive. The van's got to go. Goes to Attica, goes to
Forest Lawn, makes no difference to us." "Hire a private
eye." "I said a
bounty, man. I look like a fucking trick to you? We not paying anyone by the
hour." "Put the money
out on the street." "Can't do
that." "Why?" "We can't wait
for some faggot to drop a dime. And we can't be sure the Man will do the work
anyway." "Why not?" "We heard the
van's protected. That's all I know. But the word is out, all over the street.
Uptown, downtown. The van has to have a parking place, you got it?" The Prof's hand
worked on my shoulder again. "Yeah," I
said. "It's good
money, Burke. I'll work out any collateral you want." "You're carrying
your collateral." Marques looked
puzzled. "My jewelry?" "Your
head," I told him. He took another deep
breath. "You'll do it?" "I'll think
about it." "You need to
know anything else?" he asked. "When the van
goes down, we'll be around," said the Prof. "Let's go,
bitch," Marques said to Belle. "She'll go with
me," I said. Marques Dupree
smiled. "You like cows?" "Go home and
play with your coat hangers," I told him, waving to the Mole. So Marques
could open his trunk later without losing his collateral. The Rolls moved off.
"Wait in the car," I told Belle. She waggled her fingers at the Prof
in a goodbye. "Good night, pretty lady," he said. Max stood
stone-still. I watched her walk
away. "Prof, you know
what he was running down?" "The van's for real,
Burke. It's been all over the street for weeks." "You know
something?" "Something. When
I know it all, I'll give you the call." I gave Max his five hundred, a
thousand to the Prof. "Take care of
the Mole - he'll drop you off." Max bowed. I shook hands with the Prof.
"Watch yourself," I told him. I got into the
Plymouth. Belle was sitting against the passenger door, looking out at the
river through the open window. "Where to?"
I asked her, watching the dark sedan pull away. Belle reached into
the waistband of her sweatsuit, pulled out a pack of smokes. I handed her my
little box of wooden matches, waiting. She inhaled deeply. It was like watching
the Alps shift. "You know Broad
Channel?" "Sure." "I'll show you
once we get on to Cross Bay Boulevard." I pointed the
Plymouth downtown, heading for the Battery Tunnel. "How'd you meet
Marques?" "When I first
came to New York. I was working at Rosie's Show Bar." "Dancing?" "I was a
barmaid." "He try and turn
you out?" "He thinks I'm a
lesbian. Okay?" She knew the score.
Plenty of lesbians turn tricks, but a smart pimp doesn't want one in his
stable. One day he turns around and he's missing two girls. "They think the
same thing at that joint you work at?" "The boss doesn't
care one way or the other." "So why did
Marques pick you for a messenger?" "It's one of the
things I do. I carry stuff, drive a car, deliver a message . . . like that, you
know?" "You carry
powder?" "No." "That's where
the money is." "The fall's too
far." "You ever been
down?" "Just overnight
a couple of times. Once for a week. ln West Virginia." "What for?" "The cops
thought I drove on a bank job. They didn't want me - I was just a kid - they
wanted the gunman." "They only held
you a week?" She caught something
in my tone. "I stood up, Burke. The P.D. got bail for me and I caught a
bus north. I know how to do It - if I go to jail, I go by myself." "You never did
time - where'd you learn the rules?" Belle smiled in the
dark. Slapped the side of one thigh. "Maybe I'm too heavy to roll
over." I looped the Plymouth
onto the Belt Parkway, heading east to Queens. A red panel truck ahead of me
changed lanes suddenly, cutting me off. I tapped the brakes, flicked the wheel
to the right, touched the gas. The Plymouth flowed around the panel truck like
a shark passing a rowboat. Belle wiggled her hips deep into the seat, testing
her balance. "This car's a
lot more than it looks." "So are
you." Her smile flashed
again. A prim smile, showing just the tips of her teeth. I wheeled the
Plymouth off the Belt, picking my way through Ozone Park. No reason for Marques
to have the car followed, but Belle said she played by our rules - she wouldn't
want the pimp knowing where she lived. We stopped at a light. An abandoned
factory stood to the side, waiting for a developer to finish the job a fire
started years ago. It was wallpapered with graffiti except for a broad
rectangle in the center that somebody had carefully whitewashed. On that white
canvas was a message, lovingly slash-scripted by a gifted graffiti-writer.
Day-Glo orange letters, shadowed in black so they screamed off the wall. DISS AT YOUR OWN RISK! Belle read the
message, fascinated, going over every word, biting her lower lip. "What does
it mean. 'Diss'?" "It's short for
'disrespect.' This is a border town. Black and white." She didn't say
another word until we turned onto the Boulevard. I followed her directions into
Broad Channel. Mostly little bungalows, set close together, right on the water.
Years ago they were summer shacks, but most of them had been fixed up now, and
people lived there year-round. The cottage was at
the end of a short block. White with blue trim around the one window, the dark
roof almost flat across the top. Her red Camaro was parked in front. "This is
me," she said. I slid the Plymouth
to the curb, killed the engine. The block was quiet, every house dark. "Come in with
me?" Belle asked. The cottage was set close
to the sidewalk, the path to her front door only a few feet long. She turned
her key in the door, pushed it open, stepped aside. The inside of the house was
in shadow; a soft light coming from the back. Belle motioned me to go ahead of
her. "You first,"
I said. A little smile.
"You being polite? Or scared?" "Scared." She walked in ahead
of me. I watched from the doorway, gently pushing the door back and forth with
my left hand, feeling for resistance. Belle bent from the waist in the shadows.
I heard a click. A lamp came to life. She rnoved a few feet. Another. "Close the door
behind you," she said. The cottage was one
big room. A long modular couch took up one wall, side tables with lamps on
either end. The kitchen was strung out along the opposite wall,
Hollywood-style, everything half-size. The side walls were blank, no windows. "You want
coffee?" "No,
thanks." I lit a cigarette,
walking toward the couch. The back of the house was still dark. I could see a
triple-width window next to a door on the far left, a bed on the right. Belle pulled the top
of the sweatsuit over her head, tossing it into a white plastic basket next to
the refrigerator. Her black bra was some kind of jersey material, the straps
crossing behind her back so her shoulders were bare. She stepped out of the
sweatpants. Underneath she had what looked like a pair of men's white boxer
shorts. She took her coffee
cup in one hand, a pack of cigarettes in the other. Walked to the back door. I opened it for her,
followed her outside. A wood deck stretched out in the black water, a
waist-high railing on both sides. The other cottages had decks too. I saw a
small sailboat tied to one, a rowboat with an outboard to another. Belle walked
out to the end, carefully balancing her coffee cup. "Hold this,"
she said, handing the coffee and cigarettes to me. She turned her back to the
water, one palm out to each side, and vaulted herself onto the railing. I put
the coffee cup on one side of her perch, handed her back the smokes. She kicked
one out, leaned forward, one hand on my shoulder for balance. I lit it for her. I could feel the
night air's chill through my jacket. Belle didn't seem to notice. I leaned my
elbows on the railing next to her, watching the harbor lights a half-mile away.
I felt her hand on my shoulder again. "Did you really
do all that stuff?" A soft voice, loaded with her breath. A girl's voice.
The twisted snake tattoo stood out sharply on her thigh, inches from my face. "What
stuff?" "What that guy
said tonight." "No." She giggled the way
kids do when they know you're playing with them. "Yes, you
did," she said. I shrugged. "I have
something you might be interested in," she said, her voice quiet. "You got
something anybody'd be interested in." She giggled. "I didn't
mean that. Business. Can I tell you about it?" "Not here." "Why?" "Sound carries
over water." She put an arm around
my neck, pulling her face close to mine. Whispering. "You think I don't
know that? I was raised on the water. Inside." "Okay." I turned toward the
house, slipping an arm around her waist. She slid off the railing against me,
her legs pointing straight out. I threw up my other arm instinctively, grabbing
her thighs. Belle nestled into my arms. "Carry me," she said,
soft-voiced. "I'll get a
double hernia," I growled at her, leaning against the railing for support. "Please." I would have shrugged
again, but I needed all my strength. She ducked her head
into my chest as we went through the door, pushing it closed with her toe. I
tried to put her down on the couch gently, but I dropped her the last couple of
feet. I flopped down next
to her. "I love to be carried," she said, leaning over and kissing my
cheek. "Don't get used
to it." Belle bounced off the
couch. She came back in a minute. Put her coffee cup in the sink, lit two
cigarettes off the gas burner, walked over, and handed one to me. "You
first," she said. I dragged deep on the
cigarette, wondering how she knew. "That music . .
." "In my
act?" "Yeah. Swamp
blues. I never heard it before. Louisiana?" "Florida. It's
an old record. I don't even know the singer. I found it in a store in the
city." "How do you know
it's from Florida?" Belle got off the
couch. Walked over to the darkened bed. She hit a light switch. The bed was
low, covered in white, a white rug on the floor. It was the bed in her act. She came back to the
couch, pulling her bra over her head as she walked. Turned off the two lamps on
the end tables, one by one. She stretched out full-length on the couch, her
head in my lap, facing up at me, eyes closed. Even with her arms at her sides,
her breasts stood straight up at me, carved in flesh. Her face was
indistinct in the soft light, her eyes lost in the sheaf of taffy-honey hair.
No lipstick on her mouth. Only the tiny chin with its sharp point moving. "I'm from
Florida. When I heard that song, I knew it was a home call. Understand?" "Yeah." She took my hand,
pressed it to where her breast covered her heart. I could feel the beat.
Strong, slow, steady. "What did you think
of my act?" "I never saw
anything like it before." "Each girl gets
to design her own. As long as our clothes come off before the lights go
out." "It's a
psychiatric mirror." "A what?" "A psychiatric
mirror. You do your act - people watch it - they all see something different -
if you knew what they were thinking, you'd know them." "Like that
inkblot test?" "Just like
that." Belle sighed. A tiny
slash of white across her face where she chewed her lower lip. "It's true.
Men send notes backstage." "You ever answer
them?" "No. I'm like
you." "What does that
mean?" "I don't work
for pimps either." "You could work
for yourself." "I do work for
myself - I'm not for sale." She reached for my
cigarette, ignoring her own. Put it in her mouth, took a deep drag. The smoke
shot out her nose. I watched her stomach muscles flex. "Did it work on
you?" "What?" "My act - did
you think of something?" I bit into the
cigarette filter. "I saw it like a play. Young girl coming into herself.
Things pulling at her. Evil calling. "Tell the truth
- you saw a play?" 'Like a play. It all
meant something." "Not what you
think." "Yeah, exactly
what I think. That's the way the mirror works." Belle pulled herself
into a sitting position, her back to me. She got to her feet, took my hand.
"Come on," she said. She walked over to
the bed. Put a hand against my chest. "Stay here," she said. She
hooked her thumbs into the waistband of the shorts, pulling them over her hips,
dropping them to her feet. She stepped out of the shorts and padded to the bed.
She fell to her knees, bent forward onto the bed, her hands clasped in front of
her. "Tell the
truth," she said again, her little-girl voice almost hissing. Demanding.
"What did you see?" I looked at the
shadows play over her body. "I saw a young girl. Praying." "What did it
make you want to do?" she whispered, looking back at me over one shoulder,
wiggling her butt. I took a breath.
Telling the truth. "Answer your prayers," I told her. Her little chin came
up, smile flashing. "Come on," she said She stayed on her
knees, watching me over her shoulder. She cocked her head to one side,
listening as my clothes hit the floor. "Where's your
gun?" "I don't have
one." "Marques
did." "I know - in his
left-hand pocket," I said, standing next to her, my hand on her shoulder. She came to her feet,
facing me. Without the heels, she was maybe a half-inch shorter than me. Her
eyes were set so close together it was hard to look into them. I ran two
fingers along her jawline, feeling for bone lost in the soft flesh, cupping her
little chin. I kissed her softly, feeling her lips swell. Her teeth clicked
against mine. "How'd you know
he had a gun?" she asked, her tongue darting out, whispering into my
mouth. I moved my hands to
her waist, and down to her sculptured butt, feeling the soft skin, squeezing
the hard muscles beneath the surface. She locked her hands behind my head and
fell backward, pulling me down with her. The bed was hard. No
springs squeaked when our weight came down. I landed on top of her, but she
slid out from underneath me slick as an otter leaving a rock in the water. She
snuggled into my chest, nudging me onto my back with her shoulder, one hand
trailing across my stomach, throwing a thigh over mine. She burrowed her face
into my neck, her whole body quivering. "You have to
tell me," she whispered. "I have to know those things." "Why?" She reached her free
hand between my legs, wrapping it around me, rubbing the tip with the pad of
her thumb. "You think this is the answer to my prayers?" "I had
hopes," I said. "Come on, honey.
How'd you know?" "When you walked
up with him, he didn't want you on his left side. When you moved away, he was
more relaxed." "So?" "So either he
was carrying on his left side or you were holding a piece for him." "How'd you know
I wasn't?" "You kept your
hands free. The clothes you had on - that sweatsuit - you couldn't get to it in
time. Besides, you weren't his woman." "Because I said
so?" "The way you
carried yourself." She stroked me
gently, her mind somewhere else. Mine wasn't. "What if you
were wrong?" "Huh?" "What if I was
carrying?" "You're not fast
enough to make it work." "Not fast enough
for you?" "For Max." "Which one was
Max?" "The guy that
didn't speak." "He was ten feet
away from me." I shrugged. She shifted her
weight, holding her head in one hand, her elbow cocked against the bed. Her
breast was an inch from my face. The dark nipple looked tiny against the white
globe. I kissed it. Her hand pulled against me in response. "He's really
that fast?" "Faster." Belle moved her head
into my chest again. Her hand slid down the shaft, cupping my balls, lifting
them gently, like she was trying to guess their weight. Her voice was all soft
curves, hardness flexing underneath, the same as her body. "Tell the
truth. When you saw me in the club - in the play - and you wanted to answer my
prayers?" "Yeah?" "What did you
want to do?" "I'm not sure .
. ." "Tell me!"
she whispered hard against my chest, her hand closing on me. "I wanted to
rescue you," I said. She moved her hand
back to the shaft, shifting her body on top of mine, fitting me inside her. She
was wet - I slid in like a bullet being chambered. Her hands were on either
side of me, taking her weight, her breasts brushing my face. I moved my hands
to her butt as she started to grind against me. Her mouth came down
to mine. "Rescue me," she said. When I woke up a while
later, Belle's face was on the pillow next to mine, her body still covering me.
I couldn't see my watch. I flexed my shoulders to see if I could slide from
under her without waking her up. "You want a
cigarette, baby?" "I didn't know
you were awake," I said. "I never went to
sleep. I've been here all along." "How come you
didn't get up?" "I was guarding
you," she said, her face close to mine. "I knew the only way you'd
sleep is if I didn't move." She padded over to
the kitchen, opened a door next to the refrigerator. I heard water running.
Belle came back with a big glass ashtray, cigarettes and matches inside, a
washcloth over one shoulder. She bent over me, set the ashtray on the far side.
She put a cigarette in her mouth, fired it up, handed it to me. Lit one for
herself. She smiled down at me
in the darkness. "Are you my boyfriend now?" I thought I was going
to laugh - it came out kind of a snort. "Your boyfriend?" "Yes, my
boyfriend." "What does that
mean?" "I don't know. I
never had a boyfriend. But if you rescued me, you have to be my boyfriend,
right?" "If that's what
it takes to rescue you, there must have been a thousand applicants for the
job." She bent to kiss me.
"You're a sweet man. But that was a down payment. I'm not rescued
yet." She ground out her
cigarette, pulled the washcloth off her shoulder. Started to clean me off, not
being that gentle about it. The washcloth was wet, warm. I felt myself growing
in her hands. I finished my
cigarette. Belle was still scrubbing me like she was going to use my cock for
surgery, kneeling on the floor, her body at right angles to mine. I lit
another. She tossed the washcloth aside, climbed on the bed, her knees next to
my chest. She bent forward and took me in her mouth, her butt in the air,
blocking my view of the rest of the world. She took her mouth
from me, peeking back over one shoulder, licking her lips. "Put out your
cigarette." "Why?" "I don't want
you to burn me." "I wouldn't burn
you." She caught the
warning in my voice. "I didn't mean on purpose, honey," she
whispered. "I know you're not like that." I held the cigarette
in my left hand, took a deep drag, my right hand stroking her outside thigh. "Just don't keep
it in your mouth," she said, bending forward again, nibbling at my cock.
She swallowed the engorged tip, sucking hard. I put the cigarette in my mouth,
dragging deep, letting the smoke bubble out my nose, lost in the feeling. Belle moved her
inside foot against me, sliding it onto my chest. I shifted the cigarette to my
left hand as she threw her leg over, straddling me, her butt still in the air,
now squarely in front of me. She wiggled her rear, sucking, working her tongue.
I took another drag. Her butt came down, moving toward my face. I flashed my
right hand hard against her cheek, a sharp crack in the quiet room. She pointed her butt
in the air again, pulling her mouth off me. "Was that a message - or did
you just want to see what it felt like?" "A
message," I told her. "Why didn't you
just tell me?" "There wasn't
time." She pivoted on her
knees so her face was close to mine. "You don't want to taste me?" "No." "Why not, honey?
Don't you think I'd be sweet?" "It's not
that." "You think a man
doesn't do stuff like that?" I snubbed out the
cigarette. "I don't think that. It's just not me." "Prison?" "It's not that
simple. There's no code against it." I laughed. "The only cons who
swear they've never eaten a woman are pimps." Belle rubbed her face
against my chest. "Wouldn't you do something to make me happy?" "Some. Things. You
understand?" "I'd do whatever
you want." "The only way it
works is if you do what you want, Belle. That's the only thing that goes the
distance." She lit a cigarette
for herself. "Do you have a
woman?" "Yes." "With you?" "No." "Where is
she?" "I don't know." The tip of her
cigarette flared. "But you love her - you're waiting for her?" "Yes." "She's coming
back?" "I don't
know." She ran her hands
through her hair, holding it in a bun on top of her head, looking down at me. "Will you love
me?" "I never thought
I would love her," I said. She held the
cigarette to my mouth. Her face was intent in the light it threw. She didn't
have to ask me to tell the truth - he knew it when she heard it. "I'm going to
love you, Burke. And you're going to rescue me." She moved her hand away
from my face, leaving the cigarette in my mouth. "If I try to sit
on your face again, you going to give me another smack?" "You want me to
tell you another way?" She spun on her knees
again, bending her face down again. She looked back over her shoulder.
"No, send me another message. I like the way you did it." Her mouth locked onto
me again. I went hard in her mouth. She rubbed her thighs together. My hand
stroked her butt. Her thighs opened. I stroked my fingers against the back of
her knees. A liquid drop fell into my hand. I felt the pinpricks of pressure in
my balls, tightening into a thick mass. I hooked my hand around the front of
her thigh, pulling her toward me. She wouldn't move, sucking harder now. Strega
flashed into my mind - Strega and her witch games. I jerked her thigh hard,
trying to pull her face off me. It was rigid as a cell bar. "Belle," I
whispered. "Come here." She didn't move. I
cracked her hard against the same cheek I'd hit before. She made a humming
noise but stayed where she was. I hit her twice more, feeling the sting in my
palm, wondering what she felt. Her mouth came off my
cock. She crawled forward on the bed, throwing a leg over me. She pushed her
butt between my legs until I was smoothly inside her, moved to her knees,
straddling my body, her back to me. "Come on!"
she said, her voice hard, bucking until we both got there. She slept then. On
her stomach, one arm flung across my chest. I slipped under it, found the
bathroom. It was small-scale, like the kitchen. Cheap black-and-white tile
covered the floor and ran halfway up the wall from the tub. The hot water came
up right away; the pressure was good that time of night. I took a quick shower,
used some of her Brand-X shampoo, toweled myself off. The little medicine
cabinet was empty except for a toothbrush and a bottle of aspirin. A plastic
hairbrush and a bottle of green mouthwash stood on the sink. I wondered where
she kept all her makeup . . . maybe on the dressing table near her bed. The bathroom was full
of steam, the mirror cloudy. I wiped it off, looked at my face. Whatever she
wanted, she hadn't seen it there. My foot hit something
under the sink. A black metal box with a latch on the front, carry-handle on
top. I popped it open. Sterile bandages, individually wrapped. A roll of gauze.
Elastic tape. Three scalpels with different-sized blades. A pair of surgical
scissors. A bottle of iodine. Two more of sulfa powder. A pair of matching
plastic vials, both full, unlabeled. I opened them. Penicillin. Percodan. There
was no tag on the metal box, but I knew what it was. Bulletwound kit. The refrigerator had
a half-empty carton of milk, a lump of cream cheese, and a head of lettuce
under a plastic wrap. I found some ice cubes, filled a glass, let it get cold
while I got dressed. I sipped the water in
the easy chair near her bed, smoking, trying to think it through. A Ghost Van
in my mind. Belle rolled over on
her side as her eyes came open. "This time you guarded me," she said. "I've got to
go," I told her. "Let me take a
shower first." She didn't wait for an answer, shoving past me to the
bathroom. It was still dark outside - my watch said it was almost four-thirty. She came out of the
bathroom brushing her hair, her body gleaming wet. "Why do you have
to go?" she wanted to know, stepping close to where I was sitting. "There's
something I have to take care of." "What's her
name?" she asked, a mock-growl in her voice. "Pansy." She pulled back.
"You better be kidding." "Pansy's a dog.
My dog." She giggled.
"You have a dog named Pansy? You tie ribbons in her hair and all
that?" "She's about
your size." "I'd like to see
that." "You will." "Can I come with
you?" "Not this time,"
I said, getting to my feet. She put her arms
around my neck, pushing her nose so close to mine that my eyes went out of
focus. "You'll be back here tonight?" "I thought you
had to work." "I'll call in
sick. Most of the girls do that after their night off - it's no big deal." "Okay," I
said, running my hands down her smooth back to the swelling of her rear. "What are you
thinking?" "I was thinking
if I pressed a quarter against your back and let it go it would fly off your
ass like it was a ski slope." She slipped her hand
between us, patting my crotch. "You got a quarter in there
someplace?" "No," I
said, pushing gently against her. "I have to go - no joke." She put her hand in
mine, walking me toward her door. "Burke, you know when you didn't want to
taste me? You said that wasn't you, right?" I made a yes noise,
walking with her. "That's okay.
You can be you. It's okay that I keep dancing?" "If that's what
you want to do." "I'm telling the
truth now, Burke. I'm going to love you. And you're going to love me too, when
you see how I am. But I have to be me while I do it, understand?" "I'm not arguing
with you, Belle." She put her mouth on
my ear, whispering in that little-girl breathy voice, holding my hand tight.
"I'm me. You don't change for me - I don't change for you. But I wouldn't
let you dance." "That means
what?" Her voice was pure
and sad in my ear. "If Pansy's a dog, like you said, I'm going to pat her.
If she's a woman, I'll kill her." She kissed me on the
cheek, pushed me away, stood to the side while I stepped out the door. I looked back at the
cottage as I climbed into my car. It was dark. The Plymouth tracked
its way back to the office, its monster motor barely turning over. The all-news
station was talking about Kuwaiti ships flying the American flag in the Persian
Gulf, minesweepers guarding the point. I flipped to the oldies station.
Screamin' Jay Hawkins. "I Put a Spell on You." Growling his
love-threats to his woman and to the world. I don't care if you don't want me, I'm yours Right now. Belle would know he
was telling the truth. Most of the traffic
was trucks, highballing it toward the city. A customized van passed on my
right. Big glass doors cut into the side, a plastic bubble on its roof. As it
went by, I saw a narrow metal ladder running from the bumper up to the roof. A
mural was painted on the back - some religious scene. I lit a smoke. The
van I was looking for was a custom job too. I knew that meant something, but I
couldn't lock in on it. It would come. If Marques was right,
the van had been working for a few weeks now. Time enough for the police to be
on the job. I flicked my cigarette out the window, wondering if McGowan was
working nights. Bob Seger came
through the radio. "Still the Same." Motor City blues. Somebody once
said it was about a guy catching up with his old girlfriend, but it never
sounded like that to me. It sounded like a kid
catching up with his father. I let Pansy out to
her roof. Picked up the phone on my desk, checked for hippies. All quiet. I
dialed a number. "Runaway Squad,
Officer Thompson speaking." A young woman's voice. "Is McGowan
around?" "Hold on." I lit a smoke,
waiting. Any other detective bureau in the city, they ask you who's calling.
The Runaway Squad knows most of the callers won't give their names. "McGowan,"
said the voice on the phone. The same hard-sweet voice pimps use, but McGowan
did it different, giving you your choice. "It's Burke.
We're working the same case. Got a few minutes to meet with me?" "I'm off at
eight. Breakfast at Dino's? Eight-fifteen, eight-thirty?" "I'll be
there," I told him, and put down the phone. Pansy ambled in, rested her
head in my lap. I patted her. "You're always glad to see me, aren't you,
girl?" She didn't answer me. I pushed her head off
my lap, helped myself to a drink of ice water from the refrigerator. I took out
two hard-boiled eggs, cracked them against the wall, peeled off the shells. "Wake me in an
hour," I told Pansy, handing her the eggs. I closed my eyes so I
wouldn't see the mess she made. When I opened my
eyes, it was seven-thirty. I took another shower, changed my clothes: I let Pansy
out again, watching her run around while I took a deep slug of Pepto-Bismol.
Eating at Dino's on an empty stomach was dangerous. I drove north on the
West Side Highway, moving against the snarled rush-hour traffic. Dino's was on
Twelfth Avenue, about ten blocks south of Times Square. Yuppies in New York are
heavy into diner food now, but Dino's wasn't going to make the list. McGowan's unmarked
cruiser was parked right out front, empty slots on either side. I pulled in,
not wasting my time trying to spot him through the greasy windows. He was sitting in a
booth near the back corner, hat tipped back on his long Irish face, cigar in
his mouth. Wearing a dark suit, a shirt that had once been white, a blue tie
that had never been silk. I sat across from him, my back to the door. We'd
known each other a long time. He shook his head
sharply before I could open my mouth, tilting his chin up. Somebody coming. It was only three
hours into her shift, but the waitress was already tired, her broad face lined
with strain. Still, she had a smile for McGowan. They all did. "Good morning,
lovely Belinda," he greeted her. "How's the play coming?" "It comes about
like I do, McGowan. Not too often." "Nothing good
comes easy, my little darling," he said, turning aside gloom like a
bullfighter. He took one of her hands, holding it in his, patting her. "Belinda, it was
your choice. A lovely young girl like you, the boys would be all over you and
they had a chance. But it's not the life of a housewife for my girl, is it now?
Your play will come. Your day will come." "Ah, McGowan . .
." she said, trying to sneer at his blarney. But the smile came out, like
they both knew it would. "Give me two of
your finest eggs, sunny-side up. Bacon, toast, and some Sanka, will you,
girl?" She wrote it down,
turned to me. "Two eggs, fried
over hard, break the yolks. Ham, rye toast, apple juice. Burn everything." "You got
it," the waitress said, moving away, the bounce back in her walk. McGowan puffed on his
cigar, knowing we wouldn't talk until the food came. "How's
Max?" "The same." "I heard he was
a proud papa." "That's on the
street?" "Sure," he
said, watching me closely. "Any problem with it?" I shrugged. No point
asking McGowan where he got it - maybe from one of the little girls he brought to
Lily's program, maybe . . . The food came and we
ate. It didn't take either
of us long. Swallowing it wasn't as bad as looking at it. The Senator's Motto. Belinda cleared our
plates. McGowan settled down over his second cup of Sanka, relighting his mangy
cigar. "So?" "The Ghost Van -
you know it?" "Everybody knows
it." "Any more than
what's been in the papers?" "A bit. What's
your interest?" "Some people
want me to find it." "And take it off
the street?" "It's just an
investigation. The people who want me to do this job don't have anything
personal at stake. For all they care, I find it, I could call the cops." McGowan leaned across
the table, his Irish blues going cop-hard. "It's personal to me, Burke.
The swine shot one of my girls." "When?" "The second
shooting. Little girl named Darla James. Fifteen years old, and on the stroll
for the last two. I was close to taking her off the track. Real close, Burke.
They put two into her chest at twenty feet - she never had a prayer." I lit a smoke,
watching his face. McGowan had been working the cesspool for twenty years and
he'd never fired his gun. He won some and he lost a hell of a lot more, but he
always kept coming. He played the game square, and we all respected him. "You want me out
of it - I'm out of it," I told him. "I want you in
it, pal. In fact, I was going to put it out on the wire last week for you to
come around. These are bad, bad people, Burke." "How do you make
it?" He puffed on the
cigar, his eyes still hard, but not looking my way. "Has to be a vigilante
trip. One of those sicko cults. They're shooting the poor little girls to fight
the devil. Or maybe they're sacrificing bodies to Satan. It all comes out the
same." "You sure?" "I'm not sure of
anything. I'll tell you what we have - it's precious little enough." I kept my hands on
the table, where he could see them. McGowan would know I don't write things
down, but he looked upset enough to forget. "Tell me,"
I said. "There's been
five girls shot, not the three the papers reported. And two snatched - not just
the one everybody knows about. Ballistics says they were all shot with the same
piece. Military hardware, probably an M-16, or one of those Russian jobs.
High-speed ammo. Ballistics says the slugs were twenty-two-caliber." "They mean
5.56-millimeter. About the same thing." "Whatever,"
McGowan snarled. He wasn't a forensics man. "The girls were all torn up
inside - ripped to pieces. Dead before they hit the ground." 'You ever find either
of the girls who were snatched?'' "Not a
trace." "Were all the
girls underage?" "Either that or
they looked it." "You sure it's
random?" "We thought of
that. Questioned half the pimps in Times Square. We can't make a
connection." "Who's 'we'? The
Commissioner got a task force working on this?" McGowan's laugh was
too ugly to be cynical. "Task force? Sure, and why would they be doing
that? It's not like it was citizens getting killed." I sipped my apple
juice, thinking out loud to draw him in. "Seems like a strange piece to
use . . ." McGowan's eyes
snapped into focus. "Why?" "It's not an
assassin's weapon. Doesn't have the shock power of a heavier slug. That high
speed's a waste at such close range. The bullets fly so fast that they tumble
around as soon as they hit something. That's why the girls were so torn up
inside. And it makes a hell of a bang - real hard to silence." I took another drag,
thinking it through. I wasn't playing with McGowan: it really didn't make
sense. "Automatics jam," I told him. "You know that - that's why
they don't let you guys carry the nine-millimeters you want. So why risk an
automatic when you're only going to fire off a couple of shots? And if it was
so random, why didn't they just sweep the street? With an M-16, they could chop
down a dozen girls just as easy as one. You check with ATF?" "They're too
busy looking for Uzis. The guy I talked with said what you said. Doesn't even
have to be a military piece - there's all kinds of semi-auto stuff floating
around – AK-47s, AR-15s. Takes ten minutes to convert them to full auto, he said." "It's still the
wrong gun for killing at close range. A heavier piece, even if you hit someone
in the arm, you'd blow it right off. They'd be dead before the ambulance got
there." "Maybe it's all
they have?" "Doesn't add up.
This is an expensive deal, McGowan. And for what?" His honey voice
turned sour. "Couple of bullets and gas money - it don't sound so
expensive to me." 'You ever find the
van?" "No. So?" "So they didn't
dump it after the shootings. So they have to have a place to stash it. They got
to have at least a driver, a hooter, and another guy to fling open the doors.
And the snatch . . . they had a switch-car for that, right?" "Where'd you
hear that?" "Out
there," I said, pointing vaguely out the greasy window. "Yeah. We found
the switch-car. Took it apart, piece by piece. We got some decent prints, but
no match." "Anything
else?" "There's no
pattern. No thread. The girls didn't know each other. Two were on the runaway
list, but that doesn't mean anything. Half the little hookers out there were on
the list one time or another." "Any mail?" He knew what I meant.
Some serial killers have to tell the cops how clever they are. "No letters. No
phone calls. Blank fucking zero. It's so bad the pimps aren't even afraid to be
seen talking to us - they want these guys off the street too. I even heard talk
about a bounty . . ." His eyes locked on mine. "You hear anything
about a bounty, Burke?" I met his stare.
"No." It didn't impress the
cop. He knew where I'd been raised. "People like that
. . . who knows what could happen if they were arrested. A smart lawyer . . .
maybe some kind of NGI deal . . . drop a few dimes. Maybe they'd make it a
goddamned miniseries." NGI. Not Guilty,
Insanity. "Better they don't get arrested," I said quietly. His eyes were ball
bearings. I headed back to my
office, weaving through the West Side blocks, checking the action. It looked
the same to me. If the Ghost Van was trying to keep baby pross off the street,
it wasn't working. I couldn't pick up the scent - you have to work close to the
ground to do that. If it was out there, the Prof would find it. Called Mama from a
pay phone. Nothing. Back at the office, I
let Pansy out to her roof. I had a few more calls to make, but they'd have to
wait until the afternoon. Pansy ambled over to
the desk, where I was working on the racing form, making that snarling noise
she does when she's trying to tell me something. I knew what she wanted.
"I was at Dino's," I told her, explaining why I hadn't bought her a
present. There was a trotter I
fancied in the fourth race at Yonkers. Mystery Mary, a five-year-old mare,
moving down from Canada. She'd been running in Open company at Greenwood,
finishing pretty consistently in the money, but no wins. She had a lot of early
speed, which is unusual for a mare, but she kept getting run down in the deep
stretch. Greenwood is a five-eighths-of-a-mile track - a long run from the
three-quarter pole to the finish line. Yonkers was a half-miler - a longer
launch and a shorter way home. She was moving up to higher purses in New York,
but I thought she had a shot if she could get away clean. I checked the last
eight races. Mystery Mary was a surefooted little trotter - no breaks on her
card. The morning line had her at 6 - 1. Most of the OTB bettors would use the
Daily News as a handicapping form. All that would show is her last three outs:
two thirds and a fifth-place finish. I made a mental note to call my broker
before the close of business, flipped on the TV, and kicked back on the couch.
The last thing I remember before falling asleep was Abbott telling Costello
that paying back rent was like betting on a dead horse. It wasn't a good
sleep. Dark, fleshy dreams. Flood facing the Cobra, the snake on his arm
turning into the tattoo on Belle's thigh. Strega licking her bloody lips, crazy
eyes full of ugly promises. The Ghost Van zoomed up a narrow street, a silent
gray shark. Max at the end of the block, waiting, shielding Flower in one arm. I woke up before the
crash, sweating like when I'd had malaria. Sergeant Bilko was on the TV. A
little past three o'clock. I took a shower,
changed my clothes. Pansy jumped on the couch as I was walking out the door. Mama still had
nothing for me. I dropped another quarter, called Maurice. He answered in his
usual breezy style. "Yeah?" "It's
Burke." "This a social
call, or what?" "Yonkers. Give
me the two horse, fourth race. A deuce to win." "At Yonkers.
Horse number two, race number four. Two on the nose, is that right?" "Right. How you
doing, Maurice?" "You want
conversation, play fucking Lotto," he said, hanging up. I changed phones, fed
another quarter. I don't know why they make dimes anymore. I rang the
direct-line number of a reporter I know. "Morelli." "It's Burke. You
got anything outside the clips on this Ghost Van?" "Bullshit
gossip. Cop talk. Nothing good." "The cops thirik
they're close?" "They're waiting
for the van to get a parking ticket." "Can you pull
the clips for me?" "You
looking?" "Looking around,
anyway." "You'll clue me
in front?" "If I can." "I'll pull the
clips, leave them downstairs by six. Okay?" "Yeah. Could you
do a NEXIS spin too? See if there's any more van jobs around the country?" "You think it's
a group?" "No, but check
anyway." "You got
it." One more call. Belle
answered on the first ring, sounding like she ran a hundred yards to snatch it
off the hook. "Hello?" "It's me. Want
to get some dinner?" "Oh, I'm
starved. There's nothing in the house." "I know. Why
didn't you go out?" "I knew you were
going to call." "I said . . .
never mind. I'll pick you up in an hour, okay?" "Hurry up,"
she said. I put the phone down,
moving fast to beat the charge out of the city. I pulled in behind the
red Camaro a little after five. The door opened as my fist came down to knock.
A hand came around my neck, pulling me inside. Belle mashed her face against
mine, kissing me hard, firing her hip at the door to close it. She pulled her face
back a couple of inches, still holding on to me. "That was a cold
kiss. Didn't you miss me?" "I was working,
Belle." Her mouth went down
at the corners. "I'm sorry," she said. "I didn't mean to push
you." I put my hand on the
back of her neck, working the tight muscles, keeping my voice quiet. "You're not
pushing me. You don't know me, okay? I don't show a lot on the surface -it's
not my way." "You did miss
me?" "I did miss
you." She twirled away,
flashing a smile. Her face was all made up, the blue eye shadow making her eyes
look bigger, bright lipstick smeared on her teeth. She was wearing a
fire-engine-red T-shirt big enough for a linebacker. It fell to mid-thigh, just
covering the tattoo. "I'm just about
ready, baby. Give me a minute. I have to find my shoes." She scooped a pair of
glasses from the dressing table. Big round lenses with a light-blue tint,
sitting in a thin black plastic frame. "Here they are," she said
happily, dragging a pair of red spike-heeled shoes from under the bed. "Belle." She was bending forward,
slipping on the shoes. Black panties that didn't have a prayer of covering her
rump peeked out as the T-shirt rose. "What, honey?" "You're going
out like that?" Her face fell.
"You don't like it?" Damn. "It's not
that," I said quietly, walking over to her, taking her chin in my hand.
With the spikes on, she was taller than me - l had to look up into her eyes. "You go on the
street like that, every man that's not brain-dead is going to remember
you." "So?" "So it's not my
game to attract attention, girl. The places I have to go - I don't make
reservations, understand?" "You like me
better when I'm all covered? When I look like a big fat cow?" "I like you the
same. It's you I like, yes?" "Yes?" "Yes!" I
said, slapping her rear. She grabbed my hand,
pulled it around to her butt. Held it there. "You like this big fat
thing?" I looked deep into
her eyes, watching a tear run down her cheek. Keeping my voice quiet:
"Belle," I told her, "it works on me like a hormone shot." She never took her
eyes off mine. "Burke, I'd do anything for you." "Will you put on
a pair of pants?" "Sure, baby.
I've got just the thing." She rummaged through
a chest of drawers, throwing clothes on the bed. Finally, she pulled out a pair
of white overalls, the kind with suspender straps. She kicked off the high
heels and stepped into the overalls, pulling the straps over her breasts. She
wouldn't disappear in a crowd, but at least she wasn't flashing a hundred yards
of skin. "You look beautiful,"
I said. She threw me a smile,
lacing up a pair of dirty white sneakers. "I'm ready," she announced,
bouncing off the bed to me. She wasn't the only thing bouncing. "Belle . .
." "What now?" "Could you put
on a bra too?" She took off her
glasses, unsnapped the suspenders, pulled the red T-shirt over her head. She
found a white bra with heavy shoulder straps. Slipped into it, hooked it in
front. "I didn't know
they made them that big," I said, watching her. "Boobs?" "Bras." She slapped me on the
arm, smiling, pushing me to the door with her hip. I held the car door
open for her. She slid across and flicked the inside handle to let me in. I
wheeled the Plymouth in a tight U-turn and headed back to the city. When we hit
the highway, I shoved a cassette into the dash. Belle sat with her back against
the door, feet on the seat between us, hands clasped around her knees. Smoking
and listening. Charley Musselwhite's harp barking its challenge on
"Stranger in a Strange Land." Buddy Guy driving his mojo north to
Chicago, Junior Wells riding shotgun. Lightning Hopkins being sly about
grown-up schoolgirls and John Lee Hooker threatening anyone with an eye for his
woman. Paul Butterfield riding the mystery train. The tape looped over
to the Brooklyn Blues. One group after another slipped through the speakers and
surrounded us. The Jacks, the Chantels, the Passions. When I heard Rosie and
the Originals, the clear, high voice of the girl singer hitting "Angel
Baby" like no one else ever could, I kicked out the cassette. I felt Belle's eyes
on my face. "Remind you of something?" "Yeah," I
said. Dancing with Flood in the warehouse garage, helping her pull it back
together before her last fight. I should have erased the fucking thing. We were heading
toward the Midtown Tunnel. I pulled into the Exact Change lane, tossed a
two-dollar token into the basket, and slid into the right lane. When we pulled
up outside the magazine stand on Second Avenue, it was already past six. "Go inside and
tell the guard you're there to pick up a package from Mr. Morelli," I
said. She didn't ask any
questions. She was back in a minute, tossing a thick manila envelope on the
seat between us. "Where're we
going, honey?" "You wanted to
meet Pansy," I said, pointing the car downtown. I tucked the Plymouth
into the garage, showed Belle the back stairs, motioning her to go ahead. Her
swaying hips narrowed the staircase. She knew how to act -
didn't make a sound on the way up. When we got to the office door, I gently
pushed her to one side while I worked the locks. I went in first, saying
"Pansy, jump!" as soon as I did. She hit the floor, paws out in
front, her monster's head tilted up to watch Belle. I made the hand
motion that said everything was okay, and told Belle to come in. "This is
Pansy," I said. Belle stood on the
threshold of the office like she was rooted. "Good sweet Jesus! That's a dog?
He looks like a swamp panther. What kind is it?" "She's a
Neapolitan mastiff. The most beautiful Neapolitan mastiff in the world, aren't
you, girl?" I asked Pansy, rubbing her head. Pansy growled agreement, her
tongue lolling in happiness. Belle hadn't moved. "Go sit on the
couch," I told her. "It's okay." Belle obediently went
to the couch, sat down like she was in church, knees pressed together, hands in
her lap. I spread my arms wide, telling Pansy she was released. The beast
plodded over to Belle, sat in front of the couch, cocked her head. Belle didn't move.
Pansy rammed her head into Belle's lap, shoving at her hands, demanding a pat.
Or else. "She won't hurt
you," I said. Belle gave Pansy a
halfhearted pat on the head. The beast made a rumbling noise in her chest.
Belle jerked her hand away. Pansy shoved her head back in Belle's lap. "She just wants
to be friends." "Burke, I swear
to God, she's scaring me to death." "That's her
happy noise," I assured her. "How much does
she weigh?" "About the same
as you." "I'd kiss you
for that if I wasn't scared to move off this couch." I went into the next
room, pulled a couple of strips of steaks out of the refrigerator, tossed one
at Pansy, saying "Speak!" as I did. The steak disappeared. I threw
the other piece on the floor and watched Pansy drool over it. "Why won't she
eat it?" "She's waiting
for the word." "What you just
said?" "Yep." Belle looked at
Pansy, said "Speak!" in the same tone I'd used. Pansy ignored her.
"It only works when you say it?" "That's
right." "Well, say it,
then. The poor dog's dying for the meat." Pansy flashed Belle a grateful
look as I gave her the word. As soon as she polished off the steak, she came
back to the couch. Belle patted her with a bit more confidence. "I think
she likes me, Burke. Does she do any more tricks?" "Those aren't
tricks," I told her. "Pansy works. Just like you and me." I threw Pansy the
signal and she came over to the door. I opened it and she disappeared into the
dusk. "Where's she
going?" "To the
roof." "It must be
beautiful - can we go up there?" "Belle," I
said, "trust me. That roofs one place you never want to go." "Can I get
up?" "Sure. it's okay
- Pansy understands." I showed Belle the
rest of the office. I let her poke around by herself while I laid out the clips
Morelli got for me on the desk, thinking I should have heard from the Prof by
then. Belle walked in, put
a hand on my shoulder. "Pansy will know me from now on?" "Sure." "So if I came
here by myself . . . if I had a key . . . she'd let me in?" "She'd rip you
to pieces, Belle." "Oh," she
said in her little-girl's voice, watching as Pansy came back inside and curled
up in a corner. I stubbed out my
cigarette, anxious to get in the street, see if the Prof had called in. "Want some
dinner?" "If you do,
baby." "I thought you
were starving." "I can wait for
what I want," she said, her voice still too small for her body. "I
waited for you." So she went through a
lot of rйsumйs looking for the ideal hijacker. Big deal. "Let's go,"
I told her. Belle was still
rubbing my shoulder, watching the dog. "Will she get jealous if I kiss
you?" "She couldn't
care less." "That's my kind
of girl," Belle said, and kissed the side of my mouth. The joint I took her
to just says "Bar" over the green metal door. A hustlers' hangout off
West Street, it serves decent food in the back room, all the tables set aside
in booths so people can do business. I left Belle in the
booth to call Mama from one of the pay phones in the bar. I dialed the number
that rings at her desk, in the front of the restaurant. She said something in
Cantonese. "Anything?"
I asked. "No calls,"
she said, recognizing my voice. I hung up, went back
inside. A redhead waitres was talking to Belle. I recognized her as I got
close. MaryEllen. She'd been working there for years. It was a nice quiet
joint, no grab-ass drunks, all business. "What'll it
be?" she asked, like she'd never seen me before. My kind of place. "You
order?" I asked Belle, watching her settle into the booth. Sitting down,
she was shorter than me - I guess most of her height was legs. "I waited for
you, honey." I looked up at
MaryEllen. There's no menu, but the food doesn't vary much. "We have some
real nice shell steaks." I looked a question
at Belle. She nodded. "One medium and one . . ." I looked at Belle
again. "Rare," she said. I ordered a ginger ale. "You have beer
on tap?" Belle asked. MaryEllen shook her head no. "What
brand?" "Cold,"
Belle said, smiling at her. Maybe she had been
starving - Belle TKO'd her steak in the first round. She had two more beers and
half my potatoes before I was halfway through. "You want another
one?" I asked her, joking. She nodded happily. Even with the head start,
we finished about the same time. MaryEllen cleared the
plates off. I lit a smoke. "Don't they have
dessert?" Belle asked. "Not here,"
I told her. "You want coffee?" "Can I have ice
cream later?" "Sure." I was smoking my
cigarette, thinking about the Prof. Belle sipped her coffee, watching me
quietly. I felt a hand on my shoulder, a lilac-and-jasmine smell. Michelle.
Wearing a wine-colored silk sheath, a black scarf at her throat. She looked a
question at me. I moved over so she could sit down next me. She gave me a quick
kiss as she slid in, turned to look at Belle, talking to me out of the side of
her mouth. "Hi, baby. Who's
your friend?" "Michelle, this
is Belle." Michelle held out a
manicured hand. "Hi, honey." "Hello,"
Belle said, shaking her hand. Holding on to it too long, watching my face. Michelle took her
hand back, figuring it all out in a split second. "Don't look at me like
that, girl. This ugly thug's my brother, not my lover." Belle's mouth
twitched into a half-smile. "He's not so ugly." "Honey,
please!" Belle laughed.
"He's got other fine qualities." "I know,"
Michelle said. Belle's face went
hard. "Do you?" Michelle stiffened,
her claws coming out. "Look, country girl, I say what I mean. And I mean
what I say. Let's put it all out, okay? I never had a brother until Burke came along.
I love him - I don't sleep with him. Wherever you go with him, I don't want to
go. And where I go with him, you can't go. Get it?" "I get it." "Get this too.
You want to be my friend, you come with the best recommendation," Michelle
said, patting my forearm. "You want to be a bitch, you came to the right
place. I'll be here after you're gone, girl." "I'm not going
anywhere," Belle said. "Then let's be
friends, yes?" Michelle said, her sculptured face flashing a deadly smile. "Yes,"
Belle said, reaching over and taking my hand. Michelle took one of
her long black cigarettes from a thin lacquer case and tapped the filter,
waiting for a light. I cracked a wooden match. She cupped my hand around the
fire, gently pulling in the smoke. Belle watched Michelle as if she had the
answer to all her questions. Michelle fumbled in
her huge black patent-leather purse. She pulled out a sheaf of photographs.
Terry. In a blue blazer with gold buttons, wearing a white shirt and a striped
tie, his hair slicked down. "Isn't he handsome?" she asked me. "A living
doll," I assured her. Michelle jabbed me in
the ribs with her elbow. "Pig," she snapped. She held the photos out
to Belle. "My boy." Belle took the
pictures. "He is handsome. Does he go to boarding school?" I laughed. Michelle
jabbed me again. "He most certainly does, honey. One of the most exclusive
in the country, I might add. And if it wasn't for certain people teaching him
bad habits . . ." "Don't look at
me," I said. "The Mole does
not smoke," Michelle said, ending the discussion. "How old is
he?" Belle asked. "He's almost
twelve." "He's going to
be a heartbreaker when he gets older." "Just like his
mother," Michelle said, ready to talk about her favorite subject for the
next few days. "I can't find
the Prof," I told her, bringing her back to the real world. "Well, honey,
you know the Prof. He could be anywhere." "He was supposed
to call in, Michelle. We're working on something." "Oh." "Yeah. Will you
. . . ?" "I run on a
different track now, baby. But I still have my associates in the right spots.
I'll throw out some lines, okay?" "Tonight?" "I have a late
date - I'll make some calls before I start. If you don't hear by tomorrow, give
me a call and I'll take a look myself." "Thanks,
Michelle." She waved it off. I got up to call Mama
again. She answered the same way. "Anything at
all?" "Nothing. You
worried?" "Yes." "Call later.
Leave number, okay?" "Okay." When I got back to
the booth, Michelle and Belle were yakking it up like old pals. Michelle had
Belle's face in her hand, twisting it different ways to catch the light. The
big girl didn't seem to mind. I sat down, lit another smoke, listening to
Michelle rattle on. "You draw the
eyeliner away from the center, honey. Separate those eyes. And we use a sharper
line here" - drawing her fingernail across Belle's cheekbone -
"for an accent. Are you with me so far?" Belle nodded
vigorously, not trying to talk while Michelle was grabbing her face. "Now the mouth .
. . we use a brush, yes? We paint a thin line just past the lips, then we fill
it in with a nice dark shade. Widen that mouth a bit. Then we . . . Oh, come
on," Michelle said, standing up, dragging Belle by the hand. "We'll
be back in a minute," she said to me. I ignored her. I knew
what a minute meant to Michelle. I knew what it meant when the Prof didn't call
in. It was two ginger
ales and a half-dozen cigarettes before they came out of the ladies' room,
Michelle still leading Belle by the hand. They both sat across from me. I had
to look twice. Belle's soft face was sharpened, different. Her eyes looked set
farther apart, bigger. Her cheekbones stood out, her tiny mouth was more
generous. And her hair was pulled over to one side, tied with Michelle's scarf. "You look
beautiful," I said. "You really like
it?" she asked. "Honey, face it,
you're a traffic-stopper," Michelle told her. "All it takes is a
little work." "Michelle,
you're a doll," Belle said. "They all say
that." Michelle smiled. "Don't they, Burke?" "Among other
things." Michelle was in too
good a mood to pay attention to me. "Stripes," she said to Belle.
"Vertical stripes. You're big enough to be two showgirls, sweetie. And
watch the waist -you cinch it too tight, your hips look huge. "He likes my
hips," Belle said, smiling at me. "All lower-class
men like big hips, honey. Don't pay attention to him." Belle looked at me.
"You've got some family. A little black brother and a big Chinese one. And
a gorgeous sister." Michelle flashed her
perfect smile. "It's the truth, girl." She gave each of us a kiss.
"I've got to go to work - my baby needs violin lessons." Belle kissed her
back. "Thanks, Michelle. For everything." "Fry their brain
cells, honey," she said, "and watch the walk." A quick
over-the-shoulder wave and she was gone. I was stopped at a
light at 43rd and Ninth when
Belle's baby voice poked through the mist in my brain. "Honey . .
." "What?" "We've been
driving around for two hours. Around and around. You haven't said a word to me
- you mad at me for something?" I took a breath,
glanced at my watch; it was past eleven. I was just going to make one quick
sweep of the city, see if I could spot the Prof. I replayed the path in my
head: both sides of the river, Christopher Street to Sheridan Square, across Sixth
Avenue to 8th Street, back
downtown to Houston, across to First, through the Lower East Side to Tompkins
Square Park, outside the pool-room on 14th up to Union Square, across to Eighth Avenue and up into
Times Square, working river to river into midtown. And back again. Driving
through the marketplace, somebody selling something every time the Plymouth
rolled to a stop. Crack, smoke, gravity knives, cheap handguns, watches with
Rolex faces and Taiwan guts, little boys, girls, women, men dressed like women.
Cheap promises - high prices. Murphy Men selling the New York version of safe
sex -the hotel-room key they sold you wouldn't open the door, and they wouldn't
be standing on the same corner when you went back to ask for better directions.
Islands of light where flesh waited to take your money - pools of darkness
where wolf packs waited to take your life. And vultures to pick your bones. Something else out
there too. Something that would make the wolves step aside when it walked. I looked over at
Belle. She was facing out the windshield as though she didn't want to see my
face, twisting her hands together in her lap. It hurt my heart to watch her -
it wasn't her fault. "You're a good, sweet girl," I told her.
"It has nothing to do with you; I'm looking for my friend." "The little
black guy?" "Yeah." "I've been
looking too," she said, her voice serious. "You think we should get
out? Ask around?" I patted her thigh.
She was down for whatever it took - knew I had to do this. I couldn't explain
how it worked to her. Asking around for the Prof could get him in deeper than
he already was. I drove back to the
river, turned downtown until I saw a pay phone. Mama still had nothing for me.
If the Prof had been swept up by the cops, he'd get a call out sooner or later.
Nothing to do but wait. I sat on the hood of
the Plymouth, feeling the warmth of the engine through my clothes, watching the
Jersey lights across the river. I felt compressed. Things were moving too fast
- not like they were supposed to. Belle was inside my life without the
preliminaries. We'd made some deals without talking them over - she'd been in
my office, Michelle was showing her baby pictures and giving her makeup advice.
I was going to help her hijack some hijackers. All too fast. The Prof was lost
somewhere in the freak pipeline under the city, and I couldn't go after him
without spooking the shadows. I got back into the
car, started the engine. "I'll take you
home," I said. "Will you stay
with me?" "I have to leave
a phone number. Where I can be reached tonight." "Why don't we go
to your house?" "There's no
phone there," I told her. She hadn't put it together that I live in my
office. She lit a smoke,
watching me, her voice soft. Not pushing. "What if I don't want my number
given out?" "It's okay. I'll
drop you off. See you soon, all right?" "No!" It
sounded like she'd start crying in a minute. "You can leave my phone
number. I know it's important, Burke. I'm sorry, okay?" "Yeah." "Can't we go to your
house first?" I looked a question
at her. "So you can pack
a suitcase." I tried to smile at
her, not knowing if I pulled it off. "I can't stay with you, Belle. Not
while this is going down." "But when it's
over . . ." "Let's see what
happens." She moved close to
me, gave me a quick kiss. "Whatever happens," she said. I pointed the
Plymouth out of the city. It was past two when
I called Mama from Belle's phone. I gave her the number where I'd be, told her
I'd call when I went on the move again. She didn't tie up the phone lines
telling me not to worry. "Where's the
nearest pay phone?" I asked Belle. "About four
blocks down. Outside the grocery store on the right." "I'll be back in
a few minutes," I told her. "Honey, why
don't you use this phone? If it's none of my business, I can step outside on
the deck until you're finished." "It's you I'll
be calling. Make sure your phone works, okay?" She watched my face.
"Whatever you say." I found the pay
phone, called Belle's number, listened to her answer, hung up. The walk back didn't
help - I could work it out in my head easy enough, but the answers were no
good. The Prof was dead reliable. If he hadn't called in, he was in trouble, or
he was dead. Either way, I had a debt. Belle let me back in.
I checked the phone; the cord was long enough to reach anyplace in the little
cottage, even out onto the deck. I asked Belle for a fingernail file. Then I
flipped the phone over, opened it up, checked the contact points, making sure
the bell would work. I closed it back up, turned the dial on the underside to
the loudest setting. I put the phone back on the end table near the couch,
watched it. Belle's voice came
through the fog. "You can do everything to phones but make them ring,
huh?" The room came back
into focus. Her face was scrubbed clean, but the glow was gone. "What is
it, Belle? You look like you're afraid of me. "I'm afraid of
you shutting me out." "This isn't
yours," I told her, my voice flat. Belle's hands went to
her hips. Her little chin tilted up, eyes glistening. "What kind of a
woman do you think I am?" she demanded. I shrugged, knowing
it was cruel, locked into my own course. She moved closer,
taking up all the space between us. "I said I was going to love you,
Burke. You think I'd make you tell the truth and not do it myself?" "No." "You think I
told you the truth?" "Yes." "You know what I
want?" "Sure." She bent down to
where I was sitting, pulled the cigarette out of my mouth, pressed her nose
against mine. "Tell me what I
want." I didn't move, didn't
change expression. "The back of the joint where you work - it's like a
suitcase with a false bottom. Plenty of room back there. Armored car gets hit
at the airport - the hijackers take off running. But they don't go far, right?
They pull in the back of the joint, stash the getaway car, and walk into the
club. When the cops come looking, they've been there for hours. An alibi and a
hideout all in one. Easy to come back in a few weeks. Move the cash out."
I took the cigarette out of her hand, leaned back, took a deep drag. "How
do they get rid of the getaway car - chop it down? repaint it back there? drive
it into the back of a moving van, dump it in the swamp one night?" She didn't answer me.
Just watched. "All that money
just sitting there. Clean, unmarked bills. Probably two or three good jobs
stashed in one place. Couple of hundred grand, minimum. Wouldn't be the first
time somebody turned around and hit the syndicate. Hijackers aren't like
numbers runners - that's why they don't make good employees." I took a last drag,
stubbed out the butt. Feeling her eyes burn on my skin. "Whoever set
this up, it's a big operation. Costs a lot of cash to front. The syndicate
probably takes a piece from every hijacking at the airport. That's the way
they'd do it. I know how things work. All the young mob guys want to do today
is move product. They leave the armored cars and the banks to the
independents." I lit another
cigarette, thinking back to the way I used to be. Telling the truth, the way
she wanted it. "A good thief,
he can't stand to see a big lump of cash sitting around. Just a matter of time
before some crew takes a shot." Belle took the
cigarette away from me again, put it to her lips. A red dot glowed in front of
my face. Two more in her eyes. "You didn't
answer me, Burke. Tell me what I want. Tell me the truth." "You want me to
hijack the cash." I saw her right
shoulder drop, but I kept my eyes on her face. Her hand came around in a blur,
her little clenched fist catching me high on the cheekbone just under the eye.
She drew back her fist again. "That's enough," I said. Her mouth trembled.
The firelights went out of her eyes. She pulled away from me, fell face-down on
her big white bed. Cried softly to herself as I pulled some ice cubes from the
refrigerator. I wrapped the ice cubes in a towel and held it to my face. Sat by
the phone. When I woke up, it
was past four o'clock in the morning. My jacket was soaking wet on the left
side. I snatched the phone. Dial tone. "It didn't
ring." A soft voice from the bed. "I've been listening since you fell
asleep." "Thanks." "I'll stay by
the phone now. When you get where you're going, you can call me. If you don't get
your call by then, you can switch the numbers, okay?" "Yeah." "I've got an
electric heater: it gets cold by the water in the winter. You can dry your
clothes first." I pulled off my
jacket, unbuttoned my shirt. Belle came off the bed. I handed them to her.
"Your face is swollen," she said, her voice a breathy whisper, the
way you tell a secret. "It's no big
deal. Nothing's broken." "My heart is
broken," she said. Like she was saying it was Wednesday morning. "Belle . .
." "Don't say
anything. It's my fault. I made a mistake. I wanted a hard man. A hard man, not
a cold man." I lit a smoke. She
came back over to me, her voice sad now. Sad for all of us. "Not a cold
man, Burke. Not a man who wouldn't take my love." "I just . .
." "Yeah, I know.
You think telling the truth's not a game for a woman to play." "That's not
it." "No?" she
challenged, her little-girl's voice laced with acid. "You think I couldn't
find a cowboy to stick up a liquor store for me? You don't think I could
pussy-whip some guido into picking up a gun? Sweet-talk some cockhound into
showing me what a big man he is?" "I know you
could." Belle stalked the
room, unsnapping the suspender straps, pulling the T-shirt over her head,
unhooking the bra. She worked the zipper, pulled the white pants over her hips.
She sat down on the bed. Unlaced her sneakers, threw them into a corner. She
went over to the kitchen corner, where my shirt and jacket were stretched on
coat hangers, baking in the glow from the electric heater. She picked up my
shirt. "It'll dry better this way," she said, slipping into it. She
tried to button it; it wouldn't close over her breasts. She fell to her knees
beside me, hands on my thigh, looking up at my face. "Can we have
another chance?" "Who's
'we'?" "You and
me." "To do what?" "To tell the
truth. Let me tell you the truth. The real truth. I swear on my mother,"
she whispered, one hand making an X on her breast. "That's my sacred
oath." "Belle . .
." "Don't hurt me
like this, Burke. I'd never hurt you. You don't know what I want. You don't
have any idea. Let me say what I have to say." She got to her feet,
held out her hand. I took it. She pulled me to her
bed. "Sit down," she said. She took a fat black candle, grounded it
in a glass ashtray, positioned it on top of the headboard of the bed.
"Light it," she said. I fired a wooden
match. I heard a click - the electric heater snapping off. Belle laid back on
the bed, her hands behind her head. I sat next to her, watching the tiny candle
flame. "This is the
truth," she began. "I grew up in a little place you never heard of.
In South Florida. Just me, my father, and my big sister. Sissy. We lived on the
edge of the swamp in a tiny house. Not much bigger than this one. My father did
a little bit of this, a little bit of that. Like everyone there. Grew some
vegetables out back. Made some liquor. There was a mill nearby - he'd work when
they had work. Shoot him some gator for the hides. Fix boats. We lived poor,
but nice. When my father would make a good score, he'd always buy something for
the house. Had a big old freezer, nice color TV. Good boat too. Mercury
outboard." Her voice trailed off, remembering. I lit a cigarette, handed
it to her. "I was always
told my mother died giving birth to me. Sissy really raised me - took care of me
- my father never paid me any attention." She took a drag on
the cigarette, looking at the dark ceiling. "I was a big,
tall girl, even when I was real young. And skinny too - you believe that?" "Sure." "I was. Like a
board. Ugly old skinny girl with no kind of face at all. Sissy was pretty once.
You could tell by looking at her in the morning light. Sissy was hard on me. I
had to do my chores sharp, or she'd let me know it. Homework too. We had a
school, all the kids together in one class. Sissy made sure I did my homework.
Always sent me to school clean, no matter how things were at home. She never
had a new dress in all the time I knew her. Said it didn't matter to her. She
had nice night-gowns, though. She caught me trying one on once and she took a switch
to me so hard I didn't want to sit down for a couple of days. Anything she had,
she'd give to me. Except those nightgowns. Or her perfume." She took
another drag. "My father never
much bothered with me. Once in a while, I'd do something to make him notice me.
Pay some attention to me. He didn't care if I did my homework, but he had to
have his coffee just so: dark coffee with a big dollop of cream across the top;
he never mixed it. "I talked back
to him once. He grabbed my arm, pulled off his belt to give it to me. Sissy
jumped in between us, kitchen knife in her hand. The devil was in her face -
you could see it. You never put a hand on that child, she told him. "He backed off.
Told her I had it coming, but he wouldn't look her in the face. Sissy said if I
had something coming she'd be the one to give it to me. Go ahead, my
father said, give it to her. "Sissy ripped
the belt out of his hands, dragged me outside to the back. You better yell now,
she told me. Loud! She whipped me something fierce that time. Brought me back
inside by the hand, told me to get to work on my chores and keep my mouth shut.
My father was watching us when we came in. Sissy went back in the bedroom. I
saw her taking one of her nightgowns out of her drawer. My father went back there
too." She drew on the
cigarette again, the flame close to her hand. "My father was
real drunk one day. Late in the afternoon, swamp shadows across the back of the
house. I heard him fighting with Sissy when I came back home. I swear I'll kill
you, Sissy told him. He just laughed at her. Slapped her hard across the face.
I went after him. He threw me off, but I got up again. Sissy and me fought him
until he was out of wind. He just lay there on the floor, looking up at us.
I'll be back tonight, he told Sissy, I'll be back, and I'll take what's mine. "He staggered
out the door. Sissy grabbed me, took me to the back of the house. Your time has
come, she told me. She took out a suitcase. I didn't even know she had one. Put
all your clothes in this, she told me. Don't argue. I helped her fill it up. I
thought we were going to run away together. We snuck out the back, into the
swamp. Sissy showed me a marker on a cypress tree, where she'd cut it with her
knife. She gave me a shovel and told me to dig. Deep. I found an old mason jar,
wax-sealed. Found two more. Sissy broke the jars open. There was near a
thousand dollars in the jars." Belle yelped - the
cigarette had burned into her fingers. I held out the ashtray and she dropped
it in; put her fingers in her mouth for a second to suck on them. "Sissy sat me
down at the table. He'll be back in a couple of hours, she said. You take that
suitcase and get into the swamp. I'll fix the boat so he can't go after you.
You take the back trail all the way through, to where it catches the highway.
The late bus to town comes past there about nine - you got plenty of time to
make it." Belle's face was wet
with tears, but her voice was the same quiet whisper. "Where am I
going? I asked her. "You go to the
bus station. Take a Greyhound north, and don't stop until you're out of this
state. Go north and keep going, Belle, she told me. You're going to be on your
own. "I didn't want
to go - I didn't understand. Sissy wouldn't listen to me. You're grown now, she
said. Almost fifteen years old. I held him back as long as I could, baby, but
now your time has come. You got to mind me, Belle, she said. This one last
time. You got to mind me - do what I say. She took her nightgowns out of the
drawer, threw them in the suitcase too. Your nightgowns . . . I said. I won't
be needing them anymore, she told me. I think I knew then. For the first
time." Belle was crying now,
working hard to keep her voice steady. "I grabbed on to
her. Hugged her tight. Don't make me go, Sissy, I begged her. She pushed me
away. Looked at me like she was memorizing me. Then she slapped me across the
face. Hard. "Why'd you slap
me, Sissy? I asked her. Why'd you slap me? You never slapped me in the face in
all my life." Belle took a deep
breath, looking straight at me in the dark. "I slapped you
so you'll never forget my name, baby. Don't you ever call me Sissy again, not
even in your dreams. "I was standing
there, crying. Sissy rubbed my face where she'd slapped me. So tender and
sweet. She kissed me to take away the pain, like she used to do when I was
little. "We heard my
father's car pull in. Sissy was calm. I'm not just your sister, Belle. I'm not
Sissy. I'm your mother. "I couldn't
move. Go! Sissy said. Go, little girl. I'm your mother. I kept you safe. Now
run! "I ran into the
swamp, but I didn't go far. I hid down in a grove, so scared I couldn't make my
legs work. I heard my father yell something at Sissy. Then I heard this
explosion; flames shot up. The boat. You stay right there, bitch! I heard my
father yell. Then I heard his gator-gun blast off: Once. Twice. He yelled my
name. Screamed it out into the night. I ran through that swamp. My mother wasn't
lying there dead by the boat - she was inside me - running with me -keeping me
strong. She's always inside me." Belle grabbed me,
holding me tight, her arms locked around my back. Crying the truth. I don't know how long
we were like that. Belle loosened her hold. She drew back from me, reaching out
a hand to touch my face. "Does it
hurt?" "No." "I didn't mean
to hurt you. I just wanted you to remember my name," she whispered. "I do." "Will you get in
bed with me, honey? Lie down with me?" "Sure." She propped herself
on one elbow, reached across my chest for the cigarettes. "I have to tell
you the rest," she said. "You don't . .
." "Yes. Yes, I do.
You still don't know what I want from you." I fired a match for
her and watched the smoke drift out her pug nose, not pushing her. "How old do you
think I am?" she asked. "Twenty,
twenty-two?" "I'm almost
twenty-nine years old," she said. "It was fourteen years ago when my
mother saved me. I went running. Even when I was a young girl, they only looked
at my chest, not my face. There's always young folks running in this country. I
found them - they found me. I made some rules for myself, promises to my
mother. I never turned a trick, but I let my tits hang over plenty of bars. I
could always make men buy drinks. I never let a man beat me - there's some who
wanted to try - big girl like me makes them feel small, I guess. I drove cars
to - l'm real good at it. Getaway cars sometimes. I ran 'shine over the
mountains in Kentucky. Drove stolen cars from Chicago to Vegas. I thought I was
going to be a showgirl there. I've got the size and the body for it, but my
face . . ." "You have a
beautiful face, Belle." "No, I don't.
But I know it's the truth to you. Just listen to me, don't talk." I nodded, rubbing her
shoulder. "I saved my
money. I read a lot of books, teaching myself. I'm an incest child. You know
what that means? I have my father's blood and my sister's too. That's why my
face is so . . . like it is. My eyes close together and all. I have bad blood,
Burke. Bad blood. Only the Lord knows what's gone on in my family before I was
born. Or what happened to Sissy's mother. My grandmother, I guess. I saw a
doctor. At New York University. I told him the truth. He did some tests, but he
couldn't tell me anything without testing my father too. I'm all messed up
inside. I'm missing a rib here" - she pressed my hand under her heart -
"and one leg's a bit shorter than the other. The doctor wouldn't tell me
that much, but I made him say the truth." She smoked in the
dark while I waited. "I can never have
a child. Never have a baby of my own, you understand? My father's bloodline has
to stop with me." She felt the
question. "He's down to
Raiford State Prison. In that drawer over there, I have all the papers. I was
busted once with a station wagon full of machine guns. I rolled over on the
people who hired me," she said, watching my face. "They told me it
was stolen watches when they asked me to drive." "They didn't
tell the truth," I said. "Yeah, you
understand. They didn't tell the truth. I got a free pass out of it - no
testimony, just the names. And one of the feds, he looked up my father for me.
He's doing a ten-year jolt for manslaughter; he gets out this Christmas." "How come he's
still in on a ten-year hit if it happened fourteen years ago?" Belle's face twisted
- I saw her teeth flash, but it wasn't a smile. "He never did a day for
killing my mother. He shot a man in a dispute over some gator hides." She pointed her toe
in the air, flexing her thigh, drawing my eyes to the tattoo. "Look
close," she whispered. "Look real close. What do you see?" "A snake." "When I was
running through the swamp that first night, I stopped in a clearing. A snake
hissed at me. Cottonmouth, maybe. I couldn't see him in the dark. He had me
rooted - too scared to move. Then my mother's spirit came into me and I knew I
had to go. No matter what. I threw a branch at the noise and it stopped. A
gator wouldn't stop. I was dancing in this club in Jersey. All of the girls had
tattoos. Butterfly tattoos. Their boyfriends' names. A rose on their butt. They
told me where they got it done. I had the man do a snake. Right on my thigh,
pointing at my cunt. A poison snake - that's all the men saw." I looked hard at the
tattoo, knowing there was more. Seeing it. "The snake, it's the letter
'S'." "Yes. For
'Sissy.' For my mother. it's the only gravestone she'll ever have." I lit a cigarette.
"That's where your dance comes from." "Tell me,"
she whispered. "Tell me you see it." "I see it.
There's worse things than gators out there," I told her. "But not as
bad as what's in the house." She kissed my chest.
"That's what I wanted," she said, talking fast now, like I'd cut her
off before she finished. "That's what I wanted from you. Marques told me
he wouldn't meet you without a cut-out. He told me you were a dangerous, crazy
man. Said you used to be a hijacker and now you're a hired killer." "Marques doesn't
. . ." "Ssssh . .
." she said, putting her finger to my mouth. "He said you killed a
pimp just because he had a little girl on the street. He said everyone knows
you lose your mind when people fuck kids. He said you took money to bring back
some runaway girl. You got her away from the pimp, then you shot him
anyway." "And you wanted
. . ." "I wanted you to
rescue me. I told you the truth, honey. I told you the truth. It's my soul
that's lost. My spirit. My mother saved my life - I need someone to save the
rest." "The hijacking .
. ." "I deserve to
have my ass beat for that. I played it wrong. I wanted a hard man. I knew I
couldn't hold you with sex. I wanted you to rescue me - I wanted to be your
partner. I thought if I brought you a solid-gold score, handed it to you on a
platter . . . you'd know I was worth something. I didn't want the money." "Damn." "Burke. I don't
care if you take off the back room. You want to do it, I'll drive the car. And
I'll leave the engine running until you come out the door, I swear it." "And if I
don't?" "I'll go inside
and pull you out." I took a deep drag.
"I mean, if I don't want to pull the robbery?" "I just want you
to want me," she said, her voice grave. "I never meant anything more
in my life." I took another drag,
feeling so tired. "I can't rescue
you, Belle." "You let me help
you. Help you with your friend. Find that van. Then decide." I sat quietly,
watching the shadows. "Please,
honey." "Go to sleep,
Belle," I said, stroking her back. "If the Prof's okay, you can
help." She closed her eyes
on the promise. She slept with her
face against my chest. I brought the Prof's face into my mind, keeping him
alive. Seeing the Prof made me see prison. Where we met. I never knew what sent
him down that time. Any time the subject came up, the little man made it clear
what he was about. "I didn't use the phone, and I came here alone,"
is all he'd say It was enough. The first time I went
down, I was a kid. In New York, sixteen years old, you're too far gone for
another bit in reform school. I came in with a good jacket: attempted murder.
But it wasn't enough. One thing good about all that time in reform school - I
knew the rules. I did the thirty days on Fish Row by myself. The Prof rolled up
on my cell one day - he was the runner. Said, "This is from a
friend," and tossed a couple of packs of smokes and an old magazine in my
cell. I wanted a smoke bad, but I left everything on my bunk, waiting for him
to come around again. I grabbed him through the bars, pulling him close. "Take this stuff
back where you got it," I said to him, nice and quiet. "I got no
friends here." The little man looked
up at me. His eyes had a yellowish cast. No fear in them. "Here's the
slant on the plant, son. Don't play it hard when you not holding no
cards." "I'm holding
myself," I told him. "You tell whoever gave you this stuff for me
that I'm sending it back, okay? And if he don't like it, tell him I'll send it
back with interest when I hit the yard." The little man
smiled, not even trying to pull away. "Jump back, Jack! I ain't no wolf,
and that's the truth." I looked over at the
cigarettes. "From you?" "From me, fool.
You never heard of the Welcome Wagon?" "I thought . .
." "I know what you
thought, youngblood. Here's a clue - don't play the fool." "I can't pay you
back," I told him. "I got no money on the books." "Look here,
rookie. I've got more time behind the Wall than you've got on the earth. In
prison, first you learn, then you earn." "Learn
what?" "Here's your
first case, Ace. Don't smoke the butts. Don't read the magazine. Let it all
sit. Don't trust me. When you get into Population, keep your ear to the ground,
ask around. People call me the Prophet. I don't stand tall, but I stand up.
Take a look before you book." I let go of him. The
little man made his way down the tier, rhyming the time away. When I got into Population,
I moved slow. Asked around, like the man said. The Prophet had some rep. Guys
knew him going back twenty years - this was at least his fifth time behind
bars. He once did four years straight in solitary for smuggling a gun inside.
He hooked up with a guy doing three life sentences, running wild. They took a
guard hostage. Got all the way to the front gate when they ran out of room. The
guy with him got blown away. The hacks broke half the bones in the Profs body. In solitary, they
kept at him. Every day, every night. He kept telling them the gun came to him
in a vision. Every con in the joint knew where the gun came from . . . where it
had to come from. A guard. And the Prof was too much of a man to give up
even one of them. It took a few weeks, but
I finally saw the Prof on the yard. I rolled up on him, keeping both hands
where he could see them. The group of men around him pulled up close. The Prof
made a motion with his head and they peeled off, giving me room. "What's the
word, rookie?" he challenged me. I took the two packs
of smokes and the magazine from under my shirt. "You handing
them back?" he asked. "No. I wanted
you to see for yourself," I said, opening a pack, taking out my first
cigarette in seven weeks. "Smoke?" I asked him, holding out the pack: "Much obliged,
Clyde," the little man replied, a smile shining. I hunkered down
against the wall with him, my back to the yard, watching. Speaking out of the
side of my mouth, looking straight ahead. "I'm sorry for
what I thought." "That's okay,
gunfighter. You just a schoolboy in here." I wasn't looking at him, but he
must have felt the question. "I glommed your
jacket." "How'd you pull
that off?" "You don't have
to pay if you know the way," the little man said. I did three years on
that bit. Not a day went by that the Prof didn't teach me something. When it
was near my time to leave, he schooled me about how to act in front of the
Parole Board. When the Board set a release date for me, he gave me the hard
stuff. Straight. "You're short
now, schoolboy. You know what that means? Thirty days to wait, and you walk out
the gate. They'll come at you now. Punks you backed down before, they'll get
bold, knowing you don't want to fuck up the go-home. You got two plays: hide or
slide." "Break it
down." "First guy fucks
with you, you can go to the Man. Take a PC for the rest of your bit." "No." "Yeah, that only
works for the citizens. The guys who're never coming back here. That ain't you.
So we got to slide. I got people here - leave it to me." "Which means?" "Which means
young blood is hot blood. You got to be cold if you want to grow old. Someone
moves on you, tell them 'later' with your eyes, but don't do nothing right
away, okay?" "Okay,
Prof." By the end of the
week, it happened. A big fat jocker named Moore who'd moved on me early in my
bit. I showed him a shank and he backed off. Went looking for easier game -
there was a lot of it around. I was sitting at my table during chow when I felt
him looking down at me. "You lost four
crates on the Series, Burke. When you planning on paying?" "You're
dreaming, pal. I never bet with you." "I say you did.
You got till Monday. Then I want my four crates or I take it out in
trade." I pushed my chair back,
knowing everyone was watching. The Prof made a growling noise in his throat. I
looked up at Moore. "I'll see you
before Monday," I promised him, my voice under control. He walked away,
slapping five with one of his buddies. Late that afternoon, we were on the
yard. A pair of bikers broke from their group and came our way. Monster
bodybuilders both, their arms were so choked with muscle they had to cock their
elbows to walk. I reached for my sock. A bluff - I wasn't carrying so close to
parole, but I wanted to give the Prof time to run. He chuckled. "Take a
hike, Mike," he said. I wouldn't disrespect
him by arguing. When I glanced back over my shoulder, he was deep in
conversation with the gorillas. Sunday morning, the
cafeteria was buzzing when I came in. A black guy I knew slightly from boxing
walked by my table. "Right on, man," he whispered. I lit a cigarette
to mask my face. Bongo pulled up a
chair across from me, an old buddy from reform school. His trick was using his
head as a battering ram in a fight. He'd done it too many times. "Burke, you hear
what happened in the weight room last night?" I shook my head no. "You know Moore?
That big fat faggot? He decides he's going to bench-press four hundred and
fifty pounds, can you dig it?" "That's a lot of
weight." Bongo giggled his
crazy laugh. "Too much fucking weight, man. His spotters musta been bigger
punks than he was - they dropped the weight right on his chest." "What?" "Yeah, man.
Square business. The hacks found him on the bench. Crushed his chest like it
was cardboard." When the Prof finally
walked out the gate, I was there. I lit another smoke,
keeping the Prof alive in my mind. Belle stirred in her sleep. I patted her,
saying, "Ssssh, little girl," but it was no good. "I can't sleep,
honey. What time is it?" "About
five." She pulled her body
away from me, shifting her hips so they were against the headboard, her face
still on my chest. "Help me go to
sleep," she whispered, rubbing her face on my stomach. "Belle . .
." She squirmed lower,
gently licking my cock, taking me in her mouth, making soft sounds to herself.
I felt myself stir, but it was like someone else. "Pull my pants
down," she said, taking her mouth off me. I got them past her
butt, but that was as far as they could go. A black ribbon across her thighs. I
went semihard in her mouth. "I don't . .
." "Don't do
anything, honey. Please. I'm lonely for you - you're far away. Let me just hold
you till I fall asleep." She put her mouth back
on me. In a minute, she was asleep again. I patted her rump,
drifting in and out. At least it was a hell of a lot more than time on my
hands. Time. Back to prison, where time is the enemy and you kill it any way
you can. It was the Prof who got me into reading books. The first time he laid
it on me, I laughed at him. "They don't
write down everything in those books," I said. "Just because
you locked in a dump, you don't have to be no chump, bro'. Pay attention. Hear
the word. What you going to do when you hit the bricks, get a job?" "Who'd hire
me?" "You gonna hook
up with a mob - kiss some old asshole's pinky ring?" "No way." "That's the true
clue. You ain't Italian anyway, right?" "I don't
know." The Prof's face
flashed sad for just a second. "You really don't?" "No.I did the
State Shuffle. Orphanage to foster homes to the gladiator schools. To
here." "And you always
knew you were coming." "I always
knew," "Okay, bro',
then know this. You can't score if you don't learn more, got it? One way or
another, you got to steal to be real. And I know what's in your schoolboy head:
pick up the gun and have some fun. Right?" I smiled at the
little man, thinking about guns. And banks. He grabbed my arm,
hard. I was always surprised at the Prof's powerful grip. "You got to go
on the hustle, schoolboy. There ain't no fame in the gun game - play it tame,
the money's the same." "I'm no hustler.
I don't have the rap." "Man, I'm not
talking about no Murphy Man shit. Or pimping off some little girl either. The
magic word is 'scam,' my man. Use this time. Study the freaks in here. Watch
them close. Learn. How. Things. Work. That's the key to the money tree." I started reading
books just to show the Prof respect. It was his advice - it had to stand for
something. I read it all. Everything I could get my hands on. When the prison
library ran low, I joined the Book-of-the-Month Club. I scored a couple of
dozen books before they threatened to garnishee my salary. I wrote to religious
organizations - they sent me books too. I covered hundreds of pages with notes,
calculations. Figuring the odds. When I got out,
things didn't work like I planned. It took me another couple of falls to get
things down to where I have them now. But I always kept reading, listening.
Watching for the crack in the wall. It was during my
second bit that I started reading psychology. I never knew they had sweet words
for some of the freakish things people did. The Prof said, if I read the books enough,
one day they'd talk to me. I knew what I wanted to be, just not what to call
it. Ice-cold. Stone-hard. And I worked at that
too. One day, I was
reading a psychology book and a word jumped out at me. "Sociopath."
It called to me. I read it over and over. "Sociopath. The essential
characteristic of this disorder is a lack of remorse, even for violent or
criminal behavior. The sociopath lacks the fundamental quality of
empathy." I ran to the battered
old dictionary I kept in my cell. "Empathy: the intellectual
identification with or vicarious experiencing of the feelings, thoughts, or
attitudes of another." I puzzled it out. A sociopath thinks only his own
thoughts, walks his own road. Feels only his own pain. Yeah. Wasn't that the
right way to live in this junkyard? Do your own time, keep your face flat.
Don't let them see your heart. A couple of weeks
later, I watched the hacks carry an informant out on a stretcher, a white towel
over his face. A shank was sucking out of his chest. "That's a nice way for
a rat to check out of this hotel," I said to the guys around me. They
nodded. I knew what they'd say - Burke is a cold dude. I kept my face flat.
I never raised my voice, never argued with anybody. Practiced letting my eyes
go slightly out of focus so I could look in a man's face for minutes without
turning away. Sometime, alone in my
cell at night, I'd say the word softly to myself. "Sociopath."
Calling on the ice god to come into my soul. Willing to be anything but afraid
all the time. I listened to the
freaks. Listened to Lester tell us how he broke in a house, found some woman
taking a bath. Put his gun to her head, made her suck him off. Then he plugged
in her hair dryer, tossed it in the water. I kept my face flat, walking away. Lester grabbed a young
boy who'd just come in. "Shit on my dick or blood on my knife," he
told the kid, smiling his smile. I took him off the count the next night. He
never saw me coming. I hooked him underhand in the gut with a sharpened file,
ripped it upward all the way to his chest. I dropped the file on his body,
walked away. A few guys saw it - nobody said anything. I let them think it was
over a gambling debt. I read the psychology
books again and again. They have some of us pegged. Michelle is a transsexual.
A woman trapped in a man's body. The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of
Mental Disorders even has a special coded number for it - 302.50. But I never got it to
feel right for me-never found the name for what I was. And the number they gave
me upstate didn't tell me a thing. The phone woke me. I
snatched it off the hook on the first ring. "Yeah?" "Your friend
call," Mama said. "He say come to Saint Vincent's Hospital. Room 909.
Visiting hour at nine o'clock. You ask for Melvin, okay?" "Thanks,
Mama." Belle was awake,
still twisted like she was when she fell asleep, looking up at me. "He
called?" "Sure did."
I got up. "I'm going to take a shower, okay?" "Let me use the
bathroom for a minute first." She padded off. I lit a smoke. Melvin was
the Prof's brother, a semi-legitimate dude who worked the post office. He must
be in the hospital for something or other. If we had to meet in the daytime,
Saint Vincent's was as good a place as any. "All
yours," Belle said, giving me a kiss. I didn't sing in the
shower, but I felt like it. Pansy's the only one who likes my singing. I slipped into my
shirt. It smelled of Belle. She was bustling around the little house, a smile
on her face. "You're going?" she asked. "Yeah. I got to
be downtown at nine." "It's not quite
six, honey." "I got to hit my
office, grab a shave, change my clothes." Belle went over to
the bed, bent from the waist, looking back at me, her big beautiful butt
trembling just a little bit. "You've got some time," she said. I went over to her. "This has got to
make you think of something," she said, her voice soft and sweet. I slid into her
smooth. She dropped her shoulders to the bed, pushed against me. "Come
on." Belle locked her
elbows tight as I slammed into her from behind, my hands on her waist. I was
lost in her. "I'm
coming," she said, her voice calm. "Try not to get
so excited about it," I told her. She giggled. Her whole body shook.
"I mean I'm coming with you. To the hospital . . . oh!" I blasted off inside
her, fell on top of her on the bed. I lay there, catching my breath until I got
soft and slipped out of her. "You want a smoke?" I asked her,
lighting one for myself. "No, I have to
get dressed," she said, bouncing off the bed. I didn't argue with
her. The morning was
bright and clear. Like I felt. We pulled off the West Side Highway just past
the Battery Tunnel. I motored quietly up Reade Street, heading for the river and
my office. A mixed crew of blacks and Orientals were taking a break from
unloading a truck. The black guys were eating bowls of steaming noodles,
working with chopsticks like they'd been doing it all their lives. One of the
Orientals yelled something in Chinese to a guy standing in the doorway with a
clipboard in his hand. The only word I caught was "motherfucker." Pansy was glad to see
me. She always is, no matter what's in my hands. I love my dog. Guys doing time
promise themselves a lot of things for when they hit the bricks. Big cars.
Wall-to-wall broads. Fine clothes. Who knows? I promised myself I'd have a dog.
I had one when I was a kid and they took him away from me when they sent me
upstate. I'll never go to prison again over anything money can buy. Wherever I
have to run, I can take Pansy. The beast took my
signal and let Belle inside. I gave her a couple of the bagels we'd brought
with us and went inside to shave. When I came out, Belle was sitting on the
couch, holding her paper cup of coffee with both hands, her arms stiff as
steel. Pansy was lying on the couch, happily slurping from the cup, spilling
coffee all over Belle. "Pansy,
jump!" I yelled at her. She hit the floor, spilling the rest of the coffee
in the process. "You miserable gorilla," I told the dog. Belle looked at me,
appealing. "I didn't know what to do - I was afraid to push her
away." "It's not your
fault - she's a goddamned extortionist." Pansy growled
agreement, always eager for praise. Belle's white
sweatshirt was soaked. She pulled it over her head. "I'll wear something
of yours," she said, smiling. I knew none of my
shirts would fit her, but I kept my mouth shut. I found a black turtleneck
sweater in a drawer, tossed it to her. I pulled out a dark suit,
nice conservative blue shirt, black knit tie. A pair of black-rimmed glasses
and an attachй case and I was set. Belle looked me over.
"I didn't know you wore glasses." "They're just
plain glass - they change the shape of your face." "That's what I
wish I could do," she said bitterly. "I like your
face," I told her. "It doesn't look
like his," she said. "But I still see him in the mirror
sometimes." "If it hurts
you, maybe you should fix it." "You mean like
plastic surgery?" "No." "Oh. You think .
. . ?" "Now's not the
time, little girl." She nodded. A
trusting child's face watching me. Listening. Just about time to
go. I let Pansy out to the roof, blanking my mind. No point speculating - the
Prof would have something for me and I'd find out when I saw him. Pansy strolled
downstairs and flopped down in a corner. She wasn't into exercise. "You want a
beer?" I asked Belle. "Who drinks beer
at this hour?" I pulled the last
bottle of Bud from the refrigerator, uncapped it, and poured it into a bowl.
Pansy charged over - made it disappear. Saint Vincent's is in
the West Village, not far from my office. "Just act like you know where
you're going," I told Belle. The information desk
gave us a visitor's pass and we took the elevator. Room 909 was at the end of
the corridor. I walked in first, not looking forward to shooting the breeze
with Melvin, hoping the Prof was already on the scene. He was. In the
hospital bed, both legs in heavy casts, suspended by steel wires. A pair of IV
tubes ran into his arm. His face was charcoal-ash, eyes closed. He looked
smaller than ever - a hundred years old. My eyes swept the
room. Empty except for a chair in the corner. I came to the bed quietly, images
jamming my brain. The Prof didn't move,
didn't open his eyes. I bent close to him. "Burke?"
His voice was calm. Drugged? "It's me,
brother." "You got my
message?" "Yeah. What
happened?" His eyes flicked
open. They were bloodshot but clear, focused on my face. His voice was soft, barely
a whisper. "I was poking around. On my cart. Scoping the scene, you know?
I was working Thirty-sixth and Tenth. By the Lincoln Tunnel." The Prof does this
routine where he folds his legs under him and pulls himself along on a board
with roller skates bolted to the bottom. It looks like he has no legs at all.
Sometimes he carries a sign and a metal cup. Working close to the ground. "You want to
wait on this? Get some rest?" His eyes hardened.
"They gave me pain, but I'm still in the game. The nurse'll be around in a
few minutes to give me another shot. You need to know now." I put my hand on his
forearm, next to the IV tubes. "Run it," I said, my voice as quiet as
his. "You ever hear
of this freak karate-man they call Mortay?" "The one who's
hitting all the dojos? Challenging every sensei?" "That's him. You
know Kuo? Kung-fu man?" "He teaches
dragon-style, right? Over on Amsterdam?" "He's dead,
Burke. This Mortay hits the dojo, slaps Kuo in front of his own students. Kuo
clears the floor and they go at it. Mortay left him right there." I let out a breath.
"Kuo's good." "He's good and
dead, bro'. It's been going on for a while. This Mortay's been selling tickets
- says he's the world's deadliest human. The word is that he was kicked off the
tournament circuit - he wouldn't pull his shots. Hurt a lot of people. He
fought a death-match about a year ago. In the basement under Sin City." "I heard about
it." "Every player on
the scene was there. They put up a twenty-grand purse, side bets all over the
place. He fought this Japanese guy from the Coast. The way I heard it, Mortay
just played with him before he took him out. Now he's hooked on it. Death. He
finds a dojo, walks in the door. The sensei has to fight him or walk off the
floor." "He's got to be
crazy. Sooner or later . . ." "Yeah. That's
what everybody's been saying. But he's still out there." The Prof took a deep
breath. "He does work too." "For hire?" "That's the
word." "He did this to
you?" "I'm on my cart,
talking to a couple of the working girls, handing out my religious rap. Like
I'm the man to deal with the van, you know?" "Yeah." "Car pulls up.
Station wagon. Spanish guy gets out. Short, heavy-built dude. Big diamond
hanging from his ear. Tells me he has someone wants to talk to me. I tell him
that I bring the Word to the people, so the people got to come to me. The
Spanish guy don't blink an eye. Pulls a piece right there in the street. Tells
me he has to bring me, don't matter what condition I arrive in. I tell him not
to get crazy - how am I supposed to go, walk? He calls to another guy. They
each grab one end of my cart, put me in the back of the wagon. The girls just
faded. They're hijacking me off the street, nobody's paying attention." The Prof's voice was
the same quiet flow, his eyes focused on someplace else. "They take me to
one of the piers. Past where they have the big ships. I'm not blindfolded or
anything. They haul me inside this old building at the end of the pier. Place
is falling apart: big holes in the roof, smells like a garbage dump. "Guy's waiting
for us. Tall, maybe six two, six three. Couldn't weigh more than one and a
quarter." "That
thin?" "Skinny as a
razor blade, man. Arms like matchsticks. You'd look like a weightlifter next to
him. "Mortay?" "Oh, yeah. Mortay.
No mystery - he tells me who he is. Like his name is supposed to stand for
something. He got this weird voice. Real thin, high-pitched. He says that he
heard I been asking around. About the Ghost Van. He says that's a bad thing to
do. Could make him mad, I keep doing that. "I rap to him.
Try my crazy act. He don't go for it. He says he knows me too. Calls my name -
the Prophet. Asks, if I know the Word, why I can't cure myself. Fix my own
legs. "I tell him no
man can change the will of the Lord. He comes over to me, kneels down, starts
on me with his hands, pressing spots on my face, watching me. Then he says, You
lie. Just like that. You lie. He slaps me right off the cart, tells me to stand
up. For a minute, I thought my legs stopped working for real . . . but I got to
my feet. "He says he's
going to have to show me it's a mistake to ask questions. I know bodywork's
coming up. I got no place to go. I fucked up, brother," the little man
said, his voice shaking. "I was scared. You know I don't spook easy, but
this freak . . . It was like he was sending out waves. Hurting me inside, and
he wasn't even touching me." I felt Belle behind
me. "Wait outside," I told her. I didn't know what was coming, but it
wasn't for her to hear. "It's all right,
Prof," I said to my brother, squeezing his arm. His voice went sad.
Shamed. "No, it ain't all right. I lost control, Burke. I put Max's name
out. I told this freak the Silent One was my brother. I ran the whole rap. Told
him the widow-making wind would tear down his house if he messed with me. I
figured if he knew I was hooked up with Max . . ." "It's the truth.
And he's not the only one." The Prof's face was
deep-down sad. "You know what he did? He smiled, man. He said he wanted
Max. In a match. Said he made me walk, he could make Max talk. The freak said
he had word out for months that he wanted to meet Max - that Max was
dog-yellow. "I went dumb. It
wasn't no act. It was the devil talking to me, standing right there. He said
he's been looking for Max's dojo. When he finds it, he's going to take it for
himself. "And then he
asked me where it was. Smiling at me. Saying since Max was my brother and all,
I had to know. "I told him I
didn't. I know when a man is lying, he says. Looks at me. Right through me. "The Spanish guy
says something. Mortay flicks his wrist at the Spanish guy's face like he's
brushing away a fly. Blood jumps out on the Spanish guy's face. "Then the freak
says to me he sees I don't know where Max's dojo is. So he wants me to give him
a message. "I say okay -
tell me the message. He takes this fucking machete from someplace. Hands it to
me. Test the blade, he says. Big smile on his face. I touch the edge - it goes
right into my hand, draws blood. "Sharp enough?
he asks me. For what? I say. "I'm going to
fix your legs, he says. "I try and stall
him. Put the blade down, take off my coat. Like I'm getting ready to duel with
him. I pick up the blade, swing it in both hands. Like I'm testing it? I check
the door where they brought me in. Spanish guy standing there, holding the gun.
No place to go. "I was scared,
Burke. But shamed too. I knew I put Max's name out. Broke the rules. I'm a man.
I never cried when they broke me up in the joint. I have a name too." "Your name is
gold, Prof." The little man wasn't
listening; tears on his face. "I pulled it
together. I called his name: Come on, pussy! He came at me. I hit the floor,
flipped onto my back, flashing the blade up at him with both hands-hard. Going
to cut his balls off." The Prof's arm
trembled in my hand. "He floated
right over me. Musta been six feet off the ground. He comes again. I step to
him, blade going side to side, razor-circle. No way in for him. He comes inside
the blade, chops me on the wrist. The blade goes flying. "Fun's over,
nigger," he says. The Prof's eyes
closed. "I grab for his
eyes. White mist comes. I hear a crack - I know it's my leg. I go down." His eyes opened. "When I come
around, I'm in the back of the station wagon. Mortay - he's sitting like Max
sits. Against the back door, facing me. Taking you to the hospital, he said.
Put you in a nice private room - everything's on me. Tell Max I did
this. Says his name real slow. Two pieces. Like More-Tay. Get it right, he
said. Give him my message." The Prof bit into his
lip, reaching inside for what he needed. "You're the only one I
called," he said. "I know." "I fucked up.
Fucked up bad." "You did the
job, brother. This Mortay . . . he's got to be locked into the van
somehow." "But Max . . .
?" "He knew
about Max before he ever grabbed you, Prof. That's his own scene. You gave him
nothing he didn't already have." "Burke . . . I
never saw nothing move so fast in all my life." I patted his arm,
feeling the little man's fear vibrate through to me. "I need you on
this one, brother," I told him. "I won't be
running no races for a while," he said, looking at his legs. "It's your brain
I need. Knife-fighters are a dime a dozen." The ghost of the
Prof's old smile showed. "If you got a plan, I'm your man." "They still have
the death-matches in the basement under Sin City?" "They move them
around, what I heard." "Who'll
know?" The Prof thought a
minute. "Got to be Lupe, brother. That dude's a battle-freak.
Cockfighting, pit bulls, rope-dancing . . . it's a good bet he'll be on the
set." "Where's he
hang?" A bigger smile this
time. "Your favorite place, Ace. Every weeknight, he's at the end
grandstand at Yonkers." "Which
end?" "Way past the
finish line . . . where it looks like bleachers?" "Yeah, I know
it." "Every night. He
sets up matches. Takes a piece. The little man's eyes moved into stronger
focus. Working again. "Light me a smoke." I fired one for him,
held it to his lips. He took a deep drag. "Lupe's about
fifty. Greasy 'do, wears it in an old-style D.A. Pachuco cross on his hand. Short,
fat dude. Bad teeth. Got him?" "Yeah." The Prof looked up at
me, eyes clear. "All the faggot broke was my legs, Burke." "I know." "No rhyme this
time. This is the true word: he'll be sorry." "For breaking
your legs?" "For not killing
me when he had the chance," the little man promised. Back to himself. I heard loud voices
in the corridor. Pushed open the door a crack. A big black nurse was trying to
push her way past Belle and not having any luck. "It's
okay," I told Belle, holding open the door. The nurse came in,
pushing a cart with a metal tray on it. "Time for your medicine," she
told the Prof, a West Indian tang to her voice. The little man winked
at her. "You better hope
that ain't no dope," he said, pointing his chin at the hypo on her tray. "And why is
that?" she said, a smile creeping onto her broad face. "Dope makes me
sexy, Mama. I couldn't trust myself around a fine cup of Jamaican coffee like
you." "Never mind with
a smart mouth, mahn," she snapped, still smiling, loading the syringe. The Prof looked at me
and Belle. "Look here, fools, can't you see me and this lady want to be
alone?" I waved goodbye.
Belle bent over and kissed him. He was already deep
into his rap with the nurse by the time we got the door closed. Belle rested her hand
lightly on my arm as we waited for the elevator, not saying a word. She stayed
quiet until we got in the car. "What happened
to him?" "He was in an
accident." Her face went sulky.
"I told you the truth. I told you my secrets. You don't have to tell me
yours." She lit a cigarette. "But don't lie to me - I'm a big girl,
not a baby. It's none of my business, just say that. Don't tell me stories, you
want me to trust you." "It's none of
your business," I said. She didn't say
another word until I hit the highway and she saw where I was headed. "No." "No what?" "No good. What
happened to your friend - it's none of my business, okay. But you're going to
do something now. I know you have to." "And?" "And that's my business.
I'm in too." "No, you're
not." "Yes, I am.
Don't you tell me I'm not. I can do things. I can help." "Look, Belle . .
." "You
look. You think I'm just a piece of ass with a sad story? I'm a woman. A woman
who loves you. You don't want my love, you say so. Say so right now." ''I . . ." "Just shut up. I
don't sell my love. I never gave it away before. I said I was going to love
you. That means something. My love is worth something - you have to give me a
chance to show you." "You'll get your
chance." "How? Coming to
see you on visiting day?" "If that's what
it comes down to." "No! I love you.
I swear I love you. I pay attention when you talk. I learn things. You want to
mistreat me, I'll still love you. I play for keeps. But you can't disrespect
me. Like on that wall you showed me." "I'm not
disrespecting you." "No? You've got
work to do, I should stay at home, right? I'm too fat for an apron, and I don't
know how to cook." I lit a cigarette,
blew smoke at the windshield, driving mechanically. Belle moved in close
to me, her hip against mine, both arms around my neck, talking softly into my
ear. "You have to love me. And you won't . . . not really love me .
. . unless you let me in. I won't get in the way - I'll just do my piece. You
say what it is. But you have to let me in or you'll never see what I am . . .
you'll never love me, Burke." I took a deep breath.
Let it out slow. "You won't
free-lance? You'll do what I tell you?" "I swear." "I'll pick you
up tonight. Around seven." "Where're we
going?" "The
racetrack." "I thought . .
." "That's not the
deal," I reminded her. She gave me a kiss,
nuzzled against me for a minute, moved back to the passenger side. "You're the
boss." She smiled. Sure. When we got to her
house, Belle bounded out of the car like she was going to a fire sale on
salvation. I wheeled the car around and shot back to the city. Lots of work to
do. I pulled in behind
Mama's. Grabbed the Daily News from under the register and sat in my booth. The
waiter brought me some hot-and-sour soup, not even pretending I had a choice. I
read the paper, waiting for Mama. Nothing about any new Ghost Van murders. I
flipped through to the back. The race results. Mystery Mary came out on top. Wired
the field, trotting the mile in 2:00.3. She was three lengths up at the top of
the stretch and held on by a neck. Paid $14.20. I was up almost a grand and a
half. I couldn't remember the last time I figured a race so perfectly. I waited
for the rush. It didn't come. Mama moved into the
booth. Greeted me, her eyes shifting to the newspaper. "You win?" "Yeah." "I tell Max pick
up the money?" "Yeah. And tell
him to lay low for a few days. Stay off the street, okay? I'm working on
something - a nice sweet score. Let people think he's gone away for a
while." Mama looked at me,
waiting. "I got to
go," I told her. She didn't say
anything. I hit the post
office. Told Melvin where the Prof was, gave him the phone number of the
private room. Anyone comes around asking for the Prof, he should call me at
Mama's, leave the word. The City Planning
Office had the detailed grid maps I needed. I paid for them in cash. I spent another
couple of hours at the library, groping around, not sure what I was looking
for. I drove to the
junkyard. Turned around before I got there. It wasn't time for the Mole yet. I went back to the
office. I put the grid maps of the city on the wall. Spread out the clips
Morelli got for me. I couldn't make them work. I went into myself,
deep as I could go. I came back empty. Pansy and I shared
some roast beef. When I looked at my
watch, it was time to go. The door opened
before I could knock. "Close your eyes," Belle said. "Keep them
closed." She led me over to
the couch, pushed me into it. "Just sit for a minute, honey - I'm not done
yet." I lit a smoke,
looking around. The whole place was a mess - boxes and paper all over the
floor, bed not made, ashtrays overflowing. Belle came out of the
bathroom prancing on a pair of shiny black spikes. Her hair was swept to one
side, held together with a black clip. Her face was so different I had to look
twice: dark eye liner pulled her eyes apart, sharp lines over her cheekbones.
Her mouth was a wide, dark slash. She was wearing a black silk top over a pair
of skin-tight pants in a wide black-and-white stripe. Two heavy white ropes
tied loosely around her waist. She twirled before me, as pretty-proud as a
little girl in her first party dress. "See. Just like
Michelle said." I stared at her. "Burke. Say
something!" "Damn!" "What does that
mean?" she demanded, moving closer. "I think my
heart stopped. You want to try some mouth-to-mouth?" The smile lit up her
face. "Isn't it great? Michelle's so smart." She twirled again.
Stood hip-shot, her back to me. "Vertical stripes," she boasted,
patting her hip. The black-and-white
stripes were vertical all the way up her legs. But when they got to her butt,
they stopped going parallel and ran for their lives in opposite directions.
Flesh stomps fashion every time. "You're the
loveliest thing I've ever seen in my life," I told her, reaching out my
hand. She slapped it away.
"No, you don't." She laughed. "I didn't put all this on for you to
pull it off." I got to my feet,
reaching in my pocket for the car keys. Belle moved in close to me, holding the
lapel of my jacket with one hand. Dark-red polish on her nails. "Burke, I was
only teasing. You want to stay here, it's okay." I patted her on the
rear. "I wish we could stay here. We're working, remember?" "Then why'd you
say . . . ?" "I lost my
head." She gave me a quick
kiss. "Wait till later," she promised. I rolled onto the Belt
Parkway, taking it past the crossover for the airport, heading for the
Whitestone Bridge. When I saw a break in traffic, I pulled over on the
shoulder. Turned off the engine. Belle sat quietly, black-and-white-striped
legs crossed, waiting patiently. "Were you really
a driver?" I asked her. "Oh, yes,"
she said, her eyes opening wide, watching me close. "Want to show
me?" She was behind the
wheel in a flash, almost shoving me out the door. I went around to the other
side, let myself in. Lit a smoke, watching her. Belle kicked off the
spike heels, wiggling her hips in the seat. She wasn't playing around, just
getting the feel of the machine. "Can I move the seat back a bit?" I showed her where
the lever was. She took it back an inch or two, extending her arms toward the
wheel, looking another question at me. I threw a toggle switch and the wheel
dropped into her lap. "Move it to where you want it and I'll lock it in
place." She played with the
wheel for a minute, getting it just the way she wanted it, squirming around in
the seat, checking the mirrors, rolling her shoulders to get the stiffness out.
"Anything I should know?" she asked. "Like
what?" "Do the brakes
grab? Does it pull to one side?" "No. It tracks
like a train. Stops straight. But watch the gas - it's a lot stronger than it
looks." She nodded. Turned
the key. Blipped the throttle a couple of times. "No tach?" she
asked. "It's built for
torque, not revs. You want to drop it down a gear, just kick the pedal. Or you
can move the lever down one from D." Belle gave herself
plenty of room, waited until the traffic was quiet in the right lane. She came
down hard on the gas, adjusting the wheel when the rear started to slide, and
pulled out onto the highway hard and smooth. She merged with traffic and flowed
along, getting the feel. "Where's the
flasher for the headlights?" "Flick the turn
signal toward you. But be careful - the high beams are real monsters." "Horn?" "There's two.
The hub on the wheel is the regular one; the little button near the rim -see
it? - that's for moving trucks out of the way." She flicked a glance
over her right shoulder. "Okay to play?" "Go," I
told her. She spotted an
opening, mashed the gas, shot all the way across to the far-left lane, blew
past a dozen cars, backed off the gas, and rolled into the center lane. She
pulled the Plymouth so close behind the car in front that it looked like we
were going to hit. Kept it right there until the guy in front of us pulled
over. "Follow the
signs to the Whitestone Bridge," I told her. Belle handled the big
car like it was part of her, cutting through traffic, moving from one clot of
cars to another, staying in the pack each time. When we got to the bridge, she
pulled into the Exact Change lane without me saying a word. I handed her a token.
She flicked it into the basket without looking. We motored along the Hutchinson
River Parkway, Belle still putting the Plymouth through its paces, not talking
to me. We came to the last toll before the hook-turn to the Cross County. A guy
in a white Corvette was in the lane next to us, coming out of the chute at the
same time. Belle goosed the Plymouth, heading for the left lane. The 'Vette
jumped out ahead of us. Belle kicked it down - both cars were flying to the
same lane, the 'Vette a half-length in front. Belle kept coming. The gap got
narrow. I heard the scream of rubber - the 'Vette's driver stood on the brakes
as we shot through. A minute later, the
'Vette steamed by in the right lane, cutting sharply in front of us as soon as he
passed. Belle flicked the brights, punching the horn button at the same time.
The sky lit up. The twin air horns under the horn blasted the warning call of a
runaway semi. The 'Vette ducked out of the way as we went by. Belle slashed
over into his lane. I heard the shriek of brakes again. Belle brought it down
to about seventy. We were in the right lane, heading for the hook-turn at Exit
13. Bright lights flooded the back window. Belle reached up, turned the
rearview mirror to the side. She hit the hook-turn with the 'Vette boiling up
behind us. "Come on,
sucker," she muttered as the 'Vette pulled into the outside lane behind
us. She nailed it around the sweeping turn, holding the inside track. The
'Vette roared behind us, closing fast. Belle's mouth was a straight line. She
slid the Plymouth into a piece of the outside lane, but this time the 'Vette
was ready for her - he darted back to the inside. Belle slashed the wheel back
to the right, carrying the 'Vette right off the road onto the grass. She pulled
the Plymouth together for the straightaway, swept under the overpass, and slid
into the new traffic stream as smoothly as a pickpocket working a crowd. She patted the
steering wheel hard - like you'd do a horse who'd run a strong race. "Good
girl," she said. "You took the
words out of my mouth." She flashed me her
smile. We exited the Cross
County and hooked back to the racetrack. I showed her where to pull in: around
the back, near the stable area. Nobody parks there except the horse vans - it's
a long distance to the entrance. I gave Belle the buck and a half for the guy
collecting the entrance fee, and we motored slowly through, stopping for grooms
to walk their horses across the road. "Park over
there," I told her, pointing at a blacktop road that runs behind the
paddock. "Leave the nose pointing out." There are a couple of
hundred acres of gravel behind the road. Pitch-dark. Belle turned off the road,
stomped the gas, blasting straight into the darkness. She floored the brakes,
feathering the gas at the same time, spinning the Plymouth into a perfect
bootlegger's turn right into the spot I'd pointed to. She turned off the
engine. A whirlwind of dirt and dust flew outside the windows, settling on the
car. "What'd you
think, honey?" "You're a
natural," I told her. Her face went sad.
"No. No, I'm not." I took her hand,
squeezed it. "Don't disrespect your mother," I told her. She gulped. Took a
breath. "You always know what to say, Burke." "I know what to
do too," I promised her. I walked her past the
paddock, holding her hand. The black-and-white stripes swayed in the night. I
bet some of the mares were jealous. I paid our way past
the turnstiles. Stopped in the open area to toss a dollar at the guy selling
programs from behind a little desk. There was a box of tiny pencils next to the
stack of programs. Belle reached past me and took one. "That's a
quarter for the pencil, lady," the guy called out. Belle looked at him
like he was deranged. "For this little thing?" She tossed it back
into the box. "Behave
yourself," I told her, taking her hand to lead her outside. A booth about
the size of a one-bedroom apartment was set up outside, open along the sides,
canvas across the top. Barbecue grill inside. "Want something?" I
asked her. Smart move. She
ordered four hamburgers with everything, two beers. The guy behind the counter
finally stopped staring and barked the order over his shoulder, not moving his
eyes from her chest. "What're you
getting, pal?" the counter geek asked me. "He gets it
later," Belle assured him. The guy's jaw went
from gaping to unhinged. I paid the money,
carrying a beer in each hand, motioning for Belle to climb the stairs ahead of me,
admiring the view. We found seats in the outside grandstand, right near the top
of the stretch. Belle put her
hamburgers on one seat, took some napkins, and thoroughly cleaned off two more.
She took a slug of beer, then handed it back to me to hold for her while she
worked on the burgers. "You see that
guy's face?" she asked innocently. "Michelle was right about the
makeup." When she finished
eating, I stowed the refuse under our seats, lit a smoke, and opened the
program. Belle slouched against me, her head on my shoulder, holding the last
beer in one hand. "What do all
those little numbers mean?" "They all mean
something different. You really want to know?" "Yes," she
said, sounding injured. I went through it
quickly, just once over lightly. Showed her how you could tell the horse's age,
sex, color, breeding, all that kind of thing. I was up to the comparative speed
ratings at the different tracks and she was still paying attention. "What's the most
important?" she wanted to know. "What d'you
mean?" "Like, all that
stuff. It can't all mean the same thing." "Belle, that's
the trick of it. It all means different things to different people. Some people
like speed, some people like breeding, some people . . ." She cut me off.
"What about you? You think breeding is important?" I looked at her face
against my shoulder. "Class is what's important to me. Heart. Going the
distance. Breeding don't mean a thing." "But breeding
has to count for something, right? Or they wouldn't put it there," she
said, pointing to the program. "They put everything
on the program, girl. Because the gamblers want to know, see? What possible
difference could a horse's color make? That's on there too." "But it must . .
." "It does mean
something, Belle. I've been looking at horses since I was a kid - I'll tell you
what it means – you want to tell if a horse has real class, you look at its
mother." She tilted her head
up to me, a smile growing. "Truly?" "That's the way
nature made it, girl. You can never know for sure who the father of a baby is,
but there's never a doubt about the mother." "Never a
doubt," she agreed, patting my thigh. The P.A. system blared into life;
the horses were on the track for the first race. Belle watched as they paraded
in front of the grandstand behind the marshal. She lit a cigarette, watching
everything, leaning forward in her seat, her hand on my knee. The tote board said
two minutes to post time. "Are you going to make a bet, honey?" "Not this
race," I told her, watching. Belle sipped
delicately at her second beer. The very image of a lady, about ten percent past
life-size. The race wasn't much.
If I'd had binoculars, I would have looked for Lupe. Belle finished her
beer. "Who's going to win the next race?'' she demanded. I studied the
program. Same class, same crop. Mostly older horses on the way down. But there
was one four-year-old, a Warm Breeze mare; Hurricane was her name. I pointed
her out on the program. "This one's
getting stronger all the time - maybe she's a late bloomer." Belle lit a smoke.
"I like this," she said, watching the horses come out for the post
parade. "Which one is ours?" "The five
horse," I told her. "The one with the white blanket." "She's pretty.
Kind of small, though." At five minutes to
post, Hurricane was up to 15-1. "Let's bet on
her," Belle said. "Okay. I'll be
right back," I said, getting up. "Can't I come
too?" "Come on,"
I said, ripping the front and back covers off the program and folding the pages
into the rungs of our seats to mark them as ours. She held my hand as
we walked to the windows. A group of Latins were standing against a pole,
arguing about the race in Spanish. One blurted out "Mira, mira!"
as we walked by. Belle stiffened. "It just means 'Look at that!' "I
said to her, squeezing her hand. "Must be those vertical stripes." I threw a
double-sawbuck down on the mare. Back in our seats,
Belle squirmed, swiveling her head so she wouldn't miss anything. I lit a smoke
as they called the horses to the gate. As the car pulled off, the horses
charged into the first turn, fighting for position. Hurricane didn't get off
quickly - she was pushed to the outside, deep in the pack. "Oh, she's
losing!" Hurricane moved wide
on the paddock turn, gaining a little ground. The three horse was in front, the
six next to him, Hurricane running behind the six. Belle was pounding
her fist on my knee, bouncing a little in her seat. "Come on!" Hurricane fired on
the back stretch, going three-wide around the horse in front of her, collaring
the leader. But she couldn't pull ahead, and the three horse looked fresh. The
two of them ran away from the pack into the final turn and pounded for home,
not giving an inch. "Don't quit,
baby!" Belle yelled. The three horse
pulled a neck ahead, but the mare wouldn't give it up. She reached down and found
something, shot forward again. The crowd roared - the three horse was the
odds-on favorite. They crossed the finish line together - too far down the
track for me to see who came out on top. "Photo" shot up on the
board. "Did she
win?" "I don't know,
Belle. It was close - we have to wait for the photo." "She didn't
quit, though, did she?" "Sure as hell
didn't." The crowd buzzed. The
"Photo" came down and the numbers went up: "5-3-4." Belle stood up, her
hands on the railing, leaning out into the night. "Good girl!" she
shouted to the mare. Heads turned toward the sound; the male heads stayed
turned. I grabbed her hand, pulled her back into her seat. Hurricane drove past
us, heading for the stable. Belle stood up again, clapping her hands. "Oh,
she's beautiful!" she said, happy as a kid at Christmas. The kind of
Christmas the Cosby kids have. I lit a smoke. Almost
$350 to the good. With Mystery Mary last night, I was on the longest winning
streak of my career. "Burke, it's
just like you said. Heart. She had heart - she went the distance." "Anything you
want to bet in the next race?" I asked her, keeping my voice as neutral as
possible under the circumstances. "No, honey. I don't
want to bet anymore. Let's just watch, okay?" "I'll be right
back," I said. I cashed in the
ticket. "Nice hit," the teller congratulated me. The money made a
sweet roll. I sat down next to
Belle. "Now, listen - I have to go and see someone. On the other side of
the track. You stay here. Don't get out of your seat. Okay?" "Yes." "The next race
is going to start soon. I'll get up like I'm making a bet. I'll be back as soon
as I can." "Okay." "Now, listen,
Belle. And don't tell me anything. II I'm not back by the end of the seventh
race, you get up and leave." I pressed the car keys into her hand. Drive
to your house. Call the number you called me at the first time. Ask for Mama.
Tell her I met with a man named Lupe. Tell her everything you know." "When will you
be back?" "I don't know.
I'm going down a tunnel. If you don't hear from me in a couple of days, call
Mama again. She'll tell you what to do." "Burke . .
." I held her face in my
hand, grabbing her eyes. "You want to be my woman?" She nodded. "This is part of
what it costs," I told her. I didn't look back. I went to the betting
windows, put down ten to win on the six horse, slipped the ticket into my
pocket. I hadn't looked at the program. I made my way through the track until I
was past the finish line. Then I went downstairs, paid an extra buck, and went
into the Club-house area. I stayed outside, climbing into the dark grand-stand
at the end, working my way to the top row. I spotted Lupe in a
couple of minutes, sitting by himself in the far corner, wearing a neon-green
jacket with some writing on the back. I moved down until I was across from him,
making sure. The Prof's description was right on the money. I lit a smoke, stuck
it in my mouth, and moved over to him, both hands in front of me. "Lupe?" "Who wants to
know, man?" "Name's
Burke," I said, sitting down. He grinned, showing
me his lousy teeth. "I know you, man. I heard of you. You got that monster
dog, right? You want to put her in the ring?" "Only if you get
in there with her," I said, keeping my voice even. "I got no beef
with you," he said quickly. "I got no beef
with you either. I heard you were the man to see about a match, that's
all." "What you
got?" "I got nothing.
I want to get down on some action." "You know Van
Cortlandt Park?" "I don't mean
dogs, pal. Or roosters either." "So?" "I heard this
guy Mortay - he's been doing some duels. Heavy action." "Mucho
action, man. But this motherfucker Mortay - he only had that one match." "With the
Jap?" "Yeah! You saw
it?" "No, just heard
about it." His eyes glittered,
crazy-cold eyes. "You got someone wants to meet Mortay, man?" "Yeah. Me." Lupe laughed.
"With what, man? A machine gun?" "I don't want to
fight him - just have a talk. I figured you could set it up." "No, man,"
he said, sadness in his voice. "I don't find him - he finds me. He's got
this guy, Ramуn. He's the one who makes the meets." "How'd he find
the Jap?" "The Jap found him,
man. Guy rolls in from the Coast, puts the word out. I hear this Mortay totaled
his brother out there. He was looking for payback." "Didn't have
much luck, did he?" "Man, Mortay
don't take prisoners. He earned his name. Mortay, man. You get it? Muerte.
Death. He deals death, man. Eats it alive." "You don't know where
to find him?" "Man, I don't want
to know where to find him." "Yeah. Okay.
This Ramуn comes around, you tell him I'd like to meet Mortay. Public place, no
problems. Just want to talk to him for a minute." Lupe shrugged. "He
comes, I ask him, man. Where you gonna be?" "Just give him
my name. I'm in the phone book," I told him, walking off. I was back next to
Belle before the start of the fifth race. "Not so bad,
huh?" I asked her. "I waited here,
just like you said." "Good
girl." "But if you
hadn't come back, I was going looking." "That's not what
I told you to do." "I wasn't going
to make trouble. Just poke around." "Yeah, you got a
great disguise all right. Nobody'd remember seeing you." "Burke, I love
you. I had to . . ." "You had to listen.
Like I told you to. Like you promised. Stupid bitch." "Honey!" "You don't want
to listen, you can walk. We made a deal." "I'm sorry,
baby. I am. I just . . ." "Just. Fucking.
Nothing. I'm not going to tell you again." She leaned into me,
her hand near the inside of my thigh, whispering. "You want to take me
home, beat my ass, teach me a lesson?" "I thought you
said no man ever hit you." "It'd be worth
it," she whispered. "You know why?" "Why,
dopey?" "You'd have to
be there to do it," she said. I stood up, held out
my hand. She took it, meek as a lamb, a little smile on her face. I drove the Plymouth
on the way back. Belle was quiet. "You mad at me?" "I'm not mad at
you - I'm not going to be mad at you. That's not the way I work. You
want to be with me, I have to trust you. That's all there is." I turned to look at
her. A tear rolled down her cheek, tracking through the makeup. 158 ANDREWVACHSS BLUE
BELLE 159 "Okay?" I
asked her. "I swear,"
she promised, lying down on the front seat, curling up next to my leg. She
didn't say another word all the way back to her house. When I pulled in behind
the red Camaro, Belle was still lying across the front seat, her head against
my leg. She put her hand on my thigh, grabbed hard enough to hurt. "You have to
come in with me." "Pretty bossy,
aren't you?" She looked up at me,
her face wet, the lovely makeup ruined. "Just come
inside, honey. Come inside - you can be all the boss you want to be, but don't
go away now." I opened my door, got
out. Walked around to her side of the car to let her out. I held my hand out to
her. "Come on,"
I told her. She piled out of the
Plymouth faster than I thought she could move. "Don't turn on
the lights," she said, pushing me to the couch. She patted my pockets,
found cigarettes and matches. Lit one for each of us. The little flame shot
highlights into her hair. "I don't know
what to do," she said, sounding lost. "About
what?" "I want to wash
my face. Take these tears off. But if I do, the makeup won't stay." "Wash your
face." "But you liked
the way I looked. You said so." "I like the way
you look in those pants too - does that mean you'll never take them off while
I'm around?" "It's not the
same thing," she sniffled. "Yeah, it
is," I told her. "Exactly the same thing. Underneath whatever you put
on there's still you." "But . . ." "But what?" "That's not the
way it is, honey. All my life . . . it's been the same thing. I have to take
off my clothes to make a man forget my face." I held her against
me, her face pressed into my chest, talking softly into her ear. "Listen to me,
Belle. You said you'd listen to me, yes?" Her head nodded
against me. "You're the one
who doesn't like your face. Because you don't understand it's your own face. I
know whose face it is, okay?" She nodded against me
again. "Go take off the
makeup," I said, patting her gently. While she was in the bathroom, I
called the Prof. His voice sounded much stronger. "I'm on the line
with plenty of time." "It's me." "Back from the
track?" "Yeah. I spoke
to the man." "So we got a
plan?" "No. Not yet. I
want to see the guy you talked with. Square the beef. Drop the case. Walk
away." "He's got to
pay, but not today?" "Right. And we
don't want anyone else in the game - just you and me." "He's not going
to stop till he gets to the top." "I'm not sure
that's right, Prof. I think this dueling shit isn't the real story - he was
riding shotgun on this other thing, and you stumbled into the line of
fire." "Could be, man.
But . . ." "No names, we'll
talk later. I'll come and see you. On the first shift, okay?" "I can't run,
son." I hung up. Belle came out of the
bathroom wearing a black bra over the striped pants, a doubtful look on her
freshly scrubbed face. She lit another of her fat black candles, propping it on
the sink. "I'm ugly
again," she said. I gave her a hard
look but she didn't flinch. "I looked for myself," she said, her
voice sad. I took a drag of my
cigarette. "You want me to fix it?" "How? Put a bag
over my head?" "Come
here," I said, keeping my voice even. She walked over to
the couch. "Take off those
pants." She reached back to
unhook her bra. "Just the pants," I told her. She stepped out of
her spike heels. Even with the zipper all the way down, getting the pants off
was a struggle. She stood there in her bra and panties, hands on her hips.
"You want these off too?" she asked, her thumbs hooked in the
waistband. "Yeah." She did, watching me
every second. "Now what?" "Come with
me," I said, taking her hand. I led her back to the bathroom, posing her
in front of the sink. The candle's flickering glow carried through the open
door. "Lean
forward," I told her, my hand on her shoulder. "Look into the
mirror." "I still think .
. ." "Shut up. Just
do what I tell you, okay?" "Okay." "I'm going to
ask you some questions," I said, sliding my hand down to her waist.
"Soon as you get the right answer, I'll stop. Got it?" "Yes." "Look in the
mirror - tell me what you see." "An ugly old
girl." I slid my hand to her
butt, took a plump cheek in my right hand, gave her a hard, sharp pinch. "Ow!" she
yelped. "Wrong
answer," I told her. "What do you see now?" "The same
thing," she snapped, her voice set and stubborn. I pinched her harder. She yelped again.
"Take another look," I told her. She tried to rub herself - I slapped
her hand away. "I don't care if
you pinch it right off, I'm not . . . Burke!" she squealed as I pinched
her again. My hand was getting tired. "I see a
beautiful young girl," I whispered to her. "You sure I'm
wrong?" Tears rolled down her
face. "You mean it? You swear you mean it?" I squeezed her butt,
gently this time. "I've got all night," I promised her. "This isn't
fair," she said, a smile peeking out from beneath the pout. "Tell me what
you see," I said, still holding her in the same place, tightening my hand.
"Last chance." "I see a
beautiful young girl," she said. Like a robot. I pinched the sweet flesh
hard. She tried to push past me but I blocked her way. "Okay!" I stroked her butt
gently. "Tell me." "I see a
beautiful young girl." "Me too," I
said, kissing her. She came into my
arms, baby-soft. I kissed her for a long time. "I'm going to be black and
blue," she said against my chest. "I'm
sorry." "I'm not,"
she said, pulling me toward the bed. "It's a lot better than being just
blue." Something flicked at
my brain just before I drifted off to sleep. Something about a letter. I made a
grab for it, but I went under before I could pull it close. When I came around,
it was still dark. Belle was lying crossways on the bed, her breasts flattened
against my chest, her face buried in the pillow next to mine. She was awake too
- I could tell from her breathing. "What,
baby?" I asked her. She turned her head, propping
herself on an elbow. "Baby . . . I'll never have a baby." "Sure you will.
Someday." "No, I won't. I
fixed it. I had a real ugly harelip - you know what that is?" "Yeah." "Well, I had a
bad one. Pulled up so bad you could see my teeth all the time. I saved some
money - went to a plastic surgeon. You know what, Burke? He told me he could
fix the whole thing, give me a different face. A real nose instead of this
little pig's snout, cheekbones, anything I wanted." "So what
happened?" "I started on
it. He did the harelip first. Did it real good too. But then I went on a job
with a couple of boys. It got nasty right in the middle - the wheels came off
and we had to fly. We got away, but one of the boys got himself shot up pretty
bad. There's this old doctor, back in the hills. We went by his place, stayed
there for damn near a month. Cost us every dime we had between us, but he
pulled Rodney through." She fumbled around
the night table, looking for a cigarette. Her body gleamed in the flame from
the match. "This old doctor
- he was an outlaw. Like us. I don't even know if he was a real doctor and all,
but he had good hands. I was pregnant - maybe two, three months gone. I found
out while we were holed up. I was just a big dumb old girl - never figured on
getting pregnant. When the doc told me, I told him to go and get the baby. Take
it. "He wanted to
know was I sure. So I told him. I told him the truth. He said I was right - I
was doing the right thing. He said he saw a lot of babies like I was gonna have
- said they never did too well. Trying to make it gentle for me, but I knew
what he meant." She took a deep drag
off her cigarette. "He said he
could fix me up inside when he went to get the baby. Tie my tubes. I didn't
have to think a minute." Her voice was soft in
the night. "I could love a baby - I know I could. But I figured, if I
loved a baby, I'd never have one. You understand?" "Yeah." "How come you
never worried about it?" "About
what?" "Making me
pregnant." I laughed. "I
can't make babies, Belle." "You tried? With
that woman . . ." "No. I never
tried. Never thought about it when I was young. Spent most of my time in places
where you couldn't make a baby anyway. I got jumped once. Long time ago. It
wasn't a personal thing - I was in the wrong place. Or maybe I was just the
wrong color. Doesn't much matter. Anyway, they really did a number on me. When
the ambulance dropped me at the hospital, the pain was so bad . . . there's no
way for me to describe it to you." "What'd they
do?" "Broke some
ribs. Fractured my jaw. But the real hurt they kicked me in the balls so many
times I thought they were going to fall off. The doctor said it was a
testicular torsion." "A what?" "A torsion . . .
like a twist." I held my two fists together in front of her face, twisted
one sideways. "Like that." "Ugh!" "Yeah. I looked
down at myself - the whole sac was black. Before they put me out, the doctor
said the blood supply was pinched off - they'd have to cut me open and stitch a
new wall inside to hold the balls in place." "God!" "I remember
telling them, could they do a vasectomy while they were at it . . . The doctor
thought it was funny - like, as long as they were in the neighborhood and all.
But they did it. No babies from me either." "Does that hurt
you?" "No. It's not for
me. I don't think about it. But I never told anyone before." Belle kissed me.
"You can tell me anything," she said. I reached past her. Lit a smoke
for myself. My watch said it was past four in the morning. "Go back to
sleep," I said, rubbing her back, pushing against her shoulder. "I have to sleep
on my stomach," she said, a smile playing around her lips. "You're breaking
my heart - I didn't pinch you that hard." "You did!" "Give it a rest,
Belle. I'd need a set of vise grips to do a job on all this," I said,
patting her butt. "I looked in the
mirror. While you were asleep. You made a big mark." "It'll be gone
soon." "I know,"
she whispered. "That's why I'm sleeping on my stomach. I want to see it
again before it goes away." She put her face in
my chest. I felt the tears. "What?" "It'll fade
away. You will too." "I'm right
here." "For now." I took a last long
pull on the cigarette, tangling my hand in the hair at the back of her neck. "It's like you
said before, Belle. We're outlaws. Tomorrow's for citizens. For us, it's always
now." "I love
you," she mumbled into my chest. "Go to sleep,
little girl," I told her, holding her, kissing her hair. Waiting for daylight. I was back up a
couple of hours later. I lit a cigarette, walked out onto the deck. A big
seagull sat on the railing. He didn't fly away as I walked closer to him, just
shifted his head so he could watch me close. He knew he had the whole sky to
run to. I felt Belle behind
me. "You better go back to sleep," I said. "Why? I'm awake
now." "You already
missed a couple of nights' work. You're going to be wiped out if you don't get
some rest." "I'm not going
back. In that business, girls come and they go. It happens all the time." "Yeah, but . .
." "I'm in this
with you, Burke. I know you could walk away from me anyway. When it's over. But
I got to take this shot. Show you what I can do . . . so you'll want to be with
me." "Look, Belle . .
." "You promised.
Maybe you didn't say the words, but you promised. An outlaw's promise - I'm in
on this. I've got some money put away. You won't have to take care of me." "Hell, I'd have
to rob a bank just to feed you." She slapped me hard
on the arm. "I mean it. Don't joke around." She slipped her arms
around my neck from behind, pressed against me, talking only for my ears.
"I'm going to be with you. I don't want men looking at me anymore the way
they do. You made it too late for that." Her grip tightened. "I want
a man who looks at my face." I let out a breath.
"Get dressed," I told her. We were back in my
office by seven-thirty. I let Pansy out to the roof, called Mama. No messages
came in for me, but she got mine out to Max. One more quick call. The Prof was
a little blurred on the phone - I guess they were still shooting him up. "How you holding
up, brother?" I asked him. "If the Board
don't call, it's time for the Wall." One of his old
sayings - if you can't scam the Parole Board, it's time to start working on an
escape plan. I guess he was pretty sick of the hospital. I spread out the
street maps on the desk again, stared at them. Belle's hand on my
shoulder. "What're you looking for, honey?" "I don't know
yet." Pansy came back
downstairs. One glance told her the situation. I was working - no point in
trying to extort food. Then her beast's brain came as close to an idea as she
was ever likely to get. She butted her massive head against Belle's leg,
pushing her back a few feet. Belle headed for the couch, but Pansy cut her off,
butting at her again. "What does she
want?" "Food," I
said, not looking up. I heard the
refrigerator open. "Well, what suits you?" Belle asked. Pansy
growled. "Can I give her some of this brown rice?" "Heat it up
first," I told her, keeping my eyes on the maps. Belle came back
inside. "Honey, is there a store around here?" "What kind of
store?" "Like a
supermarket or a grocery?" "Not far.
Why?" "I need some
stuff." "Later,
okay?" "But I want . .
." "Belle, I'm
trying to figure something out. Just be quiet for a while, okay?" She leaned over the
desk, her breasts in my face, one hand slipping into my lap. "Maybe you
should put something in my mouth . . . shut me up good." I looked up at her,
holding her eyes. "If you won't let me work with you here . . ." Her eyes went soft
and sad. "I was playing." "Now's not the
time." She leaned closer,
watching my eyes. "I know. I thought you'd give me a slap. Where you
pinched me last night." "What good would
that do?" "I have to feel
you. You won't let me help . . . I just wanted . . ." "I will
let you help. But if you don't shut up, I'll never figure out how." I patted her rump.
Gently. "Okay?" "Okay." When I looked away
from the map, she was curled up asleep on the couch, Pansy was lying parallel
to her on the floor. I snapped my fingers.
Pansy's head swiveled. I pointed toward the far corner of the office. She moved
with the speed of a runaway fire hydrant. As soon as she was at her post, I went
over to the couch. I kissed Belle on the cheek. She came awake. "What is
it, honey?" "I got something
for you to do - you awake?" She rubbed her eyes.
"Sure." "When you spoke
to Marques, he call you or did you call him?" "Both." "So you have a phone
number for him?" "Sure." "I want you to
call him. Tell him I came by the club and saw you. Asked you to get in touch
with him - set up a meeting. Tell him I said any time, any place. About what we
talked about the last time." "What if he has
to call me back - where do I tell him?" "Don't tell him
anything. If he can't give you a time and a place right then, tell him to call
my number. The one he gave you the first time." "The Chinese
woman." "Yeah." "Burke, is she
the one? The one you . . ." I ruffled her hair,
kissed the back of her neck. "Come on, Belle. We got a lot to do
today." On the way to the
hospital, I asked her about Marques. "You know the
best time to call?" "What difference
does it make?" "He's a pimp. He
goes off the street before four, five in the morning, the other players will
think he's losing a step. Best time to catch him at his crib is early
afternoon." "Sometimes, when
I come off my shift, I can't sleep. Maybe I could try him now." "Yeah, okay.
When I go up to see the Prof, you take the car. Find a pay phone, take a
shot." I looked at my watch. Almost ten-thirty. "I'll meet you in the
parking lot around noon. If you haven't reached him by then, we'll try
again." I pulled up outside Saint
Vincent's. "The registration papers are in the glove compartment. You get
stopped by the cops, tell them you borrowed the car. It's not on any
list." I showed her the
papers. "Juan
Rodriguez?" "That's me. I
met you at the club. Told you you could borrow the car any time you wanted.
You've never been to my house. I told you I wouldn't need the car for a couple
of weeks 'cause I'd be on vacation." I gave her a slip of
paper with a phone number on it. The phone would ring at the junkyard I own a
piece of in the Bronx. The old man who made out my paycheck would tell anyone
who called I was on vacation. In Puerto Rico someplace. Juan Rodriguez was the
ideal employee - he never showed up for work, but he cashed his paycheck and
gave the boss back the money. Fuck the IRS. "Drive the car
like it was hot. Don't call attention to yourself. But if you get pulled over,
don't run. If you get a ticket, just take it. Don't say anything." "All right,
honey." The Plymouth pulled away
and disappeared in traffic. Smoother than I ever drove it. The Prof looked
stronger already. I pulled my chair to the head of the bed and we talked like
we used to on the yard. Quiet, each looking in a different direction. The West
Indian nurse came in. "I smell smoke
in here," she said, like she'd caught us stealing. "Smoke don't
have a prayer against your own sweet smell, Mama," the Prof sang out. "There's no
smoking in the patients' rooms. Now, you know that very well. I have told you
before." The Prof spread his
hands to the heavens, seeking divine guidance. "Lord, what must I say to
make this woman give me a play?" The nurse's broad
face creased as she fought off the smile. "You smart-mouth little man -
I'd break the rest of your bones." "You don't mean
a word of it, a goddess like you." The nurse had a pill
and a plastic cup of dark liquid. "You going to take this medicine with no
more of your speeches?" The Prof regarded
her, his fine head cocked to the side. "You know why a man climbs a
mountain?" She sighed, used to
this by now. "So, then. Why
does a man climb a mountain?" "'Cause the
air's so sweet when you get to the top," the Prof said, and popped the
pill in his mouth, holding the glass like a toast. "You going to give a
poor man a reason to live?" "You keep
messing with me, you have no reason to live," she warned him, then waited
patiently for the Prof to finish drinking his medicine. Snatched the glass from
his hand and stalked out. "A little more
time and she's all mine," the Prof said. He was right - all Mortay broke
was his legs. I lit another
cigarette, pulling the half-filled water glass we used as an ashtray from under
the bed. I went to the track.
Saw the man. Like I told you." "And?" He can't put me in
touch. Says this Mortay's a death-dealer for real. That duel with the Jap - it
really went down." The Prof dragged deep
on his cigarette. "Yeah. But he's no warrior. Not like Max. He's a junkie
for it." "It connects,
Prof." His eyes flashed. ''Run
it down, home." "You weren't
looking for this freak, right? Just poking around . . . asking about the
van." "Right." "And this guy's
no bodyguard. You must have stepped on his turf by accident." "It's not enough.
We need to know more if we going to score." 'I'm working on it. I
told this Lupe . . . the guy who makes matches . . . I want to meet." "You not going
to bring Max?" "Max is out of
this one, Prof." He reached his hand
across the bed. I squeezed it. "That seals the
deal," he said. "Right. You
getting anything over the wire?" "Not yet. It'll
come, though. I got a lot of hooks floating." I stood up to leave.
"You need anything?" I asked. "I need a
nurse," he said. Belle was behind the
wheel of the Plymouth as I came through the parking lot, reading a newspaper
spread over the steering wheel. She had the car moving before I closed the
door. "Very
nice," I told her. "This is some
lovely car." "You're some lovely
woman. You call Marques?" "No answer.
Can't we try him from your office?" "That phone's no
good past eight in the morning. You can't stay on the line more than a minute
anyway. I'll show you where to pull over." We found an open pay
phone by the river. I handed Belle a quarter. She took one of those
premoistened towelettes from her purse, ripped off the foil, wiped down the
mouthpiece. She dialed the
number. Waited. Somebody picked up. I only heard her end of the conversation. "Could I speak
to Marques, please?" . . . "Belle." We waited a couple of
minutes. I opened my palm to show her I had another quarter ready. "Hi. Remember
that man you wanted me to call for you? Burke? He came by the club. Said he
wanted to meet with you. About what you talked about the last time." . . . "He said it was
up to you. Any time. Any place." . . . "No, he didn't
seem mad at all. He just said he needed information about the scene, and you
were the best person . . . He didn't
want to poke around without checking with you, he said." . . . "Okay. Wait, let
me write this down," she said, signaling to me. I nodded. "Go
ahead," she said into the phone. . . . "Junior's?
Where's that? Oh, he'll know." I nodded to her
again. "What
time?" . . . "Eleven. Okay.
And tell him not to bring his friends? Sure. Okay, thanks. I'll tell him - he
said he'd call me before I go to work tonight." She put down the phone. "Good
girl," I told her. She tossed her head,
smile flashing in the sun. "You just wait and see," she promised. I took the wheel. As
I pulled out, I noticed the back seat full of cartons. "What's all that
stuff?" I asked her. "Stuff I
needed," she said. Case closed. "You
hungry?" She made a noise like
Pansy does when you ask her the same question. I pulled in behind
Mama's, taking Belle by the hand as we walked through the kitchen. Mama's
collection of thugs watched us impassively - they'd seen stranger things come
through the back room. The joint had a few
customers - no way to keep them all out at lunchtime - but my booth was empty,
the way it always is. The waiter came over
to us, blocking Belle's side of the booth, looking a question at me with his
eyes. I shook my head, telling him Belle wasn't trouble. He flicked his eyes
toward the front of the room. I nodded - send Mama over. Mama's dress was a
deep shade of red. Opal earrings matched the ring on her hand. She returned my
bow, face a mask. "Mama, this is
Belle," I said. "Belle, this is Mama." I said it carefully. Nice
and even, same tone of voice. Mama was stone-solid reliable when it came down
to a crunch, but she was funny about women. She bowed.
"Friend of Burke, friend of Mama." Belle started to reach
out her hand, thought better of it. Bowed gently. "Thank you, ma'am."
Polite as a little girl in church. Mama slid into the
booth next to me, barking something in Cantonese over her shoulder. The waiter brought
the soup. Mama served me, then Belle, then herself. Watched carefully, smiling
with approval as the bowl emptied. "You have more soup?" "Yes, please.
It's delicious." Mama bowed again.
"Very good soup - good for strength. Special for my people. Always
here." Belle looked a
question. "Burke my people,"
Mama said. No expression on her face, nothing in her tone. But a low-grade
moron would have caught the warning. Belle quietly worked
her way through beef in oyster sauce, snow-pea pods, water chestnuts, fried
rice, hard noodles, paying no attention to us. Mama took a look at
the empty plates, raised her eyebrows, called the waiter over again. Belle had
a portion of lemon chicken, washing it all down with some Chinese beer. She
patted her face with her napkin. "Oh, that was good!" "You want
more?" Mama asked. Belle smiled.
"No, thank you." "You come back
sometime. When no more trouble, okay? See my granddaughter, yes?" "You have a
granddaughter?" "Why not?"
Mama asked, her face hardening. "You don't look
old enough." A smile flashed.
Disappeared. "Plenty old enough. Burke explain to you sometime." "Do you havve
pictures of her?" Mama scanned Belle's
face, taking her time. "Many pictures," she said, tapping her head.
"All in here." Belle walked past the
warning like she hadn't heard it. "What's the baby's name?" "Flower." Belle sipped her tea,
prim and proper. Her eyes were soft. "If I was a flower, I know what kind
I'd be," she said, half to herself. "A bluebell." Mama bowed, as though
she understood. The way she always looks. "I have to go in
the street for a while," I told Belle as we climbed in the Plymouth.
"I'll call you when I'm done with Marques. Late, okay?" "Can't I wait at
your office?" "It's only a little
after two now - I'll be coming back there to change around eight. It's a long
time to be cooped up." "I won't be
cooped up." "Yeah you would.
I could leave you there with Pansy, but she wouldn't let you out." "It's
okay." I drove back to the
office, helping Belle carry her boxes up the back stairs. "I'm not
playing, girl. Pansy lets people in, but they're always there when I come back,
understand?" "Sure. Go ahead.
I'll just take a nap." "Don't use the
phone. And don't open any of the file cabinets." "O-kay! I
got it." I gave her a kiss. I found Michelle at
The Very Idea, a transsexual bar on the East Side. I walked through a jungle of
hard looks until I got to her table, feeling them fall away when she kissed me
on the cheek. "Hi,
handsome." She smiled. "Looking for me?" I sat down next to her,
lit a cigarette, waiting patiently for her two girlfriends to leave. Michelle
didn't introduce me. "The Prof's in
the hospital," I told her. "What's the rest
of it?" "His legs are
broken. Somebody did it to him. For poking around, asking questions." "You know
who?" "Guy named
Mortay." Her big eyes went
quiet, two long dark fingernails flirting with her cheekbone, meaning she was
thinking. "I don't know him . . . but it seems like I heard the name . .
." "It's Spanish
for 'death.' " "Honey, you know
my language is French." I didn't say
anything, looking straight ahead. Michelle's hand grabbed my wrist. "Honey,
I'm sorry. But it's business, right? The Prof was poking around, like you said.
It's not the first time he stepped on a nail." "The guy didn't
have to do it, Michelle. It was a message. He's some kind of freak -wants to
fight Max. That's why he worked the Prof over." "He wants to
fight Max?" "That's what he
said." "He should
change his name to 'death wish.'" "Yeah, great.
Thanks for your help." I got up to leave. "Burke!" "What? You think
I came here to listen to your snappy dialogue? The Prof's my brother. Yours
too. I know you're off the street - I didn't think we were off your list." Michelle grabbed my
arm, her talons biting deep. "Don't you ever say that!" she hissed,
pulling me closer. She got to her feet, hooking her arm through mine.
"Let's get out of here - too many ears." We walked out into
the daylight. I let her lead me down the street to another joint - a singles
bar that wouldn't come alive for a couple of hours. We grabbed a pair of stools
near a corner. Glass tinkled; a brittle edge to the juiceless, anorexic
laughter of the patrons. The bartender brought Michelle her white wine and me
my ginger ale. "Tell me,"
she said, not playing now. "You know the
Ghost Van?" "Just the
rumors. The gossip off the street. But I know it's for real - somebody's
shooting the working girls." "There's a
bounty on it. I talked with some people. Made a deal to track it down. The Prof
was in on it. That's what he was looking for when he ran into this
Mortay." "So they're
connected?" "I don't know.
When Mortay leaned hard, the Prof pulled out Max's name. Thinking to put some
protection on himself. It backfired. Mortay wants Max - that's what he said.
Wanted to know where his dojo was. The Prof didn't know. Mortay snapped his
legs." "How'd you find
him?" "They brought
him right to the hospital. Like I said - a message." "Where are you
now?" "I did some
digging. There's this guy Lupe. Works out of the Bronx. Sets up matches. You
know: cockfights, pit bulls, crap like that?" "Yes?" "He said this
Mortay fought a duel. A bunch of the players got together, put up this purse.
Twenty grand. Mortay killed the other guy in front of the whole crowd." "I can see it.
Regular prizefights are too tame for the freaks. Too much cocaine, too much
filth . . . After a while, they have no nerve endings at all. It takes a
superjolt to get their batten es started. They want the real thing." "I told this
Lupe I want to meet Mortay." "Burke, that's
not like you, that macho foolishness." "Not fight him,
Michelle. Meet him. Just to tell him I'm walking away. No hard feelings." "Baby, I've
known you forever. All your feelings are hard feelings." "I have to turn
him away from Max." "It doesn't
sound like . . ." "I don't know what
it sounds like. If he's free-lance, it doesn't matter. He can't find Max." "So?" "So, if he's
tied up with this Ghost Van, maybe he's tied up with people who could." The bartender brought
us another round. I felt a flesh-padded hip bump my arm. A girl in a pink
leather skirt, moving onto the stool next to me, talking to her girlfriend.
Secretaries prolonging their lunch hour to look around. Michelle sipped at
her wine. "What do you want me to do?" "Ask around.
About the van. I'll check out this Mortay the best I can. See if it all catches
up." "I thought you
were going to walk away." "If I can, I
will. I don't like any of this. If this guy's really fighting duels, he can't
last forever. There's no old gunfighters." Her big eyes pinned
me over the rim of her glass. "I may be a sweet young thing, honey, but I
go back a ways, remember?" "Ex-gunfighter,"
I said, quietly. "Yeah, we're all
X-rated, aren't we, babe? I'm an ex-streetwalker, and you want me back on the
stroll to listen to the beat. And you're ready to pick up the gun again - I can
hear it in your voice." "It'll be all
right. I'll talk with him, square it up." The girl in the pink
skirt leaned into our conversation, her hardpointed breasts brushing my arm.
"Excuse me, honey," she said to Michelle, "could I ask your
boyfriend a question?" Michelle gave her an
icy smile. "He's not my boyfriend - he's my lawyer." "Oh,
perfect!" the girl said, pulling her pal into the scene. She looked at me,
flicking her tongue over her lower lip. "Do you think prenuptial
agreements take the romance out of marriage?" I blew a jet of smoke
across the bar. "Rubbers take some of the romance out of sex," I
said, "but they beat the hell out of AIDS." I tossed a couple of
bills on the bar. Michelle followed me out. I drove Michelle over
to her hotel. She was quiet on the drive, her eyes on the street. I pulled up
down the block from her place. "I can't explain
it to you," I told her. "I wish I could - it's somewhere inside my
head - I have to work with it until it makes sense." "Not everything
makes sense." I lit a smoke, shook
my head. "It's just a feeling but I know this whole thing is bad for us.
For all of us. I'm not looking for trouble." "Okay honey. I'm
with you." "Thanks, Michelle." She lit one of her
long black cigarettes like she does everything else. Elegantly. "You still with
that big girl?" "Yeah." "That's a very
fine woman, Burke. Believe me when I tell you. Nobody's ever been nice to
her." "I'm nice to
her." She smiled. "Are
you?" "Yeah, I am. She
took your advice." "Vertical
stripes." I laughed. "You
should have seen them on her." Michelle slapped my arm with unerring
instinct in the same spot Belle always used. "You work with what you have,
baby. You're looking at the expert." "I know." "Okay. You got
some cash on you?" "Yeah." "Then let's do
some shopping." "Shopping? For
what?" "For a present,
you idiot. For your girl." "I have to . .
." "Drive down to
the Village," she ordered me, not willing to discuss it further. Michelle found what
she wanted in a little basement dive on Sullivan Street. A necklace of small
dark-blue stones. The old Turk who ran the place had been a chemist before he
fled some border war a hundred years ago. He'd been one of the Mole's first teachers. "How much for
this old thing, Mahmud?" Michelle asked, holding the necklace up to the
light. "That is pure
lapis lazuli, young lady. Very fine. Very special." "Sure, sure.
About a hundred bucks retail, right?" "A hundred
dollars? For Old World craftsmanship? The stones alone are worth many times
that." "Since when is
Taiwan the Old World, Mahmud?" The old man's eyes
gleamed. "Lapis lazuli. The mineral is called 'lazulite.' Very rare. You
will not find it in the Far East. This perfect crystal comes only from
Madagascar." "Does the
geography lesson cost extra?" Mahmud and I
exchanged shrugs. "Even a hurricane eventually passes, leaving the
calm," he said. Michelle wasn't
moved. "You take American Express?" Mahmud laughed so
hard, tears ran down his face. "From him?" he said, pointing at me. Michelle moved in for
the kill. "Okay, so how much of a discount for cash?" Mahmud moved to
center ring, gloves up. "This necklace is worth one thousand two hundred
dollar." "Get out of
town! Do I look like I'm on medication?" "You look
lovely, as always, Michelle. One thousand two hundred dollar." "Four hundred.
And you don't have to gift-wrap it." "For you,
because you are so beautiful, because such a beautiful necklace should have a
beautiful home . . . a thousand." "It's not for
me, you old bandit, it's for Burke. For his girlfriend." "This is
true?" I nodded. "He just brought
me along for protection," Michelle said, smiling sweetly. "Ah, I see.
Eight hundred, then." "Did you say
five?" "Seven hundred
dollar, and only because I respect your good taste." "Can we split
the difference?" "Seven hundred
dollar," the old man said. He meant it. "Give him the
money," Michelle ordered me. I handed it over.
Mahmud slipped the necklace into a soft leather pouch, handed it to me.
"You take this too," he said, rummaging around under the counter. He
came up with a tiny round wood box. He unscrewed it, holding it out to me. It
was filled with a fragrant paste, colorless in the dark wood. "Jasmine,"
he said. "Just a touch on the lady's finger, then . . . here" -
touching his chest. "The lapis takes its fire from the earth; it will
blaze all the brighter if there is fire in the heart." I bowed to Mahmud.
Michelle gave him a kiss. When we hit the street, it was past six. "Where to?"
I asked Michelle. "Take me back to
my hotel. I need to change my clothes before I get to work." "Michelle . . .
you'll look?" "I'll do better than
that, baby. There's plenty of those little girls out there that know me. Like
the Prof would say, if they know me, they owe me." "Debts." "Debts all come
due, Burke. You know I love you. And even if you were still nothing but a
rough-off artist like you used to be, I'd still love you." She lit a
smoke, her face dead serious. "I'd love you because you're right sometimes
you have to go down the tunnel even if you don't know what's at the other
end." She blew the smoke at
the windshield. Reached over and squeezed my hand. "I don't know what
you're doing half the time. I don't think you do either. You're a hard man
trying to be a hustler, and you don't always make it. I don't know why you went
into that house last year - all I did was make a phone call like you asked. I
don't know why you started that whole mess." "It doesn't
matter now," I said. Thinking of the witch-woman, Strega. "It's all
over now." "It doesn't
matter why you did it . . . but I know this. You brought me my son. And I'll
never forget." She leaned over to
kiss me as the Plymouth pulled to the curb. "If it's out there, I'll find
it," she said. "Michelle . .
." "What?" "Use a
telescope, okay?" She just waved a
goodbye and moved down the street. Heads turned. Her walk didn't make men want
to bite into their palms like Belle's. lt pulled at a different piece, but it
pulled just as hard. It was almost
seven-thirty by the time I got back to the office. I had the key in the lock
when the smell hit me. A hard-sharp smell. I stepped inside. Pansy was at her
post, tail wagging, even happier to see me than usual. All the furniture was
against one wall. The fake Persian rug was off the wall. The smell was stronger
inside. Belle came in from
the back room. Barefoot, wearing only a bra and pants, her hair tied on top of
her head, a rag in one hand. "You came home
too early." "What in hell is
this?" "It's almost a
clean office, honey. Lord, this place was dirty - I damn near had to use a
chisel on the floor in the back." "Belle . .
." "I couldn't get
that rug up. And you don't have a vacuum - I should've known. It's some kind of
plastic, isn't it? I had to scrub it down . . . It's still damp - watch where
you put your feet." I walked over to the
couch. Sat down. Slowly. Pansy leaped onto the cushions, pressing against me. I
patted her head. Belle came over to
me. "That old beast - she followed me around everywhere. Big busybody,
poking her nose into everything. She wouldn't hardly let me work." ''I . . ." "Honey, don't
you like it?" "Yeah. I mean,
it's great. I just . . ." "Take a
look," she said, reaching out her hand to me. "Come on." The bathroom
sparkled, the back window gleamed. The floor glistened. The walls were a color I
had never seen before. Even the hot plate looked new. "Damn!" "It's good,
huh?" "It's
unbelievable." "I thought there
was another room. Behind the rug on the wall." "That's what
people are supposed to think," I said, half to myself. The surfaces of the
file cabinets looked like someone had worked them over with a power sander. My
old desk was oiled - you could even see the grain in the wood. "How'd you do
all this?" "I'm a working
fool - always have been. I was raised on work." "I don't know
what to say." It was the truth. The big girl moved in
against me, sharp sweat-smell blending with her natural juices into something
way past sweet. "Say what I want to hear," she whispered. I slipped both hands
inside her pants, pulling her tight against me. "Go take a shower," I
said. She ground her hips
against me. "That isn't it," she said. "Trust me." "I do." "Well . .
.?" She pulled back from
me, walked toward the back room, shaking her butt like she was on the runway.
Pansy shook her head in amazement. "You want out?" I asked her,
opening the back door. The beast turned away in disgust - I guess she'd been on
the roof a few times since I'd been gone. I had most of the
furniture back in place in a few minutes. I was rehooking the rug on the wall
when Belle came out. Nude, beads of water covering yards of pink flesh. She had
a towel around her head, holding it in place with her hands. "I'm all
clean." "Come
here," I said, reaching into my jacket pocket. She came over to the
desk, giving her hair one final rub with the towel, then tossing it over to the
couch. "Just stay there
for a minute," I said, signaling Pansy to come with me. I dumped
everything in the refrigerator into her giant bowl. I added some chocolate-chip
cookies and a pint of vanilla ice cream. "Speak!" I told her. It
would keep her occupied for a good five minutes. I went back inside.
Belle was standing by the desk, the soul of patience. I stood close to her,
holding her face in my hands, looking into her dark eyes. "Turn
around," I said. She turned her back
to me, bent over so her elbows were on the desk, butt in the air. I stepped in against
her, grabbed her shoulders, pulled her back so she was standing up again.
"Just do what I tell you," I said. "I thought . .
." "Sssh. Close
your eyes." "Okay, I . . ." "And be
quiet." She stood with her
back to me, hands at her sides. So quiet I could hear her breathing. I took the necklace
out of the leather pouch, unhooked the clasp, and slipped it around her neck. I
hooked it closed. "Turn around," I told her. Her eyes were still
closed, but her mouth was trembling. The lapis was blue fire against her,
falling down just to the top of her breasts. I kissed her on the lips.
"Take a look," I whispered to her. Belle kept her eyes
closed, working the necklace with her fingers, feeling the heat. Her eyes came
open; she lifted it in her hands, bent her head. "It's the most
pure-beautiful thing I've ever seen in my whole life," she said solemnly.
Tears on her face. "What're you
crying about - you don't like it?" "Don't be such a
hard guy," she said, ignoring the tears; "you know why." I kissed her.
"Okay. Be a baby if you want to." "It's your baby
I want to be," she said, pushing me to the couch. She dropped into my
lap, sprawling across me, covering me, knowing she wouldn't fit and not giving
a damn. I snaked a hand around her hip and pulled out the jasmine box. Handed
it to her. "What's
this?" "Open it." "Oh, it's
perfume!" "Paste, not
spray. Here," I said, touching my finger to it, rubbing it between her
breasts. She pulled my head
down to her. "How do I smell?" she asked. "Like juicy
flowers," I told her. She rolled off my
lap, pulling at my belt. "I've got some juice for you, baby. Come on, come
on!" It was after nine
when I looked at my watch. Belle was lying half on top of me on the couch.
Pansy was spread out on the floor, looking glum. I rolled off, sliding away
from Belle. I took Pansy to the
back door, jumped into the shower, dressed fast. Junior's at eleven, Marques
had said. I leaned over to kiss
Belle on my way out. "You going to be okay here?" "I do love
you," is all she said. The Plymouth hummed,
a fast horse on a short rein. Maybe it missed the way Belle drove. Junior's was
over the border. Uptown. A players' joint, it wouldn't even start to roll until
past midnight. The bar was in shadow, Billie Holiday on the jukebox. "God
Bless the Child." I wasn't going to
pull a house-to-house search through the booths. The bartender came over. Slash
of white skin across his dark face like a scar. "Can I help you,
Officer?" "I'm not the
Man. I'm lodking for Marques. Marques Dupree." "Nobody by that
name here, friend." "Yeah, there is.
He's expecting me. Ask him." "What name
should I call?" "How many
good-looking white men you see in this bar?" I asked him. He looked me full in
the face. "None," he said, moving away. I lit a cigarette.
Felt a tap on my shoulder. Slim blonde woman in a bottle-green sheath.
"Burke?" "Yeah." "Marques is over
this way," she said, moving off. I followed her to a
horseshoe-shaped red leather booth. Marques was sitting at the center, another
blonde to his left. The one I had followed moved to his right. I sat facing
him. "My man!"
Marques said, not offering his hand. "How's the hijacking business?" I nodded to him, not
answering. "You come by
yourself?" he asked, not looking around, sure of himself on home ground. "Same way I came
into this world," I assured him. "You
packing?" I let out a breath,
disgusted with his bullshit games. "Yeah, I got a machine gun in my
pocket." "Mind if
Christina takes a look?" "Whatever it
takes to get on with this." The blonde who had
come over to the bar moved next to me, running her hands over my body. She
reached into my crotch, squeezed. "Nobody home, huh?" I didn't answer her,
my eyes on Marques. She slid back next to
him. "He's got three packs of smokes, two lighters, bunch of keys, some
folding cash . . . He's empty." I watched Marques's
teeth flash. "Can't take chances with you gunslingers." "Ready to talk
now?" "Fire
away." I looked deliberately
at the blonde on his left. Turned my head, looked the same way at the one on
his right. "My ladies are
cool - you can talk in front of them." I shrugged, putting a pack of cigarettes
and a butane lighter on the table in front of me. I lit another smoke, snapping
off a wooden match. He didn't pay attention. That's why he was a pimp and I was
what I was. "You know a man
named Mortay?" "The
fighter?" "Yeah." "I don't know
him. Man, I don't want to know him. He's not on my list - I don't let my
women mess with no freaks." "What's that
mean?" "I saw him do
his thing, man. It was unreal. He fought this other dude. "The Japanese
guy. In the basement under Sin City?" "Right on. I didn't
even know what the entertainment was going to be, but it was on the wire that
it was a big thing, you know? I had to make the scene. Get down, be around.
When you set the style, you got to show it off." "Yeah, right.
You saw the whole thing?" "The whole
thing. This Mortay, man, that's a scary dude. Moves like a fucking ghost." "That may be the
connect, Marques." "l'm not reading
you, man." "Read this: One
of my people was looking around. On that job you and me talked about?" "Yeah?" "And he met
Mortay. I don't know if it was just a territory thing, wrong guy in the wrong
place . . . maybe so. It happens to all of us." "So?" "So Mortay
warned him off. Maybe he's front-ending the thing. Guarding the van." Marques snapped his
fingers. The blonde on the left pulled a vial from her purse, tapped out some
white powder on a mirror. She cut it into four lines with a gold razor blade,
put it in front of Marques. He rolled a bill into a tight straw, snorted a line
up each nostril. Each of the blondes took a remaining line for herself. The
pimp looked across at me, letting the coke rush around inside his head. "I can't see it,
man. You're off the wall." "Could be. What
if I'm not?" "Look, man. We
had a deal. You're working for me. I pay, you play my tune." "Watch your
back, Marques," I said, starting to get up. "Hey! Hold up,
I'm not downing you. Just lay it out, okay? Why you here?" "I'm here
because you know things I don't know. And you can find out things I can't. I
don't want any more to do with this Mortay than you do. But if I'm going to do
the job on the van, I need to know if he's in the play." "How would I
know?" "I'll find that
part out myself. What I need is whatever you can find out about Mortay.
Anything could do some good - I won't know till I get it. He's out there - he
has to live someplace, hang out someplace. I'm not asking you to walk the wire,
just listen to what you hear, okay?" "I don't know,
man." I felt like breaking
his face. I lit another cigarette, centering myself, coming to what would work.
I kept my voice quiet, letting another pitch take over, working the corners.
"Marques, there isn't another player in this town with your weight. You
want to take the Ghost Van off the streets, protect your women - I respect
that. You know your game - I know mine. That's why we got together, right?
We're partners on this thing. Now I need your help. That's why I came here.
This Mortay, he had people with him. Guy named Ramуn, for one. If they show
anywhere on the set, somebody'll scope them out. All I want is for you to use
your network - you don't have to get out of your Rolls-Royce - just let it come
to you. And pass it along." The pimp sat like he
was considering, basking in the praise. "I'm the one that can get the
lowdown, no question about it." "None at
all," I agreed. "All right,
hijacker. I don't promise nothing, but I'll get back to you if something comes
up." "Thanks," I
said, getting up to go again. Putting the butane lighter back in my pocket. I
don't use it to light cigarettes. The blondes never said
a word. Good bitches. Whores in their hearts. Renting out what they never
owned. I slipped the
Plymouth through Times Square on the way back. Sin City was a monster building
squatting in the middle of a long block. It stood four neon-faced stories high,
towering over the storefront-sized sleaze shops on either side. I stopped at
the corner. A black stringbean sporting a red porkpie hat was hunched over a
folding table covered with gold chains. Cesspool Specials: the chains were
broken, so the suckers would think they'd been snatched on the subway. The
hustler breaks the chains himself - nobody snatches goldplated junk.
"Check it out!" he called to the passing pack of slugs. He wouldn't
be there tomorrow. I motored slowly
around the block - couldn't see the back of Sin City from the other side. The
buildings were packed tighter than the crowd at a lynching. The Prof felt the
pain before Mortay ever touched him. That kind of power leaves a scent. But only to those he
marked. Tenth Avenue was
quiet. Eleventh was alive with working girls. The river was only a block away.
A black woman in a blond wig strolled up to the Plymouth. Red spandex pants, a
matching halter top, red heels. All yesterday's stuff, like she was. "You want some
action, baby?" I let her come close,
watching the other girls through the windshield, trying to get the feel of the
street. It felt calm - didn't make sense. The Plymouth sat through the green
light; the pross took it for a signal. She leaned into the window, folding her
arms under her breasts to poke them forward. "What you say,
honey. Fifty takes you around the world." I looked in her face,
keeping my voice low. "You got a
room?" "We just drive
around the block, honey. Nice dark places to park - take all the time you
need." "Around here?
Haven't you heard about the Ghost Van?" She laughed. Hard and
bitter. "The Ghost Van don't eat no dark meat, baby." It started to hit me
then. I feathered the gas pedal and the Plymouth moved off, leaving the whore
alone in the street. Past midnight. I
found a phone, rang Mama's. "It's me." "Nobodv
call." "Okay." "Max has your
money." "You keeping him
close?" "Yes. Keep
close. Waiting for you." "I'll call you tomorrow."
"Burke?" "What?" "Nice girl you
bring here. Nice big girl." "Yeah." I put the phone down.
Dialed the Mole. I heard the phone being picked up, nothing on the other end.
The way he always answers. "It's me. I need
to come see you tomorrow night - talk something over. I'm bringing someone with
me - someone you need to meet. Okay?" "Eight
o'clock," said the Mole, hanging up. It hit me as soon as
I stepped out of the back staircase into the hallway. The electricity started
at the base of my spine. It shot upward in little jolts, forming a T-bar at my
neck, firing out to my shoulders. My hands trembled. I knew what it was - an
old friend. Fear. I opened the door.
The office was pitch-dark. Pansy was standing at her post, wire-tight, eyes
glowing. The hair on the back of her neck was standing straight up. I closed
the door behind me, hit the light switch. Belle was on the
couch - on her knees, a butcher knife in her hand. "What
happened?" I asked her. "Somebody rang
the bell downstairs. It buzzed up here. Maybe twenty minutes ago. I didn't
answer it. I killed all the lights, turned off the radio. Then those strobes,
the ones above the door, they started flashing." "Somebody coming
up the stairs." "That's what it
was. Pansy, she ran right over to where she is, making these ugly low sounds.
Like a gator eating a pig. I got scared." "Anybody try and
get in?" "No. They just
pounded on the door. Real loud. I thought the dog would bark, but she just
stayed where she was. Like she was waiting." "She was." "They rattled
the doorknob - you know, just shaking it, like they were mad. There were at
least two of them; I could hear the talking." "You hear what
they said?" "No. I was
scared to move from here - I didn't want to get in the dog's way - she looked
crazy. But one had like this Mexican accent." "How long'd they
stay?" "Just a minute,
maybe - but it seemed longer. The strobes went off again. It's been quiet since
then." "And you're
still on the couch?" I asked, as I walked over to her, put my hands on her
shoulders. She looked up at me.
"Burke, I don't know much, but I know about men. You learn to tell. From
little things. The guy talking - the Mexican - he was one of those nasty men
you see in the club sometimes. The way they look at you - like screams would
make them smile." "I know. You did
the right thing." I gave her a smile, my thumb under her chin. "What
were you going to do with that knife?" "I didn't know
what to do . . . but I could see the dog knew. Where she was standing, they'd
walk in right past her. I figured they cbme toward me, and Pansy'd just
blind-side them." "That's what
she'd do all right. But she'd do the same thing if you hid in the back
room." "I was going to
give her a hand," Belle said, her hands still shaking hut no tremble in
her voice. I cupped a breast. It
overflowed my hand. "There's a big heart under this big thing," I
said. "It's
yours." "Which?" I
asked, squeezing her breast. "Both. But only
one's for playing with," the big girl said, eyes locked on mine. I kissed the bridge
of her nose, between her eyes. She put her face against my chest. I held her
for a minute, making up my mind. I let go of Belle,
threw the signal to Pansy to pull her away from her post. Opened the back door
to let her out to the roof. "Get ready to
go," I told Belle, opening drawers, filling my pockets. In the garage, she
watched quietly as I lifted the rubber floor mat, spun the wing nuts, and put
the pistol inside the hollowed-out space near the transmission hump. "You remember
how to get to your place from here?" "Sure. I
couldn't tell you how to do it, but I can take the car there." I checked the back of
the garage. The street was quiet. Belle backed the Plymouth out. I hit the
switch and the door closed behind us. The Plymouth tracked
through the empty streets. Belle handled it like it was a baby carriage. I lit
a cigarette, putting it together. Any fool could get into my building from the
front - just press the hippies' bell in the middle of the night and they'd buzz
you in. It wasn't a customer - they'd come in even when my bell hadn't been
answered. Spanish accent. Pounding on the door, but they hadn't tried to break
in. Lupe would have told them about my dog. "Anybody with
us?" I asked Belle, not looking around. "No," she said, her eyes
flicking to the mirrors. "Not since we pulled out." As soon as we walked in
the door, I grabbed the phone. Mama answered like it
was noon. "They called,
right?" "Yes. Man say
playground, behind the Chelsea Projects. Midnight tomorrow. "Spanish
accent?" "Yes. Nasty man.
Whisper on phone, like those men who call women, you know?" "Yeah, I know.
You say anything to him?" "Nothing to say.
You want Max now?" "No! Mama, this
is a bad play. You keep him close, like we said." ''If . . ." "Mama, listen.
Listen to me. If Max comes in now, it could be trouble for the baby,
okay?" She said something in
Chinese. I didn't need a translator. "Later, Mama," I told her,
hanging up. Belle came over to
the phone as I was lighting a smoke. "Me too," she said, holding my
hand, guiding the match. She was wearing a white T-shirt that came halfway down
to her thighs, the blue necklace around her neck. "I'll be right
back," I told her, reaching for my car keys. "Let me . .
." "Stay
here," I told her. She dropped to her
knees, holding her hands out in front of her, bent at the wrists like dog's
paws. "Don't be so
fucking smart," I said. "I'll be back in a couple of minutes - I need
a pay phone." I threw in a quarter,
listened to the woman say something in Spanish. "Dr. Pablo
Cintrone," I said. Waited patiently for a long rap about how the doctor
wasn't in at that hour of the night, but if it was an emergency . . ." "Attention!" I barked into the
receiver. "Dr. Cintrone. Burke. Telйfono cuatro. Ten o'clock
tomorrow morning, por favor. Okay?" The voice never
changed tone. "Burke. Telйfono cuatro. Ten o'clock tomorrow
morning." "Gracias." She hung up. When a citizen's
scared, he calls the cops. Where I live, you call a terrorist. The front door was
unlocked. I shut it behind me, walked through the cottage. Belle was out on the
deck. I leaned on the railing, looking across the black water. Belle moved in
next to me, fingering the necklace. "You know why I
danced in front of men?" "Yes." "I know you do.
You're the first man who ever looked at my face after I took my clothes
off." She pulled the cigarette from my mouth. Took a drag, handed it back. "Nothing on this
earth means anything all by itself. You know those orchids they sell in fancy
flower shops? They grow wild in the swamp near where I was raised. And gator
hide . . . It costs so much to make a little purse out of it, but the big old
things are out there thick as mosquitoes. You know about gators?" "Not much." "Baby gators,
they ain't got much of a chance. It's easy to find the eggs - the mama gators
just bury 'em and they walk away. Most of them don't make it even if the eggs
do hatch. When they're born, they're only a couple of inches long. The big
birds grab them up. Bobcats, panthers, coons, damn near everything in the swamp
feasts on them. Baby gators, they're not like puppies or kittens. You know the
difference between a six-inch baby gator and a six-foot bull?" "No," I
said. Her face was turned in profile, tiny flat nose just a bump. "Five and a half
feet. They don't grow, they just get bigger, you understand?" "Yeah." "What they say
about gators . . . Most of the little ones, they never get to be big ones, what
with everything out there trying to eat them and all. The ones that do get their
full growth - they spend the rest of their lives getting even." "I know people
like that." "I thought I was
like that too, once. But it's not the whole world I need to get square
with." "I know." She moved against me,
hip bumping gently. "There's things inside me. Bad things. In my blood and
in my bones. I'll never have babies and I'll never get old. You're good with
words, but there's things you don't like to say." "I don't
understand." "Yeah, you do.
Remember when I wanted you to taste me? When we first came together? I've met
plenty of men good at romance, but I never met one any good at love. You're
what I want, and you can't do things but one way. Your way." "Belle, I . .
." She pressed her
fingers against my mouth. "Don't say anything. You already said all I need
you to say. I'm with you to the end. Just make me one promise?" "What?" Tears rolled down her
face, but her voice was steady. "I know you have people. I don't have
anybody. If my time comes, you settle my debts. Pay them off." "I will." "One more thing.
Just one more thing, and I'm going to give you my life, Burke. I'll never take
my clothes off for another man again. And I'll never take this necklace off
either. You see that I'm buried in it." "Cut it
out," I said, smacking her on the rump, trying for a smile. She turned her face
to me, holding my shirt with both hands. "Now's not the time for that. You
can't change what's going to happen. You promise me. Promise me right now. I
married the outlaw life - I've go a right to be buried in my wedding
dress." "I promise,
Belle." She pulled me close,
her mouth butterfly-soft against mine. "My mother saved my heart for me.
She died to do it. I waited a long time. I'm giving it to you now. And I'll die
to do it too." I held her against me
in the dark. For that little piece of time, I didn't have to call on the ice
god of hate to fight the fear. Belle fell asleep
holding me in her mouth. The bedside clock said four. I set it for six, stubbed
out my last cigarette, and drifted off. When the alarm went
off, I was sleeping on my side. Belle was wrapped around my back. I slapped the
clock to shut off the buzzer. The morning light was just coming through. Belle
reached down for me, holding me in her hand, whispering in my ear. "When I went
shopping . . . to buy all that stuff to lean your office . . . I bought
something else. A surprise for you. Something to give you nobody else has ever
had. I was going to give it to you last night, when you came back. But you came
back with my necklace. And all that other stuff happened. It's still here for
you. Special. But not now," she said, stroking me, "not now. When
your blood's up." I felt myself grow in
her hand. "Seems like it's up to me," I said. She laughed, a rich
laugh from her belly, moving against me. "When your blood's up, honey,
I'll know. But as far as this other thing . . ." The big girl pushed
against my shoulder, shoving me flat on my back, swinging one huge leg over me,
her hand guiding me inside. "Come on, now," she whispered, her teeth
in my shoulder. An hour later, we
were moving into the city. I had to be at the pay phone in the lobby of the Criminal
Court before ten. The last phone in the long bank near the back wall. Telйfono
cuatro. There were only two
places in the city I could go for what I needed. This freak I had to meet could
call himself "death" if that's what got his rocks off, but I knew a
guy who earned the title. A guy we did time with years ago. A guy who let the
ice god into his soul like I'd wanted to. A guy named Wesley. Even saying his
name in my mind made my hands shake. The other choice was the UGL. Una Gente Libre - A
Free People. Puerto Rican terrorists to the federates, hard-core independentistas
to their people. The FBI had been trying to get a man inside for years - they'd
have better luck getting Jimmy Hoffa to testify. The UGL didn't blow up
buildings. They didn't write letters to the newspapers. Some of them fought in
the mountains of their home, some in the city canyons of America. Their New
York territory stretched from East Harlem to the Bronx. They kept their plate
clean. You try to sell crack on their streets, you get cracked. You come
back again, you get iced. The Colombians didn't like that much. One of their
honchos sent a crew into UGL turf. Sprayed the streets with machine guns.
Dropped five people, one of them a pregnant woman. The next day, the crack
salesmen were back, stopping the BMWs and Mercedeses full of mobile slime on
their way to the suburbs. Smiling. Three days later, the first salesman who
showed up pushed his way through a crowd packed around a fire hydrant. The
honcho's head was sitting on top of the fireplug like a bust in a museum
display case. Whoever hacked it off hadn't been a surgeon. The last thing the
salesman left on that street was his puke. Dr. Pablo Cintrone
was a psychiatrist. New York magazine did a profile on him once. Harvard
Medical School graduate who returned to the mean streets to minister to his
people. It made him sort of a hero to the upscale crowd for a couple of weeks.
Not too many people in Spanish Harlem or the South Bronx read the magazine, but
they knew El Jefe of the UGL. Inside the office, I
let Pansy out to the roof while I checked the security systems. Nobody'd made a
move on the place last night. I changed into a dark
pin-striped suit, grabbed a leather attachй case. It wouldn't get anybody's
attention if I stood by the pay phone in the Criminal Court waiting for it to
ring. When Pansy saw the
leash, she spun in a circle, dancing for joy. I hooked her up and we all went
down the back stairs. First stop was the
hospital. I left Pansy in the back taking Belle's hand. "Is she going to
be all right back there?" "What could
happen to her?" I asked, reasonably enough. The Prof was sitting
up in bed, half a dozen pillows propped up behind him. His legs were still in
casts, but lying flat on the bed. A metal bar ran between the casts. I looked a
question. "To make sure
they stay straight until the casts come off," he said. "How you
doing?" "Not as sweet as
drinking wine, not as bad as doing time." "We got
something," I said, moving close to the bed. The little man's eyes
shifted to where Belle was standing against the wall. I held out my hand behind
me, not turning my head. She came up and took it. "She's with us," I
told him. "She's in this." He flashed his smile
at her. "This your man, little girl?" Her smile blazed
back. "He surely is." "That makes me
your brother-in-law, darlin'. Soon's we finish this fight, I'll show you the
sights." She leaned over and
kissed him. "I'll be waiting." Belle sat on the bed. It didn't shift
more than half a foot. I pulled up the chair, keeping my voice down. "Mortay called.
We got a meet tonight." "Where?" "Playground back
of the Chelsea Projects." "Skinner
heaven." "I know." "I don't like
it. If he don't buy the play, how you gonna walk away?" "I need a
shooter. With a night scope. On the roof." "The only one I
know is . . ." "Not Wesley.
I'll get someone else - I got it covered." The Prof didn't know about my
connect to UGL. His voice dropped
even lower. "You going to dust him?" "No way. Just make
sure he gets the word - I want to tell him we got no beef. Walk away. The
shooter is in case he wants to try and send another of his freakish
messages." "Burke, I'm
telling you, this Mortay . . ." "I got it
covered," I told him again. "You hear anything?" "Got some
promises, but no product." "I'll see you
tomorrow." He put his hand on
mine. "Burke, listen to me like you used to on the yard. You want to roll
the dice, make it nice. "I got it,"
I said, throwing him a salute. I held the door for
Belle to get into the car. "He's really so much better, isn't he?" "He's better,
but he's not back to himself yet." "You'd expected
him to be dancing by now?" "Not the
physical thing. The Prof, he's like two people. Half is this rhyming-time,
upbeat thing you see, okay? The other half is how he got his name. Like a
religious thing - I don't have a name for it. Re got his name because he can
see things." "Like what's
going to happen?" "Sort of. Like I
said, I can't really explain it. But he can preach, square business. Talk that
religion like he means it. Strong enough to make you buy a piece sometimes,
when he really gets on a roll. That's what's missing now." Belle tapped
fingernails on one knee, paying attention, listening close. She turned to look
at me. "Maybe he don't like what he sees comin'," she said, the
Southern-swamp tang strong in her voice. I pulled the Plymouth
into the parking lot across from the Criminal Court. The parking lot where I
met Strega for the first time. The court where I first saw Wolfe in action. It
was nine-forty-five - all the spaces were taken. "Cruise around
the lot like you're looking for a place to park," I told Belle. "You
find one, pull in. Watch for me - I'll be coming down those steps," I
said, pointing across Centre Street. "You see me coming, catch my eye. We
may have to move out right away." I gave Pansy the
signal. She flopped down in the back seat, filling it to capacity. I crossed the street,
grabbed the phone I wanted. I picked up the receiver, holding down the hook,
and acted like I was listening to someone on the other end, glancing at my
watch. I knew my watch was
accurate, because it read ten o'clock just as the phone rang. I released the
hook. "Can I see you?
Today?" "Muy
importante?" "Sн." "Handball court
closest to Metropolitan. One o'clock." "Thanks." I was talking to a
dead line. I came down the
steps, spotted the Plymouth making a slow circuit. I caught it on the second
pass, opened the door. Belle rolled out to Lafayette Street, turned south, in
the direction of the office. "I don't have to
get moving until around noon," I told her. "But I need the car when I
do." "I'll go with
you." "No, you won't.
And get that pout off your face." She didn't.
"Make a right," I told her as we came to Worth Street. "Head
down to the river." Pansy poked her head
over the top of the front seat. "Want to run, girl?" I asked her. She
growled. I showed Belle where
to pull in. There were only a few cars on the broad strip of concrete, the
usual collection of humans minding other people's business. I opened the back
door, hooked Pansy's leash, and we strolled along the river. Her snout wrinkled
at the smells, but she held her position. On my left side, slightly ahead.
Every time I stopped, she sat. When we got to the deserted pier, I let her off
the lead, making a circle with my hand, telling her not to roam far. Freed of
the restraint of the leash, she did what comes naturally to her. Lay down. "You lazy old
thing," Belle said. She looked around, her eyes sweeping the Jersey shore
on the other side. "Sure doesn't smell like any water I ever saw." "It's not water
- ust a liquid toxic-waste dump." "You can't swim
in it?" "No. But on a
good day, you could walk on it." "Ugh!" A sailboat went by,
loaded with yuppies in yachting gear. Sailboats down here make about as much
sense as No Smoking sections in L.A. restaurants, so you see a lot of them. Belle pointed to one
of the round beams that held up the pier. "Boost me up," she said,
one foot in the air. I cupped my hands and she stepped in, reaching to the top
of the beam. I heaved, and up she went. It wasn't as bad as loading trucks, and
the view was a lot better. I lit a smoke, handed it up to her. The breeze
pulled at her hair, pulling it off her face. She turned to the side, sucking in
a deep breath. I took one of my own - no Viking ship ever had a prouder
figurehead. Two teenagers pulled
up, riding those little motor scooters you see everyplace. They stopped a
decent distance, watching Pansy. "What kind of
dog is that?" the taller one asked. "One that
bites," I told him. "He looks like a
giant pit bull." "Close
enough." "Where could I
get one?" "You
can't." The shorter one piped
up. "He looks like a big lump to me. That ain't no pit bull." "Pansy,
watch!" I snapped at her. She came slowly to
her feet and strolled toward the kids, making her noises. I never heard an
alligator eat a pig, but I knew what Belle meant. She pinned the boys with her
ice-water eyes, one skull-crusher of a paw pulling at the concrete. "Jump!" I
yelled at her. The kids took off before she hit the deck. She looked over at
me, bored to death. I made a circle sign again. This time she took off, loping
the length of the boards, peering over the edge into the water. She jogged
back, stopping at the beam where Belle perched. The beast leaped up, her paws
locking into the wood a foot below Belle. She reached down and patted her.
"Does she want me to come down?" "I think she
wants to come up." "There's no
room." "Maybe that's a
message." Belle jumped down
from her perch, landing next to me. "What message?" she said,
bunching a small fist. "That they
should make those beams bigger." "Or these
smaller?" she asked, smacking herself on the rear. "Wouldn't be my
choice," I assured her. She took my arm and
we walked around some more, Pansy hanging close. "She's so
beautiful. She really is like a panther, the way she moves. So smooth." I lit a smoke,
thinking it was the truth. "Burke, how come
you got a female dog?" I shrugged. "Well, she's for
protection, right? A guard dog? I thought they were all males. I thought they were
tougher, you know? A man I knew once, he had a German shepherd. Wouldn't have a
female dog around him - said a bitch would turn tail and run from a fight.'' "He's a moron.
Male dogs, they smell a bitch in heat, you know what they want to do?" "Sure." "No, you don't.
What they want to do is fight every other male dog around. In the wild, they
run in packs. The way the pack stays alive, they only let the strongest bulls
mate with the bitches. So the litters are strong too. The way they see who the
strongest dog is they fight it out." She put her head
against my shoulder. "Maybe they're right." "They're right
for dogs. Not for people. I grew up like that. It took me a lot of years and a
lot of scars before I snapped that a good woman won't make you fight over
her." "I worked with
girls like that. Fire-starters. Blood makes them come." She swayed against
me, pulling me to a stop along the pier. "Is that why you have a girl dog?
So she won't want to fight other dogs and all?" "Males are just
no good. Any kind of male. A man'll fuck a chain-link fence." She patted my
pockets, took out a cigarette. I cupped a wooden match against the wind for
her. She sat on the bench. Pansy jumped up next to her. I sat on the other
side. Belle looked at the
water. "The man who said a bitch would turn tail - that's what he wanted
me to do. I never had much of my own. Things you buy . . . they're not really
yours. But I own what I do. He found out too." "What
happened?" "I cut him. Cut
him good." We walked back to the
Plymouth. "You want to wait at the office for me?" "Me and
Pansy," she said. Back at the office,
Belle looked at the street maps rolled up in a corner. "Can I tack these
on the wall?" "Sure. I was
going to do it anyway. Why?" "I want to learn
the city." "Okay. I'll be
back in a couple of hours, maybe more." I moved to the door. "Honey?" "What?" "Come here for a
minute. Sit with me." I sat on the couch.
She put herhead in my lap, looked up at me. "Can I ask you
something?" "Sure." "What I told
you, about my mother and my father and all? Is that the worst thing you ever
heard?" I thought about
kiddie porn. About selling little boys in Times Square. Rapists. Child
molesters. Snuff films. The tape looped inside my head. I hit the stop button. "It's not
close," I told her. "Everybody's pain is the worst thing in the world
for them. Your mother really loved you. Died for you - you always have
that." "You think I'm .
. . sick." "No. I think
you're hurt. And, one day, we'll fix that." "I love
you." I bent to kiss her.
"I've got to go," I said. She pressed her head
down against me. "Tell me something worse. Tell me something worse than
what he did." "It'd be worse
for someone else, baby. Like I told you. Everybody has their own. Good and
bad." She came to her knees
next to me. "Tell me the worst thing. The worst thing you know." I looked in her face,
talking quietly. I'd had enough of this crazy game. "People steal babies,
Belle. Little tiny babies - they steal them from their parents. And they never
bring them back." "What do they do
with them?" "They sell most
of them. Some of the pretty white kids, they sell them to nice rich folks who
want a baby of their own. Black-market adoption." "What about the
others?" "You know what a
chop shop is?" "Where they
steal cars, break them down for parts?" "Yeah. They have
them for babies too. They sell the white babies. The other ones, they're not
worth too much for adoption, so they cut them up for parts." "Burke!" "Rich baby needs
a heart transplant, a new kidney, you think they care where the organs come
from?" "I don't believe
you!" "The world I
live in, it's a lot deeper underground than any subway. It's a world where you
can buy a baby's heart." I held her against
me. "Don't ask questions so much, little girl. I only got ugly
answers." She pulled back from
me, dry-eyed. "You saw this? You saw this yourself?" "Yeah. Guy's kid
was in the hospital. Dying. Needed a transplant. It was in the papers, on TV.
Looking for a donor. Baby only had a few days to live. He got a call. They promised him a
baby's heart. Fresh. All packed and ready for transport to the hospital.
Twenty-five thousand, they wanted. He made some calls - a lot of calls. A cop I
know sent him to me. I went down the tunnel." "What happened?
Did they have the heart?" "Just like they
promised." "You took it?
The baby was saved?" "Yeah." She nodded.
"Damn their souls to hell." "I don't do
souls," I told her. "Just bodies." The handball court was
in the shadows of Metropolitan Hospital, just off 96th Street near the East River. Once the tip of Spanish
Harlem, it was now liberated territory - the yuppie land-grab machine wouldn't
be satisfied until gentrification ate the South Bronx. I liked it better the
old way, when the human beings lived in the tenements and investment bankers
lived in the suburbs. Now we got plenty of rehab apartments for tomorrow's
leaders. And more people living in the streets than they have in Calcutta. I parked under the
East Side Drive overpass and walked over to the court. Ten minutes to one. I
watched people playing: handball, paddleball, basketball. No stickball. People
working too. Working the cars. Selling flowers, newspapers, clean windshields.
Ninety-sixth Street was the DMZ when I was coming up. North was theirs, South
was ours. Now it all belongs to someone else - they just let us play there
while they're at work downtown. "These chumps
can't play no basketball." A voice behind me. Pablo. The lack of a single
Puerto Rican in the NBA makes him crazy. He was wearing his
white doctor's-coat over a black turtleneck, his round face looking the same
way it did when he walked out of Harvard fifteen years ago. "Gracias,
compadre," I said, thanking him for coming. He shook hands the way he
always does, using both of his. "Something
bad?" he asked me, standing close. "I have to meet
a man. Tonight. He hurt one of my brothers. He said it was a message. I don't
know what's on his mind. I want to walk away - tell him I got no beef with him.
But he might not go for it." "You have
Max." "Can't use him
for this, Pablo. It may be Max he wants. He's a karateka. Been going
around the city, challenging sensei in their own dojos. Max, I think his name
may be in the street over this. You know Lupe? The guy who sets up the
cockfights?" Pablo spat on the
ground. "I know him. Mamao. A punk. Tough talk - no cojones." "He set up a
match. Between this guy I have to meet and a Jap. Duel to the death." "I heard about
that. In Times Square?" "Yeah. That's
what I mean. Seems like everybody's heard about it. Max fights this guy, he's
got no win. Probably have cops in the audience." Pablo looked at me.
"Max wouldn't walk away from a challenge." "So he doesn't
get to hear one." "I see. You want
your back covered when you meet this guy . . .?" "Mortay." "Muerte?" "Yeah. I don't
know how he spells it, but it means the same thing." "He's not a
problem for us?" "Not for you.
Not now. I'm working on something, and I just bumped him accidentally. How he's
tied in - if he's tied in - I don't know for sure." "You chasing a
missing kid?" "Dead kids. The
Ghost Van." Pablo's round face
went hard. His eyes were dark, flat buttons behind his round glasses.
"Baby-killers. That van comes into our barrio, we'll make it a
ghost." "It just works
off the river, near Times Square. I got a lot of threads, but no cloth." "This Mortay . .
. he knows?" "I don't know.
I'm not gonna ask him. He lets me walk, I'm gonna promise him I won't come his
way again. He wants me off the van, I'm off the van." "That's what
you'll tell him." "Yeah," I
said, lighting a smoke. "What time is
your meet?" "Midnight
tonight. The playground behind the Chelsea Projects." "How many people
do you need?" "Just one,"
I told him. "El Caтonero." Pablo's lips moved.
Just a tic. Nothing else showed in his face. "He only does our work." "I don't want
him to take anybody out. Just be around, break a couple of caps if he has to.
He can do it from a distance. I figure maybe the roof . . ." "He only does
our work. He is not for hire. My people are soldiers, not gangsters." "They do what
you say." "They follow me
because they follow the truth. My personal friendship is with you, hermano.
I can commit only myself." I put my hand on his
shoulder. "I understand what you say. I respect what you say. But there
are two reasons why he should do this." "Yes?" "He does only
your work. More than once, I have also done your work, this is true?" "True." "El Caтonero
does this work tonight for UGL, it is UGL I owe. Comprende?" He nodded. Rubbed the
back of his neck like it was stiff. A young Hispanic woman in a blue jogging
outfit stopped her slow circuit of the courts and trotted over. He took her
aside, speaking in rapid-fire Spanish. She took off, running hard now, heading for
the street. We watched the
basketball game. It wasn't in the same league as the semipro action at the
court on Sixth Avenue in the Village, but it was intense. I asked him about his
kids. Pablo's got a lot of kids - the oldest one's in college, his baby girl's
still in diapers. He's never been married. Takes care of all his children. He
never seems to make anybody mad with all his tomcat stuff, not even the women
who have his babies. Most of them know each other. I met Pablo in
prison. He wasn't doing time - he was doing his residency in psychiatry. His
supervisor was a wet-brain who did five-minute interviews with the cons before
they saw the Parole Board. And handed out heavyweight tranquilizers any time
they shoved the Rx pad under his nose. I was the wet-brain's clerk - a scam
artist's dream job. Five crates of cigarettes and you got the prescription of
your choice, twenty crates bought you a "fully rehabilitated"
write-up for the Board. It only took Pablo a month to read my act, but he never
said a word. I was on to him faster than that. He wasn't studying mental
illness among convicts - he was recruiting. The woman in the
jogging suit ran back to us, pulled Pablo aside. Pablo turned to me. "You
parked close by?" "Under the
overpass," I said, pointing. "Sit on the
hood. Smoke one of your cigarettes. See you in ten minutes." He walked off with
the woman. Threee smokes later,
a black Lincoln sedan pulled up. Dark windows, M.D. plates. The front door
popped open and I stepped inside. The woman was driving. I glanced in the back
seat. Pablo. And El Caтonero. "Vete,"
Pablo said. The Lincoln moved off. Pablo's voice came
from the back seat. "Turn around, compadre. My hermano needs
to memorize your face." I turned full-face to
the back. El Caтonero was a short, stocky Hispanic, not as dark as Pablo. He
had straight, coal-black hair. Pablo once told me Puerto Ricans were a mixture
of all the world's races. Looking at the two men in the back seat, I could see
the African in Pablo, the Incan in El Caтonero. The shooter's face was
featureless except for heavy cheekbones. But I'd seen his eyes before. On a
tall, lanky man from West Virginia. Sniper's eyes - measuring distances. The Lincoln worked
its way downtown. We pulled to a stop across from the playground. Kids were running
everywhere. Little kids screaming, chasing each other, bigger kids in a
stickball game. Teenagers against the lence, smoking dope, listening to a giant
portable stereo. Pablo jerked his thumb. We got out, leaned against the car. The gate to the park
would be closed at midnight. Wire mesh - it wouldn't keep anybody out. El Caтonero's eyes
swept the scene. He said something in Spanish to Pablo, who just nodded. I saw the man against
the wire mesh. A medium-sized white man with a baseball cap on his head.
Watching the kids play. He was wearing a yellow sweater, the sleeves pushed up
almost to his elbows. I focused in on him, lighting a smoke. He had a heavy
rubber band around one wrist. He pulled at it again and again with his other
hand, snapping it against the inside of his wrist. I nudged Pablo, pointing at
the man with a tilt of my head. "Aversive
therapy," I sneered. His face went hard.
"They should've tied the rubber band around his throat." El Caтonero grunted a
question. Pablo explained it to him. I couldn't follow the words, but I knew
what he was saying. They have programs where they try "conditioning"
on child molesters. The idea is to show them a lot of pictures of kids - then
blast them with an electric jolt when the freaks get aroused. Nobody believes
it works. When they discharge one of the freaks, they tell him to wear a rubber
band around his wrist. When he feels himself getting excited over a kid, he's
supposed to snap the band - reactivate his conditioning. The shooter's eyes
bored in on the man in the yellow sweater. "Maricуn!" he
snarled. Pablo launched into another speech. A child molester isn't a
homosexual; most gays hate them too. El Caтonero listened, flat-faced. I heard
my name. The shooter nodded. Then he held out his hand. I shook it. Pablo must
have told him what I did. Pablo leaned over to
me. "We're going around the back, take a look. You stay here with
Elena." "I want to talk
to the freak. Just take a minute." "Sн."
He gestured for the woman to move close. "Elena, that man over there, he
is a molester of children. He is the wolf, stalking the baby chickens. My compadre
wants to approach him, get a good look at his face, so el gusano will
know he is known to us. Perhaps threaten him with violence, okay?" She nodded. Pablo and
El Caтonero moved off. "Do you speak
any English?" I asked the woman. "I teach
English," she said, nothing on her face. "I didn't mean
to offend you." "You could not offend
me. Just say what you want me to do." I told her. I held
out my hand. She took it, moving smoothly against me as we crossed the street. Elena left me and
moved off behind the freak; He stayed glued to the fence. I wrapped my hand
around the roll of quarters in my pocket, moving my shoulder against the freak,
slipping my left hand behind his back. "Kids are cute,
huh?" He jumped like he'd
been stabbed. "What?" I snatched a handful
of his sweater, locking his belt from behind, shoving my face into his, my
voice cell-block hard. "When did they let you out, freak?" "Hey! I didn't .
. ." I pushed him against
the fence, my face jammed into his. "Don't come back to this playground,
scumbag. We've been watching you. We know you. We know what you do. You do it
again, you're dog meat. Got it?" The freak twisted his
head away from me. I looked where he was looking. At Elena. Standing three feet
from us in her blue jogging suit, hands buried in the pockets of the
sweatshirt. She took out her left hand, pulled up the waistband. A little black
pistol was in her other hand. The freak whipped his head back to me. I pulled
him away from the fence, bringing my right hand around in a short hook to his
gut. He made a gagging sound, dropped to the ground. I went down on one knee
next to him. His face was against the pavement, vomiting. "We know your
face, freak," I said quietly. "Next time we see you, you're
done." I stomped my heel
hard into the side of his face; it made a squishy sound. Nobody gave us a look.
When we climbed back inside the Lincoln, Pablo and El Caтonero were already in
the back seat. Elena took the wheel and we moved off. The rifleman tapped
my shoulder. I turned around. He nodded his head once, a sharp, precise
movement. The Lincoln dropped
me off at my car. Pablo got out with me. He handed me a strip of cloth, Day-Glo
orange. "Tie this around
your head when you walk into the playground tonight. Bring a couple of bottles
of beer. Pull your car into the playground, put the bottles on the hood. You
raise your hand, one of the beer bottles blows up. This Mortay, he'll know
you're covered." "Thanks,
Pablito. I owe you." "El Caтonero
said to tell you he'll be on the roof by eleven. "Okay." "He said to ask
you something . . . If it gets bad . . . if this guy won't be warned off . . .
if he comes for you . . . you want El Caтonero to drop him or just fade?" "Drop him." "Bueno." I headed back
downtown, stopped at Mama's. She took a long time to come to my booth. When she
did, Immaculata was with her. They slid across from me. Mac didn't waste any
time. "Burke, is there
trouble for Max?" "I don't know.
I'll know soon," I told her, stabbing Mama with my eyes. She stared right
back. I shouldn't have mentioned the baby. "You'll tell me
as soon as you know?" "Will you give
me a fucking chance to head it off first?" She reached across
the table, took my hand. "I will. And I'll keep Max close for a few more
days. Don't blame Mama. She told him you were working on something and he keeps
pushing her. He thinks it's you who's in trouble. She needed my help." "No hard
feelings," I told her, remembering Michelle's words. "Where's Max
now?" "He's home with
Flower." She got up to leave. Kissed me. "Be careful," is all
she said. Mama gave me about
thirty pounds of Chinese food to take with me. I bowed to her as I left. Her
eyes asked if I understood. "It's
okay," I said. "Anybody come
calling?" I asked Belle, stepping past Pansy. "Been real
quiet," she said, taking the cartons of food from me. Pansy followed her
into the back room, ignoring me. The bitch. Belle cleared off the
desk so we could eat. "What's all that?" I asked her, pointing to
yellow legal pads covered with scrawls. "Just some
charts I made. I have to see the streets for myself - the maps don't do it all.
But I wrote down some ideas." "Is it easier
for you to memorize directions if you're driving or if you're a
passenger?" "Driving is
best." "Okay," I
said, digging into the hot-and-sour soup, "you drive tonight." "Where're we
going?" "To a place you
might have to come back to by yourself someday. A safe place." She nodded, her mouth
full of food. I tossed an egg roll over my shoulder, saying "Speak!"
as I did. It never hit the ground. I smoked a cigarette
while Belle put the dishes away, playing with the few pieces I had. I put the
thoughts down - after tonight, I'd have more pieces. Six o'clock. I let
Pansy out to the roof, went to the back to put things together. Steel-toed boots
with soft rubber soles. Black cotton pants. A black sweatshirt. I took a white
jacket from the closet, checked the Velcro tearaways at the shoulders. Slipped
the orange headband into a pocket. I put a clean set of papers together:
driver's license, registration, Social Security card, all that crap. Six
hundred bucks in used bills, nothing bigger than a fifty. A cheap black plastic
digital wristwatch. I let Pansy back
inside. Took a shower. Put on a terry-cloth robe. When I came out, Belle was
lying on the couch, her hands locked behind her head, long legs up on the
backrest. Wearing one of my shirts over a pair of little red panties. She
couldn't button the shirt. I sat down. She
dropped her legs across my lap. "Burke, this is
it, isn't it?" "What're you talking
about?" "This place.
This office. That's all there is, right? This is where you live." "Yep." She rolled over on
her stomach, pushing her hands against the couch until her hips were across my
lap. There's a new kind of stove they make. Induction coil, they call it. You
don't have to turn it on - the burner stays cold until you touch it with a
copper-bottom pot. I knew how the stove felt. Belle leaned her head
on her folded arms, talking back over her shoulder at me. "I thought you
had a house. I thought you wouldn't take me there . . . wouldn't let me sleep
in your bed. Because you had a woman there. The woman you talked about." I lit cigarette,
watching my shirt move on Belle's rump every time she readjusted herself. "But she's gone,
isn't she? Like you said. You told me the truth." "Yeah. I told
you the truth." "I'm a bitch. I
know that's not all bad - it's what I am. But I should have believed you;
there's no excuse." "Outlaws only
lie to citizens." "No, I met
plenty of outlaws who lie. But I know you don't. Not to me." She wiggled her hips,
snuggling tight against me, feeling the heat. "Is she
dead?" "I don't know,
Belle," I said, my voice hardening. "I told you all this before.
There's no more to tell." "Are you mad at
me?" "No." "I'm sorry,
honey." "Forget
it." She pulled the shirt
off her hips. "Why don't you give me a smack? You'll feel better." "I feel
fine," I said. Belle wiggled again.
"Come on, please." I put my hand on her
rump, patting her gently. "Come on. Do it,
just a couple of times. I swear you'll feel better." I brought my hand
down hard. A sharp crack. "Do it again," she whispered, "come
on." I smacked her twice
more in the same place. She slid off my lap to her knees, looked up at me.
"Feel better?" she asked. "No." "You will,"
she promised, taking me in her mouth. We were on the East
Side Drive, heading for the Trihoro Bridge. Belle took a drag road. "How do I turn
up the dashboard lights?" I told her. She
peered at the speedometer. "I can tell how fast we're going without it,
but I need to know the mileage." "There's a trip
odometer." "It's okay, I'm
keeping count." We motored over the
bridge. I showed her the cutoff, led her through the twisting South Bronx
streets, past the warehouses, past the burned-out buildings, into the
flatlands. "Next corner, left," I told her. "That's the
spot." She pulled to the
side of the road. No streetlights here - we were in darkness. Belle turned to me.
"You think I'm a freak?" she asked, her voice shaking a little bit. "Why would I
think that?" "Don't play with
me - you know why I asked you. I liked it when you pinched me so hard - when
you made me say what I saw in the mirror. I liked it when you spanked me
before. I like it when you do that. Makes me feel like you love me.
Special." She took another drag. "You think that makes me a
freak?" I lit a smoke of my
own. "You want the truth?" "Tell me." "I think you
think you're a freak. I think you believe your life is a damn dice game.
Genetic dice, rolling down the table, and all you can do is watch." "My blood . .
." "Your blood may
have done something to your face. Your blood tells you not to have babies. But
it doesn't tell you how to act. You still have your choices." "You don't
understand." "You're the one
who doesn't understand, girl. You see it but you don't get it. Remember what
you told me about alligators - the difference between a six-inch gator and a
six-foot one?" "I
remember." "What's the
difference between a puppy and a dog? The same thing? Just size?" "Isn't it?" "How you raise
the puppy, how you treat it, what you feed it - it all makes a different dog
when it grows up. Two puppies from the same litter, they could be real
different dogs when they grow up." "Okay." "Don't give me
that 'okay' bullshit. You don't get it, we'll sit right here until you
do." "I get it." "Then explain it
to me." She started to cry,
her face in her hands. "I can't," she sobbed. "Come over
here," I told her. "Come on." She unbuckled her seat
belt, slid over against me, still crying. "I'm sorry . . ." "Shut up. Just
be quiet and listen, okay?" "Okay," she
gulped. "Telling you
about dogs and puppies wasn't the way to do it. You think blood will out, don't
you?" She nodded.
"Yes." Still crying. "You know about
Dobermans . . . how they're supposed to turn on their owners?" "Yes, I heard
that." "It's a lie,
Belle. People get Dobermans, they're afraid of them. They've all heard the
stories. So they beat the hell out of them when they're still puppies. Show
them who's boss, right? One day, the dog gets his full growth, the owner goes
to hit him, the dog says, 'Uh uh. Not today, pal,' and he rips the guy up. So
this fool, this creep who's been beating up on his own dog, mistreating him all
this time, he says, 'Well, the son of a bitch turned on me.'" Belle giggled.
"He sowed his own crop." "Sure did.
There's nothing genetic about Dobermans' turning on their masters. What's
genetic about them is that they don't take a whole lot of shit once they get their
growth. That's the truth." "I thought . .
." "We're people,
Belle. Not alligators. I know people so cold, so evil, you meet them, you'd
swear they came out of their mothers' wombs like that. But that's not the way
it is. All the human monsters have to be made - they can't be born that way.
You can't be born bad, no matter what the fucking government thinks." "But if he . .
." I cut her off sharp -
I knew who "he" was. "It was his choice, Belle. No matter how he
was raised, no matter what was done to him. There's no law says he has to
repeat the pattern. He's not off the hook. I came up with guys raised by
monsters. Did time with them when I was a kid. They still had choices." I lit a cigarette.
"Hard choices. The only kind people like us get. But choices still . . .
You understand?" "I do. I swear I
do this time." She nestled against me. "I knew you were going to
rescue me." She kissed me full on
the mouth, stabbing me with her tongue. I pulled back from her, watching the
lights dance in her dark eyes. "The man we're going to see, millions of
his people died because some slimy little psychopath decided their blood was
bad. The psychopath, he's in the ground. The maggots are eating his body, and
if there's a god, his soul is burning. And there's a country called Israel
where there used to be only desert." I squeezed her
gently. "Okay?" She let the whole
smile go this time. "Okay." I showed Belle where
to pull in. "Flash the high beams three times, then shut the lights
off." "Something's
coming," she said, peering into the darkness. "Dogs," I
told her. "Just be quiet." They came in a pack.
Simba didn't wait to make his entrance like he usually does. There was a tawny flash
and a light thump as he landed on the hood of the Plymouth, baring his fangs as
he looked through the windshield. Belle looked back at him. "Is that a
wolf?" "City
wolf," I told her. "And that's his pack" - pointing to the river
of beasts flowing around the car. "What d'we
do?" "Wait." The kid came through
the crowd, bumping dogs out of his way like the Mole does. He called to Simba.
The dog jumped off the hood, followed the kid around to the driver's side.
"Switch places with me," I told Belle. I hit the switch. The window
came down. Simba's lupine face popped into the opening. "Simba-witz!"
I greeted him. Simba sniffed, poking
his nose past me to look at Belle. A low growl came out of his throat. The pack
went quiet. "It's okay, Terry," I told the boy. "This is Belle -
she's with me." The kid was wearing a
dirty jumpsuit, a tool belt around his waist. A regular mini-Mole. Michelle
would be thrilled. "I'll open the
gate," he said. I drove the Plymouth
a few feet into the yard, watching the gates close behind us. "I'm going
to get out now," I told Belle. "I'll come around and let you out. The
dogs will be with us, but they're okay. Don't be scared." "Too late for
that," she muttered. When I let her out,
she stepped to the ground. The dogs moved in close. "Should I pat
them?" she asked. Terry laughed.
"Follow me," he said. I took Belle's hand
as we moved through the junkyard. Simba flashed ahead of us in a Z pattern,
working the ground. The dogs came close, barking at each other, not paying much
attention to us. The Mole was sitting
on a cut-down oil drum a few feet from his underground bunker. He got up when
he saw us coming, pulling a slab of something white from his overalls. He threw
it in a loping motion, like it was a grenade. The dogs chased off. Before I could open
my mouth, Terry took over. "Mole, this is Belle. Belle is Burke's friend.
She came with him. I'm Terry," he said, holding out his hand. Belle shook
it, gravely. The Mole didn't offer
to shake hands, pointing at more of the cut-down oil drums like they were deck
chairs on his yacht. "I should
stay?" Terry asked. The Mole looked at
me. I nodded. The kid reached in his tool belt, pulled out a cigarette, lit it
with a wooden match. He gets something from everyone in his family. "Mole, I brought
Belle here because she may need a place to run to. Soon. She's our people.
She's mine, okay?" "Okay." "I wanted you to
get a look at her. She has to come back in a hurry, you'll know her." He nodded. "Can Terry take
her around - show her the other ways in?" He nodded at the boy.
Terry came over to Belle, holding out his hand. "Come on," he said.
She went meekly as a child, towering over the kid. I moved my oil-drum
seat closer to the Mole. "I'm working on something. The Ghost Van. The
Prof was nosing around. Guy named Mortay caught him. Broke both his legs. Told
him to stay away." The Mole nodded,
waiting. "I don't know if
this Mortay is fronting off the van or he's got his own list. He told the Prof
he wanted Max. In a duel. He's been moving on other karateka around the
city. I can't bring Max into this until I know what the score is." The Mole watched me
as if I was one of his experiments. Waiting for something to happen. "I'm meeting
him. Tonight. Midnight. I've got backup. I'll call you when I get back. You
don't hear from me, you call Davidson. The lawyer. You know him, right?" "Yes." "If I don't call
you, I'll probably be locked up. Tell Davidson I'm good for the cash. Tell him
to call Mama if he needs bail money." "Okay." "Thanks,
Mole." "There's more?"
he asked. I couldn't see his eyes through the Coke-bottle lenses. "Maybe. Maybe a
lot more. I got pieces, but they may be two different puzzles. After tonight I
should know enough to come and ask you." He nodded. Terry came
back, leading Belle by the hand. "She knows the way," he said,
standing by the Mole. "Take them back
to the car," the Mole told him. Nodding goodbye to me and Belle. When we crossed the
Triboro, I told Belle to bear left. "That's toward
Queens." "I know. You're
going home. I need the car. I'll come back when it's over." "I want . .
." "I don't care
what you want. It's way past nine and I'm meeting a man at midnight. You're not
coming. And I'm not telling you again." She drove in silence
for a few minutes. "Burke, what's that orange cloth you put in your
pocket?" I lit a smoke.
"A sign. So I'll be recognized." "What's it
mean?" "Signs mean
different things to different people, right? Middle-class kid, he's on his way
to school. There's this bully waiting for him. Middle-class kid, he don't want
to fight, but he don't want to look chicken. So he wraps his hand in bandages,
says he cut himself. Understand?" "Yes." "You wear the
same bandages in the places I was raised, just makes you an easier target.
Different rules, okay?" "Okay." We pulled up outside
her cottage. Ten o'clock. I followed her inside. She didn't turn on the lights. "Burke, don't
hate me for asking this . . ." "What?" "Are you
scared?" "Scared to
death." "Then . .
." "I'm more scared
not to go. I have to find out. Get some answers." "Let's
run," she said, standing close to me in the dark. "Let's just go.
We can be in Chicago by tomorrow. Or anyplace you want to go. I've got money
stashed. Right here in the house. We can . . ." "No." She turned away from
me. "What scares you?" "This guy I have
to meet - he's a psychopath. Behind the walls, being a psychopath is like
walking a high-wire. Guys are scared of a man with eyes like an alligator's.
That's good - makes people keep their distance. But it's no good to scare
people too much. Just the possibility you might get hurt, that keeps you away.
But if there's no doubt about it, if you know the guy's coming for you, you
take him first. If you can." "And that's what
you need to find out?" "That's
it." She moved close to me
again, whispering in the dark room. "Why take a chance?" "It's not that
simple. I can't do anything until I find out. I don't know what else's out
there." "Burke, you come
back here. You come back here to me." "I will. As best
I can." I lit a last
cigarette, pulled her to me. "You don't see me by tomorrow morning, drive
back to the junkyard. The Mole will know who to contact, what to do." "You'll come
back. I've got something for you." "I know you
do," I said, giving her a kiss. Eleven-fifteen. I was
parked down the street from the playground. Breathing deep through my nose,
sucking the air into my belly, expanding my chest as I let out each breath.
Fear snapped around inside me. I gathered it together in a spot in my chest.
Worked my mind, putting a fluid box around the fear. Testing the box, pushing
it in different directions. I concentrated on the box, shooting clean, cold
beams at it. Breaking it into little pieces. Smaller and smaller. Seeing the
fear-blob break up into little liquid pieces inside me. Like tears. I held my
hands out in front of me, willing the little pieces of fear to come out the
ends of my fingers. Feeling them come. Some came out my eyes. I felt so tired.
Closed my eyes for a second. My watch said eleven-forty. Time. I nosed the Plymouth
up on the sidewalk, up to the playground gate. I jumped out, holding the heavy
bolt-cutters in two hands. The chain around the fence gave way with one squeeze.
I pulled the Plymouth inside the dark playground. Got out and closed the gate
behind me. I made a slow circle of the yard, stopped when the Plymouth was
pointed back at the street. I got out, taking a
six-pack of beer with me. Glass bottles. Lined them up on the trunk of the car,
all in a row. Parallel to the building where the shooter would be waiting. I
popped the top off one, held it to my lips. Lit a cigarette. Slouched against
the car to wait. The tip of my
cigarette glowed. The streetlights didn't reach the corners of the buildings
ringing the playground, but it was bright enough where I stood. "You're early,
punk." A voice from the shadows. I dragged on my
cigarette, keeping both hands in sight. Two men walked toward me from the left.
One more from the right. I watched them, not moving. Well-built Spanish guy in
a shortsleeved white guyabera shirt. Dark-haired white man in a leather
jacket. And a tall man in a white T-shirt and white pants. He looked like a
stick figure moving toward me. Mortay. "Step away from
the car," he said. His voice was a whisper-hiss, snake-thin. The Spanish guy came
to meet me. I held my hands away from my body as he searched. A diamond glinted
in his ear. A fat diamond, not a stud. "Empty," he
said, stepping back. Mortay stopped four
feet from me. His face was at the end of a long, thin neck, so small I could
have covered it with my hand. Hair cropped close - l could see the shine of his
scalp. A heavy shelf of bone linked his eyebrows, bulging forward, a visor over
his eyes. "I don't
recognize the school," he said. Meaning the orange headband. "Do you
fight?" "I'm just a
student." "You wanted to
meet me?" "Thank you for
coming," I said, my voice gentle and low. "You had a dispute with a
friend of mine. A small black man. On a cart." He stood stone-still,
waiting. "The dispute was
our fault, and we apologize. He wasn't looking for you. We don't know anything
about you. We don't want to know." "What was he
looking for?" "The Ghost
Van." "Don't look for
the Ghost Van," Mortay hissed. "You wouldn't like it if you found
it." "I'm not looking
for it. I'm off the case. I just wanted to tell you to your face. We have no
quarrel with you - whatever you did, it was just business, okay?" I turned to go. "Stay where you
are." I faced him. He
hadn't moved. "I gave the
little nigger a message. Didn't you get it?" "I just told you
we did." "About Max.
Max the Silent. Max the warrior. I called him out. I want to meet
him." "If I see him,
I'll tell him." "You know my name?
You play with me, you play with death." "I'm not
playing." "I know you.
Burke. That's you, right?" "Yeah." "Max is your
man. Everyone knows that - it's all over the street. Everyone says he's the best.
He's not. It's me. Me. He wants to admit it, go down on one knee, he can live.
Otherwise, we fight." "You can't make
him fight." "I can make anyone
fight. I spit on dojo floors. I killed a kendo master with his own sword.
Everybody has a button." He opened his hands, a gambler fanning a handful
of aces. "I push the buttons." "Let it
go," I said. He moved in on top of
me. Spit full in my face. I didn't move, watching his eyes. "You're better
than I thought," he whispered. "You're too old to jump if I call your
mother a name. But you spit in an ex-con's face, he has to fight." "I won't fight
you." "You couldn't
fight me, pussy." I felt my face rock to the side, blood in the corner of
my mouth. "Never saw that, did you?" "No," I
answered him, chewing on my lip, my mind back in an alley when I faced another
man years ago. Wishing I had a gun, glad I didn't. "I'm the fastest
man there is. Max, he's nothing but a tough guy. I'll kill him in a heartbeat -
he'll never see what does it." "You can't make
him fight - he doesn't fight just 'cause you call his name." "What if I snap
your spine, leave you in a wheelchair the rest of your life? You think that'll
bring him around to see me?" "You can't do
that either," I said, my voice soft. "I'm not alone here." The Spanish guy
laughed. "I don't see nobody," he said, pulling an automatic from his
belt. I raised my hands as
though I was responding to the pistol. One of the beer bottles exploded. I took
another step away from Mortay. "There's a rifle
squad on the roof. Night scopes and silencers." Mortay was ice,
watching me. "Want to see it
again?" I raised my hand. Another bottle exploded. El Caтonero was the
truth. "I don't want
any beef with you. You scared me good. I don't want anything to do with you.
This is a walk-away. You can't hurt me, and you can't make Max fight you. It's
over, get it?" Mortay's voice was so
low I had to lean forward to catch it. "Tell Max. Tell him I know about
the baby. Tell him I know about Flower. Tell him to come and see me. Come and
see me, or the baby dies." I threw myself at
him, screaming. I felt a chop in the ribs and I was on the ground. A flash of
white and Mortay was gone. Bullets whined all around the playground. The
dark-haired white guy went down. His body jumped as more bullets hit. Pieces of
the building flew away. I crawled over to the
car, pulled myself inside. I twisted the key, floored the gas, and blasted
through the gate. The Plymouth thundered
toward the river, running without lights. I grabbed the highway, sliding into
the late-night traffic, willing myself to slow down. My shoulders were hunched
into my neck, tensing for the shot that never came. No sirens. A quick choice - my
office or Belle's? My office was closer, but Mortay knew where it was. The
Plymouth's license plates were smeared with dirt and Vaseline - nobody could
call in an ID. I slipped through the
Battery Tunnel, staying with traffic, one eye locked to the rearview mirror.
Clear. I pulled the sleeves off the jacket I was wearing. The Velcro made a
tearing sound. One sleeve went out the window on the Belt Parkway, the other a
few miles down the road. I slipped out of the body of the jacket, dumped that
too. The orange headband was the last to go, slipping away in the wind. Two blocks from
Belle's. I stopped at a pay phone, pulling the pistol from under the floor mat.
She answered on the first ring. "Hello?" "It's me. You
okay?" "I'm fine,
honey." "What's your
favorite animal?" She caught it.
"An alligator. It's clear, baby." I hung up, stepping
back into the Plymouth. Her door opened as I was coming up the walk. I slipped
into the darkness, the pistol in my hand. I went to the couch,
set the pistol down next to me, reached for the phone. Belle sat next to me,
reaching out her band. "Honey . .
." "Get away from
me, Belle. I got work to do and I don't have much left." I punched the
numbers, cursing Ma Bell for having different area codes for Queens and
Manhattan. Mama picked up. "It's me. No
time to talk. You get to Immaculata. Get her to come and see you, okay?" "Okay." "She has to go
out of town for a while. With the baby, Mama. That's the important thing. With
the baby. Let her tell Max whatever she wants - visit friends, whatever. But
get her out of here." "Max too?" "Can you do
it?" "Big problems
for me. Business problems. In Boston, okay?" "Okay. But keep
him low to the ground. Work quiet." "Tomorrow
morning he goes." "With the
baby." "With baby. Like
you say. Come by, tell me soon." "Soon." "Plenty help
here, okay? Nobody hurt baby." "Get them out of
here, Mama." "All done,"
she said. I took a deep breath.
Belle was motionless next to me. I punched another number, taking the lighted
cigarette she held out. The Mole's phone was picked up at his end. "It's me. I'm
okay." He hung up. I started to shake
then. Couldn't get the cigarette into my mouth. Belle put her arms around me,
pressing my head to her breasts. "Let it
go," I said, pushing her away. "Let it come out - I know what to
do." I let the fear snake
its way through me, shaking my body, a terrier with a rat. I replayed the tape
- back in the playground, down on the ground, a ribbon of killer bees
death-darting between me and Mortay, El Caтonero on the high ground keeping me
safe. My body trembled in
the terror seizure. Malaria flashes. Taking me back to the burned-out jungle in
Biafra where fear grew thicker than the vines. I couldn't make it
stop - didn't even try. I stayed quiet and still. Careful as a man with broken
ribs - the kind that puncture a lung if you cough. Fear ran its race. When it stopped, I
was soaking wet, limp. Drained. I closed my eyes then, sliding my face into
Belle's lap. It was still dark
when I came around. I turned my head. My face slid across Belle's lap, her
thighs slick with sweat. Or tears. I pulled myself up, next to her. "Can you get a
duffel bag out of the trunk of my car? I need to take a shower - I don't like
the way I smell." "You smell fine
to me." "Just do it,
okay?" She got up without
another word. I took off my clothes. They felt heavy in my hands. I dropped
them on the floor, stepped into the shower. When I came back out,
Belle had the duffel bag on the couch. I toweled myself off, put on a fresh set
of clothes. Belle's clock said two-fifteen. I took a pillowcase from the duffel
bag, stuffed everything I'd been wearing into it, even the cheap watch. "I don't have a
washing machine here," she said, watching my face. "This stuff
needs an incinerator," I said, tossing it near the front door. "You want a
drink?" "Ice
water." She cracked some
cubes in a glass, ran the tap, brought it over to me. I lit a cigarette,
watching my hands on the matches. They didn't shake. I propped myself
against the arm of the couch, sipping the water, smoking my cigarette. Watching
the smoke drift to the ceiling. Belle stood a few feet away, watching me, not
saying a word. "Come here,
baby," I said. She sat on the floor
next to the couch. I put my hand on the back of her neck, holding her. It was
quiet and safe in the dark. Belle took the ashtray from me, put it on the floor
where I could reach it. Lit a smoke of her own. "When I was a
young man, just a kid really, I had a place of my own. A basement, but it was
fixed up like an apartment. I was raised in other people's places: the
orphanage, foster homes, reform school. Nothing belonged to me. I got to
thinking that place was real important." I dragged deep on the
cigarette, watching the glow at the tip. "A man wanted my
basement. I didn't know how to act then - there was nobody to tell me what to
do - nobody for me to listen to. I got a gun and I went to meet him. In an
alley. I was scared. I thought if I couldn't keep my basement I could never
keep anything. Never have anything of my own. "I had to meet
the man. Like tonight. I can still see it - like I was right back there. I got
ready to go. Ran Vaseline through my hair so nobody could get a grip. Wrapped
my body with layers of newspaper in case he had a knife. Taped the handle of
the pistol. So I wouldn't leave fingerprints . . . but really because I was so
scared I thought I'd drop it when I took it out. I looked around that basement
one last time. My basement. Left the radio playing as I walked out the door. It
was Doc Pomus. A great old blues singer. Walking the line just before rock 'n'
roll came. 'Heartlessly.' That was the song. I still hear it. "He was there,
waiting for me with his boys. I tried to talk to him. He just laughed at me -
called me a punk. I showed him the pistol. He said I wouldn't pull the trigger
- said I was scared to death. He was half right. I shot him." "Did you kill
him?" "No. I didn't
know it at the time. I just pumped a slug into him. The other people with him -
they saw me do it. I just walked away. Back to my basement. I thought the word
would be on the street. Don't fuck with Burke. He's a man now. Not a kid." "What
happened?" "They came for
me. I went to prison. I paid attention in there - found people I could listen
to. I never wanted to be a hijacker. I'm not a gunfighter in my heart, I'm a
thief. I never wanted to be a citizen - knew I never could anyway. But I didn't
want to stick up liquor stores. I wanted to walk the line. Use my head, not my
hands." I stubbed out the
cigarette. "I've been
waiting for full bloom all my life, Belle. It never worked out for me, Belle. I
run some scams for a while, make a few good scores. But it seems like I always
end up going back into that alley." I took another hit of
the ice water, Belle's hand on my chest. "I thought it
was all about that damn basement. I swore I'd never fight over a thing, never
again. No matter what, I'd walk away. Travel light." I lit another smoke. "I cut the crap
out of my life. I don't drink, don't play with dope. I learned to be careful.
Real, real careful. I've got cut-outs inside cut-outs. Boxes inside boxes.
Background tapes when I make telephone calls, phony license plates on the car.
I got passports, birth certificates, driver's licenses. I sting freaks who
can't sting back. I just wanted what the little ones want - what your mother
wanted for you." "To be
safe?" "Yeah. To be
safe. The pattern I made for myself - it was like a ritual. Something you pray
to. To keep you safe from demons. I was so scared before, when I was shaking on
the couch. It made me think. Like you're praying your ass off and the devil
shows up instead of God. It makes you stop praying. It's not a world out here,
it's a junkyard. I grabbed a little girl once, maybe fourteen years old.
Working the street. She spent her nights with her eyes closed and her mouth
full. Turned over all the money to some dirtbag who beat her up and sent her
back for more. I was taking her to this place I know, where they'd keep her
safe, and I asked her about being a runaway. I thought you ran away to get to a
better place. She told me she was in a better place." "I know." "I know you do.
I've been thinking about it. Lying here. I wanted to live off my wits. Not beat
the system, just take my little piece off to the side. Play it extra-safe. "But I see it
now. It was a pattern. The one thing you don't want to do." "What
pattern?" "In prison, a
guy who's thinking about going over the Wall . . . you can tell. You watch him,
he falls into a pattern. Does the same thing every day. Maybe he stays in his
cell instead of falling out for the movie. 'Cause he's working on the bars.
Little piece at a time, putting dirty soap into the cuts to hide them. Waiting.
Or you see him on the yard, watching the guard towers. Making schedules in his
head. Any pattern marks you after a while. This South American dictator,
he always went everywhere in an armored limo. Bodyguards in front, bodyguards
in back. Safe as a bank vault. The other side, they blew up the car with a
fucking rocket. See? The pattern taught them what to do. They didn't waste time
with hijack stuff. Just blew the problem away." "But . . ." "It's me too,
Belle. I've been at it too long. I play it safe; but I don't play it alone. You
understand what I'm saying?" "No,
honey." "I can walk away
from that office and never look back. They'll never nail me fighting over my
home again. I don't have a home. Remember when you said we should run? I can't
run. I don't have a home, but I have people. My people. The only thing that's
mine. That's my pattern." "The little
black guy?" "The Prof is
one. There's others. I don't know how it happened. I didn't mean for it to
happen. I have these dreams. I was going to be a gunfighter. Live hard until I
died. But I found out I didn't want to die. Then I was going to be a scam
artist. But I kept running into kids. And they keep pulling me into what I
didn't want to be. "I wanted to use
my head, Belle, and they make me use my hands. I was going to be a lone wolf. I
even liked the way the words sound, you know? But it's not me. All my life, I
never found what I am . . . just what I'm not." Belle shifted her
weight on the floor, looking at me. "I know what you are," she said. "No, you don't.
You know what you want. I do that too. I think I want something, I make what I
have into whatever that is. It doesn't work." She grabbed a handful
of my shirt. "You better not be telling me a fancy goodbye, Burke." "There's nothing
fancy about it. There's not going to be any more basements in my life. I'm over
the edge now. Past the line. This guy, the guy I met tonight - he wants my
brother. And he knows how to make him come to fight. I can't let Max do
it." "If he's as good
as you say . . ." "It's not a
duel, Belle. Max has a baby. He's an outlaw. Like us. But he walks his own
road. He fights this freak, there's no win. It's like turning over a rock - you
don't know what's underneath. This Mortay, he's started something. If they
fight, maybe Mortay wins. And my brother is dead. Max wins, he won't win easy.
And even if he does, he's out of the shadows and into the street. Don't you get
it?" "No!" "Listen to me,
little girl. Listen good. There's no more outlaw code. There's no rules for
freaks. I've known this since I was a kid, but I never really dealt with it.
When I went back to my basement, after I shot that guy?" "Yeah . .
." "The people who
came for me, they weren't his friends. It was the cops." ''I . . ." "Listen! It was
the cops. I was a stupid fucking kid who thought he was going to be a
gunfighter. I went back to my basement. I thought they'd come for me - we'd
shoot it out. I didn't care if I lived or I died. If I couldn't have my
basement, I didn't care. If they came for me and I won, I'd have a rep. Walk
down the street, women would look at me, men would whisper my name. I thought
they'd come with guns - they came with a warrant." I lit a smoke. My
hands were still steady. "I'm telling you
the truth now. Max can't win a fight with this freak. Somebody's coming for him
after that. Sooner or later. "Burke . .
." "I've got my
debts too, Belle. You've never been a slut with your body; don't be one with
your respect. But give me what's coming to me. I got no choice about this. I
don't want to live here if I have to pay so high." "You have to
kill him," she said. It wasn't a question. "I have to kill
him. And I'm not good enough to do it and walk away." "You've been to
prison before. I said I'd wait for you. I'll wait for you even if you buy a
life sentence." "I'm doing a
life sentence right now. It's time to stop playing with myself. I got a plan. I
know how to take him out. But it'll never end up in court." "Honey . .
." "The Mole. The
guy you met tonight? He's a genius. Like you wouldn't believe. I'll have him
make me a jacket. Line it with the right stuff. I'll find Mortay. He'll do what
he does. And when he hits, there's a big bang and it's over." She was crying, her
head on my chest. "No, no, no." "Don't take this
from me," I said. "If I could figure out another way, I'd do it in a
minute. But I looked in his eyes. There's nobody home there. I can't take a
chance. If I try and I miss, my people will go down. And it'll be me who did
it. "I could live
with jail again, Belle. But if I miss this freak, I couldn't live with myself.
I'd have nothing to come back to." "Why can't you .
. . ?" "What? Call the
cops? Have us all move to the mountains? I'm going to try, okay? I don't want
to die. I'm not good enough with my hands to take him out. For a minute, when I
was in the shower, for just a minute, I let it run in my head. Thought the
answer was there. There's a reason for this freak being connected to the Ghost
Van. It's all patterns. If I could hook into his, maybe I'd have a handle to
twist him with." She pulled back,
watching my face as if she could see past my eyes, big round tears on her face.
Glass beads - they'd shatter if they hit the floor. "You'll
try?" "I'll try, sure
I'll try. I don't have much time. I have to put it together . . . but maybe it
doesn't fit. Maybe there is no pattern." "But you'll try?
You swear?" "I swear. But
I'm cutting you out, Belle. Right now, nobody has you with me. You can be out
of here in a few hours. I've got some money. I'll give you a number to call.
It'll all be over in a few days, one way or another." "Get some sleep,
baby," she said, kissing me on the lips. I felt the heat. My
eyes snap open. My head turned to the side. Belle stood naked in front of me,
my eyes on a level with the triangle of her hips, the soft pelt between them. "You think
you're being a man?" she asked. "I'm being
myself. Trying to be myself." "I won't stop
you. I love you. But you can't stop me either." "What're you
talking about?" "I'm in this.
I'm with you. Whatever way it plays." "I told you . .
." "What're you
going to do, big man? Beat my ass? I like that, remember?" "Belle . .
." "You know why I
like it?" she whispered. "Yes. Yes, you do. I only let two people hit
me in my life. Sissy. And you. She loved me, and I wanted you to love me too.
Own me. Take care of me. Rescue me, like she did. You don't want to live in
this world alone. I understand what you said. I listened to you. I'm not
running away, make some fucking phone call, find out if you're dead." "Do what I tell
you." "I'll take your
orders. I'll take whatever you have. But only if I'm yours, understand? I'm in
this." "You're
not." "I'm in this,
you bastard. You can't stop me. You let me in this, you let me help you, I'll
obey you like a slave. I'll do whatever you say. But if you don't, I swear I'll
go back to work tomorrow night. And I'll tell every man in the place that I'm
your girlfriend. I'll tell my boss. I'll put it on the street. I'll take an ad
in the fucking newspapers, I have to! You don't want me in the pattern, you
have to let me in your life." I propped myself on
one elbow, looking straight ahead. "You big, stupid bitch." It was
all I could say. I wasn't watching her
face, but I could feel the flash of her smile. "I'm a beautiful young
girl," she whispered, "and you taught me that. I'm a woman. Your
woman. And you're going to see just what a stand-up woman is all about." I closed my eyes
again. When I came around
again Belle was standing in the same place, hands on her hips. "What time
is it?" I asked her. "Time to get
up," she said, kneeling down next to the couch, pressing her mouth against
me, hands fumbling at my belt. I stroked her back, smooth and moist, like she
just stepped out of a bath. She smelled of jasmine. She unbuttoned my
shirt, her face against my chest. The necklace shone against her skin. She
licked my chest, my belly. Then she took me in her mouth. I knew what she was
doing. I knew it wouldn't work. But I felt myself grow in her mouth. Swell to
bursting. I looked at the ceiling. Shadows. I closed my eyes. She took her mouth
from me. "Almost ready," she whispered. "I'm ready
now." "Not yet.
Wait." She stroked me with something slippery in her hand, gently working
it in from the root to the tip. She took my hand. "Come on," she
said, pulling me from the couch, leading me to the bed. She sat down on the
bed, pulling me with her, pushing me onto my back again. She lit a cigarette,
put it in my mouth. She lay down on her stomach, her face inches from mine. "Will you do
something for me?" "What?" "Never mind what
- will you do it?" ''I . . ." "Just listen to
me, okay? Then decide. All right?" "Yeah." I
felt so tired. Like an old man starting another long sentence. "Remember I told
you about that man I was with once? That tough guy? The guy who wouldn't have a
bitch dog?" "Yeah." "Remember I told
you he said all bitches would turn tail? That's what he wanted me to do?" I nodded, dragging on
the cigarette. "You know what
he meant? He meant turn my tail. He wanted to fuck me in the ass." "Uh." "He said a real
man could always find a piece of ass - said he'd heen in prison and he even
found some there." She reached over, took the cigarette from me, drew on
it. Handed it back. "Did you ever do that?" "What?" "Fuck a man. In
prison." "No." "What'd you
do?" "I went steady
with my fist," I snorted. Close to a laugh, but not there yet. "Cause a real
man doesn't do that?" "I don't know
what a real man does. It's like everything I know, Belle - I only know the dark
side. I only know what a man doesn't do." "Is that why you
wouldn't taste me? The first time we made love?" "I told you the
truth then - it's the same truth. In prison . . . men do things. I don't put
them down for it. Man wants to fuck another man, it doesn't say anything about
him." "What is it a
man doesn't do, then?" "He doesn't fuck
someone who doesn't want to be fucked, okay? That's the only rule, the only
real one. Fucking another man in the ass doesn't make you less of one. But taking
it . . ." "I know. It
makes a man into a girl." "That's
bullshit. A kid who gets raped in prison, it says something about the guy who
did it to him, that's all." "But if the kid
doesn't fight . . ." "He has to
fight. He doesn't have to win." "What happens to
a kid who's raped?" "He can lock up,
go into PC. Protective Custody. Or he can hang up. Take himself off the count.
I guess he could even escape. But he can't walk the yard unless he squares
it." "How does he
square it?" "Kill the guy.
Shank him, pipe him, poison him . . . it don't matter. Even it up. Get it
back." I sat up in the bed,
lit another cigarette. "That's what I was trying to tell you. There's
rules. For everything. They don't have to be fair ones. The first time I was in
reform school, one of the bigger kids rolled on me. I never let him finish his
pitch. We fought. He could beat me, but he knew he'd never turn me. The next
time I went back inside, I was older. Smarter. They were running another game
then. It was all gangs inside. They'd make one of the little kids run. Take off
at night. Then they'd run out and catch him. Kick the shit out of him, drag him
back. They used to get a go-home behind it. Just another way of being raped. "When they came
to me, I told this big guy I'd do it, but I wasn't doing it for nothing. He had
to give me his radio. I watched his face - I could see he was thinking what a
chump I was. "He gave me his
radio and I told him I'd run in a week. I spent a lot of time on the grounds.
Looking around. Getting ready. When the night came, I took off. I told him I'd
be waiting for him by this big tree. Made him promise not to hurt me when he
brought me back. I kept watching his face - I knew he was lying. "I took off. Climbed
up in the tree with this cinder block I'd found. He came looking for me.
Calling my name. Real quiet, so he'd be the one to bring me in. Get all the
credit for himself." I bit into the filter
tip of the cigarette, feeling myself smile inside at the memory, my hand on
Belle's hip. "I dropped the
cinder block right on his head. He went down. I jumped on top of him, stomped
his face into the ground. I held the cinder block over my head and slammed it
into his ribs a couple of times. Then I went back and told the Man that this
guy had escaped and I'd stopped him, but he was too heavy for me to drag back. "I got my
parole. He went to the hospital." "Good." "Yeah, good. I
know how things work. I had to pay for what I know, but I know." "You can figure
this out too, honey." "I don't know. "You're scared
of this guy, but . . ." "I'm always
scared of something, Belle. The trick is not to let it get in the way.
Like ego - ego gets in the way. I went there tonight to tell the guy I wasn't
carrying a beef. Almost begged him to walk away, let it go. But it
wasn't what he wanted." Belle reached for me
again. "How about what I want?" "What do you
want?" She squirmed until
she was next to me, one arm on my shoulder, still holding me in the other hand,
slippery. "I told you only
two people hit me in my life. You and Sissy. I told you the truth - I told you
why," she said, moving closer to me, whispering in the night. "I took
my clothes off for men to watch. Everything I ever did with a man, I did with
you. But special. From the very first time. I knew. Sometimes you just know
something. I want you to do it to me. What he wanted. Nobody ever did." Her voice dropped
even lower, swamp-orchid soft. "I didn't know what I was saving it for,
but I knew I had to save something. It's for you." I kissed her cheek.
"You saved it all for me, girl. Don't fuss about it." "Burke, do it!
Come on. I need you to do it. It's special. For you. Not for you to take
. . . for me to give." "Belle . .
." Her mouth was against
my ear, tongue darting inside. "Want me to get down on my knees and
beg?" I got off the bed,
stood facing her. She was on her knees, taking me in her mouth.
"Aagh!" she said, pulling her face away. "That stuff tastes
awful." "What is
it?" "K-Y Jelly. I
bought it when I went shopping. It was supposed to be your surprise." She
stroked me again, slathering the stuff on. "Yes?" I nodded. She turned, still on
her knees, her backside to me. "Where's that stuff?" I asked her. She handed it to me.
I covered myself again. Patted her butt, squeezed a glob on my finger, worked
it inside her. Softly, slowly. She wiggled her rear. "Uhmmmm . . ." I put one hand on
each side of her, gently pulling her apart. I felt the tip slide into her.
Pushed forward. "Easy,
honey. A big house can have a little door." I pulled out of her. "Come on." "I don't want to
hurt you." "I was just
teasing, baby. Come on, now. Come on." I slipped in her
again, working the tip back and forth, a little bit at a time. She rammed herself
back against me, grunting, maybe in pain. I looked at her in the dark, split by
my cock, her palms flat on the bed, elbows locked. She looked back over her
shoulder. "Nice and easy," she said, smiling. The blue beads swinging
from her neck. I found the rhythm.
She moved with me, just a little, working me deeper into her. "Just for
you," she whispered, as I shot off inside her. We were on the move
before it got light outside. I swung the Plymouth into the garage, led Belle up
the stairs, the pistol cocked in my hand. Everything was as I
left it. I let Pansy out to her roof, poured some food into her bowl. Belle
stood next to me. "You're not
worried he'll try this place?" "I don't think
he wants anything to do with rooftops after last night." "What
happened?" "It doesn't
matter," I said, popping open file cabinets, handing her papers to put on
the desk. Pansy strolled into
the room. Belle patted her head. The beast ignored her, demolishing the food. I
opened the floorboard in a corner of the back closet. Belle knelt next to me.
"Take this stuff over there," I told her, filling her arms with
death. She dumped it all on
the couch like it was laundry. A sawed-off .12-gauge holding three-inch magnum
shells. Double-O buckshot in one barrel, a rifled deer slug in the other. A Sig
Sauer .45 - the closest thing to a jam-proof automatic they make. Six
fragmentation grenades, little gray baseball-sized bombs. Four sticks of
dynamite, wrapped together with duct tape. A heavy Ruger .357 magnum
single-action revolver. I went over to the
desk, moved the papers to one side, reached for the phone. Belle was standing
by the couch, watching. "Come
here," I said, watching her face. When she got close, I made one last try. "I don't think
he's coming here. But if he does, it'll take him a while to get through that
door. He does, and this whole building's going up. You understand?" "Yes." "You sure?
I can't use the guns. There's no way to shoot through that door, and if he gets
inside, there's no room. No time. He's too fast. Mortay makes it inside here,
there's no gunshots. Just one big boom." "I know." "You can work
with me. I'll keep my promise. But I don't want you to stay here. You take the
car, go back to your house. I'll call . . ." "Forget
it." "I'll call you
when I need you, okay? Not when it's over. Before that. When I need a
driver," I said, trying my last hope. She put her hands on
her hips, her legs spread wide apart. "You want me to take Pansy with
me?" "No." Her dark eyes were on
fire. "One bitch is good enough to die with you, not the other, huh?" "Belle . . .
Pansy wouldn't go with you." "That's
bullshit. You could get her out of here. You just think she might do you some
good." I threw up my hands.
"I give up," I told her. "Burke, don't
give up. I'm not asking you to give up. Let it play out, okay?" "Okay," I
said, reaching for her hand. She sat on the corner
of the desk, looking down at me. "Where do you think you go when you die?
You think we all go to the same place?" "I don't
know." "This guy comes
here, we'll find out together," she said, holding my hand tight. I started going
through the papers piled on my desk. Smoking and thinking.
Belle put her hand on my shoulder. "You want some paper, write stuff
down?" "No. I'm not
used to working like that. I have to do it in my head." "Can I
help?" "Not yet." I went back to the
files, working over the clips on the Ghost Van, sorting what I had into little
boxes inside my head. Stacking them in rows, building a foundation. You work
from the ground up, brick by brick. When you reach out your hand for a brick
and it's not there, you'ye found the door. Whatever's missing, that's where you
have to look. The man who played with
death wanted Max. I wanted him. He had all the cards, but I had one edge. I
knew something he never would. How to be afraid. The edge burned at
the corners of my guts. Seven-thirty. I picked up the phone. All clear. Dialed
Mama. She answered in the middle of the first ring. "Gardens." "It's me.
What?" "Gone." "All of
them?" "All gone. Maybe
three weeks, okay?" "Perfect." "You have two
calls. Man called Marques, couple hours ago. And the cop. McGowan. Maybe ten
minutes ago." She gave me the numbers.
McGowan was calling from the Runaway Squad; I didn't recognize the other one. "I'm off,
Mama." "You come
soon?" "Soon." I lit a smoke. Ten
minutes ago . . . I dialed McGowan. He answered himself. "You called
me?" "We got to meet,
pal. Now." "I'm hot." "Just say
where." "Battery Park.
Where they park to go out to the Statue of Liberty. The benches facing the
water." "Thirty
minutes?" "I'll be
there." Belle was behind me,
her hands on my shoulders. I told her the number Mama gave me for Marques. "That the same
one you have?" She went into the
back room, came out with her purse, fumbled around. Pulled out a little red
leather book, thumbed through the pages. She looked up. "No." I punched the number
into the phone. A woman's voice came on the line. "Mr. Dupree's
office," she said, a coked-up giggle in her voice. "Get
Marques," I told her. The pimp took the
phone. "Yes?" Like an executive. "You called me a
couple of hours ago?" "Who's
this?" "You called at
the Chinese Embassy, okay?" "Oh, yeah. I get
you. Look, man, I got some dynamite stuff. This guy who hangs with him, he . .
." "Hold up,"
I barked, listening hard. The phone didn't sound right. "Where you calling
from?" "From my ride,
man. You ever see one of them car phones?" "Yeah. It's a
radio phone. It's not just me you're talking to now, get it?" "It's
cool." "It's not
cool. Give me a number to call you at." "No way, Jose'.
I got business out here, won't be back to the crib for hours. Give me your
number, I'll ring you in an hour." I pulled a looseleaf
book from the desk drawer. "East Side or West Side?" "What?" "Where you going
to be in an hour? In your car. Where?" "Oh. East Side,
man." I ran my finger down
the list of numbers. "Make it nine o'clock, okay? Rush hour, nobody's
paying attention. There's a pay phone in the gas station at Ninety-fourth and
Second. Go there, fill up your ride, I'll ring you there." "You'll call me?
On a pay phone?" "Yeah, don't
worry about it. We set?" "They got
super-premium gas in that station, man?" I hung up the phone. Pansy put her two
front paws on the desk, making her noises. I scratched behind her ears.
"Not now, girl." She licked my face. I'd have to use disinfectant for
an after-shave. One more call. The
Mole. I heard the phone picked up. "It's me. I need
another car. Can I make the switch in a couple of hours, leave mine
there?" "Okay." I pulled my first-aid
kit out of the bottom drawer. "Belle, come over here." She came over. Quiet
and watchful. "I have to meet some people. Can you take a cab over to the
hospital? See the Prof? Just stay there until I call - three, four hours?" "Why can't I go
with you?" "There's a thin
line between a brat and a bitch," I said, holding an aluminum splint
against my forearm, measuring. "A little girl can't be a bitch, an old
woman can't be a brat." I pulled a
three-inch-wide roll of elastic bandage from the kit, put it aside. Started
cutting pieces off a roll of Velcro, working fast. "Woman your age, she
can be either one. Or both. Big as you are, you can still act like a little
brat sometimes. You want something, you put your hands on your hips. Pout,
stamp your feet. It's cute, okay? Makes me want to give that big rump of yours
a slap." She smiled her smile. "But when you
try and go back on a deal, you're over the line. Makes me want to dump you
someplace. Not come back." Her face went hard.
"You better . . ." "Shut up, Belle.
We made a deal, right? You're in this, but you . . . Do. What. I. Tell. You.
That's what you said - that's what you do." "I'm
sorry." "Don't be sorry.
I don't have time for sorry." "Honey . .
." "Get me one of
the grenades." "These?"
she asked, holding one of the metal baseballs like it was an orange. "Yeah." She handed it to me. I
put it down on the desk, rolled up my sleeve, fitted the aluminum splint into
place. "Hold this," I told her, wrapping the tape around until I had
a thick pad. I put the grenade in my hand, wrapped my fist around the blue
lever. Pulled the pin. "Burke." "Yeah. That's
right. I let go of this thing, everything blows up." I wound the Velcro
strips around my fist, leaving a loose tab at the end. It looked like I broke
my hand punching a wall and drew a ham-fisted intern when they brought me to
the emergency ward. I swung my hand back and forth, testing the tape. I relaxed
my fist. The lever stayed tight. I got to my feet.
"Help me on with my jacket," I said to Belle. She took the surgical
scissors, slit the left sleeve neatly. I slipped my arm through. "Honey, why . .
. ?" "It's safe.
Unless I pull this tab," I said, showing her how the Velcro worked to seal
the lever. I put the pin in my pocket, handed her a spare. "Tape this to
the inside of your wrist - we might need it in a hurry." "I don't . .
." I put my arm around
her waist, pulling her close to me. "You go to the hospital, like I said.
I'm out in the street, I could run into this freak. I'm trying to put it
together. Like I promised you last night. But if he comes for me before I'm
ready . . ." "It's crazy! If
that thing comes loose . . ." "Everything's
already come loose," I said, holding her. Making her see it in my face. In the garage, I said
goodbye. "I'm going out first. You wait a few minutes, then you slip out.
Take a cab to the hospital. Wait for my call there. You won't see this car
again until it's over." She kissed me hard.
"You be careful." "That's what I
do best." She kissed me again,
her hand rubbing my crotch. "Second-best," she whispered. I backed out into the
street, watching the garage door close through the windshield. I couldn't see
Belle in the shadows. I parked the Plymouth
near the Vista Hotel and walked to where I said I'd meet McGowan. The grenade
felt heavy swinging at the end of my arm - I'd have to rig up some kind of
sling when I got the chance. I found the bench,
sat down. I one-handed a wooden match out of the little box, braced it between
my taped-up hand and my knee, fired it up. McGowan's car swung
in. He popped out the passenger side, walking toward me fast. I heard tires on
the pavement, flicked my eyes to the side. Another dark four-door sedan. Whip
antenna, two guys in front. About as undercover as a blue-and-white with roof
lights. "You're
here," he greeted me. "Like I said I
would be. And all by myself too." His smile was hard.
"Volunteers. Not your problem. What happened to your hand?" "I grabbed
something I shouldn't of." "Not the first
time, huh?" "Nope. What'd
you want, McGowan?" He fired one of his
stinking cigars. "You trust me?" "So far." "I'm not wired.
The other guys, they're backup. Not for you. For me." "Go." He looked straight
ahead, puffing on his cigar, keeping his voice low. "A man named Robert
Morgan got himself killed last night." "Never heard of
him." "Nine-one-one
call came in around midnight. Uniforms found a dead man. In the playground by
the Chelsea Projects." "So?" "He had seven
slugs in him, maybe a four-inch group, all in the chest. High-tech stuff.
Whoever smoked him was a pro." "So?" "Nobody heard a
shot. This was no punk kid running around on the roof with a .22 - it was a
hit." "So?" "The ground was
all chewed up. Pieces of concrete ripped right out. The shooter had more than
one target." "This is real
interesting McGowan. Give me a light, will you?" I leaned close to his
lighter. His hands were steady. "Where were you
last night, Burke?" "With someone.
Far away." "You're
sure?" "What's the big
deal?" McGowan's cigar
steamed in the morning air. It smelled as bad as his story. "The guy had ID.
That's where we got the Robert Morgan handle. Since it looked like a pro hit,
they ran his prints. Nothing. The lab guy's a good man - he was on the ball. I
heard from him an hour ago." "Heard
what?" "This Robert
Morgan, his prints matched one we took off the switch - car. The one that
snatched the baby hooker." "Why tell
me?" He looked straight
ahead. "You're good, Burke. I think they could wire you to a polygraph and
you'd never bounce the needles." He tilted his head back, looking up at
the sky. "This dead guy, he was in the Ghost Van. It's the first lead we
got. I figure you left it there for us, but you didn't know it." I dragged on my cigarette,
waiting. "I think you're
already in the tunnel. We're coming from the other end. I don't want to meet
you in the middle - somebody could get hurt." I snapped my
cigarette into the street. "Stay out of the tunnel," I told him,
getting up to leave. "I'll call you." I didn't look back. Nobody followed me to
the Plymouth. I took the East Side Drive to 61st, hooked York Avenue, and kept on going uptown. I
pulled over on 92nd, checking the clock
in the window of a boutique that hadn't opened yet. Eight-thirty-five. Plenty
of time. I made a sling out of
a loop of Ace bandage, holding one end in my teeth to tighten the knot. Smoked
a couple of cigarettes. Mortay was tied into the Ghost Van now for sure. For
dead sure. And maybe it wasn't just bodyguard work he was doing. I was in a box
-I had to get him in there with me. And know where the back door was. I watched the
cigarette smoke puddle against the windshield, playing with it. I was in Family
Court once, listening to Davidson sum up on a case, watching him for the UGL -
they wanted to know what he was made of before they hired him for a homicide
case. They had this baby in foster care for years. Kept him there while the
social workers tried to make parents out of the slime who tortured the kid. In
this city, a pit bull bites two people, they gas it. To protect the public. A
human cripples his own kid, they give him another bite. Davidson was
representing the kid. They call it being a "law guardian." The
parents had their own lawyers; the city's lawyers represent the social workers.
I still remember what he said: "Judge, this
baby will only be a child for a little while. Then he's an adult. We only have
a few years to help him. The parents, they've had their chance. More than one.
But this baby's not in foster care, he's in limbo. What about him? Isn't he
entitled to some end to this? All butterflies, no matter how beautiful, have to
land sometime. Or they die. The parents started this mess. The social workers
kept it going. It's up to you to stop it. Stop it now. Let this baby have a
real family." The judge went along
with it. He let the butterfly land. The baby was released for adoption. The
mother cried. For herself. Davidson makes a living keeping criminals out of
jail, but that day he kept someone from going to jail years later. I know. My thoughts floating
like that butterfly, looking for a safe place to land, I got out of the
Plymouth. The clock said eight-fifty-five. I started walking to
the pay phone on the corner, snapping away my cigarette. Marques answered on
the first ring. "That you, Burke?" "Yeah. I just
wanted to make sure the phone was working at your end. I'll call you back in
five minutes." "Man, you think
I got nothing better to do than to sit around here and . . ." "Five minutes,
Marques. No more. Then we'll talk. Be cool." I hung up, started
walking again. I turned the corner,
spotted the Rolls parked next to the pay phone. I came up to the driver's
window from the back. It was open, a man's elbow resting on the sill. Diamonds
on his wrist. "Let's
talk," I said. Marques jumped.
"What? How'd you . . . ?" "Everything's
cool. Just relax. I didn't want to talk on the phone. How about we go for a
ride?" "I ain't going
anywhere with you, man," he said, eyes darting around. "In your car,
okay? Anywhere you want to go." He got hold of
himself. "In the back seat," he snapped to the blonde next to him. I held the back door
for her. One of the whores who'd been with him in Junior's. She didn't smile. I
climbed in the front. Marques backed the car out of his spot, headed uptown, to
Harlem. "What happened to your hand, man?" "Nothing
much." "Yeah. Okay,
look here, I . . ." "You want to
talk in front of Christina?" I asked him, tilting my head toward the back
seat. "I told you
before, man. This is my bottom woman. Besides, she's the one got the
dope." I lit a smoke. The
windows whispered up, sealing off the outside world. We stopped at a light. Two
kids rolled up to the driver's side. Marques hit the switch. A black kid bent
down. "You want your windows done, Mr. Dupree?" "Later,
baby," the pimp said, slapping a bill into the kid's hand. We pulled away,
cruising. I waited. If Christina wanted to listen to Marques, that was okay
with me, but I wasn't adding to the conversation. "Remember you
asked about this guy with Mortay? Ramуn?" I nodded. ''He's a
switch-hitter, man. Takes it up the chute from Mortay, hands it back the other
way." "To boys?" "To girls, man.
This Mortay, he pulls hard guys. Right off the street in Times Square. Takes
the most macho guys he can find: rough-off boys, sluggers . . . you know what I
mean?" I nodded again. "He's bent, man.
Bent out of shape like you wouldn't believe. He takes the hard guys, makes them
suck his cock. Turns them right around. Then he marks them. With that diamond
in the ear. This Ramуn, he's not the first. He had another boy. Guy they called
Butcher. Mortay turns him over. One day this Butcher is shaking down street
people, doing his thing - next day he's walking with Mortay, that diamond in
his ear." I opened my hand in a
"What happened next?" gesture. "He just disappears, man. Poof!
He's off the street. And Ramуn - he's wearing the diamond." "And he's an
evil freak too!" Christina snarled, leaning forward between me and
Marques. "Tell him,
baby," Marques said. The blonde's voice
was ugly. "He was known before. He wasn't a player, but he'd grab some
little girl, slap her around, take her money. Like Marques said, a rough-off
artist. Always carried a gun, let you see it. Times Square trash." "Tell him the
rest." "He does the
massage parlors now. All the girls know him. He pays big, so he got a lot of
play at first. But he's a pain-freak, man. He has to hurt a girl to get off.
You know Sabrina? Big fat Sabrina?" I shook my head no. "She does
pain-for-gain. Whips and chains. She used to work at Sadie's Sexsational? Just
off Eighth?" I nodded. "This Ramуn had
a date with her. Goes in the back. Stays a long time. Manager comes back to see
what's taking so long, Ramуn's just walking out. Points a piece in the
manager's face and just keeps going. Sabrina was a mess, man. He tied her up,
put a ball-gag in her mouth, whipped her till she was nothing but blood. Left a
whiskey bottle sticking out of her ass." I bit into my
cigarette. I'd seen it before. They start out mean, they end up evil. Christina sat back in
her seat. Marques snorted a fat line of coke off his wrist. "That's the
story, man. Nobody knows where Mortay lives. This Ramуn, he's on the street
most every night. Meets Mortay different places and they go off together." "You did
good," I said, dragging on the smoke. "I'm out of it
now, man. These people are too heavy for me. I'm a lover, not a killer. That's
why I came to you." I didn't say
anything. "Drop you
someplace, man?" "Thirty-ninth,
anywhere near the river." "Man, that's
only a block away." "Downtown. Not a
Hundred and thirty-ninth." "Oh, yeah.
Right," Marques said, flashing his pimp-smile. "I forgot you was
white." Marques rambled on
during the drive downtown. It's expensive to keep good women working. The IRS
just took a major player off the street for back taxes. Bail bondsmen and
lawyers were eating him alive. Couldn't find a decent mechanic for the Rolls. I mumbled just enough
to keep him talking, my mind floating someplace else. Like a butterfly. Hawks have to land
too. Marques dropped me off
where I asked him. "I'm out of it," he said again. I leaned into the
window, keeping my voice low. "You're out of it when the Ghost Van's off
the streets. You did your piece. But if I need to talk to you again, I'm going
to call." He wouldn't meet my eyes.
"Yeah, man. Right on. You know where to find me." I watched Christina
let herself into the front seat. "I always
will," I promised him. I watched the Rolls
pull into traffic. He answered the phone
like he always does. "Morelli." "It's Burke. I
need to talk." "Talk." "Not on the
phone." I heard the groan in
his voice. "And you won't come to the office, right?" "Take a walk
downstairs. I'll meet you on the benches in front of the UN. Right across from
Forty-first." "Now?" "Now." I had a good twenty
minutes to myself, waiting for Morelli. My mind was a rat,
gnawing at the corner of a warehouse full of grain. The UN towered behind
me. Useless piece of junk. I wondered how long it would be before somebody
turned it into a co-op. I spotted Morelli
across the street. Tall guy, looks ten years younger than he is. Never wears a
hat, even in the winter. Dressing better now that he's married, but not much.
He doesn't look like an investigative reporter. Hell, he doesn't look Italian.
But he's the best of both. He was twenty feet
away when it hit me. Money. Where's the money? I filed the thought like a
bitch-wolf hiding her cubs. I shook hands with
Morelli. "Let's walk," I said. We found a place by
the railing. Tourists flowed by. Security guards. People late for work. Morelli
didn't waste time asking about my hand - it wasn't his way. "What've you
got?" "I may have this
fucking Ghost Van," I told him, watching his eyes light up. A hound on the
scent. "Tell me." "There's a
pattern. A karate-freak's been fighting duels all over the city. Challenging
the leaders of every dojo. Killed at least a couple. He had a death-match. In
the basement of Sin City. Every player made the scene. Big purse, side bets,
the whole thing. Like a cockfight, only with people. I thought he was fronting
off the van. Bodyguard work. He warned one of my people off. Broke his legs.
Some other things happened, and now it's me he's looking for." Morelli glanced at my
left hand. "Yeah," I
said. "Like that. We're off the record now. Way off, okay?" "Okay." "A man got
killed last night. The cops matched his prints to the switch-car for the Ghost
Van." "Yeah . . .
?" "The guy that
was killed, this karate-freak was with him when he bought it. It won't make the
papers." "Where do I come
in?" "We got two
pieces left. Why the Ghost Van in the first place? What's it doing out there?
That's my piece. Here's yours: where's the money?" "What
money?" "There's always
money. Somewhere, there's always money. This whole operation cost a bundle -
somebody's scoring." "I read the
clips myself. It sounds like a sicko trip to me." "You're reading
it wrong. I know it. Let me do that bit, it's not for you." "What's
mine?" "Sin City. Who
owns it? Who's watching it? There's something about that place that ties it up.
This karate-freak. Mortay. Nobody knows where he lives. But that's where he
fought the duel. I'll work it through. I'm close now. I know it." "I have to sit
on the fingerprint story?" "Yeah. But
you're in on the kill when it all comes down. My word on it. No matter what
happens, you'll get the whole story." "First." "From the
horse's mouth." "How much time I
got?" "Less than I got.
And I got none." He shook hands again,
moved off. I watched the street
for a minute. Then I stepped on the uptown bus. The Plymouth was
where I left it. In some neighborhoods, I worry about amateurs trying to strip
it for parts - in Yuppieville, the only danger is that some citizen will want
it towed away as an eyesore. I headed for the
Bronx on automatic pilot, still working the puzzle in my head. Pulling the pain
into a laser point to burn through the haze. The junkyard looks
the same, day or night. Terry walked past the dogs, motioning me to shove over.
He got behind the wheel. "I know the way," he said, steering
carefully through the mine field until we pulled up outside a row of
corrugated-iron sheds. The kid drove right in. I stood to the side, watching
him jockey a couple of wrecks back and forth, filling up the area. In five
minutes, the Plymouth had disappeared. We walked through the
yard, heading for the Mole's bunker. Terry bummed a cigarette. "Shouldn't
you be going to school?" I asked him, handing it over. "I am," the
kid said. The Mole was waiting
for us. "What kind of car do you need?" "Something that
won't make people look twice." "Big car?
Fast?" "Doesn't
matter." He turned to Terry.
"Get the brown Pontiac." The kid took off. I sat down next to
the Mole. If I waited for him to ask questions, I'd do a life sentence in the
junkyard. "Thanks for the
car, Mole." He grunted, disinterested. The kid rolled up.
The Pontiac was a couple of years old. A chocolate-brown four-door sedan. A
nice, clean, boring commuter's car. It had New York plates, a fresh inspection
sticker. "Registration's
in the glove compartment. Insurance card too," Terry said. "Good
work." If I got dropped, I'd tell the cops I borrowed the car from a guy I
met in a bar. The owner would never show up to claim it, and the Pontiac
wouldn't be on any hot-car list. I lit a smoke.
"Mole, I need to talk to you for a minute." "Talk." "The kid . .
." "He has to
learn," the Mole said. "I'm working on
something. The wheels came off last night. This guy's looking for me -I'm
looking for him." The Mole tapped my
left hand. "What's that?" "Grenade." "I have better
stuff." "It's okay for
now. That's not what I need." The Mole waited. Terry
opened his mouth to ask a question, caught the Mole looking at him, shut it
down. "There's a
tie-in to this whole mess I told you about before. I think it's inside a
building. Times Square, on Eighth. Maybe the basement. I'm having some things
checked out now." I dragged deep on the smoke. The Mole and the kid sat
like twin toads. "Can you get
inside the building for me?" Terry laughed. It was
like asking Sonny Liston if he could punch. "I'm hot. This
freak, Mortay, he's got the area wired. He sees me, I'm gone. I'm not ready for
him yet. I can't go in with you." The Mole shrugged. "And you can't
use Max for backup. He's out of this until it's over." "Why?" "I met the
freak. Face to face. He wants Max, says he'll take out the baby to make Max
fight. Mama sent him out of town for a few weeks." "He knows?" "No." The Mole wiped his
hands on his greasy jumpsuit. "You want something from inside?" "Just a look
around. A good look." "When?" "I'll get back
to you. But soon, okay?" "Okay." I stomped out my
cigarette. "You can't take out the electricity. It's right in the middle
of the cesspool. Takes a lot of juice to run all that neon." The Mole turned to
Terry. "Get the master-blaster," he said. I followed the Mole
to the entrance of his bunker. There's a network of tunnels under the junkyard,
shored up with I-beams. He led me down some steps. Bright light ahead. Terry
came up behind us. The Mole pointed
ahead. "Streetlight," he said. "Like they have outside. Turns on
at night - goes off in the daytime. You know how it works?" "Con
Edison?" "No. Infrared
sensor. When it gets light out, the sensor reads it. Shuts itself off." "So?" We turned the corner.
Terry handed the Mole a portable spotlight. The kind you plug into the
cigarette lighter in your car. The Mole aimed the spotlight, pressed the
button. A flash of white-hot light. The streetlight went out. We stood in the
pitch dark. I counted ninety seconds in my head. The streetlight came back on.
I followed the Mole outside. "Car headlights,
maybe seventy-five thousand candlepower on high beams. Cop's spotlights, maybe
a hundred and fifty thousand. This throws a million. Tricks the streetlight -
tricks motion sensors - anything." "Damn! What
happens if you blast somebody in the face with it?" "They go blind
for a few minutes. Too close, you burn the eyeballs." "Mole, you amaze
me." "Let Terry drive
the car out of the yard," he said. Belle was lying on
her stomach across the hospital bed, chin in her hands. Her legs were bent at
the knee, feet twirling behind her. Like a teenage girl talking on the phone.
The Prof was in an easy chair, the casts on his legs still separated by the
bar, propped on a footstool. He looked sharp - clean-shaven, bright-red robe. "It's
quiet?" I asked, stepping into the room. "This is a
hospital, fool." "I mean . .
." "We all
know what you mean. Everything's cool. Too bad you showed so soon, I was just
getting ready to show the lady your baby pictures." I pulled up another
chair. "You got something?" Belle climbed off the
bed, sat down on the floor between us, her hand on my knee. The little man was
back to himself. All business, but working in circles. "You remember
J.T.?" "Yeah." He turned to Belle.
"This J.T. was a real country boy when he came up here. A stone rookie.
Wouldn't know a hoe-down from a throw-down. Couldn't decide if he was gonna be
a yutz or a clutz. You follow?" Belle tilted her chin
to look up at me. "What's a throw-down?" "A challenge. Or
a fight." "How do you tell
the difference?" "One you do with
your mouth, the other with your hands. Now shut up - let the man finish." Her lips turned into
a perfect pout, like she'd been practicing all her life. The Prof patted her
arm. "Don't pay attention to this thug, girl. You can school a fool, but
you can't make him cool. J.T., he's not what you call a mental heavyweight, but
he's good people. A few years ago, he got into this beef over a girl. Working
girl. He thought he was in love. Shot the pimp right on Forty-fourth Street.
Girl starts screaming, J.T. starts running. I'm on my cart, see him flying. I
told him to toss the piece. Buried it in my coat. The cops grabbed him a couple
of blocks away, but they never found the gun. The pimp didn't die. We put
together a package for J.T. Michelle talked to the girl, Burke talked to the
pimp. Visited him right in the hospital. They held J.T. a few months, waiting
for somebody to testify. Finally, they cut him loose. He's still a dumb-ass
cowboy. Too dumb to hustle, and he's not cold enough for stickups. He's always
out there, picking up spare change. You understand?" Belle nodded, a
serious look on her face. Like there was going to be a test later. "Anyway, old
J.T. hears what happened. Out there. He comes to see me. Like I said, he's good
people, but he ain't swift. Wants to square the beef for me - take care of the
people who busted me up. I tell him to back off, it's been handled. He gets a
look on his face like I just downed him, you know? Like I think he ain't worth
shit. So I give him this assignment, okay? Just do what he does, but keep his
eyes open. Don't ask nobody nothing. Just watch. Last night, he walks in here.
Brought me that radio," the Prof said, pointing to a suitcase-sized boom
box sitting in the corner. "And he brought me this too." He put it in my hand.
An eight-sided gold metal coin. Embossed on one side was a nude woman, one hand
behind her head, spike heels on her feet. I turned it over. On the other side
it said "Sin City." "It looks like a
subway token," Belle said. "It works the
peep-show machines. Costs a quarter." "So what's the .
. ." I chopped a hand in
the air to cut her off, holding the coin in my fingers. "He say anything
else?" I asked the Prof. "Said he
followed the guy - not Mortay, the Spanish dude - into the railroad yards. On
Forty-third, off Tenth. Spanish guy disappears. J.T. figures, the hell with it,
he'll go watch a movie. He goes right to Sin City, goes in the front door. Now,
that's the only door, babe. And who does he see when he gets to the bar? The
Spanish guy. J.T. says there ain't no way in the world that the Spanish guy
could've got there first." "So there has to
be another way in?" "Has to
be." "What time was
this?" "Like eleven in
the morning, man. Broad daylight." I lit a smoke.
"He did good, Prof." "When you cast
bread upon the waters . . ." "Yeah. You got
anything else?" "Just one more
little piece. I reached out for Tabitha, asked her to make the run up to see
Hortense, explain to her I was laid up. Now, you know Tabitha; she owes
Hortense too. So she did it. Anyway, she comes back to see me. Said Hortense
said she'd whip her ass when she got out, Tabitha didn't do something for me
now. So Tabitha, she's in the life, but she's straight, she tells me she saw
the duel." "Mortay and the
Jap?" "Right on. In
the basement. So I put it together, ask her how she got into the basement, dig?
She says she and her man, they go downstairs from the main floor. Big metal
spiral staircase. Everybody goes down that way, everybody goes out that way.
Get it?" "Yeah." "One more thing,
she says. This Spanish guy, she knows him too. Her man, Earl, he won't let none
of his women anywhere near the Spanish guy. Word is he uses blood the way some
freaks use Vaseline." "I heard that
too. Just today." The Prof went on like
he hadn't heard me. "But Tabitha, man, she thought that was funny. The
Spanish guy, he don't want nothing to do with nothing that ain't white. No
Puerto Ricans, no Chinese . . . nothing that's out there but white meat." I drew on my smoke,
watching Belle's face half hidden under the thatch of honey-taffy hair. Coming
together. "I'm out of
here, Prof. It's coming down. I may not be back for a while." "What's
coming down, home?" "A hard wind,
brother. Hold tight to your alibi." "You going to
work solo? That ain't the way." I bent close to him,
lowering my voice even more. "What am I gonna do, wait till you're out of
the hospital? Max is out of this - he has to be. I'm working on something . . .
but I don't have it yet." He tapped the end of my
bandage. "That ain't much of a plan, man." "That's the
backup, not the plan. It all connects. Everything. But I can't call the shots.
This is just in case he moves first." The little man's eyes
were hard, the yellowish cast gone. He was the Prophet again, the man who could
see the future. "This freak feels froggy, he's gonna leap - I know you
can't wait. But use your head, schoolboy. Pearl Harbor. When it comes to Nazis,
the Mole don't play the role." I squeezed his hand -
his grip was hard as his eyes. Nothing more to say. Belle bent to kiss
him goodbye. "Remember what I told you, lady. Outside hell, blood don't
tell." "I'll
remember." When I looked back,
he was pushing the button to call his nurse. I walked Belle over
to the Pontiac, let her in the passenger side. "What happened
to the Plymouth?" "On
vacation." "I'm glad you
didn't have to dump it. That's one fine machine." "Yeah." "What d'we do
now?" "Wait. There's
stuff out there - I have to wait for a bite." I drove back to
Queens. Stopped at a deli in Forest Hills, waited in the car while Belle picked
up some food. It was the first time I'd been to her house in the middle of the
day. The street was quiet. Working people at work, kids at school. Belle saw me
sweeping the street with my eyes. "It's real quiet
here until the summer. Once they start coming out to the water with their boats
and all, it fills up." "It'll all be
over way before then." "You're
sure?" I didn't answer her.
I parked the Pontiac behind her Camaro. "That car's been moved since the
last time." "I took it down
to the gas station. Changed the oil, front-end alignment." I looked a question
at her. "Just in case," she said. "I don't need a
driver on this, Belle." This time she didn't
answer me. We brought the food
inside. I called Mama. Nothing. Nobody looking for me. On the phone, anyway. Belle made some
sandwiches. Roast beef, boiled ham, lettuce and mustard. Opened a bottle of
beer for herself, ginger ale for me. I opened the Daily News, scanned it
quickly for any news of the Ghost Van. Nothing. I flipped to the race results
out of habit, but I couldn't concentrate. "Is it
good?" she asked. "What?" "The food." "Oh. Yeah.
Great." Her face went sad.
"I'm not a good cook. Sissy was a fine cook. She was going to teach me. .
." "Who
cares?" "I thought you
would. Remember when I cleaned your place? I did a good job, didn't I?" "Perfect." "Well . .
." "Let it go,
Belle. It was so important to me, I would have learned how to do it
myself." She pulled her chair
next to me. "You can't do everything for yourself." "Where's this
going?" She got up, moved in
little circles. Like she was lost. "You're walking around with that ugly
thing in your hand . . . Maybe we won't have a little house with a white picket
fence and all that . . . but I'm not gonna sit around and make plans for a
funeral." I slipped my hand
around her waist, pulled her against me. "I know. But you got it wrong.
I'm back on track now, I can feel it. This is just in case, like I told you.
It's coming together. There's a way to take him down and walk away too. I need
a couple more bits arid pieces. "And you'll know
where to look?" "Yeah. In my
head. I have to keep feeding stuff in, work it around. I can't go in the street
and look for him - I have to figure it out. Where he is. This thing in my hand
is only if he finds me first." "What if you
don't get any more information?" "I have to. What
I got, it's not enough. There's pieces missing. Maybe only one piece. I don't
know yet. But if you don't feed the fire, it goes out. You get trapped." She sat next to me
again, her hand on my arm, watching me close. "Trapped?" "Patterns. Like
I told you. I'm looking for a guy, right? I think he's holed up in a certain
neighborhood. So I walk around, ask questions, leave notes. Sooner or later,
he's looking for me." Late afternoon. I
called Morelli. "Anything?" "Yeah. I'm not finished.
Can't talk now - I gotta work the phones before the record rooms shut down for
the day." "Can I call you
later?" "I'll be here
till nine." "Eight-thirty,"
I said, hanging up. Mama said it was all
quiet. Asked me when I was coming around. I told her soon. I put the phone down.
"I got to get out of here." "Why,
baby?" "I wasn't
kidding about inertia, Belle. If there's an answer, it's in my head. No matter
what kind of bites I get out there, I have to put it together. I can't work
here. I need my stuff." "Stuff?" "In my files.
It's not that I can't think here. I can think in a cell. But that stuff I've
collected - it's like having a conversation . . . I ask it questions, sometimes
it talks back. Okay?" "Okay," she
said, opening her bureau drawers. "As long as I'm around when you have
that talk." Belle sat in the
front bucket seat of the Pontiac, watching the road. She giggled to herself. "What's so
funny." "The Prof. I told
him. About me. Not the whole thing, but enough. That's what he meant about
blood only tells in hell." "What's funny
about that?" "He said when
the Lord made people He made them all the same for starters. But life marks
people. If you know the way, you can read them like maps. He said the Lord made
you so ugly for a test." "What?" "That's what he
said. I told him I thought you were real good-looking. He said that was the
test - I wasn't deep in love with you, I couldn't say such an outrageous
lie." "He should
fucking talk." "Burke! He is a
handsome little man. I thought that nurse was gonna claw my eyes, she saw me
with him." She giggled again. "He told me God only made one mistake.
He said, you see a red-haired, blue-eyed nigger, you're looking at a stone
killer." "Sure, everybody
knows that." "Don't be crazy.
He was just playing." "Hell if he was.
Every one I ever saw was a life-taker." "That's
ridiculous." I shrugged. The highway slipped
by. Battery Tunnel coming into view. "Burke?" "What?" "Why would the
Prof call somebody a nigger?" "It's just a
word. Anybody can use words. I can't really explain it . . . You say some words
- say them the right way - they lose their power to hurt. The Prof, he'll say,
'That's my nigger,' he means that's his main man. Somebody else says the word,
he's ready to rumble." "But why . .
." "I told you the
truth. I really can't explain it. Maybe the Prof can, I never asked him, not
really." "Maybe I will,
someday." The office was quiet.
Pansy was her usual sluggish self. She brightened a bit when I rolled the extra
roast beef and ham into a fat ball and tossed it in the air for her. Belle curled up on
the couch with the newspapers. Pansy jumped up there too, growling. "What
does she want?" "Television." "She wants to
watch television?" "Yeah. See if
you can find pro wrestling; that's her favorite. But leave the sound on low,
okay?" Belle gave me one of
her looks, hauled the portable over to the end of the couch. Pansy sat up, tail
wagging. I went back to my work. "Honey,"
Belle's voice broke through to me. "What?" "It's
eight-thirty. Don't you have to make a call?" I looked at my watch
- I'd been out of it for three hours. I snatched the phone, hoping the hippies
weren't discussing their latest dope deal. The line was quiet. "Morelli." "It's me." "Come over to
Paulo's tonight. Eleven. We'll have some supper. I hung up quick.
Looked over at the couch. Belle and Pansy were both watching me. "Good
girl," I said. Pansy came off the couch, strolled over to me. "I
meant her," I told the beast, pointing at Belle. Pansy slammed a paw on
the desk. "You too," I told her. I let Pansy out to her roof. Walked
over to the couch, turned off the TV set. "That's one strange
dog, honey. She really does like pro wrestling. I thought dogs couldn't see TV.
Something about their eyes." "I don't know if
that's true or not. Maybe she just likes the sound." I lit a smoke.
"Was I asleep?" "I don't think
so - I think you were somewhere else. Your eyes were closed some of the time.
But you smoked a lot of cigarettes." I rubbed my face,
trying to go back. I gave it up - it'd come when it was ready. "Burke, could I
ask you something?" "Sure." "You know about
this?" she said, pointing to a head-line in the paper. I knew the story
-it had been running for weeks. High-school cheerleader, sixteen years old.
Father started raping her when she was eleven years old. While her mother was
dying of cancer in the hospital. She finally told her boyfriend, he told
somebody else. Ended up she hired another kid to kill her father. For five
hundred bucks. Drilled the old man right in his driveway. Everybody pleaded
guilty. The kid who did the shooting got a jackpot sentence, seven to
twenty-one years. The radio talk shows took calls from freaks who said the
little girl should have told the social workers - that is, if it
"really" happened. Some people thought the father got what was coming
to him. Not many. The judge sentenced her to a year in jail. "Yeah. I know
about it." Her eyes burned. A
little girl asking a priest if there really was a god. "Burke, do you
think the little girl did anything wrong?" "Yeah." Belle's face twisted.
"What?" "She hired an
amateur." "The lawyer . .
. the one who pleaded her guilty?" "Not the lawyer.
The shooter." Her face calmed, but
she was still struggling with it. "But he killed the guy . . ." "He wasn't a
pro, Belle. Left a trail Ray Charles could follow. Talked about it to everyone
who'd listen. Kept the gun. And he opened up when they popped him. You hire a
killer, you buy silence too." She took the
cigarette from my mouth, pulled on it. "I'd like to break her out of that
jail." "Forget it,
Belle. She wouldn't go. The kid's no outlaw. She's a nice middle-class girl. It
wasn't simple for her - she didn't work it through. She still feels guilty
about the guy getting killed. Incest, you don't just walk away from it like if
a stranger raped you. That was her father. He's dead. Her mother's dead. She's
gonna need a lot of help - she can't go on the run." Tears spilled down
her face. "My mother saved me from that." "I know," I
said, holding her. Ten-thirty. I put on a
dark-gray suit, black felt hat. I hated to rip the sleeve, but I had to make
the sacrifice. Belle did a neat, clean job. "I'll sew it back together
later," she said, concentrating, the tip of her tongue sticking out the
corner of her mouth. "I'll he back in
a couple of hours.' "I'll be
here." I kissed her. Her
lips were soft. I slipped my fingers around her neck, pulling at the necklace,
making it bounce against her chest, coaxing a smile. "Me and Pansy,
we'll have a beer, watch some TV." Paulo's isn't one of
those new restaurants in Little Italy. It was built when they were working on
the third chapter of the Bible. When Morelli started working the police beat as
a reporter, he would eat there every day. His mother came over, made sure her
son was eating the right food. Marched right into ihe kitchen, told them what
was what. They still have a couple of dishes on the menu named after her. He was there when I
walked in at eleven, sitting in a far corner. I started over to him. Two guys
with cement-mixer eyes got in my way. I nodded over to Morelli's corner. One of
the guys stayed planted in front of me; the other turned, caught the signal.
They moved aside. Morelli had a thick
sheaf of papers next to him, glass of red wine half empty. I sat down. The
waiter came over, looking at me like I was his parole officer. "What?" "Veal milanese.
Side of spaghetti. Meat sauce. No cheese." "No
cheese?" "No
cheese." "No wine?" "No." He moved off,
mumbling something in Italian. When he came back, he had my food. Morelli had
linguini with white clam sauce. The waiter said something to Morelli, moved off
again. I cut into the veal.
It was perfect, light and sweet. We ate quietly, talking about the magazine he
worked for, his kids, the neighborhood. The waiter cleared
the plates. "You want a hot fudge sundae?" he asked me. "Tortoni,"
I said. He bowed. I never saw
a guy do that and sneer at the same time before. When we finished, I
lit a smoke, waiting. Morelli leaned forward. "We have a deal?" I nodded. He spoke quietly, one
hand protectively guarding his papers. "You want the whole package or just
the bottom line?" "Bottom
line." His finger traced a
path through the bread crumbs the waiter left behind on the white tablecloth.
"Sally Lou," he said. "Yeah." "Adds up?" "I think
so." Morelli sipped his
espresso. "Burke, explain something to me. I grew up with these guys, I
got no illusions. That dog you got . . . the Neapolitan? I know one of the old
boys, has one just like yours. Keeps him in the back of the house. Every day he
sends one of the kids to the pet store. Comes back with a couple of live white
rabbits. The old man, he throws the rabbits over the fence. The dog catches
them in the air, crunches them like a trash compactor. The old man, he thinks
it's the funniest thing he ever saw." He took another sip of his espresso.
"I know they put up with Sally 'cause he's a good earner. What I don't
understand . . . where's the market?" "You know where
it is." "No. I really
don't. This whole porno business, most of it's bullshit. They make this
triple-X film, tell the world it grossed fifty million dollars - it's just a
laundry for dope money." "So?" "So why mess
with the heavy stuff? Kiddie porn, stuff like that? The penalties are stiffer,
they're taking all kinds of risks. There can't be that many freaks out
there?" Morelli's face was
tight. Maybe having your own kids raises the stakes. "There don't
need to be that many," I told him. "Every one of them is a bottomless
pit. It's not like dope - too much dope and you die, right? But these freaks,
they can never get enough. One little piece of videotape, they can sell it
again and again." "Sally Lou, he's
bent that way?" "I don't think
so. That's the hell of it - the market's so good, the wise guys are getting
into it. It used to be just the freaks, making their own stuff. Mostly with
their own kids. Now it's a business. The Postal Inspectors, they nail the end
users. That's all. It's like when the DEA busts a bunch of mules - the processing
plant keeps making the coke." I ground out my
smoke. "I'll let you know," I said. His eyes held me.
"Where do they get the kids? For the videos?" "Same way they
get anything else. Some they buy, some they steal." "You going after
Sally Lou?" "No. He's not on
my list." "He's on
mine," Morelli said. The Pontiac didn't
drive itself the way the Plymouth did. I poked it carefully through Little
Italy, heading for home. Salvatore Lucastro. Sally Lou. A made man in one of
the Manhattan families, but not a heavyweight. Years ago, he started moving in
on the porno joints in Times Square. Nobody paid that much attention - he was
operating with permission. It wasn't one mobster, it would be another. The
sleaze-sellers paid off, the way they were supposed to. Then he went into
business for himself, actually producing the peep-show loops, branching into
full-length films, videos. Nobody had a good line on where his studio was. He
was making so much money, the bosses let him run. The kiddie-porn stuff was
recent, maybe last year. From what I heard around, it was his biggest grosser
ever. Sally Lou owned Sin
City. I swung by Mama's, parked
in the back. I went into the kitchen, waited there while they brought her back.
We went into the hall, near the entrance to the basement, standing by the bank
of pay phones. "I can't hang
around, Mama." "What is this
with Flower?" "Just give me a
minute, okay? One call." I dialed the Mole.
Heard him pick up. "Go," I said. Hung up. I turned to Mama.
"It's complicated. There's a man wants to fight Max. Like a duel,
understand?" She watched my face,
waiting. "He made, like,
this public challenge, okay? So it's all over the street. Max fights him, he
has to kill him. And everybody knows. Big trouble." Mama wasn't worried
about Max killing someone. "Flower." It was all she had to say. "This guy, he
wanted to make sure Max would fight him. He said if Max didn't he'd kill the
baby." Mama's eyes were
black marble. A fire flared; then it was gone. "Tell him Max here. Come
any time." "It won't work,
Mama. It won't go down that easy. I've got it put together now. Just a few more
days, maybe a little bit more. He couldn't find Max in Boston?" She shook her head. "I'll take care
of it." Mama bowed, showing
respect. That I could bring it off. I turned to go, felt her hand on my arm. "What
name?" "Mortay," I
said. "Mor-tay." "What that
mean?" "In Spanish, it
means 'death.' Mama bowed again.
"In Chinese, means 'dead man.' I bowed back. Goodbye. The back staircase
was quiet. I checked the pieces of tape I left behind. Still in place. The
trip-wires were still attached in the hall. I let myself in. Pansy was at her
post. "Where's Belle?" I asked her. The beast let out a halfhearted
snarl. I bent to give her a pat. Her breath smelled like formaldehyde. Belle was in the next
room. On her back on the gym mat I keep there. Nude, covered with a sheen of
sweat. "Twenty more," she said, her hands locked behind her head. She
was doing killer sit-ups, up fast, down slow. Muscles rippled under the soft
skin. "How many do you
do?" "Two hundred a
day, six days a week. The only difference between me and a fat pig is a small
waist. I damn near killed myself to get this light, I'm not gonna be
backsliding." I lit a smoke, went
back into the office room. Pansy didn't want to go out. Belle came back
inside, toweling herself off. "Pansy was watching me work out for a while
- I guess she got bored." "She heard the
door." "Oh." She
slapped the outside of a thigh. "Only way I can get these any smaller is
plastic surgery." "They're peffect
just the way they are. She moved next to me.
"I'm glad you said that." "Because you
weren't getting plastic surgery no matter what, right?" "No, because I
would if you wanted." I gave her a kiss.
"Help me off with this," I said, taking the pin from my jacket pocket.
Belle slowly peeled back the bandage, working her way to the Velcro tab.
"When I pull the tab, you wrap your hand around mine while I slip in the
pin; my hand may be cramped." Her forehead furrowed
in concentration - her hands were steady. I popped the tab, squeezing the lever
as hard as I could. My hand felt dead. Belle wrapped both of her hands around
mine. Her knuckles were white. I slipped in the pin. "Let go," I
said. Her face was sweaty.
"I can't." "Come on, Belle.
It's okay. Come on. I watched her hands
unlock slowly. Suddenly she pulled them away, closing her eyes. I grabbed the
grenade in my right hand, slipped it into the desk drawer. My left hand was a
claw. "Go in the
bathroom. Get me the little jar of Tiger Balm, okay?" She opened her eyes.
Went off without a word. Came back with the jar of red ointment. "Rub it
into my hand. All over, hard as you can." She worked my hand
like she was rubbing oil into leather. I couldn't feel a thing. "Does it
burn?" she asked. "It'll get warm,
that's all. Once you're done, I need to wrap it." I sat on the couch.
Belle came back with a towel. Sat down next to me on my left side, squirmed
against me so my right arm was around her. She twisted sideways, took my left
hand, and put it between her breasts. She pressed them together. "Pull the
blanket over me," she said. I did it. In a few minutes, I could feel the
heat. I wiggled my fingers, working the cramps out. "That stuff won't burn
you," I promised. "Don't care if it does," she said, making
sweet little sounds in her throat. "How many beers
did you give Pansy?" "Just
three." "Damn! That's
the most she's ever had. No wonder she looks glazed." "I wanted her to
like me." "You can't buy
stuff like that." "I wasn't buying
it. I just wanted to do something nice for her." "Okay." "You
sleepy?" "A little
bit." "Go to sleep,
baby," she said. I closed my eyes, my
hand between her breasts, warm. Pansy's growl woke me
up, her snout inches from my face. It wasn't an emergency; she just wanted to
use her roof. "All that beer,
huh?" I asked her, disentangling myself from Belle. When I came back
inside, Belle was on the couch, the blanket pulled up to her chin. "Where're we
going to sleep?" "You sleep right
there. Go ahead, I got work to do." "You going
out?" "No. I got to
put things together," I said, working my left hand. It was fine. I stacked
the news clips in a pile, started to sort through what I had so far. The street
maps were still on the wall where Belle had tacked them. I started working. The
Mole was going into the basement in Sin City - it had to he the last piece. Pansy came
downstairs, strolled to a corner, and closed her eyes. Belle threw off the
blanket, came to where I was working at the desk. "I want to
help." "You want to
help, put some clothes on." "Why?" "Because you're
distracting me. And because I told you to." She leaned over the
desk, her breasts against my face. "Do they smell like that Tiger
stuff?" "No," "Take a deep
breath," she said, pushing the back of my head to her. "They smell like
you." "Still want me
to put my clothes on?" "Yeah." She threw me a pout,
switched her hips hard walking away. I heard the shower go on, went back to
work. I covered a yellow
legal pad with scrawls, but the list was in my head. Ghost Van. Baby hookers.
Mortay. Ramуn. The dead man El Caтonero left in the Chelsea playground.
Pain-for-gain. Ghost Van won't eat dark meat. Chilly menace like fog, working
close to the ground. The peep-show token. Sin City. Church where they worship
the ice god. Basement duel. And Sally Lou. I felt a tap on my
shoulder. Belle, a yellow sweatshirt covering her to her thighs. "You said
I could help." "Sit down,"
I said, patting the desk. "Listen to me play it out." She planted herself
on the desk, hands in her lap. Watchful. "This all
started with the Ghost Van, remember? Comes off the river, shoots some little
girls. Marques doesn't care why; he just wants it off the streets. So he reaches
out for me. I start looking around, and this Mortay shows up. Puts the Prof in
the hospital. So he's linked to the van some kind of way." She lit a cigarette,
nodding to show me she was following along. "Except that
he's not just a bodyguard - he's a freak. Hitting dojos, challenging the
leaders. We know he fought a duel with some Japanese karateka. In the
Sin City ba- sement. You ever work there?" "No. You have to
mix with the customers." "Okay. The Ghost
Van, it only hits young girls. And only white girls. The night I went out to
meet Mortay, when I came back so scared? A guy got killed. The cops pulled his
prints. One of them matched one they got from the switch-car for the Ghost Van.
So this Mortay, he's not just linked, he's connected too." I lit a smoke for
myself. It was good to use two hands. Belle was listening so hard her shoulders
shook. "Mortay's
stooge, this Ramуn guy. With the diamond in his ear. He's a pain-junkie. Likes
to hurt women, gets off on it. He's the gunman - Mortay only uses his hands.
And now I find out that Sin City's owned by this mob guy. Sally Lou. He's a
sleaze-dealer. Hardcore stuff. Kiddie porn, snuff - you want it, he makes
it." "You think this
Mortay works for the mob?" "No. I looked in
his eyes. He don't work for anyone. But that doesn't mean he wouldn't do
stuff . . ." "Why would he .
. . ?" "I'm not sure.
But it all adds up. Look at the maps. The Ghost Van has to have a place to
land. Someplace close by where it hunts. Times Square. Sin City - the
basement's big enough for hundreds of people to watch a duel. That's where it's
got to be." "I don't get
it." "Mortay has to
be doing something for Sally Lou. If the Ghost Van's down there, then they're
all hooked in. The reason the cops can't catch freaks, they don't know them.
They don't ask people who do. Wasn't for informants, the federales
couldn't find a donkey in Tijuana. Sex-death freaks, they love vans. I don't
know why, but they do. And they feed each other - put two of them together, you
got more than twice as much evil as two people could do on their own. Ramуn
loves pain, Mortay deals death. I don't know what the third guy was into. It
doesn't matter. The Hillside Strangler - it was two freaks. That Green
River Killer? The one who's been murdering all those street girls out in
Washington State for years?" She nodded. "I think the
cops are making a mistake. Looking for one guy. It sounds like a team to me.
Feels that way." Belle shuddered. I
put my hand on her bare thigh. It was cold. "People always
think they know what to do," I told her. "Ever hear of chemical
castration?" "Arggh! It
sounds disgusting." "They get a
chronic sex offender. One of those guys who's never going to stop, okay? Then
they make him take these injections. DepoProvera. Lowers the sex drive, so he
won't be thinking about jumping on some little kid." "Does it
work?" "Who knows?
What's the difference? This one old freak, he was still raping little kids when
he was seventy years old. Started on the shots years ago. He figured out how to
beat the deal - got some bootleg doctor to shoot him up with hormones. And
remember that baby-raper on the Coast? Instead of dumping him into prison, the
judge made him post a sign on his house. Child Molester Inside - Kids Stay
Away. Something like that." "Yeah. Like a
brand." "Some brand. All
the guy has to do is move to another neighborhood. Where they don't read
English. Plenty of them around." "It's so sick." I grabbed her eyes.
"You think your father was sick?" "He's a dirty,
evil man." "They all are.
It's their choice, Belle. Blood didn't make them that way. You're not that
way." "How do you know
so much?" "I never figured
out what I was, but I figured out I was going to go the distance. Survive.
Knowing is how you do it." I lit another smoke. "Mortay, he won't be
living down there. Too risky. But Ramуn, he'll lead me right to him." "How you going
to find out?" "The Mole's
going in. Tonight, tomorrow morning." I took a deep drag of my cigarette,
thinking about the letters in my files from freaks. Always interested in the
real thing. "I know what he's going to find." "What?" "I met this guy
once. State senator. Spent so much time kissing ass, his face looked like it
was split down the middle. But he told me something that was true. Where's the
money? That's always the question. Where's the money? To the little whores on
the street, the Ghost Van's a killer shark. But to Sally Lou, it's a money
machine." "How can he make
money from shooting whores?" "I got to wait
for the Mole to be sure, but I think I see it. And if I'm right, I know how to
do it." My voice trailed off,
tangled in my thoughts. Belle shifted her hips, sliding along the desk until
she was right in front of me. "You're different now." "How?" "When you came
to my house - shaking and all - you got past it. Whatever it was. And taping
that grenade in your hand. Like you wanted to die. Just blow yourself up and go
to a better place. But now . . . it's like you're getting cold inside. Like
you're not scared anymore." "I'm still
scared. But I'm back to myself now. Whatever that is, that's where I am. It's
true, I feel calm inside. But not dead. Just . . . centered, you know?" "Yeah. It feels
right." "There's lot of
things I can't do. I stopped feeling bad about them a long time ago." "But you can do
this?" "I can do
this." Belle came back
inside, a glass of ice water in her hand. "Want some?" I took the glass from
her, sipped it slowly. "It's late, Belle. Go to sleep." She bumped a rounded
hip against my shoulder. "Come with me." "I'm still
putting it together." "But you told me
. . ." "I think I know
what it is. I have to play with it some more. Get it straight. We're playing
for keeps now." "Just lie down with
me. Let me hold you. In my mouth. Like I did before. Until I fall asleep."
Her eyes were sadness. "I'm so cold, honey." I took her hand, led
her to the back room. The room had a faint
glow when I came around – the closest thing this joint gets to sunlight.
Belle's head was against my chest, the gym mat hard against my back. "I'm
awake," she said, before I could ask her. "How long?" "I don't know.
I've just been lying here. Thinking. Does Pansy always walk around at
night?" "Yeah." "She's
restless?" "Pansy? She'd
spend all her time sleeping and eating, it was up to her. She's just
patrolling. Watching over me." "I'm jealous of
her." "You're a
dope." She snuggled in
against me, warm, smelling like soap. "Burke, can I ask you
something?" "Sure." "Can you love
two people? At the same time? Love them both?" Flood came into my
mind. Flash-images. Flood standing in a Times Square alley, facing three
skells, her purse on the ground. Waving them in, daring them to come close
enough. Blond hair flying. Chubby little hands that could chop or caress. The
crosshatched scar on her face. Fire-scar on her butt. The duel to avenge her
sister's baby. Flower. The name Max gave his child to honor the warrior-woman
he'd never see again. I felt her spirit in me, sunburst smile covering my soul. "I don't
know," I said; "I don't know enough about love. It came so late to
me." "It's come
again, darling. I asked the Prof." "About
what?" "Love. He knows
about love. Blood love. I remember what he said: Life ain't dice - they don't
roll nice, you can roll 'em twice." "What's that
supposed to mean?" "Nobody's stuck.
Me and Sissy were walking back of the house one day. When I was just a little
girl. This old coon was down by the water. Hunting. I saw he only had one front
paw. Sissy told me he must have been caught in a trap. Bit his own paw off to
get out. It costs something to be free." A tear welled, rolled down her
cheek. "I didn't know what she meant then." I kissed the tear track.
She slid on top of me, reached down, fitted me inside. "The way people
talk, it's not the truth," she whispered. "You can't make
love. It's there or it isn't." Her hips flicked
against me, slow-sliding, one arm around my neck, her face buried against me.
"I know it's there. You know it's there. Take it." "Belle . .
." "Take it!"
Grinding hard, her teeth against my neck. Belle was getting
dressed. I was watching television with Pansy. The late-morning news. Some
people tried to escape the Dominican Republic in an overloaded wooden boat,
heading for Puerto Rico. The boat went down in shark-infested water. Another
boat came alongside. Somebody had a video camera. The TV showed some of the
footage. Living color. Blood thick in the water, like pus from a wound.
Screams. Chunks torn out of humans. Sharks hitting again and again. Sound of
shots fired. Belle stood behind me, hand on my shoulder. "God! How can
people watch something like that?" Right then I knew. Why the Ghost Van
hunted. We waited until
almost noon. "Ready to go?" I asked Belle. When she nodded, I took
the grenade out of the drawer, rolled up my sleeve. "Come over here; give
me a hand with this." She took the grenade
from the desk, bounced it up and down in her hand. "Let me hold it." "Forget
it." "Listen to me .
. . just for a minute?" I said nothing,
feeling the stone in my face. "I'll carry it
in my lap. Cover it with a scarf. You can carry your gun. If it happens . . .
if he comes too soon you get two chances." "He's too fast,
Belle. I'd probably never get a shot off. You want a gun, I'll give you
one." "I'm no good
with a gun. Never shot one. I could stab him, but if he's too fast for you . .
." "No." "Listen
to me! I'll get out of the way. He gets past the gun, puts his hands on you,
I'll toss it." "You'd toss it
right at me? Blow me up too?" "He gets to you,
you're going to die anyway. I wouldn't let you go alone." I watched her face.
"You don't have the heart for it - you'd never pull the pin." "I would!" I lit a smoke.
"Stay here, Belle. I'm going to the junkyard." "I thought I was
going with you." "You were going
with me. Not now. Stay here." "You can't make
me." "Don't make me
laugh." "I'm telling the
truth. You can't make me. You'd have to hurt me to do it. Really hurt me. And
you can't do that." I walked away from
the desk. Belle stood, arms folded over her breasts. I snapped my fingers.
Pansy's head came up. "Watch!" I said, pointing two fingers in front
of me. I turned to the door. Belle stepped forward. Pansy bounded between us,
an ugly snarl ripping from her throat, teeth snapping. "Pansy!" Belle
said, like her feelings were hurt. "Don't try her," I warned. The muscles stood out
across Pansy's shoulders, hair rigid on the back of her neck. Belle snatched
the grenade from the desk, cupped the blue handle, pulled the pin. She tossed
the pin in a gentle arc over Pansy's head. I caught it in my hand. The beast
never moved. "I'll just hold
this until you come back," she said, her voice quiet and steady. I let out a breath,
the pin in my hand. "Pansy,
jump!" She hit the ground. I snapped my fingers again, calling her to me.
Gave her the command that everything was okay. She started to walk over to
Belle. I held up my hand for her to stay. I crossed the room,
fast. "Hold it steady," I told her, slipping the pin back in. She put
it on the desk, went in the back room, came out with a blue chiffon scarf.
Wrapped it around the little metal bomb. "Let's go," she said. I pushed her back
against the desk, making her sit on it. Moved in so close her eyes were out of
focus. "Swear on your mother," I said. "Swear on Sissy that
you'll throw it if he gets to me." "I swear." I buried my hands in
her thick hair, snatching a handful on either side of her face, pulling her
nose against mine. "When we get back here . . ." She licked my mouth,
pushed her lips against me. I couldn't make out what she was saying. Belle followed me
down the stairs into the garage. I snapped her seat belt in place for her,
arranged a shawl over her lap. I worked my way through Lower Manhattan,
grabbing the East Side Drive off Pearl Street. Belle was as good as gold, quiet
and peaceful in the bucket seat, hands in her lap, little smile on her face.
Like a kid who threw a successful tantrum - got her way and didn't want to brag
about it. "Call off the
directions," I told her. She was right on the
money, every step of the way. I lit a smoke. "Me too," she said. I
held the filter to her mouth. "Don't get
spoiled. It won't work every time." "I know."
Phony contrite tone in her voice, the Southern twang not softening it much. "I'm not
kidding." "I know.
Turn right up ahead." I turned into Hunts Point,
heading for the junkyard. "You know
something, Burk - you're not exactly what they call a well-rounded
personality." "Well-rounded's
nice, long as you don't have to cut something." She stuck out her
tongue. A queen-sized brat. With a bomb in her lap. I rolled the Pontiac
up to the gates. "Will the dogs know it's a different car?" she
asked. "They won't
care." Simba made his move
first. Sitting patiently while I rolled down the window. I talked to him,
waiting for someone to come and let us through. It was Terry, shoving
his way through the pack just like the Mole. He saw who it was, stuck his head
in the window. "Hi,
Belle!" "Hi,
good-looking. You gonna show this lug how to drive a car?" The kid looked at me.
I opened the door, climbed in the back seat. He piloted the Pontiac in an
elaborate weave, showing off for Belle. "Are you Burke's
girlfriend?" "Hey! The Mole
teach you about asking questions?" "I just . .
." "Shut up, Burke.
I sure am, sweetie. But if you were a few years older . . ." "I'm getting
older." the kid said, his voice squeaking, looking over at her. She saw where he was
looking. "I know you are, honey," she said, flashing a smile. He pulled the car
into a safe area. Jumped out, held the door for Belle. I lit a cigarette. The
kid was so entranced he forgot to glom one off me. "We don't need
it here," I told Belle. "Hand it over." She pulled the scarf
from the grenade, put it in my hand. Terry paid no attention, chattering away,
explaining all the features of the junkyard to Belle. I followed behind them. The Mole was outside
his bunker. He tilted his head. We all followed him downstairs, Belle's hand on
my shoulder, Terry bringing up the rear. I hoped the view wouldn't stunt his
growth. The tunnel sloped,
curved gently back and forth. Lights flicked on each time we came close to a
curve. The Mole's living room was always the same. A thin concrete slab over
hard-packed dirt, old throw-rugs on the floor. The walls are all bookshelves.
Tables covered with electrical motors, lab beakers, other stuff I couldn't
recognize. A tired old couch in the middle of the room, easy chairs from the
same dump. All covered with white oilcloth. I caught the quiet whirr of the
electric fans built into the ceiling, venting to the outside. It looked the
same, but it felt different. The Mole built it to live underground - before
Terry came along. I sat on the couch,
Belle next to me. The Mole pulled up a chair. Terry sat on the arm. Took his
eyes off Belle long enough to ask me for a cigarette. The Mole took off his
glasses, rubbed them with a rag he pulled from his belt. No point asking him if
he got into Sin City - he would have said so in front, if he hadn't. "I found
it," he said. "You sure?" His eyes were dim
behind the heavy lenses, head solid on his stubby neck. "In the back,
anchor holes. For a tripod. Video camera. Professional quality, heavy. Arc
lights over the top. Cross-bolted brace. Beanbag rest." "For the
shooter." "For the killer.
The back doors work off a hydraulic valve. One switch - open and close." "You understand
what it is, Mole?" "I understand.
Killing machine. They go past the girls, hit the switch. Doors pop open. Killer
shoots. Door closes." He took a breath. "And the camera is rolling.
Taking the pictures." "Snuff
films," I said. "Live and up close. The real thing." "Who does
this?" Belle asked, her voice shaking. "What kind of freaks?" The Mole pinned her
with his eyes. "Nazis," he said. "They took pictures of us going
into the ovens. Pictures of their evil. Treasures of filth." "You find
anything else?" "Three more
cars. Dark sedans. Another room. More cameras, lights. Drain in the
floor." That's where the baby
pross they snatched off the street went. Down the drain. I bit into the
cigarette. I'd been ready for it, but red dots danced behind my eyes. I waited
for the calm. For the hate to push out the fear. "They have to go
down, Mole. Can you get back inside?" He didn't bother to
answer me. Waiting. "Can you wire it
so it all goes up?" He still waited - I
hadn't asked him a question yet. "Off a radio
transmitter? So you push a button and . . ." "How far
away?" "You tell
me." "It's all steel
and concrete, that part of the city. The basement is deep. No more than four,
five blocks to be sure. Easier to wire it to the ignition. They start the van .
. ." "That's no good.
There's two freaks left who work the van. The shooter, and the man who wants
Max. I think the driver's already dead. The van could sit there for
weeks." "Okay." I got to my feet,
stalking the underground bunker. Like they must have done in the Resistance a
lifetime ago. "I got a plan. The shooter's bent - I think I can bring him
in. Make him tell me where the other one is. Soon as I know, you can blow the basement." "How long?" "Couple of days
- couple of weeks. I need more peopIe," I said, catching his eye. He knew what I meant.
Didn't want to say Michelle's name in front of the kid. The Mole nodded again. "I'll call you
soon as I'm ready." The Mole grabbed Terry's
arm, pulled him around so the kid was facing him. "Remember what I
told you? About the Nazis? About our people?" "Yes." "Tonight,"
said the Mole, holding the boy's arms. "Tonight is Bar Mitzvah." I banked the Pontiac
across the on-ramp for the Triboro. Belle was quiet, smoking one cigarette
after another, staring straight out the windshield. "Go ahead,"
I told her. "Say it." She turned in her
seat. "You never gave me the grenade back." "I know." "You don't trust
me?" "I do trust you.
I have to get out of the car, I'll hand it back to you." I glanced her
way. "Okay?" "Okay." "Don't
sulk." "I'm not." "Then you're a
hell of an actress." She tapped her
fingers against one knee, keeping it under control. I lit a smoke for myself. "What's the rest
of it?" She didn't answer me.
Manhattan high-rises flew by on our right, river to our left. Mid-afternoon
traffic still light. "Burke, he's
going to take that boy inside with him? Wire up a bunch of bombs?" "Yeah." "He's just a
kid." "It's his time.
Like it was yours once." "I wish . .
." "Don't wish.
It's a poison inside you." "You don't wish
for things?" "Not
anymore." We were in midtown, heading
for the Times Square cutoff. I rolled on past. Belle craned her neck, looking
through the Pontiac's moon roof at the luxury apartments, balconies overlooking
the river, high above it all. "You think it's true? That it's lonely at
the top?" "I've never been
there. All I know, it can be lonely at the bottom." "But not
always," she said, her left hand resting on my right thigh. I covered her hand
with mine. "Not always," We passed under the
Manhattan Bridge. I ignored the exit, taking it all the way downtown. "Was the Prof
really a shotgun bandit?" "Where'd you
hear that?" "From him." "I don't know if
it's true or not. Ever since I've known him, he's been on the hustle. Maybe
when he was younger, a long time ago . . . Why'd he tell you?" "I was telling
him about me. That I was a driver. He said he used to cowboy liquor
stores." "Old as he is,
he probably robbed stage coaches." Belle giggled.
"He's not so old." "Anyone older
than me is old." "You don't feel
old to me," she said, her hand shifting into my lap. I grabbed her wrist,
pulled her off. "Cut it out. Pay attention." "I am." "We got bigger
things to think about." "Bigger than
this?" Grabbing me again. I snarled at her. She
giggled again. I turned off at the Brooklyn Bridge exit, took Centre Street to
Worth, skirting the edge of Chinatown. I needed to make some calls, and I
couldn't use the basement under Max's warehouse. Not now. I pulled in behind Mama's.
A black Buick sedan rolled across the entrance to the alley behind us, blocking
us in. Its back doors opened. Three young Chinese jumped out. Long, shiny,
swept-back black hair, red shirts under black leather jackets. They stepped
into a triangle, using their car for cover. Two of them braced their elbows,
locking their hands around automatics. The other crouched against the alley
wall, an Uzi resting on one knee. No way out. Belle caught it in the side mirror. "Burke!"
she whispered. "Don't
move," I told her. I knew what it was. The back door to the
kitchen popped open. A monster walked out. He looked like a pair of sumo
wrestlers. Shaved head, eyes buried in fat. He grabbed our car, shook it like a
kid with a toy. He looked into my face. "Mor-Tay?"
It sounded like someone had taken his tonsils out with razor wire. I put my hands on the
dashboard, keeping my eyes on his face. "Burke," is
all I said. He shook the car
again. Mama came out into the alley, said something to the monster. He let go,
stepped aside. I motioned to Belle to get out. We followed Mama inside. Took my
booth in the back. I lit a smoke. A waiter came up, a tureen of soup in his
hands. When he leaned over, I could see the magnum under his arm. "Where'd you
find 'Zilla, Mama?" "Always around.
Good friend." "I see you
taught him some English." Mama bowed.
"Teach him everything." Most Orientals are fatalists - Mama was
fatal. I sipped the soup.
Mama was serene. Greeted Belle, reached over, held her hand for a second. I
left them there, went in the back to make some calls. "Runaway
Squad." "McGowan. It's
me. I got something. Can you meet me at the end of Maiden Lane, by the
pier?" "I can roll
now." "Make it in an
hour." "Right." I tossed in another
quarter, rang the private number for the phone-sex joint where Michelle worked. "Yeah?" "Michelle?" "We got no
Michelle here, pal." "I know. Tell
her to call Mama." A sleepy woman's
voice answered the next call. "Put Marques
on." "He's not
here." "Right. Tell him
Burke's going to call him. In two hours. Tell him to be in his car. In two
hours, you got it?" "I'm not sure .
. ." "This is
Christina, right? You be sure. Two hours. I'll call him. Tell him to be in the
car." I hung up, not
waiting for a whore's promise. Back inside, Mama and
Belle were huddled together, talking. I sat down across from them. Mama spooned
some meat-stuffed dumplings onto my plate, still talking to Belle. "Dim sum.
Burke's favorite." "How do you make
them?" Mama shrugged her
shoulders - she wasn't a cook. I ate slowly, one eye
on my watch. The Maiden Lane pier was just a few minutes away. "Mama,
Michelle's going to call here. If she doesn't do it before we leave, make sure
you get a number where I can reach her. Tonight. Very, very important,
okay'?" "She help you.
On this?" "We'll
see." Mama bowed. More food
came. Belle ate like Pansy, only with better table manners. I never felt so
safe. Finally, I pushed the
plates away. Belle was still eating. "You hear from Mac?" I asked
Mama. She smiled. Made a
gesture with her hands like a flower opening to the sun. "Boston
quiet?" "Quiet soon. Max
working." I bowed. Held out my
hand to Belle. She looked unhappy, not wanting to leave the warmth any more
than I did. Mama walked us out to
the back. "I'll call later - check on Michelle." The monster was still
standing by the door. The Buick was still across the alley mouth, no gunners in
sight. I backed up the Pontiac slowly, watching the Buick move out of the way
in the rearview mirror. Pointed the car toward the pier. Belle was finishing
off a last egg roll. She delicately wiped her mouth with the chiffon scarf,
tossed it into the back seat. "How come you
call her Mama?" "It's what she
calls herself." "Where're we
going?" "Meet some
cops." "Cops?" "They're okay.
For this, they're okay. They want him too." I handed her the grenade.
"You stay in the car." "But . . ." "Shut up. I let
you have your grenade, took you for a nice drive to the Bronx, gave you a nice
meal. That's all the babying you're going to get today." She reached into the
back seat, put the greasy scarf in her lap, covering the grenade. I turned in
to the pier and backed the Pontiac into an empty space, watching for McGowan.
We were early. "Burke?" "What?" "That huge guy .
. . the one who came out the back door?" "Yeah?" "If he's
Chinese, how come he has an Italian name. 'Zilla'?" "It's not his
name, just what people call him. Short for 'Godzilla.' "Oh. Why'd he
say that name? Mor-Tay?" "He was asking a
question. That pimp, Marques. He wants to know about putting a bounty out on
someone, he should talk to Mama." McGowan's car pulled
up. I got out of the Pontiac, making sure he could see me, walking toward him,
both hands in sight. His partner reached behind him; the back door popped open.
I climbed in. His partner closed it behind me - no door handles on the inside. "You know
Morales?" McGowan asked. "Yeah." "He's with me on
this. Understand?" "Yeah." "You called me
out here." I lit a smoke.
"You sure you want your partner to hear this?" They looked at each
other. Morales said, "I need some cigarettes. Be right back. You need
anything?" McGowan shook his
head. Morales stepped out. "I found the
Ghost Van." "Where?" "It's
underground. There's three men in on the front end. One's the dead guy you
found in the Chelsea playground. Two more left. I got a plan to trap one, work
him until he shows me where the other one is." "You saw the
van?" "Not with my
eyes. I know where it is." "That's enough
for a warrant." "The guy who saw
it, he's not coming in. Neither am I. I got a deal. You interested?" "Go." "I need some
things from you. Everything works out, I take this guy who wants Max. And the
Ghost Van goes boom." "What's mine?" "The
shooter," I said. "And Sally Lou." McGowan knew the
name. He puffed furiously on his cigar. I could see where they got the idea for
smoked glass. "What do you need?" "A massage
parlor. In Times Square. And for the cops to stay away. A week, maybe
two." "Where am I
gonna get a massage parlor?" "McGowan, don't
negotiate. I got no slack in my rope. You already got a couple of them.
Maybe not you personally, but the cops have. That joint just off Forty-sixth -
that was yours, right?" "That was a sting.
The tax boys. And it's all closed down now." "But you got
more. You've been after Sally Lou for years. "There is one.
But it's not ours." "The federales?" "Yeah." "Tell them you
need it. Couple of weeks. I'll staff it myself." "With
what?" "Marques Dupree.
He'll lend me some girls." "He's in
this?" "It started with
him. Like I told you. I'll be calling him in an hour. Get him over here. I want
you to tell him it's okay." "Now you want me
to make a deal with a pimp." "McGowan, you'd
make a deal with the devil to drop Sally Lou." "Spell it out -
what do I get?" "The shooter
comes to the massage parlor. I talk to him. He turns over this other guy I
want. We dump the shooter anyplace you say. The Ghost Van goes up in smoke. And
you find everything you need to take Sally Lou down." "This other guy
. . . What if it doesn't work out?" "I got one more
deal. One more piece. You and me take a walk over to that brown Pontiac. The
one I came out of. There's a girl sitting in the front seat. You take a good
long look at her. Whatever happens, you make sure she walks away. In exchange,
I leave you a letter. With everything in it. The Ghost Van, the shooter, this
karate-freak, the shooting in the Chelsea playground, Sally Lou." "And I let the
girl walk?" "She'll be the one
mailing you the letter. Enough for a dozen cases." "Let's take a
look," he said. We strolled to the
Pontiac. I motioned for Belle to roll down her window. "This is
Detective McGowan, NYPD," I told her. She didn't take her hands out of her
lap. "He's the one you're going to mail that letter to, okay?" "Okay." No
expression on her face. We walked back to
McGowan's car. Morales was halfway across the parking lot. McGowan waved him
in. "One more thing,"
I said. "What now?" "You know
Morelli? The reporter?" "Sure." "He gets it
first. Exclusive. He'll take care of you." "And your
people." I nodded. "Okay," he
said. Morales joined us.
"Take a walk with me," McGowan said. "I'll fill you in." I went back to the
Pontiac, let myself in, watched McGowan and Morales standing by the pay phone
on the pier. "Good
girl." "What's in this
letter I'm supposed to mail?" "A free pass -
I'll tell you later." I watched McGowan
pick up the phone. He talked for a couple of minutes. Stood where he was.
Picked up the phone again. Talked some more. Waved. "Be right
back," I told Belle. I walked up to
McGowan. "Call the pimp," he said. Marques was on his car
phone. Answered it himself. "You know who
this is?" "Yeah, man. What
. . . ?" "The Maiden Lane
pier. Now. It's coming down." "I ain't walking
into no . . ." "This is a safe
place, Marques. The only fucking safe place for you in the city, you don't show
up." I hung up. McGowan stood on one
side of me, Morales close on the other. "You know
Sadie's Sexsational?" I laughed. "What's so
funny?" "Girl got beat
up there. Real bad, right? So bad the cops moved in, closed it down." Morales turned to me.
"You think that's funny?" "I think you're
funny," I said to McGowan. "You've been running the place ever since,
right? That joint doesn't belong to the federales. You called One Police
Plaza, not the FBI." McGowan touched the
brim of his hat. "What d'you care?" "I don't. in
fact, that joint is perfect." "Why?" "Good
location," I told him, eyes flat. Morales didn't like
any of this. His eyes scanned the pier, waiting for the pimp. "You guys know
what to do?" I asked McGowan. "We'll make it
clear to him." I lit a smoke. "How you gonna
get the shooter into this one massage parlor?" McGowan asked. "I know what he
wants." The Rolls purred into
the parking lot. "That's
him," I said. "We know. Go and
get him." Marques was behind
the wheel, Christina next to him. "Thanks for
showing." "You didn't give
me much motherfucking choice." "Be cool,
Marques. Be yourself - show your class. Walk over to the water with me." "I don't like
this." I leaned in the
window. "I wanted you off the count, you'd be in the morgue. You know it,
I know it. This is legit. Come on." He exchanged a look
with Christina. Got out of the Rolls. We walked to the water. I couldn't see
McGowan or his partner. "I'm taking over
a massage parlor," I said. "You?" "Me. And I need
some girls. For a couple of weeks." "You crazy,
man." "I got the van,
Marques. I got it pinned to the wall. Start counting that bounty money; it'll
be mine soon." "What's that got
to do with . . ." "The van didn't
move by itself. You wanted it off the street, you think I was gonna give it a
flat tire?" "Look, man . .
." "I need the
girls. Fill the joint up, make it look righteous. They can keep everything they
score. The guy who did Sabrina? The painfreak? He's the one - the lead to the
van. I got to pull him in. "My girls don't
. . ." "I know they
don't. But you know some who do, right? I just need one. She takes the
pain-tricks, your girls take the rest. You keep the cash. This one guy comes
in, the show's over." "My girls don't
. . . Hey!" McGowan stepped in
behind me; I saw Morales roll up behind Marques. "You know who
this is?" I asked Marques. "Yeah,
man," he sneered. "Every player knows Delective McGowan." "You don't want to
know him better, you'll shut up and listen. He's here to tell you
something." McGowan leaned over
my shoulder. "Nobody's going to bother Sadie's Sexsational for a couple of
weeks, Mister Dupree. Nobody. Not the wise guys, not the heat. Got it?" "I got it." Morales pressed in
against Marques. "Get this. You go along, you get along. You don't,
I got a little girl. Says you tried to pull her. Says you had mucho coke
in your ride. More than enough for a warrant. I toss your car, I find a couple
of fucking kilos. Any fucking time I want." Marques nodded.
"I'm in. You got it." McGowan spoke to him.
"You got two days. Friday night, nine o'clock, you be there. With your
girls." "It's in the
bank, man." Morales pressed
closer. "Or you're in the joint." Marques walked back
to his car alone. He didn't look back. "I see your hand
got better," McGowan said. "I got more
cards in it," I told him. I waited until
McGowan and his partner pulled off before I went back to the Pontiac. "What's going
on?" Belle asked. "It's coming
together, little girl." I drove a few feet to
the pay phone, left the engine running, dialed Mama. "It's me.
Michelle call?" "Yes. Come here
tonight. Eleven." Back in the office, I
let Pansy out, told Belle to stay where she was. I went down to the basement,
came back with a big metal box. Belle watched as I laid the stuff out. I lit a
smoke, left it smoldering on the edge of the desk while I worked. My hands were
moving on the equipment, but I was watching a different picture in my mind.
Seeing it happen. I picked up the cigarette, took a last drag. "Belle,
honey, would you take off your top?" She pulled it over her head. "The bra too,
okay?" She unsnapped it, waited.
Her breasts made a joke of gravity, the blue necklace falling just to the
cleft. It wouldn't work like that. "Wait here," I told her. I came back with a
white T-shirt of mine. "Try this." She slipped into it. Her breasts
fought the thin material, the cleavage gone. No good. "You have any
real thin tops? Gauzy, maybe? The kind you can see through?" "Like a
nightgown?" "That might work
. . . if you have a real short one." "I have a
couple. Some teddies too." "No. I need
something that kind of opens down the middle. So your breasts stay
separated." "Why, baby? I
can go buy anything you want." I held up a pistol.
From the side, it looked exactly like a Colt Python .357 magnum, even down to
the ventilated rib across the top of the barrel. "You know what this
is?" "A gun." "It's not,
though. It's a gas gun. Works off CO2 cartridges. It
shoots these things," I said, showing her a handful of red plastic balls. "What are
they?" "Paint pellets.
Sixty-two-caliber. The survival-freaks use them when they play their little war
games. The pellet hits you, it leaves a red splat, so you know who got
hit." "Do they
hurt?" "They sting.
Especially up close. And you can feel them smack into you." "What'd you want
with it?" "I got a plan,
Belle. And part of it, I got to pretend to shoot you. Up close. Real
close." She pulled the
T-shirt over her head. "Go ahead. Let me see how it feels." "No. When it
happens, you've got to feel it for the first time. You know it doesn't hurt,
you won't act nervous enough." "Honey . .
." "You don't want
to do it, say so." "There's nothing
I wouldn't do for you." "I know," I
said, holding her against me. I gave her a kiss. "Let me work now. I have
to see it." "See what?" "See it happen.
Like in karate, when they train you to punch. You don't punch at something, you
punch through it. You have to see it happening, see your fist go right
through the board. You don't see it, it doesn't happen. Something goes wrong in
your head and it stops your hands. Okay?" She nodded,
solemn-faced. I went back to work.
The paint gun would need something that looked like a silencer. I fitted a
piece of aluminum tubing, trying it out. Coming to it. We pulled into the alley
behind Mama's just before eleven. Instant replay: the Buick rolling in behind
us, the monster coming out the door. At least this time he didn't rattle the
car. Michelle was already
inside, sitting in my booth. She looked pristine and elegant in a white
double-breasted wool jacket, black blouse underneath. I let Belle in first.
Michelle took Belle's face in her hands, turning it to catch the light. "Much
better. I think we could go for a little stronger look around the eyes. And
your hair . . ." "Michelle, we
don't have a lot of time." "You drag me
down to this godforsaken neighborhood - no offense, Mama - right in the middle
of my working hours, and you're in a hurry." She flashed her smile at
Belle. "Men are always in a hurry, but they never have that much to do.
That's a beautiful necklace," she cooed. Belle leaned forward so Michelle
could hold it. "Burke bought it for me." "Unbelievable.
It's a beautiful thing, perfect for you. Maybe he's learning some class." Belle was throwing
off more wattage than the lights. Clothes weren't the only thing Michelle did
right. I got out of the
booth. Bowed to Mama. "We can use the basement? Talk?" She bowed. The women followed me
downstairs. "Very chic," said Michelle, pointing at the wall of
stainless-steel vats. "Is that high-tech?" I ignored her. The
basement is well lighted. The subbasement isn't. Max keeps things down there. I
never asked what. Mama bowed again,
leaving us alone. Michelle perched on a wooden crate, crossed her silky legs.
"You didn't bring me down here to talk about our stock investments." "No. It's the
Ghost Van. We're all in it now. All that's left. I have to pull a sting. Smoke
out a freak. It's all worked out, but I need you to run it." "Tell me." "There's a
massage parlor in Times Square. Sadie's Sexsational, it's called. You know
it?" "Nasty
place." "Yeah, it is.
Our place, for the next couple of weeks. McGowan cleared out the trash
-nobody'll bother us." "Us?" "Marques Dupree;
we're going to run his girls out of the place. There's two guys left from the
Ghost Van. The shooter, he's into pain. Other people's pain. He's the one that
tortured that girl before the cops moved in to close the place. So we're
opening up again. I want to pull him in. "I know Marques.
His girls . . ." "He's going to
get one more. A free-lancer. She'll do all the whip-jobs. The rest, we run it
like a regular joint. Customers come in, say what they want, pick a girl, pay
the money. Guy comes in, asks for some freak-fun, we turn him over to this
other girl. I'll be there - it won't get out of hand. But when this other guy
comes, this guy we're looking for, he gets Belle." Michelle's eyes
flicked to Belle, back to me. She took a long black cigarette from her purse,
tapped it on a fingernail. "Belle takes him
to the back. We'll have a place fixed up." "What
then?" "Then he tells
me where to find the other guy. And I go find him." "Tere's no other
way?" "No. He walks
back with Belle, I'm ready for him. We'll have it all worked out. You see this guy
go back with Belle, you're gone. Just walk out. The other girls too." "Who else is in
on it?" "The Mole. He
found the van. I can talk him into it, he'll work the front desk." Michelle's lovely
face was serious, not playing now. "I always wanted to be a madam. Of
course, I envisioned nicer surroundings, but . . . this'll do. I'm in
charge?" "You're in
charge. The girls get to keep what they make, but pull the money at the front
desk to make it look correct." "You have
pictures?" "Pictures?" "Of the girls.
We need a book of pictures, show the johns when they come in. Let them pick the
ones they want." "I don't
know." "I'll take the
pictures once they get in there. The Mole has the stuff. When does it
happen?" "Friday night we
start. McGowan will put the word out. Sadie's Sexsational is the spot, you want
to beat up a girl. It'll get around. We got two weeks tops. I'll be staying
there. Once I go in, I can't go out. Can't take a chance of getting spotted.
You bring food in with you every day. I'll be there until it's over." "What if the
freak doesn't bite?" I shrugged. "I'm
not thinking that way." "Okay." "We're playing
for everything on the table, Michelle." "I know. What if
we need some operating cash?" "Take it out of
my share of the last score." She dragged on her
cigarette. "You worked with the Mole . . . You see my boy?" "He's fine"
I assured her. "A real
doll," Belle chipped in. Michelle smiled. Gave
me a kiss. Kissed Belle. "I'll get a cab," she said. "Take everything
you're going to need," I told Belle. We were back in her cottage, two in
the morning. She bustled around, filling two big suitcases. "What about my
car?" "You follow me
back to the city with it when we go in for the last time. Day after tomorrow.
I'll stash the Pontiac on the street. We'll keep your car in the garage." She was on her hands
and knees, poking around in a corner near her bed. She came up with two
handfuls of cash. "I've got about fifteen thousand here," she said. "I'll show you
where to hide it." "You want . .
." ''No." I walked out onto the
deck, lighting a smoke. I felt Belle behind me. "How's this?" I turned around. She
was wearing a flimsy red wrapper, tied at the waist with a thin ribbon. Her
breasts were barely veiled, slash of white skin down the middle. "You'll freeze
out here." She moved into my
arms. She was warm, soft. Her hips trembled against me. My hand slid to her
butt. "Doesn't this
thing come with pants?" "I'd just have
to take them off," she said. "Come on." In the car heading
back, Belle fiddled with the radio. Full-throated, late-night blues. "I'm
a stranger, and afraid" - the singer well within himself, coming to grips,
looking it in the eye. "He's telling
the truth," Belle whispered. "I've been both all my life." I found her hand in
the darkness. The disc jockey broke
in. "That was Johnny Adams, out of New Orleans. Singing a new Doc Pomus
tune, 'A World I Never Made.' You all remember Doc Pomus, the man who gave us
'Save the Last Dance for Me,' 'Little Sister,' and so many other monster hits.
Doc's one of the world's great bluesmen. Now here's the flip side. Down and
dirty. Like they don't do anymore." Rattling soft piano, sinuous spiking
guitar notes dancing on the top, teasing. Johnny Adams, making his promises,
bragging his brag. "I'm your body and fender man, let me pound out your
dents." In case anyone listening had maple syrup for brains, he spelled it
out: I don't care if your body's brand new Or it's been knocked around . . . I swear they're all the same, babe, When you turn them upside down. "He's off the
mark there," Belle said. "No, he's right.
There's no such thing as a golden snapper - the difference is in here," I
said, tapping my chest. "Here," she
said, pulling my hand to her breast. I lit a smoke. Doc
Pomus on the radio again. Like that night I left my basement. Full circle. The Pontiac slipped
into the garage. I showed Belle the circuit-breaker panel in the back corner.
"You know what this is?" "Sure. Like a
fuse box." "Watch." I
punched the switch marked Hall. Then Lobby. Then Second Floor. The box popped
open, flat plate inside. I used a thumbnail to open the setscrews. Behind it
was a deep, lead-lined box. A revolver rested on a neat stack of bills.
"Put your money in there." "That's neat. It
has wires running from it and everything." "The wires run
to the house current. Electromagnetic switches. Like a combination lock. You
remember?" "Hall, lobby, second
floor." I patted her butt.
"Good girl." "If I tell you
again, will you pat me some more?" "Upstairs." "You ready to go
over it again?" "Honey, I got it
down pat." "One more time -
it's got to be pertect." "Okay," she
sighed. I took the handcuffs
from the drawer, hooked one cuff to her right wrist, the other to the back of a
chair. She took the long-handled speed key from the desk, holding it in her
left hand. "Go!" She twisted her wrist,
exposing the key slot, slammed the speed key home, twisted it, pulled free. "Beautiful." She stood up. "I
am. A beautiful young girl. Like you taught me." Late that night. Belle
on her knees in front of me, her head bent between my legs. Licking me like a
cat cleans her kittens. Thick thatch of hair falling. I felt the beads of the
necklace lapping against my thigh. Her head came up.
Whispering in the dark. "You think it's too much?" "What?" "This. The way I
am. I'm just like this with you. I swear it." "What're you
talking about?" "I want your
hands on me - want you inside me. All the time. Everyplace inside me. When you
just pat me on the bottom, I get wet." "It's your way of
dealing with it. Everybody's lying but you and me, Belle. To each other. This
all started out with a lie. Some punk lawyer, chumping me off, he thought. And
Marques, with his fifty-grand bounty. He probably collected a hundred. Maybe
made a side bet about taking the van off the street. I lied to Max to get him
out of the way. Mama helped me. McGowan trying to tell me the federales
had the massage parlor. Me telling him I'm going to give him the van, and Sally
Lou too. There's no letter for him - there never will be. The Mole, he could
never tell Michelle he's made a Nazi-hunter out of the boy. Morelli, he thinks
there's a story in this for him. Mortay. He's the only one who told the
truth." His name hung over us
in the dark. I could see it. Neon-red, dripping. "I looked in his
eyes. He wasn't lying. He's earned his name. Scared me past death. Till I came
out the other side. My old friend's there. On the other side. Hate. It didn't
save my basement, but it saved my life. Plenty of times. You got your way, I
got mine." "Will it stop?
When it's over?" "It might for
you," I told her. "It won't for me." I called Mama at
seven the next morning. "Anything?" "Nobody
call." "Good." "Nobody come
either," she said. "Too bad." I left Belle a note,
telling her I'd be back soon with something to eat. Took my time about it.
Fresh rolls, big slab of cream cheese, two six-packs of beer, pineapple juice,
seltzer. I grabbed a copy of the Daily News. Bob Herbert's column came out on
Thursday - he'd been pounding the cops about the Ghost Van, the only one
writing about it. When I got back to
the office, Pansy let me in, a distracted look on her face. She sniffed the
food. "You been out?" I asked her. "She sure
has." Belle's voice from the back room. "Come on back here, you nasty
old thing, let's finish this." Pansy loped off.
Belle was on her hands and knees, wearing just a bra and pants. Pansy ran over
to her, lowering her head like a charging bull. They butted each other back and
forth, going nose to nose. Belle was bigger and heavier, but Pansy wouldn't
budge an inch, snarling happily. "Are you nuts?
What if she snaps at you?" "She won't do
that - this is a fair fight." They pushed at each
other, faces pressed together, Belle making grunting sounds of her own. Finally
she dropped to the floor, face-down. Pansy sniffed the back of her neck.
"You win," Belle muttered. I put the food
together. "What was that all about?" "I told her I
didn't mind her threatening me before, but if she messed with me again, I was
gonna kick her ass." "You're out of
your mind." "It was fun. You
want to try?" "Not this year.
With either of you." Belle went into the
shower. I mixed the pineapple juice and seltzer, added some ice. Then I stuffed
a roll full of cream cheese and gave it to Pansy. Belle came out, wrapped in a
towel. Helped herself to the food. "Beer for
breakfast?" "Save it for
later. And don't give Pansy any. Belle dropped to her
knees, hands in front of her like a dog's paws. "Just one?" Pansy stood next to
her, watching me closely. "Yeah, all
right. I give up." Belle's laugh was
sweetness on the morning. Pansy prowled the
floor, sniffing the corners, snarling at nothing in particular. Our last night
in the cottage. Belle was stuffing another pair of suitcases. "Why'd you bring
that old dog anyway?" "I wanted to get
her used to sleeping outside the office - she's going to be at the massage
parlor with us." "In case
somebody wants something special?" I didn't answer her.
I dialed the Runaway Squad. They told me McGowan was in the street - they'd
take a message. I hung up. Mama had nothing to tell me. I had nothing to tell
the Mole. "Don't make it
look like you moved out," I warned Belle. 'I'm just taking a
few things. The rent's paid till the end of the month, and I got two months
security down. I'll throw another money order in the mail to the land-lord.
People mind their own business out here." I went out on the
deck, minding mine. Pansy trotted along next to me. She jumped up on her hind
legs, hooking her front paws to the railing. I scratched the back of her neck.
"You want to see the junkyard, girl? Meet a few new guys?" She made a
happy rumble in her throat. The sound rippled across the water. I smoked a
couple of cigarettes, calm inside. Once you jump off the bridge, everything's
smooth until you hit the water. It was past midnight
when we came back inside. Belle was wearing a gauzy blue nightgown, her face
fresh-scrubbed and clean. Ready for bed. She took a bottle of beer from the
refrigerator, poured herself a glass. Pansy made a pitiful moaning noise,
brushing her head against Belle's thigh. "Oh! Now
you wanna be pals, huh?" She found a cereal
bowl, another bottle of beer. Took them both into a far corner. Bent from the
waist and filled it up. Pansy got about half of it, the floor got the rest. I lit a cigarette.
"You taught me something." "What,
honey?" "The
poison-proofing I did with her . . . so she won't take food unless she hears
the right word?" "Yes?" "I'm a jerk. I
never thought about liquids. She'll drink any goddamned thing." "Can't you . .
." "Yeah. You take
the time, the patience, you can train a dog like Pansy to do just about
anything. I didn't do it. And l just figured out why." Belle was next to me,
my arm around her waist, listening like I was saying something important. "There's no way
to throw liquid under a door. She wouldn't take it anyway - not unless it was
in a bowl, or in a pool. I never figured on anyone being inside, you understand?" "I'm
inside," she said softly. "Yeah, you are.
Let's go to sleep." She gently twirled
away from me. Turned off the lights. "Not yet, honey. Sit in the chair.
This is our last night here. Until it's over. I want to say my prayers." She knelt before the
bed, hands clasped in front of her. Her skin glowed under the nightgown. Blue
light. Belle looked over her
shoulder. She played with the sash at her waist. The nightgown floated to the
floor. "Rescue
me," she whispered. It was still dark
when l watched Belle slip the Camaro into my garage. I stashed the Pontiac a
few blocks away, in a safe spot near the river. I didn't like the walk
back to the garage. Pinprick tingles all across my back. But it was quiet - my
fear was just picking up long-distance signals. The garage was dark
when I stepped inside. I headed for the stairs, sending Pansy ahead, Belle
right behind me. She pulled at my arm. "Wait." She stood before the
circuit-breaker box. Punched the three buttons in the right sequence, puffing
out her chest like a proud little girl when the box popped open. If little
girls looked like that when they got a question right, I might have stayed in
school. She slipped off the necklace, holding the blue glow in her hands. I
watched her, one foot on the first rung of the stairs. "I can't do
it," she said. Slamming the box closed. "It don't seem right to wear
it inside a whorehouse, but . . ." She patted the front of her thigh.
Where her mother's gravestone was etched in her flesh. Upstairs I dialed
McGowan again. This time he was around. "It's me.
Everything okay?" "It's empty
right now. There's an alley running behind it. Room for three cars, four if
they're packed tight. Chain-link fence, barbed wire on the top. They used to
keep a German shepherd out there." "Okay. I'm
rolling." "Wait. There's
one more thing. The joint next to it. The video store. That's ours too. You can
walk in, go down to the basement, and walk through. We punched a tunnel
through. You can go in and out." "Thanks,
McGowan." "I should've
been straight with you." His honey-Irish voice was soft around the edges.
"Square it up, now." "For all of
them," I promised, hanging up. I called the Mole,
gave him the word. Whoever was listening at the other end hung up when I was
finished. Belle was unpacking
her clothes, laying them across the couch, bumping Pansy out of the way with
her hip. I called Mama. "I'm going in.
You know where everything is. Max knows the rest. I'm putting it all down. In a
letter. To the Jersey box." Mama said something
in Cantonese. "What was
that?" "If the letter
come, I fix everything." "I know.
Goodbye, Mama." She hung up. A
sadness-shudder passed through me, leaving me chilled. I lit a cigarette and
started to write. Friday night. Eight o'clock.
I followed Pansy down the back stairs, a heavy suitcase in each hand. Belle
behind me, carrying two more. I left her in the garage with all the stuff,
snapped the lead on Pansy, and went for a walk. Electric fear-jolts
danced through me. Pansy felt it. Her massive head swung back and forth,
pinning everyone she saw. Her teeth snapped together in little clicks, kill
noises slipping through. Her eyes were ice cubes. A yuppie couple
approached, her hand through his arm. They crossed the street. A wino was
propped against the car right next to the Pontiac. I tightened the leash. Pansy
lunged, snarling. He sobered up, moved off. I opened the door, put Pansy in the
back seat. Belle was ready when
I pulled up in front of the garage. I popped the trunk; we threw the suitcases
inside and moved off. West Side Highway to
Tenth Avenue. Across 30th down to Twelfth. And
then a right turn back into what the tour guides would call the heart of Times
Square. The fear-jolts were
spiking inside me. Pansy prowled the back seat, side to side; her face loomed
at the windows. "Jump!" I
snapped at her. Nobody'd remember the Pontiac, but nobody'd forget Pansy. She
went down, snarling her hate for whatever was frightening me. I found the alley,
nosed the car in, creeping forward, driving with my left hand, the pistol
cocked in my right. The fenced-off section was where McGowan said it would be -
huge padlock in place. I stopped the car, popped the door for Pansy, calling to
her. "Watch!" I walked to the
fence, the gun in front, poking its way through the darkness. A flashlight beam
behind the fence. I hit the ground, leveling the pistol as Pansy charged past
me, throwing herself at the chain links. "Don't shoot - it's me." The
Mole's voice. I called Pansy off, met him at the fence. He reached through,
opened the padlock, swung the gate open. I pulled the Pontiac inside, between a
white panel truck with the name of some kosher butcher shop on the side and a
dark station wagon. "All ours?" I asked the Mole. "Sure," he
said. We followed him
inside. Big room, dim lights, cartons stacked against the walls, steel shelving
loaded with video cassettes. "Basement,"
the Mole said. "You know about
the video store next door? Like I told you over the phone?" The Mole barely kept
the sneer from his voice. "I was in last night." He held up a ring of
keys. We could go visit the cops, but they couldn't come see us. Upstairs, we walked
through the place. The front door was between two windows, one a little square
patch of glass, the other running down the length of the place. All the glass
was blacked out except for the little square near the door. Lights flashed
outside. "One-way
glass," the Mole explained. The joint was a long
hall, L-shaped at the far end. Rooms opened off the corridor. Tiny hook-and-eye
locks inside. Vinyl massage tables set up for quick-change sheets. Wood benches
in some, leather chairs in others. They all had tables in a corner, bottles of
lotions, perfumes, air fresheners. Tiny sinks against the wall. Heavy mats on
the walls. All class. The L-shaped area was much larger. Bathrooms off to the
side. Big ones, complete with glassed-in stall showers. Partitions made a
private office in one corner. Red leather executive's chair, blond wood desk,
red leather couch, white two-line phone. Even had a view - dirt-streaked
window, thick bars running the full width across. I walked back through
the place, the Mole behind me. Wall-to-wall industrial-grade carpeting that had
once been pink covered every square inch of floor. Recessed lighting ran the
length of the hall. A desk was set up against the wall right across from the
door. A wood railing made two gates - one to the desk, one to the corridor.
Huge blowup pictures covered the walls of the entryway. Only two chairs, both
against the left-hand wall. No Waiting. A giant round mirror was in the upper
right-hand corner, cocked at the angle formed by the wall and the ceiling. I
sat at the desk, looked up. You could see the length of the corridor. "We need a . .
." "Periscope,"
the Mole stepped on my lines. "You stay in the back room, see every face
that comes in." "Okay. What's
that?" I asked, pointing to a light on the desk. "Switch in every
room. Girl has trouble, she pushes it." The phone on the desk
rang. I picked it up. "Yeah?" "It's me."
McGowan's voice. "I'm next door. I see you managed to get in." "We're in."
I looked around. "One more thing. I can't work the bouncer job in here.
Got to stay out of sight. I'm going to have some boys sent over." "What kind of
boys?" "Chinese
boys." "No way! That's
all I need. Can you rig up a buzzer? Between us? Your man hits it, we'll have
someone through the basement in a minute." I looked at the Mole.
He nodded. Rigging a buzzer wasn't going to overload his brain cells. "Okay, we'll
take care of it right away." "Hey,
Burke?" "What?" "Tell your man
to leave the door open, okay?" I hung up on him. Michelle showed a
little later. You could see her through the square piece of glass. The Mole
buzzed her inside. She was wearing a scarlet pants suit over a white turtleneck
sweater, black spikes on her feet. The Mole and I stayed out of her way as she
stalked the length of the corridor. Me smoking, watching the door, the Mole
starting to set up the periscope. Michelle came back to
the front room, hands on hips. "This place is the pits. Mole, I need
everything out of the first room. That'll be my office. And put that disgusting
tool belt someplace - you're supposed to be the manager, not the janitor." "I have to fix
things," the Mole said, mildly. "Well, go ahead
and fix things. I'll go out tomorrow, get you some decent clothes." "Michelle . .
." "Don't you Michelle
me. I work my beautiful butt off to keep my kid in nice clothes, and every time
I see him he looks more like you, God forbid." "He's my boy
too." "Sure. Next
thing, you'll want him Bar Mitzvahed." The Mole said nothing
- even a lunatic knows the limit. I left them to fight over who was going to go
back to the junkyard every morning to check on the kid. Belle and Pansy were
in the back. Pansy was stretched out on the couch, Belle in the chair.
"You okay?" I asked her. "I'm fine,
baby." I gave her a kiss. Heard
the buzzer. Female noises, Michelle's voice cutting through the chatter. I
heard someone coming back, stepped outside into the big room. It was Michelle. "I have to have
a meeting with my girls. And take some pictures. It's gonna be a while -you
both just stay back here, keep it quiet." I nodded, putting my
finger to my lips. Pansy closed her eyes. A couple of minutes
later, I heard Michelle bossing the Mole, telling him where she wanted the
light stands, not to get his greasy hands on the lens. One day she was going to
push him over the edge. The room filled with
girls. Pansy's face wrinkled at the overpowering smells. Michelle's voice: "Okay, now, I
understand you ladies have not worked inside before. Which one of you is
Christina?" "Marques says
Miss Bitch don't have to do this. Just us." Murmur of voices. "Well, girls, it
seems to me that opportunity is knocking. Here's the way we work it: the trick
pays thirty bucks - he gets fifteen minutes. Straight massage, that's a
handshake. He wants something more, anything more, that's an extra, got
it? The trick pays at the front desk; whatever he tips, that's up to you." "How much for
the extras?" one girl asked. "You decide. Set
your own list. And don't do anything you don't want to do, got it? You turn over
your tips to Marques, you don't turn them over, it's not my problem." "But Marques . .
." "Marques isn't
running this show. I am. And I run it my way. Now, which one of you turns the
hard tricks?" "That's
me." A husky grown-woman's voice. "What's your name,
honey?" "Bambi." "Okay, Bambi.
You set your prices, you keep the coin. And listen to me, girl. This is a
no-risk gig, you follow me? There's a button in each of your rooms - I'll show
you where it is. You hit the button, and we have some nasty men to take care of
any problem." "The guy with
the tool belt?" one of them giggled. Michelle's voice went
from sweet cream to barbed wire without missing a beat. "That man with the
tool belt, honey, he makes people disappear. You watch your smart mouth,
bitch. Your idea of a hard guy's some half-ass nigger pimp with a coat hanger
in his hands." "Hey!" "You want to get
down, go for it. Right now." The room went quiet. Michelle let the
silence hang. Then she sheathed her claws. "Honey, I've been around longer
than this sweet young face shows. Now, I want to treat all of you like the
ladies you are. Nobody's going to mistreat you while you work for me. Nobody's
going to disrespect you. You work your shift, you mind your business, and you
make some nice money. We're just moving the stroll indoors for a couple of
weeks, that's all. But anyone gets the idea they can fuck with my friends, they
go back to work without a face." The room was quiet
again. "Okay?" The girls stepped on
themselves agreeing with her. "Fine. Now, the
next thing, we have to put together some portfolios for each of you." "Like
models?" "Of course,
like models. Isn't that what we are? Are we any different from those walking
sticks in the magazines? A john comes in, he comes to the desk. We show him the
book. Pictures of each of you. He picks the one he wants." "We don't have
to line up?" "This isn't the
precinct, honey. A trick wants to see live skin, he puts his money down. Now,
there's five girls, we got nine rooms. The first one, the one near the desk,
that's mine. Leave the last two empty, the ones right across from here. You
divide the rest the way you want - Bambi, you take the one furthest back. And
no fighting! Tomorrow I'll go out and get some decent furnishings. Okay? Now,
we are not open for business tonight. You come back, one at a time, we'll put
the portfolios together. When we're done, you can hang around or you can split.
Be back tomorrow. Four o'clock. We'll work twelve-hour shifts; you leave at
four in the morning. Any questions?" Nobody said a word. "One more thing.
This place is under heavy protection. You'll never see a cop in here. You play
this right, it's a working girl's dream." "What's your
name, honey?" Michelle asked. "Mary Anne." "Let's lose the
black stockings, honey. Your legs are already so nice and slim - the black
won't show them off." "Okay." "And just a
touch more rouge . . . there! Brings out your color. Now, sit straight in the
chair. Cross your legs. Elegant!" "Michelle?" "Yes,
honey?" "The guy with
the tool belt? The one out front? Boy, you were right about him. He had this
jar of water on the desk, fiddling with some locks. Marcy flashed her ass at
him, sat on the desk. Asked him if he ever sampled the merchandise. He drops a
key in the glass of water, and it disappeared! " "I told you not
to play with him." "I won't. Does
he ever . . ." "He's not for
hire," Michelle snapped. "Now, flash me a smile." Bambi was the last one
in. "Any special way
you want this?" Michelle asked her. "I've got my own
handcuffs. I can twist right out of them if I have to. Can I loop them around
the back of this chair?" "Sure, honey. Go
ahead. Bend forward. More. Give your butt a little shake. Beautiful." Sound of handcuffs
clicking. "You don't put me down for it?" "Why should
I?" "Some of the
other girls . . ." "You got a
pimp?" "No." "So who's the
masochist?" Bambi laughed. The girls were gone
by one in the morning. "You're next," she told Belle. I snapped the lead on
Pansy, taking her to the basement. The Mole followed me down, shining his
flash. "All fixed," he said. "Okay, Mole. We
roll tomorrow for real. Any way I can get Pansy down here without going past
the other rooms?" "Only to the
basement, not outside." "We'll do it
that way. Over in that corner," I said, pointing. "Watch where you
step from now on." We went back
upstairs. "Try the buzzer," I told him. He hit the switch. I counted
in my head. Thirty-five seconds, Morales burst through the door, gun in his
hand. "Which way?" he snapped. "Just testing
it," I said. "Next time make
it real. I'm looking forward to it." In the back room. Michelle
was still working on Belle's face. Cat's-eye makeup, pancaked cheeks, slash of
red across her mouth. It didn't look like her. "This is mousse - it'll
wash right out," said Michelle, spraying it over Belle's hair, working it
through with her fingers. "Let's see. You'll turn over your right
shoulder" - pancaking that side of her face. "Try it." Belle peeked over her
right shoulder. Her hair was dark, face a stranger's mask. "Okay, let's do
it." Belle unhooked her
bra, knelt before the chair, hands on either side. Michelle wrapped a black
scarf around each hand. "Slide further back to me," she said.
"Let them swing free. Turn your head . . . Not so much." She went over to
Belle, pulling the big girl's panties over her rump. Belle lifted a leg to help
her get them off. "Leave them that
way - like they've just been pulled down - it'll work better." Michelle went back to
the camera. "Okay, turn your head again. Just a little bit. Can you look a
little scared? Oh, forget it - I'll open the lens, blur your face. Nobody'd
look past that ass anyway." Belle giggled. Twin
dimples at the top of her butt, strip of black cloth around her thighs. The
shutter clicked. Again. She shook her butt at the camera. "Got it,"
Michelle said, then snapped off the lights, carried the camera out to the
front. The cigarette burned
my mouth. I ground the tip out in the ashtray. Belle was still on her knees,
watching me. "Make you think
of something good?" she asked, wiggling again. Then she saw my face.
"What's wrong, boney?" I walked over to her,
took the loops off her hands. She put her arms around my neck. I stood up,
hauling her to her feet. Reached behind me, pulled the panties back into place. "Go wash that
crap off your face." "You're mad at
me?" I held her against
me. "I'm not mad at you." "I'm sorry,
sweetheart. Truly sorry. I thought it would be a turn-on for you." "It made me sick
to look at it." Her teats against my
face. "I'm sorry . . . I'm sorry . . ." I squeezed her rear
with both hands. "Shut up," I said, quietly. The joint was open
and rolling the next afternoon. Michelle was there by eleven in the morning,
her arms full of bags. She and Belle worked like maniacs cleaning. The dump
even smelled clean when they were done. I stayed in the back
room. The Mole would buzz me if any Hispanic male came in, anyone that could
come within a half-mile of Ramуn. I checked the periscope a few times on the
little TV screen the Mole put on the desk. It worked perfectly. I spent my time checking
my tools. Supermarket shopping cart full of empty plastic one-liter bottles.
The kind street bums collect from garbage cans - turn them in for a nickel
apiece. I ran a few copies of the Daily News through a paper shredder.
Packed a half-dozen of the bottles with the paper. I filed the front sight off
the long-barreled .38. A couple of tiny slits with a razor blade and the barrel
fit deep into the mouth of a bottle of Coke. I felt an ugly smile inside me -
the real thing. I wrapped duct tape around the mouth of the bottle, sealing the
pistol barrel inside. Pointed it at the wall, holding the bottle in my left
hand. Pulled the trigger. It made a sound like snapping fingers. Plaster flew
off the wall. I lined up twelve
bullets. Mole specials - super-speed hot loads, mercury tips. Any one of them
would total whatever it hit. Six bullets went into the long-barreled .38,
another six into the two-inch revolver next to it. The guns were
ice-cold, brand-new. No serial numbers. A pair of the fragmentation grenades
sat on the desk, the blue handles winking at me. The Mole stashed a
new car for me every morning. All along the river, one block apart. We had four
cars now. I fingered the ignition key - it would work in all of them. A tattered khaki
raincoat hung on a hook. It would reach well past my knees. A long blond wig
was on top of the hook. Straight hair. A blue golf hat, wine-stained. An old
pair of white running shoes. Baggy black pants. Black sweatshirt with a hood.
Black gloves. A slap-on mustache. I clipped two nails
on my left hand at a sharp angle. A drop of Permabond under each one. I held
the razor-filed steel slivers in place against each nail, waiting for the
super-glue to dry. It only took a few minutes. I brushed my left hand against a
piece of paper. It fell into three pieces. I slid back the lid
on a flat metal box, looked at the colorless paste inside. I'd pass the razors
through the paste before I hit the street. Mortay had to get his hands on me to
kill me - one scratch, and I wouldn't go alone. Belle watched me
work, cat's-eye makeup on her face. Business boomed. Men
got buzzed in, looked through the book. Came and went. We cleaned up
Sunday's business at five in the morning. The Mole was wearing a black silk
shirt, red suspenders, cream-colored suit. Dark glasses on his face. Michelle
counted a wad of cash and credit-card slips. "You look like death,"
she told me. "Good," I
said. Monday, Bambi turned
her first hard trick. The Mole buzzed me - the video screen showed a
middle-aged white male, blobby face, light-colored sport coat. Not Ramуn. I
heard the slash of the belt, cutting through the sound-proofed walls. Later that night, one
of the tricks got off the wall. I don't know what he did. I heard Morales'
voice in the corridor. "How do you like it, motherfucker?" Metal
slamming into a face. I heard whining, Morales' voice cutting harsh through it.
"Whatever you want here, we got it, see? But we got different girls for
different stuff. You want hard stuff, you ask for Bambi, understand? Bambi." It got quiet after
that. He came Wedneday
evening. Seven o'clock. The buzzer sounded. Ramуn's face on the screen. I hit
the switch. The light would glow on the Mole's desk. "It's
time," I said to Belle. She was covered with
body makeup head to toe. Fishnet stockings, black spike heels, black panties.
She slipped into the red gown, belted it at her waist. A stranger - her face a
hard mask. I watched the screen.
Ramуn. Wearing a black leather bomber jacket, looking through the book. There
was no sound on the screen. "Monique!"
the Mole called. Belle walked past me
into the corridor. I held the sawed-off
shotgun in my left hand, the paint pistol with the phony silencer in my right.
Waiting. I heard them come
back. Belle's voice. "I get an extra hundred for hard stuff, honey." Ramуn's voice -
couldn't make out the words. The door to the last
room closed. I sucked air in
through my nose, filling my stomach. Let it out, expanding my chest. Stepped
into the corridor. I couldn't hear
through the door. The hook-and-eye lock was held in with paste. Every square
inch of the room was burning in my mind. I slipped the pistol into a side pocket,
cut deep enough to hold the silencer. Counted to five. I hit the door with my
shoulder, stepping inside, sweeping the scattergun corner to corner. Belle was
on the couch to my right, the red nightgown hiked over her hips Ramуn froze, a
thick leather belt dangling from his hand. The snout of the
scattergun froze his balls down to dots. His hands shot into the air, belt
still dangling. I stepped to him, the gun leveled at his gut. Five feet away. "Drop it.
Slow." "Hey, man . .
." "One more word,
I'll blow you all over the walls." The belt dropped from
his hand. His leather jacket
was hanging from a hook in the corner. I could see the shoulder rig inside. "Got any more
guns on you, Ramуn?" He shook his head no. "Take off your
clothes. Real, real slow. I want to see for myself." Belle's voice from
the side of the room. "Mister . . ." "Shut up,
bitch!" I snapped at her. Ramуn dropped his
pants. Black bikini briefs. Very macho. "Those too," I said.
"Watch your hands." He pulled off his
cowboy boots, one at a time, standing on one leg, never taking his eyes from
me. "Sit on the
couch," I said quietly. "Next to the cunt." He sat down. I
pulled the handcuffs off my belt, flipped them into Belle's lap. "Put them
on. One cuff on your wrist, one on his. Now!" Belle snapped the
cuff on Ramуn first, her hands shaking. Her left hand slid to the back of the
couch cushion. I took out the paint
pistol. Slowly, letting Ramуn get a good look. He didn't want one. "You know what
this is, shooter?" "I know what it
is." His voice shaking like Belle's hands. "You got two
choices. You live. Or you die. Pick one." "I want to live,
man." Thin, weak, soft voice. If he recognized me, he was keeping it to
himself. Holding that card. "Your pal
Mortay, he stepped in some shit, understand? Sally Lou's decided to take him
off the count." "But . . ." "That's the way
it plays. I got my money, I got to come back with a head. His head. One more
don't mean a thing to me. I'm gonna waste him. Tonight. You tell me what I want
to know, you take that fucking diamond out of your ear, and you make tracks.
Got it?" "Man, I don't
know where he lives!" "You're going to
meet him. Tonight. Where?" "He'll kill me." "Ramуn, he's a
dead man. I don't find him tonight, I find him some other time. But you don't
tell me what I want to know, he won't get a chance to kill you." "Man, I don't
know where he is. I'm serious!" "So am I,"
I said, leveling the pistol at Belle's chest. I pulled the trigger. Splat!
Belle slammed back against the couch, a red stain running between her breasts.
I aimed the gun at Ramуn - he never looked at Belle. The sound I made cocking
it was the loudest thing he ever heard. "Where?" "Under the New
York Times clock! Between Seventh and Eighth! On Forty-third! Don't!" "What
time?" "Ten-thirty!"
Piss flowed down his legs. "Who gets there
first?" "He does, man.
He always does . . ." Belle's left hand
flashed, plunging the hypo deep into his thigh, her thumb driving the plunger
home as I fired a paint ball into his face. "I . . ."
and he was out. Belle rammed the speed key home, unsnapping her cuff. I pulled
his free arm behind his back, locked the other cuff. Belle jumped off the
couch, rubbing her breasts. I kicked Ramуn onto the floor. "Go get the
Mole," I told her. Michelle and the Mole
stood on either side of me. Ramуn was in the corner, breathing deeply, out. "The joint is
closed," I told Michelle. "How many of the girls have
customers?" "Just Mary
Anne." "When he's finished,
let him out. Tell the glrls the show's over - the cops are going to hit in an
hour. Get them out the door. You have any trouble, you hit the buzzer, they'll
come from next door. Then take off yourself." She kissed me.
"Call as soon as it's over." "I will.'' She went out the
door. I knelt down, pulled Ramуn over my shoulder by one of his arms,
positioned his weight. "The basement," I said to the Mole. Fuck
McGowan and his deals - I wasn't going to leave a body around for the cops to
hang me with. He led the way. Pansy
met us at the bottom of the steps. "Speak!" I told her, tossed a slab
of steak through the air. She caught it on the fly. "Is the panel
truck ours?" "Yes." "I'm going to
throw this garbage in the back. That shot'll keep him out for hours. You get
stopped, it's not a murder beef. He won't testify." "Where should I
dump him?" "He's the
shooter, Mole. One of the Nazis." He nodded. "Take Pansy
too." "She won't . .
." "Yes, she will.
That last piece of meat I gave her was laced. She should be asleep by now. Keep
her with you - lock her up in one of the sheds. Leave water for her. I'll be
back in the junkyard sometime late tonight. Belle will get there before me.
Your piece is done." "The
basement?" "Eleven o'clock.
You can do it?" "Yes. Me and the
boy." "He's a good
boy, Mole. You should be proud." "You too." "Yeah. Look,
Mole. If I don't come back, do something for me. Tell Belle I love her." He nodded. "And Pansy, let
her loose. Let her run with your pack. Let her and Simba-witz make puppies." I dumped Ramуn's body
in the back of the panel truck. The Mole snapped a heavy padlock across the
back. I went back for
Pansy. I scooped her up in my arms, carried her to the truck. "Open the
front door," I told the Mole. "I don't want her to ride with garbage." I laid her gently
across the front seat. Kissed her snout. "See you soon, girl." The Mole wrapped his
stubby arms around me, squeezed hard. "Sei Gesund," he said.
Go with God. Michelle was pushing the
girls out the door when I slipped back upstairs. It sounded like sorority girls
saying goodbye for the summer. Belle was in the back
room, toweling herself off, the cat's-eye mask still on her face. "You were
perfect," I said, holding her close. "I was
scared." "I still am.
It's almost over. Get out of here. Take the Pontiac. Don't leave the office
until past midnight. I'll see you at the junkyard." "Where's
Pansy?" "She's with the
Mole. It's okay. Go." "What'd you do
with the freak?" "He's
gone." "But you're
working with the cops, right? They're right next door. He's not dead - why
don't you just leave him for them?" I cupped her chin,
making her watch my face. "I'm not working with the cops, Belle. A cop
sees me doing my work on the street tonight, I'm going down. McGowan, he can't
call off the whole fucking force. He wouldn't do it if he could. I'm not
leaving that freak around to tell his story." I felt a pulse in her
throat, just under her chin. Steady beat. "We're outlaws,
little girl. We can step over the line to the other side, but we're not welcome
there. We can't stay. The next cop I see, he'll be trying to stop me from
coming home." She nodded, knowing
it was the truth. "Burke, it's not even eight o'clock. You have until
ten-thirty. Let me wait here with you." "No." "I knew you'd
say that." "It's all right,
Belle. Smooth as silk. I'll meet this Mortay at ten-thirty, I'll be in one of
the cars by eleven. That's when the Ghost Van goes. I'll be with you soon . .
." "And you'll
never leave." "And I'll never
leave." I lit a smoke,
watching her dress. "Burke?" "You're going,
Belle." "I know. I will,
promise. Remember when you came back to me? After you met that man?" "Yeah." "I want you inside
me. To keep with me until I see you again. I want my smell on you when you kill
him." I carried two of the
suitcases out to the back. Tossed in the scattergun. Closed the trunk. I held
her next to me. "Belle . .
." "Don't you say
it! Whatever you're going to say, don't say it. Tell me tonight." I kissed her. There
was blood in my heart. When she drove away, I was alone. In the back room, I
put it all together. Cut two fingertips off the black gloves. Buried the
plastic bottle in the cart, pistol handle sticking up, wrapped in black tape. I
put on the black pants, the black sweatshirt. Worked the blond wig over my
hair, stuck on the mustache. The blue golf cap was a tight fit. The black pants
had cargo pockets - I put a grenade in each one. The two-inch pistol in my
belt. Pain plucked at me.
Fear. I climbed down into my center. Stayed there, feeling the calm. Mortay wanted what
was mine. If you can't stand to
read the weight, you don't climb on the scales. Ten o'clock. I pulled
on the gloves, ran the two razor-tipped nails through the poison paste. It was a struggle
getting the shopping cart down the stairs. Then I was in the
street. All my people safe behind me. Whatever happened. I reached down, deep
as I could go. Telling myself it would be over soon. I'd be Home Free. But I knew. Knew why
I was pushing a shopping cart filled with homicide through Times Square. No
home is free. I pushed my shopping
cart along, smoking a cigarette, mumbling to myself. The clock in the package
store on 43rd said ten-twenty. I
slowed my pace. Three kids came up the
street toward me, wearing matching red silk jackets. I watched their eyes,
praying they wouldn't think it was funny to tip over my cart. They went on by. I turned the corner.
Moving slow, checking doorways for bottles, picking one up, tossing it into my
cart. The Times clock was a
round light in the distance. I pushed the cart ahead of me, one hand on the
pistol. He was standing under
the clock. A long white vertical ribbon in the dark doorway. The clock said
ten-twenty-eight. I kept rolling. A hundred feet away.
Mortay saw me. A used-up bum, collecting empties. Fifty feet. I saw his
hands hanging loose in front of him. Head turning, scanning the street. Almost
home. I looked him full in
the face. Pushed my cart into his life. Felt the chill. His eyes flicked past
me, over my shoulder. I pulled the gun loose, snapped off a shot at his chest,
the bottle popping off the front of the pistol. A piece of his coat flew as he
spun to the side, moving right at me. I kicked the cart toward him, fired
again. The gun cracked alive. Missed. Mortay spun in his tracks,
shoulder-rolled against the wall. I leveled the gun. He took off, running the
other way. I jumped past the
cart and took off after him. Four shots left. Humans jumped off the sidewalk.
He wasn't used to running - all his speed was short-range. I was forty feet
behind him at the corner of 43rd and Eighth. Mortay
glanced west, gave it up, charged across 44th for the Playbill Bar. I was right behind him, the
long-barreled pistol looking for his back. He chopped through people, heading
for the side door. I fired another shot to clear the way, coming through. The
street was clogged. He couldn't lose me. A cop was on the
corner of Eighth and 46th. Mortay took him out
with one chop. I jumped over the body, holding the pistol high to clear the
street, locked on him. At 48th I was close enough. He felt it, dodging behind
cars, weaving through humans. He was running out of gas. When he turned . . . Construction site at
49th, high chain-link
fence. Mortay ripped his way over the top, white coat flying as I missed
another shot. Couldn't follow him.
I raced along Eighth until I found an opening, stepped through, gun up. I dropped about five
feet - they must have started the excavation. No lights. Street noises over my
head. Quiet. No sirens. I was safe there.
Scared to be safe. He couldn't come up on me without getting blown away. But if
he got out . . . It was like being
back in Biafra. Focus on the sounds, separate the jungle-noises from the
man-noises. Breathe shallow. Don't fight the fear. I heard him, moving
west, toward Ninth Avenue. Machine-gun thoughts ripping at me. Did he know how
to do this? Something moved -
flash of white in the night. I fired at the sound. The gun barked - the bullet
whined close to the ground, disappointed. I heard him move again. I got to my feet,
running right at the sounds he made, cracking off another shot. One left. Quiet now. I cocked
the pistol. Man-sounds to my right. "I'm still here,
pussy." Snake voice hissing out of the night. He wasn't in a hurry. I dropped to my
knees, crawling forward toward the voice. Another flash of white. I fired.
Another crack. Then a dry, audible click!
I pulled the trigger again. Notliing. I felt my guts lock.
"Fuck!" Letting him smell my fear, throwing the empty pistol as hard
as I could in the directlon of the noise. "My turn!"
he screamed, coming for me. I ran for my life,
pulling the little backup pistol from my belt. I dived for the ground, rolled
onto my back, pushed myself backward by driving my legs into the dirt. Making
panic sounds. Leaving a blood-spoor. Begging him to come
in my mind. He flew out of the
darkness in a twisting, spinning series of kick-thrusts, a ghost target if I had
a knife. I came to my knees, holding the pistol in both hands. He saw the gun,
threw himself flat, already tucking his shoulde'r under to kick upward when the
hollow-point slug caught him in the chest, pinning him to the ground. The noise from the
tiny gun was deafening; the dirt bowl we were in made it sound like a cannon.
The street noises all seemed to stop at once. I walked slowly toward Mortay. He
was choking on his own blood - the slug must have caught a lung. I stood over him,
legs shaking. His eyes were ice-pick dots under the shelf of bone, holding me
the way the slug held him. "You can't kill
me," he whispered. Stone-carved ice. "Death can't die." "You still want
Max?" I asked, cocking the gun. He launched himself
off the ground, the knife edge of his hand extended. I fired twice more,
blowing him off his feet. I heard a siren in
the distance. Mortay was on his side. I dropped to my knees next to him. Blood
bubbled from his mouth, killing his last words. I pumped two more shots into
his chest. His body jumped. I turned him over with my foot. His eyes were open.
I fired again, right into the ridge of bone that covered his eyebrows. His eyes
wouldn't close. The sirens were
closer. More than one now. I pocketed the gun, pulled the pin from one of the
grenades, holding it tightly in my hand. I slammed the metal ball hard into his
face, cracking past his teeth, holding it there. With my other hand, I folded
his hands so they were on either side of his face. I let go of the lever
and ran toward Ninth Avenue. Passed a white coat, swinging gently from a steel
girder. The target Mortay had left while he moved in on me. I was almost to the
fence on 50th when I heard the
explosion. I hit the fence, sirens screaming to my right. Dropped over the top,
feeling the breath burst out of my lungs. I popped the pin on the last grenade,
side-armed it back over the fence, crouching in the dark. The sirens shrieked
at each other - wolfpack sounds, telling each other the prey was dangerous. The
grenade exploded, buying me a little time. I ran up 50th, the pistol in my hand, driving my knees up to my
chest, trying for a burst of speed that wouldn't come. I crossed Ninth, heading
for the river, still blocks away from any of the cars we had stashed. Tires
shrieked behind me. Cops? I dropped to one knee, leveling the gun. Back over
the line - me or them. Belle's Camaro smoked to a stop. "Come on,
brother!" The Prof. I ran for the car,
diving headfirst into the window. Belle stomped the gas, charging for the
river. She shot through red lights, standing on the brakes to make the car
squat at Twelfth, nailed it again, power-sliding around the corner. She pulled
off at 45th, right behind the
black Cadillac the Mole had left for me. I jumped out, scooping up the Prof.
His legs were still bolted together in casts, the scattergun steady in his
hands. I unlocked the door, threw him in the back. Blue lights flashed
on 45th, couple of blocks
away and moving in. I started the engine.
Looked over my shoulder. Where was she? "Belle! Let's go!" I yelled
at her. The Camaro's engine
roared an answer as she peeled out. Right up 45th. The blue lights came
closer. A phalanx of squad cars screaming down the block, at least three deep,
spread out to block the way. I wheeled the Cadillac across the highway after
her. The Camaro's taillights blazed - she was flying at the cop cars. Head on.
I heard her little-girl voice, singing hard-edged in my head. Calling to the
cops. "Come on!" The Camaro was a red
rocket. "Hit the brakes!
She ain't gonna stop," the Prof yelled. The Camaro shot right down the
middle of the street, going the wrong way. The police car in the lead charged
to meet her. Time stopped. The
squad car swerved at the last second. Too late. It fireballed against a row of
cars on the left as the Camaro shot past. Gunfire cut through the siren's song,
a roadblock of wreckage in its wake. "They'll never
catch that girl," the Prof whispered. A prayer. I threw a U-turn and
headed for the junkyard. On the West Side
Highway I tried to light a cigarette. My hands wouldn't work. "I can light one
for you, bro', but I can't drive the car." I straightened the
wheel. Reached for the smoke he handed me. "What
happened?" "Girl walks in my
hospital room, shotgun in her hand. Comes right in my room. 'What's this?' the
doc asks her. 'Jailbreak,' she says. Throws me over one shoulder like a sack of
cement, carries me down in the elevator, walks right out the front door. Puts
me in that red car. 'Burke needs us,' that's all she said." Nothing in the
rearview mirror. "She knew I
needed it too," the Prof said, hands on the scattergun. "He took
something from me. She was giving me a chance to get it back. Said you were
going to take out that motherfucker - our job was the cops." I dragged on the
cigarette, seeing the fireball. The Prof read my
thoughts. "Ain't nothing God or the devil put on this earth gonna catch
Belle, brother. She's coming home." I wheeled the Caddy
into the junkyard. The gate swung open. Terry jumped in, steered us through. "Belle?" I
asked him. "Not yet,"
the kid said, his mouth hard. The Mole was waiting.
"Where's Ramуn?" I asked him. He pointed at the
wolf pack. Fighting over what was left. I lit a smoke.
Carried the Prof out of the Caddy, put him on top of an oil drum. I stood with
my people. "Mortay's
dead." "You make
sure?" the Prof asked. "They'll need a
microscope for the autopsy. It's over. You blow the basement?" I asked the
Mole. "You didn't hear
it?" Terry said. "No." "It'll be on the
news," the Mole said. I looked at the Prof.
"She was well away. They weren't looking for her. Why didn't she just
run?" His eyes shone in the
fire. "Why didn't you?" I couldn't answer
him. Fists clenched so tight my arms ached. The little man
dragged on his smoke. "Her dice, brother. Hers to hold, hers to
roll." Tortured rubber
screamed on concrete. "Belle. The back
way!" the kid shouted, taking off. We ran to the fence. The Camaro shot
through, skidding past us. It stopped where the Prof was sitting. Belle didn't
get out. I ran back to her.
Bullet holes stitched the driver's door. I wrenched it open. Belle fell into my
arms. The Mole reached past me, unsnapped the seat belt. I carried her to the
bunker. "Don't talk," I said, lowering her to the ground. Her gray sweatshirt
was one big dark stain. The Mole cut it away. She was torn to pieces, the blue
necklace around her neck. "Get the medical kit," he said to Terry. I bent close to her.
"Hold on, Belle. You'll be okay in just a minute." Her eyes were closed.
They flicked open. "Burke?" "You're home
now, Belle. It's all right." Her voice was soft.
"My race is run, honey. I'm done." "Shut up! Save
your strength." "Tell me." "I love you,
Belle." "I'll be waiting
for you," she said. Her eyes closed. The Mole shouldered me out of the
way, plunged a needle into her chest, his fingers at her neck. I was on my
knees, watching him work, begging in my mind. He turned to me.
"She's gone." They left me alone
with her then. I couldn't hold it in
me - screaming curses at the night. The dogs went quiet. I lay down next to
her, wrapping her in my arms. Tears on blood. The sky was getting
light when they came back. The Mole. Terry. The Prof, riding a wheelchair. I stood next to the
little man, my hand on his shoulder. Felt his hand on mine. "Pull it together,
brother. The way she'd want it. She's with the Lord now. And He's one lucky son
of a bitch." The Mole covered her
with a prayer rug. I gripped my
brother's hand, and said goodbye to my Blue Belle. BLUE BELLE Andrew Vachss FOR
ABE, WHO I NEVER MET BUT
HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN. AND
FOR NATHAN, WHO I KNEW. TWO
PIECES OF THE ROOT. WATCHING
ME FROM SOMEPLACE ABOVE
THE JUNKYARD.
Spring comes hard
down here. The switchman was in
the lotus position - serenely posed on an army blanket he had neatly folded
into quarters before he assembled his tools and took up his post for the day. A
black man with glowing bronze skin, hair falling straight and glossy down
either side of his head like a helmet, framing a face that was mostly skull. He held a thick pad
of graph paper open on his lap, carefully filling a page with finely shaded
symbols - a covert calligraphy all his own. He didn't bother to hide his work
from passing citizens. His half-smile said it all - the simple slugs thought
him insane; they could never understand the difference between the messenger
and the message. A pale-blue quilt
covered his shoulders. He placed three identical blue china bowls on the
blanket around him. To his right, the bowl sported a generous supply of
fine-point felt-tip pens in different colors. The bowl on his left held a heavy
Zippo cigarette lighter and some loose cigarettes - various brands. Directly in
front was a bowl with some coins, encouraging the passing citizens to make a
contribution to his mystical cause. He had long tapering
fingers, clean and smooth, the nails manicured and covered with clear polish. I
got a good look at his hands yesterday when I stopped to look over his shoulder
and watch him work. He filled a quarter of the page with symbols, never using
the same one twice, working in five separate colors, not acknowledging my
presence. I helped myself to one of his cigarettes, lit it with his lighter. He
never moved. I tossed some coins into his china bowl and moved on, smoking his
cigarette. It tasted like it was about my age. I didn't need the
polished nails to tell me he was the switchman. The neighborhood is full of
halfway houses for discharged mental patient - they disgorge their cargo into
the streets each morning, but this guy wasn't part of that herd. He wasn't
talking to himself and he hadn't tried to tell me his story. And he didn't look
afraid. The little piece of
winter chill still hanging around in April didn't seem to bother him. He worked
the same post every day - starting around eleven in the morning and staying on
the job until about three. The switchman had a choice spot, always setting up
his shop at the edge of a tiny triangle of dirt on West Broadway, between Reade
and Chambers. The slab of dirt had a couple of broken backless benches and a
runty tree that had been bonsai’ed by years of attention from pigeons, dogs,
squirrels and winos. An alley without walls. Down in this part of the city,
they call it a park. At eleven, he would
still be in shadow, but the sun would make its move from the East River over to
the Hudson past noon, and things would warm up. The switch-man never took the
quilt from his shoulders. His patch of dirt was
a border town: Wall Street was expanding its way up from the tip of Manhattan,
on a collision course with the loft-dwelling yuppies from SoHo. Every square
inch of space was worth something to somebody - and more to somebody else a few
months later. The small factories were all being converted into coops. Even the
river was disappearing as land-greed took builders farther and farther
offshore; Battery Park City was spreading its branches into the void left when
they tore down the overpass for the West Side Highway. Riverfront joints
surrendered to nouvelle-cuisine bistros. The electronics stores that would sell
you what you needed to build your own ham radio or tap your neighbor's phone
gave way to sushi bars. Antique shops and storefront-sized art galleries shouldered
in next to places that would sell you some vitamins or rent you a videotape. People have always
lived down here. The neighborhood used to be a goddamned art colony – it
produced more pottery than the whole Navajo nation. The hippies and the artists
thought the winos added just the right touch of realism to their lives. But the
new occupants are the kind who get preorgasmic when you whisper
"investment banking," and they didn't much care for local color.
Locksmiths were riding the crest of a growth industry. The Superior Hotel
entrance was around the corner on Chambers Street, with rooms extending all
along West Broadway. Mine was on the top floor, facing out over the park.
Seventy-five bucks a week bought me a swaybacked single bed on an iron frame, a
ratty old easy chair worn down to the cotton padding on the arms, and a metal
closet standing against the wall. The room was painted in some neutral-colored
stuff that was about half disinfectant. A heavy length of vinyl-wrapped chain
stood against the wall, anchored at one end to U-bolts driven into the floor.
The other end stood open, padlocked to nothing, waiting patiently. I hadn't
gone for the optional TV at only two bucks a day. Someone who had never
lived in one might say the room looked like a prison cell. It didn't come
close. Almost one in the
afternoon. Into my third hour of watching, I shifted position in the chair,
scanning the street with the wide-angle binoculars, watching the human traffic
flow around the switchman. A young woman strolled by with her boyfriend. Her
hair was dyed four different colors, standing up in stiff spikes, stabbing the
air every time she moved her head. Her hand was in the back pocket of her
boyfriend's jeans. He looked straight ahead, not saying a word. A biker rolled
up to a tobacco-colored Mercedes parked at the corner. The car's window slid
down and the biker put his head and hands inside. He wasn't there long. The
Mercedes and the biker went their separate ways. A young woman about the same
age as the one with the spiked hair tapped her business-length heel impatiently
on the curb, holding a leather briefcase that doubled as a purse, wearing a
pinstriped skirt and jacket over a white blouse with a dark-red bow for a tie.
Winos stretched out in the sun, sprawled across the benches - passengers on a
cruise ship in permanent drydock. A diesel dyke cruised into view, her arm
braced around the neck of a slender, longhaired girl, her bicep flexed to
display a bold tattoo. I was too far away to read it, but I knew what it said:
hard to the core. Still no sign of the
target. I had followed him for three weeks straight, charting every step of his
lunchtime route. The calligrapher on the blanket had to be the switchman - it
was the only stop the target always made. I rotated my head gently on the
column of my neck, working out the stiffness, keeping my eyes on the street.
Invisible inside the shadows of my room, I lit another cigarette, cupping the
wooden match to hide the flare, and went back to waiting. It's what I do best. 2 I was working in a
dead-end hotel, but I'd gotten the job in the back seat of a limousine. The customer
was a Wall Street lawyer. He dressed the part to perfection, but he didn't have
enough mileage on his clock to make it seem like sitting in a
hundred-thousand-dollar taxi was an everyday thing for him. "It took quite a
while for you to get back to me, Mr. Burke," he said, trying for a tone
that would tell me he wasn't a man used to waiting for what he wanted. "I
reached out for you yesterday morning." I didn't say
anything. I'm not in the phone book. You have to have a phone of your own to
qualify for that. The lawyer had called one of the pay phones in the back of
Mama Wong's restaurant. Mama always answers the same way: "Mr. Burke not
here, okay? You leave message, okay?" If the caller says anything else,
asks more question - whatever - Mama just runs through the same cycle. She says
it enough times, the caller gets the message: If it's not okay with you,
it's too fucking bad. The lawyer tried
another ice-breaker. "My firm has a problem, Mr. Burke, and I was told you
might be the ideal individual to assist us." I shrugged my
shoulders slightly, telling him to get on with it. He wasn't in a hurry -that's
the problem with paying guys by the hour. "Is there any
particular reason why we had to meet out here?" he wanted to know,
gesturing toward the Hudson River with an impatient sweep of his hand. He had a
nice watch. Pretty cuff links. "Who gave you my
number?" I asked, stepping on his question. The lawyer swallowed
his annoyance, reminding himself he wasn't speaking with an equal. Time to put
me in my place. "Do I have to say anything more than 'Mr. C.'?" he
asked, smiling. "Yes," I
said. He looked honestly
puzzled. Since he was a lawyer, only part of that could be accurate. "I
thought that would be enough. I was given to understand that a recommendation
from Mr. C. would be all that you would require." "Give the
understanding back, pal. And tell me who gave you my number." "I told
you." "You saying Mr.
C. spoke to you?" I asked him, watching his face. "The number came
from him," he said, answering questions the way a lawyer does. "Have a nice
day," I said, reaching behind me for the door handle. "Wait a
minute!" he snapped, putting his hand on my sleeve. "You don't want
to do that," I told him. He jerked his hand
away, sliding into his speech. "I can explain whatever is necessary, Mr.
Burke. Please don't be impatient." He shifted position on the soft gray
leather seat, pushed a button, and watched proudly as the padded wall between
us and the driver opened to reveal a well-stocked bar. "Can I get you a drinj?" "No," I
told him, taking a single cigarette from my jacket. I put it in my mouth,
reached the same hand back inside for a match. I kept the other hand in my
pocket, where it had been since I climbed in the limo. The gesture was wasted
on him. "Would you mind
opening the window if you're going to smoke? . . . I’m allergic." I pushed the switch
and the window whispered down, letting in the traffic noise from the West Side
Highway. We were parked in the pocket between Vestry Street and where the highway
forks near 14th. Cars went by, but not people. The limo had picked me up on
Wall Street; I told the lawyer where I wanted to go, and he told the driver. I lit the cigarette,
inhaled deeply, watching the lawyer. "Those things
will kill you," he said. A concerned citizen. "No, they
won't," I promised. He shrugged, using
the gesture to say that some people are beyond educating. He was right, but not
about me. He tried one more time. "Mr. C. is a client of our firm. In the
course of discussing . . . uh . . . other matters, he indicated that you might
be better suited to our immediate purposes than a more . . . traditional
private investigator." He glanced at my face, waiting for a reaction. When
he realized he'd have a long time to wait, he shifted gears and rolled ahead.
"Mr. C. gave us certain . . . uh . . . assurances concerning your
sense of discretion, Mr. Burke." His tone of voice made it into a
question. I drew on my
cigarette. The breeze from the open window at my back pushed the smoke toward
his allergic face. The lawyer slid a
leather portfolio onto his lap, deftly opened it into a mini-desk, tapped a
yellow legal pad with the tip of a gold ballpoint to get my attention.
"Why don't I write a figure down, Mr. Burke. You take a quick look, tell
me if you're interested." Without waiting for an answer, he slowly wrote
"10,000" in large numbers. Reverently, like he was engraving a stone
tablet. He raised his eyebrows in another question. "For what?"
I asked him. "Our firm has a
. . . uh . . . confidentiality problem, Mr. Burke. We occupy a rather
unique position, interfacing, as we say, between the business, financial, and
legal arenas. Necessarily, information crosses our desk, so to speak.
Information that has a short but exceedingly valuable life. Are you following
me?" I nodded, but the
lawyer wasn't going to take my word for it. "You're certain?" "Yeah," I
replied, bored with this. Yuppies didn't invent insider trading - information
is always worth something to somebody. I was scamming along the tightrope
between prison and the emergency ward while this guy was still kissing ass to
get into law school. The lawyer stroked
his chin. Another gesture. Telling me he was making a decision. The decision
never had been his to make, and we both knew it. "Somebody in our
firm has been . . . profiting from information. Information that has come to us
in our fiduciary capacity. Are you following me?" I just nodded,
waiting. "We know who
this person is. And we've retained the very best professionals to look into the
matter for us. Specialists in industrial espionage. People who are capable of
checking things we wouldn't want to use a subpoena for. Still with me?" "Sure." "We know who it
is, like I said. But we have been unable to establish a case against him. We don't
know how he moves the information. And we don't know to whom he passes
it." "You checked his
bank accounts, opened his mail, tapped his phones . . . all that, right?" Now it was the
lawyer's turn to nod, moving his head a reluctant two inches. "Telegrams,
visitors to the office, carrier pigeons . . . ?" He nodded again,
unsmiling. "How much time
would he have between getting the information and making use of it?" "Ah, you do
understand, Mr. Burke. That's exactly the problem. We deal with extremely sensitive
issues. Nothing on paper. In a normal insider-trading situation, a profiteer
would have a minimum of several days to make his move. But in our situation, he
would have to act within a few hours - no longer than close of business on the
same day the information comes in." "And you've had
him under surveillance every day for a while?" He nodded. "Drawing a
blank?" He nodded again. "You call in the
federales?" "That wouldn't
be our chosen scenario for this situation. The firm itself has its own interests,
as well as the obligation to protect our clients. Perhaps you don't understand
some of the complexities of our profession. . ." I gave him the
closest thing to a smile I ever give citizens. I'd never heard the laundry
business called a profession before. "Why doh't you
just fire him?" "We can't do
that. He's a very well connected young man. Besides, our clients will demand
some actual proof of his guilt before taking any action. They were very
insistent on that, for some reason." Sure. The "clients"
wanted to make damn sure the problem was going to get solved for good. The only
time humans like that are interested in the truth is when a mistake will cost
them money. "What do you
want from me?" "We want you to
find out how this individual gets the information out. And we want proof.
Something we can show our clients." "And the only
time he could possibly pass this along is during business hours?" "Yes. Without
question. After that . . . it wouldn't be of value to him or anyone else." I lit another cigarette,
thinking it through. It sounded like they had the wrong guy. Maybe the
"clients" were setting them up. Maybe this lawyer was the one doing
the stealing. It wasn't my problem. Money was. Always is. "The only time I
could watch him would be when he leaves the building, right?" "Yes. Inside the
building, he's completely covered." "A grand a day.
Until I find out how he does it or you call me off. Another ten if I get the
proof for you." "Mr. Burke, with
all due respect, that's triple the rate charged by the finest security firms.
And you'll only be working a couple of hours each day." "In cash. In
front. Nothing bigger than fifties. No consecutive serial numbers. No new
bills," I told him. "You know how it's done." The lawyer looked at
me, watching my face for the first time since I'd climbed into the limo.
"What makes you worth so much?" "Ask Mr.
C.," I suggested. He dropped his eyes.
"We won't need you every day. Just those days when something comes in.
We'll call as soon as . . ." "No." "I don't understand." "I need to work
this guy every day, okay? I need to
know him. I need to know when he's changed his pattern. You don't need
to call me when the information comes in. I watch this guy long enough, I'll
know." "That could take
weeks . . ." I nodded agreement.
"Maybe longer. Who knows? I probably won't get him the first time he moves
anyway. Depends on when you get something for him to trade." "And you may not
get him at all?" "And I may not
get him at all." The lawyer pretended
to think it over. Maybe he was better at pretending to be honest. "We need
to get started on this. This is Friday; could you be on the job Monday?" "Sure." "All right, Mr.
Burke. I am prepared to pay you one thousand dollars in cash right now. For
Monday's work. In advance, as you requested. We will meet each evening - you'll
give me your report and we will decide if you are to continue." I just shook my head.
Why they sent this fool to do business with me was a mystery: he was a pin-striped
shark, but he couldn't bite people who never went near the water. "You have
another suggestion?" "Yeah, pal.
Here's my suggestion. You hand me twenty thousand dollars, like we agreed.
Okay? That buys you twenty days, unless I pull it off quicker. I pull it off before
ten days, you get a refund. Nothing jumps off in twenty days, we meet and see
what you want to do. Got it?" "That's
outrageous," the lawyer said, his face a halfstep out of sync with his
words. "You expect me to just . . ." "I'm tired of
this. I'm tired of you. If Mr. C. really sent you out here to do business,
you've got at least twenty large in that pretty briefcase of yours. And if
you're a fucking little errand boy, go back and tell your boss that he sent the
wrong messenger." He sat there,
staring. I lit another cigarette. "When this smoke is finished, so am
I," I told him, waiting. The lawyer tried to
smile. "I'm no errand boy," he said, holding his head stiff. He
opened another compartment in the briefcase. The money was neatly stacked, a
paper baid around the fifty-dollar bills. He counted off twenty little 'tacks,
tossing them contemptuously on the broad seat between us, making sure I could
see there was plenty left in the briefcase. Telling me they would
have paid more. That he had the last laugh. "Can I drop you
someplace?" he smirked. I threw an empty pack
of cigarettes back over my shoulder, out the window. "Thanks anyway,"
I told the lawyer, shoving the cash into different pockets of my coat,
"I'll call a cab." A battered gypsy cab
rolled up next to the limo. The rusty old hulk was so filthy you couldn't even
see through the windows. The lawyer's mouth dropped open. I nodded to him,
backed out of the limo and into the gypsy. The driver dropped the hammer, and
we moved out in a cloud of black smoke. I spotted the insider
when he was still a half-block away. Watching him for days
tuned me in - l could pick him up in a crowd just by the way he moved. Heading
for the switchman, like always. I zoomed the binoculars in on the switchman's
hands. He was still working on his charts, face bent over in concentration.
When the insider got close, I focused in on the three bowls, flicking past the
one that held the pens to the second one - the one with the cigarettes. I
locked into the last bowl in the triangle - the one with the coins. There was
nothing else in my vision. I breathed gently through my nose, my elbows pressed
into my chest. Silver dropped into
the switchman's bowl. Some coins. And a flat-folded piece of aluminum foil. I
reached one hand up to the window shade and pulled it straight down. I dropped
to the floor and raised the shade an inch at the bottom, so I could peek out
without the binoculars. A kid in a striped
T-shirt shot around the corner on a skateboard. He lost control and spun out;
the skateboard took off by itself and crashed into a parked car. The kid was
ready for the crash: gloves on his hands, thick pads covering his elbows and
knees. His head was hidden under a white plastic mask - the kind hockey goalies
wear. He shook himself off, dazed. Then he charged right
at the switchman, snatched the coin bowl in both hands, and flew up the block,
the bowl tight against his chest. The switchman started to come off his blanket
when one of the winos stumbled into him from behind. The wino's long floppy
raincoat blocked most of my view, but I could see the switchman whip an elbow
into his chest, knocking him backward. The wino grabbed at the switchman to
break his fall; they fell to the ground together. The switchman wrenched
himself loose, stopping for a second to kick the helpless wino in the chest. When he turned
around, the kid was gone. I saw the gypsy cab pull away, heading for the river. The switchman did a
full circle, knowing he was too late. The wino crawled away, his hands wrapped
around his ribs. The switchman pulled the corners of his blanket together, held
it in two hands, and spun it around a couple of times to form a sack. Re threw
the sack over his shoulder and ducked into the subway. It took me less than
a minute to throw everything I had with me into the battered suitcase and head
out the door. I went out the side
door on Chambers, and walked back through the park. The street was the way it
was before the crash. Even the kid's skateboard was gone. My Plymouth was
parked on West Street, near one of the construction sites. The guy who built it
years ago was trying to create the ultimate New York taxicab, but he died before
he got it done. I threw my suitcase in the trunk and started the engine. The
two-and-a-half-ton dull gray machine started right up, the way it always does.
I hit the switch and my window slid down. Lit a cigarette and pulled away,
heading for the pier. I was there tirst. I
backed in until the bumper tapped the base of the pier, shoved a Judy Henske
tape into the slot, listened to "If That Isn't Love" for the
thousandth time. Waiting again. If Linda Ronstadt is a torch singer, Henske's a
flame thrower. A couple of guys
walked by, hand in hand, talking just to each other. An overmuscled beach boy
posed against a burned-out abandoned car. A black man was adding a few touches
to an oil painting of the riverfront. A man with a teenager's body cruised the
scene on roller skates, wearing mirror sunglasses to hide the truth. The whores
don't work this pier. Some zoning regulation the City Council would never
understand reserved it for gays. Nobody came near the
Plymouth. I was into my third smoke, and Henske was breaking chops with both
hands on "Good Old Wagon" by the time the gypsy cab pulled in at an
angle next to me, its nose aimed at the Plymouth's trunk. The kid jumped out
first, the goalie's mask gone, his baby face glowing with pride. "Hey,
Burke!" "Keep it
down," I told him, climbing out of the car. "Did you see it?
It went perfect!" He was bouncing up and down like he just hit a home run
in Little League. Snatching money off the street was as close as Terry would
ever get. The Mole slowly
emerged from the darkness of the gypsy cab. He was wearing a greasy pair of
coveralls, a heavy tool belt around his waist, with another strap running over
his shoulder. Something glinted off his Coke-bottle lenses - I couldn't tell if
it was the sun. He walked into the shadow where our two cars touched and
squatted on the ground, fumbling in his leather satchel. Terry hunkered down
beside him, his hand on the Mole's shoulder, trying to peer inside the satchel.
The Mole's pasty-white hands with their stubby fingers looked too awkward to
open the clasp, but he had a touch like a brain surgeon. He pulled out the foil
disk and dropped it in my palm, looking up at me with a question. "Let's
see," I told him, unwrapping it carefully. In a neat, almost
prim hanchriting were the words "Maltrom, Ltd." Nothing else. I
didn't need anything else. "Nice work,
Mole," I told him. The Mole grunted. "You drop Max
off?" He grunted again. Max
the Silent didn't get his name because he moved so quietly. A Mongolian
free-lance warrior who never spoke, Max made his living as a courier, moving
things around the city for a price. His collateral was his life. He was as
reliable as cancer, and not nearly as safe to play with. The wino who stumbled
into the switchman had been Max. He'd taken the kicks to the ribs, even though
he could have snapped the switchman like a matchstick. A professional. The Mole was still
hunkered down in the shadows. The kid was next to him. Waiting quietly now,
like he'd been taught. "I got about an
hour," I told the Mole. His face moved - the
Mole's idea of a smile. "You don't want to call your broker first?" I don't have a
broker. I don't get mail and I don't have a phone. Maybe it's true that you
can't beat them - you don't have to join them either. "I have to see
Michelle," the kid piped up. I caught the Mole's
eye, nodded okay. "Give her my
share," he said. I wheeled the
Plymouth across the highway and started to work my way through the back streets
of SoHo. Carefully, like I do everything. Lily runs a special
joint that works with abused kids. They do individual and group therapy, and
they teach self-defense. Maybe it's all the same thing. Max's woman works there.
Immaculata. It wasn't so long ago that she tried to stop three punks from
attacking what she thought was an old man on the subway. The old man was Max.
He went through the punks like a chain saw through Kleenex, left them broken
and bleeding on the subway floor, and held out his hand to the woman who stood
up for him. Their baby was born a few months ago - two warriors' blood in her
veins. Terry watched me
without turning his head, working on what we'd been teaching him. But he was
doing it for practice - he wasn't scared anymore. The first time I took him
away in a car, he was a rental from a pimp. We were working a deep con, looking
for a picture of another kid. We picked up Michelle on the street so she could
watch Terry while we got ready to deal with his pimp. I lit a cigarette,
thinking back to that night. "Want one?" I asked him. "Michelle
doesn't want me to smoke." "I won't tell
her." The kid knew better
than to use the dashboard lighter in the Plymouth. I snapped a wooden match
into life, held it across to him. He took a deep drag. We had a deal. I watched him scan
the passing streets with his eyes, not moving his head. I was in Biafra
during the war. It got bad near the end. Staying alive was all there was. No
food, landlocked, soldiers pinching all four corners, planes spitting death -
low enough in the sky to hit with a rifle. If you had a rifle. Too many ways to
die. Some screamed, some ran. Nohody won. I saw kids lying like litter all
through the jungle, their faces already dead, waiting. I had a 9mm pistol with
three bullets left in the clip, half a pack of cigarettes, a pocketful of
diamonds, and almost a hundred grand in Swiss francs. I left a sack of Biafran
pounds back in the jungle. About a million face value, if Biafra won the war. It
wasn't going to; and carrying a sack of money from a defeated country while
you're running for your life is what they mean by "dead weight." I
didn't even bury it - I wasn't coming back. Another big score gone to dirt. The
gunfire stopped, and the jungle got dead quiet. Waiting. A young woman ran past
me on my right, wearing only a pair of tattered men's shorts way too big for
her, every breath a moan. I heard a grunting sound and hit the ground, the
pistol up in front of me. A wounded soldier? If he had a rifle, maybe I could
trade up. It was a little boy, about three years old, a tiny head on a stick
body, his belly swollen, naked. Alone. Past being scared. The woman never broke
stride; she scooped the baby up on the run, shoving him up toward her slender
neck, holding him with one hand. If she made it, the baby would have a new
mother. That's what Michelle
did with Terry. I parked a couple of blocks
away. Terry and I walked over to Lily's, not talking. The black guy at the
front desk was reading a thick book through horn-rimmed glasses. "Hey,
Terry!" "Hey.
Sidney!" the kid greeted him. "Sidney's going to law school," he
told me. Somehow I didn't
think Sidney would end up making deals with guys like me in the back of limos.
"Is this your father?" he asked Terry. "The one who teaches you
all that electronic stuff?" That cracked the kid
up. "Burke?" It was the Mole's thought, but the laugh was Michelle's.
It's not just chromosomes that make blood. Sidney waved us past.
We walked down a long corridor to the back offices. The right-hand wall was all
glass. On the other side, groups of kids were running, jumping, screaming their
lungs out. Everything from disciplined martial-arts classes in one corner to
some crazy game with kids taking turns trying to dive over a mound of pillows.
Business as usual. Immaculata burst out
of one of the back offices, her long glossy hair flying behind her, a clipboard
in one hand. "Lily!" she
yelled out. "We're all back
here," echoed a voice. Immaculata saw us and
spun in a graceful arc, her long nails flowing together as she pyramided her
hands at the waist. She bowed gently to us. "Burke.
Terry." "Mac." I
bowed back. Terry tried to bow
too, but he was too excited to get it right. "Is Max here?" "Max is working,
honey." "But is he
coming? Maybe later?" Immaculata's smile
ignited the highlights in her eyes. "Who knows?" "Max is the
strongest man in the world!" the kid said, not inviting a dispute. Immaculata bowed
again. "Is strength so important? Do you remember what you have been
taught?" "Yes. Strength
of character. Strength of spirit." "Very
good," the beautiful woman proclaimed, bending at the waist to give Terry
a kiss. "And so . . . is Michelle strong?" "She's so
brave." "And the
Mole?" "Michelle says
he's the smartest man on the earth. That's what she says." "And
Burke?" The kid looked
doubtful, waiting. "Burke is not strong like Max?" The kid shook his
head. "Or brave like
Michelle? Smart like the Mole?" "No . . ."
Terry said, reaching for it. "So how does he
survive?" The kid knew all
about survival. "He has strength too, right?" "Right!"
said Immaculata, giving him another kiss. The kid was in
heaven. Maybe he'd never see the inside of a prep school unless he went along
on a burglary, but how many kids get to work a major-league scam, hang out with
a lunatic, and get kissed by a lovely lady all on the same day? "Come on,"
said Immaculata, reaching out her hand. I followed them down the hall to Lily's
office. Lily was seated at
the screen of her so-called computer, playing some electronic game with the
keyboard, a baby on her lap, balanced between her elbows. She was wearmg a
painter's smock over pink jeans; her hair was tied back. Her scrubbed face
looked like a teenager's, animated with attention as she bounced the baby on
her lap in time with a man running through a maze on the screen Michelle sat on
the desk, her flashy legs crossed, smoking a cigarette in a red lacquer holder.
Her outfit was all black-and-white triangles. Even her nail polish was black.
On a straight lady, it would have looked Whorish. On Michelle, it was fashion. "Mom!"
Terry yelled, charging over to her. "Michelle pulled
him close, hugging him, looking over his shoulder. "You spend a few
minutes with Burke and you leave your manners in the street?" Terry gave her a
kiss, smiling, knowing she wasn't mad at him. "I greeted Immaculata,"
he said. ''And . . ." The kid turned to
Lily. "Hello, Lily." "Hi,
Terry!" "Hello,
baby," he said to the infant on her lap. "Baby has a name,"
Immaculata reminded him gently. "Hello, Flower," the kid said, taking
her tiny hand and kissing it. Immaculata clapped.
"See! He learns his good manners from Burke." Michelle laughed.
"He'd be the first." "Can I hold
Flower?" Terry asked Mac. "As I showed
you," she warned him. Every female eye in the room was riveted on the kid,
but he tucked the baby into the crook of his arm, sat down next to Michelle,
and started cooing to Flower like he'd been doing it all his life. Like nobody
ever did to him. I gave Miclielle the
high sign. She tousled Terry's hair and slid off the desk. We left them in the
office and walked down the hall, looking for an empty room. We ducked into a
cubicle a few doors down. I didn't have much time. The Mole and I just
did some work. He said for you to hold his share." I handed her the
cash. She snapped open her purse, divided the money into two piles, stowed it
away. "A little closer
to Denmark, baby - to the real me," she said, blowing a soft kiss at the
cash. Michelle had been talking about the operation ever since I'd known her.
She'd been through the full-body electrolysis, the hormone injections, even the
silicone implants in her breasts. But she had balked at the psychological
counseling American hospitals required before they'd do a full sex-change
operation. 'You'll take Terry
back to the Mole?" I nodded, checking my
watch. "You go get him," I told her. I dialed a number
while I was waiting for her. The lawyer with the limo answered on the first
ring. 'It's done," I
told him. He started to babble. I cut him off. "You know Vesey Street,
where it runs past the World Trade Center? Take it all the way west, right to
the river. I'll meet you there in forty-five minutes." I hung up on him. Michelle came down
the hall, holding Terry's hand, calling goodbye to Lily and Immaculata over her
shoulder. Terry sat between us
on the front seat. I lit a cigarette. "Want one?" I asked him. "Michelle
doesn't want me to smoke," the kid said, his angelic face giving nothing away.
Michelle gave him a kiss. The Mole was teaching him science; I was teaching him
art. "I got to meet a
guy, Terry," I told him. "You'll have to ride the trunk, okay?" "Sure!" "And when I'm
finished, I'll take you back to the Mole." "I can't go
right back," he said. I looked over at
Michelle. "Why not?" I asked him, watching her eyes. "Mole says he
has work to do. Someplace else. He says for you not to bring me back until
after six." "How about if I
bring you back to Lily's? I'll roll by in a few hours." "Why can't I
hang out with you?" Michelle patted him.
"Burke has work to do, baby." The kid was hurt. "I do work too.
I help Mole. Lots of times." "I know you do,
baby," she said. I shot the kid a warning glance. If Michelle wanted to
think the kid helped out by holding the Mole's soldering iron, that was fine
with me. We rolled into the
Wall Street canyon, following Michelle's directions. She had customers down
there too. I pulled over to the curb. She gave Terry
another kiss and flowed from the car. We watched her make her way into the
building. Watched men turn to look at her, thinking they had never seen a woman
with so much stile. I used to wonder what men would think if they knew the
truth, but I don’t anymore. The man waiting for her knew the truth. I wheeled the
Plymouth around the corner and slid along until I found an empty spot, just
past the little park where they assemble crowds who want to visit the Statue of
Liberty. A lot of people bring their cars down to the river to work on them.
Guys were changing the oil, draining radiators, doing tune-ups. I pulled over
and popped the trunk. The inside was lined with the padding that furniture
movers use. A steel box in one corner covered the battery; a fifty-gallon fuel
cell took about half the storage space, but there was plenty of room for a man
to wait comfortably. A neat row of quarter-inch holes was punched through the
tip of the trunk. I pulled the piece of duct tape away so air would circulate. "You
know where everything is?" I asked the kid. He looked at me the
way the Mole does sometimes, his eyes shifting to the cable that would open the
trunk from the inside and let him out. He knew he could also get out through
the back seat if he had to. Two plastic quart bottles were bolted to the side
of the trunk, one full of a water-and-glucose solution, the other empty. A man
could stay there for a couple of days if he had to. I pulled a thick roll
of neon-red tape from the trunk, peeled off a precut piece, and handed the end
to Terry. He pulled it taut, and we walked it over to the hood. It fit
perfectly. Another piece went over the roof. One more for the trunk, and we had
a distinctive racing stripe from front to back. Terry took the rubber block I
handed him and smoothed out the little bubbles under the tape while I attached
a foxtail to the antenna and snapped some blue plastic covers over the parking
lights in the grille. I pulled another set of license plates out of the trunk
and screwed them on over the ones I'd been using. In ten minutes we had a
different car. With untraceable plates. Terry patted himself
down, making sure he had his butane cigarette lighter. Michelle didn't mind him
carrying the lighter. It was a gift from the Mole. Loaded with napalm. The tiny
Jewish star the kid wore on a chain around his neck gleamed dull against his
pale skin. It was made of steel. "They took gold from our people's mouths
to make their evil ornaments," the Mole once said, explaining it to me. The kid made himself
comfortable. I closed the lid and climbed back inside. On schedule. The limo was already
there when I pulled up. I left the Plymouth a half-block away and walked toward
the blacked-out passenger windows, hands in my pockets. He must have been
watching my approach. The door swung open. I handed him the
foil-wrapped disk. Watched as he carefully opened it, smearing any fingerprints
that would have been on it if I had left any. He held the paper away from me so
I wouldn't get a look at the magic name. His hands shook. His tongue ran around
his lips. He was looking at his ticket up the ladder. "This is
it," he said. Reverent. "Good. Give me
the money." "Sure. Sure . .
." he said, almost absently, reaching in his briefcase, counting it out,
not making a ceremony of it this time. Handing it over to me, not even watching
as I buried it in my coat pocket. I reached for the
door handle. "Wait a minute," he said. I waited, my hand wrapped
around a roll of quarters in my pocket, measuring the distance to the spot just
below his sternum, breathing through my nose, calm. "How did you get
this?" "That wasn't our
deal." "I'm just
curious." I looked at his face
until his eyes came up to mine. "Ask Mr.
C.," I advised him. The limo was pulling
away before I took three steps back to the Plymouth. I didn't know if the
lawyer had other eyes around, so I drove away slow, sliding through the maze of
streets parallel to the river until we got back to the open piers a few blocks
uptown. I stripped the tape off the car, pulled the foxtail, and popped off the
parking-light covers. I tossed everything inside the trunk, reaching inside to
get a screwdriver for the plates. Terry never moved, lost inside the darkness.
"Want to get something to eat at Mama's?" I asked softly. His little
fist tapped against the fuel cell once. Yes. The Plymouth pushed
its anonymous nose past the entrance to Mama's restaurant, giving me a chance
to read the messages. Mama used three identical dragon tapestries for a window
display: one red, one white, one blue. Tourists thought it was patriotic. Only
the white dragon stood in the window. No cops inside - no other trouble either. I pulled around to
the alley in the back. The alley walls were whitewashed, garbage cans neatly
stacked, tightly capped. A calico cat the size of a beagle sat on top of one of
the cans, marking his territory. A short set of Chinese characters in foot-high
black letters stood stark against the white wall. Max's message to anyone who
might have stupid ideas about asking Mama for a contribution to their favorite
charity. I popped the trunk
and Terry climbed out, shaking himself like a dog coming out of water. The back
door was steel, painted the same color as the building. You had to look close
to see it. There was no doorknob. I pushed against it, and Terry followed me
inside. We were in the kitchen. Half a dozen young Oriental men were scattered
around. Two of them were tossing handfuls of meat and vegetables into a set of
giant woks while a third man stirred, a flat wooden tool in each hand. He
rapped sharply on the rim of one of the woks. Another man came forward, his
hands wrapped in rags. He grabbed the wok by the rim, dumped the contents into
a metal pot, and dropped the wok onto another burner. He tossed in a glassful
of water, swirled it around, dumped out the water, and put the clean wok back
in front of the cook. Handfuls of pea pods, water chestnuts, and some red stuff
I didn't recognize flew into the empty wok. A vat of rice steamed against one
wall. None of the workers gave us a glance. A fat man sat at the door
connecting the kitchen to the restaurant, a tapestry the size of a table-cloth
covering his lap. The tapestry rested on a wood frame, like a small table, the
cloth reaching almost to the floor. The fat man's eyes were lost in folds of
flesh, no more visible than his hands. I stopped in front of him, one hand on
Terry's shoulder to show he was with me. The fat man's head held solid, drawing
a bead. I didn't rush him. I knew what he was holding under the tapestry frame.
Finally, he tilted his head a fraction of an inch. Okay. We went into the
restaurant. Terry and I took my
table at the back. The place was empty except for a young woman and her date.
She was wearing tinted aviator glasses, a string of pearls over a black silk
T-shirt. A skinny, mean-faced woman with capped teeth. Her date had a neat, short
haircut. The kind of tan you can buy without getting near the beach. He looked
like a sheep that worked out a lot - taut lines, stupid eyes. She was asking
the waiter a series of intricate questions about how the food was prepared. He
answered every question with the same Cantonese phrase, reading her like a menu
with only one dish on it. This went on for a couple of minutes, until Mama
climbed off her stool by the cash register at the front and came over to them.
She wore a bottle-green silk dress cut tight all the way up to the high
mandarin collar and flowing loose from the waist down. Her hair was pulled back
in a glossy bun, her broad face unlined. Only a fool would try to guess her
age; only a fool with a death wish would ask her. The waiter stood aside
as she approached. She bowed gently to the woman and her companion. "You have
questions?" "I certainly do.
I have been asking this gentleman if you use MSG in the preparation of
your food. Our diet doesn't permit . . ." Mama stepped on the rest
of the sentence. "Oh, yes. Plenty MSG. No problem." "You don't
understand. We don't want any flavor enhancers in our food. MSG causes .
. ." "MSG in
everything here. Soup, vegetables, meat. Special stuff. Plenty MSG." The woman gave an
exasperated sigh. "Don't you have provision for preparing meals without
MSG?" "Why you want
that? MSG in everything. Good for you. Make blood nice and thin." The woman looked over
at her date, a pained expression on her pinched face. I lit a cigarette,
blowing the smoke in her direction. "You have a No
Smoking section, I presume?" "You want
cigarettes?" Mama asked, innocently. "No. We don't
want cigarettes. And we don't want MSO. Is that so hard to understand?" Her date looked
uncomfortable, but he kept quiet. "Everybody smoke
here. Even cooks smoke, okay? Plenty MSG. No American Express." Mama
looked at her, smiling. "Not for you, right?" "It certainly is
not," said the woman, pushing her chair back. "Come on, Robbie,"
she said to the sheep. "Have a nice
day," Mama told her. She watched the woman and the sheep walk out the
front door, giving their table a quick wipe. She looked around her empty
restaurant and smiled. Business was good. I slid out of the
booth, bowed to Mama as she approached. Terry bounded over to her, his arms
open. Mama clasped her hands at her waist, bowed to the kid. It stopped him
like he ran into a wall, confusion overflowing his face. "Easy. Move
slow, okay?" She smiled down at him. "I was just
going to . . ." "You going to
kiss Mama?" "Sure!" "You see Burke
kiss Mama?" ''No . . ." Mama's face was calm.
Set. "Mama kiss babies, Okay? Not kiss man." Terry stared at her
face, figuring it out. Knowing by her tone not to be afraid. "I'm not a
man," he said. "What,
then?" He looked at me for
help. I blew smoke out my nose. I didn't know the answer. He took a shot on his
own. "A kid?" "Only two
pieces," Mama said. "Baby or man. No more baby, time to be a
man." "I won't be a
man until I'm thirteen." "Who says
this?" "Mole." Mama glanced over at
me. "Bar Mitzvah," I told her. "Jewish ceremony." "Good. Not official
man until thirteen, right?" "Right,"
Terry told her. "Start
now," Mama said, bowing to him again. Case closed. Terry bowed. Mama sat down across
from me. Terry waited, saw there wasn't going to be any more instruction, sat
down too. Mama said something to the waiter. He disappeared. "Soup first,
okay?" "Can I have
fried rice?" the kid wanted to know. "Soup
first," Mama said. The waiter brought a
steaming tureen of Mama's hot-and-sour soup. Three small porcelain bowls. Mama
served Terry first, then me. Then herself. I pressed my spoon against the
vegetables floating in the dark broth, taking the liquid in first, holding it
above the bowl, letting it cool. I took a sip. "Perfect," I said. It
was the minimal acceptable response. Terry pushed his
spoon in too deeply, covering it with vegetables. He carefully turned the spoon
over, emptying it back into the bowl. Tried it again. Got it right. He
swallowed the spoonful, tears shooting into his eyes. His little face turned a
bright red. "It's good," he said, his voice a squeak. Mama smiled.
"Special soup. Not for babies." I took another
spoonful, swallowed it slowly. Let it slide down, breathing through my nose.
Terry watched me. Tried it again. Smaller sips this time. I threw a handful of
hard noodles into my bowl. Terry did the same. He watched as I spooned off the
top layer of liquid, mixing the last spoonfuls with the vegetables, not chewing
any of it, gently breathing through my nose. The kid went right along. When my bowl was
empty, Mama spooned it full again. Terry was right behind me. Mama called for
the waiter. He took the tureen away. Came back with a heaping plate of fried
rice for Terry. The plate was beautiful - big chunks of roast pork, egg yolk,
scallions - each grain of rice floating on top of another into a perfect
pyramid. The kid's eyes lit up. He dug in without another word. I helped myself
to a few forkfuls, bowing my acknowledgment of perfection to Mama. Terry was halfway
through the giant mountain when he looked up at Mama. "What's
MSG?" he wanted to know. "Bad stuff.
Special salt. Make weak food taste strong, okay? Chemical. Fake. No good for
you." Terry smiled at her,
putting it together. "No MSG here, right?" Mama smiled back at
him. "Right." I lit another
cigarette. "How's business?" I asked her. "Always
same." I put the money from
the lawyer on the table. Split it into two piles. "For Max," I told
Mama, touching one pile. "For the bank," I said, touching the other.
Mama would hold the money for me. Her bank didn't pay interest. In fact, she
took a piece for a storage fee. But her bank was open twenty-four hours a day
and it didn't file federal paper every time you made a deposit. Mama's long fingers
flashed over the money, faster than a blackjack dealer's. The two piles became
four. She pointed at each in turn. "For Max. For the bank. For Mama. For
baby." I nodded agreement. I
knew the pile marked for Flower had some of my money and some of Mama's. Max
knew nothing about it - it wasn't his business. Whenever Mama saw Immaculata,
she would have a pink silk purse in her hand. "For baby," is all she
ever said. Down where we live,
every day is a rainy day. We were in the back room,
the one between the restaurant and the kitchen, waiting for the cook to finish
chopping up a pile of thick marrow bones, putting together a food package for
me. Terry was in the kitchen, watching everything. Staying out of the way. Three pay phones stood
in a bank against the wall. The one at the end rang. Mama looked at me. I
nodded. She picked up the receiver. "Mr. Burke not
here. You leave message, okay?" I couldn't hear the
other end of the conversation. It didn't matter what they said - Mama never
went past the script. "Not here, okay?
Don't know. Maybe today. Maybe next week. You leave message?" Mama listened. Wrote
something on a scrap of paper. Hung up. She handed me the
paper. A phone number I didn't recognize. "Woman. Young
woman. Say you call this number before nine tonight." "She say what
she wanted?" "A job for
you." "Anybody we
know?" "I never hear
the voice before. Woman say her name is Belle." "I don't know
her." Mama shrugged. Bowed
goodbye to me and Terry. The steel door closed behind us. I turned the Plymouth
north to the Bronx. Terry was quiet on
the ride back. I let him have his silence - it's something a man has to learn.
As he got older, I'd teach him not to give things away with his face. I didn't fill the
silence with the radio or my tapes. The radio works, but the faceplate is
really just to disguise the police-band scanner built into the dash. And all my tapes are
the blues. Kids can't sing the
blues; when they try, it sounds wrong. They have the pain, but not the range. We rolled over the
Triboro to the Bronx. The kid watched as I tossed a token into the basket in
the Exact Change lane. Learning. Don't call attention to yourself. When we
pulled up to the junkyard, Terry made a circle with his finger. Go around to
the back. The back fence was
heavy-gauge cyclone mesh, with three twisted bands of razor wire running across
the top. Everything was two-tone: pollution-gray and rust. A big dog the same color
as the fence was basking in a patch of late-afternoon sunlight. His lupine face
was impassive as we approached, but his ears stood straight up. Yellow eyes
tracked the car, locking onto the target like a heat-seeking missile. An
American Junkyard Dog. Best of a breed the American Kennel Club never imagined.
City wolf. I pulled the car
parallel to the fence, Terry's door closest to the dog. The beast growled deep
in his chest. Dark shapes moved behind the fence. Dots of light and flashes of
white. Eyes and teeth, both ready. "Tell the Mole
Michelle has his money." "Okay,
Burke." Terry climbed out of
the Plymouth, flipped the door closed behind him. Walked over to the dog,
talking in a low voice. The beast walked over to meet him. Terry scratched the
dog behind his ear, standing next to him. I knew the dog wouldn't move until I
did, so I wheeled the car in a tight circle, heading back the way I came. When
I looked back, Terry was down on all fours, following the dog through a cutout
section of the fence. He had to twist sideways to get in. It was dark by the
time I turned into the narrow street behind the old paper-tube factory where I
have my office. The garage is set into the building just past the sidewalk. When
the landlord converted the joint into living lofts, he bricked up the old
loading bay, where the trucks used to pull in, to make room for storefronts.
The garage only has room for one car, right at the end of a row of little
shops. I pulled in, hit the switch; the door rattled down, leaving me in
darkness. I locked the car, took the steel steps up four flights, walking
quietly past the entrance to each hallway. The doors lock from the outside and
I keep them that way. There's another flight of stairs at the far end of each
floor. If there's a fire, the tenants know which way to go. When I got to the top
floor, I let myself into the hall. I closed the door behind me. It looked like
a blank wall. There's no sign on my
door. My name's not on the directory downstairs. As far as the tenants know,
the fifth floor is sealed off. Most of it is. I don't have a lease.
I don't pay rent. The landlord's son did something very stupid a few years ago.
The landlord is a rich man, and he spent the right money in the right places.
The kid has a new name, a new face, and a new life. Home free. Until I found
him. I wasn't looking for the little weasel, but I knew who was. They still
are. It's not a home, it's
where I live for now. When the time comes I have to leave, I won't look back.
I'll take everything I need with me. And when I walk away,
there won't even be a fingerprint left for them to play with. I turned the key,
listening to the bolts snap back. Three dead bolts: one into the steel frame on
the side, another at the top, the final one directly into the floor. The hall's
too narrow for a battering ram. By the time anyone broke in, I'd have long
enough to do anything I needed to do. Another key for the
doorknob. I turned it twice to the right and once to the left, and stepped
inside. "It's me,
Pansy," I said to the monster sitting in the middle of the dark room. The monster made a
noise somewhere between a snarl and a growl. A Neapolitan mastiff, maybe 140
pounds of muscle and bone, topped with a head the size of a cannonball and just
about as thick. So dark she was almost black, Pansy blended into the room like
a malevolent shadow, teeth shielded, cold-water eyes unflickering. Pansy can't
handle complex thoughts. She wasn't sure if she was glad to see me or sorry she
wasn't going to get to tear some flesh. Then she smelled the Chinese food and
the issue was settled. The snarl changed to a whine, and slobber poured from
her jaws. I threw her the hand signal for "Stay!" and hit the light
switch. The office is one
small room. Desk facing the door, one chair behind, one in front. No windows.
Couch against one wall. To the left, there's another door, leading to the
office where my secretary works. The door's a fake. So's the secretary. The
other wall is covered with a Persian rug that never got closer to Iran than
14th Street. The floor is covered with Astroturf. I told my decorator I wanted
low-maintenance modern. I pulled the rug
aside and stepped into another room, even smaller than the office. Tiny
stand-up shower I installed myself, sink and toilet in one corner. Hot plate
and refrigerator in another. A cot between them. The back door opens out to a
landing. The fire escape rusted off years ago. I opened the back
door, calling for Pansy, and stepped out to the landing. Watched the Hudson
River slime-flow to the west, patting my dog's head as she stood next to me.
Three rooms, with view. Pansy ambled past me,
taking the stairs to the roof. She's been dumping her loads up there for years.
There's stuff growing on the roof I don't even want to think about. Pansy came back
downstairs as I was putting away the food Mama packed for me. I pulled a big
slab of roast pork from a container, held it in front of her. Every fiber of
her dim brain focused on that pork. An icicle of drool formed in one corner of
her gaping mouth, but she didn't move. She wouldn't take the food until she
heard the magic word. It's called poison-proofing. "Speak!" I
yelled at her, tossing the slab of pork in a gentle arc toward her face. It
didn't last as long as a politician's promise. I tried a big fat egg roll. One
chomp, and Pansy was swallowing in ecstasy, pieces of egg roll all over the floor.
"You're a slob," I told her. She nodded happily. Pansy's food-supply
system is against the wall. A pair of hollowed-out cement cinder blocks with a
forty-pound sack of dry dog food suspended above one and a tube connected to
the sink above the other. When either bowl is empty, she pushes against the
tube with her snout and it fills again. I filled a big
ceramic bowl with three quarts of Mama's cooking and told her to make a pig of
herself. She buried her face up to the eyes in the steaming mess making noises
Stephen King never dreamed of. I threw some of the marrow bones into a pot and
put them on the hot plate to boil. I went inside to my
desk. It was almost seven-thirty, and the woman Mama had spoken to said to call
before nine. There was a phone on my desk. It never rang, and I never got a
bill from Ma Bell - the Mole had it connected to the trust-fund hippies who
lived downstairs. I could use it early in the morning, when the sensitive
artists were still recovering from trying to find the light at the end of the
marijuana tunnel they'd explored the night before, but not otherwise. I'd had the phone for
years. No problems. I never used it for long-distance calls. That's why God
made other people's credit cards. The office looked the
same way it always does. I don't get clients coming here much. The last one was
Flood. The day I let her in, she came in too deep. I lit a cigarette, not
wanting to think about the chubby little blonde head-hunter. She came into my
life, got what she came for, and left me empty. I didn't want to
think about Flood. She came too often in my sleep. "I'm for you,
Burke," I can still hear her saying. The way only a woman can say. And
only say it once, if it's the truth. It was. Part of the full
bloom I was still waiting for. I went out to make my
phone call. Almost eight by the
time I found the pay phone I wanted. Near the river, just a couple of blocks
from the Yuppietown the developers had built by reclaiming a piece of the
Hudson. Within eyeshot of the bullshit "security lights" flanking the
high-rise but safe in a pool of darkness. Like I was. I don't like cold
calls. My phone number's circulated all over this city. The phone's listed to
Juan Rodriguez, and the address is the back end of a junkyard I own. The old
man who runs it draws me a paycheck every two weeks. I cash it and give him
back the money. It makes me a citizen - I pay my taxes, build up my Social
Security, all that. Having a citizen's name is important. The name opens the
door to all the goodies: legit address, driver's license, Social Security card.
I don't lose any sleep worrying about the FBI, but the IRS is another game. I
have a birth certificate too. It's so phony it even has a father's name on it. My credit with Ma
Bell is excellent. Never miss a payment. Never make any toll calls. I never
make any calls at all. Anyone who calls the junkyard number activates the call
diverter I have set up. The signal bounces over to one of the phones at Mama's. I unscrewed the mouthpiece
of the pay phone and slipped in the flat disk the Mole gave me. It changes my
voice just enough to throw off the machines, in case anyone's listening. I
pulled the tiny tape recorder from my coat and hit the switch; the booth was
flooded with the background noise from a bowling alley. The number had a 718
area code. Brooklyn or Queens. I dropped a quarter and dialed the number. She answered on the
third ring. A young girl's voice, with the hard twang that sounds Southern
unless you've spent some time in Detroit. "Hello?" "Belle?" "Who's
this?" "Burke.
Returning your call." "Oh. I didn't
think it would be so fast. I'm doing a favor for someone. Someone who wants to
talk to you." "Who?" "I'd rather tell
you in person." "I'd rather you tell
me over the phone." "I can't do
that. I promised." "What's in it
for me?" "Money." "How much
money?" "That depends.
You'd have to work it out with him. I just said I'd talk to you. Tell you about
it. See if you're interested in getting together." "You get paid
win or lose?" "Yes." "Tell him I said
no, and collect your money." "You have to
hear me out. Tell me to my face. That's the deal." "That's not my
deal." Her voice shifted,
dropped a note. "What is your deal?" "Time is money.
My time is your money, okay?" "How much
money?" "How much
time?" "Fifteen
minutes." "Five
yards." "That's a lot of
money." I didn't say
anything, listening to the silence at her end, the sound of pins falling at
mine. "Can you meet
me? Tonight?" "Is he there
with you?" "No." "How do you know
he'll go for the cash?" "I don't. I have
to make some calls. I work at . . ." "I don't care
where you work," I said, cutting her off. "Do what you have to do.
Speak to the man. I'll call you tomorrow morning." "Not before
eleven, okay? I get in late." "You have a
car?" "Yes." "I'll call you
tomorrow. Tell you where to come and meet me. You bring the money -we'll
talk." "Thank
you," the young girl's voice said, and she broke the connection. When I called her the
next morning, her voice sounded the same. Not breathy, or trying to be sexy.
Short-winded. "I got the
go-ahead." "And the
money?" "Yes." "What kind of
car do you drive?" "A Camaro. A red
one. With a T-top." "You know
Metropolitan Avenue?" "In Queens? By
the cemeteries?" "Yeah. Take it
west. Like you're going to the city, okay? Just keep going until it crosses
over into Brooklyn. You'll come to a little drawbridge. Go over the bridge and
look for a gas station on your right. Just pull up to the pums - I'll meet you
there." "What
time?" "Three." "How will I know
you?" "I'll be the man
asking for the money." I took the Delancey
Street Bridge out of Manhattan, hooked back around to Metropolitan Avenue. I
cruised past the gas station. At two in the afternoon, it looked the way it
always does - a wino asleep in the sun, a dead bottle of T-bird half out of a
paper bag next to him. A pair of red-brown dogs that had never been pets swept
the empty concrete, all legs and ribs, looking for food. A black guy wearing a
winter coat, tattered cowboy hat on his head, pushing a supermarket basket full
of cans and bottles, checking the alleys for more nuggets. Grayish dust from
the concrete plant on the other side of the drawbridge settled over everything.
The sun hit hard. The wino was half in shadow - he'd been sleeping a long time. I parked the Plymouth
a few blocks away, backed in against the metallic strip of water that carried
the ore barges under the drawbridge. It took me less than five minutes to get
back to the gas station. I found myself a comfortable spot against the wall and
sat down to wait. The skinny dogs
circled, watchful. I reached into the paper bag next to me and took out a piece
of cheese. I unwrapped it slowly, watching them from beneath the brim of my
battered felt hat. I tossed the cheese in their direction, arcing it gently so
they'd know it was no threat. The bigger dog moved in, sniffed it quickly, and
took it into his mouth. He moved away, chewing slowly. I unwrapped another
piece, tossed it the same way. The big dog's partner dashed in, snatched it,
and moved back to where the other one was standing. I lit a cigarette,
watching the dogs sniff the air, trying to do the same. From where I sat, there
was no way to approach the gas station without me seeing it. I wasn't worried
about customers - the only gas in the place was in the plastic bottle in my
paper bag. Almost an hour
passed. I'd gone through several smokes, and the dogs had exhausted my supply
of cheese. They wouldn't come close enough for me to touch, but the big guy sat
about ten feet away, watching me; his partner stretched out next to him. I was completely in
shadow when the red Camaro pulled up to the pumps. The windows were down. A
woman in the front seat. She turned off the engine. The dogs left me, ambling
over to the car. Trucks rumbled by on Metropolitan. She got out of the
car. A big woman. Honey-taffy hair, hacked off near her shoulders, bangs
covering her forehead almost to her eyes. She was wearing a peach-colored
sweatshirt over a pair of loose white pants. Hands on hips she turned one
complete circle, sweeping the area. I came to my feet
quietly, moved to her. She saw me coming, a wino with a paper bag in one hand.
She stood her ground. "Hello,
Belle," I said. "You're
Burke?" I nodded, watching
her eyes to see if she was expecting company of her own. Her eyes were small,
dark, set close together. Her face was round, smooth - unformed except for a
tiny pointed chin. She was as tall as I was, wider through the shoulders and
hips. I glanced at her feet. White running shoes, small, like her hands. No
watch. No rings. The back seat of the
Camaro was empty. "Would you open the trunk?" I asked her. "Why?" "I want to see
if you've got a spare." She bobbed her head
like she understood. Bent inside the car to pull the keys from the ignition.
Her hips flexed under the loose white pants. She handed me the keys. The trunk
held only a blue overnight case. I motioned her to get
in the car, climbed behind the wheel, and started it up. She walked around the
front of the car, opened the passenger door, turned her back to me, swung her
butt inside, and dropped it into the seat. Pulled her legs in and closed the
door. She filled the seat. Sat there, tiny hands in her lap. Waiting. I drove aimlessly
around the area for a few minutes. Nothing out of place. The second time I
passed the spot where I'd parked the Plymouth, I pulled in next to it, nose
toward the water. I got out, walked around to the back of the car, leaned
against the trunk. Belle followed me. Stood next to me. Put her hands behind
her, palms against the trunk. Hoisted herself up. The trunk bounced a few times
with her weight. If the hot metal was burning into her backside, she didn't
show it. "The man who
wants to meet you . . ." I held up my hand
like a traffic cop. "We had a deal." She pulled up her sweatshirt. A
bunch of bills was folded into the waistband of her pants. Green on milk. She
pulled the sheaf of bills out, handed it to me. All fifties. Ten of them. Used.
I slipped them into my shirt pocket. "Fifteen
minutes," I told her. "There's a man
who wants to meet with you. He doesn't want you to get the wrong idea." "This man have a
name?" I watched her face in
profile. Her nose was barely a bump - lost on her broad, round face. A bead of
clear sweat ran down one cheek. "Marques Dupree," she said. I took a drag on my
cigarette. "I already have the wrong idea," I told her. "You said you'd
hear me out." I took another drag. "He has a
problem. A big problem. He said you're the man to help him - you'd know what to
do." "I know what to
do. Why should I do it?" "He said this is
something you'd want to do." "You know what
it is?" "No." "So what's there
to talk about?" "Marques wants
to meet with you. He said you wouldn't come if he called." "He's
right." "He sent me to
show you he's on the square. It's a job, okay? That's all." "I don't work
for Marques." "He said you'd
say that too. All he wants is for you to meet with him." I bit into the
cigarette, thinking. Marques was doing this the right way. He wouldn't be
stupid enough to just roll up on me - he didn't have the weight for that. If
Marques Dupree was coming to me, he had to have real troubles. "You one of his
ladies?" I asked her. Her tiny chin came
up. She turned full-face to me. Her close-set eyes were almost black; I
couldn't see the pupils. "I'm not a whore." She wasn't mad - just
setting it straight. "So why you
doing this?" She reached out a
tiny hand, patted my shirt pocket. Where the money was. "I'll think
about it, okay? Where can I find you?" "Me?" "Yeah. You. I know
how to find Marques." "I work at The
Satellite Dish. Out by JFK." "That's a strip
joint," I said. Something must have
shown in my face. Her tiny rose-bud mouth made a quick kissing motion.
"You think I'm over qualified?" I shrugged. "I work every
night except Tuesday." I put my hand on her
wrist. Gently, holding her attention. "Tell Marques
not to call me. If I want to meet him I'll come and tell you first." "What if you
don't want to see him?" "Then I
won't," I told her, guiding her back into the driver's seat, motioning for
her to take off. I started walking in
the opposite direction. The Camaro drove off. I watched over my shoulder as she
turned the corner; then I went back to the Plymouth. The warehouse off
Division Street in Chinatown looked like it always does. Empty. Deserted. I pulled
in, turned off the engine. Waited. When I heard the door close behind me, I
knew Max was home. The warehouse was
furnished with dim shadows. I followed Max up the back stairs to the second
floor. He usually went to the back room, where we'd work on our life-sentence
gin game. Something different tooay. Max stopped on the landing. His temple was
upstairs. The dojo where he practiced, the teak floor marked with a white-pine
border. The sacred ground where Flood met a freak who called himself the Cobra.
The killing floor. Immaculata was
sitting in a low chair in a corner of the white room. A black lacquer table
covered with hooks and papers at her elbow. The baby sat across from her,
wearing only a diaper, her little face grave as she watched her mother work. A
butcher-block table ran the length of one wall, with hardwood straight-back
chairs at each end. Max gestured to one of the chairs. I sat down as Immaculata
put her notes aside and rose to her feet. "Hello,
Burke." "Hi, Mac. How's
Flower?" "She is a
perfect child," Mac said, as though she'd carefully considered all the
other possibilities. "Some tea?" "Thank
you," I said, knowing what she meant. Mac started to walk
into the next room. The baby made a sound, less than a cry, maybe a question.
Mac knelt next to her child, speaking quietly, her voice steel-cored.
"Mother will come back, baby. Always come back, yes? Never leave
you." She kissed the infant gravely on the forehead. Waved a goodbye
gesture to the child. Again and again, patiently, until the child moved her
hand too. "Smart baby!" Immaculata clapped. I took out a
cigarette, held it up for Max to see, asking if it was okay to smoke near the
child. Max pointed to an
ashtray the size of a dinner plate, aluminum on the outside, glazed red ceramic
on the inside. He lit a cigarette of his own, blowing the smoke toward the
ceiling. Spreading his arms to say the whole world smoked and the baby wasn't
going to spend the rest of her life in the house. Immaculata came back
inside. She had a pot of tea with two cups, a glass of iced ginger ale for me.
"I have your mail," she said, handing me a stack of letters. I use a
P.O. box over in Jersey. One of Mama's drivers empties it for me about every
two weeks, leaves the letters in Mama's basement. Max picks them up when he has
the chance and holds them for me. I shuffled through them. Nothing from Japan.
Nothing from Flood. I put them in my coat. Immaculata pulled up
a chair, joined us, one eye on her baby. Flower was gurgling happily to
herself. It sounded like singing. Max held up one
finger, catching my eye. Pay attention. He moved off his chair without a sound,
crouched behind the baby. Suddenly he slapped his hands together. It sounded
like a gunshot. The baby jumped, trying to turn her head in the direction of
the sound. Max scooped her up and held her against his chest, nuzzling her, his
horn-callused hands now soft as a cloud. The baby's tiny hands searched - found
one of his fingers, grabbed, and held. Max carried the baby
back to his chair, held her on his lap. Smiling. Immaculata stood
watching him, hands on hips. "Max!" she snapped, stamping her foot.
He ignored her, watching me. Immaculata sighed.
"When I was pregnant, he'd do that all the time. He said the baby could
hear him. When she came out of my body, he made everyone be quiet. He waited
until she was nursing . . . Then he clapped his hands like that. When she moved
- when she heard him - I thought he was going to burst, he was so happy." "She recognized
his voice," I said. "Sure. That's
what he said." "What else could
it be?" "I think" -
she looked at her husband - "I think he was afraid our baby would be born
deaf." "Was Max born
deaf?" "I never asked
him," she said, a slight warning tone in her voice. He was my brother. I
had earned the right to know. Earned it in a prison cell. I pointed at Max.
Made a gesture as if I was rocking a baby. Pointed at him again. At my ear. His face went hard,
eyes slitted, mouth a straight line. He shook his head. No. I opened my hands.
"How?" Max gently picked up his
baby, carried her back over to the floor, put her down. Kissed her. He stood
between Immaculata and me. Pointed to himself again. A fist flashed into his
palm so quickly I only saw the vapor trail. A sharp crack. He pointed to his
ear. Held his palm thigh-high. A little child. His hand became a claw, snatched
something, lifted it off the ground. Threw it against the wall. Walked away.
Pointed to himself again. He wasn't born deaf. I tapped my heart
twice, bowed my head. My eyes felt funny. Max pointed at
Flower, playing by herself on the floor. Reached his hand across the table.
Immaculata put her hand in his. He circled his thumb and forefinger. Okay.
Okay, now. Yeah. He was ahead of
the game. I took a sip of the
ginger ale. Lit another smoke. I held my palms close together, not touching. A
meeting. Max did the same. The
palms became fists. I shrugged. Maybe.
Who knows? I pointed at him. At
myself. Waved a pointing finger. A meeting outside. In the street. He looked a question. I rubbed my first two
fingers and thumb together. Money. Maybe a job. Max hissed an inhale
through his nose. I shook my head. Not
cocaine. I made the sign of injecting something into my arm. Shook my head
again. Not heroin. Held an imaginary joint in my mouth, triple-inhaled fast. Shook
my head again. Not marijuana. Max took a dollar
from his pocket. Held up three fingers. I shook my head
again. Not funny-money. Immaculata watched
us, like a spectator at a tennis match. Waiting for the punch line. Max pointed a finger,
cocked his thumb. I told him no again. Not guns. I weaved my fingers in the
air, making an hourglass. Women. His face went hard
again as he held his hand chest-high, asking. I put my palm to my
forehead, like a salute, measuring for him. Not kids. I made a gesture like I
was talking to someone, negotiating. Showed money changing hands. I took some
cash from my pocket, put it on the table. Made one big pile with a single bill
off to the side. Pocketed the pile. Pushed the remaining bill across the table
to my left. Made the hourglass sign again. Her share. Max circled his hands
around his head, tilted a hat brim forward. I nodded. A pimp. Max smiled. He made a
gesture like he was pulling a wristwatch off. Pulled rings off fingers. Reached
inside his shirt for a wallet. I shook my head. Not
a shakedown. Not a rough-off. I held my palms together again, not touching.
Just a meeting. Okay? He nodded. I pointed at my
watch. Made an "I don't know" gesture. I'd let him know when it was
going down. The baby cried.
Immaculata went over to her, picked her up, and sat her down on her lap to
nurse. I bowed to Max, to Immaculata, to my brother's baby. I went down the
stairs to my car, thinking of Flood. Back to being alone. I went through the
mail back in the office. The usual stuff. Congenital defectives replying to my
ad promising "south of the border" opportunities for "qualified
adventurers." Most of the mercenary action is in Central America now; the
Cubans have made it real clear that Africa isn't the promised land. The good
scams concentrate on "training exercises." There's decent money in
stinging maladroits who want to dress up in camouflage gear and run around the
New Jersey swamps learning how to "survive." I don't run one of the
camps - I don't want to meet any of my customers face to face. But, for a
reasonable fee, I'm always happy to process their applications. The pedophile letters
always have P.O. boxes of their own for return addresses. One was neatly typed
on creamy bond paper, the monogram
"CX" engraved in one corner. "l'm always interested in
the real thing. Especially discipline, golden showers, and snuff. I hope we can
be friends." I put the letter aside. If it wasn't from a Postal Inspector,
I had a genuine freak - the kind who expected to pay for his fun. Scumbags.
They always manage to get what they pay for. Sometimes I get lucky; then they
pay for what they get. The rest of the mail
was replies to our new series of personal ads. We run them everyplace - from
literary journals to hard-core slime-sheets. Variations on the same theme:
young girl, serving a prison sentence, getting out soon. Lonely, broke, needs a
friend. Honey Blaine is the
sweet young girl's name. If any of the suckers bothered to write directly,
they'd find an "H. Blame, #86-B-9757," doing time at Bedford Hills.
Just the way it said in the ad. Honey would set them straight right away. She'd
explain that she couldn't write the kind of letter she'd really like to: the
prison censors wouIdn't permit it. Honey had a secret P.O. box, though, and if
a sincere man was willing to be a little patient, well . . . I screened the
letters. Michelle answered them. We had a few dozen different photos we used.
All Polaroids ("That's the only kind they let us take here, darling").
Whatever the suckers wanted, that's what they got. Honey could be a
nineteen-year-old victimized by a cruel pimp. A lesbian whose lover informed on
her in a drug deal. A car thief. Anything but a scam artist. She could be the
answer to an old man's prayer or the bottom of a minister's ugly fantasy. A
very flexible girl, this Honey. All it took was Michelle's never-miss instincts
and some creative writing. Honey would play the sucker, work the hook in deep,
turning up the heat to full boil. Then the poor girl would start to have
problems: a bull dyke hitting on her, demanding her body or her life; a
threatened transfer to another section of the prison, where she wouldn't be
able to correspond. Overdue rent on the P.O. box. A nice piece of cash needed to
bribe the Parole Board. Gate money. And the money orders would start to come
in. After a while, the
sucker would get his last letter returned. Unopened. An official prison stamp
on the outside. Black-bordered. "Return to sender. Inmate deceased."
The suckers always bought it - if it was a scam, why wouldn't sweet Honey have
cashed the last money order? H. Blaine,
#86-B-9757, wasn't allowed visitors. Good thing. The name and the number were
legit, but Hortense Blaine is a fifty-five-year-old, three-hundred-pound black
woman. She raised three generations of foster kids. From babies dropped down
incinerators who didn't die, to kiddie prostitutes who never lived. She never
had a kid of her own, but she was mother to dozens. Her boyfriend raped one of
the kids. A twelve-year-old girl named Princess. I have a copy of the
trial transcript. I got it from the lawyer who's working on the appeal. A
hard-blues lyric they'll never put to music. DIRECT EXAMINATION BY MR. DAVIDSON: Q: What, if anything, did
you do after Princess told you about the rape? A: I
told the child he was never going to hurt her again. I carried her into my
room. Put her in my hed. Q: The same bed you shared
with Mr. Jackson? A: He wasn't going to be
using it no more. Q: And then? A: I
waited for Jackson to come home. He was out gambling someplace. He comes in the
door, sits at the kitchen table. Tells me to get him a beer. Q: Did you get him a beer? A: Yeah. Q: Tell the jury what
happened next. A: I asked him why he did
this. I said . . . Q: Excuse
me for interrupting you, Mrs. Blaine. You asked him why he raped the
child? Not if he did it? A: There was blood in the
child's bed. Q: I see. Please continue. A: I
asked him why he did what he did. He tells me Princess going to be a woman
soon. Won't hurt her none. Get her ready for what life's all about, he said. He
said she was walking around in her nightgown when I was out working. Said she
asked for it. Q: Did you see the
expression on his face when he said this? MR. HAYNES: Objection. Calls for a
conclusion of the witness. MR. DAVIDSON: An observation of
demeanor is not a conclusion, Judge. MR. HAYNES: Your Honor, counsel for the defense is trying to
introduce blatant hearsay. This is an attempt to impugn the character of a dead
man. MR. DAVIDSON: This Court has already heard the testimony of the
child Princess. The character of this rapist is already in evidence. MR. HAYNES: Objection! Mr. Jackson
is not on trial. MR. DAVIDSON: That's right. He's
already been tried. THE COURT: Gentlemen, that will be
quite enough. The objection is overruled. Q: I
ask you again, Mrs. Blame. Did you see the expression on his face when he
admitted to you that he raped Princess? A: Yeah. He was smiling.
Like it was nothing. MR. HAYNES: Objection. THE COURT: Overruled. Q: Did he say anything
else? A: He said the little bitch
got what she deserved. Q: What happened then? A: I picked up the kitchen
knife and I stabbed him in his heart. Q: Did you mean to kill
him? A: Yes. Q: Why? A: So he'd never hurt my baby
no more. MR. DAVIDSON: Your witness. Defending a murder
charge wasn't a job for a courthouse gonif. Too many of our people had spent
time with Hortense when we were coming up. Like the Prof. Short for
"Professor." Or "Prophet." A tiny black omen-master who'd
been on the hustle since before I was born, he talked rhyme and he walked
crime. The Prof only stood as high as my chest, but he always stood up. "Cutting up
slime ain't no crime," was all he said, dealing himself in on whatever we
had to do to raise the cash. Davidson was the man
for the job. A husky guy with a full beard, he plays the game hard. I first
heard about him when he defended one of the UGL gunmen years ago. Davidson told
us the only way to roll on this one was to do what he called a "psychiatric
autopsy" on the dead man. And he pulled it off.
When he was finished, the jury knew Jackson had been a piece of living scum
before he died. They came back with a verdict of Manslaughter, Second Degree.
You could feel the weight lift - murder carries a twenty-five-to-life top in
this state. But Davidson slammed his fist down on the defense table hard enough
to break it. He never raised his eyes. One of the jurors
walked over to him. A fat guy in a brown suit. Said Davidson did a great job,
asked him for his card. Davidson raised his face to look at the juror. His eyes
were wet. "I'm particular about who I defend," he said, turning his
back on the juror's outstretched hand. The judge hit
Hortense with two-to-six upstate. Only child molesters get probation in New
York. One of her foster sons stood next to her when she got the sentence. All
grown up now, he works in a bank, lives in the suburbs. When he heard she was
going down, he started to cry. Hortense put a big hand on his shoulder. She had
to reach up to do it. "Be a man,"
she told him. Not giving an inch. She gave Davidson a
kiss on the cheek and held out her hands for the cuffs. Davidson's working on
the appeal. Working hard, the way he always does. While he's working on the
appeal, we're working on putting together some cash for when Hortense walks
out. Once a month, the Prof visits her at the prison, bringing a batch of money
orders for her to sign. There's a check-cashing joint in the Bronx that doesn't
ask a lot of questions. Hortense gets half the money; Michelle and I split the
rest. It was supposed to be a four-way split, but the Prof gives his piece to
Hortense. "Not all payback's a bitch," he said when we asked him. Michelle doesn't work
the streets anymore. I thought it was AIDS, but she said she couldn't risk a
bust now. Now that she's a mother. So she does phone
jobs, suckers letting their credit cards run wild while she talks them over the
top. Or she visits her clients indoors. It was only right
that she and Hortense would work a sting together. Walking different sides of
the same oneway street. I felt bad, and I
didn't know why. I was some cash ahead, for a change. The last job went down
like sweet syrup, and maybe there would be some more of that kind of work down
the road. Nobody was looking for me. I didn't spend time
thinking about it. I used to do that. I used to do time. A couple of bad
habits. Pansy ambled over to
where I was sitting, put her huge head on my lap. She made a noise that sounded
like a growl, but I knew what she wanted. "Not today,
girl," I told her, scratching her head between her eyes. Max and I were
training her to stay low when she hit. Most dogs leave their feet when they attack,
some deep instinct forcing them to go for the throat. That doesn't work on
people: human throats are too far off the ground. We take Pansy over to this
vacant lot in Brooklyn. Pay some kid ten bucks and talk him into putting on the
agitator's suit -leather covered with
padded canvas. I hold Pansy on a snap leash, facing the agitator. Max stands to
the side with a long bamboo pole. When I send Pansy, Max brings the pole down.
Hard. If she stays low, about groin-height, she can nail the kid wearing the
suit. If she leaves her feet, Max cracks her in the head. Lately she's been
getting through most of the time. I call her off as soon as she gets a good
bite. I have to get a
different kid each time. The suit feels like it's armor-plated, but Pansy can turn
a leg into liquid right through it. I flipped the
channels on the TV until I found a pro wrestling match. Pansy's favorite. I
gave her one of the marrow bones and stretched out on the couch, opening the
racing sheet. Maybe I'd find a horse I liked. Make my own kind of investment. The last thing I
remember before I fell asleep was Pansy grinding the marrow bone into powder. It was past ten when
I woke up. On the TV, a private detective was getting hit over the head with a
tire iron. I lit a smoke. Opened the back door for Pansy. When I walked back
inside, the private eye was wide awake and looking for clues. I took a shower.
Looked at my face in the mirror. Deep, past the image. Looked into myself,
breathing through my nose, expanding my stomach, exhaling as my chest went out. When I came out of
it, I felt clear. Centered. Ready to go to work. I shaved carefully.
Combed my hair. I put on a pair of dark-gray slacks and a white silk shirt.
Alligator boots. Custom-made, but they were a pretty good fit on me anyway. I
moved aside some shirts in the bottom drawer of my dresser. Looked at a whole
pile of rings, watches, bracelets, gold chains. The spoils of war. I held a smuggler's
necklace in my hand. Each link is a one-ounce gold ingot; it comes apart one
piece at a time. Too classy for this job. I pawed through the stuff until I
found the right combination: a thick gold neck chain, a gold bracelet, and a
gold ring set with a blue star sapphire. Checked myself in the
full-length mirror on the door of the closet. Something missing. I found some
gel in the bathroom. Ran it through my hair until it looked thicker and a bit
greasy. White hair shot through the black just past my temples. It didn't
bother me - the only thing I ever posed for was mug shots. I slopped some
cologne all over my face and neck. To throw the dogs off the scent. A few hundred bucks
in my pocket, one of the Mole's butane lighters, a wallet I stripped of bogus
credit cards, and I was ready to visit a strip joint. JFK Airport sits at
the end Queens, near the Long Island border, sticking out into the bay. The
surrounding swampland is slashed with two-lane side roads running off the
expressway. Warehouses, light industry, short-stay motels. The Highway
Department keeps the roads in good shape, but they don't waste any money on
streetlights. A bandit's paradise. I found The Satellite
Dish easily enough. A one-story blue stucco building, standing alone on a slab
of blacktop. Two long, narrow windows framing a set of double doors, the dark
glass covered with fluorescent promises: Go-Go Girls. Topless. Bottomless.
Exotic Dancers. I nosed the Plymouth
through the parking lot. General Motors must have held a white-on-white sale:
Eldorados, Buick Regals, Oldsmobiles. Vinyl tops, tinted glass, hand-painted
monograms on the doors. I left the Plymouth at the edge of the blacktop, dull
paint fading into the shadows. It looked abandoned. I stepped through the
double doors into a square foyer. White walls, red carpet. Hawk-faced guy in a
powder-blue double-knit suit sitting at a little table to one side. The joint
wasn't classy enough to have a hat-check girl - and not hard-core enough to
shake you down for weapons. "Ten bucks cover,
pal. And worth every penny," the hawk-faced guy said. His heart wasn't in
it. I paid, went through
the next set of doors. The place was bigger than it looked from the outside, so
dark I couldn't see the walls. A T-shaped bar ran the entire width of the room,
with a long perpendicular runway almost to the door. Small round tables were
spread all over the room. Two giant screens, like the ones they use for
projection TV, stood in the corners at each end of the long bar. The screens
were blank. The tables were
empty. Every man in the place was seated at the bar, most of them along the
runway. Hard-rock music circled from hidden speakers. Three girls were on top
of the bar. Two blondes and a redhead. All wearing bikini bottoms, high heels,
and sparkle dust. Each girl worked her own piece of the bar, bouncing around,
talking to the customers. The redhead went to her knees in front of a guido
with a high-rise haircut and diamonds on his fingers. She spun on the bar,
dropped her shoulders. The guido pulled down her panties, stuffed some bills
between her thighs, patted her butt. She gave him a trembly wiggle, reached
back and pulled up the panties, spun around again, ran her tongue over her
lips. Danced away. It was somewhere
between the South Bronx shacks where the girls would blow you in the back
booths and the steak-and-silicone joints in midtown where they called you
"sir" but wouldn't screw you out of anything more than your money. I found an empty
stool near the left side of the T. A brunette wearing a red push-up bra under a
transparent white blouse leaned over the bar toward me. She raised her
eyebrows, smiling the smile they all use. "Gin-and-tonic,"
I told her, putting a fifty on the bar. "Plenty of ice. Don't mix
them." She winked. I was
obviously a with-it guy. No watered drinks for this stud. She brought me a tall
glass of tonic, jigger of gin on the side. Put four ten-dollar bills back in
front of me. Class costs. "My name is
Laura," she cooed. "I go on after the last set. You going to be here?" I nodded. She took
one of the ten-spots off the bar, looked a question at me. I nodded. She
stuffed it between her breasts, winked at me, and went back to work. I left the
money on the bar. I sipped my tonic,
waiting. The music stopped. A
short, stocky guy in a pink sport coat over a billowy pair of white slacks
stepped to the intersection of the T. The lights went down. The house man hit
the stocky guy with a baby spot. He had a wireless microphone in one hand. "Here's what
you've heen waiting for . . . the fabulous . . . Debbie, and the Dance of
Domination!" The bar went dark
again. Most of the men moved to the back tables. A door at the right of the T
opened, and two dim shapes walked to the intersection. The music started. No
words, heavy bass-lines and drums. One of the shapes went off the stage. A hard white spot
burned the center of the T, making it into an isolated island. A black
straight-back chair stood by itself, thick high posts on each side. The giant
TV screens flickered into life. The camera zoomed in on the chair, filling the
picture. A blonde in a black
sheath came into the light. Black spikes on her feet, black gloves up to her
elbows. A black pillbox hat on her head, a black veil covering her face. She
sat down on the chair, crossed her legs. She tilted her chin up, waiting. I could hear the
humans breathing under the music, but there was no conversation. Topless
waitresses were working the darkness, stopping at the little tables, taking
orders for drinks. Business was booming. It was like no strip
act I'd ever seen. No playing to the audience - they were all watching through
a window. Quiet. Lost and alone in their ugliness. The stage went dark.
The music stopped. Herd sounds from the crowd. Nobody moved. When the spot came on
again, the blonde was on her knees, facing the crowd. She ran her hand across
her thighs, into her crotch, as the music built. Then she lifted the veil
slowly. The pillbox hat came off. The camera came in on her face. She licked
her lips, her eyes wide. As she opened her mouth, the stage went dark again. It stayed dark for a
couple of minutes. Cigarette lighters snapped in the crowd. Tiny red flares. Flood came into my
mind. I saw her struggling to work skin-tight pants over her hips, shifting
from toe to toe, flexing her legs. Bending over another chair, in another
place, the fire-scar on her rump dark against the white skin. I put the image
down - those bodies were buried. The lights came up
again, blaring rock music came back through the speakers, the TV screens went
dark. Three different girls were working the top of the bar, gesturing for the
men to come away from the little tables and get closer. I poured the gin into
the empty tonic glass, mixing it with the ice. The bargirl came back to where I
was sitting, bringing me another set; she put my empty glasses on a little
tray. "You like that
stuff?" "Not my
taste," I said. "Maybe later
you'll tell me what you like," she whispered, sweeping the rest of my
money off the bar, doubling her tip. I reached in my
pocket for another fifty. Waiting for Belle wasn't a cheap job. I figured Belle must
work as one of the back-table waitresses, but I didn't want to ask for her by name.
The tables stayed empty while the girls worked the top of the bar, so I'd have
to wait for the next number, move into the darkness by myself, look around. I
sipped my tonic, lit another smoke. I watched the girls
spread themselves on the long bar, as turned-on as a gynecologist. It was a good twenty
minutes and another half-century note before the guy in the pink jacket took
center stage again. "Cassandra," was all he said. The stage went dark
again. I could see shapes moving around, setting things up. This time I went
back to a table near the back wall. I took the tonic, left the gin. When the spot hit the
stage, a girl was seated on a padded chair, looking into a mirror. The camera
came in on her face. Belle. A mask of makeup making the soft lines hard, a
white bathrobe around her shoulders, a white ribbon around her hair. The speakers fired
into life. Nasty music, zombie-swamp blues, voodoo drums. Belle was taking off
the makeup, patting her face with cream. She shrugged her shoulders and the
robe dropped to her waist. Her breasts were enormous, standing out straight,
defying gravity in a white D-cup bra. The camera watched them in the mirror. She rose to her feet,
holding the robe in one hand at her waist like a skirt. The spotlight widened:
she was in a bedroom, white ruffled bedspread, white shag rug on the floor.
Belle stalked the white room, a young girl getting ready for bed. Running a
brush through her thick hair, maybe humming to herself. She opened her hand and
the robe dropped to the floor. Belle hooked it with one foot, delicately tossed
it onto the bed. With the robe off, it
was a different Belle on the screen. She faced the crowd in the white bra and
plain matching panties, bending slightly forward, as if she was looking out
into the night. The big woman wasn't fat; she was wasp-waisted. When she turned
sideways, the stinger was a beauty, standing out by itself, straining against
the fabric. The music came
harder. Her hips wiggled, like they had a mind of their own. She paced the
room, stretching the way a cat does, bending to touch her toes, working off the
restlessness, too wired to sleep. The speakers spit out
the music, sliding from the voodoo drums into words. Words I'd never heard
before. A man's voice, gospel-tinted blues now. Warning. Blood moon rising.
Slide guitar climbing on top of the drums, picking high notes, bending them
against the black fabric of the bass. The words came through at the bottom of
my brain; my eyes were locked on Belle. The swamp gets mean at night. Bloody shadows eat the light, Things that snarl, Things that bite, Things no man can fight. The music stayed
dense, but the tempo picked up. Belle cocked her head, listening. She unsnapped
the bra, carefully hung it on the bedpost. Her huge breasts didn't sag an inch.
She raised her hands high above her head, touching them together, standing on
her toes. She made a complete turn that way, a tiny smile on her face. Not a
muscle twitched in the smooth skin. Her body was as seamless as an air-brushed
photograph. Her shoes were gone. She stalked the little room again, listening
to the throbbing music, rolling her head on the column of her neck, working out
the kinks. A nurse, tired from a hard day's work? A waitress, finished with her
shift? The camera ran the
length of her body. Only the white panties on her hips, a thin gold chain
around her neck, a gold cross resting between her breasts. Some kind of blue
mark on the front of one thigh. Even with the camera zooming in, I couldn't
make it out. She rolled the
panties over her hips, down past her butt. It took a long time, but not because
she was teasing the audience - the panties had a long way to travel. Belle
picked them off the floor, fluffed them out, went over to the bed, and hung
them on the bedpost. On top of the white bra. The music drove
harder. Belle dropped to her
knees in front of the low bed. She clasped her hands. A little girl praying.
The camera moved from her broad shoulders, past her tiny waist, down to the
giant globes of her butt. The seamless skin was sweaty in the burning
spotlight. The words pushed back
the music. Yes, boy, you better beware, You better walk with care. You can carry a cross, You can carry a gun, But when you hear the call, you better run. There's worse things than gators out there. Worse things than gators out there. Belle's whole body
was shaking now. Trembling as the spotlight blended from white to blood-red and
back to white. She got to her feet and turned to face the crowd. She pulled
back the covers, slid into the bed. She fluffed the pillow, pulled the covers
to her shoulders, lying on her side. The mound of her hip was as high as her
shoulders. The music faded down. The lights dimmed. The music wouldn't
let her sleep. Her body thrashed under the covers. Drums working her hips,
guitar plucking her soft breasts. A blue spot burned down on her face buried in
the pillow, turning her taffy-honey hair a ghostly white. The spot turned a
softer blue, widening to cover the whole bed. The warning voice came back,
soft, demanding. Telling the truth, the way the blues always does. There's worse things than gators out there, boy. Much worse things than gators out there. Belle threw back the
covers, the music pulling her from the bed. She looked out into the night,
shook herself. She reached for her robe, put one arm into a sleeve. Then she
dropped the robe to the floor. The blue spot played
over her body as she walked into the darkness. When the lights came up,
I saw I had two more drinks in front of me. I hadn't touched them. The pile of
tenspots in front of me was lighter. I went back to my
spot at the end of the bar, no closer to talking with Belle than I'd been.
Laura came over to me, her little tray loaded with another gin-and-tonic in
separate glasses. She leaned over the bar. "You like that
act better?" I felt a hand on my
shoulder. "He sure does," said a little girl's voice. I didn't turn around.
I knew who it was. "Is this
yours?" Laura asked Belle. "All mine,"
Belle said. "I thought you
didn't like men," Laura said, a nasty little smile on her face. "I don't like
boys." Laura looked past me.
She reached her hand over to my pile of tens. Took one. Stuffed it in her
cleavage, looking over my shoulder. "Take two,"
Belle told her, razor tips on her breathy voice. Laura shrugged,
pretending she was thinking about it. She pulled another bill off the bar and
walked away. I felt Belle's face
close to mine in the darkness. Smelled her little-girl sweat. "Where's your
car?" she whispered in my ear. I told her. "Finish your
tonic. I'll meet you outside in ten minutes." I felt her move away. I was still on my
first smoke when I saw the floating white shape moving through the parking lot
toward the car. Belle. In a white shift a little smaller than a pup tent. She opened the door
and slid into the front seat. "Got a cigarette, big boy?" she asked,
her voice a parody. I gave her one.
Snapped off a wooden match, watching her face in the glare. It was scrubbed
clean again. She inhaled the way you take a hit off an oxygen tank. Her breasts
moved under the shift. Her thighs gleamed in the night. The blue mark was a
tattoo. A tiny snake, coiled in an S shape. She saw me looking. "You
like my legs?" "They look like,
if you squeezed them, you'd get juice." "Want to
try?" I put my hand on her
thigh, fitting the snake tattoo in the web between my thumb and finger. "Not that
one," she said. I moved my hand.
Squeezed. Felt the baby skin on top, the long, hard muscles beneath. I watched
her face. "No juice." "Not
there," she said, shifting her hips on the car seat. I took my hand away.
Lit another smoke. "How long were you watching?" I asked her. "How'd you
know?" "You knew where to
find me in the dark." "Maybe I worked
my way through the joint." "You knew I
wasn't drinking the gin." Belle took another
deep drag. "Maybe you are a detective," she said, a little smile
playing around her lips. "There's a strip of one-way glass that runs all
around the place. So we can see who comes in." I didn't say
anything, watching the snake tattoo. "You know why it's set up like
that?" "That joint can't be making money. The strip acts cost a lot
to package. The projection TV, the music system, all that. You're running a low
cover charge. You don't sell sex. Even with the guidos paying grope-money and
the watered drinks, the boss couldn't break even." "And . . ." "And the
building's a hell of a lot bigger than the bar." Belle took a last drag.
Threw her cigarette out the open window. "What's that tell you?" "Who knows? You
got space enough back there for trucks to pull in?" "Sure." "The airport's
real close . . ." My pack of smokes was
sitting on top of the dashboard. Belle helped herself to one. I lit it for her. "Marques said
you were a hijacker." "Marques is a
pimp." "I know. Not my
pimp. I work for me. That's why that bitch made that crack about me not liking
men. I don't sell sex." "If you did,
you'd be rich." That bought me
another smile. Then, "You came out here to tell me you're going to meet
with him?" "Tuesday
night." "Why
Tuesday?" "That's your
night off; right?" "So?" "So you're
coming along." "Says who?" "That's the
deal, Belle. Tuesday night. Pier 47. Marques knows where it is. Eleven o'clock.
Tell him to bring two grand. Tell him that's mine. For the talk." "That's a lot of
money for talk." "You get paid
for your work - I get paid for mine." Belle took another
drag. "What time will you pick me up?" "I won't. Tell
Marques it's gunfighters' rules - we each bring one person with us. He gets to
bring you." "I don't use
guns." "Neither does
the guy I'm bringing with me. Tell Marques what I said. He'll get it." "I don't want
Marques knowing where I live." "Tell him to
meet you someplace." "And after . .
." "I'll take you
home," I told her. "Should I call
you and tell you if he . . . ?" "Don't call me.
I'll be at the pier. Just tell him if he doesn't show not to call me
again." "You take me
home anyway." "Yes." Belle leaned against
me. A big, sweet-smelling girl with a snake tattoo on her thigh. She pushed her
hand against my chest, holding me against the seat. Kissed me hard on the
mouth, saying, "See you Tuesday," at the same time. I watched the white
shift dance in the dark parking lot until it disappeared behind the blue
building. Max was already dealt
in on the meeting with Marques. I could get a message to the Mole easy enough,
even if he didn't answer his phone. That still left me a few days to find the
Prof. It might take that
long. The little man could be sleeping in doorways or prowling hotel corridors.
He could be working the subway tunnels or the after-hours joints. He never had
an address, but you couldn't call him "homeless." I asked him once
why he didn't find himself a crib somewhere - why he lived in the street.
"I got the balls, and I don't like walls," he told me. He didn't have
to explain any more than that - we'd met in prison. I think "Prof'
was once short for "Professor," because he always seemed so much
older and smarter than the rest of us. But somewhere along the line, he started
telling the kind of truth they never write down in books, and now it stands for
"Prophet." A citizen couldn't
find the Prof, but I knew where he picked up his paycheck. A few years ago, I'd
fixed him up with SSI. Psychiatric disability. His official diagnosis was
"Schizophrenia. Chronic, undifferentiated." The resident at Bellevue
noted the Prof's grossly disorganized thought pattern, his grandiose pronouncements,
his delusion that he was getting his marching orders from the dead spirit of
Marcus Garvey. A typical microwave case. They tried medication and it did what
it usually does - the Prof got sleepy. It was worth the thirty-day investment.
When they discharged the Prof, they gave him a one-week supply of medication, a
standing appointment at the clinic, and what the little man called his
"crazy papers." Once a year, the federales
would send a letter to the Prof demanding a "face to face." He had to
make a personal appearance at the clinic. Not to prove that he was still crazy,
just that he was still alive. Uncle Sam likes to keep a close watch on his
money. It was a two-sided
scam. Not only did the Prof get a disability check every month, but the diagnosis
was a Get Out of Jail Free card in case he ever went down for something major.
Nothing like putting an insanity defense together before you commit the crime.
The government mails him the check to General Delivery, at the giant post
office on Eighth Avenue, right across from Madison Square Garden. There are so
many homeless people in New York that the General Delivery window does more
business than most small towns. I addressed a
postcard to the Prof. Wrote "Call home" on the back, and dropped it
in the box. By late Tuesday
evening, I had everything in place. I ate dinner at Mama's, working over my
copy of Harness Lines, looking for a horse that would make me rich. Max came in,
carrying his baby, Immaculata at his side. Mama snatched the baby from Max and
pushed him toward my booth. She took Immaculata into a corner of her own. I saw
a flash of pink as the purse changed hands. I explained to Max
that there'd be five hundred apiece for us no matter what Marques wanted. We
weren't going to rough off any extras unless the pimp got stupid. He pointed at
the racing sheet I had spread out in front of me, looked a question. I shook my
head - there was nothing worth an investment. Max held up five
fingers, looked a question. He knew Marques was paying four times that - where
was the rest of the money going? It wasn't like Max to ask. Maybe a baby
changes everything. I held one hand chest-high, waving the other in sweeping
gestures. The Prof. Then I made goggles of my hands, held them over my eyes.
Max looked a question. I made the sign of pushing a plunger with both hands,
setting off an explosion. The Mole. He looked another question - why all these
people for a meeting? I spilled salt on the table, drew a circle. I put two
coins inside the circle. Marques plus one coin. He was bringing somebody with
him. I put down two more. Me and Max. Then I added the Prof, tapping the side
of my head. I didn't know what Marques wanted and I might have to give him an
answer right there. The Prof knew the hustling scene - he'd be more on top of
Marques than I would. I picked up one more
coin, gesturing that it was the Mole. Put it on the table, deliberately outside
the circle. Patted my back. Insurance policy. Max nodded. Immaculata came over
to the table, put her hand on Max's shoulder. "Burke, is this
dangerous?" "Not a chance,
Mac," I said, making the sign of steering a car. "You think I'm going
to let Max drive?" She laughed. Max
looked burned. He thought he could drive the same way he walked: with people
stepping aside when they saw him coming. But weasels who wouldn't meet his eyes
on the street get big balls when they're behind the wheel. Driving a car, he
was a rhino on angel dust. Max kissed Flower
goodbye. Mac held the baby's little hand at the wrist, helping her wave goodbye
to her father. We found the Prof
where he said he'd be, standing by a bench at the east end of the park in Union
Square. When he saw the Plymouth pull up, he hoisted a canvas sack over one
shoulder and walked to us. The Prof was wearing a formal black tuxedo, complete
with a white carnation in the lapel. The shiny coat reached almost to his feet,
like a cattleman's duster. Some chump was going to be poorly dressed for his
senior prom. "Yo, bro', what
you know?" he greeted us, climbing in the back of the Plymouth like it was
the limo he'd been waiting for. I turned west on 14th, heading for the river. The Prof poked his head
between me and Max, linking our shoulders with his hands. "What's down,
Burke?" "Like I told
you, Prof. Marques Dupree wants a meet. He went to a lot of trouble to get to
me - walking around the edges. He's supposed to bring two G's with him.
Four-way split. All we have to do is listen to his pitch." "Who's the
fourth?" "The Mole will
be there. Off to the side." "You want me to
ride the trunk?" "No, we go in
square. I don't know what he wants, okay? I may need a translator," "The street is
my beat," said the Prof. Max looked straight
ahead. We got to the pier
around ten-thirty. I pulled the Plymouth against the railing, parked it
parallel. The pier was deserted except for a dark, boxy sedan parked about a
hundred feet behind us. We all got out. Max
was dressed in flowing black parachute pants and a black sweatshirt. Thin-soled
black leather shoes on his feet. He disappeared into the shadows. The Prof
stood next to him. I leaned against the railing a few feet away. We waited. Max
and the Prof took turns smoking, Max bending forward every time he took a drag
when it was his turn. A watcher would see the little red dots, murky shapes.
Two people. Headlights hit the
pier. A big old Rolls-Royce, plum-colored, with black fenders. I could see two
heads behind the windshield. The Rolls parked at right angles to the Plymouth.
Two doors opened. The Prof and I stepped into the outer fringe of the
headlights, letting whoever was in the car see us. Two people came
toward us. Belle was a shapeless hulk in a gray sweatsuit. Even with sneakers
on her feet, she was as tall as the man next to her. Marques Dupree. A
chesty mahogany man with a smooth, round face. He was wearing a dove-gray silk
suit with a metallic pinstripe. Deep-slashed lapels over a peach-colored shirt.
Sprayed in diamonds. He and Belle stopped in front of me. "You're
Burke?" "Yeah." "Who's
this?" Indicating the Prof. "My
brother." "You don't look
like brothers." "We had the same
father." Marques smiled. I
caught the flash of a diamond in his mouth. "I never did time,
myself." I didn't want to swap
life stories. "You want to do business?" I asked him. Marques put his hand
in his pocket, pulled out a roll of bills. A car door slammed. He didn't turn
around. "What's that?" "Just checking
your car. Making sure you didn't bring friends." "You said one
friend apiece." "You said you
never did time." Another door slammed.
I lit a cigarette. Two more slamming doors. A bright burning dot of light fired
where the dark sedan was parked. Okay. "Your trunk is
locked," I said. "I don't need to open it. Let's walk over this
way." I moved to my left,
farther away from the parked cars. Marques kept his cash in his fist. "Here it
is," I said. "If anyone opens your trunk, there's a big bang. Okay?
Everything goes right here tonight, goes like it's supposed to, my friend takes
the package off your trunk. Understand?" "No problem. You
said two large?" I nodded. Marques peeled
hundreds off his roll, letting me see the two thousand was nothing. I pocketed
the cash. Marques turned to
Belle. "Go sit in the car." She turned to go,
nothing on her face. "Stay where you are," I said. Marques shrugged, his
face showing nothing. I knew what was in his mind - if Belle was a hostage, she
was a worthless one. I lit a cigarette.
Max materialized out of the night. Marques jumped, his hands flying to his
face. Max reached out one hand, picked up the Prof by the back of his jacket,
and hoisted him to the railing. Marques slowly
dropped his hands. "You got a lot of friends, huh?" "A lot of
friends," I assured him. He adjusted his
cuffs, letting me see the diamond watch, getting his rap down smooth before he
laid it out. Pimps don't like talking on their feet. "I paid for some
time." "Here it
is." Marques took a breath
through his nose. It sounded hollow. Cocaine does that. His voice had that
hard-sweet pimp sound, promise and threat twisting together like snakes in a
basket. "We never met, but we know each other. I know what you do - you
know what I do. I have a problem. A business problem." I watched his face.
His eyes were narrow slits in folds of hard flesh. I backed up so the Prof
could put his hand on my shoulder. "I'm
listening." "I am a player.
A major player. I got a stable of racehorses, you follow me? All my girls are
stars. All white, and all right." The Prof laughed.
"You got nothing but tire-biters and streetscarfers, my man. One of your
beasts sees the front seat of a car, she thinks it's the Hilton." Marques looked at me.
"Who's this, man? Your designated hitter?" "No, pal. He's a
polygraph machine." "You know my
action or not?" I felt the Prof's
hand on my shoulder. A quick squeeze. "Yes," I
said. "Then you know I
don't run no jail bait, right? No kiddie pross in my string?" Another squeeze from
the Prof. I nodded agreement. "I am an
elevated player, you understand? That ride cost me over a hundred grand, and I
got a better one back at my crib. I wear the best, I eat the best, and I live
the best. I don't associate with these half-ass simps who think they can run on
the fast track. I don't hang around the Port Authority snatching runaways. I
don't wear no leopardskin hats, I don't flash no zircons, and that ain't no
Kansas City bankroll in my pocket. My ladies are clean machines, and they're
all of righteous age. I got lawyers, I got a bondsman, and I got my act
together, all right? I don't make trouble, and I don't take trouble." The Prof spoke up,
his voice a near-perfect imitation of the pimp's. "Okay, Jim, you ain't
Iceberg Slim. We got the beat, get to the meat." Marques smiled.
"You got some rhythm, man. The little nigger does the rapping, you just
stand there." "I talk the
talk, Burke walks the walk," the Prof told him. Marques wasn't a good
listener. "What's the chink do, man? You going to send out for Chinese
food?" The Profs voice went
soft. "This is Max the Silent, pimp. You hear the name, you should know
the game." Recognition flashed
in the pimp's eyes. "He's the one . . ." "That's right,
fool," said the Prof, cutting him off. "Max ain't
Chinese, but he sure as hell does take-out work." "You done with
the dozens?" I asked. "Yeah, man,
let's drop the games. I know you're a hijacker, I know you run guns, I know you
do work on people. I need some work done." "I don't work
for pimps." "I know that,
man. You think everybody on the street don't know who shot Merlin?" "I don't know
any Merlin." "Yeah, right.
'Course you don't. But I know Merlin was no player, man. He was a stone rapist
- that's what he was. Jumping on those little girls like an animal. Whoever
shot him did all the real players a favor." "So?" "So you got no
beef with me, man. I know you used to rough off trollers in Times Square - take
them down right in the bus station. I know you chase runaways. See what I'm saying?
I know you. That's why I didn't call myself. Didn't want you to get the wrong
idea." He waved his hand at Belle. "I paid this bitch real money just
to put you and me together." "That lady don't
look like no bitch to me," the Prof said. "Don't look like one of
yours either." Belle stepped
slightly to the side, flashing a tiny smile at the Prof. "She don't need
to be mine to be a bitch, man. They all sell their time." "I didn't know
you were a philosopher, Marques," I told him. "And I don't give a fuck.
The only time you bought here is mine. And you've about used it up." Marques locked eyes
with me. "You know the Ghost Van?" he asked. The Prof's hand bit
into my shoulder. I nodded. The pimp went on as
though I'd said no. "Big smoke-colored van. No windows. A few weeks ago,
it comes off the river on Twenty-ninth. I got ladies working that block. Van
pulls past the pack. Stops. One of the baby girls, not mine, she trots over.
The doors swing open and she drops in the street. Nobody heard a shot. The other
girls get in the wind. Papers say the little girl was fourteen. Shot in the
chest. Dead." I lit another smoke.
Beads of sweat on the pimp's smooth face, his hands working like he didn't know
where to put them. "The next week,
two more shootings. Two dead girls. One fifteen, one nineteen. I move my girls
over to the East Side, but the pickings too slim there. This van must come off
the river. The girls say it's like a ghost. One minute everything's cool; the
next this gray thing is on the street. Taking life. "Last week, one
of the little girls gets in a blue Caddy. The Caddy goes up the street. One of
my ladies gets curious; she pokes her head around the corner. Two guys get out
of the Caddy, holding the girl. She's kicking and screaming. They throw her into
the Ghost Van. The Caddy drives off and the van just fucking disappears. "My ladies don't
want to work. The street's like a church social, man. I move the girls again.
Way downtown. Brooklyn. The Bronx. Everyplace, man. Three more girls been shot,
one more snatched. All near the river. But even out of the city, working girls
be saying they seen the van. Like a hawk coming down. The girls see the shadow,
they run." "What do you
want from me?" "Cops is all
over the street. My ladies got to work someplace. If they can't work near the
river, I got a serious deficit, you follow me? Between the Man and the van, I'm
up against it. Until they take that van off, my girls are running scared,
jumping at shadows. That hurts me, man." "In the
pocket." "Yeah, okay,
Burke. You a good citizen, right? You look down on me - that's your business.
But this is your business too, the way I hear it." "How's
that?" "The van is full
of shooters and snatchers, man. And babies is what they hit. Right up your
alley, right?" "Wrong." "Look, man,
let's all be telling the truth here. The word's been out a long time - you got
a kiddie problem, you call Burke. I know you ain't no social worker. You an
outlaw, like me. You just work a different side of the street." "I work for
money." "You think I'm
here for myself? The players got together. This is bad for everyone, not just
Marques Dupree. We put up a kitty." "Pussy put up
the kitty," said the Prof. "Call it like
you see it, it make you feel better. I call it what it is." I waited. "A bounty. Fifty
thousand bucks. Dead or alive. The van's got to go. Goes to Attica, goes to
Forest Lawn, makes no difference to us." "Hire a private
eye." "I said a
bounty, man. I look like a fucking trick to you? We not paying anyone by the
hour." "Put the money
out on the street." "Can't do
that." "Why?" "We can't wait
for some faggot to drop a dime. And we can't be sure the Man will do the work
anyway." "Why not?" "We heard the
van's protected. That's all I know. But the word is out, all over the street.
Uptown, downtown. The van has to have a parking place, you got it?" The Prof's hand
worked on my shoulder again. "Yeah," I
said. "It's good
money, Burke. I'll work out any collateral you want." "You're carrying
your collateral." Marques looked
puzzled. "My jewelry?" "Your
head," I told him. He took another deep
breath. "You'll do it?" "I'll think
about it." "You need to
know anything else?" he asked. "When the van
goes down, we'll be around," said the Prof. "Let's go,
bitch," Marques said to Belle. "She'll go with
me," I said. Marques Dupree
smiled. "You like cows?" "Go home and
play with your coat hangers," I told him, waving to the Mole. So Marques
could open his trunk later without losing his collateral. The Rolls moved off.
"Wait in the car," I told Belle. She waggled her fingers at the Prof
in a goodbye. "Good night, pretty lady," he said. Max stood
stone-still. I watched her walk
away. "Prof, you know
what he was running down?" "The van's for real,
Burke. It's been all over the street for weeks." "You know
something?" "Something. When
I know it all, I'll give you the call." I gave Max his five hundred, a
thousand to the Prof. "Take care of
the Mole - he'll drop you off." Max bowed. I shook hands with the Prof.
"Watch yourself," I told him. I got into the
Plymouth. Belle was sitting against the passenger door, looking out at the
river through the open window. "Where to?"
I asked her, watching the dark sedan pull away. Belle reached into
the waistband of her sweatsuit, pulled out a pack of smokes. I handed her my
little box of wooden matches, waiting. She inhaled deeply. It was like watching
the Alps shift. "You know Broad
Channel?" "Sure." "I'll show you
once we get on to Cross Bay Boulevard." I pointed the
Plymouth downtown, heading for the Battery Tunnel. "How'd you meet
Marques?" "When I first
came to New York. I was working at Rosie's Show Bar." "Dancing?" "I was a
barmaid." "He try and turn
you out?" "He thinks I'm a
lesbian. Okay?" She knew the score.
Plenty of lesbians turn tricks, but a smart pimp doesn't want one in his
stable. One day he turns around and he's missing two girls. "They think the
same thing at that joint you work at?" "The boss doesn't
care one way or the other." "So why did
Marques pick you for a messenger?" "It's one of the
things I do. I carry stuff, drive a car, deliver a message . . . like that, you
know?" "You carry
powder?" "No." "That's where
the money is." "The fall's too
far." "You ever been
down?" "Just overnight
a couple of times. Once for a week. ln West Virginia." "What for?" "The cops
thought I drove on a bank job. They didn't want me - I was just a kid - they
wanted the gunman." "They only held
you a week?" She caught something
in my tone. "I stood up, Burke. The P.D. got bail for me and I caught a
bus north. I know how to do It - if I go to jail, I go by myself." "You never did
time - where'd you learn the rules?" Belle smiled in the
dark. Slapped the side of one thigh. "Maybe I'm too heavy to roll
over." I looped the Plymouth
onto the Belt Parkway, heading east to Queens. A red panel truck ahead of me
changed lanes suddenly, cutting me off. I tapped the brakes, flicked the wheel
to the right, touched the gas. The Plymouth flowed around the panel truck like
a shark passing a rowboat. Belle wiggled her hips deep into the seat, testing
her balance. "This car's a
lot more than it looks." "So are
you." Her smile flashed
again. A prim smile, showing just the tips of her teeth. I wheeled the
Plymouth off the Belt, picking my way through Ozone Park. No reason for Marques
to have the car followed, but Belle said she played by our rules - she wouldn't
want the pimp knowing where she lived. We stopped at a light. An abandoned
factory stood to the side, waiting for a developer to finish the job a fire
started years ago. It was wallpapered with graffiti except for a broad
rectangle in the center that somebody had carefully whitewashed. On that white
canvas was a message, lovingly slash-scripted by a gifted graffiti-writer.
Day-Glo orange letters, shadowed in black so they screamed off the wall. DISS AT YOUR OWN RISK! Belle read the
message, fascinated, going over every word, biting her lower lip. "What does
it mean. 'Diss'?" "It's short for
'disrespect.' This is a border town. Black and white." She didn't say
another word until we turned onto the Boulevard. I followed her directions into
Broad Channel. Mostly little bungalows, set close together, right on the water.
Years ago they were summer shacks, but most of them had been fixed up now, and
people lived there year-round. The cottage was at
the end of a short block. White with blue trim around the one window, the dark
roof almost flat across the top. Her red Camaro was parked in front. "This is
me," she said. I slid the Plymouth
to the curb, killed the engine. The block was quiet, every house dark. "Come in with
me?" Belle asked. The cottage was set close
to the sidewalk, the path to her front door only a few feet long. She turned
her key in the door, pushed it open, stepped aside. The inside of the house was
in shadow; a soft light coming from the back. Belle motioned me to go ahead of
her. "You first,"
I said. A little smile.
"You being polite? Or scared?" "Scared." She walked in ahead
of me. I watched from the doorway, gently pushing the door back and forth with
my left hand, feeling for resistance. Belle bent from the waist in the shadows.
I heard a click. A lamp came to life. She rnoved a few feet. Another. "Close the door
behind you," she said. The cottage was one
big room. A long modular couch took up one wall, side tables with lamps on
either end. The kitchen was strung out along the opposite wall,
Hollywood-style, everything half-size. The side walls were blank, no windows. "You want
coffee?" "No,
thanks." I lit a cigarette,
walking toward the couch. The back of the house was still dark. I could see a
triple-width window next to a door on the far left, a bed on the right. Belle pulled the top
of the sweatsuit over her head, tossing it into a white plastic basket next to
the refrigerator. Her black bra was some kind of jersey material, the straps
crossing behind her back so her shoulders were bare. She stepped out of the
sweatpants. Underneath she had what looked like a pair of men's white boxer
shorts. She took her coffee
cup in one hand, a pack of cigarettes in the other. Walked to the back door. I opened it for her,
followed her outside. A wood deck stretched out in the black water, a
waist-high railing on both sides. The other cottages had decks too. I saw a
small sailboat tied to one, a rowboat with an outboard to another. Belle walked
out to the end, carefully balancing her coffee cup. "Hold this,"
she said, handing the coffee and cigarettes to me. She turned her back to the
water, one palm out to each side, and vaulted herself onto the railing. I put
the coffee cup on one side of her perch, handed her back the smokes. She kicked
one out, leaned forward, one hand on my shoulder for balance. I lit it for her. I could feel the
night air's chill through my jacket. Belle didn't seem to notice. I leaned my
elbows on the railing next to her, watching the harbor lights a half-mile away.
I felt her hand on my shoulder again. "Did you really
do all that stuff?" A soft voice, loaded with her breath. A girl's voice.
The twisted snake tattoo stood out sharply on her thigh, inches from my face. "What
stuff?" "What that guy
said tonight." "No." She giggled the way
kids do when they know you're playing with them. "Yes, you
did," she said. I shrugged. "I have
something you might be interested in," she said, her voice quiet. "You got
something anybody'd be interested in." She giggled. "I didn't
mean that. Business. Can I tell you about it?" "Not here." "Why?" "Sound carries
over water." She put an arm around
my neck, pulling her face close to mine. Whispering. "You think I don't
know that? I was raised on the water. Inside." "Okay." I turned toward the
house, slipping an arm around her waist. She slid off the railing against me,
her legs pointing straight out. I threw up my other arm instinctively, grabbing
her thighs. Belle nestled into my arms. "Carry me," she said,
soft-voiced. "I'll get a
double hernia," I growled at her, leaning against the railing for support. "Please." I would have shrugged
again, but I needed all my strength. She ducked her head
into my chest as we went through the door, pushing it closed with her toe. I
tried to put her down on the couch gently, but I dropped her the last couple of
feet. I flopped down next
to her. "I love to be carried," she said, leaning over and kissing my
cheek. "Don't get used
to it." Belle bounced off the
couch. She came back in a minute. Put her coffee cup in the sink, lit two
cigarettes off the gas burner, walked over, and handed one to me. "You
first," she said. I dragged deep on the
cigarette, wondering how she knew. "That music . .
." "In my
act?" "Yeah. Swamp
blues. I never heard it before. Louisiana?" "Florida. It's
an old record. I don't even know the singer. I found it in a store in the
city." "How do you know
it's from Florida?" Belle got off the
couch. Walked over to the darkened bed. She hit a light switch. The bed was
low, covered in white, a white rug on the floor. It was the bed in her act. She came back to the
couch, pulling her bra over her head as she walked. Turned off the two lamps on
the end tables, one by one. She stretched out full-length on the couch, her
head in my lap, facing up at me, eyes closed. Even with her arms at her sides,
her breasts stood straight up at me, carved in flesh. Her face was
indistinct in the soft light, her eyes lost in the sheaf of taffy-honey hair.
No lipstick on her mouth. Only the tiny chin with its sharp point moving. "I'm from
Florida. When I heard that song, I knew it was a home call. Understand?" "Yeah." She took my hand,
pressed it to where her breast covered her heart. I could feel the beat.
Strong, slow, steady. "What did you think
of my act?" "I never saw
anything like it before." "Each girl gets
to design her own. As long as our clothes come off before the lights go
out." "It's a
psychiatric mirror." "A what?" "A psychiatric
mirror. You do your act - people watch it - they all see something different -
if you knew what they were thinking, you'd know them." "Like that
inkblot test?" "Just like
that." Belle sighed. A tiny
slash of white across her face where she chewed her lower lip. "It's true.
Men send notes backstage." "You ever answer
them?" "No. I'm like
you." "What does that
mean?" "I don't work
for pimps either." "You could work
for yourself." "I do work for
myself - I'm not for sale." She reached for my
cigarette, ignoring her own. Put it in her mouth, took a deep drag. The smoke
shot out her nose. I watched her stomach muscles flex. "Did it work on
you?" "What?" "My act - did
you think of something?" I bit into the
cigarette filter. "I saw it like a play. Young girl coming into herself.
Things pulling at her. Evil calling. "Tell the truth
- you saw a play?" 'Like a play. It all
meant something." "Not what you
think." "Yeah, exactly
what I think. That's the way the mirror works." Belle pulled herself
into a sitting position, her back to me. She got to her feet, took my hand.
"Come on," she said. She walked over to
the bed. Put a hand against my chest. "Stay here," she said. She
hooked her thumbs into the waistband of the shorts, pulling them over her hips,
dropping them to her feet. She stepped out of the shorts and padded to the bed.
She fell to her knees, bent forward onto the bed, her hands clasped in front of
her. "Tell the
truth," she said again, her little-girl voice almost hissing. Demanding.
"What did you see?" I looked at the
shadows play over her body. "I saw a young girl. Praying." "What did it
make you want to do?" she whispered, looking back at me over one shoulder,
wiggling her butt. I took a breath.
Telling the truth. "Answer your prayers," I told her. Her little chin came
up, smile flashing. "Come on," she said She stayed on her
knees, watching me over her shoulder. She cocked her head to one side,
listening as my clothes hit the floor. "Where's your
gun?" "I don't have
one." "Marques
did." "I know - in his
left-hand pocket," I said, standing next to her, my hand on her shoulder. She came to her feet,
facing me. Without the heels, she was maybe a half-inch shorter than me. Her
eyes were set so close together it was hard to look into them. I ran two
fingers along her jawline, feeling for bone lost in the soft flesh, cupping her
little chin. I kissed her softly, feeling her lips swell. Her teeth clicked
against mine. "How'd you know
he had a gun?" she asked, her tongue darting out, whispering into my
mouth. I moved my hands to
her waist, and down to her sculptured butt, feeling the soft skin, squeezing
the hard muscles beneath the surface. She locked her hands behind my head and
fell backward, pulling me down with her. The bed was hard. No
springs squeaked when our weight came down. I landed on top of her, but she
slid out from underneath me slick as an otter leaving a rock in the water. She
snuggled into my chest, nudging me onto my back with her shoulder, one hand
trailing across my stomach, throwing a thigh over mine. She burrowed her face
into my neck, her whole body quivering. "You have to
tell me," she whispered. "I have to know those things." "Why?" She reached her free
hand between my legs, wrapping it around me, rubbing the tip with the pad of
her thumb. "You think this is the answer to my prayers?" "I had
hopes," I said. "Come on, honey.
How'd you know?" "When you walked
up with him, he didn't want you on his left side. When you moved away, he was
more relaxed." "So?" "So either he
was carrying on his left side or you were holding a piece for him." "How'd you know
I wasn't?" "You kept your
hands free. The clothes you had on - that sweatsuit - you couldn't get to it in
time. Besides, you weren't his woman." "Because I said
so?" "The way you
carried yourself." She stroked me
gently, her mind somewhere else. Mine wasn't. "What if you
were wrong?" "Huh?" "What if I was
carrying?" "You're not fast
enough to make it work." "Not fast enough
for you?" "For Max." "Which one was
Max?" "The guy that
didn't speak." "He was ten feet
away from me." I shrugged. She shifted her
weight, holding her head in one hand, her elbow cocked against the bed. Her
breast was an inch from my face. The dark nipple looked tiny against the white
globe. I kissed it. Her hand pulled against me in response. "He's really
that fast?" "Faster." Belle moved her head
into my chest again. Her hand slid down the shaft, cupping my balls, lifting
them gently, like she was trying to guess their weight. Her voice was all soft
curves, hardness flexing underneath, the same as her body. "Tell the
truth. When you saw me in the club - in the play - and you wanted to answer my
prayers?" "Yeah?" "What did you
want to do?" "I'm not sure .
. ." "Tell me!"
she whispered hard against my chest, her hand closing on me. "I wanted to
rescue you," I said. She moved her hand
back to the shaft, shifting her body on top of mine, fitting me inside her. She
was wet - I slid in like a bullet being chambered. Her hands were on either
side of me, taking her weight, her breasts brushing my face. I moved my hands
to her butt as she started to grind against me. Her mouth came down
to mine. "Rescue me," she said. When I woke up a while
later, Belle's face was on the pillow next to mine, her body still covering me.
I couldn't see my watch. I flexed my shoulders to see if I could slide from
under her without waking her up. "You want a
cigarette, baby?" "I didn't know
you were awake," I said. "I never went to
sleep. I've been here all along." "How come you
didn't get up?" "I was guarding
you," she said, her face close to mine. "I knew the only way you'd
sleep is if I didn't move." She padded over to
the kitchen, opened a door next to the refrigerator. I heard water running.
Belle came back with a big glass ashtray, cigarettes and matches inside, a
washcloth over one shoulder. She bent over me, set the ashtray on the far side.
She put a cigarette in her mouth, fired it up, handed it to me. Lit one for
herself. She smiled down at me
in the darkness. "Are you my boyfriend now?" I thought I was going
to laugh - it came out kind of a snort. "Your boyfriend?" "Yes, my
boyfriend." "What does that
mean?" "I don't know. I
never had a boyfriend. But if you rescued me, you have to be my boyfriend,
right?" "If that's what
it takes to rescue you, there must have been a thousand applicants for the
job." She bent to kiss me.
"You're a sweet man. But that was a down payment. I'm not rescued
yet." She ground out her
cigarette, pulled the washcloth off her shoulder. Started to clean me off, not
being that gentle about it. The washcloth was wet, warm. I felt myself growing
in her hands. I finished my
cigarette. Belle was still scrubbing me like she was going to use my cock for
surgery, kneeling on the floor, her body at right angles to mine. I lit
another. She tossed the washcloth aside, climbed on the bed, her knees next to
my chest. She bent forward and took me in her mouth, her butt in the air,
blocking my view of the rest of the world. She took her mouth
from me, peeking back over one shoulder, licking her lips. "Put out your
cigarette." "Why?" "I don't want
you to burn me." "I wouldn't burn
you." She caught the
warning in my voice. "I didn't mean on purpose, honey," she
whispered. "I know you're not like that." I held the cigarette
in my left hand, took a deep drag, my right hand stroking her outside thigh. "Just don't keep
it in your mouth," she said, bending forward again, nibbling at my cock.
She swallowed the engorged tip, sucking hard. I put the cigarette in my mouth,
dragging deep, letting the smoke bubble out my nose, lost in the feeling. Belle moved her
inside foot against me, sliding it onto my chest. I shifted the cigarette to my
left hand as she threw her leg over, straddling me, her butt still in the air,
now squarely in front of me. She wiggled her rear, sucking, working her tongue.
I took another drag. Her butt came down, moving toward my face. I flashed my
right hand hard against her cheek, a sharp crack in the quiet room. She pointed her butt
in the air again, pulling her mouth off me. "Was that a message - or did
you just want to see what it felt like?" "A
message," I told her. "Why didn't you
just tell me?" "There wasn't
time." She pivoted on her
knees so her face was close to mine. "You don't want to taste me?" "No." "Why not, honey?
Don't you think I'd be sweet?" "It's not
that." "You think a man
doesn't do stuff like that?" I snubbed out the
cigarette. "I don't think that. It's just not me." "Prison?" "It's not that
simple. There's no code against it." I laughed. "The only cons who
swear they've never eaten a woman are pimps." Belle rubbed her face
against my chest. "Wouldn't you do something to make me happy?" "Some. Things. You
understand?" "I'd do whatever
you want." "The only way it
works is if you do what you want, Belle. That's the only thing that goes the
distance." She lit a cigarette
for herself. "Do you have a
woman?" "Yes." "With you?" "No." "Where is
she?" "I don't know." The tip of her
cigarette flared. "But you love her - you're waiting for her?" "Yes." "She's coming
back?" "I don't
know." She ran her hands
through her hair, holding it in a bun on top of her head, looking down at me. "Will you love
me?" "I never thought
I would love her," I said. She held the
cigarette to my mouth. Her face was intent in the light it threw. She didn't
have to ask me to tell the truth - he knew it when she heard it. "I'm going to
love you, Burke. And you're going to rescue me." She moved her hand away
from my face, leaving the cigarette in my mouth. "If I try to sit
on your face again, you going to give me another smack?" "You want me to
tell you another way?" She spun on her knees
again, bending her face down again. She looked back over her shoulder.
"No, send me another message. I like the way you did it." Her mouth locked onto
me again. I went hard in her mouth. She rubbed her thighs together. My hand
stroked her butt. Her thighs opened. I stroked my fingers against the back of
her knees. A liquid drop fell into my hand. I felt the pinpricks of pressure in
my balls, tightening into a thick mass. I hooked my hand around the front of
her thigh, pulling her toward me. She wouldn't move, sucking harder now. Strega
flashed into my mind - Strega and her witch games. I jerked her thigh hard,
trying to pull her face off me. It was rigid as a cell bar. "Belle," I
whispered. "Come here." She didn't move. I
cracked her hard against the same cheek I'd hit before. She made a humming
noise but stayed where she was. I hit her twice more, feeling the sting in my
palm, wondering what she felt. Her mouth came off my
cock. She crawled forward on the bed, throwing a leg over me. She pushed her
butt between my legs until I was smoothly inside her, moved to her knees,
straddling my body, her back to me. "Come on!"
she said, her voice hard, bucking until we both got there. She slept then. On
her stomach, one arm flung across my chest. I slipped under it, found the
bathroom. It was small-scale, like the kitchen. Cheap black-and-white tile
covered the floor and ran halfway up the wall from the tub. The hot water came
up right away; the pressure was good that time of night. I took a quick shower,
used some of her Brand-X shampoo, toweled myself off. The little medicine
cabinet was empty except for a toothbrush and a bottle of aspirin. A plastic
hairbrush and a bottle of green mouthwash stood on the sink. I wondered where
she kept all her makeup . . . maybe on the dressing table near her bed. The bathroom was full
of steam, the mirror cloudy. I wiped it off, looked at my face. Whatever she
wanted, she hadn't seen it there. My foot hit something
under the sink. A black metal box with a latch on the front, carry-handle on
top. I popped it open. Sterile bandages, individually wrapped. A roll of gauze.
Elastic tape. Three scalpels with different-sized blades. A pair of surgical
scissors. A bottle of iodine. Two more of sulfa powder. A pair of matching
plastic vials, both full, unlabeled. I opened them. Penicillin. Percodan. There
was no tag on the metal box, but I knew what it was. Bulletwound kit. The refrigerator had
a half-empty carton of milk, a lump of cream cheese, and a head of lettuce
under a plastic wrap. I found some ice cubes, filled a glass, let it get cold
while I got dressed. I sipped the water in
the easy chair near her bed, smoking, trying to think it through. A Ghost Van
in my mind. Belle rolled over on
her side as her eyes came open. "This time you guarded me," she said. "I've got to
go," I told her. "Let me take a
shower first." She didn't wait for an answer, shoving past me to the
bathroom. It was still dark outside - my watch said it was almost four-thirty. She came out of the
bathroom brushing her hair, her body gleaming wet. "Why do you have
to go?" she wanted to know, stepping close to where I was sitting. "There's
something I have to take care of." "What's her
name?" she asked, a mock-growl in her voice. "Pansy." She pulled back.
"You better be kidding." "Pansy's a dog.
My dog." She giggled.
"You have a dog named Pansy? You tie ribbons in her hair and all
that?" "She's about
your size." "I'd like to see
that." "You will." "Can I come with
you?" "Not this time,"
I said, getting to my feet. She put her arms
around my neck, pushing her nose so close to mine that my eyes went out of
focus. "You'll be back here tonight?" "I thought you
had to work." "I'll call in
sick. Most of the girls do that after their night off - it's no big deal." "Okay," I
said, running my hands down her smooth back to the swelling of her rear. "What are you
thinking?" "I was thinking
if I pressed a quarter against your back and let it go it would fly off your
ass like it was a ski slope." She slipped her hand
between us, patting my crotch. "You got a quarter in there
someplace?" "No," I
said, pushing gently against her. "I have to go - no joke." She put her hand in
mine, walking me toward her door. "Burke, you know when you didn't want to
taste me? You said that wasn't you, right?" I made a yes noise,
walking with her. "That's okay.
You can be you. It's okay that I keep dancing?" "If that's what
you want to do." "I'm telling the
truth now, Burke. I'm going to love you. And you're going to love me too, when
you see how I am. But I have to be me while I do it, understand?" "I'm not arguing
with you, Belle." She put her mouth on
my ear, whispering in that little-girl breathy voice, holding my hand tight.
"I'm me. You don't change for me - I don't change for you. But I wouldn't
let you dance." "That means
what?" Her voice was pure
and sad in my ear. "If Pansy's a dog, like you said, I'm going to pat her.
If she's a woman, I'll kill her." She kissed me on the
cheek, pushed me away, stood to the side while I stepped out the door. I looked back at the
cottage as I climbed into my car. It was dark. The Plymouth tracked
its way back to the office, its monster motor barely turning over. The all-news
station was talking about Kuwaiti ships flying the American flag in the Persian
Gulf, minesweepers guarding the point. I flipped to the oldies station.
Screamin' Jay Hawkins. "I Put a Spell on You." Growling his
love-threats to his woman and to the world. I don't care if you don't want me, I'm yours Right now. Belle would know he
was telling the truth. Most of the traffic
was trucks, highballing it toward the city. A customized van passed on my
right. Big glass doors cut into the side, a plastic bubble on its roof. As it
went by, I saw a narrow metal ladder running from the bumper up to the roof. A
mural was painted on the back - some religious scene. I lit a smoke. The
van I was looking for was a custom job too. I knew that meant something, but I
couldn't lock in on it. It would come. If Marques was right,
the van had been working for a few weeks now. Time enough for the police to be
on the job. I flicked my cigarette out the window, wondering if McGowan was
working nights. Bob Seger came
through the radio. "Still the Same." Motor City blues. Somebody once
said it was about a guy catching up with his old girlfriend, but it never
sounded like that to me. It sounded like a kid
catching up with his father. I let Pansy out to
her roof. Picked up the phone on my desk, checked for hippies. All quiet. I
dialed a number. "Runaway Squad,
Officer Thompson speaking." A young woman's voice. "Is McGowan
around?" "Hold on." I lit a smoke,
waiting. Any other detective bureau in the city, they ask you who's calling.
The Runaway Squad knows most of the callers won't give their names. "McGowan,"
said the voice on the phone. The same hard-sweet voice pimps use, but McGowan
did it different, giving you your choice. "It's Burke.
We're working the same case. Got a few minutes to meet with me?" "I'm off at
eight. Breakfast at Dino's? Eight-fifteen, eight-thirty?" "I'll be
there," I told him, and put down the phone. Pansy ambled in, rested her
head in my lap. I patted her. "You're always glad to see me, aren't you,
girl?" She didn't answer me. I pushed her head off
my lap, helped myself to a drink of ice water from the refrigerator. I took out
two hard-boiled eggs, cracked them against the wall, peeled off the shells. "Wake me in an
hour," I told Pansy, handing her the eggs. I closed my eyes so I
wouldn't see the mess she made. When I opened my
eyes, it was seven-thirty. I took another shower, changed my clothes: I let Pansy
out again, watching her run around while I took a deep slug of Pepto-Bismol.
Eating at Dino's on an empty stomach was dangerous. I drove north on the
West Side Highway, moving against the snarled rush-hour traffic. Dino's was on
Twelfth Avenue, about ten blocks south of Times Square. Yuppies in New York are
heavy into diner food now, but Dino's wasn't going to make the list. McGowan's unmarked
cruiser was parked right out front, empty slots on either side. I pulled in,
not wasting my time trying to spot him through the greasy windows. He was sitting in a
booth near the back corner, hat tipped back on his long Irish face, cigar in
his mouth. Wearing a dark suit, a shirt that had once been white, a blue tie
that had never been silk. I sat across from him, my back to the door. We'd
known each other a long time. He shook his head
sharply before I could open my mouth, tilting his chin up. Somebody coming. It was only three
hours into her shift, but the waitress was already tired, her broad face lined
with strain. Still, she had a smile for McGowan. They all did. "Good morning,
lovely Belinda," he greeted her. "How's the play coming?" "It comes about
like I do, McGowan. Not too often." "Nothing good
comes easy, my little darling," he said, turning aside gloom like a
bullfighter. He took one of her hands, holding it in his, patting her. "Belinda, it was
your choice. A lovely young girl like you, the boys would be all over you and
they had a chance. But it's not the life of a housewife for my girl, is it now?
Your play will come. Your day will come." "Ah, McGowan . .
." she said, trying to sneer at his blarney. But the smile came out, like
they both knew it would. "Give me two of
your finest eggs, sunny-side up. Bacon, toast, and some Sanka, will you,
girl?" She wrote it down,
turned to me. "Two eggs, fried
over hard, break the yolks. Ham, rye toast, apple juice. Burn everything." "You got
it," the waitress said, moving away, the bounce back in her walk. McGowan puffed on his
cigar, knowing we wouldn't talk until the food came. "How's
Max?" "The same." "I heard he was
a proud papa." "That's on the
street?" "Sure," he
said, watching me closely. "Any problem with it?" I shrugged. No point
asking McGowan where he got it - maybe from one of the little girls he brought to
Lily's program, maybe . . . The food came and we
ate. It didn't take either
of us long. Swallowing it wasn't as bad as looking at it. The Senator's Motto. Belinda cleared our
plates. McGowan settled down over his second cup of Sanka, relighting his mangy
cigar. "So?" "The Ghost Van -
you know it?" "Everybody knows
it." "Any more than
what's been in the papers?" "A bit. What's
your interest?" "Some people
want me to find it." "And take it off
the street?" "It's just an
investigation. The people who want me to do this job don't have anything
personal at stake. For all they care, I find it, I could call the cops." McGowan leaned across
the table, his Irish blues going cop-hard. "It's personal to me, Burke.
The swine shot one of my girls." "When?" "The second
shooting. Little girl named Darla James. Fifteen years old, and on the stroll
for the last two. I was close to taking her off the track. Real close, Burke.
They put two into her chest at twenty feet - she never had a prayer." I lit a smoke,
watching his face. McGowan had been working the cesspool for twenty years and
he'd never fired his gun. He won some and he lost a hell of a lot more, but he
always kept coming. He played the game square, and we all respected him. "You want me out
of it - I'm out of it," I told him. "I want you in
it, pal. In fact, I was going to put it out on the wire last week for you to
come around. These are bad, bad people, Burke." "How do you make
it?" He puffed on the
cigar, his eyes still hard, but not looking my way. "Has to be a vigilante
trip. One of those sicko cults. They're shooting the poor little girls to fight
the devil. Or maybe they're sacrificing bodies to Satan. It all comes out the
same." "You sure?" "I'm not sure of
anything. I'll tell you what we have - it's precious little enough." I kept my hands on
the table, where he could see them. McGowan would know I don't write things
down, but he looked upset enough to forget. "Tell me,"
I said. "There's been
five girls shot, not the three the papers reported. And two snatched - not just
the one everybody knows about. Ballistics says they were all shot with the same
piece. Military hardware, probably an M-16, or one of those Russian jobs.
High-speed ammo. Ballistics says the slugs were twenty-two-caliber." "They mean
5.56-millimeter. About the same thing." "Whatever,"
McGowan snarled. He wasn't a forensics man. "The girls were all torn up
inside - ripped to pieces. Dead before they hit the ground." 'You ever find either
of the girls who were snatched?'' "Not a
trace." "Were all the
girls underage?" "Either that or
they looked it." "You sure it's
random?" "We thought of
that. Questioned half the pimps in Times Square. We can't make a
connection." "Who's 'we'? The
Commissioner got a task force working on this?" McGowan's laugh was
too ugly to be cynical. "Task force? Sure, and why would they be doing
that? It's not like it was citizens getting killed." I sipped my apple
juice, thinking out loud to draw him in. "Seems like a strange piece to
use . . ." McGowan's eyes
snapped into focus. "Why?" "It's not an
assassin's weapon. Doesn't have the shock power of a heavier slug. That high
speed's a waste at such close range. The bullets fly so fast that they tumble
around as soon as they hit something. That's why the girls were so torn up
inside. And it makes a hell of a bang - real hard to silence." I took another drag,
thinking it through. I wasn't playing with McGowan: it really didn't make
sense. "Automatics jam," I told him. "You know that - that's why
they don't let you guys carry the nine-millimeters you want. So why risk an
automatic when you're only going to fire off a couple of shots? And if it was
so random, why didn't they just sweep the street? With an M-16, they could chop
down a dozen girls just as easy as one. You check with ATF?" "They're too
busy looking for Uzis. The guy I talked with said what you said. Doesn't even
have to be a military piece - there's all kinds of semi-auto stuff floating
around – AK-47s, AR-15s. Takes ten minutes to convert them to full auto, he said." "It's still the
wrong gun for killing at close range. A heavier piece, even if you hit someone
in the arm, you'd blow it right off. They'd be dead before the ambulance got
there." "Maybe it's all
they have?" "Doesn't add up.
This is an expensive deal, McGowan. And for what?" His honey voice
turned sour. "Couple of bullets and gas money - it don't sound so
expensive to me." 'You ever find the
van?" "No. So?" "So they didn't
dump it after the shootings. So they have to have a place to stash it. They got
to have at least a driver, a hooter, and another guy to fling open the doors.
And the snatch . . . they had a switch-car for that, right?" "Where'd you
hear that?" "Out
there," I said, pointing vaguely out the greasy window. "Yeah. We found
the switch-car. Took it apart, piece by piece. We got some decent prints, but
no match." "Anything
else?" "There's no
pattern. No thread. The girls didn't know each other. Two were on the runaway
list, but that doesn't mean anything. Half the little hookers out there were on
the list one time or another." "Any mail?" He knew what I meant.
Some serial killers have to tell the cops how clever they are. "No letters. No
phone calls. Blank fucking zero. It's so bad the pimps aren't even afraid to be
seen talking to us - they want these guys off the street too. I even heard talk
about a bounty . . ." His eyes locked on mine. "You hear anything
about a bounty, Burke?" I met his stare.
"No." It didn't impress the
cop. He knew where I'd been raised. "People like that
. . . who knows what could happen if they were arrested. A smart lawyer . . .
maybe some kind of NGI deal . . . drop a few dimes. Maybe they'd make it a
goddamned miniseries." NGI. Not Guilty,
Insanity. "Better they don't get arrested," I said quietly. His eyes were ball
bearings. I headed back to my
office, weaving through the West Side blocks, checking the action. It looked
the same to me. If the Ghost Van was trying to keep baby pross off the street,
it wasn't working. I couldn't pick up the scent - you have to work close to the
ground to do that. If it was out there, the Prof would find it. Called Mama from a
pay phone. Nothing. Back at the office, I
let Pansy out to her roof. I had a few more calls to make, but they'd have to
wait until the afternoon. Pansy ambled over to
the desk, where I was working on the racing form, making that snarling noise
she does when she's trying to tell me something. I knew what she wanted.
"I was at Dino's," I told her, explaining why I hadn't bought her a
present. There was a trotter I
fancied in the fourth race at Yonkers. Mystery Mary, a five-year-old mare,
moving down from Canada. She'd been running in Open company at Greenwood,
finishing pretty consistently in the money, but no wins. She had a lot of early
speed, which is unusual for a mare, but she kept getting run down in the deep
stretch. Greenwood is a five-eighths-of-a-mile track - a long run from the
three-quarter pole to the finish line. Yonkers was a half-miler - a longer
launch and a shorter way home. She was moving up to higher purses in New York,
but I thought she had a shot if she could get away clean. I checked the last
eight races. Mystery Mary was a surefooted little trotter - no breaks on her
card. The morning line had her at 6 - 1. Most of the OTB bettors would use the
Daily News as a handicapping form. All that would show is her last three outs:
two thirds and a fifth-place finish. I made a mental note to call my broker
before the close of business, flipped on the TV, and kicked back on the couch.
The last thing I remember before falling asleep was Abbott telling Costello
that paying back rent was like betting on a dead horse. It wasn't a good
sleep. Dark, fleshy dreams. Flood facing the Cobra, the snake on his arm
turning into the tattoo on Belle's thigh. Strega licking her bloody lips, crazy
eyes full of ugly promises. The Ghost Van zoomed up a narrow street, a silent
gray shark. Max at the end of the block, waiting, shielding Flower in one arm. I woke up before the
crash, sweating like when I'd had malaria. Sergeant Bilko was on the TV. A
little past three o'clock. I took a shower,
changed my clothes. Pansy jumped on the couch as I was walking out the door. Mama still had
nothing for me. I dropped another quarter, called Maurice. He answered in his
usual breezy style. "Yeah?" "It's
Burke." "This a social
call, or what?" "Yonkers. Give
me the two horse, fourth race. A deuce to win." "At Yonkers.
Horse number two, race number four. Two on the nose, is that right?" "Right. How you
doing, Maurice?" "You want
conversation, play fucking Lotto," he said, hanging up. I changed phones, fed
another quarter. I don't know why they make dimes anymore. I rang the
direct-line number of a reporter I know. "Morelli." "It's Burke. You
got anything outside the clips on this Ghost Van?" "Bullshit
gossip. Cop talk. Nothing good." "The cops thirik
they're close?" "They're waiting
for the van to get a parking ticket." "Can you pull
the clips for me?" "You
looking?" "Looking around,
anyway." "You'll clue me
in front?" "If I can." "I'll pull the
clips, leave them downstairs by six. Okay?" "Yeah. Could you
do a NEXIS spin too? See if there's any more van jobs around the country?" "You think it's
a group?" "No, but check
anyway." "You got
it." One more call. Belle
answered on the first ring, sounding like she ran a hundred yards to snatch it
off the hook. "Hello?" "It's me. Want
to get some dinner?" "Oh, I'm
starved. There's nothing in the house." "I know. Why
didn't you go out?" "I knew you were
going to call." "I said . . .
never mind. I'll pick you up in an hour, okay?" "Hurry up,"
she said. I put the phone down,
moving fast to beat the charge out of the city. I pulled in behind the
red Camaro a little after five. The door opened as my fist came down to knock.
A hand came around my neck, pulling me inside. Belle mashed her face against
mine, kissing me hard, firing her hip at the door to close it. She pulled her face
back a couple of inches, still holding on to me. "That was a cold
kiss. Didn't you miss me?" "I was working,
Belle." Her mouth went down
at the corners. "I'm sorry," she said. "I didn't mean to push
you." I put my hand on the
back of her neck, working the tight muscles, keeping my voice quiet. "You're not
pushing me. You don't know me, okay? I don't show a lot on the surface -it's
not my way." "You did miss
me?" "I did miss
you." She twirled away,
flashing a smile. Her face was all made up, the blue eye shadow making her eyes
look bigger, bright lipstick smeared on her teeth. She was wearing a
fire-engine-red T-shirt big enough for a linebacker. It fell to mid-thigh, just
covering the tattoo. "I'm just about
ready, baby. Give me a minute. I have to find my shoes." She scooped a pair of
glasses from the dressing table. Big round lenses with a light-blue tint,
sitting in a thin black plastic frame. "Here they are," she said
happily, dragging a pair of red spike-heeled shoes from under the bed. "Belle." She was bending forward,
slipping on the shoes. Black panties that didn't have a prayer of covering her
rump peeked out as the T-shirt rose. "What, honey?" "You're going
out like that?" Her face fell.
"You don't like it?" Damn. "It's not
that," I said quietly, walking over to her, taking her chin in my hand.
With the spikes on, she was taller than me - l had to look up into her eyes. "You go on the
street like that, every man that's not brain-dead is going to remember
you." "So?" "So it's not my
game to attract attention, girl. The places I have to go - I don't make
reservations, understand?" "You like me
better when I'm all covered? When I look like a big fat cow?" "I like you the
same. It's you I like, yes?" "Yes?" "Yes!" I
said, slapping her rear. She grabbed my hand,
pulled it around to her butt. Held it there. "You like this big fat
thing?" I looked deep into
her eyes, watching a tear run down her cheek. Keeping my voice quiet:
"Belle," I told her, "it works on me like a hormone shot." She never took her
eyes off mine. "Burke, I'd do anything for you." "Will you put on
a pair of pants?" "Sure, baby.
I've got just the thing." She rummaged through
a chest of drawers, throwing clothes on the bed. Finally, she pulled out a pair
of white overalls, the kind with suspender straps. She kicked off the high
heels and stepped into the overalls, pulling the straps over her breasts. She
wouldn't disappear in a crowd, but at least she wasn't flashing a hundred yards
of skin. "You look beautiful,"
I said. She threw me a smile,
lacing up a pair of dirty white sneakers. "I'm ready," she announced,
bouncing off the bed to me. She wasn't the only thing bouncing. "Belle . .
." "What now?" "Could you put
on a bra too?" She took off her
glasses, unsnapped the suspenders, pulled the red T-shirt over her head. She
found a white bra with heavy shoulder straps. Slipped into it, hooked it in
front. "I didn't know
they made them that big," I said, watching her. "Boobs?" "Bras." She slapped me on the
arm, smiling, pushing me to the door with her hip. I held the car door
open for her. She slid across and flicked the inside handle to let me in. I
wheeled the Plymouth in a tight U-turn and headed back to the city. When we hit
the highway, I shoved a cassette into the dash. Belle sat with her back against
the door, feet on the seat between us, hands clasped around her knees. Smoking
and listening. Charley Musselwhite's harp barking its challenge on
"Stranger in a Strange Land." Buddy Guy driving his mojo north to
Chicago, Junior Wells riding shotgun. Lightning Hopkins being sly about
grown-up schoolgirls and John Lee Hooker threatening anyone with an eye for his
woman. Paul Butterfield riding the mystery train. The tape looped over
to the Brooklyn Blues. One group after another slipped through the speakers and
surrounded us. The Jacks, the Chantels, the Passions. When I heard Rosie and
the Originals, the clear, high voice of the girl singer hitting "Angel
Baby" like no one else ever could, I kicked out the cassette. I felt Belle's eyes
on my face. "Remind you of something?" "Yeah," I
said. Dancing with Flood in the warehouse garage, helping her pull it back
together before her last fight. I should have erased the fucking thing. We were heading
toward the Midtown Tunnel. I pulled into the Exact Change lane, tossed a
two-dollar token into the basket, and slid into the right lane. When we pulled
up outside the magazine stand on Second Avenue, it was already past six. "Go inside and
tell the guard you're there to pick up a package from Mr. Morelli," I
said. She didn't ask any
questions. She was back in a minute, tossing a thick manila envelope on the
seat between us. "Where're we
going, honey?" "You wanted to
meet Pansy," I said, pointing the car downtown. I tucked the Plymouth
into the garage, showed Belle the back stairs, motioning her to go ahead. Her
swaying hips narrowed the staircase. She knew how to act -
didn't make a sound on the way up. When we got to the office door, I gently
pushed her to one side while I worked the locks. I went in first, saying
"Pansy, jump!" as soon as I did. She hit the floor, paws out in
front, her monster's head tilted up to watch Belle. I made the hand
motion that said everything was okay, and told Belle to come in. "This is
Pansy," I said. Belle stood on the
threshold of the office like she was rooted. "Good sweet Jesus! That's a dog?
He looks like a swamp panther. What kind is it?" "She's a
Neapolitan mastiff. The most beautiful Neapolitan mastiff in the world, aren't
you, girl?" I asked Pansy, rubbing her head. Pansy growled agreement, her
tongue lolling in happiness. Belle hadn't moved. "Go sit on the
couch," I told her. "It's okay." Belle obediently went
to the couch, sat down like she was in church, knees pressed together, hands in
her lap. I spread my arms wide, telling Pansy she was released. The beast
plodded over to Belle, sat in front of the couch, cocked her head. Belle didn't move.
Pansy rammed her head into Belle's lap, shoving at her hands, demanding a pat.
Or else. "She won't hurt
you," I said. Belle gave Pansy a
halfhearted pat on the head. The beast made a rumbling noise in her chest.
Belle jerked her hand away. Pansy shoved her head back in Belle's lap. "She just wants
to be friends." "Burke, I swear
to God, she's scaring me to death." "That's her
happy noise," I assured her. "How much does
she weigh?" "About the same
as you." "I'd kiss you
for that if I wasn't scared to move off this couch." I went into the next
room, pulled a couple of strips of steaks out of the refrigerator, tossed one
at Pansy, saying "Speak!" as I did. The steak disappeared. I threw
the other piece on the floor and watched Pansy drool over it. "Why won't she
eat it?" "She's waiting
for the word." "What you just
said?" "Yep." Belle looked at
Pansy, said "Speak!" in the same tone I'd used. Pansy ignored her.
"It only works when you say it?" "That's
right." "Well, say it,
then. The poor dog's dying for the meat." Pansy flashed Belle a grateful
look as I gave her the word. As soon as she polished off the steak, she came
back to the couch. Belle patted her with a bit more confidence. "I think
she likes me, Burke. Does she do any more tricks?" "Those aren't
tricks," I told her. "Pansy works. Just like you and me." I threw Pansy the
signal and she came over to the door. I opened it and she disappeared into the
dusk. "Where's she
going?" "To the
roof." "It must be
beautiful - can we go up there?" "Belle," I
said, "trust me. That roofs one place you never want to go." "Can I get
up?" "Sure. it's okay
- Pansy understands." I showed Belle the
rest of the office. I let her poke around by herself while I laid out the clips
Morelli got for me on the desk, thinking I should have heard from the Prof by
then. Belle walked in, put
a hand on my shoulder. "Pansy will know me from now on?" "Sure." "So if I came
here by myself . . . if I had a key . . . she'd let me in?" "She'd rip you
to pieces, Belle." "Oh," she
said in her little-girl's voice, watching as Pansy came back inside and curled
up in a corner. I stubbed out my
cigarette, anxious to get in the street, see if the Prof had called in. "Want some
dinner?" "If you do,
baby." "I thought you
were starving." "I can wait for
what I want," she said, her voice still too small for her body. "I
waited for you." So she went through a
lot of rйsumйs looking for the ideal hijacker. Big deal. "Let's go,"
I told her. Belle was still
rubbing my shoulder, watching the dog. "Will she get jealous if I kiss
you?" "She couldn't
care less." "That's my kind
of girl," Belle said, and kissed the side of my mouth. The joint I took her
to just says "Bar" over the green metal door. A hustlers' hangout off
West Street, it serves decent food in the back room, all the tables set aside
in booths so people can do business. I left Belle in the
booth to call Mama from one of the pay phones in the bar. I dialed the number
that rings at her desk, in the front of the restaurant. She said something in
Cantonese. "Anything?"
I asked. "No calls,"
she said, recognizing my voice. I hung up, went back
inside. A redhead waitres was talking to Belle. I recognized her as I got
close. MaryEllen. She'd been working there for years. It was a nice quiet
joint, no grab-ass drunks, all business. "What'll it
be?" she asked, like she'd never seen me before. My kind of place. "You
order?" I asked Belle, watching her settle into the booth. Sitting down,
she was shorter than me - I guess most of her height was legs. "I waited for
you, honey." I looked up at
MaryEllen. There's no menu, but the food doesn't vary much. "We have some
real nice shell steaks." I looked a question
at Belle. She nodded. "One medium and one . . ." I looked at Belle
again. "Rare," she said. I ordered a ginger ale. "You have beer
on tap?" Belle asked. MaryEllen shook her head no. "What
brand?" "Cold,"
Belle said, smiling at her. Maybe she had been
starving - Belle TKO'd her steak in the first round. She had two more beers and
half my potatoes before I was halfway through. "You want another
one?" I asked her, joking. She nodded happily. Even with the head start,
we finished about the same time. MaryEllen cleared the
plates off. I lit a smoke. "Don't they have
dessert?" Belle asked. "Not here,"
I told her. "You want coffee?" "Can I have ice
cream later?" "Sure." I was smoking my
cigarette, thinking about the Prof. Belle sipped her coffee, watching me
quietly. I felt a hand on my shoulder, a lilac-and-jasmine smell. Michelle.
Wearing a wine-colored silk sheath, a black scarf at her throat. She looked a
question at me. I moved over so she could sit down next me. She gave me a quick
kiss as she slid in, turned to look at Belle, talking to me out of the side of
her mouth. "Hi, baby. Who's
your friend?" "Michelle, this
is Belle." Michelle held out a
manicured hand. "Hi, honey." "Hello,"
Belle said, shaking her hand. Holding on to it too long, watching my face. Michelle took her
hand back, figuring it all out in a split second. "Don't look at me like
that, girl. This ugly thug's my brother, not my lover." Belle's mouth
twitched into a half-smile. "He's not so ugly." "Honey,
please!" Belle laughed.
"He's got other fine qualities." "I know,"
Michelle said. Belle's face went
hard. "Do you?" Michelle stiffened,
her claws coming out. "Look, country girl, I say what I mean. And I mean
what I say. Let's put it all out, okay? I never had a brother until Burke came along.
I love him - I don't sleep with him. Wherever you go with him, I don't want to
go. And where I go with him, you can't go. Get it?" "I get it." "Get this too.
You want to be my friend, you come with the best recommendation," Michelle
said, patting my forearm. "You want to be a bitch, you came to the right
place. I'll be here after you're gone, girl." "I'm not going
anywhere," Belle said. "Then let's be
friends, yes?" Michelle said, her sculptured face flashing a deadly smile. "Yes,"
Belle said, reaching over and taking my hand. Michelle took one of
her long black cigarettes from a thin lacquer case and tapped the filter,
waiting for a light. I cracked a wooden match. She cupped my hand around the
fire, gently pulling in the smoke. Belle watched Michelle as if she had the
answer to all her questions. Michelle fumbled in
her huge black patent-leather purse. She pulled out a sheaf of photographs.
Terry. In a blue blazer with gold buttons, wearing a white shirt and a striped
tie, his hair slicked down. "Isn't he handsome?" she asked me. "A living
doll," I assured her. Michelle jabbed me in
the ribs with her elbow. "Pig," she snapped. She held the photos out
to Belle. "My boy." Belle took the
pictures. "He is handsome. Does he go to boarding school?" I laughed. Michelle
jabbed me again. "He most certainly does, honey. One of the most exclusive
in the country, I might add. And if it wasn't for certain people teaching him
bad habits . . ." "Don't look at
me," I said. "The Mole does
not smoke," Michelle said, ending the discussion. "How old is
he?" Belle asked. "He's almost
twelve." "He's going to
be a heartbreaker when he gets older." "Just like his
mother," Michelle said, ready to talk about her favorite subject for the
next few days. "I can't find
the Prof," I told her, bringing her back to the real world. "Well, honey,
you know the Prof. He could be anywhere." "He was supposed
to call in, Michelle. We're working on something." "Oh." "Yeah. Will you
. . . ?" "I run on a
different track now, baby. But I still have my associates in the right spots.
I'll throw out some lines, okay?" "Tonight?" "I have a late
date - I'll make some calls before I start. If you don't hear by tomorrow, give
me a call and I'll take a look myself." "Thanks,
Michelle." She waved it off. I got up to call Mama
again. She answered the same way. "Anything at
all?" "Nothing. You
worried?" "Yes." "Call later.
Leave number, okay?" "Okay." When I got back to
the booth, Michelle and Belle were yakking it up like old pals. Michelle had
Belle's face in her hand, twisting it different ways to catch the light. The
big girl didn't seem to mind. I sat down, lit another smoke, listening to
Michelle rattle on. "You draw the
eyeliner away from the center, honey. Separate those eyes. And we use a sharper
line here" - drawing her fingernail across Belle's cheekbone -
"for an accent. Are you with me so far?" Belle nodded
vigorously, not trying to talk while Michelle was grabbing her face. "Now the mouth .
. . we use a brush, yes? We paint a thin line just past the lips, then we fill
it in with a nice dark shade. Widen that mouth a bit. Then we . . . Oh, come
on," Michelle said, standing up, dragging Belle by the hand. "We'll
be back in a minute," she said to me. I ignored her. I knew
what a minute meant to Michelle. I knew what it meant when the Prof didn't call
in. It was two ginger
ales and a half-dozen cigarettes before they came out of the ladies' room,
Michelle still leading Belle by the hand. They both sat across from me. I had
to look twice. Belle's soft face was sharpened, different. Her eyes looked set
farther apart, bigger. Her cheekbones stood out, her tiny mouth was more
generous. And her hair was pulled over to one side, tied with Michelle's scarf. "You look
beautiful," I said. "You really like
it?" she asked. "Honey, face it,
you're a traffic-stopper," Michelle told her. "All it takes is a
little work." "Michelle,
you're a doll," Belle said. "They all say
that." Michelle smiled. "Don't they, Burke?" "Among other
things." Michelle was in too
good a mood to pay attention to me. "Stripes," she said to Belle.
"Vertical stripes. You're big enough to be two showgirls, sweetie. And
watch the waist -you cinch it too tight, your hips look huge. "He likes my
hips," Belle said, smiling at me. "All lower-class
men like big hips, honey. Don't pay attention to him." Belle looked at me.
"You've got some family. A little black brother and a big Chinese one. And
a gorgeous sister." Michelle flashed her
perfect smile. "It's the truth, girl." She gave each of us a kiss.
"I've got to go to work - my baby needs violin lessons." Belle kissed her
back. "Thanks, Michelle. For everything." "Fry their brain
cells, honey," she said, "and watch the walk." A quick
over-the-shoulder wave and she was gone. I was stopped at a
light at 43rd and Ninth when
Belle's baby voice poked through the mist in my brain. "Honey . .
." "What?" "We've been
driving around for two hours. Around and around. You haven't said a word to me
- you mad at me for something?" I took a breath,
glanced at my watch; it was past eleven. I was just going to make one quick
sweep of the city, see if I could spot the Prof. I replayed the path in my
head: both sides of the river, Christopher Street to Sheridan Square, across Sixth
Avenue to 8th Street, back
downtown to Houston, across to First, through the Lower East Side to Tompkins
Square Park, outside the pool-room on 14th up to Union Square, across to Eighth Avenue and up into
Times Square, working river to river into midtown. And back again. Driving
through the marketplace, somebody selling something every time the Plymouth
rolled to a stop. Crack, smoke, gravity knives, cheap handguns, watches with
Rolex faces and Taiwan guts, little boys, girls, women, men dressed like women.
Cheap promises - high prices. Murphy Men selling the New York version of safe
sex -the hotel-room key they sold you wouldn't open the door, and they wouldn't
be standing on the same corner when you went back to ask for better directions.
Islands of light where flesh waited to take your money - pools of darkness
where wolf packs waited to take your life. And vultures to pick your bones. Something else out
there too. Something that would make the wolves step aside when it walked. I looked over at
Belle. She was facing out the windshield as though she didn't want to see my
face, twisting her hands together in her lap. It hurt my heart to watch her -
it wasn't her fault. "You're a good, sweet girl," I told her.
"It has nothing to do with you; I'm looking for my friend." "The little
black guy?" "Yeah." "I've been
looking too," she said, her voice serious. "You think we should get
out? Ask around?" I patted her thigh.
She was down for whatever it took - knew I had to do this. I couldn't explain
how it worked to her. Asking around for the Prof could get him in deeper than
he already was. I drove back to the
river, turned downtown until I saw a pay phone. Mama still had nothing for me.
If the Prof had been swept up by the cops, he'd get a call out sooner or later.
Nothing to do but wait. I sat on the hood of
the Plymouth, feeling the warmth of the engine through my clothes, watching the
Jersey lights across the river. I felt compressed. Things were moving too fast
- not like they were supposed to. Belle was inside my life without the
preliminaries. We'd made some deals without talking them over - she'd been in
my office, Michelle was showing her baby pictures and giving her makeup advice.
I was going to help her hijack some hijackers. All too fast. The Prof was lost
somewhere in the freak pipeline under the city, and I couldn't go after him
without spooking the shadows. I got back into the
car, started the engine. "I'll take you
home," I said. "Will you stay
with me?" "I have to leave
a phone number. Where I can be reached tonight." "Why don't we go
to your house?" "There's no
phone there," I told her. She hadn't put it together that I live in my
office. She lit a smoke,
watching me, her voice soft. Not pushing. "What if I don't want my number
given out?" "It's okay. I'll
drop you off. See you soon, all right?" "No!" It
sounded like she'd start crying in a minute. "You can leave my phone
number. I know it's important, Burke. I'm sorry, okay?" "Yeah." "Can't we go to your
house first?" I looked a question
at her. "So you can pack
a suitcase." I tried to smile at
her, not knowing if I pulled it off. "I can't stay with you, Belle. Not
while this is going down." "But when it's
over . . ." "Let's see what
happens." She moved close to
me, gave me a quick kiss. "Whatever happens," she said. I pointed the
Plymouth out of the city. It was past two when
I called Mama from Belle's phone. I gave her the number where I'd be, told her
I'd call when I went on the move again. She didn't tie up the phone lines
telling me not to worry. "Where's the
nearest pay phone?" I asked Belle. "About four
blocks down. Outside the grocery store on the right." "I'll be back in
a few minutes," I told her. "Honey, why
don't you use this phone? If it's none of my business, I can step outside on
the deck until you're finished." "It's you I'll
be calling. Make sure your phone works, okay?" She watched my face.
"Whatever you say." I found the pay
phone, called Belle's number, listened to her answer, hung up. The walk back didn't
help - I could work it out in my head easy enough, but the answers were no
good. The Prof was dead reliable. If he hadn't called in, he was in trouble, or
he was dead. Either way, I had a debt. Belle let me back in.
I checked the phone; the cord was long enough to reach anyplace in the little
cottage, even out onto the deck. I asked Belle for a fingernail file. Then I
flipped the phone over, opened it up, checked the contact points, making sure
the bell would work. I closed it back up, turned the dial on the underside to
the loudest setting. I put the phone back on the end table near the couch,
watched it. Belle's voice came
through the fog. "You can do everything to phones but make them ring,
huh?" The room came back
into focus. Her face was scrubbed clean, but the glow was gone. "What is
it, Belle? You look like you're afraid of me. "I'm afraid of
you shutting me out." "This isn't
yours," I told her, my voice flat. Belle's hands went to
her hips. Her little chin tilted up, eyes glistening. "What kind of a
woman do you think I am?" she demanded. I shrugged, knowing
it was cruel, locked into my own course. She moved closer,
taking up all the space between us. "I said I was going to love you,
Burke. You think I'd make you tell the truth and not do it myself?" "No." "You think I
told you the truth?" "Yes." "You know what I
want?" "Sure." She bent down to
where I was sitting, pulled the cigarette out of my mouth, pressed her nose
against mine. "Tell me what I
want." I didn't move, didn't
change expression. "The back of the joint where you work - it's like a
suitcase with a false bottom. Plenty of room back there. Armored car gets hit
at the airport - the hijackers take off running. But they don't go far, right?
They pull in the back of the joint, stash the getaway car, and walk into the
club. When the cops come looking, they've been there for hours. An alibi and a
hideout all in one. Easy to come back in a few weeks. Move the cash out."
I took the cigarette out of her hand, leaned back, took a deep drag. "How
do they get rid of the getaway car - chop it down? repaint it back there? drive
it into the back of a moving van, dump it in the swamp one night?" She didn't answer me.
Just watched. "All that money
just sitting there. Clean, unmarked bills. Probably two or three good jobs
stashed in one place. Couple of hundred grand, minimum. Wouldn't be the first
time somebody turned around and hit the syndicate. Hijackers aren't like
numbers runners - that's why they don't make good employees." I took a last drag,
stubbed out the butt. Feeling her eyes burn on my skin. "Whoever set
this up, it's a big operation. Costs a lot of cash to front. The syndicate
probably takes a piece from every hijacking at the airport. That's the way
they'd do it. I know how things work. All the young mob guys want to do today
is move product. They leave the armored cars and the banks to the
independents." I lit another
cigarette, thinking back to the way I used to be. Telling the truth, the way
she wanted it. "A good thief,
he can't stand to see a big lump of cash sitting around. Just a matter of time
before some crew takes a shot." Belle took the
cigarette away from me again, put it to her lips. A red dot glowed in front of
my face. Two more in her eyes. "You didn't
answer me, Burke. Tell me what I want. Tell me the truth." "You want me to
hijack the cash." I saw her right
shoulder drop, but I kept my eyes on her face. Her hand came around in a blur,
her little clenched fist catching me high on the cheekbone just under the eye.
She drew back her fist again. "That's enough," I said. Her mouth trembled.
The firelights went out of her eyes. She pulled away from me, fell face-down on
her big white bed. Cried softly to herself as I pulled some ice cubes from the
refrigerator. I wrapped the ice cubes in a towel and held it to my face. Sat by
the phone. When I woke up, it
was past four o'clock in the morning. My jacket was soaking wet on the left
side. I snatched the phone. Dial tone. "It didn't
ring." A soft voice from the bed. "I've been listening since you fell
asleep." "Thanks." "I'll stay by
the phone now. When you get where you're going, you can call me. If you don't get
your call by then, you can switch the numbers, okay?" "Yeah." "I've got an
electric heater: it gets cold by the water in the winter. You can dry your
clothes first." I pulled off my
jacket, unbuttoned my shirt. Belle came off the bed. I handed them to her.
"Your face is swollen," she said, her voice a breathy whisper, the
way you tell a secret. "It's no big
deal. Nothing's broken." "My heart is
broken," she said. Like she was saying it was Wednesday morning. "Belle . .
." "Don't say
anything. It's my fault. I made a mistake. I wanted a hard man. A hard man, not
a cold man." I lit a smoke. She
came back over to me, her voice sad now. Sad for all of us. "Not a cold
man, Burke. Not a man who wouldn't take my love." "I just . .
." "Yeah, I know.
You think telling the truth's not a game for a woman to play." "That's not
it." "No?" she
challenged, her little-girl's voice laced with acid. "You think I couldn't
find a cowboy to stick up a liquor store for me? You don't think I could
pussy-whip some guido into picking up a gun? Sweet-talk some cockhound into
showing me what a big man he is?" "I know you
could." Belle stalked the
room, unsnapping the suspender straps, pulling the T-shirt over her head,
unhooking the bra. She worked the zipper, pulled the white pants over her hips.
She sat down on the bed. Unlaced her sneakers, threw them into a corner. She
went over to the kitchen corner, where my shirt and jacket were stretched on
coat hangers, baking in the glow from the electric heater. She picked up my
shirt. "It'll dry better this way," she said, slipping into it. She
tried to button it; it wouldn't close over her breasts. She fell to her knees
beside me, hands on my thigh, looking up at my face. "Can we have
another chance?" "Who's
'we'?" "You and
me." "To do what?" "To tell the
truth. Let me tell you the truth. The real truth. I swear on my mother,"
she whispered, one hand making an X on her breast. "That's my sacred
oath." "Belle . .
." "Don't hurt me
like this, Burke. I'd never hurt you. You don't know what I want. You don't
have any idea. Let me say what I have to say." She got to her feet,
held out her hand. I took it. She pulled me to her
bed. "Sit down," she said. She took a fat black candle, grounded it
in a glass ashtray, positioned it on top of the headboard of the bed.
"Light it," she said. I fired a wooden
match. I heard a click - the electric heater snapping off. Belle laid back on
the bed, her hands behind her head. I sat next to her, watching the tiny candle
flame. "This is the
truth," she began. "I grew up in a little place you never heard of.
In South Florida. Just me, my father, and my big sister. Sissy. We lived on the
edge of the swamp in a tiny house. Not much bigger than this one. My father did
a little bit of this, a little bit of that. Like everyone there. Grew some
vegetables out back. Made some liquor. There was a mill nearby - he'd work when
they had work. Shoot him some gator for the hides. Fix boats. We lived poor,
but nice. When my father would make a good score, he'd always buy something for
the house. Had a big old freezer, nice color TV. Good boat too. Mercury
outboard." Her voice trailed off, remembering. I lit a cigarette, handed
it to her. "I was always
told my mother died giving birth to me. Sissy really raised me - took care of me
- my father never paid me any attention." She took a drag on
the cigarette, looking at the dark ceiling. "I was a big,
tall girl, even when I was real young. And skinny too - you believe that?" "Sure." "I was. Like a
board. Ugly old skinny girl with no kind of face at all. Sissy was pretty once.
You could tell by looking at her in the morning light. Sissy was hard on me. I
had to do my chores sharp, or she'd let me know it. Homework too. We had a
school, all the kids together in one class. Sissy made sure I did my homework.
Always sent me to school clean, no matter how things were at home. She never
had a new dress in all the time I knew her. Said it didn't matter to her. She
had nice night-gowns, though. She caught me trying one on once and she took a switch
to me so hard I didn't want to sit down for a couple of days. Anything she had,
she'd give to me. Except those nightgowns. Or her perfume." She took
another drag. "My father never
much bothered with me. Once in a while, I'd do something to make him notice me.
Pay some attention to me. He didn't care if I did my homework, but he had to
have his coffee just so: dark coffee with a big dollop of cream across the top;
he never mixed it. "I talked back
to him once. He grabbed my arm, pulled off his belt to give it to me. Sissy
jumped in between us, kitchen knife in her hand. The devil was in her face -
you could see it. You never put a hand on that child, she told him. "He backed off.
Told her I had it coming, but he wouldn't look her in the face. Sissy said if I
had something coming she'd be the one to give it to me. Go ahead, my
father said, give it to her. "Sissy ripped
the belt out of his hands, dragged me outside to the back. You better yell now,
she told me. Loud! She whipped me something fierce that time. Brought me back
inside by the hand, told me to get to work on my chores and keep my mouth shut.
My father was watching us when we came in. Sissy went back in the bedroom. I
saw her taking one of her nightgowns out of her drawer. My father went back there
too." She drew on the
cigarette again, the flame close to her hand. "My father was
real drunk one day. Late in the afternoon, swamp shadows across the back of the
house. I heard him fighting with Sissy when I came back home. I swear I'll kill
you, Sissy told him. He just laughed at her. Slapped her hard across the face.
I went after him. He threw me off, but I got up again. Sissy and me fought him
until he was out of wind. He just lay there on the floor, looking up at us.
I'll be back tonight, he told Sissy, I'll be back, and I'll take what's mine. "He staggered
out the door. Sissy grabbed me, took me to the back of the house. Your time has
come, she told me. She took out a suitcase. I didn't even know she had one. Put
all your clothes in this, she told me. Don't argue. I helped her fill it up. I
thought we were going to run away together. We snuck out the back, into the
swamp. Sissy showed me a marker on a cypress tree, where she'd cut it with her
knife. She gave me a shovel and told me to dig. Deep. I found an old mason jar,
wax-sealed. Found two more. Sissy broke the jars open. There was near a
thousand dollars in the jars." Belle yelped - the
cigarette had burned into her fingers. I held out the ashtray and she dropped
it in; put her fingers in her mouth for a second to suck on them. "Sissy sat me
down at the table. He'll be back in a couple of hours, she said. You take that
suitcase and get into the swamp. I'll fix the boat so he can't go after you.
You take the back trail all the way through, to where it catches the highway.
The late bus to town comes past there about nine - you got plenty of time to
make it." Belle's face was wet
with tears, but her voice was the same quiet whisper. "Where am I
going? I asked her. "You go to the
bus station. Take a Greyhound north, and don't stop until you're out of this
state. Go north and keep going, Belle, she told me. You're going to be on your
own. "I didn't want
to go - I didn't understand. Sissy wouldn't listen to me. You're grown now, she
said. Almost fifteen years old. I held him back as long as I could, baby, but
now your time has come. You got to mind me, Belle, she said. This one last
time. You got to mind me - do what I say. She took her nightgowns out of the
drawer, threw them in the suitcase too. Your nightgowns . . . I said. I won't
be needing them anymore, she told me. I think I knew then. For the first
time." Belle was crying now,
working hard to keep her voice steady. "I grabbed on to
her. Hugged her tight. Don't make me go, Sissy, I begged her. She pushed me
away. Looked at me like she was memorizing me. Then she slapped me across the
face. Hard. "Why'd you slap
me, Sissy? I asked her. Why'd you slap me? You never slapped me in the face in
all my life." Belle took a deep
breath, looking straight at me in the dark. "I slapped you
so you'll never forget my name, baby. Don't you ever call me Sissy again, not
even in your dreams. "I was standing
there, crying. Sissy rubbed my face where she'd slapped me. So tender and
sweet. She kissed me to take away the pain, like she used to do when I was
little. "We heard my
father's car pull in. Sissy was calm. I'm not just your sister, Belle. I'm not
Sissy. I'm your mother. "I couldn't
move. Go! Sissy said. Go, little girl. I'm your mother. I kept you safe. Now
run! "I ran into the
swamp, but I didn't go far. I hid down in a grove, so scared I couldn't make my
legs work. I heard my father yell something at Sissy. Then I heard this
explosion; flames shot up. The boat. You stay right there, bitch! I heard my
father yell. Then I heard his gator-gun blast off: Once. Twice. He yelled my
name. Screamed it out into the night. I ran through that swamp. My mother wasn't
lying there dead by the boat - she was inside me - running with me -keeping me
strong. She's always inside me." Belle grabbed me,
holding me tight, her arms locked around my back. Crying the truth. I don't know how long
we were like that. Belle loosened her hold. She drew back from me, reaching out
a hand to touch my face. "Does it
hurt?" "No." "I didn't mean
to hurt you. I just wanted you to remember my name," she whispered. "I do." "Will you get in
bed with me, honey? Lie down with me?" "Sure." She propped herself
on one elbow, reached across my chest for the cigarettes. "I have to tell
you the rest," she said. "You don't . .
." "Yes. Yes, I do.
You still don't know what I want from you." I fired a match for
her and watched the smoke drift out her pug nose, not pushing her. "How old do you
think I am?" she asked. "Twenty,
twenty-two?" "I'm almost
twenty-nine years old," she said. "It was fourteen years ago when my
mother saved me. I went running. Even when I was a young girl, they only looked
at my chest, not my face. There's always young folks running in this country. I
found them - they found me. I made some rules for myself, promises to my
mother. I never turned a trick, but I let my tits hang over plenty of bars. I
could always make men buy drinks. I never let a man beat me - there's some who
wanted to try - big girl like me makes them feel small, I guess. I drove cars
to - l'm real good at it. Getaway cars sometimes. I ran 'shine over the
mountains in Kentucky. Drove stolen cars from Chicago to Vegas. I thought I was
going to be a showgirl there. I've got the size and the body for it, but my
face . . ." "You have a
beautiful face, Belle." "No, I don't.
But I know it's the truth to you. Just listen to me, don't talk." I nodded, rubbing her
shoulder. "I saved my
money. I read a lot of books, teaching myself. I'm an incest child. You know
what that means? I have my father's blood and my sister's too. That's why my
face is so . . . like it is. My eyes close together and all. I have bad blood,
Burke. Bad blood. Only the Lord knows what's gone on in my family before I was
born. Or what happened to Sissy's mother. My grandmother, I guess. I saw a
doctor. At New York University. I told him the truth. He did some tests, but he
couldn't tell me anything without testing my father too. I'm all messed up
inside. I'm missing a rib here" - she pressed my hand under her heart -
"and one leg's a bit shorter than the other. The doctor wouldn't tell me
that much, but I made him say the truth." She smoked in the
dark while I waited. "I can never have
a child. Never have a baby of my own, you understand? My father's bloodline has
to stop with me." She felt the
question. "He's down to
Raiford State Prison. In that drawer over there, I have all the papers. I was
busted once with a station wagon full of machine guns. I rolled over on the
people who hired me," she said, watching my face. "They told me it
was stolen watches when they asked me to drive." "They didn't
tell the truth," I said. "Yeah, you
understand. They didn't tell the truth. I got a free pass out of it - no
testimony, just the names. And one of the feds, he looked up my father for me.
He's doing a ten-year jolt for manslaughter; he gets out this Christmas." "How come he's
still in on a ten-year hit if it happened fourteen years ago?" Belle's face twisted
- I saw her teeth flash, but it wasn't a smile. "He never did a day for
killing my mother. He shot a man in a dispute over some gator hides." She pointed her toe
in the air, flexing her thigh, drawing my eyes to the tattoo. "Look
close," she whispered. "Look real close. What do you see?" "A snake." "When I was
running through the swamp that first night, I stopped in a clearing. A snake
hissed at me. Cottonmouth, maybe. I couldn't see him in the dark. He had me
rooted - too scared to move. Then my mother's spirit came into me and I knew I
had to go. No matter what. I threw a branch at the noise and it stopped. A
gator wouldn't stop. I was dancing in this club in Jersey. All of the girls had
tattoos. Butterfly tattoos. Their boyfriends' names. A rose on their butt. They
told me where they got it done. I had the man do a snake. Right on my thigh,
pointing at my cunt. A poison snake - that's all the men saw." I looked hard at the
tattoo, knowing there was more. Seeing it. "The snake, it's the letter
'S'." "Yes. For
'Sissy.' For my mother. it's the only gravestone she'll ever have." I lit a cigarette.
"That's where your dance comes from." "Tell me,"
she whispered. "Tell me you see it." "I see it.
There's worse things than gators out there," I told her. "But not as
bad as what's in the house." She kissed my chest.
"That's what I wanted," she said, talking fast now, like I'd cut her
off before she finished. "That's what I wanted from you. Marques told me
he wouldn't meet you without a cut-out. He told me you were a dangerous, crazy
man. Said you used to be a hijacker and now you're a hired killer." "Marques doesn't
. . ." "Ssssh . .
." she said, putting her finger to my mouth. "He said you killed a
pimp just because he had a little girl on the street. He said everyone knows
you lose your mind when people fuck kids. He said you took money to bring back
some runaway girl. You got her away from the pimp, then you shot him
anyway." "And you wanted
. . ." "I wanted you to
rescue me. I told you the truth, honey. I told you the truth. It's my soul
that's lost. My spirit. My mother saved my life - I need someone to save the
rest." "The hijacking .
. ." "I deserve to
have my ass beat for that. I played it wrong. I wanted a hard man. I knew I
couldn't hold you with sex. I wanted you to rescue me - I wanted to be your
partner. I thought if I brought you a solid-gold score, handed it to you on a
platter . . . you'd know I was worth something. I didn't want the money." "Damn." "Burke. I don't
care if you take off the back room. You want to do it, I'll drive the car. And
I'll leave the engine running until you come out the door, I swear it." "And if I
don't?" "I'll go inside
and pull you out." I took a deep drag.
"I mean, if I don't want to pull the robbery?" "I just want you
to want me," she said, her voice grave. "I never meant anything more
in my life." I took another drag,
feeling so tired. "I can't rescue
you, Belle." "You let me help
you. Help you with your friend. Find that van. Then decide." I sat quietly,
watching the shadows. "Please,
honey." "Go to sleep,
Belle," I said, stroking her back. "If the Prof's okay, you can
help." She closed her eyes
on the promise. She slept with her
face against my chest. I brought the Prof's face into my mind, keeping him
alive. Seeing the Prof made me see prison. Where we met. I never knew what sent
him down that time. Any time the subject came up, the little man made it clear
what he was about. "I didn't use the phone, and I came here alone,"
is all he'd say It was enough. The first time I went
down, I was a kid. In New York, sixteen years old, you're too far gone for
another bit in reform school. I came in with a good jacket: attempted murder.
But it wasn't enough. One thing good about all that time in reform school - I
knew the rules. I did the thirty days on Fish Row by myself. The Prof rolled up
on my cell one day - he was the runner. Said, "This is from a
friend," and tossed a couple of packs of smokes and an old magazine in my
cell. I wanted a smoke bad, but I left everything on my bunk, waiting for him
to come around again. I grabbed him through the bars, pulling him close. "Take this stuff
back where you got it," I said to him, nice and quiet. "I got no
friends here." The little man looked
up at me. His eyes had a yellowish cast. No fear in them. "Here's the
slant on the plant, son. Don't play it hard when you not holding no
cards." "I'm holding
myself," I told him. "You tell whoever gave you this stuff for me
that I'm sending it back, okay? And if he don't like it, tell him I'll send it
back with interest when I hit the yard." The little man
smiled, not even trying to pull away. "Jump back, Jack! I ain't no wolf,
and that's the truth." I looked over at the
cigarettes. "From you?" "From me, fool.
You never heard of the Welcome Wagon?" "I thought . .
." "I know what you
thought, youngblood. Here's a clue - don't play the fool." "I can't pay you
back," I told him. "I got no money on the books." "Look here,
rookie. I've got more time behind the Wall than you've got on the earth. In
prison, first you learn, then you earn." "Learn
what?" "Here's your
first case, Ace. Don't smoke the butts. Don't read the magazine. Let it all
sit. Don't trust me. When you get into Population, keep your ear to the ground,
ask around. People call me the Prophet. I don't stand tall, but I stand up.
Take a look before you book." I let go of him. The
little man made his way down the tier, rhyming the time away. When I got into Population,
I moved slow. Asked around, like the man said. The Prophet had some rep. Guys
knew him going back twenty years - this was at least his fifth time behind
bars. He once did four years straight in solitary for smuggling a gun inside.
He hooked up with a guy doing three life sentences, running wild. They took a
guard hostage. Got all the way to the front gate when they ran out of room. The
guy with him got blown away. The hacks broke half the bones in the Profs body. In solitary, they
kept at him. Every day, every night. He kept telling them the gun came to him
in a vision. Every con in the joint knew where the gun came from . . . where it
had to come from. A guard. And the Prof was too much of a man to give up
even one of them. It took a few weeks, but
I finally saw the Prof on the yard. I rolled up on him, keeping both hands
where he could see them. The group of men around him pulled up close. The Prof
made a motion with his head and they peeled off, giving me room. "What's the
word, rookie?" he challenged me. I took the two packs
of smokes and the magazine from under my shirt. "You handing
them back?" he asked. "No. I wanted
you to see for yourself," I said, opening a pack, taking out my first
cigarette in seven weeks. "Smoke?" I asked him, holding out the pack: "Much obliged,
Clyde," the little man replied, a smile shining. I hunkered down
against the wall with him, my back to the yard, watching. Speaking out of the
side of my mouth, looking straight ahead. "I'm sorry for
what I thought." "That's okay,
gunfighter. You just a schoolboy in here." I wasn't looking at him, but he
must have felt the question. "I glommed your
jacket." "How'd you pull
that off?" "You don't have
to pay if you know the way," the little man said. I did three years on
that bit. Not a day went by that the Prof didn't teach me something. When it
was near my time to leave, he schooled me about how to act in front of the
Parole Board. When the Board set a release date for me, he gave me the hard
stuff. Straight. "You're short
now, schoolboy. You know what that means? Thirty days to wait, and you walk out
the gate. They'll come at you now. Punks you backed down before, they'll get
bold, knowing you don't want to fuck up the go-home. You got two plays: hide or
slide." "Break it
down." "First guy fucks
with you, you can go to the Man. Take a PC for the rest of your bit." "No." "Yeah, that only
works for the citizens. The guys who're never coming back here. That ain't you.
So we got to slide. I got people here - leave it to me." "Which means?" "Which means
young blood is hot blood. You got to be cold if you want to grow old. Someone
moves on you, tell them 'later' with your eyes, but don't do nothing right
away, okay?" "Okay,
Prof." By the end of the
week, it happened. A big fat jocker named Moore who'd moved on me early in my
bit. I showed him a shank and he backed off. Went looking for easier game -
there was a lot of it around. I was sitting at my table during chow when I felt
him looking down at me. "You lost four
crates on the Series, Burke. When you planning on paying?" "You're
dreaming, pal. I never bet with you." "I say you did.
You got till Monday. Then I want my four crates or I take it out in
trade." I pushed my chair back,
knowing everyone was watching. The Prof made a growling noise in his throat. I
looked up at Moore. "I'll see you
before Monday," I promised him, my voice under control. He walked away,
slapping five with one of his buddies. Late that afternoon, we were on the
yard. A pair of bikers broke from their group and came our way. Monster
bodybuilders both, their arms were so choked with muscle they had to cock their
elbows to walk. I reached for my sock. A bluff - I wasn't carrying so close to
parole, but I wanted to give the Prof time to run. He chuckled. "Take a
hike, Mike," he said. I wouldn't disrespect
him by arguing. When I glanced back over my shoulder, he was deep in
conversation with the gorillas. Sunday morning, the
cafeteria was buzzing when I came in. A black guy I knew slightly from boxing
walked by my table. "Right on, man," he whispered. I lit a cigarette
to mask my face. Bongo pulled up a
chair across from me, an old buddy from reform school. His trick was using his
head as a battering ram in a fight. He'd done it too many times. "Burke, you hear
what happened in the weight room last night?" I shook my head no. "You know Moore?
That big fat faggot? He decides he's going to bench-press four hundred and
fifty pounds, can you dig it?" "That's a lot of
weight." Bongo giggled his
crazy laugh. "Too much fucking weight, man. His spotters musta been bigger
punks than he was - they dropped the weight right on his chest." "What?" "Yeah, man.
Square business. The hacks found him on the bench. Crushed his chest like it
was cardboard." When the Prof finally
walked out the gate, I was there. I lit another smoke,
keeping the Prof alive in my mind. Belle stirred in her sleep. I patted her,
saying, "Ssssh, little girl," but it was no good. "I can't sleep,
honey. What time is it?" "About
five." She pulled her body
away from me, shifting her hips so they were against the headboard, her face
still on my chest. "Help me go to
sleep," she whispered, rubbing her face on my stomach. "Belle . .
." She squirmed lower,
gently licking my cock, taking me in her mouth, making soft sounds to herself.
I felt myself stir, but it was like someone else. "Pull my pants
down," she said, taking her mouth off me. I got them past her
butt, but that was as far as they could go. A black ribbon across her thighs. I
went semihard in her mouth. "I don't . .
." "Don't do
anything, honey. Please. I'm lonely for you - you're far away. Let me just hold
you till I fall asleep." She put her mouth back
on me. In a minute, she was asleep again. I patted her rump,
drifting in and out. At least it was a hell of a lot more than time on my
hands. Time. Back to prison, where time is the enemy and you kill it any way
you can. It was the Prof who got me into reading books. The first time he laid
it on me, I laughed at him. "They don't
write down everything in those books," I said. "Just because
you locked in a dump, you don't have to be no chump, bro'. Pay attention. Hear
the word. What you going to do when you hit the bricks, get a job?" "Who'd hire
me?" "You gonna hook
up with a mob - kiss some old asshole's pinky ring?" "No way." "That's the true
clue. You ain't Italian anyway, right?" "I don't
know." The Prof's face
flashed sad for just a second. "You really don't?" "No.I did the
State Shuffle. Orphanage to foster homes to the gladiator schools. To
here." "And you always
knew you were coming." "I always
knew," "Okay, bro',
then know this. You can't score if you don't learn more, got it? One way or
another, you got to steal to be real. And I know what's in your schoolboy head:
pick up the gun and have some fun. Right?" I smiled at the
little man, thinking about guns. And banks. He grabbed my arm,
hard. I was always surprised at the Prof's powerful grip. "You got to go
on the hustle, schoolboy. There ain't no fame in the gun game - play it tame,
the money's the same." "I'm no hustler.
I don't have the rap." "Man, I'm not
talking about no Murphy Man shit. Or pimping off some little girl either. The
magic word is 'scam,' my man. Use this time. Study the freaks in here. Watch
them close. Learn. How. Things. Work. That's the key to the money tree." I started reading
books just to show the Prof respect. It was his advice - it had to stand for
something. I read it all. Everything I could get my hands on. When the prison
library ran low, I joined the Book-of-the-Month Club. I scored a couple of
dozen books before they threatened to garnishee my salary. I wrote to religious
organizations - they sent me books too. I covered hundreds of pages with notes,
calculations. Figuring the odds. When I got out,
things didn't work like I planned. It took me another couple of falls to get
things down to where I have them now. But I always kept reading, listening.
Watching for the crack in the wall. It was during my
second bit that I started reading psychology. I never knew they had sweet words
for some of the freakish things people did. The Prof said, if I read the books enough,
one day they'd talk to me. I knew what I wanted to be, just not what to call
it. Ice-cold. Stone-hard. And I worked at that
too. One day, I was
reading a psychology book and a word jumped out at me. "Sociopath."
It called to me. I read it over and over. "Sociopath. The essential
characteristic of this disorder is a lack of remorse, even for violent or
criminal behavior. The sociopath lacks the fundamental quality of
empathy." I ran to the battered
old dictionary I kept in my cell. "Empathy: the intellectual
identification with or vicarious experiencing of the feelings, thoughts, or
attitudes of another." I puzzled it out. A sociopath thinks only his own
thoughts, walks his own road. Feels only his own pain. Yeah. Wasn't that the
right way to live in this junkyard? Do your own time, keep your face flat.
Don't let them see your heart. A couple of weeks
later, I watched the hacks carry an informant out on a stretcher, a white towel
over his face. A shank was sucking out of his chest. "That's a nice way for
a rat to check out of this hotel," I said to the guys around me. They
nodded. I knew what they'd say - Burke is a cold dude. I kept my face flat.
I never raised my voice, never argued with anybody. Practiced letting my eyes
go slightly out of focus so I could look in a man's face for minutes without
turning away. Sometime, alone in my
cell at night, I'd say the word softly to myself. "Sociopath."
Calling on the ice god to come into my soul. Willing to be anything but afraid
all the time. I listened to the
freaks. Listened to Lester tell us how he broke in a house, found some woman
taking a bath. Put his gun to her head, made her suck him off. Then he plugged
in her hair dryer, tossed it in the water. I kept my face flat, walking away. Lester grabbed a young
boy who'd just come in. "Shit on my dick or blood on my knife," he
told the kid, smiling his smile. I took him off the count the next night. He
never saw me coming. I hooked him underhand in the gut with a sharpened file,
ripped it upward all the way to his chest. I dropped the file on his body,
walked away. A few guys saw it - nobody said anything. I let them think it was
over a gambling debt. I read the psychology
books again and again. They have some of us pegged. Michelle is a transsexual.
A woman trapped in a man's body. The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of
Mental Disorders even has a special coded number for it - 302.50. But I never got it to
feel right for me-never found the name for what I was. And the number they gave
me upstate didn't tell me a thing. The phone woke me. I
snatched it off the hook on the first ring. "Yeah?" "Your friend
call," Mama said. "He say come to Saint Vincent's Hospital. Room 909.
Visiting hour at nine o'clock. You ask for Melvin, okay?" "Thanks,
Mama." Belle was awake,
still twisted like she was when she fell asleep, looking up at me. "He
called?" "Sure did."
I got up. "I'm going to take a shower, okay?" "Let me use the
bathroom for a minute first." She padded off. I lit a smoke. Melvin was
the Prof's brother, a semi-legitimate dude who worked the post office. He must
be in the hospital for something or other. If we had to meet in the daytime,
Saint Vincent's was as good a place as any. "All
yours," Belle said, giving me a kiss. I didn't sing in the
shower, but I felt like it. Pansy's the only one who likes my singing. I slipped into my
shirt. It smelled of Belle. She was bustling around the little house, a smile
on her face. "You're going?" she asked. "Yeah. I got to
be downtown at nine." "It's not quite
six, honey." "I got to hit my
office, grab a shave, change my clothes." Belle went over to
the bed, bent from the waist, looking back at me, her big beautiful butt
trembling just a little bit. "You've got some time," she said. I went over to her. "This has got to
make you think of something," she said, her voice soft and sweet. I slid into her
smooth. She dropped her shoulders to the bed, pushed against me. "Come
on." Belle locked her
elbows tight as I slammed into her from behind, my hands on her waist. I was
lost in her. "I'm
coming," she said, her voice calm. "Try not to get
so excited about it," I told her. She giggled. Her whole body shook.
"I mean I'm coming with you. To the hospital . . . oh!" I blasted off inside
her, fell on top of her on the bed. I lay there, catching my breath until I got
soft and slipped out of her. "You want a smoke?" I asked her,
lighting one for myself. "No, I have to
get dressed," she said, bouncing off the bed. I didn't argue with
her. The morning was
bright and clear. Like I felt. We pulled off the West Side Highway just past
the Battery Tunnel. I motored quietly up Reade Street, heading for the river and
my office. A mixed crew of blacks and Orientals were taking a break from
unloading a truck. The black guys were eating bowls of steaming noodles,
working with chopsticks like they'd been doing it all their lives. One of the
Orientals yelled something in Chinese to a guy standing in the doorway with a
clipboard in his hand. The only word I caught was "motherfucker." Pansy was glad to see
me. She always is, no matter what's in my hands. I love my dog. Guys doing time
promise themselves a lot of things for when they hit the bricks. Big cars.
Wall-to-wall broads. Fine clothes. Who knows? I promised myself I'd have a dog.
I had one when I was a kid and they took him away from me when they sent me
upstate. I'll never go to prison again over anything money can buy. Wherever I
have to run, I can take Pansy. The beast took my
signal and let Belle inside. I gave her a couple of the bagels we'd brought
with us and went inside to shave. When I came out, Belle was sitting on the
couch, holding her paper cup of coffee with both hands, her arms stiff as
steel. Pansy was lying on the couch, happily slurping from the cup, spilling
coffee all over Belle. "Pansy,
jump!" I yelled at her. She hit the floor, spilling the rest of the coffee
in the process. "You miserable gorilla," I told the dog. Belle looked at me,
appealing. "I didn't know what to do - I was afraid to push her
away." "It's not your
fault - she's a goddamned extortionist." Pansy growled
agreement, always eager for praise. Belle's white
sweatshirt was soaked. She pulled it over her head. "I'll wear something
of yours," she said, smiling. I knew none of my
shirts would fit her, but I kept my mouth shut. I found a black turtleneck
sweater in a drawer, tossed it to her. I pulled out a dark suit,
nice conservative blue shirt, black knit tie. A pair of black-rimmed glasses
and an attachй case and I was set. Belle looked me over.
"I didn't know you wore glasses." "They're just
plain glass - they change the shape of your face." "That's what I
wish I could do," she said bitterly. "I like your
face," I told her. "It doesn't look
like his," she said. "But I still see him in the mirror
sometimes." "If it hurts
you, maybe you should fix it." "You mean like
plastic surgery?" "No." "Oh. You think .
. . ?" "Now's not the
time, little girl." She nodded. A
trusting child's face watching me. Listening. Just about time to
go. I let Pansy out to the roof, blanking my mind. No point speculating - the
Prof would have something for me and I'd find out when I saw him. Pansy strolled
downstairs and flopped down in a corner. She wasn't into exercise. "You want a
beer?" I asked Belle. "Who drinks beer
at this hour?" I pulled the last
bottle of Bud from the refrigerator, uncapped it, and poured it into a bowl.
Pansy charged over - made it disappear. Saint Vincent's is in
the West Village, not far from my office. "Just act like you know where
you're going," I told Belle. The information desk
gave us a visitor's pass and we took the elevator. Room 909 was at the end of
the corridor. I walked in first, not looking forward to shooting the breeze
with Melvin, hoping the Prof was already on the scene. He was. In the
hospital bed, both legs in heavy casts, suspended by steel wires. A pair of IV
tubes ran into his arm. His face was charcoal-ash, eyes closed. He looked
smaller than ever - a hundred years old. My eyes swept the
room. Empty except for a chair in the corner. I came to the bed quietly, images
jamming my brain. The Prof didn't move,
didn't open his eyes. I bent close to him. "Burke?"
His voice was calm. Drugged? "It's me,
brother." "You got my
message?" "Yeah. What
happened?" His eyes flicked
open. They were bloodshot but clear, focused on my face. His voice was soft, barely
a whisper. "I was poking around. On my cart. Scoping the scene, you know?
I was working Thirty-sixth and Tenth. By the Lincoln Tunnel." The Prof does this
routine where he folds his legs under him and pulls himself along on a board
with roller skates bolted to the bottom. It looks like he has no legs at all.
Sometimes he carries a sign and a metal cup. Working close to the ground. "You want to
wait on this? Get some rest?" His eyes hardened.
"They gave me pain, but I'm still in the game. The nurse'll be around in a
few minutes to give me another shot. You need to know now." I put my hand on his
forearm, next to the IV tubes. "Run it," I said, my voice as quiet as
his. "You ever hear
of this freak karate-man they call Mortay?" "The one who's
hitting all the dojos? Challenging every sensei?" "That's him. You
know Kuo? Kung-fu man?" "He teaches
dragon-style, right? Over on Amsterdam?" "He's dead,
Burke. This Mortay hits the dojo, slaps Kuo in front of his own students. Kuo
clears the floor and they go at it. Mortay left him right there." I let out a breath.
"Kuo's good." "He's good and
dead, bro'. It's been going on for a while. This Mortay's been selling tickets
- says he's the world's deadliest human. The word is that he was kicked off the
tournament circuit - he wouldn't pull his shots. Hurt a lot of people. He
fought a death-match about a year ago. In the basement under Sin City." "I heard about
it." "Every player on
the scene was there. They put up a twenty-grand purse, side bets all over the
place. He fought this Japanese guy from the Coast. The way I heard it, Mortay
just played with him before he took him out. Now he's hooked on it. Death. He
finds a dojo, walks in the door. The sensei has to fight him or walk off the
floor." "He's got to be
crazy. Sooner or later . . ." "Yeah. That's
what everybody's been saying. But he's still out there." The Prof took a deep
breath. "He does work too." "For hire?" "That's the
word." "He did this to
you?" "I'm on my cart,
talking to a couple of the working girls, handing out my religious rap. Like
I'm the man to deal with the van, you know?" "Yeah." "Car pulls up.
Station wagon. Spanish guy gets out. Short, heavy-built dude. Big diamond
hanging from his ear. Tells me he has someone wants to talk to me. I tell him
that I bring the Word to the people, so the people got to come to me. The
Spanish guy don't blink an eye. Pulls a piece right there in the street. Tells
me he has to bring me, don't matter what condition I arrive in. I tell him not
to get crazy - how am I supposed to go, walk? He calls to another guy. They
each grab one end of my cart, put me in the back of the wagon. The girls just
faded. They're hijacking me off the street, nobody's paying attention." The Prof's voice was
the same quiet flow, his eyes focused on someplace else. "They take me to
one of the piers. Past where they have the big ships. I'm not blindfolded or
anything. They haul me inside this old building at the end of the pier. Place
is falling apart: big holes in the roof, smells like a garbage dump. "Guy's waiting
for us. Tall, maybe six two, six three. Couldn't weigh more than one and a
quarter." "That
thin?" "Skinny as a
razor blade, man. Arms like matchsticks. You'd look like a weightlifter next to
him. "Mortay?" "Oh, yeah. Mortay.
No mystery - he tells me who he is. Like his name is supposed to stand for
something. He got this weird voice. Real thin, high-pitched. He says that he
heard I been asking around. About the Ghost Van. He says that's a bad thing to
do. Could make him mad, I keep doing that. "I rap to him.
Try my crazy act. He don't go for it. He says he knows me too. Calls my name -
the Prophet. Asks, if I know the Word, why I can't cure myself. Fix my own
legs. "I tell him no
man can change the will of the Lord. He comes over to me, kneels down, starts
on me with his hands, pressing spots on my face, watching me. Then he says, You
lie. Just like that. You lie. He slaps me right off the cart, tells me to stand
up. For a minute, I thought my legs stopped working for real . . . but I got to
my feet. "He says he's
going to have to show me it's a mistake to ask questions. I know bodywork's
coming up. I got no place to go. I fucked up, brother," the little man
said, his voice shaking. "I was scared. You know I don't spook easy, but
this freak . . . It was like he was sending out waves. Hurting me inside, and
he wasn't even touching me." I felt Belle behind
me. "Wait outside," I told her. I didn't know what was coming, but it
wasn't for her to hear. "It's all right,
Prof," I said to my brother, squeezing his arm. His voice went sad.
Shamed. "No, it ain't all right. I lost control, Burke. I put Max's name
out. I told this freak the Silent One was my brother. I ran the whole rap. Told
him the widow-making wind would tear down his house if he messed with me. I
figured if he knew I was hooked up with Max . . ." "It's the truth.
And he's not the only one." The Prof's face was
deep-down sad. "You know what he did? He smiled, man. He said he wanted
Max. In a match. Said he made me walk, he could make Max talk. The freak said
he had word out for months that he wanted to meet Max - that Max was
dog-yellow. "I went dumb. It
wasn't no act. It was the devil talking to me, standing right there. He said
he's been looking for Max's dojo. When he finds it, he's going to take it for
himself. "And then he
asked me where it was. Smiling at me. Saying since Max was my brother and all,
I had to know. "I told him I
didn't. I know when a man is lying, he says. Looks at me. Right through me. "The Spanish guy
says something. Mortay flicks his wrist at the Spanish guy's face like he's
brushing away a fly. Blood jumps out on the Spanish guy's face. "Then the freak
says to me he sees I don't know where Max's dojo is. So he wants me to give him
a message. "I say okay -
tell me the message. He takes this fucking machete from someplace. Hands it to
me. Test the blade, he says. Big smile on his face. I touch the edge - it goes
right into my hand, draws blood. "Sharp enough?
he asks me. For what? I say. "I'm going to
fix your legs, he says. "I try and stall
him. Put the blade down, take off my coat. Like I'm getting ready to duel with
him. I pick up the blade, swing it in both hands. Like I'm testing it? I check
the door where they brought me in. Spanish guy standing there, holding the gun.
No place to go. "I was scared,
Burke. But shamed too. I knew I put Max's name out. Broke the rules. I'm a man.
I never cried when they broke me up in the joint. I have a name too." "Your name is
gold, Prof." The little man wasn't
listening; tears on his face. "I pulled it
together. I called his name: Come on, pussy! He came at me. I hit the floor,
flipped onto my back, flashing the blade up at him with both hands-hard. Going
to cut his balls off." The Prof's arm
trembled in my hand. "He floated
right over me. Musta been six feet off the ground. He comes again. I step to
him, blade going side to side, razor-circle. No way in for him. He comes inside
the blade, chops me on the wrist. The blade goes flying. "Fun's over,
nigger," he says. The Prof's eyes
closed. "I grab for his
eyes. White mist comes. I hear a crack - I know it's my leg. I go down." His eyes opened. "When I come
around, I'm in the back of the station wagon. Mortay - he's sitting like Max
sits. Against the back door, facing me. Taking you to the hospital, he said.
Put you in a nice private room - everything's on me. Tell Max I did
this. Says his name real slow. Two pieces. Like More-Tay. Get it right, he
said. Give him my message." The Prof bit into his
lip, reaching inside for what he needed. "You're the only one I
called," he said. "I know." "I fucked up.
Fucked up bad." "You did the
job, brother. This Mortay . . . he's got to be locked into the van
somehow." "But Max . . .
?" "He knew
about Max before he ever grabbed you, Prof. That's his own scene. You gave him
nothing he didn't already have." "Burke . . . I
never saw nothing move so fast in all my life." I patted his arm,
feeling the little man's fear vibrate through to me. "I need you on
this one, brother," I told him. "I won't be
running no races for a while," he said, looking at his legs. "It's your brain
I need. Knife-fighters are a dime a dozen." The ghost of the
Prof's old smile showed. "If you got a plan, I'm your man." "They still have
the death-matches in the basement under Sin City?" "They move them
around, what I heard." "Who'll
know?" The Prof thought a
minute. "Got to be Lupe, brother. That dude's a battle-freak.
Cockfighting, pit bulls, rope-dancing . . . it's a good bet he'll be on the
set." "Where's he
hang?" A bigger smile this
time. "Your favorite place, Ace. Every weeknight, he's at the end
grandstand at Yonkers." "Which
end?" "Way past the
finish line . . . where it looks like bleachers?" "Yeah, I know
it." "Every night. He
sets up matches. Takes a piece. The little man's eyes moved into stronger
focus. Working again. "Light me a smoke." I fired one for him,
held it to his lips. He took a deep drag. "Lupe's about
fifty. Greasy 'do, wears it in an old-style D.A. Pachuco cross on his hand. Short,
fat dude. Bad teeth. Got him?" "Yeah." The Prof looked up at
me, eyes clear. "All the faggot broke was my legs, Burke." "I know." "No rhyme this
time. This is the true word: he'll be sorry." "For breaking
your legs?" "For not killing
me when he had the chance," the little man promised. Back to himself. I heard loud voices
in the corridor. Pushed open the door a crack. A big black nurse was trying to
push her way past Belle and not having any luck. "It's
okay," I told Belle, holding open the door. The nurse came in,
pushing a cart with a metal tray on it. "Time for your medicine," she
told the Prof, a West Indian tang to her voice. The little man winked
at her. "You better hope
that ain't no dope," he said, pointing his chin at the hypo on her tray. "And why is
that?" she said, a smile creeping onto her broad face. "Dope makes me
sexy, Mama. I couldn't trust myself around a fine cup of Jamaican coffee like
you." "Never mind with
a smart mouth, mahn," she snapped, still smiling, loading the syringe. The Prof looked at me
and Belle. "Look here, fools, can't you see me and this lady want to be
alone?" I waved goodbye.
Belle bent over and kissed him. He was already deep
into his rap with the nurse by the time we got the door closed. Belle rested her hand
lightly on my arm as we waited for the elevator, not saying a word. She stayed
quiet until we got in the car. "What happened
to him?" "He was in an
accident." Her face went sulky.
"I told you the truth. I told you my secrets. You don't have to tell me
yours." She lit a cigarette. "But don't lie to me - I'm a big girl,
not a baby. It's none of my business, just say that. Don't tell me stories, you
want me to trust you." "It's none of
your business," I said. She didn't say
another word until I hit the highway and she saw where I was headed. "No." "No what?" "No good. What
happened to your friend - it's none of my business, okay. But you're going to
do something now. I know you have to." "And?" "And that's my business.
I'm in too." "No, you're
not." "Yes, I am.
Don't you tell me I'm not. I can do things. I can help." "Look, Belle . .
." "You
look. You think I'm just a piece of ass with a sad story? I'm a woman. A woman
who loves you. You don't want my love, you say so. Say so right now." ''I . . ." "Just shut up. I
don't sell my love. I never gave it away before. I said I was going to love
you. That means something. My love is worth something - you have to give me a
chance to show you." "You'll get your
chance." "How? Coming to
see you on visiting day?" "If that's what
it comes down to." "No! I love you.
I swear I love you. I pay attention when you talk. I learn things. You want to
mistreat me, I'll still love you. I play for keeps. But you can't disrespect
me. Like on that wall you showed me." "I'm not
disrespecting you." "No? You've got
work to do, I should stay at home, right? I'm too fat for an apron, and I don't
know how to cook." I lit a cigarette,
blew smoke at the windshield, driving mechanically. Belle moved in close
to me, her hip against mine, both arms around my neck, talking softly into my
ear. "You have to love me. And you won't . . . not really love me .
. . unless you let me in. I won't get in the way - I'll just do my piece. You
say what it is. But you have to let me in or you'll never see what I am . . .
you'll never love me, Burke." I took a deep breath.
Let it out slow. "You won't
free-lance? You'll do what I tell you?" "I swear." "I'll pick you
up tonight. Around seven." "Where're we
going?" "The
racetrack." "I thought . .
." "That's not the
deal," I reminded her. She gave me a kiss,
nuzzled against me for a minute, moved back to the passenger side. "You're the
boss." She smiled. Sure. When we got to her
house, Belle bounded out of the car like she was going to a fire sale on
salvation. I wheeled the car around and shot back to the city. Lots of work to
do. I pulled in behind
Mama's. Grabbed the Daily News from under the register and sat in my booth. The
waiter brought me some hot-and-sour soup, not even pretending I had a choice. I
read the paper, waiting for Mama. Nothing about any new Ghost Van murders. I
flipped through to the back. The race results. Mystery Mary came out on top. Wired
the field, trotting the mile in 2:00.3. She was three lengths up at the top of
the stretch and held on by a neck. Paid $14.20. I was up almost a grand and a
half. I couldn't remember the last time I figured a race so perfectly. I waited
for the rush. It didn't come. Mama moved into the
booth. Greeted me, her eyes shifting to the newspaper. "You win?" "Yeah." "I tell Max pick
up the money?" "Yeah. And tell
him to lay low for a few days. Stay off the street, okay? I'm working on
something - a nice sweet score. Let people think he's gone away for a
while." Mama looked at me,
waiting. "I got to
go," I told her. She didn't say
anything. I hit the post
office. Told Melvin where the Prof was, gave him the phone number of the
private room. Anyone comes around asking for the Prof, he should call me at
Mama's, leave the word. The City Planning
Office had the detailed grid maps I needed. I paid for them in cash. I spent another
couple of hours at the library, groping around, not sure what I was looking
for. I drove to the
junkyard. Turned around before I got there. It wasn't time for the Mole yet. I went back to the
office. I put the grid maps of the city on the wall. Spread out the clips
Morelli got for me. I couldn't make them work. I went into myself,
deep as I could go. I came back empty. Pansy and I shared
some roast beef. When I looked at my
watch, it was time to go. The door opened
before I could knock. "Close your eyes," Belle said. "Keep them
closed." She led me over to
the couch, pushed me into it. "Just sit for a minute, honey - I'm not done
yet." I lit a smoke,
looking around. The whole place was a mess - boxes and paper all over the
floor, bed not made, ashtrays overflowing. Belle came out of the
bathroom prancing on a pair of shiny black spikes. Her hair was swept to one
side, held together with a black clip. Her face was so different I had to look
twice: dark eye liner pulled her eyes apart, sharp lines over her cheekbones.
Her mouth was a wide, dark slash. She was wearing a black silk top over a pair
of skin-tight pants in a wide black-and-white stripe. Two heavy white ropes
tied loosely around her waist. She twirled before me, as pretty-proud as a
little girl in her first party dress. "See. Just like
Michelle said." I stared at her. "Burke. Say
something!" "Damn!" "What does that
mean?" she demanded, moving closer. "I think my
heart stopped. You want to try some mouth-to-mouth?" The smile lit up her
face. "Isn't it great? Michelle's so smart." She twirled again.
Stood hip-shot, her back to me. "Vertical stripes," she boasted,
patting her hip. The black-and-white
stripes were vertical all the way up her legs. But when they got to her butt,
they stopped going parallel and ran for their lives in opposite directions.
Flesh stomps fashion every time. "You're the
loveliest thing I've ever seen in my life," I told her, reaching out my
hand. She slapped it away.
"No, you don't." She laughed. "I didn't put all this on for you to
pull it off." I got to my feet,
reaching in my pocket for the car keys. Belle moved in close to me, holding the
lapel of my jacket with one hand. Dark-red polish on her nails. "Burke, I was
only teasing. You want to stay here, it's okay." I patted her on the
rear. "I wish we could stay here. We're working, remember?" "Then why'd you
say . . . ?" "I lost my
head." She gave me a quick
kiss. "Wait till later," she promised. I rolled onto the Belt
Parkway, taking it past the crossover for the airport, heading for the
Whitestone Bridge. When I saw a break in traffic, I pulled over on the
shoulder. Turned off the engine. Belle sat quietly, black-and-white-striped
legs crossed, waiting patiently. "Were you really
a driver?" I asked her. "Oh, yes,"
she said, her eyes opening wide, watching me close. "Want to show
me?" She was behind the
wheel in a flash, almost shoving me out the door. I went around to the other
side, let myself in. Lit a smoke, watching her. Belle kicked off the
spike heels, wiggling her hips in the seat. She wasn't playing around, just
getting the feel of the machine. "Can I move the seat back a bit?" I showed her where
the lever was. She took it back an inch or two, extending her arms toward the
wheel, looking another question at me. I threw a toggle switch and the wheel
dropped into her lap. "Move it to where you want it and I'll lock it in
place." She played with the
wheel for a minute, getting it just the way she wanted it, squirming around in
the seat, checking the mirrors, rolling her shoulders to get the stiffness out.
"Anything I should know?" she asked. "Like
what?" "Do the brakes
grab? Does it pull to one side?" "No. It tracks
like a train. Stops straight. But watch the gas - it's a lot stronger than it
looks." She nodded. Turned
the key. Blipped the throttle a couple of times. "No tach?" she
asked. "It's built for
torque, not revs. You want to drop it down a gear, just kick the pedal. Or you
can move the lever down one from D." Belle gave herself
plenty of room, waited until the traffic was quiet in the right lane. She came
down hard on the gas, adjusting the wheel when the rear started to slide, and
pulled out onto the highway hard and smooth. She merged with traffic and flowed
along, getting the feel. "Where's the
flasher for the headlights?" "Flick the turn
signal toward you. But be careful - the high beams are real monsters." "Horn?" "There's two.
The hub on the wheel is the regular one; the little button near the rim -see
it? - that's for moving trucks out of the way." She flicked a glance
over her right shoulder. "Okay to play?" "Go," I
told her. She spotted an
opening, mashed the gas, shot all the way across to the far-left lane, blew
past a dozen cars, backed off the gas, and rolled into the center lane. She
pulled the Plymouth so close behind the car in front that it looked like we
were going to hit. Kept it right there until the guy in front of us pulled
over. "Follow the
signs to the Whitestone Bridge," I told her. Belle handled the big
car like it was part of her, cutting through traffic, moving from one clot of
cars to another, staying in the pack each time. When we got to the bridge, she
pulled into the Exact Change lane without me saying a word. I handed her a token.
She flicked it into the basket without looking. We motored along the Hutchinson
River Parkway, Belle still putting the Plymouth through its paces, not talking
to me. We came to the last toll before the hook-turn to the Cross County. A guy
in a white Corvette was in the lane next to us, coming out of the chute at the
same time. Belle goosed the Plymouth, heading for the left lane. The 'Vette
jumped out ahead of us. Belle kicked it down - both cars were flying to the
same lane, the 'Vette a half-length in front. Belle kept coming. The gap got
narrow. I heard the scream of rubber - the 'Vette's driver stood on the brakes
as we shot through. A minute later, the
'Vette steamed by in the right lane, cutting sharply in front of us as soon as he
passed. Belle flicked the brights, punching the horn button at the same time.
The sky lit up. The twin air horns under the horn blasted the warning call of a
runaway semi. The 'Vette ducked out of the way as we went by. Belle slashed
over into his lane. I heard the shriek of brakes again. Belle brought it down
to about seventy. We were in the right lane, heading for the hook-turn at Exit
13. Bright lights flooded the back window. Belle reached up, turned the
rearview mirror to the side. She hit the hook-turn with the 'Vette boiling up
behind us. "Come on,
sucker," she muttered as the 'Vette pulled into the outside lane behind
us. She nailed it around the sweeping turn, holding the inside track. The
'Vette roared behind us, closing fast. Belle's mouth was a straight line. She
slid the Plymouth into a piece of the outside lane, but this time the 'Vette
was ready for her - he darted back to the inside. Belle slashed the wheel back
to the right, carrying the 'Vette right off the road onto the grass. She pulled
the Plymouth together for the straightaway, swept under the overpass, and slid
into the new traffic stream as smoothly as a pickpocket working a crowd. She patted the
steering wheel hard - like you'd do a horse who'd run a strong race. "Good
girl," she said. "You took the
words out of my mouth." She flashed me her
smile. We exited the Cross
County and hooked back to the racetrack. I showed her where to pull in: around
the back, near the stable area. Nobody parks there except the horse vans - it's
a long distance to the entrance. I gave Belle the buck and a half for the guy
collecting the entrance fee, and we motored slowly through, stopping for grooms
to walk their horses across the road. "Park over
there," I told her, pointing at a blacktop road that runs behind the
paddock. "Leave the nose pointing out." There are a couple of
hundred acres of gravel behind the road. Pitch-dark. Belle turned off the road,
stomped the gas, blasting straight into the darkness. She floored the brakes,
feathering the gas at the same time, spinning the Plymouth into a perfect
bootlegger's turn right into the spot I'd pointed to. She turned off the
engine. A whirlwind of dirt and dust flew outside the windows, settling on the
car. "What'd you
think, honey?" "You're a
natural," I told her. Her face went sad.
"No. No, I'm not." I took her hand,
squeezed it. "Don't disrespect your mother," I told her. She gulped. Took a
breath. "You always know what to say, Burke." "I know what to
do too," I promised her. I walked her past the
paddock, holding her hand. The black-and-white stripes swayed in the night. I
bet some of the mares were jealous. I paid our way past
the turnstiles. Stopped in the open area to toss a dollar at the guy selling
programs from behind a little desk. There was a box of tiny pencils next to the
stack of programs. Belle reached past me and took one. "That's a
quarter for the pencil, lady," the guy called out. Belle looked at him
like he was deranged. "For this little thing?" She tossed it back
into the box. "Behave
yourself," I told her, taking her hand to lead her outside. A booth about
the size of a one-bedroom apartment was set up outside, open along the sides,
canvas across the top. Barbecue grill inside. "Want something?" I
asked her. Smart move. She
ordered four hamburgers with everything, two beers. The guy behind the counter
finally stopped staring and barked the order over his shoulder, not moving his
eyes from her chest. "What're you
getting, pal?" the counter geek asked me. "He gets it
later," Belle assured him. The guy's jaw went
from gaping to unhinged. I paid the money,
carrying a beer in each hand, motioning for Belle to climb the stairs ahead of me,
admiring the view. We found seats in the outside grandstand, right near the top
of the stretch. Belle put her
hamburgers on one seat, took some napkins, and thoroughly cleaned off two more.
She took a slug of beer, then handed it back to me to hold for her while she
worked on the burgers. "You see that
guy's face?" she asked innocently. "Michelle was right about the
makeup." When she finished
eating, I stowed the refuse under our seats, lit a smoke, and opened the
program. Belle slouched against me, her head on my shoulder, holding the last
beer in one hand. "What do all
those little numbers mean?" "They all mean
something different. You really want to know?" "Yes," she
said, sounding injured. I went through it
quickly, just once over lightly. Showed her how you could tell the horse's age,
sex, color, breeding, all that kind of thing. I was up to the comparative speed
ratings at the different tracks and she was still paying attention. "What's the most
important?" she wanted to know. "What d'you
mean?" "Like, all that
stuff. It can't all mean the same thing." "Belle, that's
the trick of it. It all means different things to different people. Some people
like speed, some people like breeding, some people . . ." She cut me off.
"What about you? You think breeding is important?" I looked at her face
against my shoulder. "Class is what's important to me. Heart. Going the
distance. Breeding don't mean a thing." "But breeding
has to count for something, right? Or they wouldn't put it there," she
said, pointing to the program. "They put everything
on the program, girl. Because the gamblers want to know, see? What possible
difference could a horse's color make? That's on there too." "But it must . .
." "It does mean
something, Belle. I've been looking at horses since I was a kid - I'll tell you
what it means – you want to tell if a horse has real class, you look at its
mother." She tilted her head
up to me, a smile growing. "Truly?" "That's the way
nature made it, girl. You can never know for sure who the father of a baby is,
but there's never a doubt about the mother." "Never a
doubt," she agreed, patting my thigh. The P.A. system blared into life;
the horses were on the track for the first race. Belle watched as they paraded
in front of the grandstand behind the marshal. She lit a cigarette, watching
everything, leaning forward in her seat, her hand on my knee. The tote board said
two minutes to post time. "Are you going to make a bet, honey?" "Not this
race," I told her, watching. Belle sipped
delicately at her second beer. The very image of a lady, about ten percent past
life-size. The race wasn't much.
If I'd had binoculars, I would have looked for Lupe. Belle finished her
beer. "Who's going to win the next race?'' she demanded. I studied the
program. Same class, same crop. Mostly older horses on the way down. But there
was one four-year-old, a Warm Breeze mare; Hurricane was her name. I pointed
her out on the program. "This one's
getting stronger all the time - maybe she's a late bloomer." Belle lit a smoke.
"I like this," she said, watching the horses come out for the post
parade. "Which one is ours?" "The five
horse," I told her. "The one with the white blanket." "She's pretty.
Kind of small, though." At five minutes to
post, Hurricane was up to 15-1. "Let's bet on
her," Belle said. "Okay. I'll be
right back," I said, getting up. "Can't I come
too?" "Come on,"
I said, ripping the front and back covers off the program and folding the pages
into the rungs of our seats to mark them as ours. She held my hand as
we walked to the windows. A group of Latins were standing against a pole,
arguing about the race in Spanish. One blurted out "Mira, mira!"
as we walked by. Belle stiffened. "It just means 'Look at that!' "I
said to her, squeezing her hand. "Must be those vertical stripes." I threw a
double-sawbuck down on the mare. Back in our seats,
Belle squirmed, swiveling her head so she wouldn't miss anything. I lit a smoke
as they called the horses to the gate. As the car pulled off, the horses
charged into the first turn, fighting for position. Hurricane didn't get off
quickly - she was pushed to the outside, deep in the pack. "Oh, she's
losing!" Hurricane moved wide
on the paddock turn, gaining a little ground. The three horse was in front, the
six next to him, Hurricane running behind the six. Belle was pounding
her fist on my knee, bouncing a little in her seat. "Come on!" Hurricane fired on
the back stretch, going three-wide around the horse in front of her, collaring
the leader. But she couldn't pull ahead, and the three horse looked fresh. The
two of them ran away from the pack into the final turn and pounded for home,
not giving an inch. "Don't quit,
baby!" Belle yelled. The three horse
pulled a neck ahead, but the mare wouldn't give it up. She reached down and found
something, shot forward again. The crowd roared - the three horse was the
odds-on favorite. They crossed the finish line together - too far down the
track for me to see who came out on top. "Photo" shot up on the
board. "Did she
win?" "I don't know,
Belle. It was close - we have to wait for the photo." "She didn't
quit, though, did she?" "Sure as hell
didn't." The crowd buzzed. The
"Photo" came down and the numbers went up: "5-3-4." Belle stood up, her
hands on the railing, leaning out into the night. "Good girl!" she
shouted to the mare. Heads turned toward the sound; the male heads stayed
turned. I grabbed her hand, pulled her back into her seat. Hurricane drove past
us, heading for the stable. Belle stood up again, clapping her hands. "Oh,
she's beautiful!" she said, happy as a kid at Christmas. The kind of
Christmas the Cosby kids have. I lit a smoke. Almost
$350 to the good. With Mystery Mary last night, I was on the longest winning
streak of my career. "Burke, it's
just like you said. Heart. She had heart - she went the distance." "Anything you
want to bet in the next race?" I asked her, keeping my voice as neutral as
possible under the circumstances. "No, honey. I don't
want to bet anymore. Let's just watch, okay?" "I'll be right
back," I said. I cashed in the
ticket. "Nice hit," the teller congratulated me. The money made a
sweet roll. I sat down next to
Belle. "Now, listen - I have to go and see someone. On the other side of
the track. You stay here. Don't get out of your seat. Okay?" "Yes." "The next race
is going to start soon. I'll get up like I'm making a bet. I'll be back as soon
as I can." "Okay." "Now, listen,
Belle. And don't tell me anything. II I'm not back by the end of the seventh
race, you get up and leave." I pressed the car keys into her hand. Drive
to your house. Call the number you called me at the first time. Ask for Mama.
Tell her I met with a man named Lupe. Tell her everything you know." "When will you
be back?" "I don't know.
I'm going down a tunnel. If you don't hear from me in a couple of days, call
Mama again. She'll tell you what to do." "Burke . .
." I held her face in my
hand, grabbing her eyes. "You want to be my woman?" She nodded. "This is part of
what it costs," I told her. I didn't look back. I went to the betting
windows, put down ten to win on the six horse, slipped the ticket into my
pocket. I hadn't looked at the program. I made my way through the track until I
was past the finish line. Then I went downstairs, paid an extra buck, and went
into the Club-house area. I stayed outside, climbing into the dark grand-stand
at the end, working my way to the top row. I spotted Lupe in a
couple of minutes, sitting by himself in the far corner, wearing a neon-green
jacket with some writing on the back. I moved down until I was across from him,
making sure. The Prof's description was right on the money. I lit a smoke, stuck
it in my mouth, and moved over to him, both hands in front of me. "Lupe?" "Who wants to
know, man?" "Name's
Burke," I said, sitting down. He grinned, showing
me his lousy teeth. "I know you, man. I heard of you. You got that monster
dog, right? You want to put her in the ring?" "Only if you get
in there with her," I said, keeping my voice even. "I got no beef
with you," he said quickly. "I got no beef
with you either. I heard you were the man to see about a match, that's
all." "What you
got?" "I got nothing.
I want to get down on some action." "You know Van
Cortlandt Park?" "I don't mean
dogs, pal. Or roosters either." "So?" "I heard this
guy Mortay - he's been doing some duels. Heavy action." "Mucho
action, man. But this motherfucker Mortay - he only had that one match." "With the
Jap?" "Yeah! You saw
it?" "No, just heard
about it." His eyes glittered,
crazy-cold eyes. "You got someone wants to meet Mortay, man?" "Yeah. Me." Lupe laughed.
"With what, man? A machine gun?" "I don't want to
fight him - just have a talk. I figured you could set it up." "No, man,"
he said, sadness in his voice. "I don't find him - he finds me. He's got
this guy, Ramуn. He's the one who makes the meets." "How'd he find
the Jap?" "The Jap found him,
man. Guy rolls in from the Coast, puts the word out. I hear this Mortay totaled
his brother out there. He was looking for payback." "Didn't have
much luck, did he?" "Man, Mortay
don't take prisoners. He earned his name. Mortay, man. You get it? Muerte.
Death. He deals death, man. Eats it alive." "You don't know where
to find him?" "Man, I don't want
to know where to find him." "Yeah. Okay.
This Ramуn comes around, you tell him I'd like to meet Mortay. Public place, no
problems. Just want to talk to him for a minute." Lupe shrugged. "He
comes, I ask him, man. Where you gonna be?" "Just give him
my name. I'm in the phone book," I told him, walking off. I was back next to
Belle before the start of the fifth race. "Not so bad,
huh?" I asked her. "I waited here,
just like you said." "Good
girl." "But if you
hadn't come back, I was going looking." "That's not what
I told you to do." "I wasn't going
to make trouble. Just poke around." "Yeah, you got a
great disguise all right. Nobody'd remember seeing you." "Burke, I love
you. I had to . . ." "You had to listen.
Like I told you to. Like you promised. Stupid bitch." "Honey!" "You don't want
to listen, you can walk. We made a deal." "I'm sorry,
baby. I am. I just . . ." "Just. Fucking.
Nothing. I'm not going to tell you again." She leaned into me,
her hand near the inside of my thigh, whispering. "You want to take me
home, beat my ass, teach me a lesson?" "I thought you
said no man ever hit you." "It'd be worth
it," she whispered. "You know why?" "Why,
dopey?" "You'd have to
be there to do it," she said. I stood up, held out
my hand. She took it, meek as a lamb, a little smile on her face. I drove the Plymouth
on the way back. Belle was quiet. "You mad at me?" "I'm not mad at
you - I'm not going to be mad at you. That's not the way I work. You
want to be with me, I have to trust you. That's all there is." I turned to look at
her. A tear rolled down her cheek, tracking through the makeup. 158 ANDREWVACHSS BLUE
BELLE 159 "Okay?" I
asked her. "I swear,"
she promised, lying down on the front seat, curling up next to my leg. She
didn't say another word all the way back to her house. When I pulled in behind
the red Camaro, Belle was still lying across the front seat, her head against
my leg. She put her hand on my thigh, grabbed hard enough to hurt. "You have to
come in with me." "Pretty bossy,
aren't you?" She looked up at me,
her face wet, the lovely makeup ruined. "Just come
inside, honey. Come inside - you can be all the boss you want to be, but don't
go away now." I opened my door, got
out. Walked around to her side of the car to let her out. I held my hand out to
her. "Come on,"
I told her. She piled out of the
Plymouth faster than I thought she could move. "Don't turn on
the lights," she said, pushing me to the couch. She patted my pockets,
found cigarettes and matches. Lit one for each of us. The little flame shot
highlights into her hair. "I don't know
what to do," she said, sounding lost. "About
what?" "I want to wash
my face. Take these tears off. But if I do, the makeup won't stay." "Wash your
face." "But you liked
the way I looked. You said so." "I like the way
you look in those pants too - does that mean you'll never take them off while
I'm around?" "It's not the
same thing," she sniffled. "Yeah, it
is," I told her. "Exactly the same thing. Underneath whatever you put
on there's still you." "But . . ." "But what?" "That's not the
way it is, honey. All my life . . . it's been the same thing. I have to take
off my clothes to make a man forget my face." I held her against
me, her face pressed into my chest, talking softly into her ear. "Listen to me,
Belle. You said you'd listen to me, yes?" Her head nodded
against me. "You're the one
who doesn't like your face. Because you don't understand it's your own face. I
know whose face it is, okay?" She nodded against me
again. "Go take off the
makeup," I said, patting her gently. While she was in the bathroom, I
called the Prof. His voice sounded much stronger. "I'm on the line
with plenty of time." "It's me." "Back from the
track?" "Yeah. I spoke
to the man." "So we got a
plan?" "No. Not yet. I
want to see the guy you talked with. Square the beef. Drop the case. Walk
away." "He's got to
pay, but not today?" "Right. And we
don't want anyone else in the game - just you and me." "He's not going
to stop till he gets to the top." "I'm not sure
that's right, Prof. I think this dueling shit isn't the real story - he was
riding shotgun on this other thing, and you stumbled into the line of
fire." "Could be, man.
But . . ." "No names, we'll
talk later. I'll come and see you. On the first shift, okay?" "I can't run,
son." I hung up. Belle came out of the
bathroom wearing a black bra over the striped pants, a doubtful look on her
freshly scrubbed face. She lit another of her fat black candles, propping it on
the sink. "I'm ugly
again," she said. I gave her a hard
look but she didn't flinch. "I looked for myself," she said, her
voice sad. I took a drag of my
cigarette. "You want me to fix it?" "How? Put a bag
over my head?" "Come
here," I said, keeping my voice even. She walked over to
the couch. "Take off those
pants." She reached back to
unhook her bra. "Just the pants," I told her. She stepped out of
her spike heels. Even with the zipper all the way down, getting the pants off
was a struggle. She stood there in her bra and panties, hands on her hips.
"You want these off too?" she asked, her thumbs hooked in the
waistband. "Yeah." She did, watching me
every second. "Now what?" "Come with
me," I said, taking her hand. I led her back to the bathroom, posing her
in front of the sink. The candle's flickering glow carried through the open
door. "Lean
forward," I told her, my hand on her shoulder. "Look into the
mirror." "I still think .
. ." "Shut up. Just
do what I tell you, okay?" "Okay." "I'm going to
ask you some questions," I said, sliding my hand down to her waist.
"Soon as you get the right answer, I'll stop. Got it?" "Yes." "Look in the
mirror - tell me what you see." "An ugly old
girl." I slid my hand to her
butt, took a plump cheek in my right hand, gave her a hard, sharp pinch. "Ow!" she
yelped. "Wrong
answer," I told her. "What do you see now?" "The same
thing," she snapped, her voice set and stubborn. I pinched her harder. She yelped again.
"Take another look," I told her. She tried to rub herself - I slapped
her hand away. "I don't care if
you pinch it right off, I'm not . . . Burke!" she squealed as I pinched
her again. My hand was getting tired. "I see a
beautiful young girl," I whispered to her. "You sure I'm
wrong?" Tears rolled down her
face. "You mean it? You swear you mean it?" I squeezed her butt,
gently this time. "I've got all night," I promised her. "This isn't
fair," she said, a smile peeking out from beneath the pout. "Tell me what
you see," I said, still holding her in the same place, tightening my hand.
"Last chance." "I see a
beautiful young girl," she said. Like a robot. I pinched the sweet flesh
hard. She tried to push past me but I blocked her way. "Okay!" I stroked her butt
gently. "Tell me." "I see a
beautiful young girl." "Me too," I
said, kissing her. She came into my
arms, baby-soft. I kissed her for a long time. "I'm going to be black and
blue," she said against my chest. "I'm
sorry." "I'm not,"
she said, pulling me toward the bed. "It's a lot better than being just
blue." Something flicked at
my brain just before I drifted off to sleep. Something about a letter. I made a
grab for it, but I went under before I could pull it close. When I came around,
it was still dark. Belle was lying crossways on the bed, her breasts flattened
against my chest, her face buried in the pillow next to mine. She was awake too
- I could tell from her breathing. "What,
baby?" I asked her. She turned her head, propping
herself on an elbow. "Baby . . . I'll never have a baby." "Sure you will.
Someday." "No, I won't. I
fixed it. I had a real ugly harelip - you know what that is?" "Yeah." "Well, I had a
bad one. Pulled up so bad you could see my teeth all the time. I saved some
money - went to a plastic surgeon. You know what, Burke? He told me he could
fix the whole thing, give me a different face. A real nose instead of this
little pig's snout, cheekbones, anything I wanted." "So what
happened?" "I started on
it. He did the harelip first. Did it real good too. But then I went on a job
with a couple of boys. It got nasty right in the middle - the wheels came off
and we had to fly. We got away, but one of the boys got himself shot up pretty
bad. There's this old doctor, back in the hills. We went by his place, stayed
there for damn near a month. Cost us every dime we had between us, but he
pulled Rodney through." She fumbled around
the night table, looking for a cigarette. Her body gleamed in the flame from
the match. "This old doctor
- he was an outlaw. Like us. I don't even know if he was a real doctor and all,
but he had good hands. I was pregnant - maybe two, three months gone. I found
out while we were holed up. I was just a big dumb old girl - never figured on
getting pregnant. When the doc told me, I told him to go and get the baby. Take
it. "He wanted to
know was I sure. So I told him. I told him the truth. He said I was right - I
was doing the right thing. He said he saw a lot of babies like I was gonna have
- said they never did too well. Trying to make it gentle for me, but I knew
what he meant." She took a deep drag
off her cigarette. "He said he
could fix me up inside when he went to get the baby. Tie my tubes. I didn't
have to think a minute." Her voice was soft in
the night. "I could love a baby - I know I could. But I figured, if I
loved a baby, I'd never have one. You understand?" "Yeah." "How come you
never worried about it?" "About
what?" "Making me
pregnant." I laughed. "I
can't make babies, Belle." "You tried? With
that woman . . ." "No. I never
tried. Never thought about it when I was young. Spent most of my time in places
where you couldn't make a baby anyway. I got jumped once. Long time ago. It
wasn't a personal thing - I was in the wrong place. Or maybe I was just the
wrong color. Doesn't much matter. Anyway, they really did a number on me. When
the ambulance dropped me at the hospital, the pain was so bad . . . there's no
way for me to describe it to you." "What'd they
do?" "Broke some
ribs. Fractured my jaw. But the real hurt they kicked me in the balls so many
times I thought they were going to fall off. The doctor said it was a
testicular torsion." "A what?" "A torsion . . .
like a twist." I held my two fists together in front of her face, twisted
one sideways. "Like that." "Ugh!" "Yeah. I looked
down at myself - the whole sac was black. Before they put me out, the doctor
said the blood supply was pinched off - they'd have to cut me open and stitch a
new wall inside to hold the balls in place." "God!" "I remember
telling them, could they do a vasectomy while they were at it . . . The doctor
thought it was funny - like, as long as they were in the neighborhood and all.
But they did it. No babies from me either." "Does that hurt
you?" "No. It's not for
me. I don't think about it. But I never told anyone before." Belle kissed me.
"You can tell me anything," she said. I reached past her. Lit a smoke
for myself. My watch said it was past four in the morning. "Go back to
sleep," I said, rubbing her back, pushing against her shoulder. "I have to sleep
on my stomach," she said, a smile playing around her lips. "You're breaking
my heart - I didn't pinch you that hard." "You did!" "Give it a rest,
Belle. I'd need a set of vise grips to do a job on all this," I said,
patting her butt. "I looked in the
mirror. While you were asleep. You made a big mark." "It'll be gone
soon." "I know,"
she whispered. "That's why I'm sleeping on my stomach. I want to see it
again before it goes away." She put her face in
my chest. I felt the tears. "What?" "It'll fade
away. You will too." "I'm right
here." "For now." I took a last long
pull on the cigarette, tangling my hand in the hair at the back of her neck. "It's like you
said before, Belle. We're outlaws. Tomorrow's for citizens. For us, it's always
now." "I love
you," she mumbled into my chest. "Go to sleep,
little girl," I told her, holding her, kissing her hair. Waiting for daylight. I was back up a
couple of hours later. I lit a cigarette, walked out onto the deck. A big
seagull sat on the railing. He didn't fly away as I walked closer to him, just
shifted his head so he could watch me close. He knew he had the whole sky to
run to. I felt Belle behind
me. "You better go back to sleep," I said. "Why? I'm awake
now." "You already
missed a couple of nights' work. You're going to be wiped out if you don't get
some rest." "I'm not going
back. In that business, girls come and they go. It happens all the time." "Yeah, but . .
." "I'm in this
with you, Burke. I know you could walk away from me anyway. When it's over. But
I got to take this shot. Show you what I can do . . . so you'll want to be with
me." "Look, Belle . .
." "You promised.
Maybe you didn't say the words, but you promised. An outlaw's promise - I'm in
on this. I've got some money put away. You won't have to take care of me." "Hell, I'd have
to rob a bank just to feed you." She slapped me hard
on the arm. "I mean it. Don't joke around." She slipped her arms
around my neck from behind, pressed against me, talking only for my ears.
"I'm going to be with you. I don't want men looking at me anymore the way
they do. You made it too late for that." Her grip tightened. "I want
a man who looks at my face." I let out a breath.
"Get dressed," I told her. We were back in my
office by seven-thirty. I let Pansy out to the roof, called Mama. No messages
came in for me, but she got mine out to Max. One more quick call. The Prof was
a little blurred on the phone - I guess they were still shooting him up. "How you holding
up, brother?" I asked him. "If the Board
don't call, it's time for the Wall." One of his old
sayings - if you can't scam the Parole Board, it's time to start working on an
escape plan. I guess he was pretty sick of the hospital. I spread out the
street maps on the desk again, stared at them. Belle's hand on my
shoulder. "What're you looking for, honey?" "I don't know
yet." Pansy came back
downstairs. One glance told her the situation. I was working - no point in
trying to extort food. Then her beast's brain came as close to an idea as she
was ever likely to get. She butted her massive head against Belle's leg,
pushing her back a few feet. Belle headed for the couch, but Pansy cut her off,
butting at her again. "What does she
want?" "Food," I
said, not looking up. I heard the
refrigerator open. "Well, what suits you?" Belle asked. Pansy
growled. "Can I give her some of this brown rice?" "Heat it up
first," I told her, keeping my eyes on the maps. Belle came back
inside. "Honey, is there a store around here?" "What kind of
store?" "Like a
supermarket or a grocery?" "Not far.
Why?" "I need some
stuff." "Later,
okay?" "But I want . .
." "Belle, I'm
trying to figure something out. Just be quiet for a while, okay?" She leaned over the
desk, her breasts in my face, one hand slipping into my lap. "Maybe you
should put something in my mouth . . . shut me up good." I looked up at her,
holding her eyes. "If you won't let me work with you here . . ." Her eyes went soft
and sad. "I was playing." "Now's not the
time." She leaned closer,
watching my eyes. "I know. I thought you'd give me a slap. Where you
pinched me last night." "What good would
that do?" "I have to feel
you. You won't let me help . . . I just wanted . . ." "I will
let you help. But if you don't shut up, I'll never figure out how." I patted her rump.
Gently. "Okay?" "Okay." When I looked away
from the map, she was curled up asleep on the couch, Pansy was lying parallel
to her on the floor. I snapped my fingers.
Pansy's head swiveled. I pointed toward the far corner of the office. She moved
with the speed of a runaway fire hydrant. As soon as she was at her post, I went
over to the couch. I kissed Belle on the cheek. She came awake. "What is
it, honey?" "I got something
for you to do - you awake?" She rubbed her eyes.
"Sure." "When you spoke
to Marques, he call you or did you call him?" "Both." "So you have a phone
number for him?" "Sure." "I want you to
call him. Tell him I came by the club and saw you. Asked you to get in touch
with him - set up a meeting. Tell him I said any time, any place. About what we
talked about the last time." "What if he has
to call me back - where do I tell him?" "Don't tell him
anything. If he can't give you a time and a place right then, tell him to call
my number. The one he gave you the first time." "The Chinese
woman." "Yeah." "Burke, is she
the one? The one you . . ." I ruffled her hair,
kissed the back of her neck. "Come on, Belle. We got a lot to do
today." On the way to the
hospital, I asked her about Marques. "You know the
best time to call?" "What difference
does it make?" "He's a pimp. He
goes off the street before four, five in the morning, the other players will
think he's losing a step. Best time to catch him at his crib is early
afternoon." "Sometimes, when
I come off my shift, I can't sleep. Maybe I could try him now." "Yeah, okay.
When I go up to see the Prof, you take the car. Find a pay phone, take a
shot." I looked at my watch. Almost ten-thirty. "I'll meet you in the
parking lot around noon. If you haven't reached him by then, we'll try
again." I pulled up outside Saint
Vincent's. "The registration papers are in the glove compartment. You get
stopped by the cops, tell them you borrowed the car. It's not on any
list." I showed her the
papers. "Juan
Rodriguez?" "That's me. I
met you at the club. Told you you could borrow the car any time you wanted.
You've never been to my house. I told you I wouldn't need the car for a couple
of weeks 'cause I'd be on vacation." I gave her a slip of
paper with a phone number on it. The phone would ring at the junkyard I own a
piece of in the Bronx. The old man who made out my paycheck would tell anyone
who called I was on vacation. In Puerto Rico someplace. Juan Rodriguez was the
ideal employee - he never showed up for work, but he cashed his paycheck and
gave the boss back the money. Fuck the IRS. "Drive the car
like it was hot. Don't call attention to yourself. But if you get pulled over,
don't run. If you get a ticket, just take it. Don't say anything." "All right,
honey." The Plymouth pulled away
and disappeared in traffic. Smoother than I ever drove it. The Prof looked
stronger already. I pulled my chair to the head of the bed and we talked like
we used to on the yard. Quiet, each looking in a different direction. The West
Indian nurse came in. "I smell smoke
in here," she said, like she'd caught us stealing. "Smoke don't
have a prayer against your own sweet smell, Mama," the Prof sang out. "There's no
smoking in the patients' rooms. Now, you know that very well. I have told you
before." The Prof spread his
hands to the heavens, seeking divine guidance. "Lord, what must I say to
make this woman give me a play?" The nurse's broad
face creased as she fought off the smile. "You smart-mouth little man -
I'd break the rest of your bones." "You don't mean
a word of it, a goddess like you." The nurse had a pill
and a plastic cup of dark liquid. "You going to take this medicine with no
more of your speeches?" The Prof regarded
her, his fine head cocked to the side. "You know why a man climbs a
mountain?" She sighed, used to
this by now. "So, then. Why
does a man climb a mountain?" "'Cause the
air's so sweet when you get to the top," the Prof said, and popped the
pill in his mouth, holding the glass like a toast. "You going to give a
poor man a reason to live?" "You keep
messing with me, you have no reason to live," she warned him, then waited
patiently for the Prof to finish drinking his medicine. Snatched the glass from
his hand and stalked out. "A little more
time and she's all mine," the Prof said. He was right - all Mortay broke
was his legs. I lit another
cigarette, pulling the half-filled water glass we used as an ashtray from under
the bed. I went to the track.
Saw the man. Like I told you." "And?" He can't put me in
touch. Says this Mortay's a death-dealer for real. That duel with the Jap - it
really went down." The Prof dragged deep
on his cigarette. "Yeah. But he's no warrior. Not like Max. He's a junkie
for it." "It connects,
Prof." His eyes flashed. ''Run
it down, home." "You weren't
looking for this freak, right? Just poking around . . . asking about the
van." "Right." "And this guy's
no bodyguard. You must have stepped on his turf by accident." "It's not enough.
We need to know more if we going to score." 'I'm working on it. I
told this Lupe . . . the guy who makes matches . . . I want to meet." "You not going
to bring Max?" "Max is out of
this one, Prof." He reached his hand
across the bed. I squeezed it. "That seals the
deal," he said. "Right. You
getting anything over the wire?" "Not yet. It'll
come, though. I got a lot of hooks floating." I stood up to leave.
"You need anything?" I asked. "I need a
nurse," he said. Belle was behind the
wheel of the Plymouth as I came through the parking lot, reading a newspaper
spread over the steering wheel. She had the car moving before I closed the
door. "Very
nice," I told her. "This is some
lovely car." "You're some lovely
woman. You call Marques?" "No answer.
Can't we try him from your office?" "That phone's no
good past eight in the morning. You can't stay on the line more than a minute
anyway. I'll show you where to pull over." We found an open pay
phone by the river. I handed Belle a quarter. She took one of those
premoistened towelettes from her purse, ripped off the foil, wiped down the
mouthpiece. She dialed the
number. Waited. Somebody picked up. I only heard her end of the conversation. "Could I speak
to Marques, please?" . . . "Belle." We waited a couple of
minutes. I opened my palm to show her I had another quarter ready. "Hi. Remember
that man you wanted me to call for you? Burke? He came by the club. Said he
wanted to meet with you. About what you talked about the last time." . . . "He said it was
up to you. Any time. Any place." . . . "No, he didn't
seem mad at all. He just said he needed information about the scene, and you
were the best person . . . He didn't
want to poke around without checking with you, he said." . . . "Okay. Wait, let
me write this down," she said, signaling to me. I nodded. "Go
ahead," she said into the phone. . . . "Junior's?
Where's that? Oh, he'll know." I nodded to her
again. "What
time?" . . . "Eleven. Okay.
And tell him not to bring his friends? Sure. Okay, thanks. I'll tell him - he
said he'd call me before I go to work tonight." She put down the phone. "Good
girl," I told her. She tossed her head,
smile flashing in the sun. "You just wait and see," she promised. I took the wheel. As
I pulled out, I noticed the back seat full of cartons. "What's all that
stuff?" I asked her. "Stuff I
needed," she said. Case closed. "You
hungry?" She made a noise like
Pansy does when you ask her the same question. I pulled in behind
Mama's, taking Belle by the hand as we walked through the kitchen. Mama's
collection of thugs watched us impassively - they'd seen stranger things come
through the back room. The joint had a few
customers - no way to keep them all out at lunchtime - but my booth was empty,
the way it always is. The waiter came over
to us, blocking Belle's side of the booth, looking a question at me with his
eyes. I shook my head, telling him Belle wasn't trouble. He flicked his eyes
toward the front of the room. I nodded - send Mama over. Mama's dress was a
deep shade of red. Opal earrings matched the ring on her hand. She returned my
bow, face a mask. "Mama, this is
Belle," I said. "Belle, this is Mama." I said it carefully. Nice
and even, same tone of voice. Mama was stone-solid reliable when it came down
to a crunch, but she was funny about women. She bowed.
"Friend of Burke, friend of Mama." Belle started to reach
out her hand, thought better of it. Bowed gently. "Thank you, ma'am."
Polite as a little girl in church. Mama slid into the
booth next to me, barking something in Cantonese over her shoulder. The waiter brought
the soup. Mama served me, then Belle, then herself. Watched carefully, smiling
with approval as the bowl emptied. "You have more soup?" "Yes, please.
It's delicious." Mama bowed again.
"Very good soup - good for strength. Special for my people. Always
here." Belle looked a
question. "Burke my people,"
Mama said. No expression on her face, nothing in her tone. But a low-grade
moron would have caught the warning. Belle quietly worked
her way through beef in oyster sauce, snow-pea pods, water chestnuts, fried
rice, hard noodles, paying no attention to us. Mama took a look at
the empty plates, raised her eyebrows, called the waiter over again. Belle had
a portion of lemon chicken, washing it all down with some Chinese beer. She
patted her face with her napkin. "Oh, that was good!" "You want
more?" Mama asked. Belle smiled.
"No, thank you." "You come back
sometime. When no more trouble, okay? See my granddaughter, yes?" "You have a
granddaughter?" "Why not?"
Mama asked, her face hardening. "You don't look
old enough." A smile flashed.
Disappeared. "Plenty old enough. Burke explain to you sometime." "Do you havve
pictures of her?" Mama scanned Belle's
face, taking her time. "Many pictures," she said, tapping her head.
"All in here." Belle walked past the
warning like she hadn't heard it. "What's the baby's name?" "Flower." Belle sipped her tea,
prim and proper. Her eyes were soft. "If I was a flower, I know what kind
I'd be," she said, half to herself. "A bluebell." Mama bowed, as though
she understood. The way she always looks. "I have to go in
the street for a while," I told Belle as we climbed in the Plymouth.
"I'll call you when I'm done with Marques. Late, okay?" "Can't I wait at
your office?" "It's only a little
after two now - I'll be coming back there to change around eight. It's a long
time to be cooped up." "I won't be
cooped up." "Yeah you would.
I could leave you there with Pansy, but she wouldn't let you out." "It's
okay." I drove back to the
office, helping Belle carry her boxes up the back stairs. "I'm not
playing, girl. Pansy lets people in, but they're always there when I come back,
understand?" "Sure. Go ahead.
I'll just take a nap." "Don't use the
phone. And don't open any of the file cabinets." "O-kay! I
got it." I gave her a kiss. I found Michelle at
The Very Idea, a transsexual bar on the East Side. I walked through a jungle of
hard looks until I got to her table, feeling them fall away when she kissed me
on the cheek. "Hi,
handsome." She smiled. "Looking for me?" I sat down next to her,
lit a cigarette, waiting patiently for her two girlfriends to leave. Michelle
didn't introduce me. "The Prof's in
the hospital," I told her. "What's the rest
of it?" "His legs are
broken. Somebody did it to him. For poking around, asking questions." "You know
who?" "Guy named
Mortay." Her big eyes went
quiet, two long dark fingernails flirting with her cheekbone, meaning she was
thinking. "I don't know him . . . but it seems like I heard the name . .
." "It's Spanish
for 'death.' " "Honey, you know
my language is French." I didn't say
anything, looking straight ahead. Michelle's hand grabbed my wrist. "Honey,
I'm sorry. But it's business, right? The Prof was poking around, like you said.
It's not the first time he stepped on a nail." "The guy didn't
have to do it, Michelle. It was a message. He's some kind of freak -wants to
fight Max. That's why he worked the Prof over." "He wants to
fight Max?" "That's what he
said." "He should
change his name to 'death wish.'" "Yeah, great.
Thanks for your help." I got up to leave. "Burke!" "What? You think
I came here to listen to your snappy dialogue? The Prof's my brother. Yours
too. I know you're off the street - I didn't think we were off your list." Michelle grabbed my
arm, her talons biting deep. "Don't you ever say that!" she hissed,
pulling me closer. She got to her feet, hooking her arm through mine.
"Let's get out of here - too many ears." We walked out into
the daylight. I let her lead me down the street to another joint - a singles
bar that wouldn't come alive for a couple of hours. We grabbed a pair of stools
near a corner. Glass tinkled; a brittle edge to the juiceless, anorexic
laughter of the patrons. The bartender brought Michelle her white wine and me
my ginger ale. "Tell me,"
she said, not playing now. "You know the
Ghost Van?" "Just the
rumors. The gossip off the street. But I know it's for real - somebody's
shooting the working girls." "There's a
bounty on it. I talked with some people. Made a deal to track it down. The Prof
was in on it. That's what he was looking for when he ran into this
Mortay." "So they're
connected?" "I don't know.
When Mortay leaned hard, the Prof pulled out Max's name. Thinking to put some
protection on himself. It backfired. Mortay wants Max - that's what he said.
Wanted to know where his dojo was. The Prof didn't know. Mortay snapped his
legs." "How'd you find
him?" "They brought
him right to the hospital. Like I said - a message." "Where are you
now?" "I did some
digging. There's this guy Lupe. Works out of the Bronx. Sets up matches. You
know: cockfights, pit bulls, crap like that?" "Yes?" "He said this
Mortay fought a duel. A bunch of the players got together, put up this purse.
Twenty grand. Mortay killed the other guy in front of the whole crowd." "I can see it.
Regular prizefights are too tame for the freaks. Too much cocaine, too much
filth . . . After a while, they have no nerve endings at all. It takes a
superjolt to get their batten es started. They want the real thing." "I told this
Lupe I want to meet Mortay." "Burke, that's
not like you, that macho foolishness." "Not fight him,
Michelle. Meet him. Just to tell him I'm walking away. No hard feelings." "Baby, I've
known you forever. All your feelings are hard feelings." "I have to turn
him away from Max." "It doesn't
sound like . . ." "I don't know what
it sounds like. If he's free-lance, it doesn't matter. He can't find Max." "So?" "So, if he's
tied up with this Ghost Van, maybe he's tied up with people who could." The bartender brought
us another round. I felt a flesh-padded hip bump my arm. A girl in a pink
leather skirt, moving onto the stool next to me, talking to her girlfriend.
Secretaries prolonging their lunch hour to look around. Michelle sipped at
her wine. "What do you want me to do?" "Ask around.
About the van. I'll check out this Mortay the best I can. See if it all catches
up." "I thought you
were going to walk away." "If I can, I
will. I don't like any of this. If this guy's really fighting duels, he can't
last forever. There's no old gunfighters." Her big eyes pinned
me over the rim of her glass. "I may be a sweet young thing, honey, but I
go back a ways, remember?" "Ex-gunfighter,"
I said, quietly. "Yeah, we're all
X-rated, aren't we, babe? I'm an ex-streetwalker, and you want me back on the
stroll to listen to the beat. And you're ready to pick up the gun again - I can
hear it in your voice." "It'll be all
right. I'll talk with him, square it up." The girl in the pink
skirt leaned into our conversation, her hardpointed breasts brushing my arm.
"Excuse me, honey," she said to Michelle, "could I ask your
boyfriend a question?" Michelle gave her an
icy smile. "He's not my boyfriend - he's my lawyer." "Oh,
perfect!" the girl said, pulling her pal into the scene. She looked at me,
flicking her tongue over her lower lip. "Do you think prenuptial
agreements take the romance out of marriage?" I blew a jet of smoke
across the bar. "Rubbers take some of the romance out of sex," I
said, "but they beat the hell out of AIDS." I tossed a couple of
bills on the bar. Michelle followed me out. I drove Michelle over
to her hotel. She was quiet on the drive, her eyes on the street. I pulled up
down the block from her place. "I can't explain
it to you," I told her. "I wish I could - it's somewhere inside my
head - I have to work with it until it makes sense." "Not everything
makes sense." I lit a smoke, shook
my head. "It's just a feeling but I know this whole thing is bad for us.
For all of us. I'm not looking for trouble." "Okay honey. I'm
with you." "Thanks, Michelle." She lit one of her
long black cigarettes like she does everything else. Elegantly. "You still with
that big girl?" "Yeah." "That's a very
fine woman, Burke. Believe me when I tell you. Nobody's ever been nice to
her." "I'm nice to
her." She smiled. "Are
you?" "Yeah, I am. She
took your advice." "Vertical
stripes." I laughed. "You
should have seen them on her." Michelle slapped my arm with unerring
instinct in the same spot Belle always used. "You work with what you have,
baby. You're looking at the expert." "I know." "Okay. You got
some cash on you?" "Yeah." "Then let's do
some shopping." "Shopping? For
what?" "For a present,
you idiot. For your girl." "I have to . .
." "Drive down to
the Village," she ordered me, not willing to discuss it further. Michelle found what
she wanted in a little basement dive on Sullivan Street. A necklace of small
dark-blue stones. The old Turk who ran the place had been a chemist before he
fled some border war a hundred years ago. He'd been one of the Mole's first teachers. "How much for
this old thing, Mahmud?" Michelle asked, holding the necklace up to the
light. "That is pure
lapis lazuli, young lady. Very fine. Very special." "Sure, sure.
About a hundred bucks retail, right?" "A hundred
dollars? For Old World craftsmanship? The stones alone are worth many times
that." "Since when is
Taiwan the Old World, Mahmud?" The old man's eyes
gleamed. "Lapis lazuli. The mineral is called 'lazulite.' Very rare. You
will not find it in the Far East. This perfect crystal comes only from
Madagascar." "Does the
geography lesson cost extra?" Mahmud and I
exchanged shrugs. "Even a hurricane eventually passes, leaving the
calm," he said. Michelle wasn't
moved. "You take American Express?" Mahmud laughed so
hard, tears ran down his face. "From him?" he said, pointing at me. Michelle moved in for
the kill. "Okay, so how much of a discount for cash?" Mahmud moved to
center ring, gloves up. "This necklace is worth one thousand two hundred
dollar." "Get out of
town! Do I look like I'm on medication?" "You look
lovely, as always, Michelle. One thousand two hundred dollar." "Four hundred.
And you don't have to gift-wrap it." "For you,
because you are so beautiful, because such a beautiful necklace should have a
beautiful home . . . a thousand." "It's not for
me, you old bandit, it's for Burke. For his girlfriend." "This is
true?" I nodded. "He just brought
me along for protection," Michelle said, smiling sweetly. "Ah, I see.
Eight hundred, then." "Did you say
five?" "Seven hundred
dollar, and only because I respect your good taste." "Can we split
the difference?" "Seven hundred
dollar," the old man said. He meant it. "Give him the
money," Michelle ordered me. I handed it over.
Mahmud slipped the necklace into a soft leather pouch, handed it to me.
"You take this too," he said, rummaging around under the counter. He
came up with a tiny round wood box. He unscrewed it, holding it out to me. It
was filled with a fragrant paste, colorless in the dark wood. "Jasmine,"
he said. "Just a touch on the lady's finger, then . . . here" -
touching his chest. "The lapis takes its fire from the earth; it will
blaze all the brighter if there is fire in the heart." I bowed to Mahmud.
Michelle gave him a kiss. When we hit the street, it was past six. "Where to?"
I asked Michelle. "Take me back to
my hotel. I need to change my clothes before I get to work." "Michelle . . .
you'll look?" "I'll do better than
that, baby. There's plenty of those little girls out there that know me. Like
the Prof would say, if they know me, they owe me." "Debts." "Debts all come
due, Burke. You know I love you. And even if you were still nothing but a
rough-off artist like you used to be, I'd still love you." She lit a
smoke, her face dead serious. "I'd love you because you're right sometimes
you have to go down the tunnel even if you don't know what's at the other
end." She blew the smoke at
the windshield. Reached over and squeezed my hand. "I don't know what
you're doing half the time. I don't think you do either. You're a hard man
trying to be a hustler, and you don't always make it. I don't know why you went
into that house last year - all I did was make a phone call like you asked. I
don't know why you started that whole mess." "It doesn't
matter now," I said. Thinking of the witch-woman, Strega. "It's all
over now." "It doesn't
matter why you did it . . . but I know this. You brought me my son. And I'll
never forget." She leaned over to
kiss me as the Plymouth pulled to the curb. "If it's out there, I'll find
it," she said. "Michelle . .
." "What?" "Use a
telescope, okay?" She just waved a
goodbye and moved down the street. Heads turned. Her walk didn't make men want
to bite into their palms like Belle's. lt pulled at a different piece, but it
pulled just as hard. It was almost
seven-thirty by the time I got back to the office. I had the key in the lock
when the smell hit me. A hard-sharp smell. I stepped inside. Pansy was at her
post, tail wagging, even happier to see me than usual. All the furniture was
against one wall. The fake Persian rug was off the wall. The smell was stronger
inside. Belle came in from
the back room. Barefoot, wearing only a bra and pants, her hair tied on top of
her head, a rag in one hand. "You came home
too early." "What in hell is
this?" "It's almost a
clean office, honey. Lord, this place was dirty - I damn near had to use a
chisel on the floor in the back." "Belle . .
." "I couldn't get
that rug up. And you don't have a vacuum - I should've known. It's some kind of
plastic, isn't it? I had to scrub it down . . . It's still damp - watch where
you put your feet." I walked over to the
couch. Sat down. Slowly. Pansy leaped onto the cushions, pressing against me. I
patted her head. Belle came over to
me. "That old beast - she followed me around everywhere. Big busybody,
poking her nose into everything. She wouldn't hardly let me work." ''I . . ." "Honey, don't
you like it?" "Yeah. I mean,
it's great. I just . . ." "Take a
look," she said, reaching out her hand to me. "Come on." The bathroom
sparkled, the back window gleamed. The floor glistened. The walls were a color I
had never seen before. Even the hot plate looked new. "Damn!" "It's good,
huh?" "It's
unbelievable." "I thought there
was another room. Behind the rug on the wall." "That's what
people are supposed to think," I said, half to myself. The surfaces of the
file cabinets looked like someone had worked them over with a power sander. My
old desk was oiled - you could even see the grain in the wood. "How'd you do
all this?" "I'm a working
fool - always have been. I was raised on work." "I don't know
what to say." It was the truth. The big girl moved in
against me, sharp sweat-smell blending with her natural juices into something
way past sweet. "Say what I want to hear," she whispered. I slipped both hands
inside her pants, pulling her tight against me. "Go take a shower," I
said. She ground her hips
against me. "That isn't it," she said. "Trust me." "I do." "Well . .
.?" She pulled back from
me, walked toward the back room, shaking her butt like she was on the runway.
Pansy shook her head in amazement. "You want out?" I asked her,
opening the back door. The beast turned away in disgust - I guess she'd been on
the roof a few times since I'd been gone. I had most of the
furniture back in place in a few minutes. I was rehooking the rug on the wall
when Belle came out. Nude, beads of water covering yards of pink flesh. She had
a towel around her head, holding it in place with her hands. "I'm all
clean." "Come
here," I said, reaching into my jacket pocket. She came over to the
desk, giving her hair one final rub with the towel, then tossing it over to the
couch. "Just stay there
for a minute," I said, signaling Pansy to come with me. I dumped
everything in the refrigerator into her giant bowl. I added some chocolate-chip
cookies and a pint of vanilla ice cream. "Speak!" I told her. It
would keep her occupied for a good five minutes. I went back inside.
Belle was standing by the desk, the soul of patience. I stood close to her,
holding her face in my hands, looking into her dark eyes. "Turn
around," I said. She turned her back
to me, bent over so her elbows were on the desk, butt in the air. I stepped in against
her, grabbed her shoulders, pulled her back so she was standing up again.
"Just do what I tell you," I said. "I thought . .
." "Sssh. Close
your eyes." "Okay, I . . ." "And be
quiet." She stood with her
back to me, hands at her sides. So quiet I could hear her breathing. I took the necklace
out of the leather pouch, unhooked the clasp, and slipped it around her neck. I
hooked it closed. "Turn around," I told her. Her eyes were still
closed, but her mouth was trembling. The lapis was blue fire against her,
falling down just to the top of her breasts. I kissed her on the lips.
"Take a look," I whispered to her. Belle kept her eyes
closed, working the necklace with her fingers, feeling the heat. Her eyes came
open; she lifted it in her hands, bent her head. "It's the most
pure-beautiful thing I've ever seen in my whole life," she said solemnly.
Tears on her face. "What're you
crying about - you don't like it?" "Don't be such a
hard guy," she said, ignoring the tears; "you know why." I kissed her.
"Okay. Be a baby if you want to." "It's your baby
I want to be," she said, pushing me to the couch. She dropped into my
lap, sprawling across me, covering me, knowing she wouldn't fit and not giving
a damn. I snaked a hand around her hip and pulled out the jasmine box. Handed
it to her. "What's
this?" "Open it." "Oh, it's
perfume!" "Paste, not
spray. Here," I said, touching my finger to it, rubbing it between her
breasts. She pulled my head
down to her. "How do I smell?" she asked. "Like juicy
flowers," I told her. She rolled off my
lap, pulling at my belt. "I've got some juice for you, baby. Come on, come
on!" It was after nine
when I looked at my watch. Belle was lying half on top of me on the couch.
Pansy was spread out on the floor, looking glum. I rolled off, sliding away
from Belle. I took Pansy to the
back door, jumped into the shower, dressed fast. Junior's at eleven, Marques
had said. I leaned over to kiss
Belle on my way out. "You going to be okay here?" "I do love
you," is all she said. The Plymouth hummed,
a fast horse on a short rein. Maybe it missed the way Belle drove. Junior's was
over the border. Uptown. A players' joint, it wouldn't even start to roll until
past midnight. The bar was in shadow, Billie Holiday on the jukebox. "God
Bless the Child." I wasn't going to
pull a house-to-house search through the booths. The bartender came over. Slash
of white skin across his dark face like a scar. "Can I help you,
Officer?" "I'm not the
Man. I'm lodking for Marques. Marques Dupree." "Nobody by that
name here, friend." "Yeah, there is.
He's expecting me. Ask him." "What name
should I call?" "How many
good-looking white men you see in this bar?" I asked him. He looked me full in
the face. "None," he said, moving away. I lit a cigarette.
Felt a tap on my shoulder. Slim blonde woman in a bottle-green sheath.
"Burke?" "Yeah." "Marques is over
this way," she said, moving off. I followed her to a
horseshoe-shaped red leather booth. Marques was sitting at the center, another
blonde to his left. The one I had followed moved to his right. I sat facing
him. "My man!"
Marques said, not offering his hand. "How's the hijacking business?" I nodded to him, not
answering. "You come by
yourself?" he asked, not looking around, sure of himself on home ground. "Same way I came
into this world," I assured him. "You
packing?" I let out a breath,
disgusted with his bullshit games. "Yeah, I got a machine gun in my
pocket." "Mind if
Christina takes a look?" "Whatever it
takes to get on with this." The blonde who had
come over to the bar moved next to me, running her hands over my body. She
reached into my crotch, squeezed. "Nobody home, huh?" I didn't answer her,
my eyes on Marques. She slid back next to
him. "He's got three packs of smokes, two lighters, bunch of keys, some
folding cash . . . He's empty." I watched Marques's
teeth flash. "Can't take chances with you gunslingers." "Ready to talk
now?" "Fire
away." I looked deliberately
at the blonde on his left. Turned my head, looked the same way at the one on
his right. "My ladies are
cool - you can talk in front of them." I shrugged, putting a pack of cigarettes
and a butane lighter on the table in front of me. I lit another smoke, snapping
off a wooden match. He didn't pay attention. That's why he was a pimp and I was
what I was. "You know a man
named Mortay?" "The
fighter?" "Yeah." "I don't know
him. Man, I don't want to know him. He's not on my list - I don't let my
women mess with no freaks." "What's that
mean?" "I saw him do
his thing, man. It was unreal. He fought this other dude. "The Japanese
guy. In the basement under Sin City?" "Right on. I didn't
even know what the entertainment was going to be, but it was on the wire that
it was a big thing, you know? I had to make the scene. Get down, be around.
When you set the style, you got to show it off." "Yeah, right.
You saw the whole thing?" "The whole
thing. This Mortay, man, that's a scary dude. Moves like a fucking ghost." "That may be the
connect, Marques." "l'm not reading
you, man." "Read this: One
of my people was looking around. On that job you and me talked about?" "Yeah?" "And he met
Mortay. I don't know if it was just a territory thing, wrong guy in the wrong
place . . . maybe so. It happens to all of us." "So?" "So Mortay
warned him off. Maybe he's front-ending the thing. Guarding the van." Marques snapped his
fingers. The blonde on the left pulled a vial from her purse, tapped out some
white powder on a mirror. She cut it into four lines with a gold razor blade,
put it in front of Marques. He rolled a bill into a tight straw, snorted a line
up each nostril. Each of the blondes took a remaining line for herself. The
pimp looked across at me, letting the coke rush around inside his head. "I can't see it,
man. You're off the wall." "Could be. What
if I'm not?" "Look, man. We
had a deal. You're working for me. I pay, you play my tune." "Watch your
back, Marques," I said, starting to get up. "Hey! Hold up,
I'm not downing you. Just lay it out, okay? Why you here?" "I'm here
because you know things I don't know. And you can find out things I can't. I
don't want any more to do with this Mortay than you do. But if I'm going to do
the job on the van, I need to know if he's in the play." "How would I
know?" "I'll find that
part out myself. What I need is whatever you can find out about Mortay.
Anything could do some good - I won't know till I get it. He's out there - he
has to live someplace, hang out someplace. I'm not asking you to walk the wire,
just listen to what you hear, okay?" "I don't know,
man." I felt like breaking
his face. I lit another cigarette, centering myself, coming to what would work.
I kept my voice quiet, letting another pitch take over, working the corners.
"Marques, there isn't another player in this town with your weight. You
want to take the Ghost Van off the streets, protect your women - I respect
that. You know your game - I know mine. That's why we got together, right?
We're partners on this thing. Now I need your help. That's why I came here.
This Mortay, he had people with him. Guy named Ramуn, for one. If they show
anywhere on the set, somebody'll scope them out. All I want is for you to use
your network - you don't have to get out of your Rolls-Royce - just let it come
to you. And pass it along." The pimp sat like he
was considering, basking in the praise. "I'm the one that can get the
lowdown, no question about it." "None at
all," I agreed. "All right,
hijacker. I don't promise nothing, but I'll get back to you if something comes
up." "Thanks," I
said, getting up to go again. Putting the butane lighter back in my pocket. I
don't use it to light cigarettes. The blondes never said
a word. Good bitches. Whores in their hearts. Renting out what they never
owned. I slipped the
Plymouth through Times Square on the way back. Sin City was a monster building
squatting in the middle of a long block. It stood four neon-faced stories high,
towering over the storefront-sized sleaze shops on either side. I stopped at
the corner. A black stringbean sporting a red porkpie hat was hunched over a
folding table covered with gold chains. Cesspool Specials: the chains were
broken, so the suckers would think they'd been snatched on the subway. The
hustler breaks the chains himself - nobody snatches goldplated junk.
"Check it out!" he called to the passing pack of slugs. He wouldn't
be there tomorrow. I motored slowly
around the block - couldn't see the back of Sin City from the other side. The
buildings were packed tighter than the crowd at a lynching. The Prof felt the
pain before Mortay ever touched him. That kind of power leaves a scent. But only to those he
marked. Tenth Avenue was
quiet. Eleventh was alive with working girls. The river was only a block away.
A black woman in a blond wig strolled up to the Plymouth. Red spandex pants, a
matching halter top, red heels. All yesterday's stuff, like she was. "You want some
action, baby?" I let her come close,
watching the other girls through the windshield, trying to get the feel of the
street. It felt calm - didn't make sense. The Plymouth sat through the green
light; the pross took it for a signal. She leaned into the window, folding her
arms under her breasts to poke them forward. "What you say,
honey. Fifty takes you around the world." I looked in her face,
keeping my voice low. "You got a
room?" "We just drive
around the block, honey. Nice dark places to park - take all the time you
need." "Around here?
Haven't you heard about the Ghost Van?" She laughed. Hard and
bitter. "The Ghost Van don't eat no dark meat, baby." It started to hit me
then. I feathered the gas pedal and the Plymouth moved off, leaving the whore
alone in the street. Past midnight. I
found a phone, rang Mama's. "It's me." "Nobodv
call." "Okay." "Max has your
money." "You keeping him
close?" "Yes. Keep
close. Waiting for you." "I'll call you tomorrow."
"Burke?" "What?" "Nice girl you
bring here. Nice big girl." "Yeah." I put the phone down.
Dialed the Mole. I heard the phone being picked up, nothing on the other end.
The way he always answers. "It's me. I need
to come see you tomorrow night - talk something over. I'm bringing someone with
me - someone you need to meet. Okay?" "Eight
o'clock," said the Mole, hanging up. It hit me as soon as
I stepped out of the back staircase into the hallway. The electricity started
at the base of my spine. It shot upward in little jolts, forming a T-bar at my
neck, firing out to my shoulders. My hands trembled. I knew what it was - an
old friend. Fear. I opened the door.
The office was pitch-dark. Pansy was standing at her post, wire-tight, eyes
glowing. The hair on the back of her neck was standing straight up. I closed
the door behind me, hit the light switch. Belle was on the
couch - on her knees, a butcher knife in her hand. "What
happened?" I asked her. "Somebody rang
the bell downstairs. It buzzed up here. Maybe twenty minutes ago. I didn't
answer it. I killed all the lights, turned off the radio. Then those strobes,
the ones above the door, they started flashing." "Somebody coming
up the stairs." "That's what it
was. Pansy, she ran right over to where she is, making these ugly low sounds.
Like a gator eating a pig. I got scared." "Anybody try and
get in?" "No. They just
pounded on the door. Real loud. I thought the dog would bark, but she just
stayed where she was. Like she was waiting." "She was." "They rattled
the doorknob - you know, just shaking it, like they were mad. There were at
least two of them; I could hear the talking." "You hear what
they said?" "No. I was
scared to move from here - I didn't want to get in the dog's way - she looked
crazy. But one had like this Mexican accent." "How long'd they
stay?" "Just a minute,
maybe - but it seemed longer. The strobes went off again. It's been quiet since
then." "And you're
still on the couch?" I asked, as I walked over to her, put my hands on her
shoulders. She looked up at me.
"Burke, I don't know much, but I know about men. You learn to tell. From
little things. The guy talking - the Mexican - he was one of those nasty men
you see in the club sometimes. The way they look at you - like screams would
make them smile." "I know. You did
the right thing." I gave her a smile, my thumb under her chin. "What
were you going to do with that knife?" "I didn't know
what to do . . . but I could see the dog knew. Where she was standing, they'd
walk in right past her. I figured they cbme toward me, and Pansy'd just
blind-side them." "That's what
she'd do all right. But she'd do the same thing if you hid in the back
room." "I was going to
give her a hand," Belle said, her hands still shaking hut no tremble in
her voice. I cupped a breast. It
overflowed my hand. "There's a big heart under this big thing," I
said. "It's
yours." "Which?" I
asked, squeezing her breast. "Both. But only
one's for playing with," the big girl said, eyes locked on mine. I kissed the bridge
of her nose, between her eyes. She put her face against my chest. I held her
for a minute, making up my mind. I let go of Belle,
threw the signal to Pansy to pull her away from her post. Opened the back door
to let her out to the roof. "Get ready to
go," I told Belle, opening drawers, filling my pockets. In the garage, she
watched quietly as I lifted the rubber floor mat, spun the wing nuts, and put
the pistol inside the hollowed-out space near the transmission hump. "You remember
how to get to your place from here?" "Sure. I
couldn't tell you how to do it, but I can take the car there." I checked the back of
the garage. The street was quiet. Belle backed the Plymouth out. I hit the
switch and the door closed behind us. The Plymouth tracked
through the empty streets. Belle handled it like it was a baby carriage. I lit
a cigarette, putting it together. Any fool could get into my building from the
front - just press the hippies' bell in the middle of the night and they'd buzz
you in. It wasn't a customer - they'd come in even when my bell hadn't been
answered. Spanish accent. Pounding on the door, but they hadn't tried to break
in. Lupe would have told them about my dog. "Anybody with
us?" I asked Belle, not looking around. "No," she said, her eyes
flicking to the mirrors. "Not since we pulled out." As soon as we walked in
the door, I grabbed the phone. Mama answered like it
was noon. "They called,
right?" "Yes. Man say
playground, behind the Chelsea Projects. Midnight tomorrow. "Spanish
accent?" "Yes. Nasty man.
Whisper on phone, like those men who call women, you know?" "Yeah, I know.
You say anything to him?" "Nothing to say.
You want Max now?" "No! Mama, this
is a bad play. You keep him close, like we said." ''If . . ." "Mama, listen.
Listen to me. If Max comes in now, it could be trouble for the baby,
okay?" She said something in
Chinese. I didn't need a translator. "Later, Mama," I told her,
hanging up. Belle came over to
the phone as I was lighting a smoke. "Me too," she said, holding my
hand, guiding the match. She was wearing a white T-shirt that came halfway down
to her thighs, the blue necklace around her neck. "I'll be right
back," I told her, reaching for my car keys. "Let me . .
." "Stay
here," I told her. She dropped to her
knees, holding her hands out in front of her, bent at the wrists like dog's
paws. "Don't be so
fucking smart," I said. "I'll be back in a couple of minutes - I need
a pay phone." I threw in a quarter,
listened to the woman say something in Spanish. "Dr. Pablo
Cintrone," I said. Waited patiently for a long rap about how the doctor
wasn't in at that hour of the night, but if it was an emergency . . ." "Attention!" I barked into the
receiver. "Dr. Cintrone. Burke. Telйfono cuatro. Ten o'clock
tomorrow morning, por favor. Okay?" The voice never
changed tone. "Burke. Telйfono cuatro. Ten o'clock tomorrow
morning." "Gracias." She hung up. When a citizen's
scared, he calls the cops. Where I live, you call a terrorist. The front door was
unlocked. I shut it behind me, walked through the cottage. Belle was out on the
deck. I leaned on the railing, looking across the black water. Belle moved in
next to me, fingering the necklace. "You know why I
danced in front of men?" "Yes." "I know you do.
You're the first man who ever looked at my face after I took my clothes
off." She pulled the cigarette from my mouth. Took a drag, handed it back. "Nothing on this
earth means anything all by itself. You know those orchids they sell in fancy
flower shops? They grow wild in the swamp near where I was raised. And gator
hide . . . It costs so much to make a little purse out of it, but the big old
things are out there thick as mosquitoes. You know about gators?" "Not much." "Baby gators,
they ain't got much of a chance. It's easy to find the eggs - the mama gators
just bury 'em and they walk away. Most of them don't make it even if the eggs
do hatch. When they're born, they're only a couple of inches long. The big
birds grab them up. Bobcats, panthers, coons, damn near everything in the swamp
feasts on them. Baby gators, they're not like puppies or kittens. You know the
difference between a six-inch baby gator and a six-foot bull?" "No," I
said. Her face was turned in profile, tiny flat nose just a bump. "Five and a half
feet. They don't grow, they just get bigger, you understand?" "Yeah." "What they say
about gators . . . Most of the little ones, they never get to be big ones, what
with everything out there trying to eat them and all. The ones that do get their
full growth - they spend the rest of their lives getting even." "I know people
like that." "I thought I was
like that too, once. But it's not the whole world I need to get square
with." "I know." She moved against me,
hip bumping gently. "There's things inside me. Bad things. In my blood and
in my bones. I'll never have babies and I'll never get old. You're good with
words, but there's things you don't like to say." "I don't
understand." "Yeah, you do.
Remember when I wanted you to taste me? When we first came together? I've met
plenty of men good at romance, but I never met one any good at love. You're
what I want, and you can't do things but one way. Your way." "Belle, I . .
." She pressed her
fingers against my mouth. "Don't say anything. You already said all I need
you to say. I'm with you to the end. Just make me one promise?" "What?" Tears rolled down her
face, but her voice was steady. "I know you have people. I don't have
anybody. If my time comes, you settle my debts. Pay them off." "I will." "One more thing.
Just one more thing, and I'm going to give you my life, Burke. I'll never take
my clothes off for another man again. And I'll never take this necklace off
either. You see that I'm buried in it." "Cut it
out," I said, smacking her on the rump, trying for a smile. She turned her face
to me, holding my shirt with both hands. "Now's not the time for that. You
can't change what's going to happen. You promise me. Promise me right now. I
married the outlaw life - I've go a right to be buried in my wedding
dress." "I promise,
Belle." She pulled me close,
her mouth butterfly-soft against mine. "My mother saved my heart for me.
She died to do it. I waited a long time. I'm giving it to you now. And I'll die
to do it too." I held her against me
in the dark. For that little piece of time, I didn't have to call on the ice
god of hate to fight the fear. Belle fell asleep
holding me in her mouth. The bedside clock said four. I set it for six, stubbed
out my last cigarette, and drifted off. When the alarm went
off, I was sleeping on my side. Belle was wrapped around my back. I slapped the
clock to shut off the buzzer. The morning light was just coming through. Belle
reached down for me, holding me in her hand, whispering in my ear. "When I went
shopping . . . to buy all that stuff to lean your office . . . I bought
something else. A surprise for you. Something to give you nobody else has ever
had. I was going to give it to you last night, when you came back. But you came
back with my necklace. And all that other stuff happened. It's still here for
you. Special. But not now," she said, stroking me, "not now. When
your blood's up." I felt myself grow in
her hand. "Seems like it's up to me," I said. She laughed, a rich
laugh from her belly, moving against me. "When your blood's up, honey,
I'll know. But as far as this other thing . . ." The big girl pushed
against my shoulder, shoving me flat on my back, swinging one huge leg over me,
her hand guiding me inside. "Come on, now," she whispered, her teeth
in my shoulder. An hour later, we
were moving into the city. I had to be at the pay phone in the lobby of the Criminal
Court before ten. The last phone in the long bank near the back wall. Telйfono
cuatro. There were only two
places in the city I could go for what I needed. This freak I had to meet could
call himself "death" if that's what got his rocks off, but I knew a
guy who earned the title. A guy we did time with years ago. A guy who let the
ice god into his soul like I'd wanted to. A guy named Wesley. Even saying his
name in my mind made my hands shake. The other choice was the UGL. Una Gente Libre - A
Free People. Puerto Rican terrorists to the federates, hard-core independentistas
to their people. The FBI had been trying to get a man inside for years - they'd
have better luck getting Jimmy Hoffa to testify. The UGL didn't blow up
buildings. They didn't write letters to the newspapers. Some of them fought in
the mountains of their home, some in the city canyons of America. Their New
York territory stretched from East Harlem to the Bronx. They kept their plate
clean. You try to sell crack on their streets, you get cracked. You come
back again, you get iced. The Colombians didn't like that much. One of their
honchos sent a crew into UGL turf. Sprayed the streets with machine guns.
Dropped five people, one of them a pregnant woman. The next day, the crack
salesmen were back, stopping the BMWs and Mercedeses full of mobile slime on
their way to the suburbs. Smiling. Three days later, the first salesman who
showed up pushed his way through a crowd packed around a fire hydrant. The
honcho's head was sitting on top of the fireplug like a bust in a museum
display case. Whoever hacked it off hadn't been a surgeon. The last thing the
salesman left on that street was his puke. Dr. Pablo Cintrone
was a psychiatrist. New York magazine did a profile on him once. Harvard
Medical School graduate who returned to the mean streets to minister to his
people. It made him sort of a hero to the upscale crowd for a couple of weeks.
Not too many people in Spanish Harlem or the South Bronx read the magazine, but
they knew El Jefe of the UGL. Inside the office, I
let Pansy out to the roof while I checked the security systems. Nobody'd made a
move on the place last night. I changed into a dark
pin-striped suit, grabbed a leather attachй case. It wouldn't get anybody's
attention if I stood by the pay phone in the Criminal Court waiting for it to
ring. When Pansy saw the
leash, she spun in a circle, dancing for joy. I hooked her up and we all went
down the back stairs. First stop was the
hospital. I left Pansy in the back taking Belle's hand. "Is she going to
be all right back there?" "What could
happen to her?" I asked, reasonably enough. The Prof was sitting
up in bed, half a dozen pillows propped up behind him. His legs were still in
casts, but lying flat on the bed. A metal bar ran between the casts. I looked a
question. "To make sure
they stay straight until the casts come off," he said. "How you
doing?" "Not as sweet as
drinking wine, not as bad as doing time." "We got
something," I said, moving close to the bed. The little man's eyes
shifted to where Belle was standing against the wall. I held out my hand behind
me, not turning my head. She came up and took it. "She's with us," I
told him. "She's in this." He flashed his smile
at her. "This your man, little girl?" Her smile blazed
back. "He surely is." "That makes me
your brother-in-law, darlin'. Soon's we finish this fight, I'll show you the
sights." She leaned over and
kissed him. "I'll be waiting." Belle sat on the bed. It didn't shift
more than half a foot. I pulled up the chair, keeping my voice down. "Mortay called.
We got a meet tonight." "Where?" "Playground back
of the Chelsea Projects." "Skinner
heaven." "I know." "I don't like
it. If he don't buy the play, how you gonna walk away?" "I need a
shooter. With a night scope. On the roof." "The only one I
know is . . ." "Not Wesley.
I'll get someone else - I got it covered." The Prof didn't know about my
connect to UGL. His voice dropped
even lower. "You going to dust him?" "No way. Just make
sure he gets the word - I want to tell him we got no beef. Walk away. The
shooter is in case he wants to try and send another of his freakish
messages." "Burke, I'm
telling you, this Mortay . . ." "I got it
covered," I told him again. "You hear anything?" "Got some
promises, but no product." "I'll see you
tomorrow." He put his hand on
mine. "Burke, listen to me like you used to on the yard. You want to roll
the dice, make it nice. "I got it,"
I said, throwing him a salute. I held the door for
Belle to get into the car. "He's really so much better, isn't he?" "He's better,
but he's not back to himself yet." "You'd expected
him to be dancing by now?" "Not the
physical thing. The Prof, he's like two people. Half is this rhyming-time,
upbeat thing you see, okay? The other half is how he got his name. Like a
religious thing - I don't have a name for it. Re got his name because he can
see things." "Like what's
going to happen?" "Sort of. Like I
said, I can't really explain it. But he can preach, square business. Talk that
religion like he means it. Strong enough to make you buy a piece sometimes,
when he really gets on a roll. That's what's missing now." Belle tapped
fingernails on one knee, paying attention, listening close. She turned to look
at me. "Maybe he don't like what he sees comin'," she said, the
Southern-swamp tang strong in her voice. I pulled the Plymouth
into the parking lot across from the Criminal Court. The parking lot where I
met Strega for the first time. The court where I first saw Wolfe in action. It
was nine-forty-five - all the spaces were taken. "Cruise around
the lot like you're looking for a place to park," I told Belle. "You
find one, pull in. Watch for me - I'll be coming down those steps," I
said, pointing across Centre Street. "You see me coming, catch my eye. We
may have to move out right away." I gave Pansy the
signal. She flopped down in the back seat, filling it to capacity. I crossed the street,
grabbed the phone I wanted. I picked up the receiver, holding down the hook,
and acted like I was listening to someone on the other end, glancing at my
watch. I knew my watch was
accurate, because it read ten o'clock just as the phone rang. I released the
hook. "Can I see you?
Today?" "Muy
importante?" "Sн." "Handball court
closest to Metropolitan. One o'clock." "Thanks." I was talking to a
dead line. I came down the
steps, spotted the Plymouth making a slow circuit. I caught it on the second
pass, opened the door. Belle rolled out to Lafayette Street, turned south, in
the direction of the office. "I don't have to
get moving until around noon," I told her. "But I need the car when I
do." "I'll go with
you." "No, you won't.
And get that pout off your face." She didn't.
"Make a right," I told her as we came to Worth Street. "Head
down to the river." Pansy poked her head
over the top of the front seat. "Want to run, girl?" I asked her. She
growled. I showed Belle where
to pull in. There were only a few cars on the broad strip of concrete, the
usual collection of humans minding other people's business. I opened the back
door, hooked Pansy's leash, and we strolled along the river. Her snout wrinkled
at the smells, but she held her position. On my left side, slightly ahead.
Every time I stopped, she sat. When we got to the deserted pier, I let her off
the lead, making a circle with my hand, telling her not to roam far. Freed of
the restraint of the leash, she did what comes naturally to her. Lay down. "You lazy old
thing," Belle said. She looked around, her eyes sweeping the Jersey shore
on the other side. "Sure doesn't smell like any water I ever saw." "It's not water
- ust a liquid toxic-waste dump." "You can't swim
in it?" "No. But on a
good day, you could walk on it." "Ugh!" A sailboat went by,
loaded with yuppies in yachting gear. Sailboats down here make about as much
sense as No Smoking sections in L.A. restaurants, so you see a lot of them. Belle pointed to one
of the round beams that held up the pier. "Boost me up," she said,
one foot in the air. I cupped my hands and she stepped in, reaching to the top
of the beam. I heaved, and up she went. It wasn't as bad as loading trucks, and
the view was a lot better. I lit a smoke, handed it up to her. The breeze
pulled at her hair, pulling it off her face. She turned to the side, sucking in
a deep breath. I took one of my own - no Viking ship ever had a prouder
figurehead. Two teenagers pulled
up, riding those little motor scooters you see everyplace. They stopped a
decent distance, watching Pansy. "What kind of
dog is that?" the taller one asked. "One that
bites," I told him. "He looks like a
giant pit bull." "Close
enough." "Where could I
get one?" "You
can't." The shorter one piped
up. "He looks like a big lump to me. That ain't no pit bull." "Pansy,
watch!" I snapped at her. She came slowly to
her feet and strolled toward the kids, making her noises. I never heard an
alligator eat a pig, but I knew what Belle meant. She pinned the boys with her
ice-water eyes, one skull-crusher of a paw pulling at the concrete. "Jump!" I
yelled at her. The kids took off before she hit the deck. She looked over at
me, bored to death. I made a circle sign again. This time she took off, loping
the length of the boards, peering over the edge into the water. She jogged
back, stopping at the beam where Belle perched. The beast leaped up, her paws
locking into the wood a foot below Belle. She reached down and patted her.
"Does she want me to come down?" "I think she
wants to come up." "There's no
room." "Maybe that's a
message." Belle jumped down
from her perch, landing next to me. "What message?" she said,
bunching a small fist. "That they
should make those beams bigger." "Or these
smaller?" she asked, smacking herself on the rear. "Wouldn't be my
choice," I assured her. She took my arm and
we walked around some more, Pansy hanging close. "She's so
beautiful. She really is like a panther, the way she moves. So smooth." I lit a smoke,
thinking it was the truth. "Burke, how come
you got a female dog?" I shrugged. "Well, she's for
protection, right? A guard dog? I thought they were all males. I thought they were
tougher, you know? A man I knew once, he had a German shepherd. Wouldn't have a
female dog around him - said a bitch would turn tail and run from a fight.'' "He's a moron.
Male dogs, they smell a bitch in heat, you know what they want to do?" "Sure." "No, you don't.
What they want to do is fight every other male dog around. In the wild, they
run in packs. The way the pack stays alive, they only let the strongest bulls
mate with the bitches. So the litters are strong too. The way they see who the
strongest dog is they fight it out." She put her head
against my shoulder. "Maybe they're right." "They're right
for dogs. Not for people. I grew up like that. It took me a lot of years and a
lot of scars before I snapped that a good woman won't make you fight over
her." "I worked with
girls like that. Fire-starters. Blood makes them come." She swayed against
me, pulling me to a stop along the pier. "Is that why you have a girl dog?
So she won't want to fight other dogs and all?" "Males are just
no good. Any kind of male. A man'll fuck a chain-link fence." She patted my
pockets, took out a cigarette. I cupped a wooden match against the wind for
her. She sat on the bench. Pansy jumped up next to her. I sat on the other
side. Belle looked at the
water. "The man who said a bitch would turn tail - that's what he wanted
me to do. I never had much of my own. Things you buy . . . they're not really
yours. But I own what I do. He found out too." "What
happened?" "I cut him. Cut
him good." We walked back to the
Plymouth. "You want to wait at the office for me?" "Me and
Pansy," she said. Back at the office,
Belle looked at the street maps rolled up in a corner. "Can I tack these
on the wall?" "Sure. I was
going to do it anyway. Why?" "I want to learn
the city." "Okay. I'll be
back in a couple of hours, maybe more." I moved to the door. "Honey?" "What?" "Come here for a
minute. Sit with me." I sat on the couch.
She put herhead in my lap, looked up at me. "Can I ask you
something?" "Sure." "What I told
you, about my mother and my father and all? Is that the worst thing you ever
heard?" I thought about
kiddie porn. About selling little boys in Times Square. Rapists. Child
molesters. Snuff films. The tape looped inside my head. I hit the stop button. "It's not
close," I told her. "Everybody's pain is the worst thing in the world
for them. Your mother really loved you. Died for you - you always have
that." "You think I'm .
. . sick." "No. I think
you're hurt. And, one day, we'll fix that." "I love
you." I bent to kiss her.
"I've got to go," I said. She pressed her head
down against me. "Tell me something worse. Tell me something worse than
what he did." "It'd be worse
for someone else, baby. Like I told you. Everybody has their own. Good and
bad." She came to her knees
next to me. "Tell me the worst thing. The worst thing you know." I looked in her face,
talking quietly. I'd had enough of this crazy game. "People steal babies,
Belle. Little tiny babies - they steal them from their parents. And they never
bring them back." "What do they do
with them?" "They sell most
of them. Some of the pretty white kids, they sell them to nice rich folks who
want a baby of their own. Black-market adoption." "What about the
others?" "You know what a
chop shop is?" "Where they
steal cars, break them down for parts?" "Yeah. They have
them for babies too. They sell the white babies. The other ones, they're not
worth too much for adoption, so they cut them up for parts." "Burke!" "Rich baby needs
a heart transplant, a new kidney, you think they care where the organs come
from?" "I don't believe
you!" "The world I
live in, it's a lot deeper underground than any subway. It's a world where you
can buy a baby's heart." I held her against
me. "Don't ask questions so much, little girl. I only got ugly
answers." She pulled back from
me, dry-eyed. "You saw this? You saw this yourself?" "Yeah. Guy's kid
was in the hospital. Dying. Needed a transplant. It was in the papers, on TV.
Looking for a donor. Baby only had a few days to live. He got a call. They promised him a
baby's heart. Fresh. All packed and ready for transport to the hospital.
Twenty-five thousand, they wanted. He made some calls - a lot of calls. A cop I
know sent him to me. I went down the tunnel." "What happened?
Did they have the heart?" "Just like they
promised." "You took it?
The baby was saved?" "Yeah." She nodded.
"Damn their souls to hell." "I don't do
souls," I told her. "Just bodies." The handball court was
in the shadows of Metropolitan Hospital, just off 96th Street near the East River. Once the tip of Spanish
Harlem, it was now liberated territory - the yuppie land-grab machine wouldn't
be satisfied until gentrification ate the South Bronx. I liked it better the
old way, when the human beings lived in the tenements and investment bankers
lived in the suburbs. Now we got plenty of rehab apartments for tomorrow's
leaders. And more people living in the streets than they have in Calcutta. I parked under the
East Side Drive overpass and walked over to the court. Ten minutes to one. I
watched people playing: handball, paddleball, basketball. No stickball. People
working too. Working the cars. Selling flowers, newspapers, clean windshields.
Ninety-sixth Street was the DMZ when I was coming up. North was theirs, South
was ours. Now it all belongs to someone else - they just let us play there
while they're at work downtown. "These chumps
can't play no basketball." A voice behind me. Pablo. The lack of a single
Puerto Rican in the NBA makes him crazy. He was wearing his
white doctor's-coat over a black turtleneck, his round face looking the same
way it did when he walked out of Harvard fifteen years ago. "Gracias,
compadre," I said, thanking him for coming. He shook hands the way he
always does, using both of his. "Something
bad?" he asked me, standing close. "I have to meet
a man. Tonight. He hurt one of my brothers. He said it was a message. I don't
know what's on his mind. I want to walk away - tell him I got no beef with him.
But he might not go for it." "You have
Max." "Can't use him
for this, Pablo. It may be Max he wants. He's a karateka. Been going
around the city, challenging sensei in their own dojos. Max, I think his name
may be in the street over this. You know Lupe? The guy who sets up the
cockfights?" Pablo spat on the
ground. "I know him. Mamao. A punk. Tough talk - no cojones." "He set up a
match. Between this guy I have to meet and a Jap. Duel to the death." "I heard about
that. In Times Square?" "Yeah. That's
what I mean. Seems like everybody's heard about it. Max fights this guy, he's
got no win. Probably have cops in the audience." Pablo looked at me.
"Max wouldn't walk away from a challenge." "So he doesn't
get to hear one." "I see. You want
your back covered when you meet this guy . . .?" "Mortay." "Muerte?" "Yeah. I don't
know how he spells it, but it means the same thing." "He's not a
problem for us?" "Not for you.
Not now. I'm working on something, and I just bumped him accidentally. How he's
tied in - if he's tied in - I don't know for sure." "You chasing a
missing kid?" "Dead kids. The
Ghost Van." Pablo's round face
went hard. His eyes were dark, flat buttons behind his round glasses.
"Baby-killers. That van comes into our barrio, we'll make it a
ghost." "It just works
off the river, near Times Square. I got a lot of threads, but no cloth." "This Mortay . .
. he knows?" "I don't know.
I'm not gonna ask him. He lets me walk, I'm gonna promise him I won't come his
way again. He wants me off the van, I'm off the van." "That's what
you'll tell him." "Yeah," I
said, lighting a smoke. "What time is
your meet?" "Midnight
tonight. The playground behind the Chelsea Projects." "How many people
do you need?" "Just one,"
I told him. "El Caтonero." Pablo's lips moved.
Just a tic. Nothing else showed in his face. "He only does our work." "I don't want
him to take anybody out. Just be around, break a couple of caps if he has to.
He can do it from a distance. I figure maybe the roof . . ." "He only does
our work. He is not for hire. My people are soldiers, not gangsters." "They do what
you say." "They follow me
because they follow the truth. My personal friendship is with you, hermano.
I can commit only myself." I put my hand on his
shoulder. "I understand what you say. I respect what you say. But there
are two reasons why he should do this." "Yes?" "He does only
your work. More than once, I have also done your work, this is true?" "True." "El Caтonero
does this work tonight for UGL, it is UGL I owe. Comprende?" He nodded. Rubbed the
back of his neck like it was stiff. A young Hispanic woman in a blue jogging
outfit stopped her slow circuit of the courts and trotted over. He took her
aside, speaking in rapid-fire Spanish. She took off, running hard now, heading for
the street. We watched the
basketball game. It wasn't in the same league as the semipro action at the
court on Sixth Avenue in the Village, but it was intense. I asked him about his
kids. Pablo's got a lot of kids - the oldest one's in college, his baby girl's
still in diapers. He's never been married. Takes care of all his children. He
never seems to make anybody mad with all his tomcat stuff, not even the women
who have his babies. Most of them know each other. I met Pablo in
prison. He wasn't doing time - he was doing his residency in psychiatry. His
supervisor was a wet-brain who did five-minute interviews with the cons before
they saw the Parole Board. And handed out heavyweight tranquilizers any time
they shoved the Rx pad under his nose. I was the wet-brain's clerk - a scam
artist's dream job. Five crates of cigarettes and you got the prescription of
your choice, twenty crates bought you a "fully rehabilitated"
write-up for the Board. It only took Pablo a month to read my act, but he never
said a word. I was on to him faster than that. He wasn't studying mental
illness among convicts - he was recruiting. The woman in the
jogging suit ran back to us, pulled Pablo aside. Pablo turned to me. "You
parked close by?" "Under the
overpass," I said, pointing. "Sit on the
hood. Smoke one of your cigarettes. See you in ten minutes." He walked off with
the woman. Threee smokes later,
a black Lincoln sedan pulled up. Dark windows, M.D. plates. The front door
popped open and I stepped inside. The woman was driving. I glanced in the back
seat. Pablo. And El Caтonero. "Vete,"
Pablo said. The Lincoln moved off. Pablo's voice came
from the back seat. "Turn around, compadre. My hermano needs
to memorize your face." I turned full-face to
the back. El Caтonero was a short, stocky Hispanic, not as dark as Pablo. He
had straight, coal-black hair. Pablo once told me Puerto Ricans were a mixture
of all the world's races. Looking at the two men in the back seat, I could see
the African in Pablo, the Incan in El Caтonero. The shooter's face was
featureless except for heavy cheekbones. But I'd seen his eyes before. On a
tall, lanky man from West Virginia. Sniper's eyes - measuring distances. The Lincoln worked
its way downtown. We pulled to a stop across from the playground. Kids were running
everywhere. Little kids screaming, chasing each other, bigger kids in a
stickball game. Teenagers against the lence, smoking dope, listening to a giant
portable stereo. Pablo jerked his thumb. We got out, leaned against the car. The gate to the park
would be closed at midnight. Wire mesh - it wouldn't keep anybody out. El Caтonero's eyes
swept the scene. He said something in Spanish to Pablo, who just nodded. I saw the man against
the wire mesh. A medium-sized white man with a baseball cap on his head.
Watching the kids play. He was wearing a yellow sweater, the sleeves pushed up
almost to his elbows. I focused in on him, lighting a smoke. He had a heavy
rubber band around one wrist. He pulled at it again and again with his other
hand, snapping it against the inside of his wrist. I nudged Pablo, pointing at
the man with a tilt of my head. "Aversive
therapy," I sneered. His face went hard.
"They should've tied the rubber band around his throat." El Caтonero grunted a
question. Pablo explained it to him. I couldn't follow the words, but I knew
what he was saying. They have programs where they try "conditioning"
on child molesters. The idea is to show them a lot of pictures of kids - then
blast them with an electric jolt when the freaks get aroused. Nobody believes
it works. When they discharge one of the freaks, they tell him to wear a rubber
band around his wrist. When he feels himself getting excited over a kid, he's
supposed to snap the band - reactivate his conditioning. The shooter's eyes
bored in on the man in the yellow sweater. "Maricуn!" he
snarled. Pablo launched into another speech. A child molester isn't a
homosexual; most gays hate them too. El Caтonero listened, flat-faced. I heard
my name. The shooter nodded. Then he held out his hand. I shook it. Pablo must
have told him what I did. Pablo leaned over to
me. "We're going around the back, take a look. You stay here with
Elena." "I want to talk
to the freak. Just take a minute." "Sн."
He gestured for the woman to move close. "Elena, that man over there, he
is a molester of children. He is the wolf, stalking the baby chickens. My compadre
wants to approach him, get a good look at his face, so el gusano will
know he is known to us. Perhaps threaten him with violence, okay?" She nodded. Pablo and
El Caтonero moved off. "Do you speak
any English?" I asked the woman. "I teach
English," she said, nothing on her face. "I didn't mean
to offend you." "You could not offend
me. Just say what you want me to do." I told her. I held
out my hand. She took it, moving smoothly against me as we crossed the street. Elena left me and
moved off behind the freak; He stayed glued to the fence. I wrapped my hand
around the roll of quarters in my pocket, moving my shoulder against the freak,
slipping my left hand behind his back. "Kids are cute,
huh?" He jumped like he'd
been stabbed. "What?" I snatched a handful
of his sweater, locking his belt from behind, shoving my face into his, my
voice cell-block hard. "When did they let you out, freak?" "Hey! I didn't .
. ." I pushed him against
the fence, my face jammed into his. "Don't come back to this playground,
scumbag. We've been watching you. We know you. We know what you do. You do it
again, you're dog meat. Got it?" The freak twisted his
head away from me. I looked where he was looking. At Elena. Standing three feet
from us in her blue jogging suit, hands buried in the pockets of the
sweatshirt. She took out her left hand, pulled up the waistband. A little black
pistol was in her other hand. The freak whipped his head back to me. I pulled
him away from the fence, bringing my right hand around in a short hook to his
gut. He made a gagging sound, dropped to the ground. I went down on one knee
next to him. His face was against the pavement, vomiting. "We know your
face, freak," I said quietly. "Next time we see you, you're
done." I stomped my heel
hard into the side of his face; it made a squishy sound. Nobody gave us a look.
When we climbed back inside the Lincoln, Pablo and El Caтonero were already in
the back seat. Elena took the wheel and we moved off. The rifleman tapped
my shoulder. I turned around. He nodded his head once, a sharp, precise
movement. The Lincoln dropped
me off at my car. Pablo got out with me. He handed me a strip of cloth, Day-Glo
orange. "Tie this around
your head when you walk into the playground tonight. Bring a couple of bottles
of beer. Pull your car into the playground, put the bottles on the hood. You
raise your hand, one of the beer bottles blows up. This Mortay, he'll know
you're covered." "Thanks,
Pablito. I owe you." "El Caтonero
said to tell you he'll be on the roof by eleven. "Okay." "He said to ask
you something . . . If it gets bad . . . if this guy won't be warned off . . .
if he comes for you . . . you want El Caтonero to drop him or just fade?" "Drop him." "Bueno." I headed back
downtown, stopped at Mama's. She took a long time to come to my booth. When she
did, Immaculata was with her. They slid across from me. Mac didn't waste any
time. "Burke, is there
trouble for Max?" "I don't know.
I'll know soon," I told her, stabbing Mama with my eyes. She stared right
back. I shouldn't have mentioned the baby. "You'll tell me
as soon as you know?" "Will you give
me a fucking chance to head it off first?" She reached across
the table, took my hand. "I will. And I'll keep Max close for a few more
days. Don't blame Mama. She told him you were working on something and he keeps
pushing her. He thinks it's you who's in trouble. She needed my help." "No hard
feelings," I told her, remembering Michelle's words. "Where's Max
now?" "He's home with
Flower." She got up to leave. Kissed me. "Be careful," is all
she said. Mama gave me about
thirty pounds of Chinese food to take with me. I bowed to her as I left. Her
eyes asked if I understood. "It's
okay," I said. "Anybody come
calling?" I asked Belle, stepping past Pansy. "Been real
quiet," she said, taking the cartons of food from me. Pansy followed her
into the back room, ignoring me. The bitch. Belle cleared off the
desk so we could eat. "What's all that?" I asked her, pointing to
yellow legal pads covered with scrawls. "Just some
charts I made. I have to see the streets for myself - the maps don't do it all.
But I wrote down some ideas." "Is it easier
for you to memorize directions if you're driving or if you're a
passenger?" "Driving is
best." "Okay," I
said, digging into the hot-and-sour soup, "you drive tonight." "Where're we
going?" "To a place you
might have to come back to by yourself someday. A safe place." She nodded, her mouth
full of food. I tossed an egg roll over my shoulder, saying "Speak!"
as I did. It never hit the ground. I smoked a cigarette
while Belle put the dishes away, playing with the few pieces I had. I put the
thoughts down - after tonight, I'd have more pieces. Six o'clock. I let
Pansy out to the roof, went to the back to put things together. Steel-toed boots
with soft rubber soles. Black cotton pants. A black sweatshirt. I took a white
jacket from the closet, checked the Velcro tearaways at the shoulders. Slipped
the orange headband into a pocket. I put a clean set of papers together:
driver's license, registration, Social Security card, all that crap. Six
hundred bucks in used bills, nothing bigger than a fifty. A cheap black plastic
digital wristwatch. I let Pansy back
inside. Took a shower. Put on a terry-cloth robe. When I came out, Belle was
lying on the couch, her hands locked behind her head, long legs up on the
backrest. Wearing one of my shirts over a pair of little red panties. She
couldn't button the shirt. I sat down. She
dropped her legs across my lap. "Burke, this is
it, isn't it?" "What're you talking
about?" "This place.
This office. That's all there is, right? This is where you live." "Yep." She rolled over on
her stomach, pushing her hands against the couch until her hips were across my
lap. There's a new kind of stove they make. Induction coil, they call it. You
don't have to turn it on - the burner stays cold until you touch it with a
copper-bottom pot. I knew how the stove felt. Belle leaned her head
on her folded arms, talking back over her shoulder at me. "I thought you
had a house. I thought you wouldn't take me there . . . wouldn't let me sleep
in your bed. Because you had a woman there. The woman you talked about." I lit cigarette,
watching my shirt move on Belle's rump every time she readjusted herself. "But she's gone,
isn't she? Like you said. You told me the truth." "Yeah. I told
you the truth." "I'm a bitch. I
know that's not all bad - it's what I am. But I should have believed you;
there's no excuse." "Outlaws only
lie to citizens." "No, I met
plenty of outlaws who lie. But I know you don't. Not to me." She wiggled her hips,
snuggling tight against me, feeling the heat. "Is she
dead?" "I don't know,
Belle," I said, my voice hardening. "I told you all this before.
There's no more to tell." "Are you mad at
me?" "No." "I'm sorry,
honey." "Forget
it." She pulled the shirt
off her hips. "Why don't you give me a smack? You'll feel better." "I feel
fine," I said. Belle wiggled again.
"Come on, please." I put my hand on her
rump, patting her gently. "Come on. Do it,
just a couple of times. I swear you'll feel better." I brought my hand
down hard. A sharp crack. "Do it again," she whispered, "come
on." I smacked her twice
more in the same place. She slid off my lap to her knees, looked up at me.
"Feel better?" she asked. "No." "You will,"
she promised, taking me in her mouth. We were on the East
Side Drive, heading for the Trihoro Bridge. Belle took a drag road. "How do I turn
up the dashboard lights?" I told her. She
peered at the speedometer. "I can tell how fast we're going without it,
but I need to know the mileage." "There's a trip
odometer." "It's okay, I'm
keeping count." We motored over the
bridge. I showed her the cutoff, led her through the twisting South Bronx
streets, past the warehouses, past the burned-out buildings, into the
flatlands. "Next corner, left," I told her. "That's the
spot." She pulled to the
side of the road. No streetlights here - we were in darkness. Belle turned to me.
"You think I'm a freak?" she asked, her voice shaking a little bit. "Why would I
think that?" "Don't play with
me - you know why I asked you. I liked it when you pinched me so hard - when
you made me say what I saw in the mirror. I liked it when you spanked me
before. I like it when you do that. Makes me feel like you love me.
Special." She took another drag. "You think that makes me a
freak?" I lit a smoke of my
own. "You want the truth?" "Tell me." "I think you
think you're a freak. I think you believe your life is a damn dice game.
Genetic dice, rolling down the table, and all you can do is watch." "My blood . .
." "Your blood may
have done something to your face. Your blood tells you not to have babies. But
it doesn't tell you how to act. You still have your choices." "You don't
understand." "You're the one
who doesn't understand, girl. You see it but you don't get it. Remember what
you told me about alligators - the difference between a six-inch gator and a
six-foot one?" "I
remember." "What's the
difference between a puppy and a dog? The same thing? Just size?" "Isn't it?" "How you raise
the puppy, how you treat it, what you feed it - it all makes a different dog
when it grows up. Two puppies from the same litter, they could be real
different dogs when they grow up." "Okay." "Don't give me
that 'okay' bullshit. You don't get it, we'll sit right here until you
do." "I get it." "Then explain it
to me." She started to cry,
her face in her hands. "I can't," she sobbed. "Come over
here," I told her. "Come on." She unbuckled her seat
belt, slid over against me, still crying. "I'm sorry . . ." "Shut up. Just
be quiet and listen, okay?" "Okay," she
gulped. "Telling you
about dogs and puppies wasn't the way to do it. You think blood will out, don't
you?" She nodded.
"Yes." Still crying. "You know about
Dobermans . . . how they're supposed to turn on their owners?" "Yes, I heard
that." "It's a lie,
Belle. People get Dobermans, they're afraid of them. They've all heard the
stories. So they beat the hell out of them when they're still puppies. Show
them who's boss, right? One day, the dog gets his full growth, the owner goes
to hit him, the dog says, 'Uh uh. Not today, pal,' and he rips the guy up. So
this fool, this creep who's been beating up on his own dog, mistreating him all
this time, he says, 'Well, the son of a bitch turned on me.'" Belle giggled.
"He sowed his own crop." "Sure did.
There's nothing genetic about Dobermans' turning on their masters. What's
genetic about them is that they don't take a whole lot of shit once they get their
growth. That's the truth." "I thought . .
." "We're people,
Belle. Not alligators. I know people so cold, so evil, you meet them, you'd
swear they came out of their mothers' wombs like that. But that's not the way
it is. All the human monsters have to be made - they can't be born that way.
You can't be born bad, no matter what the fucking government thinks." "But if he . .
." I cut her off sharp -
I knew who "he" was. "It was his choice, Belle. No matter how he
was raised, no matter what was done to him. There's no law says he has to
repeat the pattern. He's not off the hook. I came up with guys raised by
monsters. Did time with them when I was a kid. They still had choices." I lit a cigarette.
"Hard choices. The only kind people like us get. But choices still . . .
You understand?" "I do. I swear I
do this time." She nestled against me. "I knew you were going to
rescue me." She kissed me full on
the mouth, stabbing me with her tongue. I pulled back from her, watching the
lights dance in her dark eyes. "The man we're going to see, millions of
his people died because some slimy little psychopath decided their blood was
bad. The psychopath, he's in the ground. The maggots are eating his body, and
if there's a god, his soul is burning. And there's a country called Israel
where there used to be only desert." I squeezed her
gently. "Okay?" She let the whole
smile go this time. "Okay." I showed Belle where
to pull in. "Flash the high beams three times, then shut the lights
off." "Something's
coming," she said, peering into the darkness. "Dogs," I
told her. "Just be quiet." They came in a pack.
Simba didn't wait to make his entrance like he usually does. There was a tawny flash
and a light thump as he landed on the hood of the Plymouth, baring his fangs as
he looked through the windshield. Belle looked back at him. "Is that a
wolf?" "City
wolf," I told her. "And that's his pack" - pointing to the river
of beasts flowing around the car. "What d'we
do?" "Wait." The kid came through
the crowd, bumping dogs out of his way like the Mole does. He called to Simba.
The dog jumped off the hood, followed the kid around to the driver's side.
"Switch places with me," I told Belle. I hit the switch. The window
came down. Simba's lupine face popped into the opening. "Simba-witz!"
I greeted him. Simba sniffed, poking
his nose past me to look at Belle. A low growl came out of his throat. The pack
went quiet. "It's okay, Terry," I told the boy. "This is Belle -
she's with me." The kid was wearing a
dirty jumpsuit, a tool belt around his waist. A regular mini-Mole. Michelle
would be thrilled. "I'll open the
gate," he said. I drove the Plymouth
a few feet into the yard, watching the gates close behind us. "I'm going
to get out now," I told Belle. "I'll come around and let you out. The
dogs will be with us, but they're okay. Don't be scared." "Too late for
that," she muttered. When I let her out,
she stepped to the ground. The dogs moved in close. "Should I pat
them?" she asked. Terry laughed.
"Follow me," he said. I took Belle's hand
as we moved through the junkyard. Simba flashed ahead of us in a Z pattern,
working the ground. The dogs came close, barking at each other, not paying much
attention to us. The Mole was sitting
on a cut-down oil drum a few feet from his underground bunker. He got up when
he saw us coming, pulling a slab of something white from his overalls. He threw
it in a loping motion, like it was a grenade. The dogs chased off. Before I could open
my mouth, Terry took over. "Mole, this is Belle. Belle is Burke's friend.
She came with him. I'm Terry," he said, holding out his hand. Belle shook
it, gravely. The Mole didn't offer
to shake hands, pointing at more of the cut-down oil drums like they were deck
chairs on his yacht. "I should
stay?" Terry asked. The Mole looked at
me. I nodded. The kid reached in his tool belt, pulled out a cigarette, lit it
with a wooden match. He gets something from everyone in his family. "Mole, I brought
Belle here because she may need a place to run to. Soon. She's our people.
She's mine, okay?" "Okay." "I wanted you to
get a look at her. She has to come back in a hurry, you'll know her." He nodded. "Can Terry take
her around - show her the other ways in?" He nodded at the boy.
Terry came over to Belle, holding out his hand. "Come on," he said.
She went meekly as a child, towering over the kid. I moved my oil-drum
seat closer to the Mole. "I'm working on something. The Ghost Van. The
Prof was nosing around. Guy named Mortay caught him. Broke both his legs. Told
him to stay away." The Mole nodded,
waiting. "I don't know if
this Mortay is fronting off the van or he's got his own list. He told the Prof
he wanted Max. In a duel. He's been moving on other karateka around the
city. I can't bring Max into this until I know what the score is." The Mole watched me
as if I was one of his experiments. Waiting for something to happen. "I'm meeting
him. Tonight. Midnight. I've got backup. I'll call you when I get back. You
don't hear from me, you call Davidson. The lawyer. You know him, right?" "Yes." "If I don't call
you, I'll probably be locked up. Tell Davidson I'm good for the cash. Tell him
to call Mama if he needs bail money." "Okay." "Thanks,
Mole." "There's more?"
he asked. I couldn't see his eyes through the Coke-bottle lenses. "Maybe. Maybe a
lot more. I got pieces, but they may be two different puzzles. After tonight I
should know enough to come and ask you." He nodded. Terry came
back, leading Belle by the hand. "She knows the way," he said,
standing by the Mole. "Take them back
to the car," the Mole told him. Nodding goodbye to me and Belle. When we crossed the
Triboro, I told Belle to bear left. "That's toward
Queens." "I know. You're
going home. I need the car. I'll come back when it's over." "I want . .
." "I don't care
what you want. It's way past nine and I'm meeting a man at midnight. You're not
coming. And I'm not telling you again." She drove in silence
for a few minutes. "Burke, what's that orange cloth you put in your
pocket?" I lit a smoke.
"A sign. So I'll be recognized." "What's it
mean?" "Signs mean
different things to different people, right? Middle-class kid, he's on his way
to school. There's this bully waiting for him. Middle-class kid, he don't want
to fight, but he don't want to look chicken. So he wraps his hand in bandages,
says he cut himself. Understand?" "Yes." "You wear the
same bandages in the places I was raised, just makes you an easier target.
Different rules, okay?" "Okay." We pulled up outside
her cottage. Ten o'clock. I followed her inside. She didn't turn on the lights. "Burke, don't
hate me for asking this . . ." "What?" "Are you
scared?" "Scared to
death." "Then . .
." "I'm more scared
not to go. I have to find out. Get some answers." "Let's
run," she said, standing close to me in the dark. "Let's just go.
We can be in Chicago by tomorrow. Or anyplace you want to go. I've got money
stashed. Right here in the house. We can . . ." "No." She turned away from
me. "What scares you?" "This guy I have
to meet - he's a psychopath. Behind the walls, being a psychopath is like
walking a high-wire. Guys are scared of a man with eyes like an alligator's.
That's good - makes people keep their distance. But it's no good to scare
people too much. Just the possibility you might get hurt, that keeps you away.
But if there's no doubt about it, if you know the guy's coming for you, you
take him first. If you can." "And that's what
you need to find out?" "That's
it." She moved close to me
again, whispering in the dark room. "Why take a chance?" "It's not that
simple. I can't do anything until I find out. I don't know what else's out
there." "Burke, you come
back here. You come back here to me." "I will. As best
I can." I lit a last
cigarette, pulled her to me. "You don't see me by tomorrow morning, drive
back to the junkyard. The Mole will know who to contact, what to do." "You'll come
back. I've got something for you." "I know you
do," I said, giving her a kiss. Eleven-fifteen. I was
parked down the street from the playground. Breathing deep through my nose,
sucking the air into my belly, expanding my chest as I let out each breath.
Fear snapped around inside me. I gathered it together in a spot in my chest.
Worked my mind, putting a fluid box around the fear. Testing the box, pushing
it in different directions. I concentrated on the box, shooting clean, cold
beams at it. Breaking it into little pieces. Smaller and smaller. Seeing the
fear-blob break up into little liquid pieces inside me. Like tears. I held my
hands out in front of me, willing the little pieces of fear to come out the
ends of my fingers. Feeling them come. Some came out my eyes. I felt so tired.
Closed my eyes for a second. My watch said eleven-forty. Time. I nosed the Plymouth
up on the sidewalk, up to the playground gate. I jumped out, holding the heavy
bolt-cutters in two hands. The chain around the fence gave way with one squeeze.
I pulled the Plymouth inside the dark playground. Got out and closed the gate
behind me. I made a slow circle of the yard, stopped when the Plymouth was
pointed back at the street. I got out, taking a
six-pack of beer with me. Glass bottles. Lined them up on the trunk of the car,
all in a row. Parallel to the building where the shooter would be waiting. I
popped the top off one, held it to my lips. Lit a cigarette. Slouched against
the car to wait. The tip of my
cigarette glowed. The streetlights didn't reach the corners of the buildings
ringing the playground, but it was bright enough where I stood. "You're early,
punk." A voice from the shadows. I dragged on my
cigarette, keeping both hands in sight. Two men walked toward me from the left.
One more from the right. I watched them, not moving. Well-built Spanish guy in
a shortsleeved white guyabera shirt. Dark-haired white man in a leather
jacket. And a tall man in a white T-shirt and white pants. He looked like a
stick figure moving toward me. Mortay. "Step away from
the car," he said. His voice was a whisper-hiss, snake-thin. The Spanish guy came
to meet me. I held my hands away from my body as he searched. A diamond glinted
in his ear. A fat diamond, not a stud. "Empty," he
said, stepping back. Mortay stopped four
feet from me. His face was at the end of a long, thin neck, so small I could
have covered it with my hand. Hair cropped close - l could see the shine of his
scalp. A heavy shelf of bone linked his eyebrows, bulging forward, a visor over
his eyes. "I don't
recognize the school," he said. Meaning the orange headband. "Do you
fight?" "I'm just a
student." "You wanted to
meet me?" "Thank you for
coming," I said, my voice gentle and low. "You had a dispute with a
friend of mine. A small black man. On a cart." He stood stone-still,
waiting. "The dispute was
our fault, and we apologize. He wasn't looking for you. We don't know anything
about you. We don't want to know." "What was he
looking for?" "The Ghost
Van." "Don't look for
the Ghost Van," Mortay hissed. "You wouldn't like it if you found
it." "I'm not looking
for it. I'm off the case. I just wanted to tell you to your face. We have no
quarrel with you - whatever you did, it was just business, okay?" I turned to go. "Stay where you
are." I faced him. He
hadn't moved. "I gave the
little nigger a message. Didn't you get it?" "I just told you
we did." "About Max.
Max the Silent. Max the warrior. I called him out. I want to meet
him." "If I see him,
I'll tell him." "You know my name?
You play with me, you play with death." "I'm not
playing." "I know you.
Burke. That's you, right?" "Yeah." "Max is your
man. Everyone knows that - it's all over the street. Everyone says he's the best.
He's not. It's me. Me. He wants to admit it, go down on one knee, he can live.
Otherwise, we fight." "You can't make
him fight." "I can make anyone
fight. I spit on dojo floors. I killed a kendo master with his own sword.
Everybody has a button." He opened his hands, a gambler fanning a handful
of aces. "I push the buttons." "Let it
go," I said. He moved in on top of
me. Spit full in my face. I didn't move, watching his eyes. "You're better
than I thought," he whispered. "You're too old to jump if I call your
mother a name. But you spit in an ex-con's face, he has to fight." "I won't fight
you." "You couldn't
fight me, pussy." I felt my face rock to the side, blood in the corner of
my mouth. "Never saw that, did you?" "No," I
answered him, chewing on my lip, my mind back in an alley when I faced another
man years ago. Wishing I had a gun, glad I didn't. "I'm the fastest
man there is. Max, he's nothing but a tough guy. I'll kill him in a heartbeat -
he'll never see what does it." "You can't make
him fight - he doesn't fight just 'cause you call his name." "What if I snap
your spine, leave you in a wheelchair the rest of your life? You think that'll
bring him around to see me?" "You can't do
that either," I said, my voice soft. "I'm not alone here." The Spanish guy
laughed. "I don't see nobody," he said, pulling an automatic from his
belt. I raised my hands as
though I was responding to the pistol. One of the beer bottles exploded. I took
another step away from Mortay. "There's a rifle
squad on the roof. Night scopes and silencers." Mortay was ice,
watching me. "Want to see it
again?" I raised my hand. Another bottle exploded. El Caтonero was the
truth. "I don't want
any beef with you. You scared me good. I don't want anything to do with you.
This is a walk-away. You can't hurt me, and you can't make Max fight you. It's
over, get it?" Mortay's voice was so
low I had to lean forward to catch it. "Tell Max. Tell him I know about
the baby. Tell him I know about Flower. Tell him to come and see me. Come and
see me, or the baby dies." I threw myself at
him, screaming. I felt a chop in the ribs and I was on the ground. A flash of
white and Mortay was gone. Bullets whined all around the playground. The
dark-haired white guy went down. His body jumped as more bullets hit. Pieces of
the building flew away. I crawled over to the
car, pulled myself inside. I twisted the key, floored the gas, and blasted
through the gate. The Plymouth thundered
toward the river, running without lights. I grabbed the highway, sliding into
the late-night traffic, willing myself to slow down. My shoulders were hunched
into my neck, tensing for the shot that never came. No sirens. A quick choice - my
office or Belle's? My office was closer, but Mortay knew where it was. The
Plymouth's license plates were smeared with dirt and Vaseline - nobody could
call in an ID. I slipped through the
Battery Tunnel, staying with traffic, one eye locked to the rearview mirror.
Clear. I pulled the sleeves off the jacket I was wearing. The Velcro made a
tearing sound. One sleeve went out the window on the Belt Parkway, the other a
few miles down the road. I slipped out of the body of the jacket, dumped that
too. The orange headband was the last to go, slipping away in the wind. Two blocks from
Belle's. I stopped at a pay phone, pulling the pistol from under the floor mat.
She answered on the first ring. "Hello?" "It's me. You
okay?" "I'm fine,
honey." "What's your
favorite animal?" She caught it.
"An alligator. It's clear, baby." I hung up, stepping
back into the Plymouth. Her door opened as I was coming up the walk. I slipped
into the darkness, the pistol in my hand. I went to the couch,
set the pistol down next to me, reached for the phone. Belle sat next to me,
reaching out her band. "Honey . .
." "Get away from
me, Belle. I got work to do and I don't have much left." I punched the
numbers, cursing Ma Bell for having different area codes for Queens and
Manhattan. Mama picked up. "It's me. No
time to talk. You get to Immaculata. Get her to come and see you, okay?" "Okay." "She has to go
out of town for a while. With the baby, Mama. That's the important thing. With
the baby. Let her tell Max whatever she wants - visit friends, whatever. But
get her out of here." "Max too?" "Can you do
it?" "Big problems
for me. Business problems. In Boston, okay?" "Okay. But keep
him low to the ground. Work quiet." "Tomorrow
morning he goes." "With the
baby." "With baby. Like
you say. Come by, tell me soon." "Soon." "Plenty help
here, okay? Nobody hurt baby." "Get them out of
here, Mama." "All done,"
she said. I took a deep breath.
Belle was motionless next to me. I punched another number, taking the lighted
cigarette she held out. The Mole's phone was picked up at his end. "It's me. I'm
okay." He hung up. I started to shake
then. Couldn't get the cigarette into my mouth. Belle put her arms around me,
pressing my head to her breasts. "Let it
go," I said, pushing her away. "Let it come out - I know what to
do." I let the fear snake
its way through me, shaking my body, a terrier with a rat. I replayed the tape
- back in the playground, down on the ground, a ribbon of killer bees
death-darting between me and Mortay, El Caтonero on the high ground keeping me
safe. My body trembled in
the terror seizure. Malaria flashes. Taking me back to the burned-out jungle in
Biafra where fear grew thicker than the vines. I couldn't make it
stop - didn't even try. I stayed quiet and still. Careful as a man with broken
ribs - the kind that puncture a lung if you cough. Fear ran its race. When it stopped, I
was soaking wet, limp. Drained. I closed my eyes then, sliding my face into
Belle's lap. It was still dark
when I came around. I turned my head. My face slid across Belle's lap, her
thighs slick with sweat. Or tears. I pulled myself up, next to her. "Can you get a
duffel bag out of the trunk of my car? I need to take a shower - I don't like
the way I smell." "You smell fine
to me." "Just do it,
okay?" She got up without
another word. I took off my clothes. They felt heavy in my hands. I dropped
them on the floor, stepped into the shower. When I came back out,
Belle had the duffel bag on the couch. I toweled myself off, put on a fresh set
of clothes. Belle's clock said two-fifteen. I took a pillowcase from the duffel
bag, stuffed everything I'd been wearing into it, even the cheap watch. "I don't have a
washing machine here," she said, watching my face. "This stuff
needs an incinerator," I said, tossing it near the front door. "You want a
drink?" "Ice
water." She cracked some
cubes in a glass, ran the tap, brought it over to me. I lit a cigarette,
watching my hands on the matches. They didn't shake. I propped myself
against the arm of the couch, sipping the water, smoking my cigarette. Watching
the smoke drift to the ceiling. Belle stood a few feet away, watching me, not
saying a word. "Come here,
baby," I said. She sat on the floor
next to the couch. I put my hand on the back of her neck, holding her. It was
quiet and safe in the dark. Belle took the ashtray from me, put it on the floor
where I could reach it. Lit a smoke of her own. "When I was a
young man, just a kid really, I had a place of my own. A basement, but it was
fixed up like an apartment. I was raised in other people's places: the
orphanage, foster homes, reform school. Nothing belonged to me. I got to
thinking that place was real important." I dragged deep on the
cigarette, watching the glow at the tip. "A man wanted my
basement. I didn't know how to act then - there was nobody to tell me what to
do - nobody for me to listen to. I got a gun and I went to meet him. In an
alley. I was scared. I thought if I couldn't keep my basement I could never
keep anything. Never have anything of my own. "I had to meet
the man. Like tonight. I can still see it - like I was right back there. I got
ready to go. Ran Vaseline through my hair so nobody could get a grip. Wrapped
my body with layers of newspaper in case he had a knife. Taped the handle of
the pistol. So I wouldn't leave fingerprints . . . but really because I was so
scared I thought I'd drop it when I took it out. I looked around that basement
one last time. My basement. Left the radio playing as I walked out the door. It
was Doc Pomus. A great old blues singer. Walking the line just before rock 'n'
roll came. 'Heartlessly.' That was the song. I still hear it. "He was there,
waiting for me with his boys. I tried to talk to him. He just laughed at me -
called me a punk. I showed him the pistol. He said I wouldn't pull the trigger
- said I was scared to death. He was half right. I shot him." "Did you kill
him?" "No. I didn't
know it at the time. I just pumped a slug into him. The other people with him -
they saw me do it. I just walked away. Back to my basement. I thought the word
would be on the street. Don't fuck with Burke. He's a man now. Not a kid." "What
happened?" "They came for
me. I went to prison. I paid attention in there - found people I could listen
to. I never wanted to be a hijacker. I'm not a gunfighter in my heart, I'm a
thief. I never wanted to be a citizen - knew I never could anyway. But I didn't
want to stick up liquor stores. I wanted to walk the line. Use my head, not my
hands." I stubbed out the
cigarette. "I've been
waiting for full bloom all my life, Belle. It never worked out for me, Belle. I
run some scams for a while, make a few good scores. But it seems like I always
end up going back into that alley." I took another hit of
the ice water, Belle's hand on my chest. "I thought it
was all about that damn basement. I swore I'd never fight over a thing, never
again. No matter what, I'd walk away. Travel light." I lit another smoke. "I cut the crap
out of my life. I don't drink, don't play with dope. I learned to be careful.
Real, real careful. I've got cut-outs inside cut-outs. Boxes inside boxes.
Background tapes when I make telephone calls, phony license plates on the car.
I got passports, birth certificates, driver's licenses. I sting freaks who
can't sting back. I just wanted what the little ones want - what your mother
wanted for you." "To be
safe?" "Yeah. To be
safe. The pattern I made for myself - it was like a ritual. Something you pray
to. To keep you safe from demons. I was so scared before, when I was shaking on
the couch. It made me think. Like you're praying your ass off and the devil
shows up instead of God. It makes you stop praying. It's not a world out here,
it's a junkyard. I grabbed a little girl once, maybe fourteen years old.
Working the street. She spent her nights with her eyes closed and her mouth
full. Turned over all the money to some dirtbag who beat her up and sent her
back for more. I was taking her to this place I know, where they'd keep her
safe, and I asked her about being a runaway. I thought you ran away to get to a
better place. She told me she was in a better place." "I know." "I know you do.
I've been thinking about it. Lying here. I wanted to live off my wits. Not beat
the system, just take my little piece off to the side. Play it extra-safe. "But I see it
now. It was a pattern. The one thing you don't want to do." "What
pattern?" "In prison, a
guy who's thinking about going over the Wall . . . you can tell. You watch him,
he falls into a pattern. Does the same thing every day. Maybe he stays in his
cell instead of falling out for the movie. 'Cause he's working on the bars.
Little piece at a time, putting dirty soap into the cuts to hide them. Waiting.
Or you see him on the yard, watching the guard towers. Making schedules in his
head. Any pattern marks you after a while. This South American dictator,
he always went everywhere in an armored limo. Bodyguards in front, bodyguards
in back. Safe as a bank vault. The other side, they blew up the car with a
fucking rocket. See? The pattern taught them what to do. They didn't waste time
with hijack stuff. Just blew the problem away." "But . . ." "It's me too,
Belle. I've been at it too long. I play it safe; but I don't play it alone. You
understand what I'm saying?" "No,
honey." "I can walk away
from that office and never look back. They'll never nail me fighting over my
home again. I don't have a home. Remember when you said we should run? I can't
run. I don't have a home, but I have people. My people. The only thing that's
mine. That's my pattern." "The little
black guy?" "The Prof is
one. There's others. I don't know how it happened. I didn't mean for it to
happen. I have these dreams. I was going to be a gunfighter. Live hard until I
died. But I found out I didn't want to die. Then I was going to be a scam
artist. But I kept running into kids. And they keep pulling me into what I
didn't want to be. "I wanted to use
my head, Belle, and they make me use my hands. I was going to be a lone wolf. I
even liked the way the words sound, you know? But it's not me. All my life, I
never found what I am . . . just what I'm not." Belle shifted her
weight on the floor, looking at me. "I know what you are," she said. "No, you don't.
You know what you want. I do that too. I think I want something, I make what I
have into whatever that is. It doesn't work." She grabbed a handful
of my shirt. "You better not be telling me a fancy goodbye, Burke." "There's nothing
fancy about it. There's not going to be any more basements in my life. I'm over
the edge now. Past the line. This guy, the guy I met tonight - he wants my
brother. And he knows how to make him come to fight. I can't let Max do
it." "If he's as good
as you say . . ." "It's not a
duel, Belle. Max has a baby. He's an outlaw. Like us. But he walks his own
road. He fights this freak, there's no win. It's like turning over a rock - you
don't know what's underneath. This Mortay, he's started something. If they
fight, maybe Mortay wins. And my brother is dead. Max wins, he won't win easy.
And even if he does, he's out of the shadows and into the street. Don't you get
it?" "No!" "Listen to me,
little girl. Listen good. There's no more outlaw code. There's no rules for
freaks. I've known this since I was a kid, but I never really dealt with it.
When I went back to my basement, after I shot that guy?" "Yeah . .
." "The people who
came for me, they weren't his friends. It was the cops." ''I . . ." "Listen! It was
the cops. I was a stupid fucking kid who thought he was going to be a
gunfighter. I went back to my basement. I thought they'd come for me - we'd
shoot it out. I didn't care if I lived or I died. If I couldn't have my
basement, I didn't care. If they came for me and I won, I'd have a rep. Walk
down the street, women would look at me, men would whisper my name. I thought
they'd come with guns - they came with a warrant." I lit a smoke. My
hands were still steady. "I'm telling you
the truth now. Max can't win a fight with this freak. Somebody's coming for him
after that. Sooner or later. "Burke . .
." "I've got my
debts too, Belle. You've never been a slut with your body; don't be one with
your respect. But give me what's coming to me. I got no choice about this. I
don't want to live here if I have to pay so high." "You have to
kill him," she said. It wasn't a question. "I have to kill
him. And I'm not good enough to do it and walk away." "You've been to
prison before. I said I'd wait for you. I'll wait for you even if you buy a
life sentence." "I'm doing a
life sentence right now. It's time to stop playing with myself. I got a plan. I
know how to take him out. But it'll never end up in court." "Honey . .
." "The Mole. The
guy you met tonight? He's a genius. Like you wouldn't believe. I'll have him
make me a jacket. Line it with the right stuff. I'll find Mortay. He'll do what
he does. And when he hits, there's a big bang and it's over." She was crying, her
head on my chest. "No, no, no." "Don't take this
from me," I said. "If I could figure out another way, I'd do it in a
minute. But I looked in his eyes. There's nobody home there. I can't take a
chance. If I try and I miss, my people will go down. And it'll be me who did
it. "I could live
with jail again, Belle. But if I miss this freak, I couldn't live with myself.
I'd have nothing to come back to." "Why can't you .
. . ?" "What? Call the
cops? Have us all move to the mountains? I'm going to try, okay? I don't want
to die. I'm not good enough with my hands to take him out. For a minute, when I
was in the shower, for just a minute, I let it run in my head. Thought the
answer was there. There's a reason for this freak being connected to the Ghost
Van. It's all patterns. If I could hook into his, maybe I'd have a handle to
twist him with." She pulled back,
watching my face as if she could see past my eyes, big round tears on her face.
Glass beads - they'd shatter if they hit the floor. "You'll
try?" "I'll try, sure
I'll try. I don't have much time. I have to put it together . . . but maybe it
doesn't fit. Maybe there is no pattern." "But you'll try?
You swear?" "I swear. But
I'm cutting you out, Belle. Right now, nobody has you with me. You can be out
of here in a few hours. I've got some money. I'll give you a number to call.
It'll all be over in a few days, one way or another." "Get some sleep,
baby," she said, kissing me on the lips. I felt the heat. My
eyes snap open. My head turned to the side. Belle stood naked in front of me,
my eyes on a level with the triangle of her hips, the soft pelt between them. "You think
you're being a man?" she asked. "I'm being
myself. Trying to be myself." "I won't stop
you. I love you. But you can't stop me either." "What're you
talking about?" "I'm in this.
I'm with you. Whatever way it plays." "I told you . .
." "What're you
going to do, big man? Beat my ass? I like that, remember?" "Belle . .
." "You know why I
like it?" she whispered. "Yes. Yes, you do. I only let two people hit
me in my life. Sissy. And you. She loved me, and I wanted you to love me too.
Own me. Take care of me. Rescue me, like she did. You don't want to live in
this world alone. I understand what you said. I listened to you. I'm not
running away, make some fucking phone call, find out if you're dead." "Do what I tell
you." "I'll take your
orders. I'll take whatever you have. But only if I'm yours, understand? I'm in
this." "You're
not." "I'm in this,
you bastard. You can't stop me. You let me in this, you let me help you, I'll
obey you like a slave. I'll do whatever you say. But if you don't, I swear I'll
go back to work tomorrow night. And I'll tell every man in the place that I'm
your girlfriend. I'll tell my boss. I'll put it on the street. I'll take an ad
in the fucking newspapers, I have to! You don't want me in the pattern, you
have to let me in your life." I propped myself on
one elbow, looking straight ahead. "You big, stupid bitch." It was
all I could say. I wasn't watching her
face, but I could feel the flash of her smile. "I'm a beautiful young
girl," she whispered, "and you taught me that. I'm a woman. Your
woman. And you're going to see just what a stand-up woman is all about." I closed my eyes
again. When I came around
again Belle was standing in the same place, hands on her hips. "What time
is it?" I asked her. "Time to get
up," she said, kneeling down next to the couch, pressing her mouth against
me, hands fumbling at my belt. I stroked her back, smooth and moist, like she
just stepped out of a bath. She smelled of jasmine. She unbuttoned my
shirt, her face against my chest. The necklace shone against her skin. She
licked my chest, my belly. Then she took me in her mouth. I knew what she was
doing. I knew it wouldn't work. But I felt myself grow in her mouth. Swell to
bursting. I looked at the ceiling. Shadows. I closed my eyes. She took her mouth
from me. "Almost ready," she whispered. "I'm ready
now." "Not yet.
Wait." She stroked me with something slippery in her hand, gently working
it in from the root to the tip. She took my hand. "Come on," she
said, pulling me from the couch, leading me to the bed. She sat down on the
bed, pulling me with her, pushing me onto my back again. She lit a cigarette,
put it in my mouth. She lay down on her stomach, her face inches from mine. "Will you do
something for me?" "What?" "Never mind what
- will you do it?" ''I . . ." "Just listen to
me, okay? Then decide. All right?" "Yeah." I
felt so tired. Like an old man starting another long sentence. "Remember I told
you about that man I was with once? That tough guy? The guy who wouldn't have a
bitch dog?" "Yeah." "Remember I told
you he said all bitches would turn tail? That's what he wanted me to do?" I nodded, dragging on
the cigarette. "You know what
he meant? He meant turn my tail. He wanted to fuck me in the ass." "Uh." "He said a real
man could always find a piece of ass - said he'd heen in prison and he even
found some there." She reached over, took the cigarette from me, drew on
it. Handed it back. "Did you ever do that?" "What?" "Fuck a man. In
prison." "No." "What'd you
do?" "I went steady
with my fist," I snorted. Close to a laugh, but not there yet. "Cause a real
man doesn't do that?" "I don't know
what a real man does. It's like everything I know, Belle - I only know the dark
side. I only know what a man doesn't do." "Is that why you
wouldn't taste me? The first time we made love?" "I told you the
truth then - it's the same truth. In prison . . . men do things. I don't put
them down for it. Man wants to fuck another man, it doesn't say anything about
him." "What is it a
man doesn't do, then?" "He doesn't fuck
someone who doesn't want to be fucked, okay? That's the only rule, the only
real one. Fucking another man in the ass doesn't make you less of one. But taking
it . . ." "I know. It
makes a man into a girl." "That's
bullshit. A kid who gets raped in prison, it says something about the guy who
did it to him, that's all." "But if the kid
doesn't fight . . ." "He has to
fight. He doesn't have to win." "What happens to
a kid who's raped?" "He can lock up,
go into PC. Protective Custody. Or he can hang up. Take himself off the count.
I guess he could even escape. But he can't walk the yard unless he squares
it." "How does he
square it?" "Kill the guy.
Shank him, pipe him, poison him . . . it don't matter. Even it up. Get it
back." I sat up in the bed,
lit another cigarette. "That's what I was trying to tell you. There's
rules. For everything. They don't have to be fair ones. The first time I was in
reform school, one of the bigger kids rolled on me. I never let him finish his
pitch. We fought. He could beat me, but he knew he'd never turn me. The next
time I went back inside, I was older. Smarter. They were running another game
then. It was all gangs inside. They'd make one of the little kids run. Take off
at night. Then they'd run out and catch him. Kick the shit out of him, drag him
back. They used to get a go-home behind it. Just another way of being raped. "When they came
to me, I told this big guy I'd do it, but I wasn't doing it for nothing. He had
to give me his radio. I watched his face - I could see he was thinking what a
chump I was. "He gave me his
radio and I told him I'd run in a week. I spent a lot of time on the grounds.
Looking around. Getting ready. When the night came, I took off. I told him I'd
be waiting for him by this big tree. Made him promise not to hurt me when he
brought me back. I kept watching his face - I knew he was lying. "I took off. Climbed
up in the tree with this cinder block I'd found. He came looking for me.
Calling my name. Real quiet, so he'd be the one to bring me in. Get all the
credit for himself." I bit into the filter
tip of the cigarette, feeling myself smile inside at the memory, my hand on
Belle's hip. "I dropped the
cinder block right on his head. He went down. I jumped on top of him, stomped
his face into the ground. I held the cinder block over my head and slammed it
into his ribs a couple of times. Then I went back and told the Man that this
guy had escaped and I'd stopped him, but he was too heavy for me to drag back. "I got my
parole. He went to the hospital." "Good." "Yeah, good. I
know how things work. I had to pay for what I know, but I know." "You can figure
this out too, honey." "I don't know. "You're scared
of this guy, but . . ." "I'm always
scared of something, Belle. The trick is not to let it get in the way.
Like ego - ego gets in the way. I went there tonight to tell the guy I wasn't
carrying a beef. Almost begged him to walk away, let it go. But it
wasn't what he wanted." Belle reached for me
again. "How about what I want?" "What do you
want?" She squirmed until
she was next to me, one arm on my shoulder, still holding me in the other hand,
slippery. "I told you only
two people hit me in my life. You and Sissy. I told you the truth - I told you
why," she said, moving closer to me, whispering in the night. "I took
my clothes off for men to watch. Everything I ever did with a man, I did with
you. But special. From the very first time. I knew. Sometimes you just know
something. I want you to do it to me. What he wanted. Nobody ever did." Her voice dropped
even lower, swamp-orchid soft. "I didn't know what I was saving it for,
but I knew I had to save something. It's for you." I kissed her cheek.
"You saved it all for me, girl. Don't fuss about it." "Burke, do it!
Come on. I need you to do it. It's special. For you. Not for you to take
. . . for me to give." "Belle . .
." Her mouth was against
my ear, tongue darting inside. "Want me to get down on my knees and
beg?" I got off the bed,
stood facing her. She was on her knees, taking me in her mouth.
"Aagh!" she said, pulling her face away. "That stuff tastes
awful." "What is
it?" "K-Y Jelly. I
bought it when I went shopping. It was supposed to be your surprise." She
stroked me again, slathering the stuff on. "Yes?" I nodded. She turned, still on
her knees, her backside to me. "Where's that stuff?" I asked her. She handed it to me.
I covered myself again. Patted her butt, squeezed a glob on my finger, worked
it inside her. Softly, slowly. She wiggled her rear. "Uhmmmm . . ." I put one hand on
each side of her, gently pulling her apart. I felt the tip slide into her.
Pushed forward. "Easy,
honey. A big house can have a little door." I pulled out of her. "Come on." "I don't want to
hurt you." "I was just
teasing, baby. Come on, now. Come on." I slipped in her
again, working the tip back and forth, a little bit at a time. She rammed herself
back against me, grunting, maybe in pain. I looked at her in the dark, split by
my cock, her palms flat on the bed, elbows locked. She looked back over her
shoulder. "Nice and easy," she said, smiling. The blue beads swinging
from her neck. I found the rhythm.
She moved with me, just a little, working me deeper into her. "Just for
you," she whispered, as I shot off inside her. We were on the move
before it got light outside. I swung the Plymouth into the garage, led Belle up
the stairs, the pistol cocked in my hand. Everything was as I
left it. I let Pansy out to her roof, poured some food into her bowl. Belle
stood next to me. "You're not
worried he'll try this place?" "I don't think
he wants anything to do with rooftops after last night." "What
happened?" "It doesn't
matter," I said, popping open file cabinets, handing her papers to put on
the desk. Pansy strolled into
the room. Belle patted her head. The beast ignored her, demolishing the food. I
opened the floorboard in a corner of the back closet. Belle knelt next to me.
"Take this stuff over there," I told her, filling her arms with
death. She dumped it all on
the couch like it was laundry. A sawed-off .12-gauge holding three-inch magnum
shells. Double-O buckshot in one barrel, a rifled deer slug in the other. A Sig
Sauer .45 - the closest thing to a jam-proof automatic they make. Six
fragmentation grenades, little gray baseball-sized bombs. Four sticks of
dynamite, wrapped together with duct tape. A heavy Ruger .357 magnum
single-action revolver. I went over to the
desk, moved the papers to one side, reached for the phone. Belle was standing
by the couch, watching. "Come
here," I said, watching her face. When she got close, I made one last try. "I don't think
he's coming here. But if he does, it'll take him a while to get through that
door. He does, and this whole building's going up. You understand?" "Yes." "You sure?
I can't use the guns. There's no way to shoot through that door, and if he gets
inside, there's no room. No time. He's too fast. Mortay makes it inside here,
there's no gunshots. Just one big boom." "I know." "You can work
with me. I'll keep my promise. But I don't want you to stay here. You take the
car, go back to your house. I'll call . . ." "Forget
it." "I'll call you
when I need you, okay? Not when it's over. Before that. When I need a
driver," I said, trying my last hope. She put her hands on
her hips, her legs spread wide apart. "You want me to take Pansy with
me?" "No." Her dark eyes were on
fire. "One bitch is good enough to die with you, not the other, huh?" "Belle . . .
Pansy wouldn't go with you." "That's
bullshit. You could get her out of here. You just think she might do you some
good." I threw up my hands.
"I give up," I told her. "Burke, don't
give up. I'm not asking you to give up. Let it play out, okay?" "Okay," I
said, reaching for her hand. She sat on the corner
of the desk, looking down at me. "Where do you think you go when you die?
You think we all go to the same place?" "I don't
know." "This guy comes
here, we'll find out together," she said, holding my hand tight. I started going
through the papers piled on my desk. Smoking and thinking.
Belle put her hand on my shoulder. "You want some paper, write stuff
down?" "No. I'm not
used to working like that. I have to do it in my head." "Can I
help?" "Not yet." I went back to the
files, working over the clips on the Ghost Van, sorting what I had into little
boxes inside my head. Stacking them in rows, building a foundation. You work
from the ground up, brick by brick. When you reach out your hand for a brick
and it's not there, you'ye found the door. Whatever's missing, that's where you
have to look. The man who played with
death wanted Max. I wanted him. He had all the cards, but I had one edge. I
knew something he never would. How to be afraid. The edge burned at
the corners of my guts. Seven-thirty. I picked up the phone. All clear. Dialed
Mama. She answered in the middle of the first ring. "Gardens." "It's me.
What?" "Gone." "All of
them?" "All gone. Maybe
three weeks, okay?" "Perfect." "You have two
calls. Man called Marques, couple hours ago. And the cop. McGowan. Maybe ten
minutes ago." She gave me the numbers.
McGowan was calling from the Runaway Squad; I didn't recognize the other one. "I'm off,
Mama." "You come
soon?" "Soon." I lit a smoke. Ten
minutes ago . . . I dialed McGowan. He answered himself. "You called
me?" "We got to meet,
pal. Now." "I'm hot." "Just say
where." "Battery Park.
Where they park to go out to the Statue of Liberty. The benches facing the
water." "Thirty
minutes?" "I'll be
there." Belle was behind me,
her hands on my shoulders. I told her the number Mama gave me for Marques. "That the same
one you have?" She went into the
back room, came out with her purse, fumbled around. Pulled out a little red
leather book, thumbed through the pages. She looked up. "No." I punched the number
into the phone. A woman's voice came on the line. "Mr. Dupree's
office," she said, a coked-up giggle in her voice. "Get
Marques," I told her. The pimp took the
phone. "Yes?" Like an executive. "You called me a
couple of hours ago?" "Who's
this?" "You called at
the Chinese Embassy, okay?" "Oh, yeah. I get
you. Look, man, I got some dynamite stuff. This guy who hangs with him, he . .
." "Hold up,"
I barked, listening hard. The phone didn't sound right. "Where you calling
from?" "From my ride,
man. You ever see one of them car phones?" "Yeah. It's a
radio phone. It's not just me you're talking to now, get it?" "It's
cool." "It's not
cool. Give me a number to call you at." "No way, Jose'.
I got business out here, won't be back to the crib for hours. Give me your
number, I'll ring you in an hour." I pulled a looseleaf
book from the desk drawer. "East Side or West Side?" "What?" "Where you going
to be in an hour? In your car. Where?" "Oh. East Side,
man." I ran my finger down
the list of numbers. "Make it nine o'clock, okay? Rush hour, nobody's
paying attention. There's a pay phone in the gas station at Ninety-fourth and
Second. Go there, fill up your ride, I'll ring you there." "You'll call me?
On a pay phone?" "Yeah, don't
worry about it. We set?" "They got
super-premium gas in that station, man?" I hung up the phone. Pansy put her two
front paws on the desk, making her noises. I scratched behind her ears.
"Not now, girl." She licked my face. I'd have to use disinfectant for
an after-shave. One more call. The
Mole. I heard the phone picked up. "It's me. I need
another car. Can I make the switch in a couple of hours, leave mine
there?" "Okay." I pulled my first-aid
kit out of the bottom drawer. "Belle, come over here." She came over. Quiet
and watchful. "I have to meet some people. Can you take a cab over to the
hospital? See the Prof? Just stay there until I call - three, four hours?" "Why can't I go
with you?" "There's a thin
line between a brat and a bitch," I said, holding an aluminum splint
against my forearm, measuring. "A little girl can't be a bitch, an old
woman can't be a brat." I pulled a
three-inch-wide roll of elastic bandage from the kit, put it aside. Started
cutting pieces off a roll of Velcro, working fast. "Woman your age, she
can be either one. Or both. Big as you are, you can still act like a little
brat sometimes. You want something, you put your hands on your hips. Pout,
stamp your feet. It's cute, okay? Makes me want to give that big rump of yours
a slap." She smiled her smile. "But when you
try and go back on a deal, you're over the line. Makes me want to dump you
someplace. Not come back." Her face went hard.
"You better . . ." "Shut up, Belle.
We made a deal, right? You're in this, but you . . . Do. What. I. Tell. You.
That's what you said - that's what you do." "I'm
sorry." "Don't be sorry.
I don't have time for sorry." "Honey . .
." "Get me one of
the grenades." "These?"
she asked, holding one of the metal baseballs like it was an orange. "Yeah." She handed it to me. I
put it down on the desk, rolled up my sleeve, fitted the aluminum splint into
place. "Hold this," I told her, wrapping the tape around until I had
a thick pad. I put the grenade in my hand, wrapped my fist around the blue
lever. Pulled the pin. "Burke." "Yeah. That's
right. I let go of this thing, everything blows up." I wound the Velcro
strips around my fist, leaving a loose tab at the end. It looked like I broke
my hand punching a wall and drew a ham-fisted intern when they brought me to
the emergency ward. I swung my hand back and forth, testing the tape. I relaxed
my fist. The lever stayed tight. I got to my feet.
"Help me on with my jacket," I said to Belle. She took the surgical
scissors, slit the left sleeve neatly. I slipped my arm through. "Honey, why . .
. ?" "It's safe.
Unless I pull this tab," I said, showing her how the Velcro worked to seal
the lever. I put the pin in my pocket, handed her a spare. "Tape this to
the inside of your wrist - we might need it in a hurry." "I don't . .
." I put my arm around
her waist, pulling her close to me. "You go to the hospital, like I said.
I'm out in the street, I could run into this freak. I'm trying to put it
together. Like I promised you last night. But if he comes for me before I'm
ready . . ." "It's crazy! If
that thing comes loose . . ." "Everything's
already come loose," I said, holding her. Making her see it in my face. In the garage, I said
goodbye. "I'm going out first. You wait a few minutes, then you slip out.
Take a cab to the hospital. Wait for my call there. You won't see this car
again until it's over." She kissed me hard.
"You be careful." "That's what I
do best." She kissed me again,
her hand rubbing my crotch. "Second-best," she whispered. I backed out into the
street, watching the garage door close through the windshield. I couldn't see
Belle in the shadows. I parked the Plymouth
near the Vista Hotel and walked to where I said I'd meet McGowan. The grenade
felt heavy swinging at the end of my arm - I'd have to rig up some kind of
sling when I got the chance. I found the bench,
sat down. I one-handed a wooden match out of the little box, braced it between
my taped-up hand and my knee, fired it up. McGowan's car swung
in. He popped out the passenger side, walking toward me fast. I heard tires on
the pavement, flicked my eyes to the side. Another dark four-door sedan. Whip
antenna, two guys in front. About as undercover as a blue-and-white with roof
lights. "You're
here," he greeted me. "Like I said I
would be. And all by myself too." His smile was hard.
"Volunteers. Not your problem. What happened to your hand?" "I grabbed
something I shouldn't of." "Not the first
time, huh?" "Nope. What'd
you want, McGowan?" He fired one of his
stinking cigars. "You trust me?" "So far." "I'm not wired.
The other guys, they're backup. Not for you. For me." "Go." He looked straight
ahead, puffing on his cigar, keeping his voice low. "A man named Robert
Morgan got himself killed last night." "Never heard of
him." "Nine-one-one
call came in around midnight. Uniforms found a dead man. In the playground by
the Chelsea Projects." "So?" "He had seven
slugs in him, maybe a four-inch group, all in the chest. High-tech stuff.
Whoever smoked him was a pro." "So?" "Nobody heard a
shot. This was no punk kid running around on the roof with a .22 - it was a
hit." "So?" "The ground was
all chewed up. Pieces of concrete ripped right out. The shooter had more than
one target." "This is real
interesting McGowan. Give me a light, will you?" I leaned close to his
lighter. His hands were steady. "Where were you
last night, Burke?" "With someone.
Far away." "You're
sure?" "What's the big
deal?" McGowan's cigar
steamed in the morning air. It smelled as bad as his story. "The guy had ID.
That's where we got the Robert Morgan handle. Since it looked like a pro hit,
they ran his prints. Nothing. The lab guy's a good man - he was on the ball. I
heard from him an hour ago." "Heard
what?" "This Robert
Morgan, his prints matched one we took off the switch - car. The one that
snatched the baby hooker." "Why tell
me?" He looked straight
ahead. "You're good, Burke. I think they could wire you to a polygraph and
you'd never bounce the needles." He tilted his head back, looking up at
the sky. "This dead guy, he was in the Ghost Van. It's the first lead we
got. I figure you left it there for us, but you didn't know it." I dragged on my cigarette,
waiting. "I think you're
already in the tunnel. We're coming from the other end. I don't want to meet
you in the middle - somebody could get hurt." I snapped my
cigarette into the street. "Stay out of the tunnel," I told him,
getting up to leave. "I'll call you." I didn't look back. Nobody followed me to
the Plymouth. I took the East Side Drive to 61st, hooked York Avenue, and kept on going uptown. I
pulled over on 92nd, checking the clock
in the window of a boutique that hadn't opened yet. Eight-thirty-five. Plenty
of time. I made a sling out of
a loop of Ace bandage, holding one end in my teeth to tighten the knot. Smoked
a couple of cigarettes. Mortay was tied into the Ghost Van now for sure. For
dead sure. And maybe it wasn't just bodyguard work he was doing. I was in a box
-I had to get him in there with me. And know where the back door was. I watched the
cigarette smoke puddle against the windshield, playing with it. I was in Family
Court once, listening to Davidson sum up on a case, watching him for the UGL -
they wanted to know what he was made of before they hired him for a homicide
case. They had this baby in foster care for years. Kept him there while the
social workers tried to make parents out of the slime who tortured the kid. In
this city, a pit bull bites two people, they gas it. To protect the public. A
human cripples his own kid, they give him another bite. Davidson was
representing the kid. They call it being a "law guardian." The
parents had their own lawyers; the city's lawyers represent the social workers.
I still remember what he said: "Judge, this
baby will only be a child for a little while. Then he's an adult. We only have
a few years to help him. The parents, they've had their chance. More than one.
But this baby's not in foster care, he's in limbo. What about him? Isn't he
entitled to some end to this? All butterflies, no matter how beautiful, have to
land sometime. Or they die. The parents started this mess. The social workers
kept it going. It's up to you to stop it. Stop it now. Let this baby have a
real family." The judge went along
with it. He let the butterfly land. The baby was released for adoption. The
mother cried. For herself. Davidson makes a living keeping criminals out of
jail, but that day he kept someone from going to jail years later. I know. My thoughts floating
like that butterfly, looking for a safe place to land, I got out of the
Plymouth. The clock said eight-fifty-five. I started walking to
the pay phone on the corner, snapping away my cigarette. Marques answered on
the first ring. "That you, Burke?" "Yeah. I just
wanted to make sure the phone was working at your end. I'll call you back in
five minutes." "Man, you think
I got nothing better to do than to sit around here and . . ." "Five minutes,
Marques. No more. Then we'll talk. Be cool." I hung up, started
walking again. I turned the corner,
spotted the Rolls parked next to the pay phone. I came up to the driver's
window from the back. It was open, a man's elbow resting on the sill. Diamonds
on his wrist. "Let's
talk," I said. Marques jumped.
"What? How'd you . . . ?" "Everything's
cool. Just relax. I didn't want to talk on the phone. How about we go for a
ride?" "I ain't going
anywhere with you, man," he said, eyes darting around. "In your car,
okay? Anywhere you want to go." He got hold of
himself. "In the back seat," he snapped to the blonde next to him. I held the back door
for her. One of the whores who'd been with him in Junior's. She didn't smile. I
climbed in the front. Marques backed the car out of his spot, headed uptown, to
Harlem. "What happened to your hand, man?" "Nothing
much." "Yeah. Okay,
look here, I . . ." "You want to
talk in front of Christina?" I asked him, tilting my head toward the back
seat. "I told you
before, man. This is my bottom woman. Besides, she's the one got the
dope." I lit a smoke. The
windows whispered up, sealing off the outside world. We stopped at a light. Two
kids rolled up to the driver's side. Marques hit the switch. A black kid bent
down. "You want your windows done, Mr. Dupree?" "Later,
baby," the pimp said, slapping a bill into the kid's hand. We pulled away,
cruising. I waited. If Christina wanted to listen to Marques, that was okay
with me, but I wasn't adding to the conversation. "Remember you
asked about this guy with Mortay? Ramуn?" I nodded. ''He's a
switch-hitter, man. Takes it up the chute from Mortay, hands it back the other
way." "To boys?" "To girls, man.
This Mortay, he pulls hard guys. Right off the street in Times Square. Takes
the most macho guys he can find: rough-off boys, sluggers . . . you know what I
mean?" I nodded again. "He's bent, man.
Bent out of shape like you wouldn't believe. He takes the hard guys, makes them
suck his cock. Turns them right around. Then he marks them. With that diamond
in the ear. This Ramуn, he's not the first. He had another boy. Guy they called
Butcher. Mortay turns him over. One day this Butcher is shaking down street
people, doing his thing - next day he's walking with Mortay, that diamond in
his ear." I opened my hand in a
"What happened next?" gesture. "He just disappears, man. Poof!
He's off the street. And Ramуn - he's wearing the diamond." "And he's an
evil freak too!" Christina snarled, leaning forward between me and
Marques. "Tell him,
baby," Marques said. The blonde's voice
was ugly. "He was known before. He wasn't a player, but he'd grab some
little girl, slap her around, take her money. Like Marques said, a rough-off
artist. Always carried a gun, let you see it. Times Square trash." "Tell him the
rest." "He does the
massage parlors now. All the girls know him. He pays big, so he got a lot of
play at first. But he's a pain-freak, man. He has to hurt a girl to get off.
You know Sabrina? Big fat Sabrina?" I shook my head no. "She does
pain-for-gain. Whips and chains. She used to work at Sadie's Sexsational? Just
off Eighth?" I nodded. "This Ramуn had
a date with her. Goes in the back. Stays a long time. Manager comes back to see
what's taking so long, Ramуn's just walking out. Points a piece in the
manager's face and just keeps going. Sabrina was a mess, man. He tied her up,
put a ball-gag in her mouth, whipped her till she was nothing but blood. Left a
whiskey bottle sticking out of her ass." I bit into my
cigarette. I'd seen it before. They start out mean, they end up evil. Christina sat back in
her seat. Marques snorted a fat line of coke off his wrist. "That's the
story, man. Nobody knows where Mortay lives. This Ramуn, he's on the street
most every night. Meets Mortay different places and they go off together." "You did
good," I said, dragging on the smoke. "I'm out of it
now, man. These people are too heavy for me. I'm a lover, not a killer. That's
why I came to you." I didn't say
anything. "Drop you
someplace, man?" "Thirty-ninth,
anywhere near the river." "Man, that's
only a block away." "Downtown. Not a
Hundred and thirty-ninth." "Oh, yeah.
Right," Marques said, flashing his pimp-smile. "I forgot you was
white." Marques rambled on
during the drive downtown. It's expensive to keep good women working. The IRS
just took a major player off the street for back taxes. Bail bondsmen and
lawyers were eating him alive. Couldn't find a decent mechanic for the Rolls. I mumbled just enough
to keep him talking, my mind floating someplace else. Like a butterfly. Hawks have to land
too. Marques dropped me off
where I asked him. "I'm out of it," he said again. I leaned into the
window, keeping my voice low. "You're out of it when the Ghost Van's off
the streets. You did your piece. But if I need to talk to you again, I'm going
to call." He wouldn't meet my eyes.
"Yeah, man. Right on. You know where to find me." I watched Christina
let herself into the front seat. "I always
will," I promised him. I watched the Rolls
pull into traffic. He answered the phone
like he always does. "Morelli." "It's Burke. I
need to talk." "Talk." "Not on the
phone." I heard the groan in
his voice. "And you won't come to the office, right?" "Take a walk
downstairs. I'll meet you on the benches in front of the UN. Right across from
Forty-first." "Now?" "Now." I had a good twenty
minutes to myself, waiting for Morelli. My mind was a rat,
gnawing at the corner of a warehouse full of grain. The UN towered behind
me. Useless piece of junk. I wondered how long it would be before somebody
turned it into a co-op. I spotted Morelli
across the street. Tall guy, looks ten years younger than he is. Never wears a
hat, even in the winter. Dressing better now that he's married, but not much.
He doesn't look like an investigative reporter. Hell, he doesn't look Italian.
But he's the best of both. He was twenty feet
away when it hit me. Money. Where's the money? I filed the thought like a
bitch-wolf hiding her cubs. I shook hands with
Morelli. "Let's walk," I said. We found a place by
the railing. Tourists flowed by. Security guards. People late for work. Morelli
didn't waste time asking about my hand - it wasn't his way. "What've you
got?" "I may have this
fucking Ghost Van," I told him, watching his eyes light up. A hound on the
scent. "Tell me." "There's a
pattern. A karate-freak's been fighting duels all over the city. Challenging
the leaders of every dojo. Killed at least a couple. He had a death-match. In
the basement of Sin City. Every player made the scene. Big purse, side bets,
the whole thing. Like a cockfight, only with people. I thought he was fronting
off the van. Bodyguard work. He warned one of my people off. Broke his legs.
Some other things happened, and now it's me he's looking for." Morelli glanced at my
left hand. "Yeah," I
said. "Like that. We're off the record now. Way off, okay?" "Okay." "A man got
killed last night. The cops matched his prints to the switch-car for the Ghost
Van." "Yeah . . .
?" "The guy that
was killed, this karate-freak was with him when he bought it. It won't make the
papers." "Where do I come
in?" "We got two
pieces left. Why the Ghost Van in the first place? What's it doing out there?
That's my piece. Here's yours: where's the money?" "What
money?" "There's always
money. Somewhere, there's always money. This whole operation cost a bundle -
somebody's scoring." "I read the
clips myself. It sounds like a sicko trip to me." "You're reading
it wrong. I know it. Let me do that bit, it's not for you." "What's
mine?" "Sin City. Who
owns it? Who's watching it? There's something about that place that ties it up.
This karate-freak. Mortay. Nobody knows where he lives. But that's where he
fought the duel. I'll work it through. I'm close now. I know it." "I have to sit
on the fingerprint story?" "Yeah. But
you're in on the kill when it all comes down. My word on it. No matter what
happens, you'll get the whole story." "First." "From the
horse's mouth." "How much time I
got?" "Less than I got.
And I got none." He shook hands again,
moved off. I watched the street
for a minute. Then I stepped on the uptown bus. The Plymouth was
where I left it. In some neighborhoods, I worry about amateurs trying to strip
it for parts - in Yuppieville, the only danger is that some citizen will want
it towed away as an eyesore. I headed for the
Bronx on automatic pilot, still working the puzzle in my head. Pulling the pain
into a laser point to burn through the haze. The junkyard looks
the same, day or night. Terry walked past the dogs, motioning me to shove over.
He got behind the wheel. "I know the way," he said, steering
carefully through the mine field until we pulled up outside a row of
corrugated-iron sheds. The kid drove right in. I stood to the side, watching
him jockey a couple of wrecks back and forth, filling up the area. In five
minutes, the Plymouth had disappeared. We walked through the
yard, heading for the Mole's bunker. Terry bummed a cigarette. "Shouldn't
you be going to school?" I asked him, handing it over. "I am," the
kid said. The Mole was waiting
for us. "What kind of car do you need?" "Something that
won't make people look twice." "Big car?
Fast?" "Doesn't
matter." He turned to Terry.
"Get the brown Pontiac." The kid took off. I sat down next to
the Mole. If I waited for him to ask questions, I'd do a life sentence in the
junkyard. "Thanks for the
car, Mole." He grunted, disinterested. The kid rolled up.
The Pontiac was a couple of years old. A chocolate-brown four-door sedan. A
nice, clean, boring commuter's car. It had New York plates, a fresh inspection
sticker. "Registration's
in the glove compartment. Insurance card too," Terry said. "Good
work." If I got dropped, I'd tell the cops I borrowed the car from a guy I
met in a bar. The owner would never show up to claim it, and the Pontiac
wouldn't be on any hot-car list. I lit a smoke.
"Mole, I need to talk to you for a minute." "Talk." "The kid . .
." "He has to
learn," the Mole said. "I'm working on
something. The wheels came off last night. This guy's looking for me -I'm
looking for him." The Mole tapped my
left hand. "What's that?" "Grenade." "I have better
stuff." "It's okay for
now. That's not what I need." The Mole waited. Terry
opened his mouth to ask a question, caught the Mole looking at him, shut it
down. "There's a
tie-in to this whole mess I told you about before. I think it's inside a
building. Times Square, on Eighth. Maybe the basement. I'm having some things
checked out now." I dragged deep on the smoke. The Mole and the kid sat
like twin toads. "Can you get
inside the building for me?" Terry laughed. It was
like asking Sonny Liston if he could punch. "I'm hot. This
freak, Mortay, he's got the area wired. He sees me, I'm gone. I'm not ready for
him yet. I can't go in with you." The Mole shrugged. "And you can't
use Max for backup. He's out of this until it's over." "Why?" "I met the
freak. Face to face. He wants Max, says he'll take out the baby to make Max
fight. Mama sent him out of town for a few weeks." "He knows?" "No." The Mole wiped his
hands on his greasy jumpsuit. "You want something from inside?" "Just a look
around. A good look." "When?" "I'll get back
to you. But soon, okay?" "Okay." I stomped out my
cigarette. "You can't take out the electricity. It's right in the middle
of the cesspool. Takes a lot of juice to run all that neon." The Mole turned to
Terry. "Get the master-blaster," he said. I followed the Mole
to the entrance of his bunker. There's a network of tunnels under the junkyard,
shored up with I-beams. He led me down some steps. Bright light ahead. Terry
came up behind us. The Mole pointed
ahead. "Streetlight," he said. "Like they have outside. Turns on
at night - goes off in the daytime. You know how it works?" "Con
Edison?" "No. Infrared
sensor. When it gets light out, the sensor reads it. Shuts itself off." "So?" We turned the corner.
Terry handed the Mole a portable spotlight. The kind you plug into the
cigarette lighter in your car. The Mole aimed the spotlight, pressed the
button. A flash of white-hot light. The streetlight went out. We stood in the
pitch dark. I counted ninety seconds in my head. The streetlight came back on.
I followed the Mole outside. "Car headlights,
maybe seventy-five thousand candlepower on high beams. Cop's spotlights, maybe
a hundred and fifty thousand. This throws a million. Tricks the streetlight -
tricks motion sensors - anything." "Damn! What
happens if you blast somebody in the face with it?" "They go blind
for a few minutes. Too close, you burn the eyeballs." "Mole, you amaze
me." "Let Terry drive
the car out of the yard," he said. Belle was lying on
her stomach across the hospital bed, chin in her hands. Her legs were bent at
the knee, feet twirling behind her. Like a teenage girl talking on the phone.
The Prof was in an easy chair, the casts on his legs still separated by the
bar, propped on a footstool. He looked sharp - clean-shaven, bright-red robe. "It's
quiet?" I asked, stepping into the room. "This is a
hospital, fool." "I mean . .
." "We all
know what you mean. Everything's cool. Too bad you showed so soon, I was just
getting ready to show the lady your baby pictures." I pulled up another
chair. "You got something?" Belle climbed off the
bed, sat down on the floor between us, her hand on my knee. The little man was
back to himself. All business, but working in circles. "You remember
J.T.?" "Yeah." He turned to Belle.
"This J.T. was a real country boy when he came up here. A stone rookie.
Wouldn't know a hoe-down from a throw-down. Couldn't decide if he was gonna be
a yutz or a clutz. You follow?" Belle tilted her chin
to look up at me. "What's a throw-down?" "A challenge. Or
a fight." "How do you tell
the difference?" "One you do with
your mouth, the other with your hands. Now shut up - let the man finish." Her lips turned into
a perfect pout, like she'd been practicing all her life. The Prof patted her
arm. "Don't pay attention to this thug, girl. You can school a fool, but
you can't make him cool. J.T., he's not what you call a mental heavyweight, but
he's good people. A few years ago, he got into this beef over a girl. Working
girl. He thought he was in love. Shot the pimp right on Forty-fourth Street.
Girl starts screaming, J.T. starts running. I'm on my cart, see him flying. I
told him to toss the piece. Buried it in my coat. The cops grabbed him a couple
of blocks away, but they never found the gun. The pimp didn't die. We put
together a package for J.T. Michelle talked to the girl, Burke talked to the
pimp. Visited him right in the hospital. They held J.T. a few months, waiting
for somebody to testify. Finally, they cut him loose. He's still a dumb-ass
cowboy. Too dumb to hustle, and he's not cold enough for stickups. He's always
out there, picking up spare change. You understand?" Belle nodded, a
serious look on her face. Like there was going to be a test later. "Anyway, old
J.T. hears what happened. Out there. He comes to see me. Like I said, he's good
people, but he ain't swift. Wants to square the beef for me - take care of the
people who busted me up. I tell him to back off, it's been handled. He gets a
look on his face like I just downed him, you know? Like I think he ain't worth
shit. So I give him this assignment, okay? Just do what he does, but keep his
eyes open. Don't ask nobody nothing. Just watch. Last night, he walks in here.
Brought me that radio," the Prof said, pointing to a suitcase-sized boom
box sitting in the corner. "And he brought me this too." He put it in my hand.
An eight-sided gold metal coin. Embossed on one side was a nude woman, one hand
behind her head, spike heels on her feet. I turned it over. On the other side
it said "Sin City." "It looks like a
subway token," Belle said. "It works the
peep-show machines. Costs a quarter." "So what's the .
. ." I chopped a hand in
the air to cut her off, holding the coin in my fingers. "He say anything
else?" I asked the Prof. "Said he
followed the guy - not Mortay, the Spanish dude - into the railroad yards. On
Forty-third, off Tenth. Spanish guy disappears. J.T. figures, the hell with it,
he'll go watch a movie. He goes right to Sin City, goes in the front door. Now,
that's the only door, babe. And who does he see when he gets to the bar? The
Spanish guy. J.T. says there ain't no way in the world that the Spanish guy
could've got there first." "So there has to
be another way in?" "Has to
be." "What time was
this?" "Like eleven in
the morning, man. Broad daylight." I lit a smoke.
"He did good, Prof." "When you cast
bread upon the waters . . ." "Yeah. You got
anything else?" "Just one more
little piece. I reached out for Tabitha, asked her to make the run up to see
Hortense, explain to her I was laid up. Now, you know Tabitha; she owes
Hortense too. So she did it. Anyway, she comes back to see me. Said Hortense
said she'd whip her ass when she got out, Tabitha didn't do something for me
now. So Tabitha, she's in the life, but she's straight, she tells me she saw
the duel." "Mortay and the
Jap?" "Right on. In
the basement. So I put it together, ask her how she got into the basement, dig?
She says she and her man, they go downstairs from the main floor. Big metal
spiral staircase. Everybody goes down that way, everybody goes out that way.
Get it?" "Yeah." "One more thing,
she says. This Spanish guy, she knows him too. Her man, Earl, he won't let none
of his women anywhere near the Spanish guy. Word is he uses blood the way some
freaks use Vaseline." "I heard that
too. Just today." The Prof went on like
he hadn't heard me. "But Tabitha, man, she thought that was funny. The
Spanish guy, he don't want nothing to do with nothing that ain't white. No
Puerto Ricans, no Chinese . . . nothing that's out there but white meat." I drew on my smoke,
watching Belle's face half hidden under the thatch of honey-taffy hair. Coming
together. "I'm out of
here, Prof. It's coming down. I may not be back for a while." "What's
coming down, home?" "A hard wind,
brother. Hold tight to your alibi." "You going to
work solo? That ain't the way." I bent close to him,
lowering my voice even more. "What am I gonna do, wait till you're out of
the hospital? Max is out of this - he has to be. I'm working on something . . .
but I don't have it yet." He tapped the end of my
bandage. "That ain't much of a plan, man." "That's the
backup, not the plan. It all connects. Everything. But I can't call the shots.
This is just in case he moves first." The little man's eyes
were hard, the yellowish cast gone. He was the Prophet again, the man who could
see the future. "This freak feels froggy, he's gonna leap - I know you
can't wait. But use your head, schoolboy. Pearl Harbor. When it comes to Nazis,
the Mole don't play the role." I squeezed his hand -
his grip was hard as his eyes. Nothing more to say. Belle bent to kiss
him goodbye. "Remember what I told you, lady. Outside hell, blood don't
tell." "I'll
remember." When I looked back,
he was pushing the button to call his nurse. I walked Belle over
to the Pontiac, let her in the passenger side. "What happened
to the Plymouth?" "On
vacation." "I'm glad you
didn't have to dump it. That's one fine machine." "Yeah." "What d'we do
now?" "Wait. There's
stuff out there - I have to wait for a bite." I drove back to
Queens. Stopped at a deli in Forest Hills, waited in the car while Belle picked
up some food. It was the first time I'd been to her house in the middle of the
day. The street was quiet. Working people at work, kids at school. Belle saw me
sweeping the street with my eyes. "It's real quiet
here until the summer. Once they start coming out to the water with their boats
and all, it fills up." "It'll all be
over way before then." "You're
sure?" I didn't answer her.
I parked the Pontiac behind her Camaro. "That car's been moved since the
last time." "I took it down
to the gas station. Changed the oil, front-end alignment." I looked a question
at her. "Just in case," she said. "I don't need a
driver on this, Belle." This time she didn't
answer me. We brought the food
inside. I called Mama. Nothing. Nobody looking for me. On the phone, anyway. Belle made some
sandwiches. Roast beef, boiled ham, lettuce and mustard. Opened a bottle of
beer for herself, ginger ale for me. I opened the Daily News, scanned it
quickly for any news of the Ghost Van. Nothing. I flipped to the race results
out of habit, but I couldn't concentrate. "Is it
good?" she asked. "What?" "The food." "Oh. Yeah.
Great." Her face went sad.
"I'm not a good cook. Sissy was a fine cook. She was going to teach me. .
." "Who
cares?" "I thought you
would. Remember when I cleaned your place? I did a good job, didn't I?" "Perfect." "Well . .
." "Let it go,
Belle. It was so important to me, I would have learned how to do it
myself." She pulled her chair
next to me. "You can't do everything for yourself." "Where's this
going?" She got up, moved in
little circles. Like she was lost. "You're walking around with that ugly
thing in your hand . . . Maybe we won't have a little house with a white picket
fence and all that . . . but I'm not gonna sit around and make plans for a
funeral." I slipped my hand
around her waist, pulled her against me. "I know. But you got it wrong.
I'm back on track now, I can feel it. This is just in case, like I told you.
It's coming together. There's a way to take him down and walk away too. I need
a couple more bits arid pieces. "And you'll know
where to look?" "Yeah. In my
head. I have to keep feeding stuff in, work it around. I can't go in the street
and look for him - I have to figure it out. Where he is. This thing in my hand
is only if he finds me first." "What if you
don't get any more information?" "I have to. What
I got, it's not enough. There's pieces missing. Maybe only one piece. I don't
know yet. But if you don't feed the fire, it goes out. You get trapped." She sat next to me
again, her hand on my arm, watching me close. "Trapped?" "Patterns. Like
I told you. I'm looking for a guy, right? I think he's holed up in a certain
neighborhood. So I walk around, ask questions, leave notes. Sooner or later,
he's looking for me." Late afternoon. I
called Morelli. "Anything?" "Yeah. I'm not finished.
Can't talk now - I gotta work the phones before the record rooms shut down for
the day." "Can I call you
later?" "I'll be here
till nine." "Eight-thirty,"
I said, hanging up. Mama said it was all
quiet. Asked me when I was coming around. I told her soon. I put the phone down.
"I got to get out of here." "Why,
baby?" "I wasn't
kidding about inertia, Belle. If there's an answer, it's in my head. No matter
what kind of bites I get out there, I have to put it together. I can't work
here. I need my stuff." "Stuff?" "In my files.
It's not that I can't think here. I can think in a cell. But that stuff I've
collected - it's like having a conversation . . . I ask it questions, sometimes
it talks back. Okay?" "Okay," she
said, opening her bureau drawers. "As long as I'm around when you have
that talk." Belle sat in the
front bucket seat of the Pontiac, watching the road. She giggled to herself. "What's so
funny." "The Prof. I told
him. About me. Not the whole thing, but enough. That's what he meant about
blood only tells in hell." "What's funny
about that?" "He said when
the Lord made people He made them all the same for starters. But life marks
people. If you know the way, you can read them like maps. He said the Lord made
you so ugly for a test." "What?" "That's what he
said. I told him I thought you were real good-looking. He said that was the
test - I wasn't deep in love with you, I couldn't say such an outrageous
lie." "He should
fucking talk." "Burke! He is a
handsome little man. I thought that nurse was gonna claw my eyes, she saw me
with him." She giggled again. "He told me God only made one mistake.
He said, you see a red-haired, blue-eyed nigger, you're looking at a stone
killer." "Sure, everybody
knows that." "Don't be crazy.
He was just playing." "Hell if he was.
Every one I ever saw was a life-taker." "That's
ridiculous." I shrugged. The highway slipped
by. Battery Tunnel coming into view. "Burke?" "What?" "Why would the
Prof call somebody a nigger?" "It's just a
word. Anybody can use words. I can't really explain it . . . You say some words
- say them the right way - they lose their power to hurt. The Prof, he'll say,
'That's my nigger,' he means that's his main man. Somebody else says the word,
he's ready to rumble." "But why . .
." "I told you the
truth. I really can't explain it. Maybe the Prof can, I never asked him, not
really." "Maybe I will,
someday." The office was quiet.
Pansy was her usual sluggish self. She brightened a bit when I rolled the extra
roast beef and ham into a fat ball and tossed it in the air for her. Belle curled up on
the couch with the newspapers. Pansy jumped up there too, growling. "What
does she want?" "Television." "She wants to
watch television?" "Yeah. See if
you can find pro wrestling; that's her favorite. But leave the sound on low,
okay?" Belle gave me one of
her looks, hauled the portable over to the end of the couch. Pansy sat up, tail
wagging. I went back to my work. "Honey,"
Belle's voice broke through to me. "What?" "It's
eight-thirty. Don't you have to make a call?" I looked at my watch
- I'd been out of it for three hours. I snatched the phone, hoping the hippies
weren't discussing their latest dope deal. The line was quiet. "Morelli." "It's me." "Come over to
Paulo's tonight. Eleven. We'll have some supper. I hung up quick.
Looked over at the couch. Belle and Pansy were both watching me. "Good
girl," I said. Pansy came off the couch, strolled over to me. "I
meant her," I told the beast, pointing at Belle. Pansy slammed a paw on
the desk. "You too," I told her. I let Pansy out to her roof. Walked
over to the couch, turned off the TV set. "That's one strange
dog, honey. She really does like pro wrestling. I thought dogs couldn't see TV.
Something about their eyes." "I don't know if
that's true or not. Maybe she just likes the sound." I lit a smoke.
"Was I asleep?" "I don't think
so - I think you were somewhere else. Your eyes were closed some of the time.
But you smoked a lot of cigarettes." I rubbed my face,
trying to go back. I gave it up - it'd come when it was ready. "Burke, could I
ask you something?" "Sure." "You know about
this?" she said, pointing to a head-line in the paper. I knew the story
-it had been running for weeks. High-school cheerleader, sixteen years old.
Father started raping her when she was eleven years old. While her mother was
dying of cancer in the hospital. She finally told her boyfriend, he told
somebody else. Ended up she hired another kid to kill her father. For five
hundred bucks. Drilled the old man right in his driveway. Everybody pleaded
guilty. The kid who did the shooting got a jackpot sentence, seven to
twenty-one years. The radio talk shows took calls from freaks who said the
little girl should have told the social workers - that is, if it
"really" happened. Some people thought the father got what was coming
to him. Not many. The judge sentenced her to a year in jail. "Yeah. I know
about it." Her eyes burned. A
little girl asking a priest if there really was a god. "Burke, do you
think the little girl did anything wrong?" "Yeah." Belle's face twisted.
"What?" "She hired an
amateur." "The lawyer . .
. the one who pleaded her guilty?" "Not the lawyer.
The shooter." Her face calmed, but
she was still struggling with it. "But he killed the guy . . ." "He wasn't a
pro, Belle. Left a trail Ray Charles could follow. Talked about it to everyone
who'd listen. Kept the gun. And he opened up when they popped him. You hire a
killer, you buy silence too." She took the
cigarette from my mouth, pulled on it. "I'd like to break her out of that
jail." "Forget it,
Belle. She wouldn't go. The kid's no outlaw. She's a nice middle-class girl. It
wasn't simple for her - she didn't work it through. She still feels guilty
about the guy getting killed. Incest, you don't just walk away from it like if
a stranger raped you. That was her father. He's dead. Her mother's dead. She's
gonna need a lot of help - she can't go on the run." Tears spilled down
her face. "My mother saved me from that." "I know," I
said, holding her. Ten-thirty. I put on a
dark-gray suit, black felt hat. I hated to rip the sleeve, but I had to make
the sacrifice. Belle did a neat, clean job. "I'll sew it back together
later," she said, concentrating, the tip of her tongue sticking out the
corner of her mouth. "I'll he back in
a couple of hours.' "I'll be
here." I kissed her. Her
lips were soft. I slipped my fingers around her neck, pulling at the necklace,
making it bounce against her chest, coaxing a smile. "Me and Pansy,
we'll have a beer, watch some TV." Paulo's isn't one of
those new restaurants in Little Italy. It was built when they were working on
the third chapter of the Bible. When Morelli started working the police beat as
a reporter, he would eat there every day. His mother came over, made sure her
son was eating the right food. Marched right into ihe kitchen, told them what
was what. They still have a couple of dishes on the menu named after her. He was there when I
walked in at eleven, sitting in a far corner. I started over to him. Two guys
with cement-mixer eyes got in my way. I nodded over to Morelli's corner. One of
the guys stayed planted in front of me; the other turned, caught the signal.
They moved aside. Morelli had a thick
sheaf of papers next to him, glass of red wine half empty. I sat down. The
waiter came over, looking at me like I was his parole officer. "What?" "Veal milanese.
Side of spaghetti. Meat sauce. No cheese." "No
cheese?" "No
cheese." "No wine?" "No." He moved off,
mumbling something in Italian. When he came back, he had my food. Morelli had
linguini with white clam sauce. The waiter said something to Morelli, moved off
again. I cut into the veal.
It was perfect, light and sweet. We ate quietly, talking about the magazine he
worked for, his kids, the neighborhood. The waiter cleared
the plates. "You want a hot fudge sundae?" he asked me. "Tortoni,"
I said. He bowed. I never saw
a guy do that and sneer at the same time before. When we finished, I
lit a smoke, waiting. Morelli leaned forward. "We have a deal?" I nodded. He spoke quietly, one
hand protectively guarding his papers. "You want the whole package or just
the bottom line?" "Bottom
line." His finger traced a
path through the bread crumbs the waiter left behind on the white tablecloth.
"Sally Lou," he said. "Yeah." "Adds up?" "I think
so." Morelli sipped his
espresso. "Burke, explain something to me. I grew up with these guys, I
got no illusions. That dog you got . . . the Neapolitan? I know one of the old
boys, has one just like yours. Keeps him in the back of the house. Every day he
sends one of the kids to the pet store. Comes back with a couple of live white
rabbits. The old man, he throws the rabbits over the fence. The dog catches
them in the air, crunches them like a trash compactor. The old man, he thinks
it's the funniest thing he ever saw." He took another sip of his espresso.
"I know they put up with Sally 'cause he's a good earner. What I don't
understand . . . where's the market?" "You know where
it is." "No. I really
don't. This whole porno business, most of it's bullshit. They make this
triple-X film, tell the world it grossed fifty million dollars - it's just a
laundry for dope money." "So?" "So why mess
with the heavy stuff? Kiddie porn, stuff like that? The penalties are stiffer,
they're taking all kinds of risks. There can't be that many freaks out
there?" Morelli's face was
tight. Maybe having your own kids raises the stakes. "There don't
need to be that many," I told him. "Every one of them is a bottomless
pit. It's not like dope - too much dope and you die, right? But these freaks,
they can never get enough. One little piece of videotape, they can sell it
again and again." "Sally Lou, he's
bent that way?" "I don't think
so. That's the hell of it - the market's so good, the wise guys are getting
into it. It used to be just the freaks, making their own stuff. Mostly with
their own kids. Now it's a business. The Postal Inspectors, they nail the end
users. That's all. It's like when the DEA busts a bunch of mules - the processing
plant keeps making the coke." I ground out my
smoke. "I'll let you know," I said. His eyes held me.
"Where do they get the kids? For the videos?" "Same way they
get anything else. Some they buy, some they steal." "You going after
Sally Lou?" "No. He's not on
my list." "He's on
mine," Morelli said. The Pontiac didn't
drive itself the way the Plymouth did. I poked it carefully through Little
Italy, heading for home. Salvatore Lucastro. Sally Lou. A made man in one of
the Manhattan families, but not a heavyweight. Years ago, he started moving in
on the porno joints in Times Square. Nobody paid that much attention - he was
operating with permission. It wasn't one mobster, it would be another. The
sleaze-sellers paid off, the way they were supposed to. Then he went into
business for himself, actually producing the peep-show loops, branching into
full-length films, videos. Nobody had a good line on where his studio was. He
was making so much money, the bosses let him run. The kiddie-porn stuff was
recent, maybe last year. From what I heard around, it was his biggest grosser
ever. Sally Lou owned Sin
City. I swung by Mama's, parked
in the back. I went into the kitchen, waited there while they brought her back.
We went into the hall, near the entrance to the basement, standing by the bank
of pay phones. "I can't hang
around, Mama." "What is this
with Flower?" "Just give me a
minute, okay? One call." I dialed the Mole.
Heard him pick up. "Go," I said. Hung up. I turned to Mama.
"It's complicated. There's a man wants to fight Max. Like a duel,
understand?" She watched my face,
waiting. "He made, like,
this public challenge, okay? So it's all over the street. Max fights him, he
has to kill him. And everybody knows. Big trouble." Mama wasn't worried
about Max killing someone. "Flower." It was all she had to say. "This guy, he
wanted to make sure Max would fight him. He said if Max didn't he'd kill the
baby." Mama's eyes were
black marble. A fire flared; then it was gone. "Tell him Max here. Come
any time." "It won't work,
Mama. It won't go down that easy. I've got it put together now. Just a few more
days, maybe a little bit more. He couldn't find Max in Boston?" She shook her head. "I'll take care
of it." Mama bowed, showing
respect. That I could bring it off. I turned to go, felt her hand on my arm. "What
name?" "Mortay," I
said. "Mor-tay." "What that
mean?" "In Spanish, it
means 'death.' Mama bowed again.
"In Chinese, means 'dead man.' I bowed back. Goodbye. The back staircase
was quiet. I checked the pieces of tape I left behind. Still in place. The
trip-wires were still attached in the hall. I let myself in. Pansy was at her
post. "Where's Belle?" I asked her. The beast let out a halfhearted
snarl. I bent to give her a pat. Her breath smelled like formaldehyde. Belle was in the next
room. On her back on the gym mat I keep there. Nude, covered with a sheen of
sweat. "Twenty more," she said, her hands locked behind her head. She
was doing killer sit-ups, up fast, down slow. Muscles rippled under the soft
skin. "How many do you
do?" "Two hundred a
day, six days a week. The only difference between me and a fat pig is a small
waist. I damn near killed myself to get this light, I'm not gonna be
backsliding." I lit a smoke, went
back into the office room. Pansy didn't want to go out. Belle came back
inside, toweling herself off. "Pansy was watching me work out for a while
- I guess she got bored." "She heard the
door." "Oh." She
slapped the outside of a thigh. "Only way I can get these any smaller is
plastic surgery." "They're peffect
just the way they are. She moved next to me.
"I'm glad you said that." "Because you
weren't getting plastic surgery no matter what, right?" "No, because I
would if you wanted." I gave her a kiss.
"Help me off with this," I said, taking the pin from my jacket pocket.
Belle slowly peeled back the bandage, working her way to the Velcro tab.
"When I pull the tab, you wrap your hand around mine while I slip in the
pin; my hand may be cramped." Her forehead furrowed
in concentration - her hands were steady. I popped the tab, squeezing the lever
as hard as I could. My hand felt dead. Belle wrapped both of her hands around
mine. Her knuckles were white. I slipped in the pin. "Let go," I
said. Her face was sweaty.
"I can't." "Come on, Belle.
It's okay. Come on. I watched her hands
unlock slowly. Suddenly she pulled them away, closing her eyes. I grabbed the
grenade in my right hand, slipped it into the desk drawer. My left hand was a
claw. "Go in the
bathroom. Get me the little jar of Tiger Balm, okay?" She opened her eyes.
Went off without a word. Came back with the jar of red ointment. "Rub it
into my hand. All over, hard as you can." She worked my hand
like she was rubbing oil into leather. I couldn't feel a thing. "Does it
burn?" she asked. "It'll get warm,
that's all. Once you're done, I need to wrap it." I sat on the couch.
Belle came back with a towel. Sat down next to me on my left side, squirmed
against me so my right arm was around her. She twisted sideways, took my left
hand, and put it between her breasts. She pressed them together. "Pull the
blanket over me," she said. I did it. In a few minutes, I could feel the
heat. I wiggled my fingers, working the cramps out. "That stuff won't burn
you," I promised. "Don't care if it does," she said, making
sweet little sounds in her throat. "How many beers
did you give Pansy?" "Just
three." "Damn! That's
the most she's ever had. No wonder she looks glazed." "I wanted her to
like me." "You can't buy
stuff like that." "I wasn't buying
it. I just wanted to do something nice for her." "Okay." "You
sleepy?" "A little
bit." "Go to sleep,
baby," she said. I closed my eyes, my
hand between her breasts, warm. Pansy's growl woke me
up, her snout inches from my face. It wasn't an emergency; she just wanted to
use her roof. "All that beer,
huh?" I asked her, disentangling myself from Belle. When I came back
inside, Belle was on the couch, the blanket pulled up to her chin. "Where're we
going to sleep?" "You sleep right
there. Go ahead, I got work to do." "You going
out?" "No. I got to
put things together," I said, working my left hand. It was fine. I stacked
the news clips in a pile, started to sort through what I had so far. The street
maps were still on the wall where Belle had tacked them. I started working. The
Mole was going into the basement in Sin City - it had to he the last piece. Pansy came
downstairs, strolled to a corner, and closed her eyes. Belle threw off the
blanket, came to where I was working at the desk. "I want to
help." "You want to
help, put some clothes on." "Why?" "Because you're
distracting me. And because I told you to." She leaned over the
desk, her breasts against my face. "Do they smell like that Tiger
stuff?" "No," "Take a deep
breath," she said, pushing the back of my head to her. "They smell like
you." "Still want me
to put my clothes on?" "Yeah." She threw me a pout,
switched her hips hard walking away. I heard the shower go on, went back to
work. I covered a yellow
legal pad with scrawls, but the list was in my head. Ghost Van. Baby hookers.
Mortay. Ramуn. The dead man El Caтonero left in the Chelsea playground.
Pain-for-gain. Ghost Van won't eat dark meat. Chilly menace like fog, working
close to the ground. The peep-show token. Sin City. Church where they worship
the ice god. Basement duel. And Sally Lou. I felt a tap on my
shoulder. Belle, a yellow sweatshirt covering her to her thighs. "You said
I could help." "Sit down,"
I said, patting the desk. "Listen to me play it out." She planted herself
on the desk, hands in her lap. Watchful. "This all
started with the Ghost Van, remember? Comes off the river, shoots some little
girls. Marques doesn't care why; he just wants it off the streets. So he reaches
out for me. I start looking around, and this Mortay shows up. Puts the Prof in
the hospital. So he's linked to the van some kind of way." She lit a cigarette,
nodding to show me she was following along. "Except that
he's not just a bodyguard - he's a freak. Hitting dojos, challenging the
leaders. We know he fought a duel with some Japanese karateka. In the
Sin City ba- sement. You ever work there?" "No. You have to
mix with the customers." "Okay. The Ghost
Van, it only hits young girls. And only white girls. The night I went out to
meet Mortay, when I came back so scared? A guy got killed. The cops pulled his
prints. One of them matched one they got from the switch-car for the Ghost Van.
So this Mortay, he's not just linked, he's connected too." I lit a smoke for
myself. It was good to use two hands. Belle was listening so hard her shoulders
shook. "Mortay's
stooge, this Ramуn guy. With the diamond in his ear. He's a pain-junkie. Likes
to hurt women, gets off on it. He's the gunman - Mortay only uses his hands.
And now I find out that Sin City's owned by this mob guy. Sally Lou. He's a
sleaze-dealer. Hardcore stuff. Kiddie porn, snuff - you want it, he makes
it." "You think this
Mortay works for the mob?" "No. I looked in
his eyes. He don't work for anyone. But that doesn't mean he wouldn't do
stuff . . ." "Why would he .
. . ?" "I'm not sure.
But it all adds up. Look at the maps. The Ghost Van has to have a place to
land. Someplace close by where it hunts. Times Square. Sin City - the
basement's big enough for hundreds of people to watch a duel. That's where it's
got to be." "I don't get
it." "Mortay has to
be doing something for Sally Lou. If the Ghost Van's down there, then they're
all hooked in. The reason the cops can't catch freaks, they don't know them.
They don't ask people who do. Wasn't for informants, the federales
couldn't find a donkey in Tijuana. Sex-death freaks, they love vans. I don't
know why, but they do. And they feed each other - put two of them together, you
got more than twice as much evil as two people could do on their own. Ramуn
loves pain, Mortay deals death. I don't know what the third guy was into. It
doesn't matter. The Hillside Strangler - it was two freaks. That Green
River Killer? The one who's been murdering all those street girls out in
Washington State for years?" She nodded. "I think the
cops are making a mistake. Looking for one guy. It sounds like a team to me.
Feels that way." Belle shuddered. I
put my hand on her bare thigh. It was cold. "People always
think they know what to do," I told her. "Ever hear of chemical
castration?" "Arggh! It
sounds disgusting." "They get a
chronic sex offender. One of those guys who's never going to stop, okay? Then
they make him take these injections. DepoProvera. Lowers the sex drive, so he
won't be thinking about jumping on some little kid." "Does it
work?" "Who knows?
What's the difference? This one old freak, he was still raping little kids when
he was seventy years old. Started on the shots years ago. He figured out how to
beat the deal - got some bootleg doctor to shoot him up with hormones. And
remember that baby-raper on the Coast? Instead of dumping him into prison, the
judge made him post a sign on his house. Child Molester Inside - Kids Stay
Away. Something like that." "Yeah. Like a
brand." "Some brand. All
the guy has to do is move to another neighborhood. Where they don't read
English. Plenty of them around." "It's so sick." I grabbed her eyes.
"You think your father was sick?" "He's a dirty,
evil man." "They all are.
It's their choice, Belle. Blood didn't make them that way. You're not that
way." "How do you know
so much?" "I never figured
out what I was, but I figured out I was going to go the distance. Survive.
Knowing is how you do it." I lit another smoke. "Mortay, he won't be
living down there. Too risky. But Ramуn, he'll lead me right to him." "How you going
to find out?" "The Mole's
going in. Tonight, tomorrow morning." I took a deep drag of my cigarette,
thinking about the letters in my files from freaks. Always interested in the
real thing. "I know what he's going to find." "What?" "I met this guy
once. State senator. Spent so much time kissing ass, his face looked like it
was split down the middle. But he told me something that was true. Where's the
money? That's always the question. Where's the money? To the little whores on
the street, the Ghost Van's a killer shark. But to Sally Lou, it's a money
machine." "How can he make
money from shooting whores?" "I got to wait
for the Mole to be sure, but I think I see it. And if I'm right, I know how to
do it." My voice trailed off,
tangled in my thoughts. Belle shifted her hips, sliding along the desk until
she was right in front of me. "You're different now." "How?" "When you came
to my house - shaking and all - you got past it. Whatever it was. And taping
that grenade in your hand. Like you wanted to die. Just blow yourself up and go
to a better place. But now . . . it's like you're getting cold inside. Like
you're not scared anymore." "I'm still
scared. But I'm back to myself now. Whatever that is, that's where I am. It's
true, I feel calm inside. But not dead. Just . . . centered, you know?" "Yeah. It feels
right." "There's lot of
things I can't do. I stopped feeling bad about them a long time ago." "But you can do
this?" "I can do
this." Belle came back
inside, a glass of ice water in her hand. "Want some?" I took the glass from
her, sipped it slowly. "It's late, Belle. Go to sleep." She bumped a rounded
hip against my shoulder. "Come with me." "I'm still
putting it together." "But you told me
. . ." "I think I know
what it is. I have to play with it some more. Get it straight. We're playing
for keeps now." "Just lie down with
me. Let me hold you. In my mouth. Like I did before. Until I fall asleep."
Her eyes were sadness. "I'm so cold, honey." I took her hand, led
her to the back room. The room had a faint
glow when I came around – the closest thing this joint gets to sunlight.
Belle's head was against my chest, the gym mat hard against my back. "I'm
awake," she said, before I could ask her. "How long?" "I don't know.
I've just been lying here. Thinking. Does Pansy always walk around at
night?" "Yeah." "She's
restless?" "Pansy? She'd
spend all her time sleeping and eating, it was up to her. She's just
patrolling. Watching over me." "I'm jealous of
her." "You're a
dope." She snuggled in
against me, warm, smelling like soap. "Burke, can I ask you
something?" "Sure." "Can you love
two people? At the same time? Love them both?" Flood came into my
mind. Flash-images. Flood standing in a Times Square alley, facing three
skells, her purse on the ground. Waving them in, daring them to come close
enough. Blond hair flying. Chubby little hands that could chop or caress. The
crosshatched scar on her face. Fire-scar on her butt. The duel to avenge her
sister's baby. Flower. The name Max gave his child to honor the warrior-woman
he'd never see again. I felt her spirit in me, sunburst smile covering my soul. "I don't
know," I said; "I don't know enough about love. It came so late to
me." "It's come
again, darling. I asked the Prof." "About
what?" "Love. He knows
about love. Blood love. I remember what he said: Life ain't dice - they don't
roll nice, you can roll 'em twice." "What's that
supposed to mean?" "Nobody's stuck.
Me and Sissy were walking back of the house one day. When I was just a little
girl. This old coon was down by the water. Hunting. I saw he only had one front
paw. Sissy told me he must have been caught in a trap. Bit his own paw off to
get out. It costs something to be free." A tear welled, rolled down her
cheek. "I didn't know what she meant then." I kissed the tear track.
She slid on top of me, reached down, fitted me inside. "The way people
talk, it's not the truth," she whispered. "You can't make
love. It's there or it isn't." Her hips flicked
against me, slow-sliding, one arm around my neck, her face buried against me.
"I know it's there. You know it's there. Take it." "Belle . .
." "Take it!"
Grinding hard, her teeth against my neck. Belle was getting
dressed. I was watching television with Pansy. The late-morning news. Some
people tried to escape the Dominican Republic in an overloaded wooden boat,
heading for Puerto Rico. The boat went down in shark-infested water. Another
boat came alongside. Somebody had a video camera. The TV showed some of the
footage. Living color. Blood thick in the water, like pus from a wound.
Screams. Chunks torn out of humans. Sharks hitting again and again. Sound of
shots fired. Belle stood behind me, hand on my shoulder. "God! How can
people watch something like that?" Right then I knew. Why the Ghost Van
hunted. We waited until
almost noon. "Ready to go?" I asked Belle. When she nodded, I took
the grenade out of the drawer, rolled up my sleeve. "Come over here; give
me a hand with this." She took the grenade
from the desk, bounced it up and down in her hand. "Let me hold it." "Forget
it." "Listen to me .
. . just for a minute?" I said nothing,
feeling the stone in my face. "I'll carry it
in my lap. Cover it with a scarf. You can carry your gun. If it happens . . .
if he comes too soon you get two chances." "He's too fast,
Belle. I'd probably never get a shot off. You want a gun, I'll give you
one." "I'm no good
with a gun. Never shot one. I could stab him, but if he's too fast for you . .
." "No." "Listen
to me! I'll get out of the way. He gets past the gun, puts his hands on you,
I'll toss it." "You'd toss it
right at me? Blow me up too?" "He gets to you,
you're going to die anyway. I wouldn't let you go alone." I watched her face.
"You don't have the heart for it - you'd never pull the pin." "I would!" I lit a smoke.
"Stay here, Belle. I'm going to the junkyard." "I thought I was
going with you." "You were going
with me. Not now. Stay here." "You can't make
me." "Don't make me
laugh." "I'm telling the
truth. You can't make me. You'd have to hurt me to do it. Really hurt me. And
you can't do that." I walked away from
the desk. Belle stood, arms folded over her breasts. I snapped my fingers.
Pansy's head came up. "Watch!" I said, pointing two fingers in front
of me. I turned to the door. Belle stepped forward. Pansy bounded between us,
an ugly snarl ripping from her throat, teeth snapping. "Pansy!" Belle
said, like her feelings were hurt. "Don't try her," I warned. The muscles stood out
across Pansy's shoulders, hair rigid on the back of her neck. Belle snatched
the grenade from the desk, cupped the blue handle, pulled the pin. She tossed
the pin in a gentle arc over Pansy's head. I caught it in my hand. The beast
never moved. "I'll just hold
this until you come back," she said, her voice quiet and steady. I let out a breath,
the pin in my hand. "Pansy,
jump!" She hit the ground. I snapped my fingers again, calling her to me.
Gave her the command that everything was okay. She started to walk over to
Belle. I held up my hand for her to stay. I crossed the room,
fast. "Hold it steady," I told her, slipping the pin back in. She put
it on the desk, went in the back room, came out with a blue chiffon scarf.
Wrapped it around the little metal bomb. "Let's go," she said. I pushed her back
against the desk, making her sit on it. Moved in so close her eyes were out of
focus. "Swear on your mother," I said. "Swear on Sissy that
you'll throw it if he gets to me." "I swear." I buried my hands in
her thick hair, snatching a handful on either side of her face, pulling her
nose against mine. "When we get back here . . ." She licked my mouth,
pushed her lips against me. I couldn't make out what she was saying. Belle followed me
down the stairs into the garage. I snapped her seat belt in place for her,
arranged a shawl over her lap. I worked my way through Lower Manhattan,
grabbing the East Side Drive off Pearl Street. Belle was as good as gold, quiet
and peaceful in the bucket seat, hands in her lap, little smile on her face.
Like a kid who threw a successful tantrum - got her way and didn't want to brag
about it. "Call off the
directions," I told her. She was right on the
money, every step of the way. I lit a smoke. "Me too," she said. I
held the filter to her mouth. "Don't get
spoiled. It won't work every time." "I know."
Phony contrite tone in her voice, the Southern twang not softening it much. "I'm not
kidding." "I know.
Turn right up ahead." I turned into Hunts Point,
heading for the junkyard. "You know
something, Burk - you're not exactly what they call a well-rounded
personality." "Well-rounded's
nice, long as you don't have to cut something." She stuck out her
tongue. A queen-sized brat. With a bomb in her lap. I rolled the Pontiac
up to the gates. "Will the dogs know it's a different car?" she
asked. "They won't
care." Simba made his move
first. Sitting patiently while I rolled down the window. I talked to him,
waiting for someone to come and let us through. It was Terry, shoving
his way through the pack just like the Mole. He saw who it was, stuck his head
in the window. "Hi,
Belle!" "Hi,
good-looking. You gonna show this lug how to drive a car?" The kid looked at me.
I opened the door, climbed in the back seat. He piloted the Pontiac in an
elaborate weave, showing off for Belle. "Are you Burke's
girlfriend?" "Hey! The Mole
teach you about asking questions?" "I just . .
." "Shut up, Burke.
I sure am, sweetie. But if you were a few years older . . ." "I'm getting
older." the kid said, his voice squeaking, looking over at her. She saw where he was
looking. "I know you are, honey," she said, flashing a smile. He pulled the car
into a safe area. Jumped out, held the door for Belle. I lit a cigarette. The
kid was so entranced he forgot to glom one off me. "We don't need
it here," I told Belle. "Hand it over." She pulled the scarf
from the grenade, put it in my hand. Terry paid no attention, chattering away,
explaining all the features of the junkyard to Belle. I followed behind them. The Mole was outside
his bunker. He tilted his head. We all followed him downstairs, Belle's hand on
my shoulder, Terry bringing up the rear. I hoped the view wouldn't stunt his
growth. The tunnel sloped,
curved gently back and forth. Lights flicked on each time we came close to a
curve. The Mole's living room was always the same. A thin concrete slab over
hard-packed dirt, old throw-rugs on the floor. The walls are all bookshelves.
Tables covered with electrical motors, lab beakers, other stuff I couldn't
recognize. A tired old couch in the middle of the room, easy chairs from the
same dump. All covered with white oilcloth. I caught the quiet whirr of the
electric fans built into the ceiling, venting to the outside. It looked the
same, but it felt different. The Mole built it to live underground - before
Terry came along. I sat on the couch,
Belle next to me. The Mole pulled up a chair. Terry sat on the arm. Took his
eyes off Belle long enough to ask me for a cigarette. The Mole took off his
glasses, rubbed them with a rag he pulled from his belt. No point asking him if
he got into Sin City - he would have said so in front, if he hadn't. "I found
it," he said. "You sure?" His eyes were dim
behind the heavy lenses, head solid on his stubby neck. "In the back,
anchor holes. For a tripod. Video camera. Professional quality, heavy. Arc
lights over the top. Cross-bolted brace. Beanbag rest." "For the
shooter." "For the killer.
The back doors work off a hydraulic valve. One switch - open and close." "You understand
what it is, Mole?" "I understand.
Killing machine. They go past the girls, hit the switch. Doors pop open. Killer
shoots. Door closes." He took a breath. "And the camera is rolling.
Taking the pictures." "Snuff
films," I said. "Live and up close. The real thing." "Who does
this?" Belle asked, her voice shaking. "What kind of freaks?" The Mole pinned her
with his eyes. "Nazis," he said. "They took pictures of us going
into the ovens. Pictures of their evil. Treasures of filth." "You find
anything else?" "Three more
cars. Dark sedans. Another room. More cameras, lights. Drain in the
floor." That's where the baby
pross they snatched off the street went. Down the drain. I bit into the
cigarette. I'd been ready for it, but red dots danced behind my eyes. I waited
for the calm. For the hate to push out the fear. "They have to go
down, Mole. Can you get back inside?" He didn't bother to
answer me. Waiting. "Can you wire it
so it all goes up?" He still waited - I
hadn't asked him a question yet. "Off a radio
transmitter? So you push a button and . . ." "How far
away?" "You tell
me." "It's all steel
and concrete, that part of the city. The basement is deep. No more than four,
five blocks to be sure. Easier to wire it to the ignition. They start the van .
. ." "That's no good.
There's two freaks left who work the van. The shooter, and the man who wants
Max. I think the driver's already dead. The van could sit there for
weeks." "Okay." I got to my feet,
stalking the underground bunker. Like they must have done in the Resistance a
lifetime ago. "I got a plan. The shooter's bent - I think I can bring him
in. Make him tell me where the other one is. Soon as I know, you can blow the basement." "How long?" "Couple of days
- couple of weeks. I need more peopIe," I said, catching his eye. He knew what I meant.
Didn't want to say Michelle's name in front of the kid. The Mole nodded again. "I'll call you
soon as I'm ready." The Mole grabbed Terry's
arm, pulled him around so the kid was facing him. "Remember what I
told you? About the Nazis? About our people?" "Yes." "Tonight,"
said the Mole, holding the boy's arms. "Tonight is Bar Mitzvah." I banked the Pontiac
across the on-ramp for the Triboro. Belle was quiet, smoking one cigarette
after another, staring straight out the windshield. "Go ahead,"
I told her. "Say it." She turned in her
seat. "You never gave me the grenade back." "I know." "You don't trust
me?" "I do trust you.
I have to get out of the car, I'll hand it back to you." I glanced her
way. "Okay?" "Okay." "Don't
sulk." "I'm not." "Then you're a
hell of an actress." She tapped her
fingers against one knee, keeping it under control. I lit a smoke for myself. "What's the rest
of it?" She didn't answer me.
Manhattan high-rises flew by on our right, river to our left. Mid-afternoon
traffic still light. "Burke, he's
going to take that boy inside with him? Wire up a bunch of bombs?" "Yeah." "He's just a
kid." "It's his time.
Like it was yours once." "I wish . .
." "Don't wish.
It's a poison inside you." "You don't wish
for things?" "Not
anymore." We were in midtown, heading
for the Times Square cutoff. I rolled on past. Belle craned her neck, looking
through the Pontiac's moon roof at the luxury apartments, balconies overlooking
the river, high above it all. "You think it's true? That it's lonely at
the top?" "I've never been
there. All I know, it can be lonely at the bottom." "But not
always," she said, her left hand resting on my right thigh. I covered her hand
with mine. "Not always," We passed under the
Manhattan Bridge. I ignored the exit, taking it all the way downtown. "Was the Prof
really a shotgun bandit?" "Where'd you
hear that?" "From him." "I don't know if
it's true or not. Ever since I've known him, he's been on the hustle. Maybe
when he was younger, a long time ago . . . Why'd he tell you?" "I was telling
him about me. That I was a driver. He said he used to cowboy liquor
stores." "Old as he is,
he probably robbed stage coaches." Belle giggled.
"He's not so old." "Anyone older
than me is old." "You don't feel
old to me," she said, her hand shifting into my lap. I grabbed her wrist,
pulled her off. "Cut it out. Pay attention." "I am." "We got bigger
things to think about." "Bigger than
this?" Grabbing me again. I snarled at her. She
giggled again. I turned off at the Brooklyn Bridge exit, took Centre Street to
Worth, skirting the edge of Chinatown. I needed to make some calls, and I
couldn't use the basement under Max's warehouse. Not now. I pulled in behind Mama's.
A black Buick sedan rolled across the entrance to the alley behind us, blocking
us in. Its back doors opened. Three young Chinese jumped out. Long, shiny,
swept-back black hair, red shirts under black leather jackets. They stepped
into a triangle, using their car for cover. Two of them braced their elbows,
locking their hands around automatics. The other crouched against the alley
wall, an Uzi resting on one knee. No way out. Belle caught it in the side mirror. "Burke!"
she whispered. "Don't
move," I told her. I knew what it was. The back door to the
kitchen popped open. A monster walked out. He looked like a pair of sumo
wrestlers. Shaved head, eyes buried in fat. He grabbed our car, shook it like a
kid with a toy. He looked into my face. "Mor-Tay?"
It sounded like someone had taken his tonsils out with razor wire. I put my hands on the
dashboard, keeping my eyes on his face. "Burke," is
all I said. He shook the car
again. Mama came out into the alley, said something to the monster. He let go,
stepped aside. I motioned to Belle to get out. We followed Mama inside. Took my
booth in the back. I lit a smoke. A waiter came up, a tureen of soup in his
hands. When he leaned over, I could see the magnum under his arm. "Where'd you
find 'Zilla, Mama?" "Always around.
Good friend." "I see you
taught him some English." Mama bowed.
"Teach him everything." Most Orientals are fatalists - Mama was
fatal. I sipped the soup.
Mama was serene. Greeted Belle, reached over, held her hand for a second. I
left them there, went in the back to make some calls. "Runaway
Squad." "McGowan. It's
me. I got something. Can you meet me at the end of Maiden Lane, by the
pier?" "I can roll
now." "Make it in an
hour." "Right." I tossed in another
quarter, rang the private number for the phone-sex joint where Michelle worked. "Yeah?" "Michelle?" "We got no
Michelle here, pal." "I know. Tell
her to call Mama." A sleepy woman's
voice answered the next call. "Put Marques
on." "He's not
here." "Right. Tell him
Burke's going to call him. In two hours. Tell him to be in his car. In two
hours, you got it?" "I'm not sure .
. ." "This is
Christina, right? You be sure. Two hours. I'll call him. Tell him to be in the
car." I hung up, not
waiting for a whore's promise. Back inside, Mama and
Belle were huddled together, talking. I sat down across from them. Mama spooned
some meat-stuffed dumplings onto my plate, still talking to Belle. "Dim sum.
Burke's favorite." "How do you make
them?" Mama shrugged her
shoulders - she wasn't a cook. I ate slowly, one eye
on my watch. The Maiden Lane pier was just a few minutes away. "Mama,
Michelle's going to call here. If she doesn't do it before we leave, make sure
you get a number where I can reach her. Tonight. Very, very important,
okay'?" "She help you.
On this?" "We'll
see." Mama bowed. More food
came. Belle ate like Pansy, only with better table manners. I never felt so
safe. Finally, I pushed the
plates away. Belle was still eating. "You hear from Mac?" I asked
Mama. She smiled. Made a
gesture with her hands like a flower opening to the sun. "Boston
quiet?" "Quiet soon. Max
working." I bowed. Held out my
hand to Belle. She looked unhappy, not wanting to leave the warmth any more
than I did. Mama walked us out to
the back. "I'll call later - check on Michelle." The monster was still
standing by the door. The Buick was still across the alley mouth, no gunners in
sight. I backed up the Pontiac slowly, watching the Buick move out of the way
in the rearview mirror. Pointed the car toward the pier. Belle was finishing
off a last egg roll. She delicately wiped her mouth with the chiffon scarf,
tossed it into the back seat. "How come you
call her Mama?" "It's what she
calls herself." "Where're we
going?" "Meet some
cops." "Cops?" "They're okay.
For this, they're okay. They want him too." I handed her the grenade.
"You stay in the car." "But . . ." "Shut up. I let
you have your grenade, took you for a nice drive to the Bronx, gave you a nice
meal. That's all the babying you're going to get today." She reached into the
back seat, put the greasy scarf in her lap, covering the grenade. I turned in
to the pier and backed the Pontiac into an empty space, watching for McGowan.
We were early. "Burke?" "What?" "That huge guy .
. . the one who came out the back door?" "Yeah?" "If he's
Chinese, how come he has an Italian name. 'Zilla'?" "It's not his
name, just what people call him. Short for 'Godzilla.' "Oh. Why'd he
say that name? Mor-Tay?" "He was asking a
question. That pimp, Marques. He wants to know about putting a bounty out on
someone, he should talk to Mama." McGowan's car pulled
up. I got out of the Pontiac, making sure he could see me, walking toward him,
both hands in sight. His partner reached behind him; the back door popped open.
I climbed in. His partner closed it behind me - no door handles on the inside. "You know
Morales?" McGowan asked. "Yeah." "He's with me on
this. Understand?" "Yeah." "You called me
out here." I lit a smoke.
"You sure you want your partner to hear this?" They looked at each
other. Morales said, "I need some cigarettes. Be right back. You need
anything?" McGowan shook his
head. Morales stepped out. "I found the
Ghost Van." "Where?" "It's
underground. There's three men in on the front end. One's the dead guy you
found in the Chelsea playground. Two more left. I got a plan to trap one, work
him until he shows me where the other one is." "You saw the
van?" "Not with my
eyes. I know where it is." "That's enough
for a warrant." "The guy who saw
it, he's not coming in. Neither am I. I got a deal. You interested?" "Go." "I need some
things from you. Everything works out, I take this guy who wants Max. And the
Ghost Van goes boom." "What's mine?" "The
shooter," I said. "And Sally Lou." McGowan knew the
name. He puffed furiously on his cigar. I could see where they got the idea for
smoked glass. "What do you need?" "A massage
parlor. In Times Square. And for the cops to stay away. A week, maybe
two." "Where am I
gonna get a massage parlor?" "McGowan, don't
negotiate. I got no slack in my rope. You already got a couple of them.
Maybe not you personally, but the cops have. That joint just off Forty-sixth -
that was yours, right?" "That was a sting.
The tax boys. And it's all closed down now." "But you got
more. You've been after Sally Lou for years. "There is one.
But it's not ours." "The federales?" "Yeah." "Tell them you
need it. Couple of weeks. I'll staff it myself." "With
what?" "Marques Dupree.
He'll lend me some girls." "He's in
this?" "It started with
him. Like I told you. I'll be calling him in an hour. Get him over here. I want
you to tell him it's okay." "Now you want me
to make a deal with a pimp." "McGowan, you'd
make a deal with the devil to drop Sally Lou." "Spell it out -
what do I get?" "The shooter
comes to the massage parlor. I talk to him. He turns over this other guy I
want. We dump the shooter anyplace you say. The Ghost Van goes up in smoke. And
you find everything you need to take Sally Lou down." "This other guy
. . . What if it doesn't work out?" "I got one more
deal. One more piece. You and me take a walk over to that brown Pontiac. The
one I came out of. There's a girl sitting in the front seat. You take a good
long look at her. Whatever happens, you make sure she walks away. In exchange,
I leave you a letter. With everything in it. The Ghost Van, the shooter, this
karate-freak, the shooting in the Chelsea playground, Sally Lou." "And I let the
girl walk?" "She'll be the one
mailing you the letter. Enough for a dozen cases." "Let's take a
look," he said. We strolled to the
Pontiac. I motioned for Belle to roll down her window. "This is
Detective McGowan, NYPD," I told her. She didn't take her hands out of her
lap. "He's the one you're going to mail that letter to, okay?" "Okay." No
expression on her face. We walked back to
McGowan's car. Morales was halfway across the parking lot. McGowan waved him
in. "One more thing,"
I said. "What now?" "You know
Morelli? The reporter?" "Sure." "He gets it
first. Exclusive. He'll take care of you." "And your
people." I nodded. "Okay," he
said. Morales joined us.
"Take a walk with me," McGowan said. "I'll fill you in." I went back to the
Pontiac, let myself in, watched McGowan and Morales standing by the pay phone
on the pier. "Good
girl." "What's in this
letter I'm supposed to mail?" "A free pass -
I'll tell you later." I watched McGowan
pick up the phone. He talked for a couple of minutes. Stood where he was.
Picked up the phone again. Talked some more. Waved. "Be right
back," I told Belle. I walked up to
McGowan. "Call the pimp," he said. Marques was on his car
phone. Answered it himself. "You know who
this is?" "Yeah, man. What
. . . ?" "The Maiden Lane
pier. Now. It's coming down." "I ain't walking
into no . . ." "This is a safe
place, Marques. The only fucking safe place for you in the city, you don't show
up." I hung up. McGowan stood on one
side of me, Morales close on the other. "You know
Sadie's Sexsational?" I laughed. "What's so
funny?" "Girl got beat
up there. Real bad, right? So bad the cops moved in, closed it down." Morales turned to me.
"You think that's funny?" "I think you're
funny," I said to McGowan. "You've been running the place ever since,
right? That joint doesn't belong to the federales. You called One Police
Plaza, not the FBI." McGowan touched the
brim of his hat. "What d'you care?" "I don't. in
fact, that joint is perfect." "Why?" "Good
location," I told him, eyes flat. Morales didn't like
any of this. His eyes scanned the pier, waiting for the pimp. "You guys know
what to do?" I asked McGowan. "We'll make it
clear to him." I lit a smoke. "How you gonna
get the shooter into this one massage parlor?" McGowan asked. "I know what he
wants." The Rolls purred into
the parking lot. "That's
him," I said. "We know. Go and
get him." Marques was behind
the wheel, Christina next to him. "Thanks for
showing." "You didn't give
me much motherfucking choice." "Be cool,
Marques. Be yourself - show your class. Walk over to the water with me." "I don't like
this." I leaned in the
window. "I wanted you off the count, you'd be in the morgue. You know it,
I know it. This is legit. Come on." He exchanged a look
with Christina. Got out of the Rolls. We walked to the water. I couldn't see
McGowan or his partner. "I'm taking over
a massage parlor," I said. "You?" "Me. And I need
some girls. For a couple of weeks." "You crazy,
man." "I got the van,
Marques. I got it pinned to the wall. Start counting that bounty money; it'll
be mine soon." "What's that got
to do with . . ." "The van didn't
move by itself. You wanted it off the street, you think I was gonna give it a
flat tire?" "Look, man . .
." "I need the
girls. Fill the joint up, make it look righteous. They can keep everything they
score. The guy who did Sabrina? The painfreak? He's the one - the lead to the
van. I got to pull him in. "My girls don't
. . ." "I know they
don't. But you know some who do, right? I just need one. She takes the
pain-tricks, your girls take the rest. You keep the cash. This one guy comes
in, the show's over." "My girls don't
. . . Hey!" McGowan stepped in
behind me; I saw Morales roll up behind Marques. "You know who
this is?" I asked Marques. "Yeah,
man," he sneered. "Every player knows Delective McGowan." "You don't want to
know him better, you'll shut up and listen. He's here to tell you
something." McGowan leaned over
my shoulder. "Nobody's going to bother Sadie's Sexsational for a couple of
weeks, Mister Dupree. Nobody. Not the wise guys, not the heat. Got it?" "I got it." Morales pressed in
against Marques. "Get this. You go along, you get along. You don't,
I got a little girl. Says you tried to pull her. Says you had mucho coke
in your ride. More than enough for a warrant. I toss your car, I find a couple
of fucking kilos. Any fucking time I want." Marques nodded.
"I'm in. You got it." McGowan spoke to him.
"You got two days. Friday night, nine o'clock, you be there. With your
girls." "It's in the
bank, man." Morales pressed
closer. "Or you're in the joint." Marques walked back
to his car alone. He didn't look back. "I see your hand
got better," McGowan said. "I got more
cards in it," I told him. I waited until
McGowan and his partner pulled off before I went back to the Pontiac. "What's going
on?" Belle asked. "It's coming
together, little girl." I drove a few feet to
the pay phone, left the engine running, dialed Mama. "It's me.
Michelle call?" "Yes. Come here
tonight. Eleven." Back in the office, I
let Pansy out, told Belle to stay where she was. I went down to the basement,
came back with a big metal box. Belle watched as I laid the stuff out. I lit a
smoke, left it smoldering on the edge of the desk while I worked. My hands were
moving on the equipment, but I was watching a different picture in my mind.
Seeing it happen. I picked up the cigarette, took a last drag. "Belle,
honey, would you take off your top?" She pulled it over her head. "The bra too,
okay?" She unsnapped it, waited.
Her breasts made a joke of gravity, the blue necklace falling just to the
cleft. It wouldn't work like that. "Wait here," I told her. I came back with a
white T-shirt of mine. "Try this." She slipped into it. Her breasts
fought the thin material, the cleavage gone. No good. "You have any
real thin tops? Gauzy, maybe? The kind you can see through?" "Like a
nightgown?" "That might work
. . . if you have a real short one." "I have a
couple. Some teddies too." "No. I need
something that kind of opens down the middle. So your breasts stay
separated." "Why, baby? I
can go buy anything you want." I held up a pistol.
From the side, it looked exactly like a Colt Python .357 magnum, even down to
the ventilated rib across the top of the barrel. "You know what this
is?" "A gun." "It's not,
though. It's a gas gun. Works off CO2 cartridges. It
shoots these things," I said, showing her a handful of red plastic balls. "What are
they?" "Paint pellets.
Sixty-two-caliber. The survival-freaks use them when they play their little war
games. The pellet hits you, it leaves a red splat, so you know who got
hit." "Do they
hurt?" "They sting.
Especially up close. And you can feel them smack into you." "What'd you want
with it?" "I got a plan,
Belle. And part of it, I got to pretend to shoot you. Up close. Real
close." She pulled the
T-shirt over her head. "Go ahead. Let me see how it feels." "No. When it
happens, you've got to feel it for the first time. You know it doesn't hurt,
you won't act nervous enough." "Honey . .
." "You don't want
to do it, say so." "There's nothing
I wouldn't do for you." "I know," I
said, holding her against me. I gave her a kiss. "Let me work now. I have
to see it." "See what?" "See it happen.
Like in karate, when they train you to punch. You don't punch at something, you
punch through it. You have to see it happening, see your fist go right
through the board. You don't see it, it doesn't happen. Something goes wrong in
your head and it stops your hands. Okay?" She nodded,
solemn-faced. I went back to work.
The paint gun would need something that looked like a silencer. I fitted a
piece of aluminum tubing, trying it out. Coming to it. We pulled into the alley
behind Mama's just before eleven. Instant replay: the Buick rolling in behind
us, the monster coming out the door. At least this time he didn't rattle the
car. Michelle was already
inside, sitting in my booth. She looked pristine and elegant in a white
double-breasted wool jacket, black blouse underneath. I let Belle in first.
Michelle took Belle's face in her hands, turning it to catch the light. "Much
better. I think we could go for a little stronger look around the eyes. And
your hair . . ." "Michelle, we
don't have a lot of time." "You drag me
down to this godforsaken neighborhood - no offense, Mama - right in the middle
of my working hours, and you're in a hurry." She flashed her smile at
Belle. "Men are always in a hurry, but they never have that much to do.
That's a beautiful necklace," she cooed. Belle leaned forward so Michelle
could hold it. "Burke bought it for me." "Unbelievable.
It's a beautiful thing, perfect for you. Maybe he's learning some class." Belle was throwing
off more wattage than the lights. Clothes weren't the only thing Michelle did
right. I got out of the
booth. Bowed to Mama. "We can use the basement? Talk?" She bowed. The women followed me
downstairs. "Very chic," said Michelle, pointing at the wall of
stainless-steel vats. "Is that high-tech?" I ignored her. The
basement is well lighted. The subbasement isn't. Max keeps things down there. I
never asked what. Mama bowed again,
leaving us alone. Michelle perched on a wooden crate, crossed her silky legs.
"You didn't bring me down here to talk about our stock investments." "No. It's the
Ghost Van. We're all in it now. All that's left. I have to pull a sting. Smoke
out a freak. It's all worked out, but I need you to run it." "Tell me." "There's a
massage parlor in Times Square. Sadie's Sexsational, it's called. You know
it?" "Nasty
place." "Yeah, it is.
Our place, for the next couple of weeks. McGowan cleared out the trash
-nobody'll bother us." "Us?" "Marques Dupree;
we're going to run his girls out of the place. There's two guys left from the
Ghost Van. The shooter, he's into pain. Other people's pain. He's the one that
tortured that girl before the cops moved in to close the place. So we're
opening up again. I want to pull him in. "I know Marques.
His girls . . ." "He's going to
get one more. A free-lancer. She'll do all the whip-jobs. The rest, we run it
like a regular joint. Customers come in, say what they want, pick a girl, pay
the money. Guy comes in, asks for some freak-fun, we turn him over to this
other girl. I'll be there - it won't get out of hand. But when this other guy
comes, this guy we're looking for, he gets Belle." Michelle's eyes
flicked to Belle, back to me. She took a long black cigarette from her purse,
tapped it on a fingernail. "Belle takes him
to the back. We'll have a place fixed up." "What
then?" "Then he tells
me where to find the other guy. And I go find him." "Tere's no other
way?" "No. He walks
back with Belle, I'm ready for him. We'll have it all worked out. You see this guy
go back with Belle, you're gone. Just walk out. The other girls too." "Who else is in
on it?" "The Mole. He
found the van. I can talk him into it, he'll work the front desk." Michelle's lovely
face was serious, not playing now. "I always wanted to be a madam. Of
course, I envisioned nicer surroundings, but . . . this'll do. I'm in
charge?" "You're in
charge. The girls get to keep what they make, but pull the money at the front
desk to make it look correct." "You have
pictures?" "Pictures?" "Of the girls.
We need a book of pictures, show the johns when they come in. Let them pick the
ones they want." "I don't
know." "I'll take the
pictures once they get in there. The Mole has the stuff. When does it
happen?" "Friday night we
start. McGowan will put the word out. Sadie's Sexsational is the spot, you want
to beat up a girl. It'll get around. We got two weeks tops. I'll be staying
there. Once I go in, I can't go out. Can't take a chance of getting spotted.
You bring food in with you every day. I'll be there until it's over." "What if the
freak doesn't bite?" I shrugged. "I'm
not thinking that way." "Okay." "We're playing
for everything on the table, Michelle." "I know. What if
we need some operating cash?" "Take it out of
my share of the last score." She dragged on her
cigarette. "You worked with the Mole . . . You see my boy?" "He's fine"
I assured her. "A real
doll," Belle chipped in. Michelle smiled. Gave
me a kiss. Kissed Belle. "I'll get a cab," she said. "Take everything
you're going to need," I told Belle. We were back in her cottage, two in
the morning. She bustled around, filling two big suitcases. "What about my
car?" "You follow me
back to the city with it when we go in for the last time. Day after tomorrow.
I'll stash the Pontiac on the street. We'll keep your car in the garage." She was on her hands
and knees, poking around in a corner near her bed. She came up with two
handfuls of cash. "I've got about fifteen thousand here," she said. "I'll show you
where to hide it." "You want . .
." ''No." I walked out onto the
deck, lighting a smoke. I felt Belle behind me. "How's this?" I turned around. She
was wearing a flimsy red wrapper, tied at the waist with a thin ribbon. Her
breasts were barely veiled, slash of white skin down the middle. "You'll freeze
out here." She moved into my
arms. She was warm, soft. Her hips trembled against me. My hand slid to her
butt. "Doesn't this
thing come with pants?" "I'd just have
to take them off," she said. "Come on." In the car heading
back, Belle fiddled with the radio. Full-throated, late-night blues. "I'm
a stranger, and afraid" - the singer well within himself, coming to grips,
looking it in the eye. "He's telling
the truth," Belle whispered. "I've been both all my life." I found her hand in
the darkness. The disc jockey broke
in. "That was Johnny Adams, out of New Orleans. Singing a new Doc Pomus
tune, 'A World I Never Made.' You all remember Doc Pomus, the man who gave us
'Save the Last Dance for Me,' 'Little Sister,' and so many other monster hits.
Doc's one of the world's great bluesmen. Now here's the flip side. Down and
dirty. Like they don't do anymore." Rattling soft piano, sinuous spiking
guitar notes dancing on the top, teasing. Johnny Adams, making his promises,
bragging his brag. "I'm your body and fender man, let me pound out your
dents." In case anyone listening had maple syrup for brains, he spelled it
out: I don't care if your body's brand new Or it's been knocked around . . . I swear they're all the same, babe, When you turn them upside down. "He's off the
mark there," Belle said. "No, he's right.
There's no such thing as a golden snapper - the difference is in here," I
said, tapping my chest. "Here," she
said, pulling my hand to her breast. I lit a smoke. Doc
Pomus on the radio again. Like that night I left my basement. Full circle. The Pontiac slipped
into the garage. I showed Belle the circuit-breaker panel in the back corner.
"You know what this is?" "Sure. Like a
fuse box." "Watch." I
punched the switch marked Hall. Then Lobby. Then Second Floor. The box popped
open, flat plate inside. I used a thumbnail to open the setscrews. Behind it
was a deep, lead-lined box. A revolver rested on a neat stack of bills.
"Put your money in there." "That's neat. It
has wires running from it and everything." "The wires run
to the house current. Electromagnetic switches. Like a combination lock. You
remember?" "Hall, lobby, second
floor." I patted her butt.
"Good girl." "If I tell you
again, will you pat me some more?" "Upstairs." "You ready to go
over it again?" "Honey, I got it
down pat." "One more time -
it's got to be pertect." "Okay," she
sighed. I took the handcuffs
from the drawer, hooked one cuff to her right wrist, the other to the back of a
chair. She took the long-handled speed key from the desk, holding it in her
left hand. "Go!" She twisted her wrist,
exposing the key slot, slammed the speed key home, twisted it, pulled free. "Beautiful." She stood up. "I
am. A beautiful young girl. Like you taught me." Late that night. Belle
on her knees in front of me, her head bent between my legs. Licking me like a
cat cleans her kittens. Thick thatch of hair falling. I felt the beads of the
necklace lapping against my thigh. Her head came up.
Whispering in the dark. "You think it's too much?" "What?" "This. The way I
am. I'm just like this with you. I swear it." "What're you
talking about?" "I want your
hands on me - want you inside me. All the time. Everyplace inside me. When you
just pat me on the bottom, I get wet." "It's your way of
dealing with it. Everybody's lying but you and me, Belle. To each other. This
all started out with a lie. Some punk lawyer, chumping me off, he thought. And
Marques, with his fifty-grand bounty. He probably collected a hundred. Maybe
made a side bet about taking the van off the street. I lied to Max to get him
out of the way. Mama helped me. McGowan trying to tell me the federales
had the massage parlor. Me telling him I'm going to give him the van, and Sally
Lou too. There's no letter for him - there never will be. The Mole, he could
never tell Michelle he's made a Nazi-hunter out of the boy. Morelli, he thinks
there's a story in this for him. Mortay. He's the only one who told the
truth." His name hung over us
in the dark. I could see it. Neon-red, dripping. "I looked in his
eyes. He wasn't lying. He's earned his name. Scared me past death. Till I came
out the other side. My old friend's there. On the other side. Hate. It didn't
save my basement, but it saved my life. Plenty of times. You got your way, I
got mine." "Will it stop?
When it's over?" "It might for
you," I told her. "It won't for me." I called Mama at
seven the next morning. "Anything?" "Nobody
call." "Good." "Nobody come
either," she said. "Too bad." I left Belle a note,
telling her I'd be back soon with something to eat. Took my time about it.
Fresh rolls, big slab of cream cheese, two six-packs of beer, pineapple juice,
seltzer. I grabbed a copy of the Daily News. Bob Herbert's column came out on
Thursday - he'd been pounding the cops about the Ghost Van, the only one
writing about it. When I got back to
the office, Pansy let me in, a distracted look on her face. She sniffed the
food. "You been out?" I asked her. "She sure
has." Belle's voice from the back room. "Come on back here, you nasty
old thing, let's finish this." Pansy loped off.
Belle was on her hands and knees, wearing just a bra and pants. Pansy ran over
to her, lowering her head like a charging bull. They butted each other back and
forth, going nose to nose. Belle was bigger and heavier, but Pansy wouldn't
budge an inch, snarling happily. "Are you nuts?
What if she snaps at you?" "She won't do
that - this is a fair fight." They pushed at each
other, faces pressed together, Belle making grunting sounds of her own. Finally
she dropped to the floor, face-down. Pansy sniffed the back of her neck.
"You win," Belle muttered. I put the food
together. "What was that all about?" "I told her I
didn't mind her threatening me before, but if she messed with me again, I was
gonna kick her ass." "You're out of
your mind." "It was fun. You
want to try?" "Not this year.
With either of you." Belle went into the
shower. I mixed the pineapple juice and seltzer, added some ice. Then I stuffed
a roll full of cream cheese and gave it to Pansy. Belle came out, wrapped in a
towel. Helped herself to the food. "Beer for
breakfast?" "Save it for
later. And don't give Pansy any. Belle dropped to her
knees, hands in front of her like a dog's paws. "Just one?" Pansy stood next to
her, watching me closely. "Yeah, all
right. I give up." Belle's laugh was
sweetness on the morning. Pansy prowled the
floor, sniffing the corners, snarling at nothing in particular. Our last night
in the cottage. Belle was stuffing another pair of suitcases. "Why'd you bring
that old dog anyway?" "I wanted to get
her used to sleeping outside the office - she's going to be at the massage
parlor with us." "In case
somebody wants something special?" I didn't answer her.
I dialed the Runaway Squad. They told me McGowan was in the street - they'd
take a message. I hung up. Mama had nothing to tell me. I had nothing to tell
the Mole. "Don't make it
look like you moved out," I warned Belle. 'I'm just taking a
few things. The rent's paid till the end of the month, and I got two months
security down. I'll throw another money order in the mail to the land-lord.
People mind their own business out here." I went out on the
deck, minding mine. Pansy trotted along next to me. She jumped up on her hind
legs, hooking her front paws to the railing. I scratched the back of her neck.
"You want to see the junkyard, girl? Meet a few new guys?" She made a
happy rumble in her throat. The sound rippled across the water. I smoked a
couple of cigarettes, calm inside. Once you jump off the bridge, everything's
smooth until you hit the water. It was past midnight
when we came back inside. Belle was wearing a gauzy blue nightgown, her face
fresh-scrubbed and clean. Ready for bed. She took a bottle of beer from the
refrigerator, poured herself a glass. Pansy made a pitiful moaning noise,
brushing her head against Belle's thigh. "Oh! Now
you wanna be pals, huh?" She found a cereal
bowl, another bottle of beer. Took them both into a far corner. Bent from the
waist and filled it up. Pansy got about half of it, the floor got the rest. I lit a cigarette.
"You taught me something." "What,
honey?" "The
poison-proofing I did with her . . . so she won't take food unless she hears
the right word?" "Yes?" "I'm a jerk. I
never thought about liquids. She'll drink any goddamned thing." "Can't you . .
." "Yeah. You take
the time, the patience, you can train a dog like Pansy to do just about
anything. I didn't do it. And l just figured out why." Belle was next to me,
my arm around her waist, listening like I was saying something important. "There's no way
to throw liquid under a door. She wouldn't take it anyway - not unless it was
in a bowl, or in a pool. I never figured on anyone being inside, you understand?" "I'm
inside," she said softly. "Yeah, you are.
Let's go to sleep." She gently twirled
away from me. Turned off the lights. "Not yet, honey. Sit in the chair.
This is our last night here. Until it's over. I want to say my prayers." She knelt before the
bed, hands clasped in front of her. Her skin glowed under the nightgown. Blue
light. Belle looked over her
shoulder. She played with the sash at her waist. The nightgown floated to the
floor. "Rescue
me," she whispered. It was still dark
when l watched Belle slip the Camaro into my garage. I stashed the Pontiac a
few blocks away, in a safe spot near the river. I didn't like the walk
back to the garage. Pinprick tingles all across my back. But it was quiet - my
fear was just picking up long-distance signals. The garage was dark
when I stepped inside. I headed for the stairs, sending Pansy ahead, Belle
right behind me. She pulled at my arm. "Wait." She stood before the
circuit-breaker box. Punched the three buttons in the right sequence, puffing
out her chest like a proud little girl when the box popped open. If little
girls looked like that when they got a question right, I might have stayed in
school. She slipped off the necklace, holding the blue glow in her hands. I
watched her, one foot on the first rung of the stairs. "I can't do
it," she said. Slamming the box closed. "It don't seem right to wear
it inside a whorehouse, but . . ." She patted the front of her thigh.
Where her mother's gravestone was etched in her flesh. Upstairs I dialed
McGowan again. This time he was around. "It's me.
Everything okay?" "It's empty
right now. There's an alley running behind it. Room for three cars, four if
they're packed tight. Chain-link fence, barbed wire on the top. They used to
keep a German shepherd out there." "Okay. I'm
rolling." "Wait. There's
one more thing. The joint next to it. The video store. That's ours too. You can
walk in, go down to the basement, and walk through. We punched a tunnel
through. You can go in and out." "Thanks,
McGowan." "I should've
been straight with you." His honey-Irish voice was soft around the edges.
"Square it up, now." "For all of
them," I promised, hanging up. I called the Mole,
gave him the word. Whoever was listening at the other end hung up when I was
finished. Belle was unpacking
her clothes, laying them across the couch, bumping Pansy out of the way with
her hip. I called Mama. "I'm going in.
You know where everything is. Max knows the rest. I'm putting it all down. In a
letter. To the Jersey box." Mama said something
in Cantonese. "What was
that?" "If the letter
come, I fix everything." "I know.
Goodbye, Mama." She hung up. A
sadness-shudder passed through me, leaving me chilled. I lit a cigarette and
started to write. Friday night. Eight o'clock.
I followed Pansy down the back stairs, a heavy suitcase in each hand. Belle
behind me, carrying two more. I left her in the garage with all the stuff,
snapped the lead on Pansy, and went for a walk. Electric fear-jolts
danced through me. Pansy felt it. Her massive head swung back and forth,
pinning everyone she saw. Her teeth snapped together in little clicks, kill
noises slipping through. Her eyes were ice cubes. A yuppie couple
approached, her hand through his arm. They crossed the street. A wino was
propped against the car right next to the Pontiac. I tightened the leash. Pansy
lunged, snarling. He sobered up, moved off. I opened the door, put Pansy in the
back seat. Belle was ready when
I pulled up in front of the garage. I popped the trunk; we threw the suitcases
inside and moved off. West Side Highway to
Tenth Avenue. Across 30th down to Twelfth. And
then a right turn back into what the tour guides would call the heart of Times
Square. The fear-jolts were
spiking inside me. Pansy prowled the back seat, side to side; her face loomed
at the windows. "Jump!" I
snapped at her. Nobody'd remember the Pontiac, but nobody'd forget Pansy. She
went down, snarling her hate for whatever was frightening me. I found the alley,
nosed the car in, creeping forward, driving with my left hand, the pistol
cocked in my right. The fenced-off section was where McGowan said it would be -
huge padlock in place. I stopped the car, popped the door for Pansy, calling to
her. "Watch!" I walked to the
fence, the gun in front, poking its way through the darkness. A flashlight beam
behind the fence. I hit the ground, leveling the pistol as Pansy charged past
me, throwing herself at the chain links. "Don't shoot - it's me." The
Mole's voice. I called Pansy off, met him at the fence. He reached through,
opened the padlock, swung the gate open. I pulled the Pontiac inside, between a
white panel truck with the name of some kosher butcher shop on the side and a
dark station wagon. "All ours?" I asked the Mole. "Sure," he
said. We followed him
inside. Big room, dim lights, cartons stacked against the walls, steel shelving
loaded with video cassettes. "Basement,"
the Mole said. "You know about
the video store next door? Like I told you over the phone?" The Mole barely kept
the sneer from his voice. "I was in last night." He held up a ring of
keys. We could go visit the cops, but they couldn't come see us. Upstairs, we walked
through the place. The front door was between two windows, one a little square
patch of glass, the other running down the length of the place. All the glass
was blacked out except for the little square near the door. Lights flashed
outside. "One-way
glass," the Mole explained. The joint was a long
hall, L-shaped at the far end. Rooms opened off the corridor. Tiny hook-and-eye
locks inside. Vinyl massage tables set up for quick-change sheets. Wood benches
in some, leather chairs in others. They all had tables in a corner, bottles of
lotions, perfumes, air fresheners. Tiny sinks against the wall. Heavy mats on
the walls. All class. The L-shaped area was much larger. Bathrooms off to the
side. Big ones, complete with glassed-in stall showers. Partitions made a
private office in one corner. Red leather executive's chair, blond wood desk,
red leather couch, white two-line phone. Even had a view - dirt-streaked
window, thick bars running the full width across. I walked back through
the place, the Mole behind me. Wall-to-wall industrial-grade carpeting that had
once been pink covered every square inch of floor. Recessed lighting ran the
length of the hall. A desk was set up against the wall right across from the
door. A wood railing made two gates - one to the desk, one to the corridor.
Huge blowup pictures covered the walls of the entryway. Only two chairs, both
against the left-hand wall. No Waiting. A giant round mirror was in the upper
right-hand corner, cocked at the angle formed by the wall and the ceiling. I
sat at the desk, looked up. You could see the length of the corridor. "We need a . .
." "Periscope,"
the Mole stepped on my lines. "You stay in the back room, see every face
that comes in." "Okay. What's
that?" I asked, pointing to a light on the desk. "Switch in every
room. Girl has trouble, she pushes it." The phone on the desk
rang. I picked it up. "Yeah?" "It's me."
McGowan's voice. "I'm next door. I see you managed to get in." "We're in."
I looked around. "One more thing. I can't work the bouncer job in here.
Got to stay out of sight. I'm going to have some boys sent over." "What kind of
boys?" "Chinese
boys." "No way! That's
all I need. Can you rig up a buzzer? Between us? Your man hits it, we'll have
someone through the basement in a minute." I looked at the Mole.
He nodded. Rigging a buzzer wasn't going to overload his brain cells. "Okay, we'll
take care of it right away." "Hey,
Burke?" "What?" "Tell your man
to leave the door open, okay?" I hung up on him. Michelle showed a
little later. You could see her through the square piece of glass. The Mole
buzzed her inside. She was wearing a scarlet pants suit over a white turtleneck
sweater, black spikes on her feet. The Mole and I stayed out of her way as she
stalked the length of the corridor. Me smoking, watching the door, the Mole
starting to set up the periscope. Michelle came back to
the front room, hands on hips. "This place is the pits. Mole, I need
everything out of the first room. That'll be my office. And put that disgusting
tool belt someplace - you're supposed to be the manager, not the janitor." "I have to fix
things," the Mole said, mildly. "Well, go ahead
and fix things. I'll go out tomorrow, get you some decent clothes." "Michelle . .
." "Don't you Michelle
me. I work my beautiful butt off to keep my kid in nice clothes, and every time
I see him he looks more like you, God forbid." "He's my boy
too." "Sure. Next
thing, you'll want him Bar Mitzvahed." The Mole said nothing
- even a lunatic knows the limit. I left them to fight over who was going to go
back to the junkyard every morning to check on the kid. Belle and Pansy were
in the back. Pansy was stretched out on the couch, Belle in the chair.
"You okay?" I asked her. "I'm fine,
baby." I gave her a kiss. Heard
the buzzer. Female noises, Michelle's voice cutting through the chatter. I
heard someone coming back, stepped outside into the big room. It was Michelle. "I have to have
a meeting with my girls. And take some pictures. It's gonna be a while -you
both just stay back here, keep it quiet." I nodded, putting my
finger to my lips. Pansy closed her eyes. A couple of minutes
later, I heard Michelle bossing the Mole, telling him where she wanted the
light stands, not to get his greasy hands on the lens. One day she was going to
push him over the edge. The room filled with
girls. Pansy's face wrinkled at the overpowering smells. Michelle's voice: "Okay, now, I
understand you ladies have not worked inside before. Which one of you is
Christina?" "Marques says
Miss Bitch don't have to do this. Just us." Murmur of voices. "Well, girls, it
seems to me that opportunity is knocking. Here's the way we work it: the trick
pays thirty bucks - he gets fifteen minutes. Straight massage, that's a
handshake. He wants something more, anything more, that's an extra, got
it? The trick pays at the front desk; whatever he tips, that's up to you." "How much for
the extras?" one girl asked. "You decide. Set
your own list. And don't do anything you don't want to do, got it? You turn over
your tips to Marques, you don't turn them over, it's not my problem." "But Marques . .
." "Marques isn't
running this show. I am. And I run it my way. Now, which one of you turns the
hard tricks?" "That's
me." A husky grown-woman's voice. "What's your name,
honey?" "Bambi." "Okay, Bambi.
You set your prices, you keep the coin. And listen to me, girl. This is a
no-risk gig, you follow me? There's a button in each of your rooms - I'll show
you where it is. You hit the button, and we have some nasty men to take care of
any problem." "The guy with
the tool belt?" one of them giggled. Michelle's voice went
from sweet cream to barbed wire without missing a beat. "That man with the
tool belt, honey, he makes people disappear. You watch your smart mouth,
bitch. Your idea of a hard guy's some half-ass nigger pimp with a coat hanger
in his hands." "Hey!" "You want to get
down, go for it. Right now." The room went quiet. Michelle let the
silence hang. Then she sheathed her claws. "Honey, I've been around longer
than this sweet young face shows. Now, I want to treat all of you like the
ladies you are. Nobody's going to mistreat you while you work for me. Nobody's
going to disrespect you. You work your shift, you mind your business, and you
make some nice money. We're just moving the stroll indoors for a couple of
weeks, that's all. But anyone gets the idea they can fuck with my friends, they
go back to work without a face." The room was quiet
again. "Okay?" The girls stepped on
themselves agreeing with her. "Fine. Now, the
next thing, we have to put together some portfolios for each of you." "Like
models?" "Of course,
like models. Isn't that what we are? Are we any different from those walking
sticks in the magazines? A john comes in, he comes to the desk. We show him the
book. Pictures of each of you. He picks the one he wants." "We don't have
to line up?" "This isn't the
precinct, honey. A trick wants to see live skin, he puts his money down. Now,
there's five girls, we got nine rooms. The first one, the one near the desk,
that's mine. Leave the last two empty, the ones right across from here. You
divide the rest the way you want - Bambi, you take the one furthest back. And
no fighting! Tomorrow I'll go out and get some decent furnishings. Okay? Now,
we are not open for business tonight. You come back, one at a time, we'll put
the portfolios together. When we're done, you can hang around or you can split.
Be back tomorrow. Four o'clock. We'll work twelve-hour shifts; you leave at
four in the morning. Any questions?" Nobody said a word. "One more thing.
This place is under heavy protection. You'll never see a cop in here. You play
this right, it's a working girl's dream." "What's your
name, honey?" Michelle asked. "Mary Anne." "Let's lose the
black stockings, honey. Your legs are already so nice and slim - the black
won't show them off." "Okay." "And just a
touch more rouge . . . there! Brings out your color. Now, sit straight in the
chair. Cross your legs. Elegant!" "Michelle?" "Yes,
honey?" "The guy with
the tool belt? The one out front? Boy, you were right about him. He had this
jar of water on the desk, fiddling with some locks. Marcy flashed her ass at
him, sat on the desk. Asked him if he ever sampled the merchandise. He drops a
key in the glass of water, and it disappeared! " "I told you not
to play with him." "I won't. Does
he ever . . ." "He's not for
hire," Michelle snapped. "Now, flash me a smile." Bambi was the last one
in. "Any special way
you want this?" Michelle asked her. "I've got my own
handcuffs. I can twist right out of them if I have to. Can I loop them around
the back of this chair?" "Sure, honey. Go
ahead. Bend forward. More. Give your butt a little shake. Beautiful." Sound of handcuffs
clicking. "You don't put me down for it?" "Why should
I?" "Some of the
other girls . . ." "You got a
pimp?" "No." "So who's the
masochist?" Bambi laughed. The girls were gone
by one in the morning. "You're next," she told Belle. I snapped the lead on
Pansy, taking her to the basement. The Mole followed me down, shining his
flash. "All fixed," he said. "Okay, Mole. We
roll tomorrow for real. Any way I can get Pansy down here without going past
the other rooms?" "Only to the
basement, not outside." "We'll do it
that way. Over in that corner," I said, pointing. "Watch where you
step from now on." We went back
upstairs. "Try the buzzer," I told him. He hit the switch. I counted
in my head. Thirty-five seconds, Morales burst through the door, gun in his
hand. "Which way?" he snapped. "Just testing
it," I said. "Next time make
it real. I'm looking forward to it." In the back room. Michelle
was still working on Belle's face. Cat's-eye makeup, pancaked cheeks, slash of
red across her mouth. It didn't look like her. "This is mousse - it'll
wash right out," said Michelle, spraying it over Belle's hair, working it
through with her fingers. "Let's see. You'll turn over your right
shoulder" - pancaking that side of her face. "Try it." Belle peeked over her
right shoulder. Her hair was dark, face a stranger's mask. "Okay, let's do
it." Belle unhooked her
bra, knelt before the chair, hands on either side. Michelle wrapped a black
scarf around each hand. "Slide further back to me," she said.
"Let them swing free. Turn your head . . . Not so much." She went over to
Belle, pulling the big girl's panties over her rump. Belle lifted a leg to help
her get them off. "Leave them that
way - like they've just been pulled down - it'll work better." Michelle went back to
the camera. "Okay, turn your head again. Just a little bit. Can you look a
little scared? Oh, forget it - I'll open the lens, blur your face. Nobody'd
look past that ass anyway." Belle giggled. Twin
dimples at the top of her butt, strip of black cloth around her thighs. The
shutter clicked. Again. She shook her butt at the camera. "Got it,"
Michelle said, then snapped off the lights, carried the camera out to the
front. The cigarette burned
my mouth. I ground the tip out in the ashtray. Belle was still on her knees,
watching me. "Make you think
of something good?" she asked, wiggling again. Then she saw my face.
"What's wrong, boney?" I walked over to her,
took the loops off her hands. She put her arms around my neck. I stood up,
hauling her to her feet. Reached behind me, pulled the panties back into place. "Go wash that
crap off your face." "You're mad at
me?" I held her against
me. "I'm not mad at you." "I'm sorry,
sweetheart. Truly sorry. I thought it would be a turn-on for you." "It made me sick
to look at it." Her teats against my
face. "I'm sorry . . . I'm sorry . . ." I squeezed her rear
with both hands. "Shut up," I said, quietly. The joint was open
and rolling the next afternoon. Michelle was there by eleven in the morning,
her arms full of bags. She and Belle worked like maniacs cleaning. The dump
even smelled clean when they were done. I stayed in the back
room. The Mole would buzz me if any Hispanic male came in, anyone that could
come within a half-mile of Ramуn. I checked the periscope a few times on the
little TV screen the Mole put on the desk. It worked perfectly. I spent my time checking
my tools. Supermarket shopping cart full of empty plastic one-liter bottles.
The kind street bums collect from garbage cans - turn them in for a nickel
apiece. I ran a few copies of the Daily News through a paper shredder.
Packed a half-dozen of the bottles with the paper. I filed the front sight off
the long-barreled .38. A couple of tiny slits with a razor blade and the barrel
fit deep into the mouth of a bottle of Coke. I felt an ugly smile inside me -
the real thing. I wrapped duct tape around the mouth of the bottle, sealing the
pistol barrel inside. Pointed it at the wall, holding the bottle in my left
hand. Pulled the trigger. It made a sound like snapping fingers. Plaster flew
off the wall. I lined up twelve
bullets. Mole specials - super-speed hot loads, mercury tips. Any one of them
would total whatever it hit. Six bullets went into the long-barreled .38,
another six into the two-inch revolver next to it. The guns were
ice-cold, brand-new. No serial numbers. A pair of the fragmentation grenades
sat on the desk, the blue handles winking at me. The Mole stashed a
new car for me every morning. All along the river, one block apart. We had four
cars now. I fingered the ignition key - it would work in all of them. A tattered khaki
raincoat hung on a hook. It would reach well past my knees. A long blond wig
was on top of the hook. Straight hair. A blue golf hat, wine-stained. An old
pair of white running shoes. Baggy black pants. Black sweatshirt with a hood.
Black gloves. A slap-on mustache. I clipped two nails
on my left hand at a sharp angle. A drop of Permabond under each one. I held
the razor-filed steel slivers in place against each nail, waiting for the
super-glue to dry. It only took a few minutes. I brushed my left hand against a
piece of paper. It fell into three pieces. I slid back the lid
on a flat metal box, looked at the colorless paste inside. I'd pass the razors
through the paste before I hit the street. Mortay had to get his hands on me to
kill me - one scratch, and I wouldn't go alone. Belle watched me
work, cat's-eye makeup on her face. Business boomed. Men
got buzzed in, looked through the book. Came and went. We cleaned up
Sunday's business at five in the morning. The Mole was wearing a black silk
shirt, red suspenders, cream-colored suit. Dark glasses on his face. Michelle
counted a wad of cash and credit-card slips. "You look like death,"
she told me. "Good," I
said. Monday, Bambi turned
her first hard trick. The Mole buzzed me - the video screen showed a
middle-aged white male, blobby face, light-colored sport coat. Not Ramуn. I
heard the slash of the belt, cutting through the sound-proofed walls. Later that night, one
of the tricks got off the wall. I don't know what he did. I heard Morales'
voice in the corridor. "How do you like it, motherfucker?" Metal
slamming into a face. I heard whining, Morales' voice cutting harsh through it.
"Whatever you want here, we got it, see? But we got different girls for
different stuff. You want hard stuff, you ask for Bambi, understand? Bambi." It got quiet after
that. He came Wedneday
evening. Seven o'clock. The buzzer sounded. Ramуn's face on the screen. I hit
the switch. The light would glow on the Mole's desk. "It's
time," I said to Belle. She was covered with
body makeup head to toe. Fishnet stockings, black spike heels, black panties.
She slipped into the red gown, belted it at her waist. A stranger - her face a
hard mask. I watched the screen.
Ramуn. Wearing a black leather bomber jacket, looking through the book. There
was no sound on the screen. "Monique!"
the Mole called. Belle walked past me
into the corridor. I held the sawed-off
shotgun in my left hand, the paint pistol with the phony silencer in my right.
Waiting. I heard them come
back. Belle's voice. "I get an extra hundred for hard stuff, honey." Ramуn's voice -
couldn't make out the words. The door to the last
room closed. I sucked air in
through my nose, filling my stomach. Let it out, expanding my chest. Stepped
into the corridor. I couldn't hear
through the door. The hook-and-eye lock was held in with paste. Every square
inch of the room was burning in my mind. I slipped the pistol into a side pocket,
cut deep enough to hold the silencer. Counted to five. I hit the door with my
shoulder, stepping inside, sweeping the scattergun corner to corner. Belle was
on the couch to my right, the red nightgown hiked over her hips Ramуn froze, a
thick leather belt dangling from his hand. The snout of the
scattergun froze his balls down to dots. His hands shot into the air, belt
still dangling. I stepped to him, the gun leveled at his gut. Five feet away. "Drop it.
Slow." "Hey, man . .
." "One more word,
I'll blow you all over the walls." The belt dropped from
his hand. His leather jacket
was hanging from a hook in the corner. I could see the shoulder rig inside. "Got any more
guns on you, Ramуn?" He shook his head no. "Take off your
clothes. Real, real slow. I want to see for myself." Belle's voice from
the side of the room. "Mister . . ." "Shut up,
bitch!" I snapped at her. Ramуn dropped his
pants. Black bikini briefs. Very macho. "Those too," I said.
"Watch your hands." He pulled off his
cowboy boots, one at a time, standing on one leg, never taking his eyes from
me. "Sit on the
couch," I said quietly. "Next to the cunt." He sat down. I
pulled the handcuffs off my belt, flipped them into Belle's lap. "Put them
on. One cuff on your wrist, one on his. Now!" Belle snapped the
cuff on Ramуn first, her hands shaking. Her left hand slid to the back of the
couch cushion. I took out the paint
pistol. Slowly, letting Ramуn get a good look. He didn't want one. "You know what
this is, shooter?" "I know what it
is." His voice shaking like Belle's hands. "You got two
choices. You live. Or you die. Pick one." "I want to live,
man." Thin, weak, soft voice. If he recognized me, he was keeping it to
himself. Holding that card. "Your pal
Mortay, he stepped in some shit, understand? Sally Lou's decided to take him
off the count." "But . . ." "That's the way
it plays. I got my money, I got to come back with a head. His head. One more
don't mean a thing to me. I'm gonna waste him. Tonight. You tell me what I want
to know, you take that fucking diamond out of your ear, and you make tracks.
Got it?" "Man, I don't
know where he lives!" "You're going to
meet him. Tonight. Where?" "He'll kill me." "Ramуn, he's a
dead man. I don't find him tonight, I find him some other time. But you don't
tell me what I want to know, he won't get a chance to kill you." "Man, I don't
know where he is. I'm serious!" "So am I,"
I said, leveling the pistol at Belle's chest. I pulled the trigger. Splat!
Belle slammed back against the couch, a red stain running between her breasts.
I aimed the gun at Ramуn - he never looked at Belle. The sound I made cocking
it was the loudest thing he ever heard. "Where?" "Under the New
York Times clock! Between Seventh and Eighth! On Forty-third! Don't!" "What
time?" "Ten-thirty!"
Piss flowed down his legs. "Who gets there
first?" "He does, man.
He always does . . ." Belle's left hand
flashed, plunging the hypo deep into his thigh, her thumb driving the plunger
home as I fired a paint ball into his face. "I . . ."
and he was out. Belle rammed the speed key home, unsnapping her cuff. I pulled
his free arm behind his back, locked the other cuff. Belle jumped off the
couch, rubbing her breasts. I kicked Ramуn onto the floor. "Go get the
Mole," I told her. Michelle and the Mole
stood on either side of me. Ramуn was in the corner, breathing deeply, out. "The joint is
closed," I told Michelle. "How many of the girls have
customers?" "Just Mary
Anne." "When he's finished,
let him out. Tell the glrls the show's over - the cops are going to hit in an
hour. Get them out the door. You have any trouble, you hit the buzzer, they'll
come from next door. Then take off yourself." She kissed me.
"Call as soon as it's over." "I will.'' She went out the
door. I knelt down, pulled Ramуn over my shoulder by one of his arms,
positioned his weight. "The basement," I said to the Mole. Fuck
McGowan and his deals - I wasn't going to leave a body around for the cops to
hang me with. He led the way. Pansy
met us at the bottom of the steps. "Speak!" I told her, tossed a slab
of steak through the air. She caught it on the fly. "Is the panel
truck ours?" "Yes." "I'm going to
throw this garbage in the back. That shot'll keep him out for hours. You get
stopped, it's not a murder beef. He won't testify." "Where should I
dump him?" "He's the
shooter, Mole. One of the Nazis." He nodded. "Take Pansy
too." "She won't . .
." "Yes, she will.
That last piece of meat I gave her was laced. She should be asleep by now. Keep
her with you - lock her up in one of the sheds. Leave water for her. I'll be
back in the junkyard sometime late tonight. Belle will get there before me.
Your piece is done." "The
basement?" "Eleven o'clock.
You can do it?" "Yes. Me and the
boy." "He's a good
boy, Mole. You should be proud." "You too." "Yeah. Look,
Mole. If I don't come back, do something for me. Tell Belle I love her." He nodded. "And Pansy, let
her loose. Let her run with your pack. Let her and Simba-witz make puppies." I dumped Ramуn's body
in the back of the panel truck. The Mole snapped a heavy padlock across the
back. I went back for
Pansy. I scooped her up in my arms, carried her to the truck. "Open the
front door," I told the Mole. "I don't want her to ride with garbage." I laid her gently
across the front seat. Kissed her snout. "See you soon, girl." The Mole wrapped his
stubby arms around me, squeezed hard. "Sei Gesund," he said.
Go with God. Michelle was pushing the
girls out the door when I slipped back upstairs. It sounded like sorority girls
saying goodbye for the summer. Belle was in the back
room, toweling herself off, the cat's-eye mask still on her face. "You were
perfect," I said, holding her close. "I was
scared." "I still am.
It's almost over. Get out of here. Take the Pontiac. Don't leave the office
until past midnight. I'll see you at the junkyard." "Where's
Pansy?" "She's with the
Mole. It's okay. Go." "What'd you do
with the freak?" "He's
gone." "But you're
working with the cops, right? They're right next door. He's not dead - why
don't you just leave him for them?" I cupped her chin,
making her watch my face. "I'm not working with the cops, Belle. A cop
sees me doing my work on the street tonight, I'm going down. McGowan, he can't
call off the whole fucking force. He wouldn't do it if he could. I'm not
leaving that freak around to tell his story." I felt a pulse in her
throat, just under her chin. Steady beat. "We're outlaws,
little girl. We can step over the line to the other side, but we're not welcome
there. We can't stay. The next cop I see, he'll be trying to stop me from
coming home." She nodded, knowing
it was the truth. "Burke, it's not even eight o'clock. You have until
ten-thirty. Let me wait here with you." "No." "I knew you'd
say that." "It's all right,
Belle. Smooth as silk. I'll meet this Mortay at ten-thirty, I'll be in one of
the cars by eleven. That's when the Ghost Van goes. I'll be with you soon . .
." "And you'll
never leave." "And I'll never
leave." I lit a smoke,
watching her dress. "Burke?" "You're going,
Belle." "I know. I will,
promise. Remember when you came back to me? After you met that man?" "Yeah." "I want you inside
me. To keep with me until I see you again. I want my smell on you when you kill
him." I carried two of the
suitcases out to the back. Tossed in the scattergun. Closed the trunk. I held
her next to me. "Belle . .
." "Don't you say
it! Whatever you're going to say, don't say it. Tell me tonight." I kissed her. There
was blood in my heart. When she drove away, I was alone. In the back room, I
put it all together. Cut two fingertips off the black gloves. Buried the
plastic bottle in the cart, pistol handle sticking up, wrapped in black tape. I
put on the black pants, the black sweatshirt. Worked the blond wig over my
hair, stuck on the mustache. The blue golf cap was a tight fit. The black pants
had cargo pockets - I put a grenade in each one. The two-inch pistol in my
belt. Pain plucked at me.
Fear. I climbed down into my center. Stayed there, feeling the calm. Mortay wanted what
was mine. If you can't stand to
read the weight, you don't climb on the scales. Ten o'clock. I pulled
on the gloves, ran the two razor-tipped nails through the poison paste. It was a struggle
getting the shopping cart down the stairs. Then I was in the
street. All my people safe behind me. Whatever happened. I reached down, deep
as I could go. Telling myself it would be over soon. I'd be Home Free. But I knew. Knew why
I was pushing a shopping cart filled with homicide through Times Square. No
home is free. I pushed my shopping
cart along, smoking a cigarette, mumbling to myself. The clock in the package
store on 43rd said ten-twenty. I
slowed my pace. Three kids came up the
street toward me, wearing matching red silk jackets. I watched their eyes,
praying they wouldn't think it was funny to tip over my cart. They went on by. I turned the corner.
Moving slow, checking doorways for bottles, picking one up, tossing it into my
cart. The Times clock was a
round light in the distance. I pushed the cart ahead of me, one hand on the
pistol. He was standing under
the clock. A long white vertical ribbon in the dark doorway. The clock said
ten-twenty-eight. I kept rolling. A hundred feet away.
Mortay saw me. A used-up bum, collecting empties. Fifty feet. I saw his
hands hanging loose in front of him. Head turning, scanning the street. Almost
home. I looked him full in
the face. Pushed my cart into his life. Felt the chill. His eyes flicked past
me, over my shoulder. I pulled the gun loose, snapped off a shot at his chest,
the bottle popping off the front of the pistol. A piece of his coat flew as he
spun to the side, moving right at me. I kicked the cart toward him, fired
again. The gun cracked alive. Missed. Mortay spun in his tracks,
shoulder-rolled against the wall. I leveled the gun. He took off, running the
other way. I jumped past the
cart and took off after him. Four shots left. Humans jumped off the sidewalk.
He wasn't used to running - all his speed was short-range. I was forty feet
behind him at the corner of 43rd and Eighth. Mortay
glanced west, gave it up, charged across 44th for the Playbill Bar. I was right behind him, the
long-barreled pistol looking for his back. He chopped through people, heading
for the side door. I fired another shot to clear the way, coming through. The
street was clogged. He couldn't lose me. A cop was on the
corner of Eighth and 46th. Mortay took him out
with one chop. I jumped over the body, holding the pistol high to clear the
street, locked on him. At 48th I was close enough. He felt it, dodging behind
cars, weaving through humans. He was running out of gas. When he turned . . . Construction site at
49th, high chain-link
fence. Mortay ripped his way over the top, white coat flying as I missed
another shot. Couldn't follow him.
I raced along Eighth until I found an opening, stepped through, gun up. I dropped about five
feet - they must have started the excavation. No lights. Street noises over my
head. Quiet. No sirens. I was safe there.
Scared to be safe. He couldn't come up on me without getting blown away. But if
he got out . . . It was like being
back in Biafra. Focus on the sounds, separate the jungle-noises from the
man-noises. Breathe shallow. Don't fight the fear. I heard him, moving
west, toward Ninth Avenue. Machine-gun thoughts ripping at me. Did he know how
to do this? Something moved -
flash of white in the night. I fired at the sound. The gun barked - the bullet
whined close to the ground, disappointed. I heard him move again. I got to my feet,
running right at the sounds he made, cracking off another shot. One left. Quiet now. I cocked
the pistol. Man-sounds to my right. "I'm still here,
pussy." Snake voice hissing out of the night. He wasn't in a hurry. I dropped to my
knees, crawling forward toward the voice. Another flash of white. I fired.
Another crack. Then a dry, audible click!
I pulled the trigger again. Notliing. I felt my guts lock.
"Fuck!" Letting him smell my fear, throwing the empty pistol as hard
as I could in the directlon of the noise. "My turn!"
he screamed, coming for me. I ran for my life,
pulling the little backup pistol from my belt. I dived for the ground, rolled
onto my back, pushed myself backward by driving my legs into the dirt. Making
panic sounds. Leaving a blood-spoor. Begging him to come
in my mind. He flew out of the
darkness in a twisting, spinning series of kick-thrusts, a ghost target if I had
a knife. I came to my knees, holding the pistol in both hands. He saw the gun,
threw himself flat, already tucking his shoulde'r under to kick upward when the
hollow-point slug caught him in the chest, pinning him to the ground. The noise from the
tiny gun was deafening; the dirt bowl we were in made it sound like a cannon.
The street noises all seemed to stop at once. I walked slowly toward Mortay. He
was choking on his own blood - the slug must have caught a lung. I stood over him,
legs shaking. His eyes were ice-pick dots under the shelf of bone, holding me
the way the slug held him. "You can't kill
me," he whispered. Stone-carved ice. "Death can't die." "You still want
Max?" I asked, cocking the gun. He launched himself
off the ground, the knife edge of his hand extended. I fired twice more,
blowing him off his feet. I heard a siren in
the distance. Mortay was on his side. I dropped to my knees next to him. Blood
bubbled from his mouth, killing his last words. I pumped two more shots into
his chest. His body jumped. I turned him over with my foot. His eyes were open.
I fired again, right into the ridge of bone that covered his eyebrows. His eyes
wouldn't close. The sirens were
closer. More than one now. I pocketed the gun, pulled the pin from one of the
grenades, holding it tightly in my hand. I slammed the metal ball hard into his
face, cracking past his teeth, holding it there. With my other hand, I folded
his hands so they were on either side of his face. I let go of the lever
and ran toward Ninth Avenue. Passed a white coat, swinging gently from a steel
girder. The target Mortay had left while he moved in on me. I was almost to the
fence on 50th when I heard the
explosion. I hit the fence, sirens screaming to my right. Dropped over the top,
feeling the breath burst out of my lungs. I popped the pin on the last grenade,
side-armed it back over the fence, crouching in the dark. The sirens shrieked
at each other - wolfpack sounds, telling each other the prey was dangerous. The
grenade exploded, buying me a little time. I ran up 50th, the pistol in my hand, driving my knees up to my
chest, trying for a burst of speed that wouldn't come. I crossed Ninth, heading
for the river, still blocks away from any of the cars we had stashed. Tires
shrieked behind me. Cops? I dropped to one knee, leveling the gun. Back over
the line - me or them. Belle's Camaro smoked to a stop. "Come on,
brother!" The Prof. I ran for the car,
diving headfirst into the window. Belle stomped the gas, charging for the
river. She shot through red lights, standing on the brakes to make the car
squat at Twelfth, nailed it again, power-sliding around the corner. She pulled
off at 45th, right behind the
black Cadillac the Mole had left for me. I jumped out, scooping up the Prof.
His legs were still bolted together in casts, the scattergun steady in his
hands. I unlocked the door, threw him in the back. Blue lights flashed
on 45th, couple of blocks
away and moving in. I started the engine.
Looked over my shoulder. Where was she? "Belle! Let's go!" I yelled
at her. The Camaro's engine
roared an answer as she peeled out. Right up 45th. The blue lights came
closer. A phalanx of squad cars screaming down the block, at least three deep,
spread out to block the way. I wheeled the Cadillac across the highway after
her. The Camaro's taillights blazed - she was flying at the cop cars. Head on.
I heard her little-girl voice, singing hard-edged in my head. Calling to the
cops. "Come on!" The Camaro was a red
rocket. "Hit the brakes!
She ain't gonna stop," the Prof yelled. The Camaro shot right down the
middle of the street, going the wrong way. The police car in the lead charged
to meet her. Time stopped. The
squad car swerved at the last second. Too late. It fireballed against a row of
cars on the left as the Camaro shot past. Gunfire cut through the siren's song,
a roadblock of wreckage in its wake. "They'll never
catch that girl," the Prof whispered. A prayer. I threw a U-turn and
headed for the junkyard. On the West Side
Highway I tried to light a cigarette. My hands wouldn't work. "I can light one
for you, bro', but I can't drive the car." I straightened the
wheel. Reached for the smoke he handed me. "What
happened?" "Girl walks in my
hospital room, shotgun in her hand. Comes right in my room. 'What's this?' the
doc asks her. 'Jailbreak,' she says. Throws me over one shoulder like a sack of
cement, carries me down in the elevator, walks right out the front door. Puts
me in that red car. 'Burke needs us,' that's all she said." Nothing in the
rearview mirror. "She knew I
needed it too," the Prof said, hands on the scattergun. "He took
something from me. She was giving me a chance to get it back. Said you were
going to take out that motherfucker - our job was the cops." I dragged on the
cigarette, seeing the fireball. The Prof read my
thoughts. "Ain't nothing God or the devil put on this earth gonna catch
Belle, brother. She's coming home." I wheeled the Caddy
into the junkyard. The gate swung open. Terry jumped in, steered us through. "Belle?" I
asked him. "Not yet,"
the kid said, his mouth hard. The Mole was waiting.
"Where's Ramуn?" I asked him. He pointed at the
wolf pack. Fighting over what was left. I lit a smoke.
Carried the Prof out of the Caddy, put him on top of an oil drum. I stood with
my people. "Mortay's
dead." "You make
sure?" the Prof asked. "They'll need a
microscope for the autopsy. It's over. You blow the basement?" I asked the
Mole. "You didn't hear
it?" Terry said. "No." "It'll be on the
news," the Mole said. I looked at the Prof.
"She was well away. They weren't looking for her. Why didn't she just
run?" His eyes shone in the
fire. "Why didn't you?" I couldn't answer
him. Fists clenched so tight my arms ached. The little man
dragged on his smoke. "Her dice, brother. Hers to hold, hers to
roll." Tortured rubber
screamed on concrete. "Belle. The back
way!" the kid shouted, taking off. We ran to the fence. The Camaro shot
through, skidding past us. It stopped where the Prof was sitting. Belle didn't
get out. I ran back to her.
Bullet holes stitched the driver's door. I wrenched it open. Belle fell into my
arms. The Mole reached past me, unsnapped the seat belt. I carried her to the
bunker. "Don't talk," I said, lowering her to the ground. Her gray sweatshirt
was one big dark stain. The Mole cut it away. She was torn to pieces, the blue
necklace around her neck. "Get the medical kit," he said to Terry. I bent close to her.
"Hold on, Belle. You'll be okay in just a minute." Her eyes were closed.
They flicked open. "Burke?" "You're home
now, Belle. It's all right." Her voice was soft.
"My race is run, honey. I'm done." "Shut up! Save
your strength." "Tell me." "I love you,
Belle." "I'll be waiting
for you," she said. Her eyes closed. The Mole shouldered me out of the
way, plunged a needle into her chest, his fingers at her neck. I was on my
knees, watching him work, begging in my mind. He turned to me.
"She's gone." They left me alone
with her then. I couldn't hold it in
me - screaming curses at the night. The dogs went quiet. I lay down next to
her, wrapping her in my arms. Tears on blood. The sky was getting
light when they came back. The Mole. Terry. The Prof, riding a wheelchair. I stood next to the
little man, my hand on his shoulder. Felt his hand on mine. "Pull it together,
brother. The way she'd want it. She's with the Lord now. And He's one lucky son
of a bitch." The Mole covered her
with a prayer rug. I gripped my
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