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VOICES FROM THE DUST
By Joan D. Vinge
Scanned & Proofed By MadMaxAU

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4:30. 4:30 in the morning. 4:30 and fifteen Martian sec-ondsтАжPetra Greenfeld picked
up the wood-grained elec-tric clock and shook it. Hurry up! Hurry up ... or else
stop. She set it down on the desk again, too hard in the low gravity, and rubbed her
eyes. To think IтАЩve been up all night, and there isnтАЩt even a man in my room. I
really must be crazy. She laughed, weakly. How can I be crazy and have a sense of
the absurd?

But then why was she sitting here, if she wasnтАЩt crazy? Why had she been
sitting here all night, like someone con-demned, waiting for the dawn? Why wasnтАЩt
she asleep in her bed like any normal human beingтАФ? She swiveled her chair to look
at the rumpled sleeping bag on the cot. Because when she slept the pull was
stronger, it pried open her dreams and painted the walls of her mind with the red
walls of the Valley, and led her, again and again, to an unknown destination. . . .

тАЬOh, stop it.тАЭ She shut her eyes, and turned back to the desk. She wasnтАЩt
obsessed; she was just upset. Why shouldnтАЩt she be upsetтАФthat damned Mitradati!
Her fist tightened on the graffiti-covered blotter. That egotistical tin god. So he was
sending her back to тАЬcivilizationтАЭ today, was he? So her poor, frail little mind needed
a rest, did it? Just wait until she got back to Little Earth and made her complaint.
TheyтАЩd let her conduct her investigation without interference, theyтАЩd see that her
judgments werenтАЩt irrational. And that narrow-minded apeman could go suck an
eggтАжBetter yet, why couldnтАЩt she take one of the buggies, and go to the place first?
SheтАЩd find her proof, she knew where to look, exactly whereтАФ

She got up from her chair, shaking her head, and began to move restlessly
around the small room. Think about some-thing else, anything elseтАжMy God, am I
really losing my mind? This isnтАЩt normal. Maybe it would be best to get away from
here, for a while; from Mitradati, fromтАФthe artifact. She hadnтАЩt been up to the pole
in weeks, hadnтАЩt seen a movie, or had a decent dinner, or called Fred. And stuck
here with this bakerтАЩs half-dozen of impossibleтАФNo. She couldnтАЩt really blame
them. Who had been more impossible than she had, these past two weeks?

She looked over at ElkeтАЩs unused bed, under the curve where the ceiling
became the outer wall. Elke had been sleeping with Sergei lately, and she suspected it
was as much from uneasiness about her as it was from passion. At least Elke was
sympathetic, and supportiveтАжbut Elke was a meteorologist, not a geologist, and
what did she know? And Sergei, with his damned Russian obsession about
parapsy-chology; making the whole idea sound like something out of a Grade Z
science fiction movie. She was glad he had Elke to distract him, before his endless
prying curiosity made her do something she would regret.

She saw the cigarettes and lighter Elke had left on the stool by her cot. She
picked up the pack mindlessly, took out a cigarette, lit it, inhaledтАФand, coughing
disgustedly, ground it out with her slipper on the cold metal floor. At least I havenтАЩt