"Don Webb - The Shiny Surface" - читать интересную книгу автора (Webb Don)

what was coining. Johnny had a little band, the Transformers, and they
would play тАЬPledging My LoveтАЭ as a theme. They went nowhere. But I went
to every gig despite MomтАЩs threats. тАЬPledging My LoveтАЭ. It was for me, you
see. This faggot talent scout told Johnny that he could make him a star, but
all he really did was make him. So Johnny followed his idol and blew his
brains out. I was a little crazy for a while.тАЩ

тАШYou want a hug?тАЩ

тАШNo, I just want to think. You try and get some sleep.тАЩ But I lay there
watching her at the window till the alarm went off at seven thirty.

Being a creature of hope, I tried the mirror a few more times. But
Johnny had taken my place. I saw him in the braveness of MonicaтАЩs smile,
in the depths of her hazel eyes, in the way she held herself when she was
quiet.

The years pass and I see no reason to break up our comfortable
fictions. Janet watches me and lives on hope thinner than Himalayan air. I
donтАЩt know how to fall in love or IтАЩd fall in love with Janet. But my love for
Monica remains; although it has grown into a sort of ache. Who can
compete with a ghost as a lover? With a memory that can only grow more
perfect with the passing of time?

I read that toward the end of Dr RandolphтАЩs life he was in a railway
accident. His health grew bad and he suffered great pain. He resigned
himself to death, yet he met a young woman whose love for him
transformed him. With the young woman he had happiness and a son
Osiris Budh Randolph. Maybe I will know such love.

I have smashed the mirror into a thousand thousand fragments.

****