"Phyllis A. Whitney - Thunder Heights" - читать интересную книгу автора (Whitney Phyllis A)

Ordinarily she loved wind and storm. But how bleak and discouraging everything could look on a gray day in New York. The sky was as gray as the streets and as overcast as her life seemed at this moment.
Behind her in the little room Nettie sniffed tearfully as she packed the top tray of Camilla's trunk. This was a labor of love for Nettie. A departing governess had no business using up the parlormaid's time. But the Hodges had gone out and there was no one about to complain.
"You'll find a better place than this,
Miss Camilla," Nettie said, wiping away tears with the back of her hand. "You being so pretty and clever and all."
Camilla smiled wryly without turning. "And with such a fine outspoken way about me that it has lost me the second position in a row ?"
"A good thing, too,'5 Nettie muttered. "With himself so high and mighty that - "
"It was the children I was thinking of," Camilla broke in. "They're darlings and I had to speak up against his harshness. But Mr. Hodges said I was too easy with them and perhaps he should employ an older woman for governess."
"You're twenty-three and that's a great age!" Nettie protested. "At twenty-three I'd been married to my torn for five years and had two babes of my own. That's the bad thing, Miss Camilla - you being so alone."
Camilla had visited Nettie's home and had seen - and envied a little - the joyous welter of family life in which Nettie thrived. She had never known such a life, but she could still remember the warm affection and gaiety of those years before she was eight, the years before her mother's death. At
times, when the moment was right, her mother's image still returned to her mind full and clear and vital. Then she could remember the way Althea King had moved, light and lovely as a dancer, her dark head carried with such proud grace. She could recall the very line of her thick black hair coming to the point of a widow's peak at her forehead. Wherever Althea King was, there excitement had burgeoned. The strangeness of her death had wiped out so much. And now it grew increasingly difficult for Camilla to bring that bright image back to mind.
For the years that John King, her father, had been married to Althea, he had come out of his books and his scholar's reverie a little, and had known a quiet joy in her company. But after her mother had died in that faraway place up the Hudson, he had lost himself more that ever in his writings, his study, his teaching.
A housekeeper had been brought in to take charge of their small home and of Camilla. Mrs. Gregg was an efficient woman, but she had little feeling for children. Camilla had not cared. She had lived a free enough existence, if a lonely
one. Her father had seen to her education, and lessons with him had always been a
joy.
Camilla remembered him with love and tenderness. Never had she seen a man more handsome, with his poet's brow, his fine dark eyes, and the sensitive modeling of his mouth. When she thought of him now, she pictured him most often in the little room he had used for a study, with his head bent over his books. He had cared for his daughter. Indeed, he had loved her doubly, loving her mother through her. Camilla had been bitterly stricken when he had died four years ago.
The way of her growing up had given her a practical side - someone had to use good sense with a dreamer like her father. And certainly it had given her independence. But there was something of her father in her too, for there were times when her own dreamy, imaginative side took over and made her do strange things.
Now, however, she must accept only the practical in herself, so she laughed at Nettie's lugubrious words and steeled her will against despair. On a gray day like this, when she had just lost a position she needed
badly - and lost it because of her very independence - despair seemed ready to seize her if she let down her guard for a moment.
"Never you mind," Nettie said, thrusting back her tears in order to cheer Camilla. "You're the marrying kind, you know. It's a good husband you need, Miss Camilla, and babes of your own.55
Again Camilla smiled and did not answer. Sometimes she lingered all too readily over such thoughts, it was true. Pleasant enough dreams in the daytime, but sometimes disturbingly painful during the long hours of the night. Arms were not meant alone for holding tenderly, as one held a child. There was a demand in her for something more gladdening and all-absorbing than seemed to be the lot of the women in whose homes she worked as a governess.
From the window she saw that the hackney cab she had noticed earlier had circled the enclosure of the park twice, as if its fare were not sure of the house he looked for. Now it stopped before the Hodges' door and a man got out, holding his hat against a sudden gust of wind.
"Someone's coming up the steps, Nettie,"
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Camilla said over her shoulder. "There's the bell - you'd better run. And thank you for helping me pack."
Nettie hurried for the stairs and Camilla stood on at the window, trying not to droop with dejection. Tomorrow., she supposed, she would be courageous again, but for the moment it was a temptation to match her spirits to the gray, unsettled afternoon and wonder where she was to turn next, whether she could ever find a position that would give her a lasting home. Or if that was what she really wanted.
If she was pretty, as Nettie said, it was of no special advantage. What good did prettiness do when it brought too easy an interest from men who could never matter to her ? At the place before this, the man of the house had been altogether too kind, and had wanted to be kinder. Camilla had spoken her mind and left precipitately. It was unfair that such things should happen when she knew she had done her work well and taken pride in the doing.
Was she pretty ? she wondered absently. She put a hand to the dark, glossy waves of hair drawn loosely into a coil at the top of her head and puffed at the sides in the style
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of this last decade of the century. She knew her skin was as fair in contrast to her black hair as her mother's had been, and that the same pointed widow's peak marked her forehead. Her pink-striped shirtwaist with its bow at the high collar, and her gored gray skirt, flowing into a small train, fitted a well-proportioned figure. And she supposed that wide brown eyes, heavy-lashed, were a good feature. But prettiness - how did one know about oneself ? And what did it matter anyway? A governess lived an almost cloistered life, with little opportunity to know other young people - especially young men her own age.
She turned from the window and looked at her trunk, ready now to be closed and locked, and at the cheap straw suitcase that stood beside it.
"I'm tired to pieces of this life!" she told them aloud. "I want something better than this!" She would find something better, too. She was not helpless or fearful, as a rule. And she was not without the ingenuity to make something more of her life.
There were her relatives, for one thing those wealthy, unknown relatives up the
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Hudson River. She had more family than Nettie guessed, though she never heard from them, or even thought seriously of getting in touch with them. Not after the way her grandfather had treated her mother, or in the face of her father's bitter hatred of him.
John King, in his gentleness, had seldom disliked anyone. But Camilla knew that he blamed Orrin Judd for her mother's death and never forgave him. Exactly what her grandfather's fault had been she did not know, but her father's insistence that she must have nothing to do with her mother's family had made a lasting impression over the years.
Nevertheless, there they were - Orrin Judd and his daughters, in that great house up the Hudson called Thunder Heights. Her mother had told her endless stories about the place as she had known it as a child. Perhaps the day would eventually come when Camilla could face these relatives, if for no other reason than to learn more about her mother. But she would not go as a beggar. Never that!
She heard Nettie breathing heavily as she climbed the stairs, and a moment later the
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maid was at the door, her eyes wide with excitement.
"It's a caller!" she cried. "A caller for you, Miss Camilla. A dignified gentleman, he seems - and asking for Miss Camilla King. I've put him in the front parlor. Maybe he's come to offer you a new position. Quick now - run down and see what he wants."
Camilla did not run, but she could not help a faint rising of curiosity. No one knew as yet of her need for a new position. Perhaps it was some friend of her father though she had not imposed her troubles on them.
At the parlor door she paused so that she might enter without unseemly haste. The gentleman sat in a shadowy corner where she could not see him clearly at first. He rose and came toward her - a man in his fifties, bald except for a gray fringe of hair rimming the back of his head, and ending in two clumps above each ear. His skin had the pink, soft look of a baby's, but his eyes were a cool, wary gray. His straight, tight mouth barely smiled as he studied her. There was no approval in him.
"You are Miss Camilla King ?" he asked
directly. "My name is Pompton. Alexander Pompton. The name will mean nothing to you, I am sure. But I have come to ask a favor of you."
She gestured to the sofa and sat down opposite, curious and waiting.
"You are a governess here, I believe," he said. "Are you happy in this work? Are your ties in this household very strong ?"
The soreness of her last interview with Mr. Hodges was too recent for caution.
"I have no ties here at all,5' she said quickly. "Or anywhere else, for that matter. I was dismissed from my position this morning."