I was sure to acquire it when we were alone, and this preserved the
equilibrium so necessary in friendship. If he hesitated in repeating
his task, I prompted him; when my exercises were finished, I helped to
write his; and, in our amusements, my disposition being most active,
ever had the lead. In a word, our characters accorded so well, and the
friendship that subsisted between us was so cordial, that during the
five years we were at Bossey and Geneva we were inseparable: we
often fought, it is true, but there never was any occasion to separate
us. No one of our quarrels lasted more than a quarter of an hour,
and never in our lives did we make any complaint of each other. It may
be said, these remarks are frivolous; but, perhaps, a similar
example among children can hardly be produced.
The manner in which I passed my time at Bossey was so agreeable to
my disposition, that it only required a longer duration absolutely
to have fixed my character, which would have had only peaceable,
affectionate, benevolent sentiments for its basis. I believe no
individual of our kind ever possessed less natural vanity than myself.
At intervals, by an extraordinary effort, I arrived at sublime
ideas, but presently sunk again into my original languor. To be
beloved by every one who knew me was my most ardent wish. I was
naturally mild, my cousin was equally so, and those who had the care
of us were of similar dispositions. Everything contributed to
strengthen those propensities which nature had implanted in my breast,
and during the two years I was neither the victim nor witness of any
violent emotions.
I knew nothing so delightful as to see every one content; not only
with me, but all that concerned them. When repeating our catechism
at church, nothing could give me greater vexation, on being obliged to
hesitate, than to see Miss Lambercier's countenance express
disapprobation and uneasiness. This alone was more afflicting to me
than the shame of faltering before so many witnesses, which,
notwithstanding, was sufficiently painful; for though not
over-solicitous of praise, I was feelingly alive to shame; yet I can
truly affirm, the dread of being reprimanded by Miss Lambercier
alarmed me less than the thought of making her uneasy.
Neither she nor her brother were deficient in a reasonable severity,
but as this was scarce ever exerted without just cause, I was more
afflicted at their disapprobation than the punishment. Certainly the
method of treating youth would be altered if the distant effects, this
indiscriminate, and frequently indiscreet method produces, were more
conspicuous. I would willingly excuse myself from a further
explanation, did not the lesson this example conveys (which points out
an evil as frequent as it is pernicious) forbid my silence.
As Miss Lambercier felt a mother's affection, she sometimes
exerted a mother's authority, even to inflicting on us, when we
deserved it, the punishment of infants. She had often threatened it,
and this threat of a treatment entirely new, appeared to me
extremely dreadful; but I found the reality much less terrible than
the idea, and what is still more unaccountable, this punishment
increased my affection for the person who had inflicted it. All this
