"The Schopenhauer Cure" - читать интересную книгу автора (Ялом Ирвин)The Schopenhauer Cure A Novel Irvin D. Yalom To my community of older buddies who grace me with their friendship, share life`s inexorable diminishments and losses, and continue to sustain me with their wisdom and dedication to the life of the mind: Robert Berger, Murray Bilmes, Martel Bryant, Dagfinn Føllesdahl, Joseph Frank, Van Harvey, Julius Kaplan, Herbert Kotz, Morton Lieberman, Walter Sokel, Saul Spiro, and Larry Zaroff. 31How Arthur Lived _________________________ Even when there is no particular provocation, I always have an anxious concern that causes me to see and look for dangers when none exist; for me it magnifies to infinity the tiniest vexation and makes association with people most difficult. _________________________ After obtaining his doctorate, Arthur lived in Berlin, briefly in Dresden, Munich, and Mannheim, and then, fleeing a cholera epidemic, settled, for the last thirty years of his life, in Frankfurt, which he never left aside from one–day excursions. He had no paid employment, lived in rented rooms, never had a home, hearth, wife, family, intimate friendships. He had no social circle, no close acquaintances, and no sense of community—in fact he was often the subject of local ridicule. Until the very last few years of his life he had no audience, readership, or income from his writings. Since he had so few relationships, his meager correspondence consisted primarily of business matters. Despite his lack of friends, we nonetheless know more about his personal life than that of most philosophers because he was astonishingly personal in his philosophical writings. For example, in the opening paragraphs of the introduction to his major work,The World as Will and Representation, he strikes an unusually personal note for a philosophic treatise. His pure and clear prose makes it immediately evident that he desires to communicate personally with the reader. First he instructs the reader how to read his book, starting with a plea to read the book twice—and to do so with much patience. Next he urges the reader to first read his previous book,On the Fourfold Root of Sufficient Reason, which serves as an introduction to this book and assures the reader that he will feel much gratitude toward him for his advice. He then states that the reader will profit even more if he is familiar with the magnificent work of Kant and the divine Plato. He notes that he has, however, discovered grave errors in Kant, which he discusses in an appendix (which should also be read first), and lastly notes that those readers familiar with the Upanishads will be prepared best of all to comprehend his book. And, finally, he remarks (quite correctly) that the reader must be growing angry and impatient with his presumptuous, immodest, and time–consuming requests. How odd that this most personal of philosophic writers should have lived so impersonally. In addition to personal references inserted into his work, Schopenhauer reveals much about himself in an autobiographical document with a title written in Greek, (About Myself), a manuscript shrouded in mystery and controversy whose strange story goes like this: Late in his life there gathered around Arthur a very small circle of enthusiasts, or «evangelists,” whom he tolerated but neither respected nor liked. These acquaintances often heard him speak of «About Myself,” an autobiographical journal in which he had been jotting observations about himself for the previous thirty years. Yet after his death something strange happened: «About Myself» was nowhere to be found. After searching in vain, Schopenhauer`s followers confronted Wilhelm Gwinner, the executor of Schopenhauer`s will, about the missing document. Gwinner informed them that «About Myself» no longer existed; as Schopenhauer had instructed him he had burned it immediately after his death. Yet a short time later the same Wilhelm Gwinner wrote the first biography of Arthur Schopenhauer, and in it Schopenhauer`s evangelists insisted they recognized sections of the «About Myself» document either in direct quotes or in paraphrase. Had Gwinner copied the manuscript before burning it? Or not burned it all and instead plundered it for use in his biography? Controversy swirled for decades, and ultimately another Schopenhauer scholar reconstituted the document from Gwinner`s book and from other of Schopenhauer`s writings and published the forty–seven–page at the end of the four–volumeNachschlass (Manuscript Remains). «About Me» is an odd reading experience because each paragraph is followed by a description of its Byzantine provenance, often longer than the text itself. Why was it that Arthur Schopenhauer never had a job? The story of Arthur`s kamikaze strategy for obtaining a position at the university is another one of those quirky anecdotes included in every biographical account of Schopenhauer`s life. In 1820, at the age of thirty–two, he was offered his first teaching job, a temporary, very low–salaried position (Privatdozent) to teach philosophy at the University of Berlin. What did he do but immediately and deliberately schedule his lecture course (titled «The Essence of the World») at the exact same hour as the course offered by Georg Wilhelm Hegel, the departmental chairman and the most renowned philosopher of the day? Two hundred eager students crammed into Hegel`s course, whereas only five came to hear Schopenhauer describe himself as an avenger who had come to liberate post–Kantian philosophy from the empty paradoxes and the corrupting and obscure language of contemporary philosophy. It was no secret that Schopenhauer`s target was Hegel and Hegel`s predecessor, Fichte (remember, the philosopher who had begun life as a gooseherd and walked across all of Europe in order to meet Kant). Obviously, none of this endeared the young Schopenhauer to Hegel or to the other faculty members, and when no students at all materialized for Schopenhauer`s course the following semester his brief and reckless academic career was over: he never again gave a public lecture. In his thirty years at Frankfurt until his death in 1860, Schopenhauer adhered to a regular daily schedule, almost as precise as Kant`s daily routine. His day began with three hours of writing followed by a hour, sometimes two, of playing the flute. He swam daily in the cold Main River, rarely missing a day even in the midst of winter. He always lunched at the same club, the Englisher Hof, dressed in tails and white tie, a costume that was high fashion in his youth but conspicuously out of style in mid–nineteenth century Frankfurt. It was to his luncheon club that any curious person wanting to meet the odd and querulous philosopher would go. Anecdotes about Schopenhauer at the Englisher Hof abound: his enormous appetite, often consuming food for two (when someone remarked upon this, he replied that he also thought for two), his paying for two lunches to ensure no one sat next to him, his gruff but penetrating conversation, his frequent outbursts of temper, his blacklist of individuals to whom he refused to speak, his tendency to discuss inappropriate shocking topics—for example, praising the new scientific discovery that allowed him to avoid venereal infection by dipping his penis after intercourse into a dilute solution of bleaching powder. Though he enjoyed serious conversation, he rarely found dining companions he deemed worthy of his time. For some time, he regularly placed a gold piece on the table when he sat down and removed it when he left. One of the military officers that usually lunched at the same table once asked him about the purpose of this exercise. Schopenhauer replied that he would donate the gold piece for the poor the day that he heard officers have a serious conversation that did not entirely revolve around their horses, dogs, or women. During his meal he would address his poodle, Atman, as «You, Sir,” and if Atman misbehaved he redressed him by calling him «You Human!» Many anecdotes of his sharp wit are told. Once a diner asked him a question to which he simply responded, «I don`t know.» The young man commented, «Well, well, I thought you, a great sage, knew everything!» Schopenhauer replied, «No, knowledge is limited, only stupidity is unlimited!» A query to Schopenhauer from or about women or marriage elicited without fail an acerbic response. He was once forced to endure the company of a very talkative woman, who described in detail the misery of her marriage. He listened patiently, but when she asked if he understood her, he replied, «No, but I do understand your husband.» In another reported exchange he was asked if he would marry. «I have no intention to get married because it would only cause me worries.» «And why would that would be the case?» «I would be jealous, because my wife would cheat on me.» «Why are you so sure of that?» «Because I would deserve it.» «Why is that?» «Because I would have married.» He also had sharp words to say about physicians, once remarking that doctors have two different handwritings: a barely legible one for prescriptions and a clear and proper one for their bills. A writer who visited the fifty–eight–year–old Schopenhauer at lunch in 1846 described him thus: Well built...invariably well dressed but an outmoded cut...medium height with short silvery hair...amused and exceedingly intelligent blue–flecked eyes...displayed an introverted and, when he spoke, almost baroque nature, whereby he daily supplied considerable material to the cheap satire of...the table company. Thus, this often comically disgruntled, but in fact harmless and good–naturedly gruff, table companion became the butt of the jokes of insignificant men who would regularly—though admittedly not ill–meaningly—make fun of him. After lunch Schopenhauer habitually took a long walk, often carrying on an audible monologue or a conversation with his dog which elicited jeers from children. He spent evenings reading alone in his rooms, never receiving visitors. There is no evidence of romantic relationships during his years in Frankfurt, and in 1831, at the age of forty–three, he wrote in «About Me,” «The risk of living without work on a small income can be undertaken only in celibacy.» He never saw his mother after their break when he was thirty–one, but twelve years later, in 1813, they began to exchange a few business–related letters until her death in 1835. Once when he was ill, his mother wrote a rare personal comment: «Two months in your room without seeing a single person, that is not good, my son, and saddens me. A man cannot and should not isolate himself in that manner.» Occasional letters passed back and forth between Arthur and his sister, Adele, in which she again and again tried to move closer to her brother, all the while offering reassurances that she would never make demands on him. But he repeatedly backed away. Adele, who never married, lived in great despair. When he told her of moving from Berlin to escape cholera, she wrote back that she would have welcomed getting the cholera which would have put an end to her misery. But Arthur pulled away even farther, absolutely refusing to be drawn into her life and her depression. After Arthur left home, they saw each other only once, in 1840, in a brief and unsatisfactory meeting, and Adele died nine years later. Money was a continual source of concern throughout Schopenhauer`s life. His mother left her small estate to Adele, and Adele died with virtually no remaining estate. He tried, in vain, to get a job as a translator, and until the very last years of his life his books neither sold nor were reviewed by the press. In short, Arthur lived without any of the comforts or rewards that his culture held so necessary to equilibrium, even to survival. How did he do it? What price did he pay? These, as we shall see, were the secrets he confided to «About Me.» |
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