"Frank Herbert - Soul Catcher" - читать интересную книгу автора (Herbert Brian & Frank) ' ... the fish eyes like gray skimmed milk that stare at you out of things which are alive
when they shouldn't be.' This is the observation of someone who is capable of great things, as great as any achievements in our Western mythology. It had begun when his name still was Charles Hobuhet, a good Indian name for a Good Indian. The bee had alighted, after all, on the back of Charles Hobulet's left hand. There had been no one named Katsuk then. He had been reaching up to grasp a vine maple limb, climbing from a creek bottom in the stillness of midday. The bee was black and gold, a bee from the forest, a bumblebee of the family Apidae. It's name fled buzzing through his mind, a memory from days in the white school. Somewhere above him, a ridge came down toward the Pacific out of the Olympic Mountains like the gnarled root of an ancient spruce clutching the earth for support. The sun would be warm up there, but winter's chill in the creek bottom slid its icy way down the watercourse from the mountains to these spring-burgeoning foothills. Cold came with the bee, too. It was a special cold that put ice in the soul. Still Charles Hobuhet's soul then. But he had performed the ancient ritual with twigs and string and bits of bone. The ice from the bee told him he must take a name. Unless he took a name immediately, he stood in peril of losing both souls, the soul in his body and the soul that went high or low with his true being. The stillness of the bee on his hand made this obvious. He sensed urgent ghosts: people, animals, birds, all with him in this bee. He whispered: 'Alkuntam, help me.' The supreme god of his people made no reply. beneath it splayed out fronds. Condensation fell like rain on the damp earth. He forced himself to turn away, stared across the creek at a stand of alders bleached white against heavy green of cedar and fir on the stream's far slope. A quaking aspen, its leaves adither among the alders, dazzled his awareness, pulled his mind. He felt abruptly that he had found another self which must be reasoned with, influenced, and understood. He lost clarity of mind and sensed both selves straining toward some pure essence. All sense of self slipped from his body, searched outward into the dazzling aspen. He thought: I am in the center of the universe! Bee spoke to him then: 'I am Tamanawis speaking, to you ... ' The words boomed in his awareness, telling him his name. He spoke it aloud: 'Katsuk! I am Katsuk.' Katsuk. It was a seminal name, one with potency. Now, being Katsuk, he knew all its meanings. He was Ka-, the prefix for everything human. He was Katsuk, the bird of myth. A human bird! He possessed roots in many meanings: bones, the color blue, a serving dish, smoke ... brother and soul. Once more, he said it: 'I am Katsuk.' Both selves flowed home to the body. He stared at the miraculous bee on his hand. A bee had been the farthest thing from his expectations. He had been climbing, just climbing. If there were thoughts in his mind, they were thoughts of his ordeal. It was the ordeal he had set for himself out of grief, out of the intellectual delight in walking through ancient ideas, out of the fear that he had lost his way in the white world. His native soul had rotted |
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