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No Woman Born

She had been the loveliest creature whose image ever moved along the airways. John Harris, who was once her manager, remembered dog. gedly how beautiful she had been as he rose in the silent elevator toward the room where Deirdre sat waiting for him.
Since the theater fire that had destroyed her a year ago, he had never been quite able to let himself remember her beauty clearly, except when some old poster, half in tatters, flaunted her face at him, or a maudlin memorial program flashed her image unexpectedly across the television screen. But now he had to remember.
The elevator came to a sighing stop and the door slid open. John Harris hesitated. He knew in his mind that he had to go on, but his reluctant muscles almost refused him. He was thinking helplessly, as he had not allowed himself to think until this moment, of the fabulous grace that had poured through her wonderful daticerТs body, remembering her soft and husky voice with the little burr in it that had fascinated the audiences of the whole world.
There had never been anyone so beautiful.
In times before her, other actresses had been lovely and adulated, but never before DeirdreТs day had the entire world been able to take one woman so wholly to its heart. So few outside the capitals had ever seen Bernhardt or the fabulous Jersey Lily. And the beauties of the movie screen had had to limit their audiences to those who could reach the theaters. But DeirdreТs image had once moved glowingly across the television screens of every home in the civilized world. And in many outside the bounds of civilization. Her soft, husky songs had sounded in the depths of jungles, her lovely, languorous body had woven its patterns of rhythm in desert tents and polar huts. The whole world knew every smooth motion of her body and every cadence of her voice, and the way a subtle radiance had seemed to go on behind her features when she smiled.
And the whole world had mourned her when she died in the theater fire.
Harris could not quite think of her as other than dead, though he knew what sat waiting him in the room ahead. He kept remembering the old words James Stephens wrote long ago for another Deirdre, also lovely and beloved and unforgotten after two thousand years.


The time comes when our hearts sink utterly,
When we remember Deirdre and her tale,
And that her lips are dust. -
There has been again no woman born
Who was so beautiful; not one so beautiful
Of all the women bornЧ That wasnТt quite true, of courseЧthere had been one. Or maybe,
after all, this Deirdre who died only a year ago had not been beautiful in the sense of perfection. He thought the other one might not have been either, for there are always women with perfection of feature in the world, and they are not the ones that legend remembers. It was the light within, shining through her charming, imperfect features, that had made this DeirdreТs face so lovely. No one else he had ever seen had anything like the magic of the lost Deirdre.


Let all men go apart and mourn togetherЧ No man can ever love her. Not a man
Can dream to be her lover. . . . No man sayЧ What could one say to her? There are no words
That one could say to her.


No, no words at all. And it was going to be impossible to go through with this. Harris knew it overwhelmingly just as his finger touched the buzzer. But the door opened almost instantly, and then it was too late.
Maltzer stood just inside, peering out through his heavy spectacles. You could see how tensely he had been waiting. Harris was a little shocked to see that the man was trembling. It was hard to think of the confident and imperturbable Maltzer, whom he had known briefly a year ago, as shaken like this. He wondered if Deirdre herself were as tremulous with sheer nervesЧbut it was not time yet to let himself think of that.
УCome in, come in,Ф Maltzer said irritably. There was no reason for irritation. The yearТs work, so much of it in secrecy and solitude, must have tried him physically and mentally to the very breaking point.
УShe all right?Ф Harris asked inanely, stepping inside.
УOh yes - . . yes, sheТs all right.Ф Maltzer bit his thumbnail and glanced over his shoulder at an inner door, where Harris guessed she would be waiting.
УNo,Ф Maltzer said, as he took an involuntary step toward it. УWeТd better have a talk first. Come over and sit down. Drink?Ф
Harris nodded, and watched MaltzerТs hands tremble as he tilted the decanter. The man was clearly on the very verge of collapse, and Harris felt a sudden cold uncertainty open up in him in the one place where until now he had been oddly confident.
УShe is all right?Ф he demanded, taking the glass.
УOh yes, sheТs perfect. SheТs so confident it scares me.Ф Maltzer gulped his drink and poured another before he sat down.
УWhatТs wrong, then?Ф
УNothing, I guess. Or . . . well, I donТt know. IТm not sure any more. IТve worked toward this meeting for nearly a year, but nowЧ well, IТm not sure itТs time yet. IТm just not sure.Ф
He stared at Harris, his eyes large and indistinguishable behind the lenses. He was a thin, wire-taut man with all the bone and sinew showing plainly beneath the dark skin of his face. Thinner, now, than he had been a year ago when Harris saw him last.
УIТve been too close to her,Ф he said now. УI have no perspective any more. All I can see is my own work. And IТm just not sure thatТs ready yet for you or anyone to see.Ф
УShe thinks so?Ф
УI never saw a woman so confident.Ф Maltzer drank, the glass clicking on his teeth. He looked up suddenly through the distorting lenses. УOf course a failure now would meanЧwell, absolute collapse,Ф he said.
Harris nodded. He was thinking of the year of incredibly painstaking work that lay behind this meeting, the immense fund of knowledge, of infinite patience, the secret collaboration of artists, sculptors, designers, scientists, and the genius of Maltzer governing them all as an orchestra conductor governs his players.
He was thinking too, with a certain unreasoning jealousy, of the strange, cold, passionless intimacy between Maltzer and Deirdre in that year, a closer intimacy than any two humans can ever have shared before. In a sense the Deirdre whom he saw in a few minutes
would be Maltzer, just as he thought he detected in Maltzer now and then small mannerisms of inflection and motion that had been DeirdreТs own. There had been between them a sort of unimaginable marriage stranger than anything that could ever have taken place before.
УЧso many complications,Ф Maltzer was saying in his worried voice with its faintest possible echo of DeirdreТs lovely, cadenced rhythm. (The sweet, soft huskiness he would never hear again.) УThere was shock, of course. Terrible shock. And a great fear of fire. We had to conquer that before we could take the first steps. But we did it. When you go in youТll probably find her sitting before the fire.Ф He caught the startled question in HarrisТ eyes and smiled. УNo, she canТt feel the warmth now, of course. But she likes to watch the flames. SheТs mastered any abnormal fear of them quite beautifully.Ф
УShe canЧФ Harris hesitated. УHer eyesightТs normal now?Ф
УPerfect,Ф Maltzer said. УPerfect vision was fairly simple to provide. After all, that sort of thing has already been worked out, in other connections. I might even say her visionТs a little better than perfect, from our own standpoint.Ф He shook his head irritably. УIТm not worried about the mechanics of the thing. Luckily they got to her before the brain was touched at all. Shock was the only danger to her sensory centers, and we took care of all that first of all, as soon as communication could be established. Even so, it needed great courage on her part. Great courage.Ф He was silent for a moment, staring into his empty glass.
УHarris,Ф he said suddenly, without looking up, Уhave I made a mistake? Should we have let her die?Ф
Harris shook his head helplessly. It was an unanswerable question. It had tormented the whole world for a year now. There had been hundreds of answers and thousands of words written on the subject. Has anyone the right to preserve a brain alive when its body is destroyed? Even if a new body can be provided, necessarily so very unlike the old?
УItТs not that sheТsЧuglyЧnow,Ф Maltzer went on hurriedly, as if afraid of an answer. УMetal isnТt ugly. And Deirdre. . . well, youТll see. I tell you, I canТt see myself. I know the whole mechanism so well